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Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #206: The Giant Killer

I sense a transition into the dream state, but just as it begins I hear our dogs start barking downstairs. Wife stirs in the bed next to me and I wonder how much of this is pure dream and how much of it might be sounds and sensations from waking life bleeding over.

I will myself to roll out of bed OBE-style and I decide to phase downstairs to see what the dogs are on about. I pass through walls and the floor like a ghost and I think to myself that “I’m spirit walking.”

I pass through one last set of walls and the geometry gets weird for a moment and I wonder if I’m losing this dream. I rake my fingers across the floor but I pass right through. Still, it seems to bring me back into the experience and there in front of me are our 2 dogs laying on the floor panting.

Their food and water bowls both lay empty and I figure that’s what they were making a fuss about. Even though I’m still floating like a ghost, I’m able to grab the water bowl and sling it across the room and it clangs realistically against the floor. I consider asking Wife the next morning if she heard any of this commotion.

I head out into the garage, walking like normal now. Rather than phase, for some reason I lift the garage door manually and walk out into the night. I move past the circular driveway to the grass, thinking of the Jack and the Beanstalk Task of the Year. I dig a quick hole and everything’s feeling very vivid now. I do a behind-the-back summon of a seed which feels very half-hearted but fortunately still does yield a tiny seed. I quickly cover it over with dirt.

For water I move my hands in a little sprinkling motion over the little mound and a few drops of “rain” fall. The plant immediately springs up through the ground and stretches skyward. It looks like a normal vine at first but as it continues up it looks more like a twisting rope bridge that goes all the way up into the clouds.



I grab the lower rung and start hauling myself up but I feel like I’m getting nowhere and won’t ever be able to tackle all that distance. I decide that the planks are being reeled in from above and are pulling me up toward the clouds. It works! In a couple of spots the planks twist and turn oddly as if they’re trying to throw me off, but I ignore this and before long I’m at the top! I float up over the edge into what looks like a restaurant that’s being prepared for a party.

Two women standing nearby appear to be in charge of the scurrying wait staff. One of the women, an attractive lady in her early 40s, looks up at me as I walk nearby. She has a streak of her short brown hair bleached almost white. My task is the defeat the giant that lives up here, so I ask, “Where’s the giant?” She points behind me and to my left.

When I turn, there’s a guy roughly 9-10 feet tall walking through the door of the restaurant. He’s mid-40s with dark hair and a thick, barrel-chested build. “So you’re the giant?” I ask leadingly.



“That’s right,” he says and immediately takes a swing at me. His punch catches me square in the face but I decide that it will have no effect. I wind up not feeling anything or even falling back and it kind of feels like cheating. I strike at the man, trying what I for some reason think is a “kidney punch” but actually hit him in the side of the gut. He winces a bit but doesn’t move much.

I follow this up with a kick to the body and the giant clutches at his chest. I feel like this is working but I become paranoid about losing the dream, so I leap up and grab onto the giant’s face. I try to do this thing where I burn him with my hands but it completely fails. The failure makes me kind of vicious and desperate, so I gouge at his left eye with my right thumb and then strike him on the neck with my forearm. He collapses hard to the ground and I go with him. As I’m picking myself up to see what’s next, the dream ends.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #205: Beer Goggles

My friend “Leroy” and I are hosting a meeting at a hotel. We’re there to meet with another company for merger talks and we’ve got a table of breakfast food laid out for the attendees. A bunch of other random people are having breakfast here, though, and have stolen a bunch of our yogurts. Leroy runs past these tables and grabs the yogurts back before sprinting off toward the meeting in the nearby bar. I think this is pretty awesome and get a good laugh out of it.

When we get to the bar and sit down with the other company, I realize that it’s lots of people I know from different areas of my life. This strikes me as strange, and when I consider my situation, I realize that I’m dreaming.

I spend a little bit of time conversing with the people at the table, just out of curiosity as to how they’ll react. I talk to SK for a moment and then to a younger version of SC who is now sporting a mustache. They all seem to be aware that this is a dream and don’t try to fool or convince me otherwise.

I leave the table and think that I should use the opportunity to try a drink. As I pass a waiter I say, “Sir, give me a beer,” and he immediately complies. I take a swig, but it’s sort of gross, like flat mineral water. For some reason I decide to dump the rest over my face. It feels cold, realistic, and super invigorating! There also seems to be an unlimited supply, because it just keeps pouring and pouring. The effect is awesome because it’ll occasionally even cross my vision and make everything look all watery-looking.

