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bedtime: about 1am
long time to sleep at bed time

+ (impression) Something Lord of the Rings related, no concrete memories

+(mostly non-visual) in a gas station fueling a car, there is a guy there saying how this car can take either unleaded or leaded. Leaded, as long as (some other condition). I get him to repeat this because I'm pretty amazed at this flexibility

+ we leave a (church?) and the woman church official leaves the door ajar. My wife and I go back in. I try to place the door and the latch at the least suspicious angle. I'm trying to walk without being seen, so I'm keeping some perceived followers on the other side of obstacles as I move through the interiors. Then in the large open area, there are lots and lots of people sitting at desks/tables. People are there to get church approval for their plans. At one table nearby, a guy is introducing himself and telling the officials "this is a great book, you really should look into it." My wife is at a table, trying to get approval for our plans.

I'm in a room with a rope hanging from the ceiling. My task (to get final approval?) is to hang from the rope with my hands with my feet not touching the floor for 30 seconds. There is an analog clock on the wall and I try to do this and watch the second hand on the clock but I feel my feet are touching the floor and figure this will disqualify me. There is an athletic guy on my left with his rope and he successfully keeps his feet off of the floor the the full 30 seconds.

Then I realize: I do not have to use the strength of my arms, I could fashion a seat by tying knots in the rope and just sit in the loop for the 30 seconds. The rest of the time is me trying to tie knots in the rope but the rope has become huge cable and chains that are long and hopelessly tangled.

Outside with a (vehicle?) and some women workers, they are hooking up my (car?) to the supply lines. The supply lines seem to be electronic ribbon tables wound up into really huge spools, I see the computer-connector-looking ends as the women unroll them and attach them to my vehicle.

Wake, fairly long BTS
around 8am.
slow BTS, WILD attempt
final waking around 10:30?

+ LD#186 park maintenance room.
... I'm at the middle level of TV park (CH neighborhood), it is nighttime and I imagine that I could lash a small flying shield to my feet and fly around on it. I zoom down to the lowest level (BB courts) and I think that I can imagine things like laser guns and shoot things with them, which I do, up against the tennis practice wall, as I continue flying. There are obstacles outlined in bright red laser light on the edges, and I swoop around them avoiding them, having a great time flying. I think I could shoot some baskets like this but basketball doesn't really appeal to me. I fly up to around a tall streetlight up at the top of the back fence by the steep exit road down to the street below from the back corner, I think there are some people coming to this level and I want to avoid them [DREAM SIGN] (?). I look down at the gate and notice that it is made from two large solid metal doors. People wouldn't want to go down there because they could be ambushed.

I go down past the doors on the steep short curving road to the street below and notice a depression in the ground to the right, sort of a place you could climb down inside and be not seen, I think this could be a place also to be attacked without warning. I climb down inside this area and I notice that there is a very dark "cave" extending a bit to the back. There is a house immediately next to me with a murky window and I think I detect some movement inside which at first I'm concerned about then I ignore it. I look back again at the "cave" which intrigues me and use my smart phone as a weak flashlight and it reveals that there is a door to a small utility room there. I think this is the utility area for the park. I decide to go in and see that it goes back farther than I'd realized. About 20 feet from me in the low light I see a box sitting on something and it grabs my attention when I think I detect it moving a little.

I reach up my right hand and will the box to fly to me using TK. I feel a bit silly doing this because it won't work, but then I get an impression that the box flies towards me.
At this point I'm lucid and I walk further into the utility area. As I do so I see that the area opens up to a very large open light area like a gymnastics floor. I do a quick nose pinch with a quick short inhale and am not surprised that I can breathe. There are some girls sitting around there and this gets my attention. I'm wondering what to do but caveman takes over.

Spoiler for brief sexy time:

I'm feeling pretty horny so I take out my (ahem) from my pants and look down briefly at it. I look up again and see the girls are still sitting around. I pick the one closest to me and go up and position myself for some "attention"

and then I wake up.

