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I WBTB at 2:30AM and took 8MG Galantamine and 400MG DMAE. I kept the WBTB brief.

#399 - DILD - 5:18AM

I am what I think of as my my moms sister's house, Aunt Paula. I wake up and have to pee. I know I was trying to get lucid but I think I should take care of this. The bathroom has a strange looking toilet made of maroon colored plastic. When I open the lid something breaks and water spills all over the floor. My uncle comes in upset about the mess. He looks over the toilet and says something dismissive and leaves. I am in shock and recall this as a dream sign. I look left past the sink and see a white porcelain toilet has appeared. I become lucid at this, though I still feel the need to pee. I consider it but I now know that it's pointless and don't want to think what might happen if I try.

I walk back into the main room while I try to recall my goal. I say out loud, "I have a goal." I just can't remember. For some reason I think I wanted to summon some sort of evil magic. No that can't be right. I start to feel mild fear but I keep my emotions in check. However, it doesn't stop the evil from manifesting itself. I see movement around me. There behind red curtains. A child? The curtains part and I see a grotesquely rotted face of a demonic child. I hissed at me then into a wispy ghost and vanishes into vapor. Multiple copies of these demonic ghost children appear all around me but the moment I try to focus on them they turn to vapor and streak around. I keep my emotion level and don't allow this to turn into a nightmare. I'm actually happy this is happening. I haven't had much of a creep factor in a long time. The dream collapses here and I wake into SP.

I am on my right side and I feel really uncomfortable. My knees are touching in a way that hurts and I am really hot. I try to move but can't. I notice vibrations. I want to wake up so I open my eyes but I see the room too bright and ghostly figures. I wonder if I have even woke up. I consider holding my breath to wake up but I don't want to break the dream just yet. With great effort, I manage to roll over and remove some of the blanket. I feel better but I also notice the vibrations haven't stopped. I doubt that I have actually moved, but the effect was the same. I try opening my eyes again to see if I actually see the room. I can see the moonlight from the window and decide to try moving my hands. There is a ghostly image of me shaking my hands in front of my face. Again I doubt that I am even really seeing my room and as I watch my body releases and I am dumped out of bed. I go blind again and feel my way into the living room noticing what my hands and feet touch with great detail. I pause for a moment and try summoning a woman like in a recent LD, but it doesn't happen and I really don't want to go there anyway.

I am at the front door now still trying to see but all I get is random images like heavy hypnagogic imagery. I decide that I am trying too hard to see. I relax a bit and forget about the problem. I focus on feeling the detail of the front door as I try to see what I am touching. The images vanish to black, then suddenly, I see. I am looking out the glass storm-door into a version of my front yard. Excited, I quickly rush out. My vision becomes blurry as if I am underwater. I notice it is raining. My yard doesn't end at a street but seems to continue into a wooden area. The closer I get to the edge of the yard the more the dream area seems to stop there until there is a definite cut off into black void. I stop and turn back. There are some unfamiliar cars in the drive way under a carport. My house look unfamiliar. I fall to my hands and knees and feel the grass to stabilize. I try to feel the rain but there is very little sensation. I know I had a goal but I still can't remember. I shout very loud, "I HAVE A GOAL!" I can't think. All I recall is that same summoning-evil-thought. No. Not again. I let that go. After a moment I realize that I am trying too hard again. I relax my mind and body and decide to forget about my goal. I don't worry about losing lucidity here as I feel mentally solid and locked in. I get up and find a car in the spot I was crawling around. Some blue sedan. My vision is still odd as I feel for a door handle. I'm really not keen on going for a drive but if this is all I get I'll go for it. Just as I am about to open the door I see a tiny gray kitten come up to me. It has a tiny meow and sounds like it's in distress or really hungry. I pickup the kitten and say, "Oh poor little kitty. You're hungry aren't you?" I put it up to my chest and chin and give it a little hug. I decide it would be cool to get the cat to talk so I begin talking to it, asking it if it is hungry. It meows but I am persistent and tell it that I want to hear words. Finally, I hear a little girl voice say that it is very hungry. I need to get her inside and feed her.

