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I was at it again. Quynh is still haunting my dreams with feelings of suicide and murder. I'm sitting in front of my kitchen table, staring at the memories when me and Quynh were arguing over our friendship. We recently stopped chatting on Yahoo but I thought of others ways to gain back friendship in the dream.

I was losing myself and never knew when to give up on this girl. I messaged her in the dream and sent her a few photos of different areas of the world. I'm not sure why. She sent back a message telling me she didn't want a virus opening up one of my letters.

I turned around and stared at the front yard in front of me and wondered what this feeling felt like and why it felt so sad while I was thinking. I heard my mother in the next living room and it only made it worse because the more I saw her sitting on that couch on this boring day, I wanted something bright to come my way.

I later appeared in my own room, thinking. The room was dark. I laid upon my bed and thought more about Quynh. There was only one option I was able to perform to get rid of these thoughts. I wanted to kill Quynh and commit suicide. It was the only thing I felt was something to wait for. Then I woke up.

I'm somewhere in the same city I grew up in when I was a kid. I was no where near my home but I was somewhere near a friend's house. Her name was Trinh. I've only seen her face in a few dreams before. I felt like I've been here before. This place looks a lot like a dream where I once became lucid by noticing the no need to catch my breath after a long run.

At first, it made no sense to me what I was doing here. I wasn't here for long. I got teleported back to my old home in the same city. I don't remember much from being in the house once I teleported but, I do remember the time walking outside.

I was hanging around outside waiting for Trinh, me and her are going to walk together back to her home. I was in this area for a while until someone finally decided to show up in front of our house. The people who arrived were a few of Trinh's friends, and her. They came in a car. I fell to the ground once I saw them. I'm not sure why. I laid with my face towards the ground, looking at them. I saw everyone come out of the car and walk straight towards the house in the neighbors house. I saw Trinh walk in as well. I assumed she didn't want to go walking with me anymore. I didn't know what to do. It felt as if I was of no importance to her.

I got back up from the ground and walk over to my right, the garden. From there, I thought of another idea. Perhaps Quynh would like someone to walk with. After all, she is going to walk down this street in a couple of minutes. I noticed that my relationship in these types of dreams, Quynh was always my friend, never a stranger. I never did take a walk with her. I woke up instead.

I'm in front of the danger zone(a big red circle that indicates it just like in Assassin's Creed). There is someone I'm talking to. I'm assuming it was an ally because they were telling me to be careful as I try and attempt to make my way in to the danger zone. The more this ally told me about the enemy, the more I feared going in there. There was nothing I could do but have the courage to complete the job.

I decided to flank the enemy by going to the right side of the map, jumping and climbing through through buildings. It was fun but as I kept going through a few buildings, I feared one of the enemies would catch me. I finally stopped climbing and jumping until I came to a corner and stopped. In this corner I saw a circle to my left and as I got closer to it, the circle started to shrink. I'm guessing this is where I must make an entrance. At first I was just going to go in without any disguise but soon found out I can get in to a disguise. I knew this because before I walked in to the danger zone, I killed an enemy wearing a funny devil-like costume. There was even a cut scene that shows me, or Ezio, killing the human with the hidden blade.

When I soon made my way in, it now turned in to a Hitman Absolution/Assassin's Creed game play. I had to hide in crowds to make sure no one would notice me. There was a crowd of 4 people I moved in to and while I was in it, one of the guards found the body of the person I recently killed and searched it. As that happened, I quickly walked in to a dark corner right across the dead body and crowds. There was a set of stairs I walked up to. When I did, I found a room of a friend I recently met in the dream. In this room, there was a video recording setup. To my left, I found a window which viewed enemies outside. I decided to sit down for a moment and try to see how to get the video on a camera to show up on the television. I was struggling. But eventually, something happened. I heard a door opening behind me. When it opened, it was only my two sisters. They scared me for a second there.

