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I have multiple False Awakenings and Lucid dreams all of the time.. One weird thing that happens during any type of False Awakenings that I have is:

I will realize that I am dreaming in the dream, and I will tell myself to wake up.. Then, if I try hard enough to wake up, I feel this pulling sensation.. It's almost like my soul is being ripped out of my body.. That's the best way that I can explain it... Usually, when I feel that crazy sensation, I wake up..


I either wake up into another dream, or I will wake up for real.. It's nuts.. I read somewhere that someone else has experienced the "pulling sensation." Nobody that I know personally has experienced something like that.. I was glad to read online today that I'm not the only one, and not crazy. Lol. In fact, I think that I read about that person's experience on here, but I can't find it again...

I decide that I should start posting a phenomenon that used to happen to me once a month. To describe this before hand I used to have these "dreams" once a month that I feel that I am in a dream but I am not. I am sleeping at the time but in these specific dreams I feel like I am both awake and at the same time not. It took me a while to try and figure out what this grey area was. Even though I can dream control in these specific ones I can not. I can control any aspect of any normal dreams because I started to experiment (with the help of tulpas) to begin to feel the electric current in my own head and what parts where generating what aspect of my dreams so I could begin to gain total control. Through this method I would just have to tell one thing to change with one message and it would. With these dreams however I couldn't change anything because I wasn't generating the area. With how I have gathered dreams to work is that I like to thing of a little thought bubble with you in the center and the dream generates around you (like some video games). You will only see stuff in greater detail that is close to you but in these dreams it is farther than I can create and in far greater detail. Now for the dream part.

They normally start out in the same fashion. A pretty overly simplistic but overly detailed area (like a meadow or pond ect). The first thing that I notice is that I have all of my senses and that everything looks like I am awake but I still feel like I do in a dream. I will normally wander around since I can't change anything until I find someone. I will always find a different girl that I have never seen before crying, moping, or just sitting there looking hopeless. The first few times I had these I tried to say hi but I couldn't talk. I later found out that I could form a bond to them with my thoughts Where we could shat how we felt or memories that we had. After a while I was able to make a language out of this connection enough to talk to them. Throughout the dream we would share experiences and feelings to the point that we practically fell in love. At that point however I could sense a sudden fear or terror in them right before they vanished leaving me with a feeling that I will never see them again in my dreams or when awake. At first I pondered on that last part wondering why I felt like I would never see as person from my dreams irl. I began to hat these dreams because of how I knew how they would end. Some of the girls would just simply vanish but some of them would appear to be dragged away by something I couldn't see. I got to the point where if I really tried I could make some small things appear like a chess board.

My last one is a little blurry and I would also like to say now that I am not a religious person. I believe that if there is a god than that is all fine and dandy but that shouldn't really effect me until I am dead. I also believe that if there was such a holy and selfless being then he wouldn't want everyone spending their 1/7 days a week just to worship him. That said this is the details that I remember of it. It goes the same as the others but I had a plan this time. I would give myself the ability to sense whatever was taking them away and try to stop it. So I went through it like normal but this girl was different. She also knew how to talk through it like I could. She shared memories of some of the dreams she had and memories of her childhood and about her abusive dad. She also warned me about digging to far into what these where or else I would regret it. I felt he give into emotion to make this dream be over. As she started to be dragged away I game myself the ability to perceive whatever it was. That was a bad choice of words. The first thing that hit me was the unbearable smell that stung my eyes so bad that I couldn't see. I wanted to vomit but I couldn't. The only thing that I could smell was what I could describe as pure death. I finally got my eyes open enough to see it but it didn't have a true physical form. Its form kept on shifting and moving around. I decided to force a link on whatever this was and asked it why it was doing this to them. That was a bad idea. I didn't get hit with hatred or any form of entertainment it got from doing this. All it felt was depression past the point of wanting to kill yourself. How can you kill what isn't alive after all? It was a little surprised that I could see it yet alone talk to it. It responded telling me that even though that it doesn't want to do this it is being forced to do it. I asked it who is making it do this. He physically pointed down the hole that he was going to drag her into. He shared a memory of his real response was him actually pointing up and telling me who it was. I forced the pit to stay open after he left so I knew where they where being taken. The only thing I could hear where screams some loud, some far, hundreds, thousands, I couldn't perceive how many. I was left with one memory from her. Her suicide. He left me a way to find out why I was having these dreams. I decided to ask the person that was making him do this.