I head for the exit, a huge, ornate wooden door with an iron ring for a handle. I pull it open (with some effort) and then do this again at a second huge wooden door. Now I’m out on the street in the daytime, pouring “beer” over my face and looking at the passerby. It’s a beautiful day out and I just enjoy the sunshine and presence of the DCs.

An attractive Asian woman in a two-piece swimsuit approaches from down the street, but as she walks by closer to where I’m standing she morphs into a guy walking around in shorts and a t-shirt. “Hey, you were a woman just a second ago!”

“That’s right,” he says. “Do you want me to change back?”

“Yeah, change back!” At this, he leans over, grabs the back of his t-shirt and seems to kind of struggle with pulling it over his head. And as he emerges, “he” is back to female form again. I’m super amused by this and I cheer at the trick. She seems really flattered and pleased by my reaction and laughs before walking away.

This whole time I’ve continued pouring beer over my face and I look up at the bottle to see that it’s really small now, about the size of a thimble. It still pours just fine, though, but I don’t have long before the dream ends.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening


I see my cousin João playing with other kids on ths street park. I join them. There's a kind of standalone treehouse from which we can slide down and jump and I have great fun, but I start noticing some strange thing about these kids: they are all athletic, enjoy being outside and are fierce enviromentalists. That's good, but a bit suspicious. I notice my cousin is extraordinarily kind and good boy, and I fail to recognize him as I remembered. Then I see a kid hugging a tree and that's ok, until the point in which every one of his hairs light up on the tip and fuse with the tree trunk, like the connection the aliens on Pandora have with the other animals and plants. Ok, what is going on?
That's when they take me to the coast and I see numerous tiny creatures, like gnomes and goblins, rising from the sea. They tell me they have been secretly transforming the kids and will now make a full scale invasion of the planet, to stop the humans from destroying what's left of the world's ecosystems. They make an implant in me, that is supposed to tranform me into one these kind, peaceful, green mutant, like the kids, but I resist the brainwashing power. I mean, I am already like them, but I want to still think for myself. In the end I think: is it that bad that they will turn every human into a nature loving person and the world will be ruled by mythical guardians of nature? I guess it's just fine for me!

April 25, 2014

Last night bed 8am - 4:40am

Yesterday I took 100mg of Bcomplex around 3pm.

Miserable night. Kept waking up every hour or so. I probably miss being more active on my work days (yesterday and before I was off). Also some other crap.


DR1 12am

Once again, my dream mimics my daytime emotions. Fuck this.

I'm at home, we have family visiting us. I get up, squeeze by them and walk away. Everybody is looking at me like wtf? Why is she leaving. I don't like leaving like that, but I guess I have had enough.

DR 2

Very very uncomfortable dream. My own parents don't trust me. My dad catches up with me somewhere on the sidewalk where I'm sitting, curled up in a ball, bare feet dirty, a mess. He is acusing me of being homeless and why don't I get help from them or something. I yell at him I have a job and place to live.

Last dreams of the night never had a chance. Thoughts of my day flood my mind the moment I wake up and override any remnants of a dream.

April 24th, 2014 - I dreams I was pregnant, but single and unemployed. I was almost at full term and lived with my family in a small sea side town. I did not want the baby but could not abort because everyone else in my family was excited about it. I could not even talk about not wanting the baby because it would have appalled everyone in the small town. I was expected to be a good little dutiful mother even though I did not know where the father was. (In the dream I literally could not remember who the father of my child was at all). The dream ended with me going to give birth soon and I was emotionless and still conflicted about wanting the baby, even dreading it's arrival, while everyone else around me rejoiced.

April 25th, 2014 - I was male and a vampire with medium length white hair and wearing a long black trench coat. I lived in a small Medieval village that was surrounded by a thick stone wall. Outside the wall was a dense, maze-like forest filled with many nasty creatures like other vampires, werewolves, and demons, as well as normal forest animals. The wall was there to keep the other bad creatures out so they did not attack humans but I was allowed to sit on the roof tops of the villager's houses at night and drive away any infernal creature that tried to attack the people. In the morning, before the sun rose, the people would leave me jars of pig's blood, on their doorsteps, as payment. I slept during the day in an old gated cemetery just outside the town wall, which the forest was slowly overtaking. There was something in the dream that magic was normal in this world but forbidden in town because the blood of magic users would be specifically targeted by vampires and demons seeking to feed off of "powerful" blood.

I was male and had the superpower being able to fly. I was being persued by sepne with same superpower who wanted to kill me and had just killed a bunch of people. I had a female with me who had no superpower and thus needed to be carried, was not with me voluntarily, but I had to take her away because the guy who was after us would kill her otherwise.

