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(catching up on a few days' worth of Dream Journal entrees... so they're not too detailed)

July 03, 2014

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Airplanes

I remember taking about 6 rides in an airplane from one place to another. I don't remember much about the landscape or even what I did during the flights... I think I was the co-pilot for at least half of them.



Cuddles

I was at an old friend's place. I've known him since middle school. My roommate was also there, for part of the time, and maybe one or two other people. We were all watching a movie, or something... I was sitting next to him on the couch, and I remember that a few people left, and then it was us two, and my roommate left. I leaned on his shoulder, and he put his arm around me, and suddenly we were snuggling up to each other like it was totally natural. We cuddled for a while, and would have done other things if Kristin wasn't there... He whispered in my ear that I should text him when we left.

Then, when we did leave, I was standing outside with her as we waited for our ride (I think it was her boyfriend, but I'm not sure) and I texted my friend, "Sooo... should I come back in?" And I was horny as fuck, man. He texted me back: "Yesssss."

But I woke up as I was climbing the stairs to his room.



Little Boy

There was a little boy living at my house. That's all I remember, haha!

Dream 1
Recorded at 4:00am

I'm with a couple people and we walk into my old primary school. We are heading towards the playground when I see that some people I haven't seen in years, pretty much since primary school. They're sitting on the monkey bars. One of them (lived in blaxland crt) jokingly gives me the middle finger and we laugh if off. Another person that I remember is Jarod Stir.

They have security on site to check bags and pat you down for weapons. I begin to get padded down and I remember having a knife in my bag for some reason. They find if and pull me to the side and give me 2 options, either to get a taxi home or talk to the police.

They call up the local thugs that live not to far by to intimidate me. They're on motorbikes and bicycles. The 2 guys on motorcycles are lifting up the front wheel in front of me. The man on the bicycle had been bashed while on his way over to the school supposedly.

Dream 2
Recorded at 10:50am

I'm in my home town in the car with Josh and Daryl and we decide to stop for a break.

I see a homeless man and he's asking if we can buy him some food. He mentions that he has potatoes. I get the sense that Josh and Daryl will ignore him or tell him no.

I walk into IGA (supermarket), it was only a few meters away from where we were sitting. IGA looked different to what it usually looks like. I start to look around for stuff to buy and I pick up carrots, tuna, kale. I stop a look at the price of tuna and the small cans are 25c and big cans $1. I purchase 3 big cans of tuna, making sure I take 1 home for myself. I see that there isn't much kale left and that it's been reduced to a lower price.

I'm done buying a few things and head over to the check out. I open up my backpack to show the check out lady that there is nothing in it. She tells me that there's no need because they check the items I have brought. It was as if they expected people to smuggle more food inside the food itself. She unzips the tuna and check to see if the seal was broken which was strange.

Journal Entry Lucid # 59 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before sleeping. WBTB.

Lucid Dream # 59, day: 07/04/14, time: 3:38-6:30 Am"":
I am in the computer room. I see a hole in roof. A giant is looking at me. I ask her, "What time is it?" The oddity of the event made me realize it was a dream.

I then walk out to the backyard. It almost matched my house completely but I didn't look at every little corner. What I noticed was chairs and it had two fences just like my house. I am just blown away by the details. I am just comprehending how all this could be a dream. I am rubbing my hands to stabilize. I look up at the dark and cloudy sky. I think to myself it might rain. It started to rain a bit. I am now trying to remember what I wanted to do. I thought, "build a house?? no, no that's not it. I know I wanted to extend the power of TK. Ahh to lift a house that's it!" I woke up before I could do anything.

I am with Lia and Jack (2 of my recurring DCs) and the three of us are on a swing set together. We aren't swinging though, just sitting on it. Also the swing set is in a strange location, I am lucid, but I don't think to do any big powerful things, For some strange reason I just want to sit and listen to my DCs.
The two of them are sitting to the right of me. Lia is talking about how she and Jack are going to get married. I am barely speaking and just listening. Jack is mostly just smiling. That is all that I can recall.

It is interesting how developed my recurring dream characters have become, particularly these two. I'm not quite certain what to think of them getting married however.

Come to think of it, I just have a sinking feeling about lucid dreaming in general right now. I've been putting a lot of effort into my technique but making little progress. My dreams feel less vivid and I feel less lucid than I used to.

Two of my dream characters (Jonathan and Marcus) have disappeared entirely. Jonathan was a 'Dream Villain' so hopefully we will never see him again, but Marcus the genius... What happened to him and all of his inventions?