Just inside the front door there is an open room with someone in a bed. The light is on and everything is very vivid. Curious I go in with the kitty in my arms. I say in a weak voice, "Who are you?' The figure stirs and seems to wake up. I see her face. She looks like an odd and young version of my dead grandmother (Nanny). I don't want to admit this because I am getting a very strange vibe from her. I recall that normally I am excited when she visits my dreams but something is different here. I say in a much stronger voice, "Who are you?"
She sits up now, "I am not whole."
I feel really uncomfortable now, "O... Ok."
She looks at me intently and asks expectantly, "Who do I look like?"
I tell her the answer she wants by saying my grandmothers full name.
The woman stands up and laughs, "Ha ha... yes!"
I say, "But, you are different." I don't like this woman and try to dismiss her, "Ok. Well, I am going now." I take kitty with me to the kitchen table and sit her down. I decide to treat her more like a human and let her eat here. The strange woman has followed me and sits down in a dining chair. I decide to pay her little attention and let her do whatever. I leave the kitten with her and walk into the kitchen where the cat food bin is. There is some instability here and decide I don't need to actually get the food. I blind summon a the food scoop and make a motion with my hand like I getting cat food. As I walk back to the table I have a small amount of cat food in the scoop. I pour it out on the table and kitty starts to eat ravenously. I notice she is having a hard time biting the hard food and I say something to the woman about this. When I look at her, her face has changed again. She still looks like a version of my grandmother but has become younger and very pretty. I being to have some arousal but think this is way too weird to have any sort of fun with her. I look back kitty and she quickly runs under the table as if she is now afraid. I comment about her strange behavior as I wake up.

16th January 2015

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Ok so yesterday evening I had a two hour massage. When I returned home, I did a mindfullness meditation with some initial energy work to get me in the correct vibration. I held a raw piece of moldavite in my right hand, my quartz record keeper in my left and on the table infront of me there was my moldavite bracelet with a small quartz cluster in the middle and next to it was a fluorite cluster. I kept on slipping into a deam state during the meditaion and the mediation turned into a flux between seeing and interacting with dream images and me noticing it, then refocusing on my breath. The meditation lasted 50 minutes. After that I was chatting to relatives online and as a result I went to bed about 2 hours later than usual. Earlier in the day I had made a recording on my phone with me saying 3 times, each one minute apart, "You're dreaming" and "You're in a dream". I set this as an alarm on my phone and I set it to go off about 01:15. I heard it go off and I woke up. I decided I would get up so I look at the phone and the time is exactly 01:11. Stayed awake until about 03:00 and then went back to bed. Took me a while to get back to sleep. At one point I was able to see the room with my eyes closed! I could actually see the reflective surface of the cupboard door and when my GF went to the toilet I could see the door open. I tried waving my had infront of me a few times and I could see movement but couldn't really see my hand. Felt and looked exactly the same as the times this has happened to me before (see note 1). Had a real sense of perception and depth and the same strange sensation you get from seeing with your eyes closed. After a short while it actualy feels quite natural and you kind of forget they are closed.

Below is the dream that I recorded when I woke up at approximately 05:00. I had also set the voice signal to go off on my phone again.


Location: @ home
Tools Used: raw moldavite, quartz record keeper and mobile phone
Others In Room: sleeping next to GF
Unusual Activities During The Day: See above

Dream

I can remember hearing the first voice signal on my phone. I can't remember hearing the other two. When I became lucid I was inside a house/buiding. Everything was white and it had a very light and airy feel. I felt like my vibration had been lifed considerably. I felt very light and connected. Very open. I started walking through the house allowing myself to become more and more lucid. I remember feeling so good. So high in vibration but I could feel someting on my back. Like there was an uncomfortable pressure across part of my back. I tried to sort it but it wouldn't go away, so I assumed that it was my body in the bed and the sensation has transferring through to the dream. I though to myself after what felt like a few minutes 'Ok, I'm getting distracted now. What was it I was planing on doing when I became lucid?' After a few seconds of puzzling over this I remembered! 'I was going to do the Keys of Ascention meditation technique!'. Upon this rememberance I heard my GF's voice say "Oh my God!" and I though 'I wonder what's happened?' So I went in search of her. I saw a door that I wanted to go into and there was a female DC standing just before it in another small room. She was folding towels and putting them neatly away. She appeared to be a maid and as she crossed my path she gave me a side glance and half seductevly, half lovingly smiled at me. As I passed her I brushed my hand against her ass and I walked to the door and opened it. Inside there were 4 girls standing around, all nannys, and there were two babys. The girls had all been admiring the babys when I arrived and now they were all looking at me, slightly puzzled. I looked at one of the babys and he screwed his face up at me. The girls all laughed and so I decided to screw my face back up towards the baby in a playful manner. As I tried to screw my face it felt like it wouldn't move, so I tried with more force and I then started feeling my body in the bed. I instantly understood that I must have actually been doing that to my face in my waking reality body and it was waking me up. I tried to relax myself and stay calm but I was on a slippery slope and was in the bed awake withing a few seconds.

