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This is not actually a dream journal but more of an event log...
Last night i had a couple of dreams, after waking i would try to recall my dream and then fall back to sleep. Throughout my dreams i have been able to recall the previous dream clearly and tried to stay focused on them, to remember them when i wake.... but no luck with that. All that is left now is little bits of images and allot of blanks.

I remember in my "first" dream i was at a car show, racing track tipe of place. it was night time and there was allot of people. everybody enjoyed the cars and burning rubber but there was this one guy that seemed as if he was from "holywood"
He had short grey-ish hair but was not an aged man, i would guess maybe in his 30's or something. i can't really recall his face but i remember his blue eyes... they looked cold but with a re-asuring aura.. he was dressed in a suite.

then there is a blank...dont really remember what happened,
I remembered there was a woman making an anounsment and this man walking up to one of the drivers, pulling out a handgun and shooting the guy with no reason or hesitation. almost as if it was some kind of mission he had to complete. the driver droped dead, blood on the tar and this "hitman" guy walking into the crowd as if nothing happened. cant really recall if there was screaming or anything. this whole incedant i was viewing in 3rd person.

thats about all i can remember...

then i woke up and went back to sleep..... i woke up again, asuming i just had a dream with an image stuck in my mind...... i remember the colours, red, white, and black
ot looked like some sort of print on a cd cover or something. i remember the fugure in the picture but it's not clear at all. also i remember the word "Holy" or "heaven" or something like that, starting with an H. it created this feeling of awsomeness within me. something Great, think relating to music or musicians.

another dream i remember. i was at someones house, not sure who it was. they had a swimming pool and the weather was overcast. i usualy dont swim in "real life" but i was swimming. the water was cold but nice. i remember there was a little boy im my dream as well. guessing he was about 7 years old. he had dark brown hair and had long legs for his age, he looked to be very athletic.the whole dream seemed to be different shades of green. from the pool there was a sliding door leading into the house. all the "adults" was in the house doing their own thing. i also remember there was a potplant by the pool. it was quite a big pot with what looked to be a plant that was part of the fern family.

and thats about it.

the last one i remember slightly is going shopping with my mother....at what seemed to be a center where the chinise and japanese sell all kinds of things, from tuppawhere to shoes and clothing..... anything and everything. i remember trying on some sandels that had an awsome shape,the straps that goes over your foot were decorated with shells and it looked fabulous!! and fitted like a glove, was very comfy!! there was this high heal that was made from green leather that was very nice with shoe laces toe tie it. i really liked it but not the fact that it was heals. seeing this i showed it to my mother which sparked up a conversation about the boots we bought (Real life) with sharp tips..... i remember the colours cream, green, white, lime green, grey, peachy, and the paint on the shop walls, bagey colour. very plain

the alarm went off signaling me to get up, thats when i forgot most of the dreams...... *sigh

non dream dream lucid

I had 3 dreams that I remember last night.
I was with my friend Kaitlynne. We were at a movie theatre. I asked her," Wouldn't it be cool if they played Lord of the Rings here still?" and she said, "Yeah. Especially The Return of the King." then I said, "Cuz Aragorn looks better in that movie " Then she nodded. Then we went to a hotel with her mom. I went to the bathroom, though I don't really remember using the bathroom...lol. Then I got into my pajamas and turned on TV. Tom&Jerry was on so we watched it for a while. Then suddenly, Kaitlynne turned in to Tom and I was the girl cat. Jerry was there and I started smacking "Tom". Then I woke up.

Dream2: I was getting up for school and my mom said, "There's a 2 hour delay, go back to bed." So I did. Then I woke up.

Dream3!!(This was my favorite): I was at my grandma's house. There were a bunch of ferrets. All of them were tan and really big. Then I saw a really cute little black and white one. I picked him up and he started crying, literally! It was so sad. I hugged him and he talked to me! I don't remember what he said though. But, I took him to the litter box thing and he pooted. Lol. Then I had to leave my grandma's house and I wanted to take him with me. So he went home with me and he was really happy. Oh my gosh, I want a ferret now.