Also what to make of the new dream character that seems to have cropped up, the girl with the robot arm? She resembles one of my cartoon characters. It would be interesting to see if she becomes something special.

Journal Entry Lucid # 58 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed. And I meditated after doing WBTB. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I did fall asleep, without awareness. When I did my WBTB I woke up at 2:00 Am and I watched some movie. My parents are getting ready to start the day as always. I then talked to my dad and said to him, "Do you know what is so beautiful about the darkness?" He responded, " heh, nothing darkness is evil", he is a very christian man and only sees one way. Even though I know this will dissatisfy him, but I proceeded, "Darkness gives rise to possibility, only the imagination fills in the gap". He tells me, "darkness is bad..". I told him to look at it a different perspective and maybe he will understand what I mean. He didn't quite understand even though he claims to. Well you get the point.

WILD experience: I had a dream and I awoken from it. I kept thinking about the dream and I began falling back to sleep. I then hear the loud wind again. At first i was scared and the noise started diminishing. And I became sad, but then I resolved to myself that I will do it sooner or later. I stayed still. I felt like my hands were swinging. I felt out of control. I don't know if that was astral body or part of the dream. During all this I could hear the loud wind that was deafening and it got higher in frequency and it felt like needle that keeps getting sharper with the increasing of sound. I thought I can't do this, but I kept thinking about the dream I had to distract me. New images started to form, complex patterns. I could also hear sound now, no more pain. I think I came in with fear though. I hear laughter that keeps on distorting and getting lower in pitch. I saw blood dripping from the patterns. They turned into a pyramid. Then I hear a voice say to me, "Do want to meet our lord, Lucifer?". I thought this is only a dream, and besides I have to live by my words, I say to myself to face all fears. I then say yes. I see a book open and it was covered in blood. My body felt possessed and I squirmed around in the dream without my control.

Lucid Dream # 58, day: 07/03/14, time: 5:20-6:59 Am" Facing Fear:
I am now 180 degrees on my bed, sleeping where my foot should be. I see a clown, a lady clown looking at me, she had blond hair, She had a clown outfit but the colors were a little bit faded as if she has worn them for years. She said, "I am sorry it didn't work". I know it's a dream so I just looked at her. I could see that I am in my room, but it is still a dream. She looked at me and realized that I know. She said, "If you want to explore this place you have to put on a mask". I am still just thinking to myself, "no, mask is a representation of losing one's identity and replacing it with another". With that thought, she said, " okay you have to put on a scarf". She put it on me and told me to follow her.

As we were making our way through an office with little to no lighting. I am looking around telling myself be aware. I touch the desk to feel the texture. I would look at the wall for pattern and I am just occupying myself saying be aware that i am not truly experiencing the dream. The clown lady is standing next to the door like a SWAT person and she open the door slightly. I see a little girl in a bright pink room, looking frightened saying out loud to herself "Be aware. Be Aware." She is walking back and forth. I thought to myself what is my dream trying to tell me, the clown said calmly and slowly, "Calm down". I started settling in the dream. It felt stable. The clown disappeared. I wanted to see how the little girl responds to the change of my thought. I opened the door and I hear a short scream of something fearful, "Rah" and for that very second I felt a cold darkness come over me.

I am scared and I rocked back away from the door. I then calmly told myself to calm down. I turned and started walking away. I pass through door after door in a endless mansion. I started to become scared. I see the walls crumble. I thought to myself without being scared, "wow this doesn't usually happen in a dream of mine, it is mostly stable". I started to walk away. I kept telling myself that I got to get out of here. I see a friend of my sister, KE, and he is outside the house being dragged by strong wind. He tells me that I need him for some reason. I tried to use telekinesis to bring him back into the house. I couldn't the wind were blowing really hard. And objects in the house started to throw themselves at me, a lamp, a vase, etc. I used telekinesis to stop them but they kept coming. I then found a slide looking thing that leads outside.

I see a man climb out of it. Towards the slide and he slides back down. It looked like he is having fun, even though I had hell in there. He actually wanted to come back to the mansion. I on the other hand flew up into the air. It is raining. I felt so relieved and i could think clearly now. I felt powerful. I then extended both my hands and used telekinesis. I created a barrier around me, I want to say spherical but since it wasn't visible and I know there was a force field because of the way the rain responded. The rain didn't touch me. I see myself in 3rd person perspective. I could see the water bouncing off of the shield, it bounced more at the top*. I am viewing first again. Since I could think clearly I thought why did I experience that. I realized the conversation I had with my father, that was one. I also know that I came with fear from the start of my dream.