I stayed awake for another couple of hours and although I'm wide awake I decide to have another sleep. So I load up my oil burner with water that my herkimer diamond has been cleansing in for a few days and I put frankincense and sandalwood in it (see note 2) along with clary sage which relaxes me tremendously. The moldavite and quartz are still under my pillow. I fall asleep in bed after a short time reading. I'm very briefly woken about 20 minutes later by my GF leaving for work and I remember what I've been dreaming:

I was in a small room and I was holding an iron (as in an iron for clothes) in my hand. The metal part of the iron was not soild. It was hollow and open at the top and inside it was brown powder. I was waving the iron around and skipping around the room causing the powder to come out and go into the air. It was all around me and as I was breathing it in it was making me feel really really good! It was like pure love energy, making me feel very high in vibration. I was semi lucid throughout the dream.

I woke up again 2 hours later, having had a very deep sleep with no recollection of any dreams.


Thoughts/Notes

note 1: I've been able to see with my eyes closed quite a few times before. Twice when I was working offshore mid 2014 which was definitley due to me using the baramay device on a daily basis. The other times were during a 30+ hour ibogaine session. Happened a lot of times and was quite clear. I should also note that I've just started using the baramay device in meditation again a few days ago after a very long break from it.

note 2: Both frankincense and sandalwood make your brain release more melatonin. Herkimer daimonds help me to sleep and are widely regarded as one of the best crystals for all things sleep related.

First dream

It was friday the thirteenth. I went out of my house in the midnight. It was cold, dark night. The sky was clear, although I couldn't spot any stars. I was going to the garage, to check something in the car. Suddenly I heard Jason Voorhees, and I spotted something in the darkness, moving towards me. Frightened I ran towards the door of my house, and closed myself inside. Then I felt safe, and Jason wasn't trying to attack me again.

Second dream

I was driving from the city by car. It was midnight. Sky was clear. It looked like endless, black void. I could hardly see anything on the road. Suddenly I saw light in the distance. I thought it was someone with flashlight, but there was no one. Just light moving on the road. When I was getting close to it, I heard terrifying scream. I tried to raise the speed, but then I ran into a skid, and hit the tree.

Morning of January 17, 2015. Saturday.



I am not very focused in my dream but seem to have been watching a movie or series of shorter movies. One of them has a scene with my wife when she was much younger but the role is actually played by someone else - an unknown actress. In the scene, she meets with her best friend who is also played by someone else. There are other people around in the outdoor public area in the movie scene. I get the impression it is near a train station and in the afternoon though I am not sure of all the details. I am not sure of the name of the movie or of the overall plot though it is probably about Nimbin Australia in the late 1960s. I believe my family and I are watching the movie in our present home.

However (when my dream shifts at one point), once again, I find myself living back in the King Street boarding house where I had not lived since the 1980s. However, there is no in-dream prior association with any of my past apartments as my dream scene seemingly starts when I am at the top of the front stairs and looking downwards. Two men had been knocking on the downstairs front entrance, though oddly, I get the impression it is at the porch entrance (which has no doors) and so they remain on or near the outer steps or lawn (the porch layout is rendered incorrectly, the entrance being more centered instead of more to the left from the inside view - and in reality, it would be unlikely to hear someone knocking in that area). It is something to do with my wife’s friend having been run over by a truck - I am somehow already aware of this before I talk to them. I am not really sure what they want with me. It seems to be late morning at this point. There is some sort of strange three-tiered emotional perspective - the event having already just happened, being yet to happen, and happening at the time I am talking to the men (just behind them on the street - though I am not focused on anything that looks like an accident). I do not immediately recall having this particular level of perception in a dream before. It may be an influence from movies that have non-chronological sequences.

