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The dream was in this massive area. In the distance was the JMU football stadium but we were not really at JMU. We were at the beach from what I remember. To the left of the beach, in the middle were dunes, and to the right was the forest. There were thousands of people walking towards the stadium. I was getting a birds eye view but also walking there myself. I'm on the beach. I bring up my phone and send a picture to someone showing them how far away I was. Eventually, I get there. The stadium looks medieval and people are dressed for this occasion.

I'm in this place sort of like the in lord of the rings with rolling grasslands and small hills with houses in them. There are people there and there's a castle of some sort. At some point this gladiator semi-god guy with a green outfit and red hair/beard came thundering out of the castle and was slaying some sort of monster but I don't remember what it looked like. Once he was done, he expected an award but there was this announcer overhead saying something like "okay someone get this guy some cheap beer" and the dude was disappointed. I ended up in my mom's house IRL in my sister's room. I was watching porn. My mom walks in and catches me which made me feel extremely embarassed. I'm frantically trying to close down windows and pop-ups but there's too many. I go try to take a shower but Eva is in there. There's a phone in the trash can underwater so I reach in through all the gunk and pull it out. I start to open the browser and she snatches it from my hand saying that it's hers. She takes a while to get out and then I'm in the bathroom but there's a shower head pointing towards the floor and one in the bathtub. Eventually I'm back in my other sister's room again looking at porn and again my mom walks in, and again I'm frantically trying to shut down the pop-ups.

Another part of the dream I was spectating this olympic event that was like extreme putt-putting. The event was held on this huge wooden ship. I climbed up the ropes to this hangout up top where there was a girl and an old man competing against each other. They would take turns hitting the ball down the ramp, up a lip and into the hole. I was constantly bouncing on these ropes watching them compete. Under us off the ship was a massive Christian ceremony going on. The old man asks if he can use the balls I'm holding in my hand. I have a red ball, green ball, and two blue ones. A few of them are actually cubes. I hand on to him and the girl says that's unfair because the colors were the same or something. I'm now noticing how high up we are and am trying to find a way down.

Dreams from last night, lucid part in bold color text



Thing before grocery store part but only vague memory.

Thing with friends K W and/or B L at grocery store. Thinking about what the animals had been through whose meat was being sold. K W or B L wanted to buy meat but I was not buying meat.

We were in Nana's living room. Cousin there. Going accross circle of people.

Multiple choice test. Something about looking at someone else's paper.

Underground scenario with people. Something about only a limited number of people getting out. One somewhat elderly person and an extremely elderly person wanted to get out. Something about helping people out of there.

Dragon Ball Z video game. I was like Goku. There were parts where the bottom half of the screen showed a text box where the text colors could be changed. Other colors costed more money or something like that.

Thing about weight lifting competition with R A. Squatting 315 for reps. R A out squatting me but I was attempting 350 and up to 405 but failing the reps.

Going down to my college weight room to do a workout. I didn't have my key card to open the door. Hoping someone would be coming up the stairs and out the door and I could walk in. It was Miss M, a high school math teacher I had. She gave me a look like she knew I was trying to get in without a card. I told her I just left my wallet in my car. This was true in the context of the dream. She said I had to go to the desk and give them my name. I didn't want to have to do that but she was pretty stern about it. Another woman I went to H S with, G A, came up the stairs behind her. She smiled very brightly and glowed with white light. I felt loved.

I didn't go down to the weight room. I saw Miss M at a desk, in front of a computer, and on the phone. There was a cigarette butt on her desk. I was getting a download about her that she stays busy on the computer all morning and then busy standing in front of a class teaching all afternoon. A way of being workaholic and always busy. She seemed stressed on the phone.

I went over to her and she was a cyclops. Instead of two eyes, she had one giant eye in the middle of her head. I felt unsure of how to respond. I tried to make "eye contact" just with her one eye as if she had two. She began to tell me how she came from some ancient civilization. There were some specific names of civilizations I don't remember.

I might have got the order wrong in that the underground part or the goku part might have come after the cyclops part. Sometimes remembering the order isn't as easy.

Something about studying for a test again. Preparing for a test.

I was going to stay in this house. The heat was off when I got there so I put the heat on for myself and when the other people arrived. I also made sure a window was closed that had been left open. Something about action figures?

I had some tupperwares with plants or flowers. There was a woman living there and I was trying to appease her with flowers. She was talking about the other women who lived there as if they were not there. How annoyed she was of them. She was saying how she had just quit smoking. I said she might get along with L S because L S just quit smoking too. We were standing around a countertop.

In the dream it seemed like the woman wanted something. I had three folded up Pokemon shirts. One was of Pikachu. There were two others. I liked them, but the woman seemed to want or need them. The dream context was that she had ruined another shirt I had lent her so I thought I might not want to trust her with my cool shirts. But I didn't have the heart to say no.

I was looking at a Pokemon card in the hall way from the front door into the kitchen. I was thinking of my shiny metal energy card and giving it to the woman as well. Then there was a part of a Pokemon card with metal energy and another kind of energy, maybe fire or psychic.

That was really good dream recall for the first round of dreams. I was very happy as more details continued to flow into my mind.