I find myself in a dark room of what feels to be the 2nd story of a building. I walk toward a door, but something feels very strange. This feeling stays with me for a few seconds, and I begin to recognize 'the dream feel'. I put my right hand out in front of me, and it hits me: I'm dreaming. I walk into the next room and turn right to see a second story railing overlooking the first, in what appears to be my childhood home. The area is very dark, and the vividness is a bit weak at this point. I ramp up my awareness at this point, and the clarity/stability becomes a bit stronger. I look down and notice the front door as well as the large window above. Instead of heading down through the wall as I've done in other dreams, I decide to go down into the first floor, walk around, and stabilize for a bit.I make my way forward, yet the visuals quickly collapse into black. I tell myself to hold focus and to wait for images to start up. I hold in this area for a bit, then clasp my hands and begin imagining energy moving between them while making a waving motion in order to replicate friction and stay anchored. I hold for a while as images begin to appear into my awareness, as though the next dream is ready to load. I see a snowy town with lined up houses and a few cars parked outside. It reminds me of my uncle's neighborhood in the winter time. Shortly after, I wake up rapidly.

I was in my house with two of my sisters. It was a cold evening, we were in the living room. I was holding a short bow. I shot and the arrow hit a wall, going deeply inside it. Younger sister went there and took it out - it left a huge hole. I couldn't hold control over the bow and shot again, this time at a ceiling.

We decided to join with rest of our family and went to a small stadium where a movie night was happening. We took our seats and the movie started. Suddenly I found myself in the movie. It was a sunny day. I was inside some modernly furnished house. I had a strange feeling that something is wrong. Looking to the kitchen I saw my sister standing motionless. I used backdoor to get out of house without her noticing me, but saw that the way out of backyard is blocked by my neighbors, also motionless. I went back to the house and tried to sneak up to my room for something to defend myself with. Suddenly one of the steps in stairs creaked and sister moved towards me. I ran to bathroom and took some wooden log to fight. She opened the door, I knocked her out with wood and took her by legs. She was light as feather and I could easily carry her around. I sensed someone in the kitchen - it was the mother. I jumped inside there and used sister as a cudgel. Mother looked like a rotting corpse, she caught the sister and said "Nice idea..."

I found myself back at movie night, though in different place. I went back to my seat and watched.

The man navigated a cavernous subterranean maze, a confusing warren of suffocating tunnels leading to an abyss which true heights and depths were shrouded by its inky darkness. The tunnels in the cavern walls might lead upward but to reach them he had to cross great expanses on narrow and rickety wooden bridges. Even then, tunnels were treacherous and often deceptive, seeming to lead upward and outward only to lead deeper into the maze.

He could only see a few feet in front of himself and if he paused too long to consider his course of action the sentient, seeking darkness would become aware of his presence and destroy the bridge where he stood, for it could sense the light he emanated and sought only to eradicate it.

He had no idea how long he’d been underground, but it finally happened!
He clawed his way up through a chimney-like tunnel and found the ground floor!
There were windows!
He could see the sky! All wondrous and bright blue and beautiful over an evergreen forest.
Two doorways stood before him and he didn't have long to choose, so he chose the one nearest the window, thinking it would lead out into the glorious OPEN.
Oh, it did, but not how he had hoped, for on the other side there was a balcony. The door snapped shut and locked behind him. I could feel his tremulous, keening panic. As a ghostly bystander, I tried to reassure him that all hope was not lost. He could still jump, that the drop was no more than 8 feet from the balcony to the forest floor. Although he sensed me there, he shook his head to himself and remained convinced he couldn't make the jump because he had injured his leg in the climb.
After an eternity in the dark there was no retreat and no advance.
His despair was immediate and exquisite, he berated himself harshly. How could he be so stupid? He couldn’t even choose the right door! Especially now when it mattered most.

So, exhausted beyond all measure, he leaned against the railing and wept silently into his hands, knowing that now there would only be view of the open and no real escape.