When I begin to talk with them, the one to the left shows me notes on smaller paper. I look at it and get the impression of a couple hand-printed paragraphs but he does not give me any time to actually read it even though his attitude is as such that I had somehow read it that quickly. The other male asks me questions on it as well but I mostly do not know how to respond. At any rate, I was not a witness to the event; at least I do not think I was (regarding my dream’s potential “back story”).

The person actually was struck by a vehicle (though lived) but that was a few years ago.

Details to follow later.

One of the most unpleasant situations in my life has resulted in one of my most memorable dreams (albeit nightmare basically):

+ (epic) struggle against me and my wife at work: theft of our precious silver, confrontation, race to the police, return to work, locked in, weird visuals of the process of manipulation of clay into various faces, drive through suburban cityscape with hills of golden maple and pink cherry trees, view of massive mall/movie theater complex to the right

I'm in a workplace with my wife, there are long hallways and clusters of desks spread around. ("We" means wife and I were basically together the entire dream). We go to a different group in a cluster of desks/cubes, they're hostile to us. Their manager is also hostile to us. A guy there doesn't like me wife because he thinks that she is always giving them tasks to do with out any effort spent herself.

I see down a long hallway that this guy is standing at the cabinet that houses our precious silver tableware. The top drawer of the cabinet is open, and this guy has a plastic bag spread out on top and is unloading the tableware into the bag. I run up to him and yell at him and shove him away angrily. I speak to my wife that we need to lock the cabinet in the hallway, I imagine a key inserted into a lock and turning, engaging a lock. I return to the cabinet and open the top drawer, and it is empty, we've been robbed!

We're again with the hostile group, sitting down leaning against the desks, and I get a vibe that the guy is going to attack us, he stands up and starts backing away, I think he's trying to get proper distance to launch some attack, so I quickly run up to him and close the distance, he keeps backing away and I keep coming up right next to him. I look down and see that he has a revolver tucked into the front of his jeans, I immediately grab for it and take it into my left hand, start to walk away and call for my wife to join me urgently, we must get out of here and call the police. The pistol is small, but deadly, he could have shot us. I right away open the cylinder and empty the (somewhat colorful) rounds into my right hand, and place the rounds into my right pocket and the now unloaded revolver into my left pocket.

We're exiting the building in haste, we must call the police, it's important to get our story registered first, the hostiles will try to get their story first. Should we go to the PA police department or the CU police department? The PA does not deal with cases outside of their jurisdiction I think / my wife says, OK, let's go to the CU then.

Outside in a parking lot looking for our car, the spot is empty, "They've stolen our car!" my wife exclaims. No, we "remember" quickly that we simply moved our car ourselves far away, we'll have to go and get it.

Driving now through rolling suburban hills with businesses around. To the left I notice a striking hillside covered with shining golden maple trees. I look closer and the trees seem to be pink Japanese cherry trees. I look to the right and down a steep hill I see a massive mall complex below, it's also a giant movie theater, and as we drive past I think what sorts of movies play there, I see some large (actors?) faces on a marque, maybe I should go to this mall to check it out.

Back in the work place, it's empty, I think they could come and lock us in.

Talking with some guy at work, his job over the years has been to create a system for transforming lumps of clay into faces. I see a lump of clay up close, there is a narration about the different parts of it, and soon it is getting pushed and pulled and formed into a series of about 5-6 different heads/faces with open mouths, mostly sort of monster looking. I'm thinking this has taken a long time and seems sort of like a wasted effort.

(Waking from this dream was a relief, the sense of dread and forboding was constant throughout the whole thing. I quickly realized though that as a dream it was fairly awesome in terms of "present" experience, continuity, length/coherence, and visuals.)

+ pushing through crowds crossing the street to get to the buses

A crowd of people is standing at a crosswalk waiting for the signal to light, some are "beeping" behind us telling us to go. We wait for the signal, and cross the street, and we're in a sort of bus station. Buses and coming and going, our bus is full and leaving, there are so many buses around that we can probably catch another one.

Move into a group of (woman?) talking/laughing about something?