It took me what seemed like hours to fall back asleep. I don't know why. But it did. Eventually I did fall asleep though. I had one mini dream of a grey glove with a whoopie cushion feature. Then I had some more dreams with I forgot most of. Maybe with U C or my sister. But that round of dreams ended in a funny way. I was driving along the main road in my town near the numbered streets. As I drove, I kept thinking of parallel parking somewhere. There was a car behind me I kept seeing in my rear view. To my right, along the side of the road, there was a bicyclist bicycling along. He started yelling at me because I guess he could tell I was starting to pull off to the side and he thought I would hit him? He was keeping pace with my car which is interesting. He continued to yell things at me until I heard "Stop!" Really loudly and then woke up with a startle.


It took me a little bit to fall asleep again.








In the next dream, I am with a tan woman and I only remember that party vaguely. She goes out for a moment and I am at my black desk with some food that I haven't eaten from my meal plan during the day. I wonder for a moment why I am eating spinach at this hour but I figure I just didn't eat it during the day and had to catch up. I am playing a game or writing on my phone. The room lights are on and I realize this might disturb my sleep. I reach for my orange glasses in response to this.

An application pops up on my phone that has to do with dating. it is like an easy dating for singles app. The interface is black and red. I think that dating sites aren't really my thing but maybe one day I will try it. I try to close it but there is an ad positioned on the window where the X is to close it. I think to myself that that shouldn't be allowed, for advertisers to put a link in the close box so when you go to close it it opens something else. The app won't go to all apps view when I press the all apps view button. The top bar where it says File, Edit, View, etc. has the word File to the far right. I click File then Exit and it closes. Another dating app pops up. This one I am able to swipe away from all apps view to close it. I do not use any dating apps in waking life.

There is a big container of coins. All types of coins. There are even giant silver coins which I think must be fifty cent pieces. I take the coins out and look at them. I am also eating my spinach with the same hands that touched the coins, questioning if that is really a good idea but continuing to do it anyway.

The woman returns to my room and comes to join me. She realizes she has something else to go to. I realize this is a dream in a very subtle kind of way. The thought just comes to me that it is a dream, and then I realize, oh, of course, it must be. Very calmly. Now I am lucidly aware with in the dream.

I wonder what I will do. I realize I am sitting in bed so I decide to just meditate. I close my dream eyes and see a dim white glow on black background. I feel calm and think to myself that I will just go to sleep within this dream and have a lucid, dream within a lucid, dream. Then I will wake up to the other dream and still know it is a dream. I start feeling like this will really happen.

I begin to float out of my bed and around the corner. I was previously in my current bedroom but now I am in my bedroom from my previous house. I float into the teal room which is my sisters. The tan woman is in there with my mom and sister. I am flying with my head running along the ceiling and I look down at the women there. The tan woman turns out to be M C and she looks very pretty. I have an understanding she is my girlfriend in this dream. I fly down and kiss her forehead, then we kiss regularly. I am aware my Mom sees us. my sister walks out but for another reason, not from being weirded out or anything. My Mom seems happy that I have a girlfriend. M C has to go do something in another room.

I notice glitter glue writing all over my sisters walls. Gold and bronze glitter glue saying things like remember your dreams, discover, remember, in script writing. I realize it will be fun to tell my Mom about my dream so far. Not to tell her it is a dream but to talk about it as if we are in waking life, and I just woke from a dream. Like, "Mom, you will never guess the dream I had," and then tell her about the events up to that point. I also thought this could help my dream recall.

My Mom is smiling and very happy. M C comes back and makes some kind of advance towards me. I give in to do something I sometimes try to hold back from doing in dreams.

I woke up from this kind of wishing I had taken my time to explore the dream instead of just doing other things in the dream. But I guess it is living and learning. I had really good lucidity in this dream, probably from meditating at the onset. I didn't even think of tasks of the month or my healing goals.

I was in a room with a DC. A younger girl, I think. She had a 'condition', or rather 'unwanted ability'. At some point, she started crying when she felt it coming. We both 'shifted' into a nightmarish version of reality (that was her ability, to move there). It was dark, gloomy and everything looked dilapidated. In the room we were in, we were attacked by a kind of shadow monster. It was smaller than a human (size of a large dog) and moved on all fours, and its legs had sharp claws to them (but made of shadow). There were a few 'lights' on its body, which I assume were eyes. They reminded me of the monsters from the sidescroller game 'Claire', which also features a nightmare version of reality, and a girl who accidentally travels to it. I think I stomped the monster to death.

I went through double doors into a corridor, but at the end there was the shadow of a person. This dark figure suddenly started screaming loudly, and lit up in flames. The flames spread rapidly, and moved through the corridor towards me. I screamed back, and somehow this 'pushed the fire back' until the dark figure was completely extinguished. I think I rushed at it with random objects laying around, and tried to whack it. The figure telekinetically flung stuff back at me, trying to stop my progress.

I think I was trying to protect the girl until she could get us back.

Morning of February 19, 2018. Monday.



In the first part of my dream, I notice a square hole in the floor in front of our couch, near the middle, about a third of the size of the couch. I consider that our youngest daughter might fall through if she is not paying attention, although the concern does not dominate my thoughts, as I also consider she would likely be aware of it for the most part. It seems to be late afternoon. The couch is in the wrong orientation. It is perpendicular to its real location, as it is on the west side of the lounge room facing east (where it has never been in reality) instead of being at the south edge of the lounge room facing north.