I was in a house & the whole dream was so full of twists & turns that it was ridiculously complicated that even I couldn't sort it out to write it down, lol. Not lucid though.

My mom, another person, and I were driving motor cycles around town. Mine was neon green and black. The other's were yellow and black and orange and black. My mom rode on the back wheel all the way up the road. We were all going kind of fast. We did a short loop around town before we got back. I was relieved because I had't driven a motorcycle before and didn't know how to drive it very well.

I take my hand off of the silver car as the engine starts up, and turn away from the car as well as my brother. I begin to fly upward in the direction of a large pine tree. As I ascend and head toward the brancehs, my awareness begins to raise. I finally land high up on the branches, and turn back down to look at where I had flown from. Something feels a bit strange...surreal. I do a quick glance at my hand, but it's not very necessary; it hits me: I'm dreaming! I repeat to myself with the realization: "I'm in a lucid". I look at the pine branches and notice how vivid and blue they are. I glance up at the sky as well and take in the blue hue. I look downward and get a glimpse of the house I had flown from. The visuals quickly collapse, yet I hold awareness, and become determine to hold my awareness all the way through. I tell myself "Eric stay in this" then tell the dream "last an hour...last an hour". I continue to hold awareness in this void state, and remind myself mentally that it's just a 'loading area for another dream'. I rub my hands constantly to anchor. After some time I begin to imagine myself paddling a surfboard, and a wave finally reaching me and catching me. The feeling is interesting, but visuals don't kick in. I then decide to pretend I'm riding a skateboard. Again, no visuals. I suddenly realize I'm in a white tunnel/massive empty area and see a dark figure of a person begin to appear a distance away. I lose lucidity as the dream forms, and see myself walking toward my point of awareness with athletic clothing, and a slight limp as if I had hurt my left side. A tunnel area is fully formed at this point. The dream quickly jumps to an interesting fragment in which I'm explaining the lucid dream I just had to a middle aged man. He's wondering if it's a shared dream I experienced, and I explain how real it felt.

Not a lot of physical details to this dream. I went into it with the idea of all those subliminal messages and affirmations one can listen to when they sleep. I'm having a nap and I put my headphones on with a playlist from youtube of swlf affirmations on. This stuff usually bleeds through inyo my sleeping mind so I was preparec when it dis and grasped onto the affirmation with a lucid effort to take it a step farther. It was like an inward journey with me taking the affirmation and directing it intentionally into my sub conscience. Of course I don't know how to do that but that's the magic of dreams. You don't have to know how it's going to work as long as you believe it will. I focused as hard as I could on the affirmations, not the dream. It was like sleeping but being completely awake and meditating on a particular thought. I imagined feeling a bit dizzy from the effort of trying to reprogram my head.
I've just read that buhdist monks and eastern Hinduism used licid dreaming as a tool for spiritual cominion and growth. Now Im wven morr interested in what I can do with these dreams.
No time for edits so hope this is legible

Starting to have a hard time remembering my dreams so it's time to start writin' 'em down again.

Took a nap and had a dream that I was. The bunny from zootopia (whatever her name was). I had just come to the city and, as I knew I wasn't "really" the bunny, I knew I wanted to change some of the movie to make it more fun for me. Instead of getting a small apartment to myself, I roomed with clawhauser.

At some other point, there was something about an aerial race that was about to begin, but the area was covered in a smokey cloud cover, so they needed someone to clear it out. I was there pretending to be a pilot, but I really wasn't. I wasn't planning on actually flying, but then they selected me to fly up and disperse the clouds. It was either fly a plane that I didn't know how to fly, or out myself as not really being a pilot, so I just got in the plane and tried my best. I kept making dangerous mistakes, but the crowd mistook them as being intentionally dangerous stunts, so I dispersed the clouds without suspicion.