+ (semi/almost lucid) getting sexually daring with a woman and in front of a mirror

I'm in a bedroom, I'm following around a black woman, not terribly attractive but I'm still following her around. We're standing in front of a mirror her attention is not on me, but I get an idea and want to start exposing myself so that I can see myself and the woman in the mirror but so that she doesn't see me. I'm doing this on and off stopping when she looks? Then I take her aside to the bed and pull out my (ahem) to show her, and the dream ends….

11th January 2015

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Location: @ home
Tools Used: moldavite
Others In Room: sleeping next to GF
Unusual Activities During The Day:

Dream

This dream occured in the later stages of sleep, not long before I woke up.

There was an initiation ceremony being held for me. It was being held/conducted by my GF's family. My family was there also. It was in an area of countryside where we would play as kids. The 'test' I had to complete was to jump from a really high cliff and land at the bottom, although when I jumped, I was to jump straight out. I understood that if I didn't jump far enough straight outwards, I would fail. So I jumped and I made it far enough out and then I fell through the air and landed in a river or lake at the bottom. Then all the family members appeared there to give me gifts of flowers made of fruit for completing the task and I was taking them and eating them.


Thoughts/Notes

Notice the similarities between this dream and the 'jump program' in the Matrix.

9th January 2015

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Location: @ home
Tools Used: In my left had I has holding a herkimer diamond, above my head was the fluorite cluster, raw moldavite with the wand pointing down from it towards my head.
Others In Room: Sleeping next to GF
Unusual Activities During The Day:

Dream

I was inside a oval shaped UFO. There were other people (humans) inside it also and we were flying around. Inside there was a periscope like the kind you would find on a submarine and I was looking through it at the people outside. I was thinking 'It's so cool to see what it is like to be on the inside of one of there as oppposed to seeing one from the outside!' We saw a man and he was about to do do something bad (can't remember exactly what but it was something that would cause harm to others) and we stopped him from doing it by using the ship in some way. The the man had tried to escape from us and I was then outside the craft and I was chasing him on foot. I got close to him and he make himself dissappear. Even though he had done this I could still see him as a little black dot although after a while this little black dot dissapeared also.

At this stage I started to awaken and in the waking state I thought to myself 'I should have known that was a dream cause I was inside a UFO' then without moving at all I quickly slipped back to sleep and started dreaming almost immediatley.

This beginning is a bit vague but I had pursued some line of work I was interested in, and in doing so I had met this female DC. We were inside a building. It was bright inside, with white walls. The female DC was middle aged, blonde hair, tall, dressed in light blues and white flowing robes. She was very wise and elegant and she gave off a very loving energy. She told me that one of my abilities was I could see things and I could also channel. She started teaching me how to channel. I was to project a blue light from myself (I think my throat chakra) towards an object which looked like a bucket. I was practicing this for a while and she was helping me then after some time, other people started arriving, one by one and they were all sitting and standing about, some mingling with each other and they all had abilities also. There was a kid sitting next to me and he was trying to talk to me but I couldn't understand him. He gave off a really nice loving energy and he was smiling at me a lot and then I realized that he was Thai kid. So I started to talk to him in Thai, asking him what his name was but he didn't reply, he just gave me a loving smile. Then I remember seeing there was little kid with a woman standing behind her entering the room through the doorway. Just as they were about to enter the little kid, whos facial apperance was adult and almost exactly the same as the womans, turned around to face the woman, who I then noticed was acting in a kind of robot fashion, and the kid climbed up into the womans stomach which looked like she was pregnant although there was a big hole in the front, and the kid climbed inside the womans stomach! When she did this the woaman stopped acting robot like and started acting normal! It was like they were one and the same being and if the child left her womb only the child could act normaly and when the kid was inside only the woman could act normally. I though this was so bizarre and then I reflected on the whole sceen and I realized that it was like Xmen; we were all here with different abilities and were here to learn from the female teacher I'd met in the begining. I then realized this is a dream and the dream became clearer and clearer. When I could feel all my senses, I shouted up to the sky "Higher Self, show me something that's important for me to see" and I stuck my arms out and started spinning round. After just a coule of spins I lost my ballance, fell over and hit my forhead hard on something which hurt quite a bit, although I was quickly distracted from the pain because the scene of the dream had totally changed. I was now outside and there was a low grassy hill to my right. I was standing at the botom of the hill and couldn't see what was beyond the horison of the hill. The amazing thing about the scene was, there was all different kinds of animals running at top speed over and down the hill and off to my left. They were moving so fast it was hard to get a good look at each one individually but I remember seeing a few limas and wild boars. It was as if they were all running away from something which had scared them. I noticed there was a dead tree on the hill and as I looked at it I noticed a monkey had gotten itself tangled in the tree and was struggling to get out. So I went over and helped free the monkey, which frantically took off running in the same direction as all the other animals as soon as it could. I didn't feel interested in that scene any more so I started walking away from the hill and as I did, I realized that there were two DCs from the last scene I was in, who were accompanying me (walking together always staying behind me). We soon came to a large indistrial style building which was made of brick. We entered a door and behind it was a stairwell which we started walking down. As I was walking down the stairs I wondered to myself, 'What does this building represent?' and so I shouted upwards "Higher Self, what does this building represent?" I then got a strange feeling start at my feet which moved up trough my shins. At this point I started to feel my legs in waking reality and I was quickly starting to feel more and more of them moving up as in my dream. This only took a few seconds and then I was awake.