Later, Zsuzsanna and I are in a fictional room that is oriented where our oldest son’s room would be in reality, though is implied to be a mostly featureless lounge room, though there are bookshelves present. Zsuzsanna remains on my left. I focus on what looks like water dripping from a small area of the ceiling. I somehow see through the ceiling and see a large hole in the roof (as if I had x-ray vision, a fairly common dream state trait), oriented to my right. I tell Zsuzsanna of this, remembering that a new roof had just been built onto our house (in reality) and this new one has already partly “dissolved”. I also notice a smaller hole in the roof near the far corner of the room. I strongly focus on the idea of rain and water coming down, and (without viable lucidity) see water pouring through the small narrow irregular hole in the ceiling.

After this, I expect more water to come in near where the cat is sleeping in the far corner. A smaller amount of water than in the first instance comes through the ceiling near the corner and splashes the cat, but it does not seem that annoyed and remains in its position. I have a vague concern about books getting wet, but no more water comes through and I slowly wake. (The supposed rainwater event is more like someone quickly pouring water from a bucket from the two areas above the ceiling rather than a leak caused by rain or an even amount of water over time as it does not even seem to be raining when I look through the ceiling with x-ray vision, and then through the hole in the roof each time, as the sky is blue and cloudless.)

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My dream self’s first focus is on the hole in the floor. This represents neural OR gating relating to a subliminal focus on Zsuzsanna’s unconsciousness, as it is in the same location in front of the couch where Zsuzsanna sits in reality. However, when Zsuzsanna later appears in my dream, she remains on my left when subliminal autosymbolism of our real sleeping position is present.

Vestibular System Personification is incidentally rendered as our youngest daughter in this case. There is no modulating RAS factor or personification thereof and my dream self’s concern is illusory and ambiguous as in many past dreams of this nature.

The holes in the roof represent neural OR gating of my conscious self identity (which has featured in many past dreams as such), to my dream self’s right as I am sleeping on my left side, my right side more exposed to my real environment. The larger hole, closest to my dream self, opens to my consciousness precursor, the other, Zsuzsanna’s. Neural OR gating means that my conscious self is manipulating my dream, with my personified subconscious (dream self) being only subliminally aware of the implications (that is, without full recall of the dream state, as the subconscious level lacks viable intelligence and temporality). To clarify, my conscious self is subliminally aware of being in the dream state, though my dream self is not (and does not even recall what a dream is), though my dream’s autosymbolism is still based on a value of “one” (OR gate). This is why there is a hole in the roof and why my dream self can see it through the ceiling (liminal space divider, that is, a neural pattern between dream self and conscious self).

The cat is a precursory emergent consciousness factor (as a common liminal space denizen). My dream self is aware of its autosymbolism, which links a thread to my conscious self identity of which tries to reinduce and sustain the dream state by willing it to rain. (Even though in real life, rain coming into our home after the roof was torn off was obviously a negative event.)

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4 different days of LD's combined to catch up.

Can't recall much from the first few, they were dark / black and grey type of LD's that came from the roll over technique of being partially aware that my body is tricked into thinking i'm asleep but I ended up rolling out of my body into my room each time and had very little to no control in the Dream state for some reason..

2nd day which was about 3 or 4 days ago I believe I became lucid while in an airport. I was putting things into my duffel bag and I put away my Toiletry bag and then I ended up putting away a second Toiletry bag and that made me realize something was up. I knew that I only owned one of those so when I started putting a second one away it made me think I may be dreaming. I did a RC and checked my fingers and had 5 fingers on each hand which was odd but I could feel I was in the dream universe and checked again and I had little heads of different people on the end of each of my finger tips on my left hand which confirmed that I was indeed dreaming.

From that point I decided to go have some fun, I flew off out of the terminal showing off my flying skills which was funny because some of my dream characters seemed impressed I could fly, most of the time they don't really pay much attention but this time they were watching in awe. I flew around and hovered and had great control and then flew upwards by a building. I wanted to try to walk up the building like in inception vertically and after a few tries I was successful and was able to walk vertically up the building which was really cool. After that I let my body fly down towards the ground while people were watching and decided to do some fun front flips on the way down before landing on the ground and that caused me to wake up for some reason.

The next LD I had was a couple of days ago, I was in a room and I don't recall much about it but something made me realize I was dreaming because of the walls or the room itself. I recall doing a RC and had 5 fingers on both hands until I rechecked my right hand and noticed 6 fingers confirming I was dreaming. I'm starting to notice my RC with my hands are starting to more often show normal sets of fingers which has never been the case int he past which is very stranger. I recall busting through walls to get outside as I was inside a building and remember flying off to feel that amazing feeling I love of flying. I also was doing some TK with some items and objects around me and tried on some people and I notice that with items I can easily use my TK powers but with people it's much harder for some reason but still possible just not with great success. I wanted to try some different things I hadn't tried in a while so I tried shooting a energy ball like "Ryu" from street fighter in a way and it worked fine but there was nothing spectacular about it. I then finally remembered to try out a couple of my dream goals which were 1 create a delorean time machine from back to the future and go travel to the future to the year 14,000 or some great distant future and also to Draw a door and make it open and travel to a destination i'm thinking of as a different way to try to teleport to new places. I was successful at creating a car that looked similar to a delorean but unfortunately when I went over to it to check it out it was like a huge mess of random wires and gadgets and seemed like a messed up version of what I was trying to create so it didn't workout completely. I don't recall what woke me up but that's the last I remember from that LD.