I told myself If I go out and have fun in the dream it would be preferable, but if I go back I could face a fear that I thought I conquered, darkness. I judged myself and called myself a coward, I agreed that I am acting as a coward at the moment but if I go back and face my fear that is what courage is, to face one's fear. I decided to go back. I flew back to the ground. Just a weird thing I noticed, I saw the clown but now she is a business lady. She started walking with a long coat on. She takes it off and now she is naked and begins to approach the other guy. I just ignored them for I had no interest. I went back to the dark room. And I opened the door. I see a lot of people cleaning up the place. I see Walter White from "breaking bad" with a bandage on his face. His face looked bruised like on season 3 after he beat gust. He was next to a pay phone. He calls Dewey from "Malcolm in the middle". He looked dead at me and he said on the phone with a serious tone, "Dewey (3 second pause) it is done". I then feel my body being dragged at an alarming rate. I woke up.

My interpretation: I think that it had nothing to do with darkness, but since I came with fear in my heart from the start my mind related it to the last things I saw.
I think the whole thing was about me facing fear not the fear of but confronting fear. And maybe the guy having fun on the slide signifies that I make the experience what it is, he was having fun while I wasn't.

*I love mathematics and after thinking about the way the water splashed; I think it make sense that the water splashed more at the top of the force field because the top has the most amount of surface area that comes into contact with the rain. The side would just brush the water and the bottom doesn't really exist. I am just amazed at the details that dream present themselves. It truly is fascinating that something creates without us straining our mind.

I just realized that the clown lady could be Harley Quinn from the comic books. I never knew she had blond hair.

A man stands staring at a building that looks like a factory. It has black bits flying up through the broken up roof. He says, “What happened here?”. The owner is standing beside him. The black stuff happened just before the potential buyer came. The buyer says he will take the place anyway since he already said he would.

There' a scene of children in the building handing a baby with jet-black hair over to him. It fell with a meteor into the building

Another scene of a Middle East(?) man being initiated into a religion or something, one with God. A man with him directs him to do something but the Middle East man is confused. The guide says he might be more conformable doing ‘this one’. He directs him over to a container with some tannish substance in it and directs him to scrape a butter knife over it in a certain pattern. Then the Middle East man starts crying at the experience.



The factory man [Jin Tae-Jin from The God of High School now] is escaping from some kind of law enforcement group that’s after him. He barely makes it into a house. He crawls through the living room, grabs something like a flat, longer blue-ish colored pillow and lays it on the couch. He crawls onto the couch and lies down with his hands on his chest and dies. The group bursts in and starts shouting at him.

I felt like I was there the whole time so it was like I was being yelled at too.

When he was crawling I was wondering what he was doing, because I had gotten a glimpse of his wife in their bedroom beyond having died in the past there, or spent time with Jin on the bed talking together. I thought he’d go there to die, but I saw now that the bed (a big yellow foam) had been pushed up against the wall and the room was bare.

I(?) was going through a bunch of drawers [think I was still in the house]. There were some coins. I thought they might be special and asked if could have them(?). I received a negative answer but took them anyway. There were various clothing bits in some of the drawers. I got sad when I found a doll of my sisters [only in the dream], it looked like she’d been trying to get all the marker off of it recently.

Tags: fandom, fandom: the god of high school, death, religion, children, immorality

Inspirations: I’ve been reading a lot of the ‘The God of High School’ manhwa, so the baby was probably Jin Mo-Ri, the baby Jin Tae-Jin raised.

6/27/14* hold my hand / little blind girl with little pink ribbon with writing on adorable / driving onto soccer field me in passenger seat so many kids so close to car but he's driving slowly. Typical markings on field plus extra for coach's game plan on field itself! (world cup residue perhaps) / Someone named David falls off a 2nd story or higher front porch balcony but lives to say something from down below. I crawl over railing into front door and plan to go back down and out through a back door and stairs I assume there should be. Working my way through the house feeling lost I think what if I could fly out like in dreams...why of course, this is a dream. Phase out through back of house and goes gray. I fly in an undulating dolphin-like motion and can see my hands (normally I am looking down with my hands out front while flying). After a bit I start looking down for anything and start to see a flat dark green surface with little nicks in it with no apparent pattern. Eventually I am on the ground and my son is there. Feeling frisky, bold and very lucid I
announce to my son that I am going to give it to "your mother!" (wouldn't dare say this if there was any doubt I was dreaming). Wife appears and I throw off her clothes with tk and get to business. Ready to add another female to the mix I think of who to summon, Girl Friday? Scarlett? But the dream fades. 167