When my two sisters walked in to the room, I was talking to them. I didn't tell them what I was doing here but there was one person who made it in to the dream to try and make me feel guilty some more. It was her again, Quynh. Quynh walked past the room we were in and as she past it, I only stared at her and thought, "What the hell is she doing here?!" Even when I stop my conversations with her in reality, I still see her in dreams. I hear her speak a few words but they only made me angry. If I remember correctly, I think she said, no wait, I forgot. :/ But she did say things like not having anyone to love, how good of a life she has, and how happy her life is without me. All of which made me mad. My two sisters tried to cheer me up(knowing there was something wrong with me) by telling me Quynh has a big chin and lives on the corner of 19th street. I think I only remember this stuff because my niece tells me this all the time in real life when she sees me sad. Then the dream ended.

I fell asleep a few minutes after feeling sleepy and cold in front of the computer. I made my first appearance inside a car parked on the street my home was in. My parents had just left the car to get something from our home next to us. I sat in the front seat waiting.

I wait a while inside the car until something happened. The car suddenly turned on and the car was about to start by itself. I panicked! I quickly grabbed on to the steering wheel but as soon as I did, the car started to move backwards . I tried to control the wheel, so I wouldn't hit any houses on the narrow street. The car continued going faster. I stepped on the brakes but the car kept on going! I was doomed. I was always afraid of driving cars in my dreams. I was never sure why. Probably has to deal with how I control things in real life? Anyways, a few seconds later, the car backed up so much that I hit a tree at the end of the street. I was relieved I didn't die. Now it was time to go back home.

When I finally got back to my home, I don't remember how but, I was now inside the living room of the home. It was dark. There was a few other people in the living room at the time. All of which I've never met before. I seemed to have some kind of long relationship with them in the dream though. The light was on in the middle of the room and all 4 people(including me) were gathered around looking at some of the family photos we had on the table. I was the only one standing up and watched as my supposed father handed me pictures to look at.

It was a calm night and nothing strange really happened. The only person I remember from this scene was the father. He was about 60-80 years old. So an old man. There was one strange thing that did happen that I never noticed. All of a sudden, the family inside the living room were all crying because they had just realized that the father is dead. I was confused. I took a moment and went with the flow and cried. I cried a lot for a man I didn't even know. However, someone did manage to wipe those tears away.

A few seconds after the crying, I started to realize that the dream appeared a little foggy. I performed a technique I learned before from a page here on Dream Views. It was the rubbing of hands. I rubbed both my hands together to make the dream clearer. After that, I noticed a little bit of awareness of being inside a dream. I used this extra time to summon someone whom I hold close to my heart. I immediately thought of my old friend Quynh. I faced the living room closet right next to the bedroom, and tried to summon by calling out her name and believing she was beyond the bathroom in the hallway. I walked behind the corner of the hallway and saw no one there. I attempted it one more time, but this time I extended my arm.

I walked over and faced the closet, turned around with my right hand behind me and I yelled out, "Quynh!" in confidence. A few seconds later, I felt a touch. A hand. When I turned around, I saw Quynh! I would've never known I'd see her at this time.

I got closer to her but as I did, she suddenly went on running towards the two rooms in the back. I held on to her and noticed a change in her appearance. She was synchronizing in to her self like in Assassin's Creed. I followed her over to my parents' bedroom and noticed her crying. She was crying for something. She was heading towards the room in the far back but I grabbed her shoulders with both of my hands and turned her. This was not Quynh. Yeah, she had Quynh's old clothing from high school but the face of the girl in this dream was the old girl I liked back in middle school. Why? I was disappointed that I never got to see her this time.

Although, it was not Quynh, I still had some affection for this beautiful looking woman. She was crying and all I wanted was to try and make her feel better. I felt as if I had to help her out, so I can stop seeing all of these tears coming out of her eyes! It was heart breaking. I slowly walked her over closer to the hallway but stopped just before that. I stared at her and watched her cry a bit more. "Why are you crying?" I asked. She had her eyes closed and spoke out, "I'm pregnant!" I then woke up, wondering what it all meant...