I decide to dig through whatever this was for the information I wanted and found what I thought I was looking for. People who kill themselves out of forgetting what love is must learn what it is again but people who have take their own life have no place up there so they must lean how to love again before they are sent to hell anyways? As you could imagine as a christian at the time I was not very happy with what I found out. After that I have had none of those dreams again. I have had similar dreams that I will post in another dj if there is interest. They where a little more taxing on me.

Got a weird one for you. So I woke up partially lucid in an unknown house with other people I didn't know (generated) in some big building. We all split up into groups of 2s to feel safer. There was a person who brought us all there with the same rules as in the anime dangan ronpa. The only way out of the house it to kill someone there and get away with it. My dream had more modern stereo types than the show however. I was the odd man out so I decided to follow a group of 3 to feel safer. Most people where having sex to pass the time but I just mostly stood on the sidelines and waited for something to happen. I stayed with at least a group of 2 at all times to make sure that I was not a suspect. The next day we decided to check in on some emo guy but when we opened the door he was dead. At first we thought he killed himself in some ritual or something but when we got back to the room with some other people there was a girl there trying to cover it up. She looked more scared than anything. We had a trial after about an hour of investigating and we found out that he was going to try some weird ritual with her and that she was scared for her life where she then ended up killing him. We concluded this in the class trial where she was then executed by the person who had us captive. We all mourned for them the next few days to come even if we could now go to the next floor of the building. After talking it over with a few of them I decided to reset the dream and remove the emo kid as a variable but let them keep their memories. This time I decided to partner up with the girl that the emo kid was with. We talked for a while in the living room where I decided to ask her if she wanted anything to drink. After I poured the drinks I told her what she really wanted and began to grope he and we made out for a bit. She then told me that I was a terrible kisser but I commented on how she still wanted me to continue (which she did). After some time of this I thought that I heard my alarm clock and woke up IRL 3 hours before my alarm will actually go off and decide that I will daydream the rest later. I will remember in better detail now since I have typed it.

This was the first night I attempted to WILD. If birds normally chirp at around 2:30 AM, I experienced no notable hypnagogia except for some pressure that came very suddenly. This didn't startle me much, though, since I've experienced it before in meditation. Anyways, the dream.

I wanted to create my own setting of a cool forest clearing on a cloudy morning, but I guess I didn't imagine it vividly enough because the dream setting I was in was a suburban neighborhood. It was still cool and cloudy, though, like I'd wanted it to be. I physically and lucid-ly ran around and played with the neighborhood's children; nothing notable happened. I got bored after a while and let myself slip into sort of a 3rd person point of view to where I was aware of myself but watching dream-me go about her actions. Eventually I shifted back into 1st person after playing cards with my dad, and woke myself up to write the dream down in my IRL dream journal.

I'm confident that my WILDs will become clearer if I imagine a familiar place and continue to practice. I have a choir audition tomorrow, so I plan to try and practice / roleplay that tonight.

Two days ago, I was reading about SSILD and I thought I'd give it a go as soon as I could, and this time was today. This morning I woke up after exactly five hours of sleep, so it was the perfect time. I did a WBTB and read about SSILD during this time. Then, I went back to bed and put the technique into practice until I fell asleep.

In the first dream, I was flying. It was a game, like I was playing in a fake reality, so to speak. In said game I was a heroine and I had to solve whatever issue I came across. So well, I was flying around when I heard an explosion quite far away from where I was. I decided to go towards the explosion, flying over the road, and I could see at least 20 police cars, with their blue lights on. The dream was more detailed than that, but I spent more time writing what comes next.

Then, I opened my eyes and I was in my room. I thought "quite an interesting dream I've just had". I got up to pick something up from my desk (I can't quite recall what) and I noticed I couldn't open my eyes properly. I thought I may still just be half asleep. I made a noise and I heard my sister, we share a room. I couldn't make out what she said. Then, I went to bed again and at that moment I realised "why can't I open my eyes? Could this be a false awakening after the SSILD?". I pinched my nose and, sure enough, I could breathe through it. I didn't do this first RC properly, I must say, I just did it very quickly after the realisation. I got out of bed and thought a couple of times: "clarity now!", to see if my eyes would open. The reason why I just thought of it and not say it out loud is because somehow I feared my sister would hear me and think I'm weird. I mean, I was aware, but I couldn't believe I was in a dream. Anyway. I then ran out of the bedroom and up some stairs, thinking maybe the running would open my eyes. While I was running up the stairs I thought I'd be a good idea to do another proper RC, just to be sure. I looked at my left hand and it had six fingers, and my palm was larger than normal. For some reason this scared me and I let out a scream, but I stopped myself from getting too excited. Then, I did the nose pinch again with the same results, so I was entirely sure I was in a dream.