Sometime later, I'm playing WoW and my character is in a four-story wooden building with two other player characters. All the NPCs here are male dwarves. There's one repeatable quest (although the ! mark is yellow) which is just a race between everyone else to find 5 candles before everyone else. There really isn't much in the way of quest rewards- it's just a fun little thing to do with friends. I'm a Druid and I use my travel form (which was the old one- a cheeta)(inside) or my cat form plus aspect of the cheetah, which made me as fast as my travel form. I'm with a shaman who uses their wolf form, and a warrior, who apparently also has some kind of faster animal form.

Sometimes the candles trigger monster attacks and you have to defeat them before you can continue finding candles. There was some kind of smallish shadow dragon thing on the top of the building that was a boss. We mostly avoided him, but once I accidentally ran out onto the top of the building and got very close to him. I probably aggroed him, but I don't really remember what happened except that I was kind of an "oh crap" moment and that my teamates were standing in the doorway.

Open Eye Visualization
Friday June 3rd 2016

-Prep

With eyes open, take long, slow, deep breaths. Feel muscles soften and loosen.
Feel focus and attention sharpen on an object, and then expand attention into the periphery.

Repeat long
slow
deep
breaths.

Smile knowing that this will ground, center, and enhance the sense of well-being and adventure.
Expect nothing.
Enjoy everything that touches the senses.

-Begin

On the surface of the floor or table in front of you, allow an animal to appear.
Then let it do whatever it wants. At some point, call the animal over and offer it a treat, then let it run and play again, doing whatever it wants.

[It's a short-haired, black cat, purring and striding over to say hi. It rubs its head against my arm, then softly jumps down to explore the room.]

Allow another animal to appear, then let it do whatever it wants.

[A puppy appears on the ground. It's a tri-color Cavalier King Charles Spaniel. It hops with excitement, tail wagging, eager to play with the black cat. The cat obliges, using its quickness to pat the Cav's head as the Cav lunges in and out to nip at the cat's paws. They continue this play throughout the space, occasionally pausing to rest.]

Vividly create other animals to join the scene. Let them play along and do what they want.

[As the cat and Cav continue their play, I let a kitten join the scene. It instantly crawls up my jeans and shirt, settling on top of my shoulder, purring and rubbing its head along my shoulder, neck, and chin. It then settles into a comfortable spot on my shoulder, enjoying the space, purring and gnawing with warmth and proud satisfaction.]

Move beyond normal physics and visualize an energy connecting the animals.

[As the animals rest, their energy softens, expands, and fills the room with their warmth.]

[As the animals burst to life with excited play, their energy sharpens and concentrates, bursts forward in the direction of their attention. With each playful pat of their paws against one another, see an energy burst at each touch, like a sparkler at the end of a whip.]

As the animals move throughout the space, use energy streams to connect to them.

When intending to use the energy to push or pull the animals, the energy streams become dark-toned, concentrated, thin powerful lines.

When intending to use the energy to offer appreciation and gratitude, the energy streams become translucent, soft, and expansive.

[I see the cat and Cav chasing each other playfully throughout the space. I send a thin line of concentrated energy toward them, elevating them a few feet off of the ground. They continue playing as if not noticing the change in elevation. Then they pause for a moment, noticing the change, then continue to chase and play throughout the space as though they could fly all along, just waiting for me to release them. The sleeping kitten on my shoulder, raises its head, opens it eyes as if smiling at the scene, then lowers its head back down, lets its eyes close, then purrs back into a comfortable sleep.]

Repeat the steps above to increase the number of pets playfully moving throughout the scene, and enjoy the feeling that it creates.

If feeling adventurous, then join the fun using the same easy-moving playfulness as the animals, or shapeshift into something new.

If feeling expansive, then let the sense of self dissolve into a feeling of inter-connectivity where there is no distinction between self and other. Life becomes one continuous movement and flow. Everything is as it should be.

Continue this exercise until life's responsibilities come calling.

If feeling comfortable and confident, then use one of the animals to ride along during daily tasks or chores, playing throughout the space.

-End
for now.