Yesterday I had another LD. I was in a building up high in what seemed like some really unstable top story building on the beach and went to get some sort of drink from it and had feelings of it's unstable issues. Something about that or about me being worried about being hurt or dying from this caused me to realize this was a dream. I decided to go a long with the dream for a bit before going onto other tasks I wanted to do and drank out of the bottle to see what it tasted like and it had a really good nectar type taste which I enjoyed. It had a weird bandage like top to open up which was strange but I remember drinking out of it twice and really liking the taste which was cool. My vision began to fade out and I just went with it and then somehow tried to make it back and I was there again. I don't recall much after that but I was ready to go do some fun things and explore but I can't recall what I did or what happened but I believe I woke up shortly after looking around the environment and enjoying some of the senses I was feeling of the ocean breeze and smells.

I'm starting to think that when i'm in situations that make me worried about being hurt or dying from a building or being in a odd situation that I wouldn't normally put myself into is helping me become Lucid.

I think i'm hitting in the mid 200's for LD's now. I don't really count many that are brief that don't have much substance to them and the past few months I've been having natural LD's a couple of times weekly without trying my usual WILD or WBTB techniques which have been great as that has always been my long term goal to have consistent weekly LD's .

1) I entered a supermarket with a girl and we were shopping for stuff for our sleep over. As we looked around and she picked up stuff, I got the urge to buy something sweet. However, she ended up asking for my help to find the coca cola soda. It happened to be stacked waaay up high. On top of a bunch of other sodas. Some how I managed to rock the stack enough to catch the coca cola with the help of the girl. I got a feeling I was dreaming because the soda was transparent but I decided to ignore it and came across aisle where a woman was selling freshly baked cakes. There was a side where there were cakes in boxes and another side where the cakes were out on display in the open.

I took a piece of a Pink heart shaped cake and ate it. It tasted like strawberry. I than went to a cake with vanilla frosting and ate a piece. It was delicious. The lady told me to stop and to choose already. I was concerned that mice could have gotten on the cakes for a bit but when I was reassured by the woman that they were okay, I just decided to get the ones in the boxes. They were mostly powder cakes with almonds and walnuts. Stuff that didn't interest me but I picked up a powder cake without nuts that caught my attention.

Next, a group of girls pointed out a delicious looking honey cake that looked like it was taken right out of the oven. I said I wanted it but than a whole classroom of Japanese students showed up pushing me away from the cake I wanted. Eye showed up too. He told the woman who was starting to get annoyed to make a good impression again because she was going to put off the customers. I watched as she hurriedly tried to stand all cool and act nice.

Afterwards, randomly, as I sat down at a table with other students, I cut my hair in a bang and shoulder length to signify a new start. I than looked to the guy next to me and asked him what he thought. He said it looked good. I than wondered if I could catch Eye attention but woke up.

Here are dreams from 2018-02-17 to 2018-02-18.

First dream. There is a teacher trying to get me to do something which I don't want to do. I don't comply. I am standing in the hallway near my high school gym locker room. Another kid there gets a sandwich from my Dad. I take the sandwich from the kid, saying, "He can't have this food! It belongs to my family!" And I walk out. We are headed to the bus. My Dad is getting on the bus, too. An older woman in the front seat of the bus calls me faulty. I am angry at her and I spit on her. There is this military guy who has come to keep an eye on me because I am "unruly". I sit in a school bus seat on the outside. My friends J R and S H are in the middle and window parts of the seat. I am telling them how it is better I sit with them than sit alone and have some military person sit with me who is on my case. A military guy is sitting behind us. He starts trying to trick me into admitting to things I didn't do. I catch his game and start saying how I would never do such things. He is falsely accusing me. I am talking to J R and S H about how when I use caffeine, my sentences go up on the page. I am writing words in an exponential function shaped line. Then I write a lower case a and there are many words or sentences all branching off of it. I think this is where I woke up from. Earlier in the dream, I remembered there being something to do with Pokemon, vaguely.

There were a few hours when I couldn't sleep. I didn't put on any lights, not even my phone screen or look at a clock. I eventually fell back to sleep and had some dreams. They aren't in perfect order but I will do the best I can.

There were some dreams of some kids on this island thing I forgot most of.

There was one scene where there was this tan couple saying things to each other. The woman was saying her husband is away. Then the "dream screen" showed this guy in a river in a boat. He had some red sort of armor on and an inverted triangle shaped red helmet thing. Then some more guys like that appeared in boats. Then the couple was spooning.

In another part I was in a room of where I lived in college. There were dogs and cats in the room with me. I started to notice all of these greenish slugs crawling around. Then the pets were freaking out and I got the sense it was from the slugs. I looked at the ground and saw all these slug spots on the ground. I opened the door and all the pets ran out as fast as they could. I slowly followed them down to room 15. K W and his girlfriend were there. The pets seemed happy with them and they seemed happy to see the pets. They looked directly at me when I walked in with big smiles.