The stairs led me to the roof of the house. Just as I stepped outside, my eyes opened and I could see the surroundings with detail. The view was the same as the one we get from our real roof. I could see the neighbours' gardens and the church tower. It was cloudy and the sky was a faint yellow. At that point it struck me (I don't really know why) that I could not control the dream. Say, if I wanted to change the sky and clear it of clouds, I wouldn't be able to. But I didn't care. I was too busy admiring the detail of the view. Then, I felt a really strong curiosity to know what the chalk wall would look like close-up. So, I went very near a wall and looked at it closely. I stared at it for some seconds and I was overwhelmed by the vividness of the dream. I had read that some dreams could feel very real, but I didn't know it could look that real. At that point I thought from now on I'll see ADA, RCs and all that in a different way. Finally, I reached out my hand to touch the wall, I wanted to know if it was so real at the touch as well, and at the moment I touched it, I opened my eyes and I was on my bed again. My body felt heavy and somehow I knew I was awake for real, but I pinched my nose again just to make sure. Then I got my phone and started writing.

(This was from 4/29/14)

I had a lucid dream. Surprise. My twelfth one. But it was cut short > : ( I remember thinking I might be in a dream. Where I was at this time, I cannot remember too well. Someplace a bit dark maybe? I think someone was with me? My dad? Can't be sure. I think the dream was actually in third person before I became lucid, because I remember seeing myself and changing the perspective to first person. I remembered to do a reality check. When I did it, of course, it worked. I then constantly reminded myself I was dreaming and rubbed my hands together a lot. I remember my hands feeling so...real rubbing against each other. I think I might have bumped into someone and I could feel how real the clothing they were wearing felt. It was all very vivid, perhaps more than usual. This might be because of the binaural beats I listened to before bed, which was supposed to induce more realistic dreams. Anyways, I was in a store. This time, it looked more like a Target. It was all nice, clean and bright. I refused to let myself get distracted and ignored the dream characters in the store as much as I could. I walked around the store a lot, through different isles, passing different people. Some said hello or something like this to me. I would respond, but keep walking. I remember toy isles, electronics isles, hair product isles, It's amazing how close it was to Target. While I walked, I continued to rub my hands together and tell myself I was dreaming, trying to stabilise the dream the best I could and keep it together, and thought about what I should do. I remember shouting "100% clarity" and everything in the isle I was in became even sharper then it already was. I could especially see a difference in the tile bellow me. I actually said "Woah." outloud lol. I thought about my dream goals. I remember thinking it was kind of more difficult to remember once I was in a dream, but I forced myself to remember. I decided I would try to look for my dream guide again. I then thought about how I would do it. I think about just going up to a door, but then I remember what I did in my first lucid. I walked up to a DC and asked them to take me to him. I decide I will do this again. That is when I start losing the dream. I remember thinking "No. Not again." I remember being at a brown front desk area with bad lighting, running into someone, and the dream ended. My alarm interrupted my lucid and woke me up T^T