Thoughts/Notes

When I woke up I was a little bit shocked and disapointed. I felt like I had been kicked out of the dream for asking about the building.

7th January 2015

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Location: @ home
Tools Used: moldavite with quartz wand coming from it pointing towards my head
Others In Room: sleeping next to GF
Unusual Activities During The Day:

Dream

This was the 4th dream of the night I can remember and the only one I was lucid in. I'm not sure exacty how I became lucid. I presume something started to make me up, but not fully, and when this happened I knew it was a dream.

I remember I could still feel my body in the bed whilst I was dreaming. It felt like 80-90% in the dream reality and 20-10% in the waking reality and at that stage I was fully lucid. When I became lucid I was in deep natural water (felt like the sea). I was trying to hold my breath and then I though to myself 'Why am I trying to hold my breath? This is a dream! I don't need to breath!' and then I started breathing again. When I did this I could actually feel the water entering my lungs which felt really amazing. So I swam to an area in mid water were there was nothing around me and I was enjoying the feeling of being under water and breathing water so much. It felt so incredible! I then thought to myself 'I need to get down to businesss here and stop playing around'. So I looked upwards and said "Higher Self, show me something that is important for me to see". Everything went pitch black for a few seconds then, in the far distance below and infront of me, I could see a little blue light which was getting bigger and bigger. As it got bigger it looked like a rectangular area that either I was moving closer to, or it was moving up to me (see note 1). It resembled a tennis court when it was at a disance but as it got closer it appeared to be an old ruined castle. There were lots of DC there who were dressed like medieval soliders. There were two different types of soliders uniform. One was red and the other was (unknown). They were attacking me and I was hiting them and they would smash up as if they were made of something like rock. After I did this with quite a few of them I though I would find out what they represented. So I stopped hitting them and I noticed if I didn't hit them they would all stop attacking me and become disinterested in me. I then, whilst standing next to one, looked up to the sky and shouted out "What does this one represent?" To which I got no answer. I tried asking a few more times whilst standing next to both types and I still got no answer. There seemed to be more and more of them appearing since I stopped fighting with them. I decided to take a walk around and I came to a large giant with another similar looking giant standing a short distance behind the first. The one closest was holding a quartz crystal wand in his right hand and he was acting just slightly agressive towards me but I was starting to get bored of the scene now. So I put my arms out and started spinning. I could feel myself getting dizzier and dizzier and everything turned black so I stopped spinning. I was still in complete darkness and I thought to myself 'I've got my eyes closed! I need to open them'. So I tried opening them but they felt like they were really tightly closed and I couldn't do it. After doing this for a while I though to myself 'I must be feeling my eyes in my body in waking reality' so I concluded that my dream eyes must actually be open and I'm just in pitch darkness. Upon finishing this line of though I started seeing a soft blue light starting to appear and grow larger. Next thing I know I can feel my phone in waking reality is ringing in my pocket so I think 'oh no! I'm going to have to wake up and get that'. I wake up and answer the phone. It was my Mother who had called and I was saying "hello, hello?" but all I could hear were office noises. It was as if she had left the phone off the hook by mistake instead of hanging up. I notice I am in a castle scene again but it was a small area and I had the feeling I was not at ground level like before. I was lying down and infront of me there was a guy I worked with once shooting a hand held sling shot over the side of a wall at, I pressumed, rats. A girl I knew from school was sitting behind me with her back against a wall. I then woke into waking reality.


