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This is the first journal entry where I am not using the formating from a really old journaling tool I used a long time ago. I woke up at 4:30 am and took 8mg of galantamine and 600 mg of alpga gpc. I ended this DEILD chain at around 7:00 am.

Moments after getting settled back into sleep I realized the dream was formed. The bed felt so real! I forced myself through the sleep paralysis and out of the covers to find myself in my bed in my childhood home instead of the bed I currently sleep in! I got up and it was very vivid. I went outside through the back door and tried summoning Juliana by reaching my hand back. I felt her hand and pulled it forward but it was disembodied which happens sometimes. I woke up and DEILD chained, each attempt the same thing would happen. One time I prefaced my attempt by saying, "Hello Juliana. Are you there?" and the voice that replied was all deep and distorted. (I think dream control is just something I'm going to need to practice now that I'm getting out of a dry spell.)

Later in the DEILD chaining I spent less time trying to summon Juliana and more time exploring the dream world. I went into my neighbors yard through their unlocked gate and suddenly felt like I had rocks or ice chips in my mouth. No matter how much I spit out there kept being more. It was a very uncomfortable sensation.

Early morning dream. I am deep underwater, diving, and photographing a huge dark shape in the water. I know it is some type of giant whale. I know I'm dreaming, and need have no fear. (I am creeped out by deep water, usually). I ascend to the surface knowing I can be anything I want.

This was from Dec 22nd courtesy of my sleep deprived brain.

Fell asleep on the couch. I could hear the show playing, people talking, so assumed I was still awake. I felt weirdly heavy and wondered if I was sleeping, so tried to float off of the couch. I slipped sideways and woke.

I closed my eyes and listened to the show again, some old kung fu movie. The heaviness set in again and then came the snoring. My eyes popped open, I looked around. I was the only one laying, then it struck me, I was hearing myself snore. Dreaming again. I laughed at myself then tried to float upward. I couldn't do anything but lay and listen to myself snore. Could I make myself sleep talk? I struggled to say, "Can you hear me, I'm dreaming." I couldn't speak. I struggled so hard that I woke.

I sat up and looked around. The show was still playing. I asked the others if they heard me snoring and they laughed and told me to go to bed. 'Nope." I laid back down. As soon as I felt heavy I tried to float off the couch. I slid sideways and drifted to the floor like a fluff of feather. I landed on the floor slipped through. "Through the floor!" I yelled and grabbed the footrest of the chair beside me. "I'm bringing you with me," I told the chair's occupant, his feet dangled over the edge. But as I tipped the chair fully over, it was empty. I let go of the chair and fell into the basement. I woke.

I tried laying on my side. Fell asleep and kept telling myself I would become lucid again. A dream scene started suddenly. I was in a city with tall building and even taller statues of people One of the statues turned its head and smiled a giant stony grin. "Uh... I should probably check if I'm dreaming.." and did finger through palm check. And yes, I WAS dreaming. I strode over to the grinning statue and touched it's foot, its toe was nearly as tall as I was. The statue lifted it's bare foot and stomped on me. I woke.

I fell asleep again later but don't recall any other dreams from this night.

I was at a party/festival/similar event where we had fireworks that were somehow indoors. The room was huge, like a stadium, so there was enough space. The problem was, people were crowded around and dropped their belongings as they moved and danced so much so that afterwards, the lost and found piles took the whole room. I only wanted my sandals and was looking for them in a large pile of sandals. I couldn't find mine, but I found expensive Nike's that were definitely not mine. It occurred to me then, that no one's stuff had a name on it and Nike's were plain as Nike stuff went, just the logo. I could claim them and leave the area and then no one would be able to tell that I definitely hadn't bought them weeks ago. In other words, I could away with just stealing an upgrade to my sandals.

They didn't fit. Dammit.

So I went elsewhere, I forget if it was to actually find something of mine or possibly just to see what was up for the claiming that I might sneak away with. I found a nice looking pair of sunglasses but got nervous about just taking them because a woman was beside me also looking at them. I didn't want to be caught taking them if they were hers, that would be very obvious. So I held them out and asked if they were hers, since I noticed she was looking at them too. She took them and said, yes they are. But I recall wondering if she was telling the truth or just trying to find something cool to take like I myself was. I didn't argue in case she was honest and started a fight over the sunglasses. I think I got away with a necklace at some point, though.