Damn

So I am with all my friends at the gathering in this big cavern, where this one band is playing. So I needed to walk out side (can't remember anything before this) and when I was back, I saw my girlfreind practicing bells in the snow. She sees me and says, "Check this out!" Then she plays a middle G, a high g,and middle E. It didn't sound that good. Her bells were blown out of glass and were colored blue and there was only one octave well kinda. Also there were no flats or sharps. I kinda think, hmmm is this a dream? I don't do a Reality check but I kinda have this sudden albeit murky awareness that this is a dream. Maybe it was the concentration it took to focus on the bells and what notes and whatnot. So I leave her there and go inside and when I go inside, she is again practicing inside, right next to the stage . I don't think anything of it and ask her if she wants to go sit down. She says yeah sure. And puts up her stuff and while she's carrying it away she says, "Thanks a lot, Trey," I think o gosh she's gonna hurt me now. I walk to our table and start whistling the tune from Zelda Ocarina of time. Then the stereo starts playing it. This assures me that this is a dream and makes me wanna do one of my tasks. So I sit down and think. What I write down on this post-it note I will become. But then oh that would be weird with all my friends here. Lol? So I tell them I'm going to the bathroom and one justs shakes their head at me. So I go through this one door and I think there is going to be a bathroom through this door and sure enough there was. I go to the mirror and see my reflection. Perfectly normal. So I try to change it. I try to change my hair color from dirty blond to black and it works. Then I just try to think of someone and see if the mirror looks like that. But I ended up looking like Adam Levine crossed with a hillbilly. Then everything in my dream went dark. I think o gosh the dreams over. I try to reeneter it but no luck. So I open my eyes and write my dream down. Then I realized, I could of tried a DEILD there's.

Got one last night.

I woke up in front of my old house(lucid) so I decided to fly around and find out what kind of mew mischief I could cause in my old town. I evened out the landscape (to make navigation easier) and started poking around peoples houses without them noticing me. I started moving their garden decorations around to mess with them and eventually ended up at some sort of crypt. I was messing with some of the stuff there but eventually someone saw me and tried to stop me. I just flew through the other side and past them out of the door. I eventually lost them by flying through someones house and climbing out of the top window. I went back home and then woke up (IRL).

Regular= Non-lucid Bold=Lucid

I am coming down from the cafeteria, to the band room, only to see that we are eating at a Taco Bell inside the school. I sit down and talk with my friends, noticed in particular my girlfriend and Joe(freind) Then, my youth pastor, who sometimes comes to our lunch and talks to us kids says come outside were doing something different. So we all go outside and it's like sunset. This really annoying sub says you guys can't go out more than 100 meters from the school because it's late. So everybody goes inside except for a few. I stay out with 2 friends and hang. Then the lights go out. I try to get in the door but nobody is inside. Then I hear a snarl. A stray dog is baring its teeth and looking straight at me. I think, this is a dream! I try to stop the dog with dream control but I can't. It charges me jumps and just like hits the force field. Then I go inside, but I wake up sleeping in the office chair mumbling stuff in a lull like, " gotta remember this is a dream!" Then I think oh yeah I'm dreaming. A kid pokes out from my stairwell and says hi and I ignore him. I just immerse myself in my house, Feeling the blankets and walls and carpet. The I go in the kitchen and see a whole bunch of pills. I think to myself, if I take these pills I will turn into a centaur. But right as I'm about to take it my brother jumps out and scares me. I lose lucidity. Then I go and have this weird feeling that I need to write my dream down even though I was just lucid. While righting it down I couldn't think and I had another false awakening. Then I really woke up.






Notes: my third lucid dream so I'm really excited! I stabilized and almost used dream control... But that false awakening was weird. I've had them before but I just like woke up still thinking I was in that place and muttering I need to remember this is a dream.

It's 2:54am. I woke up and its raining.-w- Anyways I remember the dream from where i was in a weird room with clay items. I was with a boy and was told to make my own clay figure. I saw one that looked like a dolphin or whale and wanted to make it better. For some reason I already saw it as mine. Than thats when the boy apoligized cause he said it was too late to finish. I than was staying in a apartment with 2 men and my cousin. [After appearing there]My older sister was there too. The man was apparently rich with a assistant. I and everyone decided we didnt want to live at the apartment. So the rich guy offered us thousands of dollars to move. I thinking i didn't want to be there anyways was willing to sign it. But everyone else stopped me and told me it was not a good idea. Thats when the setting began to change and I saw a family and a little girl playing with a red toy I think. After a few things happened i appeared in a city like anime place. A guy was about to be put to death but i felt like they were going to destroy a good guy. I could see in a picture of the guy standing on some sort of trail. Than i was like i have to save him so i flew and burned somethings. Than the fire got bigger and they ran. I felt the guy was ok now so i flew away. I was jumping really high and was like "Oh no! where do i land!?" When i landed i was near a school and saw people around. I got scared some dc would attack or distract me so i said out loud "Time to go to work!".Like some average joe non suspicous thing. >w> Than a guy behind me saw me jump and run and was like "I found you!." I was like dang it and ran into a school. But when i ran through the hall and turned i slipped. The guy grabbed me and through me into some sort of thing, i have no idea what it was but my body was swollen and red all over. I was like "look what you did to me!".Than the guy was like it was my fault i think. After that i appeared in my kitchen not swollen or red and was mad at my bro for what happened. I was drawing 2 flowers extending to eachother and my dad asked if i was going with my mom to church. I said yeah,thinking it would help me forget about the bad thing that happened. Than i woke up to hear the sound of rain. ^w^