Fragment about home made pizza making.

The dream started with me look at a map. I look up and see my self at the "border to Canada" which was just a giant trench going all the way across America i thought to my self how bad this is because i knew i was dreaming but im bad at changing dream scenes. I look behind me and find out that Canada is just the back yard of my old house so i walked towards the driveway and then took a right to my neighbors house, which looked totally different (this was a polished wood house with fancy lighting). I walked inside to find a mom and her daughter about to get ready for dinner. The mom asked "Hey... are you here for dinner?" and i said "Yes of course, i come here all the time." and she responded with "Oh really? I should probably stop drinking so much!" and then she walked up stairs. I look at the table and the girl is giving me the thumbs up and biting her lip. She takes my hand and walks me up the stairs into her bedroom. I look around her room and when i turn back around she is on the ground on her elbows and knees with her ass up. I casually had sex with her then the dream skips and i lose lucidity. Im now in an apartment with her and another guy. I decided to go outside and got to a house about a mile down and check out what it has (no one is anywhere) I then see my girl and the guy going to the house next door as i was searching. I see them run back as i get out of the house. As soon as i got to the apartment i had a about 20 satchel charges (out of no where) and i was throwing them at the guy and he threw the girl into the explosion. (This whole satchel charge part was really weird cause it felt like i was playing gta; it felt like i was controlling my self with a ps3 controller) I then had to start using a different "button" on the ps3 "controller" to throw more charges. I find my self in a room and i blow up the door as soon as he opens it and shoots me.

Black = Normal dream
Green = False Awakening


I had apparently dropped out of my old high school or moved and started going back into it again after awhile. Everyone was making fun of me/taunting me about the whole experience, and I was trying to ignore them.

I was in the gymnasium for awhile, where there was a orange and black marbled kitten-puppy hybrid playing with me. I started rubbing his tummy and he began kicking his leg up like a dog would do.

When I came back in the building, I discovered that my backpack that was holding my laptop in it was gone. A classmate of mine told me that I hadn't ever had one to begin with because I wasn't really a student there. I argued with him, and he finally gave in and said he had stolen it from me.

I woke up from the dream and turned on my computer. My boyfriend was on, so I asked if he could Skype with me. I told him about the dream I had, emphasizing the part with the cat/dog mix. Then everything faded and I woke up for reals.

Things that stand out:

• I was in high school
• There was made-up creature
• My boyfriend doesn't come on in the morning

NON LUCID
*I thought I should get some for my girlfriend before I go home. I know for sure this will make her happy. It was night time as I pulled into a parking lot. I got out of the car and walked into a do nut some. I believe this shop was owned by Asian folks. For some reason I kind of ignored them as if I was a cooler or something. I notice that this shop sold do nuts all day long 24 hours. I ordered my girlfriend this huge do nut and I got my usual eclair.

*I remember debating with someone on an artist about the time of his work.

*Walking with my brother into a grassy field, he told his is where the energy is. The energy had something to do with Lama Zopa. I said ahhhh I can feel it. Then I looked over and noticed a beautiful african tribe singing this beautiful. The feeling I got was of amazing and some kind of unknown spiritual energy. I thought I could join them but I would hate to ruin just a beautiful thing. I didn't want to draw attention to my self or stand out in anyway so I just watched.

I can't place the setting, but it wasn't near my house now so I must've been in another one. The night before had a tornado, and now everyone was coming out and looking at the damage that had been done.

A man that I recognized from being on the Survivor in last night's episode (I don't watch it regularly, so I don't know his name) was going around asking people if they needed help with picking up the debris.

After everything had been picked up, he sprouted angel-like wings and flew off into the sky.

Things that stand out:

• Not in my house
• Man from television
• Magical powers (flying)