I'm skating down the interstate on roller blades. There were a few motorcycles that I was keeping up with until I came to an exit. I got off and I was trying to find my way around this place. I ended up going across of railroad tracks. I think I was just looking for a good spot to skate. I ended up going trough a crap load of huge rose bushes, and some guy on skates was also following me.

I saw my two brothers, and one of them let me hold their fishing pole, and I started fishing at this ditch, and immediately had a few hits. On the third cast, I pulled up as soon as I felt a tug and started reeling it in. A crowd showed up, and they were trying to critique my technique. My brother was thinking that maybe it could have been a junk fish. I continued reeling, and eventually I pulled out this crystal clear looking bass. One of the random dc's held it up for a second and said that was the first fish he ever saw caught in person. I tossed it back, and we hopped in the car.

We were all smoking and my brother said something about how we were going to get 5000 for something we did. We ended up going to some part of town that seemed familiar, but now that I think about it, I don't know where it was, maybe a dream?


sidenote: starting to wake up after each of my dreams now.

Ninja9578 was asking me my opinion on Alex's DJ. I told him that it started out being just a regular journal, and then it became a journey into ones subconsciousness. I was looking at the DJ on paper in my house, but I don't know where they were...maybe on the internet.

Good morning, everybody

Dream#1

I stood on an area that looked like a mix between a craftsman's workshop and a subway platform. Where the subway would be, there was a single car that looked like a mix between a roller coaster car and a coin-operated ride for little kids. The car may have been pink. A person was either fastened safely or held captive in the car. The person may have been a kid. I may have identified with the person somehow.

Dream #2

I was kneeling on the floor in the threshhold of a doorway. Across the threshhold from me knelt a young man, probably with longish, scraggly, blonde hair.

We were placing squares of carpet on the floor. The squares were about 35cm long and 18cm wide. The carpet was a slightly shaggy, greenish tan material.

We started cutting the carpet on some of the squares. I wondered why we were doing this. It was destroying the carpet, making it look terrible. But for some reason I thought the carpet might grow back, like grass.

I got a closer look at one square of carpet. The cuts revealed a series of squares that were made by comb-like tracings of lines, or like the lines made by a rake.

Dream #3

I sat in an office with "the head of my department," who was actually one of my boss' peers, R. The office was huge, but kind of dim and dingy, old-looking. The small desk was in a corner of the room, near the door. I sat behind the desk instead of it. R sat in front of the desk, probably with another person to his left.

R offered me some new responsibility in addition to my current job. I took it. I then started complaining about my boss, how it seems like he completely ignores me, even that he doesn't want me around. I told him of one time (not true in waking life) when my boss even told me, "Get out of my office. Leave me alone," as soon as I had opened the door.

I thought I had now seen my boss walk past the door. I thought I should be more careful with what I said. R was now gone. The other guy was trying to start up a conversation with me. But I saw an old co-worker of mine, JM, and I stood up to say hi to him.

We shhok hands in the hallway. We both laughed. He looked skinnier, tired, and red. His hair seemed to be thinning. There were a few people around him. I looked to my right, down the hallway. My boss stood with some other people as he played with his BlackBerry. I hoped that my boss would actually think better of me, now that he'd seen me speaking with JM.

Dream #4

I was in "my apartment," which was on the fifth floor of a building. My friend H called. She apparently lived in the same apartment building, on a lower floor. She said she heard the noise one of our mutual neighbors was making, and that she was going outside to look through the windows to see if she could see anything going on.

I decided to watch out my window to make sure she got outside and back inside alright. But I tried to do so discreetly. I saw her walk outside then across the street. I saw her cross back, then run up the road to the corner. She ran left, across the street, and around the corner. She looked panicked. I wondered what was wrong.

Now she was running back. But she was now a blonde girl in a red t-shirt and white baseball cap. She was at the front door, talking into an intercom system that looked like an old payphone. She was talking about something bad she had seen or someone following her. She was talking to a female roommate of hers.