7/4/14 Didn't record these LDs right away so going from memory hours later. Late dream malaise affects last 2 LDs. DILD#1 I am getting instructions from 30-something woman with large breasts in a seating position. I am standing over her and I get the idea to brush my arm against her breasts. As I do, I realize that I am dreaming and immediately think of the basic naked task and strip down once again with my pants bunched up around the ankles I fling them off with telekinesis. She has removed her shirt and I reach behind her back and undo her bra and her sumptuous breasts flow out. I gawk and enjoy the scene and don't remember anything else before before waking. 168


DILD#2 end of REM assumed. Wife, Son and I have free tickets to a nice dinner and we are being seated with another group who left 2 seats on one side of the table and one on the other. Wife and son go down left side of table with plenty of room but the one seat on my side is blocked in by the rest of the group at the table and by the neighboring table being so close. I wait patiently and they eventually get up and I get to my seat apparently thirst and look down at an untouched small thin medium-tall glass of water with a small amount of melted ice water and a clear straw. I am obviously focused on it and slurp on the straw thirstily. The water is barely splashing in my throat as if the straw is broken and the sensation keys me in that I am dreaming again! But even shorter than the previous. I wake up feeling quite thirsty. 169


#3 In dream DEILD (really a DILD) I am attempting to WILD and I am getting decent vibration feedback with my clinched eyes method but lose consciousness before dream begins. I am playing a song on my phone that has a really nice beat and electronic percussion sounds and something reminds me that I was just trying to WILD but I don't feel fully immersed in the dream and feel like I am still trying to WILD so I try a movement based entry and start dancing my way into the dream and end up on a big concert stage and for some reason I think it is Prince playing. I just keep dancing on the stage and rip off my clothes and will my junk to hang large and low. I think I feel movement in bed and I am probably close to waking up anyway, but that either way I do. 170


7/5 DILD#1 Son sick goes into huge public bathroom but doesn't choose stall. Seems drunk also. I get him to move but all toilets have no stall. 2 ladies come through with their small boys and I get mad at them, chide them. I go back to room and lady getting ready to go to bed and husband already asleep. Leave but come back and she is changing and is in her bra but bottomless, she just took off her pants. Seems shy at first but then not so much. I start to close the door but keep opening it back a little to look at her sexiness. I continue around a long hall that circles the whole floor passing different couples beds and looking to see what I can. One lady is topless in bed as I pass. All Asian like last night. Some start to wake and one mentions getting coffee. I comment that they are getting up so early but i need an excuse...I was not able to get back to sleep. I continue to around the halfway point of circling the floor and it goes dark with thick curtains and I
realize I'm dreaming. I float up a little and back down and planning to go back the way I came but not working so I visualize a church where I thought it would be more challenging to get naked and I see it from the outside like an old largish white country church with one traditional steeple in the middle front and then I'm suddenly inside on the stage-like pulpit. And I remove all my clothes. People start mumbling that I'm one of those demon loving lucid dreamers...I laugh it off and start to imagine an elevator and starting to think about the other tasks but can start to hear sounds from IWL. Try to DEILD but must be end of REM. Get up and record. 171


DILD#2 I was sure I would remember the details and was very lazy and planned to commit it to memory but dozed back off quickly. All I can remember at this point is that the DILD moment had something to do with an interaction with a woman while looking for a towel when coming out of the shower. And I remember thinking 2nd DILD of the night. 172

Some short DILDs lately. Possible ways to rectify: 1. adjust WBTB time, mostly doing them too long lately and it seems to affect how I am doing my SSILD cycles and perhaps length of REM? 2. Get back up to par with my daytime practices. 3. Start off my LDs properly more grounded in my dream environment! will try Click-Freeze-study environment (click=time stopping pocket watch but more for me to stop and take a moment). Too much of myself in the dream (reference: Mzzkc's Stabilization Fundamentals).

Did self hypnosis lucid dreaming script night of 7/3 and recall one a night or two before that.

Journal Entry Lucid # 56 - 57 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I did fall asleep, without awareness.