I had a false awakening. I awoke at a large army barracks type structure. Three or four story red brick building with spartan interiors and big mostly-flat mowed areas outside for training. This gives way to jungle, as the training compound is situated decently high on a mountainous region with tropical jungle growing over the land. I can see ocean off in the distance.

I was false-awakened by a large explosion. I head outside and see soldiers and men in white sailor uniforms running around. A large radio mast type structure has apparently fallen over a motorpool filled with fuel trucks and started a large fire during a training exercise. There are people on fire, burning rather gruesomely and others running to get help and medical nurses. It strikes me as odd that there are men in sailor uniforms though we seem to be many miles from the coast.

I become partially lucid. I don't think I was fully aware of the dream state, but I was aware that what I was experiencing was not real. I didn't think to stabilize or work on my goals, but I had some intuition about being a positive force on the dream. A sergeant comes over, he looks like sergeant hartman from full metal jacket and he starts yelling at me in typical drill instructor fashion for standing like an idiot and not helping the men that are burning. I turn to him, very calmly and say. "Its okay, this is a dream. Execute Rewind."

I see in my vision a few distorted bars, like when one rewinds a video tape. The tower rises back up into place and all the scattered people rapidly move backwards into their barracks, save for the squad that was doing jumping jacks originally when the tower fell. I look at the tower. It is very rusty, and looks overloaded with cell antennas and big white radio dishes. On some level the "lucidity" was in that I was actually watching an army movie. I think I unconsciously repaired it to a new state but I don't remember.

I then decided to fly. I pushed down, using my fire jets technique and began to lift slowly off the ground. I look down at myself and see that I am wearing one of the white sailor uniforms. i feel that my body is not myself and catch glimpses in the third person. It looks like Jak's physical form, heavily muscular and short blonde hair with paler skin. I also notice that while I am flying, the visual effect of the flames isn't there and I seem to be moving rather slowly. There is a sort of shimmering heat effect.

I am semi lucid and I have a weird way of doing this. I for some reason think about the animation vs minecraft videos and reach behind my back and manifest a minecraft command block. It is about the size of a tennis ball and feels like hard plastic with sharp corners.

"Toggle Enable Propulsion True" I say, mincing my words a little bit. A small window appears with pixelated text of what I have said and it flashes green. The flames appear in my hands and my flying speed and control increases considerably.

I begin flying over the forested mountains away from the base and heading for the sea. When I get close I slow down near where a small river lets out on a beach. I see palm trees but also these very alien looking trees. They are shaped like a deciduous tree but each branch ends in a large, thick paddle like leaf structure about three or four feet tall. It is thick and has volume like a succulent or cactus but no thorns. It is a bright green, slightly teal or blue near the center and yellow along the edge. These structures combine giving the treetop a sort of effect of looking like a large pine cone. I muse over how interesting the tree looks and think that I want to remember it when I wake up.

I continue flying. The dream opens up to an archipelago of mountainous islands covered in rainforest. It seems like it would be very beautiful but the detail and dream clarity make everything somewhat fuzzy and generic. I see a city and decide to explore it. It appears to only be the urban center. A compact zone of narrow streets around high rises of various architectural styles and roadways but very little urban sprawl. There is a "fakeness" to it, like it is simply something someone has built in simcity with cheat codes. I notice one building is obtusely, absurdly tall, going up through the clouds. It doesn't look futuristic, rather it looks like a normal modern skyscraper that has been stretched to be several miles tall. Despite the "fakeness" and lack of clarity I just see floor after floor, window after window going up and up. Though I dont count I can tell it is several hundred floors tall and reaches well above the height of most of the mountains.

I see dark foreboding clouds like an intense tropical storm approaching. I continue flying in that direction, not seeing them as an indication of a threat or trouble.

At some point I go explore another city which has a lot of the same features but a different layout. Right up to the single obtusely tall building albeit of a different architectural style. I fly up the side of the building, almost crashing into it and go into the clouds before emerging above them.

earlier:

+ outdoors, deserted planetscape (Amazon's "Night Sky"). Standing up against a building which is a living being, and is breathing in and out(?)

+ [vague, frag] bombs? snow?