I'm talking with an old friend of mine.
He says that Summer is almost here and I'm not ready. I really don't know what he is talking about and he touches my arm and says I'm not tanned. I argue that this is BECAUSE Summer has still to come and I can't be tanned before Summer comes.
My friend seems angry at me for the answer and calls other friends of us.
We go in a old university residence. It became a labyrinth since we left and we start to go up and down to see all the changements.
Finally we found a room. My friends agree it is the best, but I don't like the room so much.
It is little and the beds are too close one another. Also in order to use the desk, we have to move the beds, so it is not comfortable.
Also i don't want to share the room with the other male friends, so I would like to choose another room.
The other girls though want that room, and when they say that the guys will have another room, finally I agree, after choosing a bed with a red duvet.
We help the guy to find another similar room, and they are happy to be close to our room, so they can make noise and keep us awake all night long.
We come back to our room and we start to put all our things in our drawers, keeping talking about holidays and our studies.
The day after tomorrow I already will have a test and I need to study.
We find out that the bathroom is the worst part of the room.
It is minuscule and water is rationed and cold, but time is expired to choose another room and we need to go and sleep.
It's my turn to use the bathroom, but when I'm about to step in, another girl push me in the bathroom and lock the door.
I think she needs to secretly talk to me. Instead she starts to flirt with me. I don't like her at all and, as the bathroom is really tiny, she is too close to me and she touches me with nonchalance, like it was not wanted.
I start to feel very uncomfortable and I want to go out, but she is blocking the way out and she is insistent now. I tell her that if she keeps insisting I'm going to scream and allert the other girls.
She gets too close and I scream, and I wake up.

At work, I was putting bottles of shampoo out on the shelves. For some reason, these bottles where enclosed in a clamshell-type plastic anti-theft device. It didn't make sense that something this inexpensive would need an anti-theft device. I sought out my security guy. He gave me two keys and sent me to a Home Depot across the street with specific instructions on where to locate the parts for another anti-theft device.

The Home Depot was closed, but for some reason people were swarming into the darkened store. I looked at the keys that the security guy gave me, but one of them had bent in half in my hand. The other looked really thin, like something had shaved it down. I tried to remember the directions to the parts I needed, but I couldn't barely remember what he had said.

But now I had more important matters to think about. It was Friday night, and I was worried. I had two classes on Saturday and I had missed two weeks of class while I was out of town. One of them was a law class with some heavy reading, but I couldn't remember what I needed to read for class. In fact, I couldn't remember reading anything for the class at all during the two weeks I was gone. I had one night to get caught up. I tried to read the syllabus and noticed that this class had a lot of group work. Why the hell would I take a class like this and then go out of town for two weeks? I started to panic, realizing I would never get caught up.

On top of everything, Dad wanted me to come over to some apartment building where he was living, even though I didn't have the time. I drove over there, and at the parking entrance, he waved me over to some special part of the lot where there was resident parking. This area was blocking off by a barbed wire fence. As I parked my car, I thought it looked a little weird to see this kind of fence around only a portion of the lot.

At this point, I awakened briefly, realized that the dream had just ended, and was somewhat successful performing a DEILD.

I'm dreaming again. I find myself at work, and I've been told to take a new employee somewhere. I look at this new employee and even though she's not conventionally pretty, she has really soft lips. There are a lot of things I wanted to do in my next lucid dream, but instead, I decide that I really want to kiss her. I lean in, touch my lips to hers, and I'm so overcome with emotion that I wake up.

My dream starts as sort of a nightmare. The nightmare itself is jumbled and confused - there's not a clean narrative. It's mostly short, quick clips of action strung together and viewed from a 3rd person POV. Mud and rain; earth sliding into a river, pulling people down with it... switch to what seems like a motel and some sequences that seem like they're out of a slasher horror flick, people running in fear, and severed limbs and blood everywhere. It mostly seems like it's just my brain tossing up whatever seems disturbing and frightening at the moment.

Because of how disjointed it is, it's failing to really frighten or disturb me. My mind starts to get more and more distanced from what's going on, and starts paying less attention to it. I gain lucidity in one of the motel/dorm rooms while two women are arguing with each other. They look straight out of the 80s - one has bleached hair teased up a mile high and fake orange tanner, and the other is a brunette with a ponytail and teased bangs. As soon as I realize this is a dream, I am no longer a disembodied observer. There's an oval mirror on the wall - I run up to it and look at myself in the mirror in order to reaffirm that I now have a physical presence.

I immediately crouch on the floor and start running my fingers through the carpet in order to solidify my surroundings. Things seem to be fading, so I stand up and produce a hand mirror from behind myself and examine myself in it. The two women have stopped arguing and are looking at me. I feel embarrassed about them potentially thinking that I'm just extremely vain (despite the fact that they're just dream characters), so I shrug and tell them, "I'm just making sure I still exist."

They lose interest in me, and I lose interest in them, because I've decided that since my scene changes haven't gone so well lately, maybe I'll just mold my current surroundings into what I want. I pull up the software interface for 3D Studio Max and start modeling furniture for the room. Despite being a motel room, it has no bed, so I decide to experiment with creating one. I begin working on it as if it's a 3D model for a video game.

The two women have faded away. I minimize the "software" I'm working with to check and see if the bed has appeared. It has, and looks very solid, but it's the plain solid white of a 3D model that has been imported into some engines but doesn't have a texture linked to it (or the texture isn't loading).