In another scene I was in my room. The context was that I had this expensive almond oil in these bottle things. There was a guy who was my assistant. He was putting oil on house hold objects and clothing, which in the context of the dream was his job. But I told him he was using too much oil, and that he should re use the oil or use it more sparingly. He gave me a funny look.

In another scene I had a lot of pink bubble gum in my mouth. I was trying to hide it from people or something. I blew a huge bubble and it floated me into my Nana's laundry room.

In another scene I was at the local arboretum. There were 6 guys ahead of me wearing dark clothes and walking slow. I wanted to walk faster so I went around them. In a place where there is normally a lot of trees, there were no trees at all, so I was able to cut from trail to trail. I ran accross it. I wondered why there were no trees there but came up with some explanation and didn't see it was a dream. I was writing on my phone after that in my Fii Write app. I was using white font but as I scrolled through I had this cursive blue writing at the bottom.

In another part there was a woman giving me a pass word to something online. Her name was Clare or Claudia or something like that. She gave me a pass word to write down but I didn't get it right. Then she copy pasted a new pass word into my computer that was more complex or randomized letters and numbers. I was wondering why she was giving up her pass word, or if she just gave everyone her pass word.

There was a part where I was driving by my local elementary school. I saw a baby out the window and the baby gave me this look that seemed like the baby wanted me to go over there. So I did. Then I was watching two young kids, myself as a child and my sister as a child, playing games. They were doing some tug of war thing. I remember thinking that the children were happy to be able to just be able to play and eat snacks. Then there was something with a bath kind of with the same dream scene in a way. I was peeing on the drain of the shower floor. There was some bubble bath. I remember the bath turning blue and orange. The whole time I heard my aunt saying how she wanted to cook meat balls, and offering me meat balls. I got out of the bath and saw my hair covering my whole face. It looked funny to me. Then I was brushing my hair with a wide tooth comb and thinking if I wanted my aunt's pasta with meatballs. I was thinking about what kind of processed foods might be in the meatballs and decided not to have any.

In another part of the dream I was in my bed but my dream bed. there was this hanging shelf hanging off my wall with stuff on it. Something about it not being mine or being about to fall. I was looking at my computer monitor. It kept lighting up as these windows on the bottom task bar would emit a diamond shaped thing. Orange colored. I wanted to turn it off but it wouldn't go off. I could get the diamond shapes to stop. Heard people talking.

In the last dream scene, I am at the local arboretum again. It is a sunny day. I am walking along toward what they call turtle island. I am walking over a small isthmus type thing, but I don't know the word that is for an isthmus in fresh water scenarios. Land bridge? Anyway, in waking life, it is a narrow strip of land accross a pond to get to the other side. But in the dream it was a wooden bridge. The arboretum has wooden slat bridges across other parts of the pond or streams. In the back of the arboretum, there are old wooden bridges with one slat missing here and there. Well, in the dream, a wooden bridge was where the land bridge is, and it had a slat missing. So I was walking through there with my phone and then I dropped my phone. It slid in slow motion accross the whole bridge and into the stream through the slat. The stream there is very shallow. I dove after it and got to my knees, reaching my hand down into the mud. I could feel my phone in my hand and then the mud and the water. I thought it was hopeless anyway but I was going to do my best to rescue it. I really started to panic. I thought it was waking life. I started to be like, "This has to be a dream. Please let this be a dream." It was like my worst night mare and I was so sure it was waking life. I just thought saying it must be a dream was like a coping mechanism for my phone breaking. All the thoughts about all the stuff I would lose and how I couldn't afford a new phone right now crossed through my mind. Then I was so surprised when I slowly woke up in my physical bed. That was the first dream where I have ever deliberately woken myself up without even knowing it was a dream. I woke up like, wow, I wish I had just done a finger palm test first.

So there are all my dream memories from last night.

I was in a sunlit room in someone's house, but I was imprisoned.

Someone came to try and free me. In retrospect, I actually don't remember if I was the one imprisoned, or if I was doing the freeing.

But one of us pulled out a certain "safe container", which I can only imagine was supposed to protect us from something. It was a piece of Styrofoam in the shape of a triangular prism. I have a little sketch of it in my physical dream journal.

Then some sort of terrifying creature appeared on the TV. However, it popped out of the TV somewhat, because the creature was real (in the dream world, anyway); it was simply broadcasting itself through the TV. It looked kinda like the Mummy at Universal Studios, but the one from the advertisements, not the real LED-lit one.

It screamed at us in a creepy voice, telling me that I would not be free because it was always watching, or something. No lucidity on my part. Suffice it to say that I was glad to wake up from this one.

Day Five:

Fell Asleep At: 1:15 AM

Woke Up At: 9:00 AM


Dream 02: Images

Same as last night, except I remember even less of this one. Maybe tomorrow will get better.



Day Six:

Fell Asleep At: 1:20 AM

Woke Up At: 10:20 AM


Dream 03: Fragments

I remember playing CTF in Overwatch. The map in question was Ilios an I was playing my main, Lucio, scoring free hits on people by blasting them off the stage.