WBTB
Long BTS
Brain churning
Get a grip finally and start doing TWR's four-petaled colored drop and dakini lotus in throat visualization: yellow, green, red, blue, <repeat>, eventually fall asleep
Start seeing dreamlets: people walking past, close-up view standing before a brick wall

+ playing basketball [DS] with a small volleyball [DS] in an indoor white-ish court, lighting medium/low. I'm making shots, a fading jump shot and I nail it, then I dribble down to the other side of the court and attempt a reverse layup with ball spin, and I miss. I then try to hook the ball in with while standing under the basket and a bit to the right, again with spin, on the left side, but I also miss. Step back a bit and swish a shot Head back to the other side and try a long distance (about 3-point distance) shot, specifically using strong wrist action, I'm standing at about 45 degrees on the left side (facing basket), using the wrist action to really aim the ball, and the shot is strong and ends up being a line drive with no arc, and heads right for the basket, but passes just below the rim through the net, missing, and the ball continues on and lands and rolls fairly far off the the court in an open area where my wife L is doing something with rabbits or stuffed toys, I'm waiting for her to throw the ball back to me. Later on (in waking or in dream) I'm telling Sensei about this dream I had. I think (in the dream) he's be impressed by some of my shots.

+ in a light hallway/stairwell with a man with whom I just concluded some deal (?), and he is now offering me (and wife?) the opportunity to invest in 3 real estate deals. I'm on the fence if I want to participate or not, it's risky, but the returns could be good

+ in a room some people around, there is a round table with a cardboard box of left-over pizza on it. I open the lid and look inside and at first I see just a few pieces of leftovers, but I decide to eat them anyway. I open the box again to pick these up but I see further back in the box there are a couple still whole pieces. I pick up one of these full pieces and it is really thickly covered in cheese. I detect (or anticipate?) some nuggets of sausage there, too. I'm taking some bites and I'm turning away from the people so they won't see me eating it (?) [DS]. Then the manager of the pizza place is commenting on the order volume from different sources.

+ moving from gas station to gas station in some relatively remote area, vague details, something about eating corn, a row of corn kernels all stuck together. I'm on a motorcycle and it needs repairs, but the current station is busy, I'm going to have to go back to an earlier station (where a guy was playing violin?)

+ <return to real estate deal stair/hall-way> an older man is teaching a young child to play violin. I notice the finger action the child uses to produce the different notes (the hand is not on the fret, just in open air). The emphasis is on the bowing position. There is a long bar across which the bow is being drawn. The teacher is showing a style where the downbow is long and slow and the upbow is where the rest of the notes of the measure are played all together. The teacher (and I am thinking along with him) emphasizes that in the beginning, it is good to learn to draw the bow and play using the full length of this bar. The student is bowing and the bow is leaving white resin marks on the bar showing where it contacted the bar, and the bow is moving up and down the full length of this bar.

+ [FA?] I'm trying to find my computer glasses. There is a large bowl of glasses and cases on top of the high left-side commode to the left of the TV. I eventually find the glasses I was looking for [true in WL]

I have been watching the show Titans, a live action version of the Teen Titans. I have been enjoying it so much that I have had 5 dreams about being Dick Grayson alongside the Titans including this one I am journaling today. There was more to the dream but my recall hasn't been the best so this is what I can remember.

12.22.2022
07:30 AM

Teen Titans 5 (Non-Lucid)

I am Dick Grayson/Nightwing from the Teen Titans and I am fighting alongside Beast boy, Raven, and Jericho. The villains have us in some sort of lab where they are testing on us. At one point Jericho uses his powers to leave his body and enter the big bad evil guy and made him push his hands into a spinning saw blade that pulverized his hands! Thanks to that we were able to escape and continue our fighting! I got in some rather brutal hand to hand combat but that's about all I can remember now.

+ small girl and boy: outside in large open area, almost a white void, nothing really there, a few counters. Walking around with them. Tell the boy he's fat? (he's not), joking/chatting with them, I say "the shark is going to bite you on the <foreign word for butt>" the girl laughs

+ animated 3D graphics movie, photographer advertisement: I'm observing the 3d graphics characters as the filming is ongoing, I'm thinking it's not very high quality, or that it's not an interesting movie. Then I see a sign for a photographer advertising his services, it says something like: 7:00am - 7:19am, $789, I think wow that's expensive, but I also think in that time he could take hundreds (500 or more) pictures.