13 JAN 2011

Nearing the apparent conclusion of a lengthy and dramatic dream, I find myself running through narrow streets and building sites in an attempt to reach 'safety'. I recognise this as a fear-based situation and gradually become lucid. Scaffolding poles begin to fall around me, and I instinctively cover my head with my arm, even as I am beginning to sense that I cannot actually be harmed.

As I consider my options, I realise that the first thing I should do is simply step out of the narrative; an option available to anyone, at any time, whether dreaming or awake (for only then can other options be clearly considered). And, sure enough, the moment I stop running everything around me becomes totally quiet and serene - eerily so, in fact.

Looking into the distance, I see a huge metallic monolith blocking my way. Then I focus on what's immediately around me (rubble, a digger truck, wasteland) and feel this to be one of the most solid and 'realistic' dream environments I've ever experienced. So much so, in fact, that the prospect of flying or manipulating objects seems as unlikely as it does in waking reality. As an experiment, therefore, I resort to verbal commands (which have worked in the past).... "Take me up there," I demand, looking at the giant monolith. But nothing happens.

Of course, there was no compelling reason to go onwards, since I had stepped outside of the narrative. Indeed, there was nowhere to go at all, nor anything to achieve, in the absence of a linear context of some kind. [In the absence of the ego?] And this realisation filled me with a profound sense of bliss and freedom. As I contemplated the matter further, I felt that I was being given a valuable insight into the subtle nature of the prison (the egoic auto-pilot) which keeps most people enslaved. And it really is 'subtle', at the end of the day... Freedom itself being nothing more than a shift in one's perspective.

Notes

In light of the above dream, I would like to refine my description of OILD. Specifically, I would like to introduce the concept of a get out of jail free card (or 'option') which exists permanently in one's back pocket, so to speak, regardless of whether one is awake or asleep. In other words, it's not merely that one has other options to consider, in any given situation (context based), but that one [always] has the option to 'play the card' and transcend the context altogether. Indeed, this is the first option that one should utilise when 'triggered' to do so by obstacles, conflicts or fear-based situations, etc.

Needless to say, it's not as easy as it sounds, because emotions, fear and ego tend to prevail. This is because we are totally identified with the 'narrative' of own waking lives and the resulting sense of identity. I suppose what I'm ultimately referring to here is detachment, clarity of mind, and the dissolution of the apparent self (if only temporarily)... Which is, of course, the goal of many spiritual traditions, which also happen to see "lucid dreaming" as an indication of one's progress.

"Use your perceived enemy to destroy your real enemy."

OILD - Because there's ALWAYS another option!

LUCID!!!!

13/01/2011

I dreamed that i was standing in front of a mirror but i didnt saw myself then i did a RC and i became lucid i stabilized my dreams and the first thing was that i summong snow! it worked but it was in a 'plant pot' but after that i tryed teleporting and i teleported to a map from garrysmod (<--its a game ) and then i dreamed that i was with other dreamers! other guys that where summoning things and flying :-\ but i was also flying so ^_^ Dont know more :p so thats bad D:

end.

12.01.2011

Odd meditation and healing facility (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Three dreams for today.

Third:

I arrived to a place, next to the beach were people was doing some weird meditation and healing. People were laying down on the ground and they were covered by water. After a while, they would loose consciousness due some weird gasses the water had. Then, the healing process started.

I though myself it was going to be a great place to Astral Project and I decided to sign up. After a while waiting, a guy told me to sign up and to get into a swimsuit. I started to search for a swimsuit in a bag, but I realized I already had one. I found some boxers inside my bag. One of them had music and hearts painted all around. I found a few dirty ones as well.

I laid down and the ground was wet. I asked the guy if this was a good Astral Projection aid. He told me it was not, that I only would archive blurry vision. I laid down again and tried to get comfortable, but there were some iron chairs on the way and I was not happy.