There was also another dream, but that ended up being swamped by this one.

I have really got to start going to bed earlier. Maybe that's what keeps messing up my recall.

Morning of February 18, 2018. Sunday.



Explain Subconscious Self

Explain Personified Subconscious

The dream self is the subconscious, though I mostly only use the term “personified subconscious” (though I confess that I do not like the word “subconscious” in general as virtually everyone in the world uses it incorrectly at one point or another). It certainly is not the conscious self identity and it cannot be the unconscious essence, as the unconscious has viable memory of which the dream state rarely reflects (at least in non-lucidity, but often in some forms of lucidity as well). As the subconscious band is just a dynamic filter, with no temporal cohesion or thinking skills, it is senseless to attribute intelligence to it as many people do (though most people actually mean ECF and unconscious mediation when using such examples).

Explain Vestibular System Personification

Explain VSP

Vestibular System Personification is a result of biological RAS modulation. This occurs due to vestibular system ambiguity, which is the perceptual conflict caused by perceiving the imaginary dream body as in a different position or orientation as the real physical body. This is what causes falling dreams, but on a positive note, flying dreams.

I do not usually include the dream self as personification of any unconscious factor other than the subconscious itself. Examples of VSP might be, seeing someone falling, seeing someone flying, watching someone in an elevator or climbing stairs, an airplane pilot, someone flying a kite, and so on. Other RAS dynamics might be involved depending on the dream and what stage of the dream and level of unconsciousness are relevant.

Explain Personified Unconscious

Explain Unconscious Personification

Unconscious Personification is likely only to occur in induction and sustained stages of a dream, where it is eventually modulated by RAS or ECF out of biological necessity, including a need to use the toilet or to more viably discern the source of an environmental noise (especially an unexpected sound in the immediate environment).

Explain RAS

RAS stands for Reticular Activating System. It is not feasible to write it out each time, so I usually only use RAS. It is a part of the brain (reticular formation) that mediates between the ephemeral fictional dream self incarnation and its illusory perception and the conscious self identity.

Explain RAS Mediation

RAS is partially the foundation of consciousness reascension autoymbolism, which is what the majority of non-lucid dreams are in the final stages. However, without ECF, there would likely be what is known as a coma.

Explain RAS Modulation

RAS Modulation occurs when the dream self is too “stubborn” or “absent” (likely by threads of the conscious self identity that choose to remain dormant longer) to move into consciousness reascension on its own.

Explain Preconscious Personification

Explain Personified Preconscious

The Personified Preconscious is typically the final and most dominant character in a dream other than the dream self, though may be paired with the emergent consciousness. It may chase the dreamer. It may intrude into the dreamer’s home. It may, in contrast, hug the dreamer into the coalescence stage (consciousness reascension). Conflict with the preconscious or RAS modulation is often unrelated to current waking life conflict other than incidentally. It is important to understand however, that conflict in a dream can be prescient either by transpersonal factors (natural or subliminal instinct) or self-fulfilling prophecy.

Explain Emergent Consciousness

Explain Emergent Consciousness Factor

Explain Emergent Consciousness Personification

Explain ECF

Explain ECP

Without the Emergent Consciousness Factor, RAS would not have enough to work with. Emergent Consciousness Factors can occur in dreams in many forms, including books (as only the conscious self can viably read, as writing or print often becomes nonsensical or changes upon a second glance in dreams), computers, flashlights, towers, candles, burning towers or belfries (ECF parallel autosymbolism), lightning (more specifically as neural energy though sometimes an indication of physical pain or numbness depending on the dream or dreamer) and so on.

The hierarchy of the dream state, in my fifty years of experience are, unconscious, personified subconscious (dream self), preconscious, RAS, emergent consciousness, conscious self identity.

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I am near the bar in a restaurant. It looks quite rustic, there are a few people behind the rectangular bar area, one is a lady with long black wavy hair.
There is a sliding door at the back, Japanese style. I sense people behind it and see in my minds eye some people with guns, one has a long rifle.
I use my powers to paralyse the people. I notice that there are more and more people coming in at the back. They do not appear to be soldiers but I take them all to be "the enemy" that is invading this space. I then start sending what look like multiple water balloons up into the sky that rain down on the intruders, paralysing them and then making them disappear.

Date of Dream: SUN 18 FEB - 2018



Dream No. 284 - Ridiculous Contract

The dream started with me being in the Target store at Waverley Gardens Shopping Centre. It was dark in this Target and it was like there was a Christmas display and lightshow going on. In this scene, I was always mentioning how I had a performance coming up at 1:00 PM. When I first looked at my watch, it was 10:00 AM, at least that's how I perceived it in the dream, but the reality was that it was 10 past 12. Then then next time I looked at the watch, I said it was 11:00 AM but it was really only 5 past 12. The 12:00 time was accurate because both hands had to be on the 12, so there was no distortion of time perception.

When it did reach 12:00 PM, I approached a man in the store and told him I had to go. I was at this random place that I knew nothing about in regards to my surroundings. I had gotten there just before 12:30 PM, so I went to find the stage technician who was going to help me set up for my performance. She was some tall, young Indian/Sri-Lankan lady who wore all black. She told me she had the amplifier, PA, mic and DI box but no laptop input. I pulled a short cable out of my back pack but she said that it wouldn't work for connecting to the PA. She did mention though that it could connect to a pre-amp.