+ car (honda accord) occupied by gang, changes to old beige convertible with top down. I'm walking up to my car (white honda accord) on a city street, it's parked at a curb, there are lots of people around, I think what if there are people inside? I get there look and indeed there are black gang members in the car, a guy (with beard?) in the front passenger seat and a (goth?) girl the back seat right side. They're just chilling there. I yell at them s/l "GET THE F^&* OUTTA MY CAR!". They have no intention of moving. I stand up, in shock, wondering what I should do. Call 911? Would they even come to a report of "there are people in my car"? I'm in the city of PA, I could just call the regular cops? should I just get in and drive somewhere?
Then I look back at the car (at some point the girl who was large/fat was sitting on the roof?) and there is no roof. I say "what did you do to the roof?" but I recognize that the car is now a convertible and that the roof is just down and maybe they'll make fun of me and point that out. Then I see that the car is entirely different: it's a long, 1960's-70's entirely beige colored (paint and upholstery), large convertible wagon. "What happened to my car?" I think?

I felt like sharing these. I slept for over 13 hours last night and had a lot of dreams, though my sleep was disjointed and I forgot most of them.

The first dream that I have any significant memory of was exploring some kind of SCP or creepypasta type thing. It had three components. One was that people could come to this park area and deliver scrap metal. It was large, with mowed grass but partially covered by a canopy of very large sycamore trees. (I remember seeing the peely bark all over the ground). The scrap metal was sorted into piles (aluminum, gold, iron, copper, etc) and even an area which was for miscellaneous electronic scrap. A mysterious and sometimes hostile entity would come and take the metal, replacing it with very large sums of money. Because of this, people would come, deposit their scrap metal and wait for the entity to take it at a safe distance before returning and recovering their money. But there was a level of unpredictability to the entity in that if people got too close to it, it would kill them by looking at them. Other people would also try to steal the money.

The second component was these plants which looked like seeding grass but were reddish, purplish and brownish in color and covered in thorns. They were carnivorous and spread throughout the sort of park region. As they were emphasized in the dream I remember walking into them and getting stung by the thorns which caused me to become fatigued and fall over into the plants were more and more of them wrapping around me. The dream scene changed temporarily to the backyard of my old home. I died, but later 'respawned' elsewhere in the park after learning that the plants were carnivorous.

The third component was an underground complex, like an abandoned subway station that went down many many levels. It It was made mostly of crumbling rebar reinforced contrete and had strange sci-fi contraptions in it like cloning pods and teleporters. I was exploring it with my mother but this turned into us trying to get as deep underground as possible before a nuclear blast. We then got spooked by there potentially being a monster in it somewhere. I hid in a broken cloning pod/cryo pod type thing and tried not to get cut on broken glass.

...

I was with Manei at a large cafeteria/restaurant type setting. We were at the university of michigan (I remember this specific university being emphasized). I was lucid and we were having a conversation, of which I only remember part of.

"...but I don't like how fake relationships seem. All this crap about how many kissy face emojis to send and waiting to text someone to not look desperate and this 'girls need to eat a salad on the first date' and people needing to look and act a certain way. People always say 'you should be yourself' but then slip into these tribalistic social conventions. Doublethink bullshit."

I said tapping a finger to my forehead. I don't remember how we got on this topic. Manei nods in agreement.

"Since you're basically the closest thing to a girlfriend I've ever had I need to warn you right now. If you ever come to me with an outfit and ask if you look fat, regardless of how you actually look; and I know about all that controlling dream appearance stuff you do (I wagged a finger at her with mock seriousness) I will tell you that I know five fat people and you are are four of them."

She laughed so hard milk came out of her nose. Then I started laughing mostly at her reaction. We had a good long laugh about it before I summoned a napkin from under the table so she could clean herself off. She went to put her tray away and three other dream characters approached us and began taunting us, one male and two female. They taunted Manei and she gave them the finger. I tried hitting one of the bullies with a cardboard tube and said "go to horny jail" to repeat an earlier incident. Nothing happened and there was an awkward minute where they taunted us some more. I then used telekinesis to float the bullies up towards the ceiling which had this spinning rack thing that might have been some kind of chandelier. I hooked their underpants on the rack giving them all wedgies and then made the rack spin around. The entire cafeteria started laughing and pointing at the bullies as they struggled helplessly.