OK. I don't recall my first dream. But this is how my second dream was. I was at a unusual place where there was a competition going on. Someone next to me said "wouldn't it be cool if we could go into the atmosphere without freezing." I said yeah than began to walk away. I appeared in a school with students around me. Some from my old highschool. There was a situation going on. A boy was talking to a girl about how he really wanted to be with her. He had given her a picture with ms.cupcake written on it in big words. The girl had light blond hair in a high bun, looked average and was wearing a white t shirt with shorts. It was apparently gym time. Anyways...she was telling him to leave her alone. That she didn't want to be with him. Than she started looking dizzy and fainted a bit on her knees. After that everyone was like "oh no.." The blond girl than ran down stairs and a group of students followed. A thought about her taking pills and probably trying to commit suicide popped into my mind. I was hoping she ran to the nurse's office. Than I said "That boy should have left her alone. This is giving me anxiety." Than a girl I remember from my old highschool said "yeah, me too" than I woke up.
My third dream was short too. I was thinking about how I wanted to dream. Some images appeared in my head and suddenly i felt like I was out of my body.I got scared and stayed in myself trying to connect. In the corner of my eye, I could see a portal. It was like a bright green well where a lady was doing magic in it. I heard her say something like she was about to do a magic spell thing. That's when I closed my eyes than began to shake. I also felt a sharp pain in my stomach area. Suddenly I teleported and hit a white wall still shaking. I was like owo. There was a girl passing by talking to another girl. Than I woke up.

After having had a shitty night due to a nasty cold, this morning I was feeling very sleepy. As I didn't have to go to the uni, I thought I would sleep more. It was 10 am when I last checked the clock in waking world.

I was lying on my bed and my mind was wandering, having random thoughts. My bed was on my boyfriend's corridor, the stairs of his house were at my left. Then I realised... that's not my bedroom, I must be in a dream. I felt somewhat strange, like I still wasn't entirely in the dream, because somehow I could still feel my waking body, it's hard to explain. It was like I had slept through the whole process of a WILD and I had awoken seconds away from entering the dream. Well, anyway. At this point I started hearing footsteps coming from the stairs at my left. I assumed that had to be an audible hallucination, but it still freaked me out. I thought I would test myself to see if I was in the dream for good or not yet. I tried turning my head towards the footsteps (my head was turned to the right) and if I could move it with ease, it meant I was already in the dream. When I did it, I felt I was completely paralysed. This scared me even more, I don't know why. Stupid as I am, instead of waiting a bit longer, I kept forcing my neck, I needed to turn it no matter what because the relentless footsteps were getting the better of me. I had never experienced paralysis or hallucinations this vivid ever before. At some point during this process, I didn't feel in the dream anymore, I felt my physical body so paralysed that even my eyelids were glued shut. And still, the footsteps were vivid. Ultimately, I managed to move my neck and when I did, I snapped out of the whole thing and the footsteps stopped. It was then when I cleared my mind and realised I had lost a golden opportunity. But anyway, I'm glad I finally experienced sleep paralysis and hallucinations with such vividness.

(This was actually from night before last, but I was too lazy to post it yesterday.)