Lucid Dream # 56, day: 07/01/14, time: 3:38" Singing Monk":

*notes 8:04-12:53 Am: In the middle of the night I was half awake and asleep. I thought about silly things, still lightly dreaming. I then started to hear loud noise that sounded like wind. It got louder and louder. I felt vibration. I am becoming aware of the situation, it is a transition to a dream. The noise freaked me out and it made it made my heart beat rise. I kept telling myself to become aware of it instead of being scared. My heart beat kept getting faster with the increase of sound. Then the sound started to decrease on its own, my heart beat as well. I realized that instead of paying attention to the physical sensation, I should have been aware of the little images I was seeing from the start. I then went to sleep without awareness.

Background on Ld: I wanted to become aware of sleep process(WILD) as I went to sleep. I laid there quietly. I told myself I am just going to be aware, I will let my body do what it wants. You know like when it jerks upon sleeping. I got tired of waiting and I fell asleep. And I got some cool dream and ok lucid.

So to shorten this dream up, it is about a a guy who can live forever. (I watched a movie called The Man from Earth) pretty cool movie well it influenced my dream

So, when the Ageless man told the people that he doesn't age, they asked him if he made music because music express the soul. I am thinking yes if never made music in his endless life he has never lived to express life. For some reason this brought up my memories of the Tibetan monks singing the "ahhs" and the "oms". I opened my mouth and sang "aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh....". I can't sing, but in the dream it sounded so beautiful. My voice was then followed by a multitude of people in harmony and unity singing "aaaaahhhhh...". I felt the vibration and the energy in my stomach. I then look at my body and my arms are moving uncontrollably. I let it. I kept singing. I then woke up in the kitchen with my arms moving uncontrollably. I see my parents walking back and forth in a hurry trying to start their busy day. I see a girl from church, BY, she is with them as well. And I am just there on the floor. I got up and sat down on the couch. I see my sister. I did a RC (counted my fingers), but it was normal. I actually woke up and went back to sleep after doing a RC.

The next dream I was with somebody. He threw a remote control at his brother. I asked the mom what is wrong with him. She tells me that he has a delusion that he has live for many generations. I then go back all the way to the beginning of this dream. I see the mother taking the Ageless child. She took the wrong child. I followed where she is putting the other child. She grabbed him by the wrist and took him to a house. I became the little kid. She tells me to trust her. I realized it was my dream.

I told myself I need to stabilize the dream. I started to touch the wall. I see a bunch of children rush into the building. This big fat kid wanted to show the other children his house. I walked with them. I am touching the wall as I walked maintaining awareness of the dream. I could still hear the fat kid, "This where my dad..." while pointing at TV. I tuned him out. I could see pictures of people. It looked like the old times, 1700s. As I was making my way through the hall way I see the mother of the character that I am. She asked me if I could let her in. I kept walking. I saw a couple of stairs I didn't want to touch for some reason and I flew over it. I started walking up the stairs with my hands touching the rail. I see another kid doing that to the opposite side going down stairs. I kept looking at the pictures. I see racist images of black people picking cotton and stuff. I then hear the owner bragging about how big his house is. I see a person run out the window. I am trying to maintain awareness. As I was going to the top of the building I then ended up at the bottom of the building. I hear someone say something and I woke up immediately.


Lucid Dream # 57, day: 07/02/14, time: 3:30 - 7:20 am"":
very blurry dream. I was next to gangsters and trouble makers. I remember walking to a house and realizing it is a dream but I don't remember anything in between. I lost lucidity very shortly.

Journal Entry Lucid #55 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I didn't meditate before going to bed. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I lost awareness for a brief second. This was the break I was looking for. After struggling to have a lucid dream in a while, I got a break. I started to do ADA and RC more often now.

Lucid Dream # 55, day: 06/30/14, time: 6:30-8:33 Am"":
I am looking at the mirror in my room. I am kind of disappointed that I couldn't fall back to sleep. My grandmother is calling my name telling me that I have slept for far to long. She is trying to open the door. I see the pillows move (I put pillows on the cracks of the door so that light won't enter, I am a very sensitive sleeper). I then turn and look at my bed. I am there laying down sleeping in the same position as I did. She approaches me and touch my back to wake me up. I was looking at her and I could feel her hands on my back. I then went inside my body. (I woke up and I realized that it never happened. The pillow is still in the same position next to the door.)
I am now in a car going to SF with my parents. I just think to myself if this is a dream I could levitate a car to the moon. I then look at a car and I toss it up in the air. It some how burst into fire. I then did it again. Which gradually got my attention into realizing that it is a dream.