...

The dream transitioned to some yoga class that Manei was teaching. She was the instructor and more experienced or was the senior instructor but I was helping her manage the class. I was semi lucid and decided to experiment to see if I could do a full split in a dream. I then began experimenting with some other stuff that I had never been able to do in waking life, like balancing on one finger. I then demonstrated that I could control my breathing very carefully and balance my finger and lift my last finger up and float in the air upside down.

The Bully DCs were some of our students and were green with envy as I showed off the move. They were still struggling with basic poses. They got mad and sulked out of the class, mumbling about how they were supposed to be the coolest kids in school and it was unfair that we were good at something.

There was some other guy in the class, an middle aged buisness man with a beer belly who was very out of shape. He lamented that he would never reach our level and would always be an out of shape low wage office worker. I proceeded to tell him that he had already improved since our first class (I had false memories of other classes) and that he should keep trying and not give up, because this was a dream world and if one believed in something and worked for it he could make himself youthful and fit if he wanted to. He seemed to take my encouraging words to heart and affirmed his dedication to keep coming to our classes.

...

The semi-lucid dream had another segment where I was flying above a traffic jam but struggling to get the visual effect of the fire jets to appear.

2022-12-20:
+ in my room, on my laptop looking at (inappropriate) material, videos maybe, the screen zooms out of my control, and at that moment some guy enters my room. I'm frantically trying to cancel and close the video but the zoom feature is stuck and I'm pounding on the keyboard to try to get control back

+ outdoors daylight group of weird young people: two girls have <female privates> on the back of their heads, some dynamic action, squirrel woman?

+ church loud singing girl take up woman comes down her hands are bound leather metal ring
In a Church large high ceilinged cathedral, slanting seating like in a stadium leading up to where the roof meets the floor, the priest and choir are chanting/singing but it's hard to hear them because there is a group of people behind me (leading downwards, I'm facing upwards as the floor climbs up) who are talking very loudly and drowning out the choir. There is a girl who is crying, her mother takes her up to the top there are beds/pods there and lays her down there, then comes back down to where I am in the pews, there's a guy next to me, (she has the face of a squirrel? don't remember this but it's in the notes), her hands are bound up over her head with a small black leather belt and there's a 1-inch chrome metal ring protruding out of the top of the leather belt.

+ kiss the pretty girl, "you're so beautiful!" (purple outfit?), observation platform up above: do they see me?
We're lying on the ground in this open area, her teeth are fairly pronounced and her lips are thin

+ long table tea party with spitoon(s?) turns into meeting on language evaluations, "we used to be the rainmakers"
(This is the observation area from the above scene?) People are sitting at a long narrow table [DS!!!!] like a picnic table. I'm observing from one point and everyone is sitting a few feet in front of me. There's one guy with a spitoon for his chewing tobacco (and he's spitting into it?), other people are serving and drinking tea, I wonder if someone's going to pour the spitoon out mistakenly as tea?
Moving back up the table towards where I am people are reviewing documents, an opened book, I see a lot of words written there, it's a language guide? The group are instructors teaching (English? Linuistics?). Two people who have fallen out of favor and are no longer leaders of the group say "We used to be the rainmakers" (meaning leaders). The leader is turning the pages of the book and evaluating the students , there is wording there describing the characteristics of each student (?)


2022-12-21:

+ earlier (didn't write any notes): fight in the snow on LaLom blvd in B hills?

+ in a bank: indoors, large open area. Row of agents on higher elevated area on stools sitting at counter, they're sharks giving people bad rates?
I'm discussing a (loan? financial transaction of some kind) with bank's team in the middle of the large room. I pull up a high table with a tall chair and bring it alongside the large conference table at sit on the stool, the banker asks what I'm doing, I'm angry and say that the table is too low and uncomfortable and I'm upset about discussing my private information in such a public space. The banker (team of them) then moves our meeting to a private meeting room on the side of the open area.