I had some sort of Christmas tree, but about one feet tall. I had to place that tree on my head, or at least it was what I thought. I asked a lady who was next to me. She told me I had to open the tree. I pushed a button and the tree inflated like a balloon. It said a noise something like, "wouldooooooo" I found some balloons by the tree and I had to remove them. After I while, I had a like a blue mat with holes. I was supposed to place those mats on me and they would soak up sun's energy and transfer it to my chakras.

I woke up.

Missed dream signs:
- The whole dream was odd.

12.01.2011

Something about role playing and cards. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Three dreams for today.

Second:

Something about roleplaying and cards.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown.

12.01.2011

Two level soccer game. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Three dreams for today.

First:

I was playing soccer with my wife and four or five other dream characters. I was having a lot of fun and enjoying the game. I was playing as a goalkeeper but I made a few runs as well.

We were playing on pavement and I noticed a huge pothole that was filled with water. We were playing like in a two level field, it was hard to explain.

There was a moment that I grabbed the ball and ran to the opponent's goal. There were no one trying to steal the ball from me, so I scored a goal.

Missed dream signs:
- The soccer field was weird.

got into a fight with my dead and beat the shit out of him absoultley dropped him. shot double leg hurt him on his back nd felt bad. I hoppedo on a dirtbike and rode to a pancake house were a few of my friends were eating pancakes i ordered some then left home real fast on my dirt bike, I ran inside the house and ran back out and hopped on a new type of vehicle it was like a white small atv that was rather confusing once i figure out how to work the things and then i drove to the pancake house and munched on some delicious pancakes drove home saw my dad and he said i hurt him i said how and he said i beat the shit out of him and i felt bad and apolazied

(Nap)
I met Mariah Carey in my dream. The song "Touch My Body" was in the backround. o.O! She was very, very nice. We talked alot and she made me laugh. [ Fragment ]
Dream #1, Nap
Our school is doing the Baby Think It Over program. (A baby simulator) and I chose the alternative assignment, in real life (the research paper, five pages!) But like in real life, in the dream I really, really wanted the baby, but it was too embarassing to carry around all day. Mrs. Smith showed us a a new "baby" she got and it was sooooo adorable. I fell in love with her. She was a white, little girl with big, brown eyes and a pink/white outfit. Her body was soooo small but cute. "Mrs. Smith, can I take home the baby, instead?" I asked as she said yes. "Yay! Can I have another copy of the permission slip, too since I lost it?" She said yes, but I knew she lost it because I turned it in, already! -__-
Then, we were schedueling the baby and I woke up.

After my body fell asleep I realized what was happening and tried to think back to memories and reenact them differently. I had trouble with my mind wandering so I couldn't stay on one event so I tried flying. This is the moment where I started waking back up. I lied still for a minute trying to fall back into the state but I eventually gave up and woke up.

I had a bunch of dreams last night, but I can hardly remember those. Well, here is 1 I remember.


(Non-Lucid)
I was at my grandma's house. I was sitting on her couch and I had some sort of candy bar. It had chocolate and caramel. (NOMNOM) I sat it on the couch and it melted. My grandma told me to clean it up so I started to wash my forehead(?!?!?!). Then she said thanks and I woke up....................

Oh, here is a fragment from a few days ago:
I was with some mystical cat-like creatures. That's it.

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1/11/11
Nonlucid
I was waking up in a hotel bed. I didn’t know where I was but I was still sleepy and maybe I just needed to wake up a bit. I noticed a woman was in the room with me but was not seen. I looked outside the wide balcony window and saw a large beach. The beach was unusually wide from the shore back to the hotel where I was. It was so wide I could not see the waves for the bump of the beach’s overall shape. I saw a tall tower on the beach that looked like a scaffold covered in black clothe. There was a horn blast from the area like an air horn. I focused on the area more and my vision zoomed to the area much closer. There was another horn blast and a silver fireworks stream shot up into the sky not too high. The firework did a circle in the sky and then fell to the ground, several fireworks circled or spiraled up into the air like this as I watched. I remember hoping no one was hit by the falling still sparkling fireworks but they always fell between people.