I threw a couple of cars in the air. I tried to throw one more but I couldn't. My mother said to me, "If this is a dream where is the bomb?" I didn't know what she was talking about, but in the dream it was relevant to the dream. I told her it doesn't' matter I could create anything I want. She had a fake bomb in her hands. I thought I don't know if I could create a bomb from scratch but I have had a dream where I created a nuclear blast with the mushroom cloud and everything. I then turned around inside the car. I looked back at Oakland. I put my hands out and imagined the nuclear explosion. I imagined the bright light followed by the mushroom cloud. I tried, nothing. I tried again. I saw a small bright light form. I imagined the expansion. oh yeah I didn't close my eyes while imagining. When I imagined the expansion. It suddenly did a flash of bright light followed by the mushroom cloud.

My mother ask me, " So, where is he?"

Me, "Who?"

Mother, "the big dinosaur from the explosion"

(I didn't know what she was talking about but I wanted to create another nuclear blast this time it was a piece of cake. Now there is a two huge mushroom clouds floating above Oakland. The strange thing was that there was no sound from the nuke).

After I did the second nuke, my mom ask me, "Where is the dinosaur?"
I realized what she is talking about, I responded, "I don't want Godzilla in my dream, even though I could create it".

With that thought Godzilla tears the bridge apart. It looks disastrous. Cracks on the ground, some part of the floor is rising 10 ft in the air. A war zone is what it look like, cars are flipped. I then see a 7 foot dinosaur pops up and it is looking for food. I see my body being dragged. I couldn't move my body even though I was lucid. It felt like sleep paralysis. I see rebels shooting at the little dinosaurs. I woke up.

I was in the gym with my cousin and friend, everyone was bringing chairs in so we did. we walked around to find a seat to sit and so we went across to this room where there was goalie nets and all that, there was someone there and told us to get out, so we were getting out and it endedededededed, it was random

7/5/14

Only slept four hours the night before since I couldn't sleep. Had to wake up the next morning early to watch my mom's dogs since she's on vacation. Took a nap on the couch, but didn't have much time since I had lunch planned with my grandpa.

Laid in supine position, knowing that it'd increase my chances of a WILD (Also, was more comfortable this way). Took a while to fall asleep.

11:30 a.m. WILD

I realized I was dreaming when I waved my hand in front of my face and couldn't see it (heard of this RC check in an article about False Awakenings, which used survey results from three different lucid dreaming websites, including DreamViews!). I heard a repetitive, slightly scary auditory hallucination, but couldn't change it, despite my attempt to change it to a pleasant song. I didn't mind the auditory hallucination, since I was too excited. I could feel my body lifting up (first time experiencing this sensation) like I was going to float and it felt really nice and pleasant.

I also at one point felt myself losing the ability to swallow, and remembered that's a sign of a WILD. I think this was before I did the RC.

Unfortunately, didn't last long and I woke up shortly after without getting the chance to explore my dream. Didn't leave the couch in my dream.

This was the first time experiencing a WILD without feeling fear. I feel my control of my emotions and rationalization is getting stronger in my lucid dreams.

Dream 1 – Dude putting in shit in my face
I think this one was hilarious.

Where?
We where at my gym with all the escalators looking exactly the same. Thing is though, it wasn’t a gym in the dream. I got the impression that it was more like a shoppingcenter.

What did I do?
Searching for a shower and a towel to wipe the shit of my face and desperatly searching for revenge and smash a certain guy.

Who was I there with?
A few people, seemed like it was the folks from my old university class. Seemed like we were there on some sort of a trip and had a schedule over stuff we were supposed to do. The dude putting shit in my face was this dude who was in the same class as me back in the university.

Plot

I know we did lots of shit on this some sort of a trip that we were on, me and a bunch of other folks, I can’t remember what though. Anyway, we were walking down these escalators (the surroundings looked exactly like the ones at my gym) and as we finally were downstairs I noticed that someone was knocking me on my shoulder from behind. And as I turned around I saw this dude from my university class having his hand down his pants behind his back and quickly throwing the shit he had in his hand onto my face and lips.
I was completly shocked and he just flew and started running up through the escalators and escaped. I then remember walking through that place completely furious looking for a shower and a towel to get rid of this disgusting shit he had put in my face. I knocked on this one door and as this door opened I saw these three older women asking me what had happened. I just asked if they had a shower which they had and I remember cleaning my face with a towel and they kept asking me about what had happened but I just ignored them and didn’t bother answering them because I was just so furious and focused on going out and finding this guy again and crush him. That’s it.