+ in a family reunion? I'm walking behind my mom and I see a guy walk past her on the right, shouldering her obviously on purpose twice in rapid successsion. I get mad at him and call him out and say it was on purpose. He jumps on to a long table [DS] flopping on his back in front of some other guys sitting at the end of the table. A couple of my relatives get up and leave the reunion in protest to how my mother was pushed. I decide to stay and continue to listen and side of move to a hiding place and crouch down
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It becomes a product troubleshooting meeting. They're talking about problems with the products. I stand up and say I'm glad I stayed to listen, and tell them that I have seen the problems myself: using my concrete printer I have notice that the plastic parts are too brittle and tend to shatter. There is an idea of urgency in needing to address the problems and get the product launched as soon as possible.

+ company N screen: an employee is demoing a screen technology, sitting at a desk in a large open indoor area [DS], this screen material has the special property that it highlights movement of objects that are (not supposed to be there?), I think this would make it a great material for a fighter jet windshield as it would highlight (the objects get brighter to make them easier to see) incoming enemy objects.

WTF

Had a dream where Jesus was telling me Jamie is going to die soon. His exact words. Ummm... Not sure if i believe it. (I can't vouch for my dreams being 100% prophetic, just sometimes strange real life coincidences with them). Since i haven't heard from her in so long, and we don't have any mutual friends, if such an event took place I would likely never know of it. It's already like she died in a way to me, I suppose... It seems like she wouldn't lift a finger to reach out even in the event of imminent death anyway. So, besides having and posting these dreams (A well that has already pretty much dried up.) there's absolutely nothing I can do about it.

Visit from beyond

My Cousin Kiah, Who had a seizure and drowned not 10 feet away from where I was sleeping, while she was detoxing from fentanyl addiction. Saw me in a dream in some house and run up to me, started talking to me. I started freaking out and screaming in fear as she's supposed to be dead. She looked really offended by that. Wow.


Crazy flashes

(note this may or may not be related to the Jesus prophecy dream) I was a girl or woman. It was really dark, I was with someone who was also injured, We are freezing to death maybe outside or in a place with no heating. Something burns out. I say, or the other woman says, "OH NO!!! IT's Burned out!!!." we both start sobbing because it means death for us. Flashes forward we are both trying to run somewhere to safety but we are fading fast.

This dream felt like I was watching a movie. Of course, because it was a dream, it pretty much felt like I was watching it through VR, like I was a ghost or something. Anyways:

The "movie" takes place in medieval times and followed a guy. He was big, and a bit dim, but motivated and kindhearted. He kept trying to deliver a very important and powerful item to someone in power that would be used to save the day, but this person was actually evil! They kept avoiding taking it because they know it would be used to stop their plans.

Eventually, he spontaneously decides to get on a horse and quickly travel to their new house, still being built, to see if they're home. He finds that they aren't there, so he decides to look around the place. He doesn't find much, until he looks under the floorboards. He slowly lifts a board out to get a crack at what's below, and he finds a hidden basement! He looks shocked, and is ready to go in.

He puts the floorboard back where it was, but it spins in place, like the signposts in Sonic games. As it spins, each rotation causes the area shown beneath it to be something brand new, caused by magic. It finally stops spinning, and it ends up on a restaurant.

He takes out the floorboards, and jumps into the room. It appears to be a sort of Italian restaurant, with brick walls, warm yellow lighting, and red and white checkered tablecloths.

After just a moment, a waiter, a female anthropomorphic frog, walked up to his table, and asked what he wanted. He decided to try an order he knows no restaurant is able to serve him: "I'll have deviled eggs with pepperoni and a side of cornbread."

Shortly after, she came back with the order exactly. He was shocked, and it tasted amazing too!


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That was kinda a random dream, but it was fun to watch unfold!

BT 00:45 19.12.2022

+ walk past company N group, they do not respond to my greetings. Outside, daytime, walking in bare hills?

+ company N stock window: standing about 20-30 feet back from a service window counter with 4 open windows with 4 parallel lines with people standing single-file. I'm in the 2nd line from the left, and it's the "purple" line. My line surges forwards and I see a bit closer to the front. Each window is different, and has a big title over each window, a range of digits, which I think has to do with the purchase price that the employee has made in the (ESPP?) plan. My old friend and colleague JoWei is at the front of my line, and is handing in pieces of people filled out in a matrix style. I think and say that these look like bingo cards.