Had a long lucid dream! Yay! That's like, what, three LDs in one week? (I had two other lucid dreams in that week, but did not post them. Get this though, I had them both in the same night! How cool is that?) Man, that's so awesome. I didn't even expect to have one last night since I didn't do as many RCs and didn't repeat my mantra as I went to sleep.
I remember it started off in some large building with a lot of people. It was very white and clean inside, no lights were on, but there was plenty of light from the sun coming through the windows. I think it was a school or an apartment. Some random guy, probably early twenties, who was thin, tall and had brown hair (I think he wore a sweater) came in and threatened us. He said we had to find the secret passageway hidden in the building within five minutes. I don't remember what he said he'd do if we didn't find it, but I don't think it was anything good. I don't know why he asked us to find it either. We were all panicking, searching rooms for a hidden door or something as he was counting down. I ran through rooms, sliding across the floors, peaking under beds, looking everywhere I possibly could. All the rooms looked like I said before; no lights on and the walls were all white. Also, most floors were wood or white carpet and the furniture seemed modern.
I eventually found a room that looked like my bedroom except clean. No furniture. It was around this point I suddenly realised I was dreaming and remembered if I found myself in my bedroom in a dream again I should try going through my mirror, just for fun. There were people outside the room and for some reason, I didn't want them to be able to see what I was doing inside so I left the door to my bedroom cracked. I walked up to my mirror and and touched it with my hand, expecting it to go through. It did and felt just like I imagined going through a mirror would feel; like going through a thick liquid. Suddenly I thought, what if this was the secret passage? I looked through the cracked door near me and saw that sweater guy was right outside the room. I think one of the DCs out there was one of my friends and I tried telling them where the secret passage was through hints so the sweater guy wouldn't know, but I sort of failed. He followed us into my bedroom and I told my friend to quickly go through the mirror. I tried going through the mirror, but couldn't force myself through. I took deep breathes and tried to believe I could go through the mirror. Then I finally went through, and I think I pulled that other guy through with me.
After going through, we were now outside near a big, white building in some city on a sidewalk. Behind me was a glass wall that was slanted over and attached to the white building we were next to. I'm assuming that's where we came out and if I walked through it I would be in my bedroom again. The sweater guy fell to the ground and I thought he might attack me. I don't know what I was thinking but I shot out my hand and froze him XD Not frozen solid, he could move, but not much. I thawed him out immediately afterwards (didn't want to freeze the guy to death) and asked if he was alright and said I was still getting used to dream control (or something like that). He only nodded his head, I don't think he spoke, and just had a ":0" look on his face LOL. He seemed really surprised. I don't know what happened to my DC friend. Must've just gone somewhere else? Probably ran away. I know I would have. After this I started running really, really fast just for the hell of it. Eventually I stopped and looked around. I'm still on a sidewalk, in a city, and next to me is a metal fence. I repeatedly told myself this is a dream, as always, and said things such as "This is going to be an awesome, vivid, long lucid dream!" and things like this to help stabilise the dream and hopefully lengthen it. I think that really DID help a lot, since the dream lasted quite a while (I think).
As I walked, I eventually saw a tree and then the sidewalk turned. Around the time when I see the tree, I say "100% clarity" to make everything more clear and vivid. Sure enough it works, however not as well as I would have liked. I continue walking and I see 2-3 people ahead of me, I think all brunette girls. Why I'm still walking and not out doing something, I don't know -_- They're discussing some restraunt or something like that. I think the scenery has changed and the fence is gone. I noticed the sky is a pretty blue with a few clouds and the sidewalk is replaced with pebbles. I see bright grass in the corner of my eye and a red building that kind of looked like a Chinese restraunt or something. Eventually I must have gotten close enough to them that they began to talk to me and ended up distracting me. The scenery has changed once again and it appears there are many more trees, it is dark, and there are a lot of bright, pretty lights and buildings. It almost looked like some sort of festival. My dream is fading a little and I've started to lose my lucidity until I finally remember I'm dreaming and I repeatedly tell myself this and try to stabilise my dream. "I need to leave this dream setting." I remember thinking to myself.
And the next thing I rememeber I'm in a store that looks like Walmart. I don't know how I got here. I think the scenery just changed itself. I don't know why it had to be Walmart though. Talk about random. I see isles of different items, such as toys and decor and useful items. I see my parents are here shopping and talking to each other about stuff they need to buy. I must've have lost my lucidity for a few seconds because I started thinking "Oh, I might need to buy some stu--" but then I'm like "NO, you idiot. You're dreaming. You don't need to go shopping." I don't remember this part of the dream too well but I think I interacted with my parents for a little bit and then I told them something like "Hey, I like hanging out with you guys and all, but I think I'm going to go out and explore my dream more." They seem to understand well and say something like "That's fine." and smile. For some reason, my parents ALWAYS know that I'm dreaming in my dreams. Kind of odd. Wonder if that means something.
I start thinking about my dream goals and decide I'm going to try going to Equestria. I want to go out through the exit, but I don't want to walk around the whole store looking for it so I try to fly. I swear I'm REALLY trying, but it just doesn't work. I was able to float for a few seconds on my stomach with my arms spread out, but I fell -_- So I eventually gave up and came up with the idea of trying to conjure a jet pack to allow me to fly. I look over to my right and see an isle of backpacks and I pick up a small, pale pink one and try to turn it into a jet pack. I fail. I think my mom came over and asked what I was doing and I said I can't fly so I'm trying to turn this backpack into a jet pack lol. She just says something like "Oh." in the most casual way like what I'm saying isn't crazy and people try to turn backpacks into jet packs all the time XD Yeah, that was pretty funny. Then the dream started to fade away and I could start to feel myself in bed. I try everything to try and stabilise it, saying different things and stuff and I even start to see my dream come back but I woke up anyway sadly.
Right when I'm about to get to the point of my lucid dreams, I ALWAYS wake up, ugh. Stupid me, I waste too much time doing random shit. But hey, oh well. I'll get over that and get better. I'm still pretty happy about this dream. I'm really confident I can master lucid dreaming. I just need to figure out flying again and be more focused in my dreams...