I told her I had a pre-amp but it wasn't with me at the moment. I was then in the car with my dad and I was talking to him about the pre-amp. He told me it was still with EW and so that idea was inconvenient. My dad did try to call EW but he said that he still needed it and so I couldn't have the pre-amp any time soon. I was then back at the event, telling the lady that we don't have the pre-amp. That's all of what I can remember for that scene.

The next major scene was at Camelot Rise primary school but it served as all a primary, secondary and tertiary place of education. The first class was a tertiary class, tax revision with JLou. While she was going through the answers with MN, I listened in and independently corrected the work I did. Next, I was with the year 12 cohort, which I was a part of in the dream. Through rumours, I heard that it was Ms L's birthday and so everyone from the year level was lining up at her office to give their wishes.

I was then roaming around the school, seeing what other classes were taking place. I ended up exploring most of the primary school section. While I was in that area, the class teacher of 1/2G was trying to get my attention but when I looked at my watch, I realised I had to get back to the year 12 area for my next class, so I couldn't talk to him. I ended up flying past his classroom and into obscurity.

For a moment I was confident that I was heading back to the year 12 area but the surroundings were just becoming more and more unfamiliar. Soon, I came across a sign that said “Tasmania” and the school grounds were filled with all these hilly mounds of sand, like I was approaching some desert. I only became more and more nervous and when I knew I was truly lost, I started calling for Dreamy WB. For a while, there was no response and the degree of me getting lost was only getting worse.

I called for her a few times, still nothing. So I added a few words onto that. Eventually, I said “Dreamy WB help me I'm lost! I'm going to be in trouble if I don't get back!”. After my last-ditch plea for help, I feel something. I'm not flying myself anymore and rather I become stationary in mid-air. I am then pulled back slightly, and then it starts. I am pulled in a backwards motion really fast, back towards the year 12 area. Over there, I try to find my class but I can't. I ask a few Killester teachers where mine might be and they said to either find Ms Gab. or someone else that I have forgotten the identity of.

I can't find my Killester class teacher anywhere, now walking out of the year 12 area; that's when Dreamy WB comes out of invisibility and into her human form. She had her hair straight and she was wearing a black camisole with black leggings and black canvas shoes. We ended up in the central undercover area and that's when I questioned Dreamy WB about what I should do. We went up to the library but there was no one in there.

Back at the central undercover area, I came up with an idea. I said to her that I was going to make an announcement for the teacher to come and find me. While rehearsing the idea in my head, a paper contract appears in my hands and in bold writing at the top was “Breach of Dream Contract”. I think to myself, “what a stupid preposition. Since when did my dreams have contract conditions?”. I had a good read of what it was and apparently I wasn't allowed to make public announcements to find my teachers. There were then some bullet points of consequences; I remember one being “deduction of K-points”.

I found that contract so stupid that I was frowning and my nose was all screwed up, with my mouth being twisted in a sideways direction. I thought “bull****” as I then passed the contract onto Dreamy WB to read; I wanted her judgement on the situation. She was also pulling her face at the contract and then she told me not to worry about it. So then I decided to go with it and rehearse what I was going to say in the announcement.

I didn't need any PA system or megaphone, apparently I could amplify my voice independently on command. As I took a breath in, the dream started the fading out process on me. During the fade out, I still found the power to rehearse and this is what I said; “Excuse me for this interruption but could the current classroom teacher of Karla B. please make their way to the undercover area and present themselves to Miss W T. Thankyou”. As the dream was just about to end, Ms DeW. is coming up to the undercover area and just as she is approaching the stairs to come down to me and Dreamy WB, I wake up.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Date of Dream: THU 15 FEB - 2018



Dream No. 283 - A New Menace

I don't remember much of this dream. It was night time and I was in a 2D version of Paris based on the Sly games but the platforming style was like Mario vs. Donkey Kong. Sly was also roaming around but he wasn't a significant character. What was significant was a menacing 3D figure in the 2D background. It was Clockwerk and his eyes were a really bright yellow. He was really close as it eyes were locked onto me, watching my every move. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

1) I was on dream views and sent a message to jadegreen. He than sent a message back and others chimed in. I don't recall what it was about though.

[Semi lucid]
2) Thinking about jade's dream book idea than thought about Dawn. The setting changed to a dessert and there was a character with long light blue hair who was considered human blocking Egyptian soldiers. He than was killed and possessed. After that he transformed to a half human/demon becoming Dawn. That's when the side characters popped up and one that was round and purple was convinced to go on the good side. He than shouted he would no longer commit "mamification".

3) I'm at my house and an old high school friend of mine was present. He was with two other guys and I thought he was my cousin. Randomly he was harassing me with two other guys so I pushed them back and went to the backyard.

There I came across my brothers, my past bff and found a young cat sitting near a tree. It than jumped up out of no where and pounced at me. I dodged and than it came across a kitten and another cat. They were getting to know each other.

4)Three guys are in a room and two introduce another white dog to their friend. They call it a beagle but the dog looks too big to be a beagle. They have a brown small dog and another as well but their friend is not too excited. I hug the white dog because its sooo cute. Than I stop to wonder if what I'm doing is ridiculous.