So I'm back again after a while of spending time on Facebook. I start out in an abandoned building/backyard of my home place. I'm confused to why I am here. I don't remember much of what happened but only a person. I remember Quynh, right after I just ended a deal both of us made in real life. I had not hate for her in the dream, but I still did love her and was willing to do anything to take her back in to my life. I was standing around the abandoned building, below the room I lived in. Quynh was in front of me, or I felt as if she was. It could have been the feeling I have when ever I chatted to her online. She told me something. She brought up the time back when I used words of hate and jealousy before our conflict towards each other started. She had said something about the tears I gave her that day we first hated each other. I woke up a few minutes later, realizing she will never grow up and forgive me for what happened a long time ago. I already tried.

It is noon, probably a few hours after it. I'm living back at home with the family. I've got nothing going for me but the smiles on my families and few friends. Speaking of friends, I had a few over this time, two of them. Quynh and Janna. Well, more like people I used to work with in piano class. I'm not sure why though. I'm in the backyard without a shirt on just trying to enjoy what I could do while Quynh was here. I'm a skinny guy, so it's embarrassing to walk around the home without a shirt on. I still had that same feeling of loss though. Quynh was next to me, watching me. I cannot believe she is here. I figured I would've been lucid. She looks so beautiful, not by the way she wore things but her being here is the biggest thing I could ever ask for at the moment. I feel a little sense of depression though. Her face gives off some kind of a "bore" feeling. I want to try my best and please her but I don't want to come off as too much. Or maybe this is just the way she is. I walked her inside the backyard door in to the house and escorted her in to the living room where my parents were both watching television. I left her there for a while. I decided to walk over to my younger sisters' room in the back and see what she is up to. This room gave off an old feeling of one of my recent dreams. My sister was on the laptop, just relaxing. I sat down on the couch in front of her, just sat there and thought of Quynh being here at my home. I'm addicted to this girl. I'm not feeding off the old memories in dreams to try and find a view of better life but, I'm going to keep on doing it until this all really means something. I walked over to my room next. I saw my older sister. She's using the computer as well. I sat right next to her and talked. As she was using the computer, she asked me, "Why is she here?" I stared at her for a second, then left the room. I walked back over to the living room and saw two of the girls in there. Janna was watching television and so was Quynh. They looked very bored. And so, this is where the dream ends.

Here we are again. Back at the same place I thought of. It was raining outside the middle school I was in front of and I was only there to see what else there could be left in the school. I'm not sure what I'm looking for but I've been here before, a couple times. This was the area where I met the first female I ever cried for. Cindy. It seems a little bit dangerous right now, so I I'm deciding I should only drive by and take a look at the school. It was a quick search. Later on, me and my mother appear to be driving in some car somewhere in Las Vegas, I think. When I think of this part, I think of one of the dreams I had before, the dream where my father rammed his bumper in to another car in front of us. So here we are, on the road ready to experience some amazing lifts. So we're driving around this city for a while and all of a sudden, we run in to a big building. I'm not sure what is was. Maybe it was an elevator for cars. This place looked as if it has been abandoned for years. It's going to be hard getting all the way to the top, seeing as there isn't much space for my mother to move the car around. As we ascended, I was having a hard time trying not to be scared. I was always afraid of heights and every second we spent in this car elevator, I sometimes told my mother to be careful. There was one point where we did fall though but it wasn't all bad. This place we were in was too hard to work with. So anyways, here is what happened after we escaped this car elevator. We eventually found an exit that led towards a huge, beautiful scene of clean roads and plains. I've also been in this area before. We're making our way down on a tall hill. The way down was scary for me. Sometimes my mother would slightly fall off the road and nearly kill us. As soon as we made it half way down, we see this dead end where we are forced to take the car down without a road. And while in the air, I told my mom to get the car to fly. We moved down the road below us instead. There were no cars in the area from what I was able to see. After a little more time passed, I appeared someplace else. It was a place right near the home I live in. I spawned right in front of a small shop. There was no one around here. I don't remember hearing anything but my voice. This was when I realized I was dreaming. I walked around the area to check it out. The shop there was locked. I tried finding a way around but couldn't. I found a door though. The door was locked with two lock holes. I had no key, but I was lucid. I pointed my right hand towards the door and waved it at the lock. The locks opened themselves slowly. As soon as the doors open, I got to see what was inside the shop. There was nothing I found interest in. The room was clean, there was a table to the left, and a small backroom in front of the entrance. I did manage to do something while lucid though. I turned over to the road in front of the shop, raised my left hand pointing inside the shop, and yelled, "Quynh, come here!" I waited a few seconds and looked back in to the shop and saw something on the floor. It was a small puppy running around in circles. The dream was fading as I tried to summon her again. My left eye was having a hard time to not blink. A little bit later, I slowly woke up and found my mother opening the bedroom door.