I decide I'll texture it later, once I've gotten the hang of this, and decide to start working on one of the windows. I "import" it into my software and begin tweaking it. The window is a little bit tougher - it resists conforming to what I want.

The dream fades. Eventually, another one starts, but it's non-lucid. I'm watching a bunch of characters in a video game and "piloting" some of them, and the game is sort of Harvest Moon-y but instead everybody is little Lego people and they're going to classes at a university. One of the landslide scenes from the prior nightmare replays, but with little Lego people instead of realistic people. The character I'm piloting is supposed to get a date for a festival coming up and has until 5 a.m. the day of the festival, but because of the landslide, I don't manage to complete the objective and watch the festival play out without a date. The characters go to class, and the professor is very boring. The textbook is 900 pages long, but the professor is focusing on a 4 page section of it. The students have smuggled some pot edibles into class, and when the professor goes to another room for a few minutes, they all leave class to get high. The character I'm piloting stays in class. When the prof gets back, he seems bummed that nobody cares about the lecture.

To be continued later..
Maybe - happy to say - now I pulled myself together and dictated some stuff - I have a lot to journal - theoretically. I mean I did already - but writing down is an important second step - I know.
Ah well.

Important:
I got lucid - driving down in an open elevator - open to all sides, except down of course.
Through a forest.
Getting lucid was not only about bizarreness, though, I think - I simply felt that characteristic dream connectedness of me and my world - "something in the air", almost.
And I thought of wanting to get a stable 3D environment by moving and checking my frame of reference.
Having read something like this from The Cusp.
Well - it worked - buut.
First of all - super happy not to have lost a dream in frantic stabilization activity and getting indeed to running in a quite beautiful forest all 3D, and it felt like full immersion.
I really enjoyed it, and simply kept running for a minute maybe - and then I must have lost lucidity and also recall for that affair.
Next time I won't neglect the cognitive aspects of lucidity while running and 3D establishing.



Soo - too lazy to write zig pages - just this one dream-fragment (I do have the rest dream, though):

One scene was, that I made a break from riding a bike to somewhere, and went a bit into the forest, to be undisturbed in what I wanted to do. I found an interestingly shaped branch there - maybe 2 m long, devoid of bark and it looked as if washed smooth by drifting in water for a long time.
I planned on taking it for a friend, who likes interesting wood to carve it a bit more interesting.

Suddenly a pair of hikers turned up - and I tried to tell them, that it was not a way, where I was - that the way would be over there, and that they could break their ankles coming towards me.
I had climbed over some big roots and stones and it was steep there, too.

But they said - didn't you hear that scream, and that horrible loud sound?
I hadn't heard that - but once I climbed out of the under brush - one of my rather rare incidences of clear and even emotionally intense dream-bizarreness came about. The wood in the forest, but looking like from a beach was rather subliminal.

I looked at the sky, and there was a flying train - looming dangerously close over us, and we were afraid, it might come crashing down exactly on us.

But then it seemed logical, that it followed a sort of trail in the sky, when it made a sharp turn and came to land close to where we thought, Hamburg central station would be. A map of a supposed Hamburg appeared in my imagination - where it was divided in strips of different colour - that showed me this. Ah well.
So all in order, wasn't it?

The two people then complained about all the Bavarian tourists, and the fuss they would kick up - up to flying in per train ..
And I didn't get it - rather I was with them where the train had landed without "physically" getting there, and spoke some solace to an old Bavarian lady with traditional braided hair - she was intimidated by that sort of hostility.

One of the classical jumps in location - following the narrative and attention and not some sort of geography.

Note: I forgot most of the dream because I moved in my bed, I remembered it 20 minutes after I woke up. I don't know why I remembered it, it just came to me. I had the feeling that I have had 3 dreams, but I only remembered one.
I had an important exam today, so I didn't think about my dreams.

Date: Apr 24
Sleep Length: 8h
Techniques: DILD
Dream Summary:
(1) I was at a municipal public pool with my father and sister, and I was gonna use a slide like in my childhood. when I was at the end of the slide I saw a japanese girl, a bit younger than me. Since I like japanese culture I tried to talk to her. I said some japanese phrases and she said some phrases as well, I understood parts of it, then she tried speaking german. We were at some weird place, it seemed to be close to the pool but it looked like a room in a basement... pretty weird. Oh, she said something like konbanwa [...], and I didn't understand her.
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10): 2/2
Emotions: none?
Tags: public pool, family, slide, conversation: japanese, languages