+ JTy conversation. Company N colleague, asks me "how did you like the <conference>?" I answer that "I'm bummed, because I thought that somebody [from company N] would have called me back by now. JT says "call me, then I will be able to call you" (because it will be answering my call as opposed to reaching out to me, which he's apparently not allowed to do).

+ discovery and publication of an important math function, books, featuring arrows, the theory has been evolving over time. In a covered parking area at night time, I see pages of the books discussing this discovery, it involves diagrams with arrows on them.

+ screaming at (actors? characters?) from the hobbit on a dark hill just below me, trying to fly up to the top, can't fly, (they're dragging at my feet?), I'm screaming about how bad the movie adaptation was?

waking
WBTB
came downstairs
BTS (about 0.5 - 1 hour later?)

+ I'm preparing for a fight against an opponent, I have some apprentice (young girl?) who will fight my opponent's (dog?). I will fight with my sword, it is a long sharp slender rapier. I'm trying to find it. There are a pile of short kitchen knives, serrated knives, even a long and heavily serrated blade, but this is not my sword

+ sitting outside in daylight on a high ledge with son S2 on my left and S1 on my right. I say something about <term for oral sex performed on a woman>, son S2 says "c**t lips and a**hole!" I say "did he just say c* and a*?", son S1 says "vaginal...<something>".
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I move to the left, I'm hanging/floating outside a building's (2nd floor?) window, I'm inspecting growing vines there, I discern that there are cherry tomatoes growing there, (out of season so I'm a bit amazed?), I comment on this to the owner, I fall down towards the ground on my way down I pass a mass/web of (poorly seen) dark blobs which I think are spiders, continue down and I see another, larger such blob: dark/hazy poorly seen large clumps of spiders. Can't move on the ground, struggle to move, wake up in bed jerking my arm.

+ in a room indoors, neutral lighting. There is a girl there, babysitting a small weird creature. It is vaguely human, very small, with a small head, sort of "Dobby" looking from Harry Potter but smaller. It is sort of slightly moving around and wagging / turning its head. I say "he's so small!" she answers "yes due to his (medical) condition." She lies back raising her arms up, I notice some black pit hair, I think this means <other places> are hairy, too. I'm looking at her and wondering if I can engage with her. Is she too young? She mentions how dirty this place is (apparently my place?), how "you haven't picked up since I was here (2 weeks ago?)". I look around and see a lot of McDonald's wrappers, I begin picking these up. I see a number of sauce containers peel-off tops around and also pick these up.

+ With wife L. She's upset that I'm spending time (returning to?) a group led by "Hagrid" (?), she doesn't want me spending time there: "Leave his group!" she says. I say OK, you know best. She is either topless or in a tight halter/tank top and looks really sexy. We go to relax in a "water pod," we put our heads inside, and look up, and I'm amazed that I can breathe easily inside the water.

final waking ~09:50, OOB 10:06

I was walking through some sort of large place with tables that people were sitting down at. A convention hall for clubs and hobbies, or a lunchroom, perhaps. I was asked by the people of a certain table I passed by to do the "Crystal Eye" Test, or something like that, I forgot. (It had "Test" at the end of it, for sure).

I responded with "No, I do lucid dreaming, thanks."

They had dumbfounded looks on their faces, and I just continued walking away.

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So, I think this is related to concepts like reality shifting and astral projection, which I don't believe in. But also, dang! I literally mentioned lucid dreaming in a dream, and nothing came out of it!

I walked into a classroom (like this was my goal, to be there for the next period of school), and it was a Science test about the "San Francisco version of modeling positions". I tried to figure it out quickly before the test started by looking at the notes of someone who was sitting next to me, but I couldn't figure it out. I then tried copying their notes, but it seemed nonsensical to me.

Also whatever this is, that I recorded in the dream journal entry right after: "Left or right = convert to a specific 4 letter word I forgot, add a longer specific word I also forgot that makes it 15 letters. 15 x (i)686 (for left) or 15 x (x)64 (for right) multiplies to a big number you need to do it."


So, this dream was kinda a bunch of nonsense, which is odd. I did take a science test the day before though. By the way, i686 and x64 are computer hardware architectures. Maybe this is all related to when I don't study for tests and can't fully figure out what some vocab terms mean. They're just nonsense to me.