I had this dream a day after my mother told me to get this girl out of my head and I went out crying knowing they never really cared about it. I'm inside this big shopping mall where you would find all different types of materials such as clothes, shoes, toys and kitchen supplies. It looked day light, I couldn't tell because the exit wasn't around here. I'm shopping with this girl, a friend. I don't know her name but she wanted me to help her find out the best types of clothing. Every so often, she would have to go speak to a sales associate and ask them what's the price of the item. They were probably annoyed seeing her more than just a few times. Okay, after a little bit more of shopping, this young female walks over to the checkout lane and starts to ask the prices for a few more items. This is where it changes. I notice we are standing right next to the windows and as I stare at them, the room I was in gets darker. So dark, the area behind me was filled in darkness. There was no longer a checkout lane and the young female wasn't there anymore. Instead I see a food deli and a few people standing on the sides of the walls and windows around the small room not occupied by the darkness. I stare at the window in front of me and saw rain outside the store. The appearance of the outside seemed so depressing especially because there was nothing in the parking lot, only raindrops hitting the ground. I waved my hand at the window and believed it would break if I swung it back and forth. Surprisingly, it did. At the time, I knew I was dreaming. "I'm dreaming", I shouted. Calmed and relaxed, I was, I didn't want to mess this up. The room was still muffled with silence. There is someone with me though. I turned my head to my left and I see this young Asian lady leaning on the table window in front of her. She had a baby in her left hand. I walked up to her and said, "Hey baby", as if I knew her for a while. I stared at her for a second and waited until I thought of a dream purpose. I suddenly realize something. Quynh! I'm going to try and summon Quynh to see if our feelings in the waking life are no longer a conflict. "Hey, Quynh", I yelled out, "Quynh, come over here!" I extended my right arm to my right side and waited for a sweet tender touch of the hands I never got to held on to. I waited for a reply. I waited a few seconds and nothing. I looked around the room to see if I could find her hiding somewhere. There was nothing in the lit area I was in. But I stopped at something. The darkness was the only place left to search. Although I could not see anything in the fog, I only hoped she was in it. I slowly took a few steps towards the shadowy clouds of darkness and walked in to it slowly. As I walked in a little bit further, the dream was fading and wasn't sure if it was a good idea to leave now. I risked it. I walked in to the darkness and slowly started to wake up. Something else happened though. As I was awakening, I could see the doors of my bed room slowly opening up to my eyes. I immediately thought about one of the methods I before saw on this site. I laid still back in my bed and kept my eyes closed. My heart had a sudden spark that made me feel some excitement. But then I started to realize something. Sleep Paralysis. I'm not going to be able to do this right now, especially because the room I was in was too dark and I was afraid of it. I immediately opened my eyes and moved my whole body to escape from it.

So here's where I'm at. I'm at home trying to decide what I should get Quynh(friend) for her birthday. I think she was still mad at me for yelling at her in this dream. There's a couple of guys in the home walking around the house with small notebooks in their hands. I asked one of them if I could see what was inside this book. A couple of the boys gave me a chance to read the book but as soon as I opened it, I found some secrets. This was a gift for Quynh and inside this book, I read the word, "J'aime". I thought it meant love in French, so after reading it, I was shocked. I felt like doing something insane to these boys, like killing them. But I woke up instrad.