(Last night's dream I had April 21 around 3:30am I think)

My last dream started at my house I think I was with my cousin and mom near the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen and saw a pot with some white rice in it. Unlike my other dreams where I get mad if I think everyone ate without me. I remained calm. I ate some of the rice than left.(Yay Progress >w<) After that I appeared in a school. I saw people exiting and than suddenly someone yelled that the building was going to explode. So I and others ran to the exit I managed to escape after jumping and covering my head when I exited. After the explosion I walked into a apartment and saw a little girl with her mother. She was examining the girl's head from the back. Than began to talk to me. "You see these flowery lines on the back" the mother said while pointing at the back hair of her daughter."yeah" I said. The mom took out a white ointment and rubbed some on the back of her daughters head. "That's something the doctor won't tell you about" the mother said. I got worried it was something serious that I might have so I asked her " Can you put some on me? Please." She put some ointment on my back head than untied her hair and her daughters hair from their pony tails. "Sometimes you just gotta let your hair loose, you know?" The mother said. I thought to myself how I wanted to..but my hair is not good enough to be out now.Than that's when we felt someone else like an intruder was in the place. We decided to run together. We ran down the stairs and appeared in my house but in the downstairs hallway. It was dark. I could see the two other rooms but I was scared to go in the dark room. That's when the mom told me it was going to be Ok and helped me into the room. We could feel the intruder coming. " I'm scared..."I said a bit panicky. "I'm scared..." I said again than heard someone snoring . I turned to see a boy napping under a blanket. I began to shake his leg begging him to help me. He got up and said it would be OK. "But I'm scared..." I repeated. That's when a bright red light (the intruder) was near. The boy jumped out the bed in front of me. The setting changed a bit. He yelled to me "Go on the roof! than began to knock on a window sill that suddenly appeared in front of him. Than removed a face mask off his head. He looked at me than winked with a smile. I winked back at him intrigued by his actions. Then he winked again at me. Than I found it funny and winked again. Than after he winks one more time I went through the wall to my right and jumped on the roof. He followed me. The houses looked kind of mashed together. I jumped on two more roofs and landed on a very small red triangle roof. Looking down below I saw a scene where 4 people were. A lady asked if a girl was a guy's wife. She said "no, were friends." Than I woke up.

i am walking down the street. there are some people at the end of the street. they start to mess with me, so i tell them to go to hell. they open a door next to me, i walk through the door and i start fighting with them. suddenly
a gas tube appears in the middle of the road. suddenly gas smoke starts to leak out of it. all of them run through the previous door, leaving me behind. the gas tube is getting larger and larger. i look around and find a small tunnel beside me. i jump into the tunnel, then i crouch because the tunnel is to short. the tube is still leaking deadly smoke. i move to the other side of the tunnel, then i jump out of the tunnel. deadly smoke is not leaking anymore.
my grandmother appears out of nowhere. she asks me how i came here. suddenly i look at my hand and find out i am..........DREAMING!! everything is crystal clear and real. i am calm. my grandmother says something, but i ignore her. i suddenly want to teleport to the mall. i start to spin and find my self in the void, then i try visualizing the mall. it wont work. i close my eyes........CRAP!! now i am in sleep paralysis, after some seconds i wake up.
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i have done the same mistake before....