The beginning of this dream was exactly like the movie "Love" but voyeur style. There was a woman and man in a bathtub in a room of people, passionately making love. At one point I subbed in for the guy, and had slow, beautiful sex for around 10 minutes with this woman. It was the opposite of the usual face paced sporadic nature of my dreams and very cool. After finishing that, I headed out to meet some friends of mine. In looking I found the cast of the office in a field cookng meals from scratch. It was cool to see all their ingredients laid out, and Dwight had live animals in cages to slaughter. From the field I boarded an airplane headed for china with chris. The pilot was chinese and very nervous, and he was sitting in with the passengers there was no dividing wall. As we approached the landing strip, which went out into the water on a giant dock, he got so nervous he messed up. He swooped past and hit the water, and softly plopped down. I was freaking out, I just survived a plane crash! I thanked the man and asked his name before jumping out on a dock we passed by. The people on there told me it wasn't a real plane crash because it was not exciting enough to watch and I agreed. Suddenly I could see the people and animals from the office field as incredibly massive figures on the horizon. That should have been a good indicator I was dreaming but I shortly woke up anyway.

Dreamsigns:
Beautiful Girls
Breathtaking views
The Office
Impossibly large things

It was a sunny afternoon, sky was almost clear and it was quite warm. I was wandering straight on steel, rusty railroad. The railroad was towering high above the ground, standing on rusted steel beams. I got to a place where two railroads crossed and heard a train. I speeded up slightly, then jumped to another track, relieved that I avoided that train. I looked around and from this great height, I had a nice view of my home town.

I started Taekwondo a little over five years ago. I did the same with proper lucid dreaming practice. And for anyone who reads my dream journal, they know that random martial arts fights break out. (Often with me a participant) The one thing setting this apart from other common themes is that the martial arts dreams (I use the term martial arts as a general term since some of the moves used are clearly not taekwondo) is that they are often tied to semi lucid or lucid dreams, while other dream themes. Space themed dreams, for instance, are almost always non-lucid.

I theorize that because I began lucid dreaming and taekwondo at the same time, Taekwondo became mixed up in that phase of heavy learning in the beginning with lucid dreaming, and is now pretty much a permanent aspect of semi-lucid and lucid dreams. Probably should feel happy that I hadn't started say, driver's ed at the same time I began lucid dreaming. Then my life would be a never-ending string of car-crash dreams.

I remember being on the main street of my town. We were under attack by deadpool clones. I think there were 6 or 7 of them, and they all had numbers on their foreheads. They were made by an evil comic book antagonist who was 'testing them out' on our town. I also remember there was a school bus loading up kids who wanted to take them away because deadpool was rated 'R'.

I reached into hyperspace and pulled out the anti-regeneration sword from the comic. (The one I saw on Death Battle) I started fighting them. I remember each of the deadpools had a different aspect of the deadpool amplified. One was super fast, one was super strong, one was extra crazy, etc. The one that was extra fast ran around me and there was a one punch man reference where he tried to kick me and I just held up my fist and his momentum carried his no-no zone into my fist. I think the dream even went as far as to show the 'technical difficulties' screen for a few moments afterward.

I recall at one point attempting to throw a lamp post at them, but super strength has never been my forte in dreams and when I tried to throw it it dropped before it made it to them.

But there was also logic that since they were aspects of the deadpool they all had 1/7th his intelligence of the original and were all as dumb as bricks. That's how I was able to beat them. I remember I got onto the last one who had a blue and black costume instead of red and black. He was supposedly the boss guy. He said something about chimichangas and pulled two burritos out of his pants. He bit two of them and spit out grenade pins then threw them at me. I dodged by hiding right next to my taekwondo studio. I distracted him with a poster of a naked woman that I pulled from hyperspace and threw my sword at him when he was distracted.

He didn't die though, he just became neutral and stopped attacking, and seemed completely uninjured. He made some kind of fourth wall joke, but in the dream that translated into saying something about the dream and making me lucid. (I had already been semi lucid.)