2nd dream - Making a fool out of myself on a bandy field

I don't remember a lot from this one. I just remember playing bandy and that I just came on in this game and got the position as a centre midfielder. I soon got the ball in the ball in the middle and was trying to find someone to pass. But I was quickly surrounded by a bunch of opposing players and lost the ball and basically looked like a complete fool for dwelling on the ball. That’s all I remember.

Last night sleep was again a very difficult task to archieve, I guess it's simply too warm too have a decent night of rest. One good thing though is that dreams are slowly getting more vivid again.

1. The last test

It's the end of the school year and the students of the last year are required to do a last test, individually. I have a bike next to me that I'm holding and I'm talking with a friend who has already done the test, he talks about how stupid and useless it is. He told me he had to learn how to knit clothes and stuff. I was waiting infront of the cantine where the test would be and was looking for a way to safely leave my bike outside without it being stolen. Eventually I found a chain and secured the bike in place, I was waiting for my parents to show up cause they have to be at the test too. After several minutes the previous students walked out and I walked in with my parents, the cantine was mostly empty except for one table, 3 chairs and my teacher of French from previous year. I took a seat and she told me there were 3 tasks in the test, she gave me a large bundle of paper and on the front was a picture of 2 cats, I had to pick one of them. I choose the right one and I flipped the page to the next one, my parents choose the other cat I think. She told me a story about the cats but I can't remember that anymore. Then she gave me another bundle, this one had pictures of London and it's people during the victorian era, I flipped the page a bit too fast and she asked me to turn it back. When I flipped back the pages had changed and they kept changing as I flipped back and forward, eventually the teacher asked me to stop and we proceeded to the next test, which was a simple question. "Do you have a lover?", she asked me. I was slightly caught off guard when she asked it so abruptly but I just said no. Then I left the building with my parents.

2. The laser trio

I'm sitting in the couch in my livingroom and watching my sister play with the cat using a laserpointer, quickly I notice that it is actually 3 small lasers, each with a different colour. She pulled the three lasers out of the holder for a second but then she put them back. Then suddenly a digital menu opened infront of her where she could choose the shape of the holder and the lasers, she choose for complete conic shaped but I thought that it didn't look very nice. When I asked her to give it to me and she handed it over my mother suddenly and agressivly snatched it out of my hands, nearly causing it to fall on the ground. I get up and tell her with a very angry tone "If that thing fell out of my hands you would blame me, but it would've been YOU that made it fall on the ground.", she ignores me and I shout "Do you hear me?! I would be blamed while you would be the cause!", she looks at me with an annoyed expression and I look the other way. When I woke and she walked in my room the very same moment I was still angry but then I realised that in the dream that's not my real mother.

3. Robojump

I'm walking through a weird house and enter the children's bedroom, there I see a toy-robot standing against the wall and 2 cardboard children looking at it with joy. I can't move and I'm forced to sit down infront of it, I get instructions to pay close attention and begin hearing the two motionless children singing a weird song for the robot. The robot starts to glow and float, suddenly it flies through the window up in the sky. Now I'm in my own bedroom looking outside and seeing the robot fly through the air, sometimes it leaves behind a small puff of smoke. I fly after it and suddenly control the robot like a game from 3rd person view. I have to jump on tiny sky islands and avoid falling down, eventually I reach the end and win the game.

There you have it, I hope I will soon be able to have normal nights again where I can sleep, normally.

Slept on a moving train on this fu*king prison bed (more or less) and with this dude snoring next to me. Not the best sleep
I’ve got, anyway...

1st dream – Girl I like texting back
Well, basically all I can remember from this text I got.
So IRL I’ve been texting a bit with this german woman I’ve seen a few times and really like. We’ve been texting back and forth and I’ve been trying to take her out for a while and she’s been flakeing me off. The thing is that I literally told her to fuck off back to Germany in the last text after and now I just dreamed that she replied message back to me in which she said she was sorry and that I had misunderstood her and explained why she had shown such a rigid behavior on the phone. That was basically it and I woke up in the middle of the night.