Notes:I hugged my past dog Max when he was alive. I miss him now.>. <

Created Saturday 17 February 2018

Got quite a bit to note, including two DILDs.

Scrap Group 1
Repeated dreams. I think these were horror themed, and set in a forest.

Reading other member's journals in DV. Noticed someone mentioning getting in a fight with my guide, E (or a character with a similar name), who'd apparently used moths to attack.

Watching King of the Hill. There was a roadkill squirrel by the neighborhood lot. Hank goes off to get supplies to clean it off. When he returns, he found that it'd already been removed. Bill later reveals having cooked and eaten the carcass.

Dream 1 - February 2018 TOTM Bonus Task

Scene 1 - Beware of Duck
The visuals were slightly blurred. I was going down a dirt road in a wetland forest, a silver blue sky above. A Dwarf Fortress styled interface occupied my viewpoint from below, along with a like-styled ASCII mini-map.

That might've explained why I thought it a good idea to grind my fighting skills by wrestling with some wildlife. At a nearby puddle, I took hold of several Muscavy ducks, and pinned them to the ground. After a few minutes, one of my fingers started feeling unusually itchy. I looked at my right hand, only to find a bloody stump where my ring finger should be. Scrolling through the message log revealed that a duck was indeed responsible. Stunned, I cleaned the wound in the puddle, and reeled away. Once the bleeding stopped, I resumed fighting, if a bit more carefully. And yet, I ended up promptly losing another finger, my middle finger specifically. I hurried to a nearby river to clean the injury best I could. Thinking of having previously done as much with murky water made me gravely concerned of a potential infection. The map showed a mess of blood in the stream and the surrounding dirt, though it wasn't anywhere near as bad in my natural viewpoint.

Anyway, I thought it best to rest under a tree for a while. Some time later, I noticed various strange messages, each stating something like "your stomach is digesting itself." Was I starving? Did the bleeding cause this hunger? Hurredly, I wandered off further down the road via the fast travel menu, and stopped at a fork. There were several passerby's, but I ignored them. The ASCII mini-map revealed berries growing near a tree, which, much as in DF, were in infinite supply. I snatched an armful of the fruit, and chowed down. Also like in DF, I had to go in and out of fast travel to eat enough to satiate myself.

Unknown transition.

Scene 2 - I Can See the Writing on the Walls
The visuals were dim and slightly blurred. I was in the hallways of an unknown structure, a place illuminated by weak lights. I soon arrived at a widened space crowded with people. Among the guests was my brother, Jose, who went off elsewhere. I later encountered Herbert, an old friend of mine. As I greeted him, I realized the dream, and told him as much.

Things immediately deteriorated into a void. Unphased, I thought of TOTMs, and recalled the truth spell task. After forming a white energy ball between my hands, I whispered "truth". Nothing seemed to happen for a moment, before I was suddenly dragged around by a mysterious force. A stone wall then materialized beside me, scrawled completely with engraved words. Among the mess, I noticed my maternal grandma's name, along with several vague messages, though I couldn't make any sense of these. Further away, another wall formed. There were several posters there, including an ad for tuna fish, though none of that seemed pertinent. I glanced back at the construction beside me, where I found an opened red greetings card not too far off. This depicted a mediocre anime-esque drawing of two figures chatting. On a message box above them was text scribbled in crayon. As I was pulled near it, I snatched the card. It read as followed:

"Your days are nigh; as you read this, another day goes by."

Hmm... "Time is short", right? I got the message.

Not too clear what else occurred until the dream ended.

Dream 2 - Buzz Buzz Dreamer

Unwitting, non-lucid void transition. Between random thoughts, a clear scene began to form. I was then floating around on my back down a road. Ahead and to the right of me was swamp land. A bit further ahead and to my left was a two-story shopping plaza. First facility in sight was a Peruvian cafe. On the upper level was a large donut shop, flashing in neon and evoking a gaudy 50's retro design. Intrigued, I floated towards there, when I got lucid. Furthermore, I started shrinking uncontrollably. Anyway, I slid through the balcony's railing, but was prevented from going further than that. I then noticed someone else passing by, a plain-looking light haired woman with shades, a blue smock, and black tights. For the heck of it, I formed insectile wings on my back, and, while flying upright, started buzzing around her. This quickly irritated the woman, who swatted at me in futility. She later took off her shades to glare at me, when she suddenly whipped her tongue out at me like a frog, almost catching me off-guard.

Things destabilized and ended shortly afterwards.

Scrap Group 2
Vague memories of being in a school.

Dream 3 - Trap Block

The visuals were a bit blurred. I was running around on the floor of a giant bedroom, where I was given the form of the original NES Super Mario. Jose was there as well, as Luigi. There were a bunch of Super Mushrooms and Fire Flowers just lying around, which we picked up. I jumped on the bed frame, where I strike a hidden block. This somehow transforms my brother into Bowser. The "screen's" borders suddenly closed in on my sides, and I couldn't jump higher or down either. Likewise, Jose, in his new form, couldn't leap high enough to reach me. We were effectively stuck.

I woke up soon afterwards.