I remember blue deadpool walked off. I was standing outside the taekwondo studio. (I think it was on the wrong side of the street though.) I was lucid, but I was in a bit of a daze. I didn't know quite where I wanted to go with it since I wasn't expecting to be lucid. There were a few people standing outside waiting to be let in, none of whom I recognized from WL. One of them was this really old lady who was only about 4 feet tall and hunched over on a cane. She had a white belt uniform and she said that it was sparring class today, me vs her. It seemed like she was so old and frail she shouldn't be able to lift her leg to kick, but I could tell something was about to happen.

Sure enough, her opening move was to leap several feet into the air (additional note: dream martial arts usually seem flashy and impractical. If you've ever heard someone say that the martial arts in movies are flashy and impractical to make for a good film, well those also seem to be the moves that are used in dreams. Probably because dreams are a visual representation of a conflict or aspect of yourself, like a movie. They're not meant to be like waking life. But I just punched deadpool in the groin, and distracted another with a pin-up poster. Who am I to talk about this.) and attack me with a bunch of kicks. I blocked all of them.

Me: [I knew it. A trick!]
Her: [Hmph! Everyone I know falls for that.]
Me: [I haven't been around as long as you, but I'm no fool.]

She kept attacking me. I played defensive, waiting for her to make a mistake, leave an opening, or just get tired, but she wouldn't have it. I tried going outside her range, but she was too quick to close the gap. Eventually I saw her let up. Jumping snap kick threw her through a loop and tagged her chest. She jumped back.

Me: [I can't believe someone as good as her fell for that old trick.]
Her: [This is the same one who *garbled* Jonathan. Shouldn't have placed my expectations so low.]

I tried to put my foot down. I could tell the fight wasn't over and might have escalated from simple martial arts to including dream powers. But for some reason my right leg was stuck to my pant leg in a weird dreamlike way that left it bent and I was stuck standing on one foot.

Her: [Well put your foot down! Fighting Stance, let's go.]
Me: [I can't... well... this is embarrassing.]

She came over and helped me by putting a magical golden paperclip on my pant leg that would supposedly stop that from ever happening again. I guess the fight was over.

She said something and the dream scene shifted to the beach from my first lucid dream. The old woman said something about reconnecting with the past. I lost the dream the moment after we transitioned and woke up.

D1 - Staying in a small apartment . My partner does something seemingly unforgivable. My daughter is shocked and I feel ashamed. I tell her its over and im leaving, I cannot believe her. She just laughs in my face and says fine, go. I am left feeling desolate as I realise she knows I cannot leave while my daughter is still there. She continues to laugh and goads me into leaving

D2 - I am in a classroom. None of the kids will listen to me and infact two in particular who are talking back to me. They refuse point blank to do anything. Eventually I try to rally the other children to speak up and say why their peers should respond.
On leaving the classroom a manager makes a passing comment that I need to have all my work done and submitted by end of the day. Despite the fact they had seen how unruly my class was they gave no thought of support, the opposite infact lol.

[comment]
These dreams were very unusual as they were very near the mark to actual real life events. All have actually happened.

6.3.16

Last night went to sleep before 8pm. Woke up 3am, remembered these 2 dreams.

DR 1
Someone tells me that my brother is upstairs and he is the last angel left in the heaven. I ran upstairs to my moms bedroom. It looks same as in WL. I feel other entities in there and it's like that's some kind of a portal to heaven. I yell out to my brother "Don't worry, I'm coming to help you fight for the Good".

DR2
I look up and above the almost solid layer of clouds I see a silhuette of alien spaceship. Then there is more of them and their smaller attack ships are flying towards us.

We ran inside where they can't reach us with their "though weapons" and we organize into reistance. I put on my comfy clothes and I'm trying to figure out how to attach my litesaber so it' easily removed and put back. I'm trying to hang it from my left brest pocket button hole.

I hear skype ringing, I ask my dad who is in the living room if he can't hear that. I answer and it's my brother. He says Ididn't call him back about his video message he left me. (he did that IWL yesterday). I tell him same what wrote to him in skype in answer to his video.