2:nd dream – Anxiety as I prepare for space war
This was a sick dream though.
What I basically remember from the start was being on some sort of a planet (the landscape was similar to the moon) out there in the dark universe. I was there as a solider with a bunch of other men living in this complex that existed of four massive buildings. Those four buildings was literally the only thing that existed there. I’ve figured out now afterwards that two of these were obviously meant to be where we were supposed to sleep while the other two were changing rooms.
Anyway, eventually an alarm got off and it was clear that we now had to prepare for war. We took these escalators down to the changing rooms and my heart beat increased while we were standing on these escalators to go down the changing rooms and put all the gear on and get out in the warzone. I knew that now it was going to be life or death.
The last thing I can remember is standing there in the changing room and having this feeling of anxiety to go out in the warzone.


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Side note:
I’ve been thinking a long time now about going into the army but my family has not been very positive to that idea. They just recently closed this period where they recruit new soldiers and I didn't apply and this was basically the last chance I had to get into the field that I've been looking at. So I can see why the 2nd dream makes sense in a way...

I'm standing inside a giant open-air concert dome, kind of like the Hollywood Bowl. There are no seats. Everyone is standing and it's very crowded. I'm near the front of the crowd, close to the stage. It's a high stage, about eight or nine feet. I look up and there is a small group of people on the stage. I see Demi Lovato and Adam Lambert together. Behind them I see Thirty Seconds to Mars. Together they all start chanting, "Fight, fight!" They throw their fists in the air while chanting and it keeps getting louder and louder. The crowd starts moving towards the stage and attempting to climb the wall. People start lifting each other up, building human latters to help everyone reach the top. When people reached the top and made it onstage, guards appeared and they stood in a line and blocked anyone attempting to pass them. I take a few steps back because I don't want to be part of the riot that I know is coming. My eyes scan the stage and I see Demi being held back by two guards and she's very upset. She's trying to get close to the crowd but the guards won't budge. Adam is by her side and trying to help her. I see Jared Leto take off his shirt and run full speed towards the end of the stage. He jumps into the air, spreading his arms and smiling like a mad man. He lands on his back into a mass of hands that begin to carry him. After him, everyone who can shake off the guards starts to stage dive. I start walking backwards. I try to separate myself from everyone and end up near the back. I watch as people are carried across the crowds. I start to walk around a bit. I walk and see Harry Potter (Daniel Radcliffe). He's scared for some reason. I watch him disappear into the crowd and then suddenly appear again with Hermione (Emma Watson). They seem to hold each other up and run back into the crowd. I turn around and start walking back the way I came, but something seems different. I notice that people are being separated into groups and made to stand in large circles. I try to make myself smaller and slowly make my way further back behind everyone. I hit a wall and realize I can't go any further. I watch as the whole crowd is put into huge circles and made to walk and keep pace. Each circle is guarded by one hooded person. They are scary. While keeping an eye on the hooded figures, I try to pick my way along the back wall, avoiding being caught as best as I can. There are a few close calls, but other than that, I make it to a corner and two doors. I lean against the doors and wonder where I should go. I look up and a circled group is walking right in front of me. I try to stay unnoticed but the hooded person guarding them sees me and quickly comes up to me. The figure grabs my arm and starts to drag me towards the circle, but before I get too far, a girl appears out of one of the doors and grabs my other arm. The hooded figure immediately lets me go and goes back to what he was doing. I look at the girl and she just grabs my hand and pulls me through a door. Behind the door is a million different halls and passages. I'd get lost if I were alone. We don't speak and she drags me along quickly. I try to take in my surroundings but it's as if I am not allowed to. After a few minutes we walk through a really big door and inside it's like a fairytale mixed with Willy Wonka. It's a beautiful, sparkly forest filled to the brim with flowers and glitter. I stumble a few times while still being dragged because I'm trying so hard to look at everything. We come to a stop in front of a small table with two chairs. In one of the chairs is sitting a woman. She looks like a queen. She's in all white, with long brown hair and a big smile. She is very beautiful. She tells me that she has to talk to me and tells me to please sit down. I take a seat in the empty chair. She tells me things that I can't remember, but I feel at home and comfortable around her. Behind her is another hallway. I watch as groups of people are marched through there. Patrick Star is in one of the groups. I look back up at the queen and she is talking to the girl who dragged me there. They are bickering about a sliver chain that has two diamond owls surrounded by sapphires. The girl is saying to not use it. I look at it for a few seconds and say that it's very pretty. The queen looks at me and smiles. She agrees with me and takes it out. The girl huffs and walks away.