Thoughts/Notes

Note 1: This was very similar one of the experiences I had whilst taking ibogaine.

Night of January 17, 2015. Saturday.

Dream #: 17,561-03. Reading time: 55 sec. Readability score: 55.



I am in a calm, relaxed mood in our present home on W Street, but I realize something eerily dynamic is in the area near where I am resting. I see a horseless rocking horse “rocking” on the ceiling (in the same manner as if it were on the floor but upside-down) a short distance from one side of the room. (I also get the vague and barely discernible impression of a robotic spider.) It continues to rock in one spot only for a short time.

I get a vague impression that I should be “terrified of this nightmare” and yet I am only puzzled and then very mildly amused at the idea and weird imagery.

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This short dream is seemingly a continuation of residual energies from “Rocking Horse Epilogue” on the 16th. (I am feeling more myself again on the 26th after my dehydration experience.) It may be a representation of mortality as dismantling a baby cot (or cradle) represented death before my sister died. In addition to having precognitive dreams of her condition, I dreamt that she and her husband were dismantling a baby cot even though they never had children of their own. (The upside-down horseless rocking horse also resembles part of an arched gateway, including a section that looks like a ladder; other associations with mortality and organic or spiritual change as well as inherent dream state autosymbolism.)

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1/16/15
10:41 PM
Dream Occurred: 1/14/16 (Wednesday)

I went to bed rather early for me, 10 or 11 PM. I decided to try WILD, but let my thoughts drift off a bit. I then saw a bright light flash (yellowish-greenish) on my eyelids. I didn’t panic when I normally would have. I then started vibrating and thought “this is normal for going through sleep paralysis”. I accepted that thought, but it almost felt like someone else said it, not that I think about it. I also thought that once I opened my eyes I’d be in my room.
So I did. I did a nose check and it passed. Since my current LD goal is to transform into a wolf, I tried to turn myself into one. I looked at my stubby hand and tried to make it a paw, but only got as far as making my hand into a black mass.
I had a number of more fragments where I had FA’s (I think I had two in total but I’m not sure). Here is a list from what I remember of them:
- Trying to wake up in a bed in my dream world but doubting it would work, so it didn’t.
- Howling to see if I sounded like a human or wolf (I also wasn’t sure if I was dreaming or not)
- Seeing microbial microscope looking things in front of my eyelids, and this scaring me
- Telling myself that when I woke up I’d be in my bed, but my friends would be there
- Two of my friends being in my 7th grade science room with me while I was in my bed. Sorta a morph with the classroom and my bedroom.

Third dream

I don't recall how but i arrived at a train station where i was running from something. I bumped into a lady's son as i was running. I said sorry than as i continued to walk i came to a realization that this was a dream.

I began to call for Dawn and Eye than ended up in my house. As i kept calling for them i noticed really fast DCs jumping from one place to another. I went to my room after that. But when i got inside i decided to look out to the hallway. I called for Eye again and the really fast DC ran fast to my older brother's room. I felt a shock inside me and a heavy feeling when it passed by. It sort of freaked me out but i remained calm and went into my room and closed the door. Than i pushed the dresser nearby to the door so no one could get in.

I found my male blue parakeet flying slowly in the air and let him fall on my finger.Than I looked at a huge mirror that isn't in my WL room and wondered if this was really how i wanted the dream to end. I than looked to the door and thought about how its still possible for someone to get in.

After that someone started banging on the door telling me to open it. I didn't want to move the dresser but than the DC broke the door a bit and the dresser moved out of place. "Is that you Eye?" I asked. The DC responded with a yes. I went out the room and looked. The DC had Eye's personality but it didn't look like Eye.There was someone next to him too but it did not look like Dawn.
I did something else after that but i forgot what it was.

Hi .i hope that someone can tell me what my dream means. Idreamt that iwas standing in my garden just outside my kitchen and that I was looking at the sky when suddenly something like a huge ball with a light blue color and at the same time transparent with Avery intricate design ,and it just like posed on the top the stone fence of my garden maybe two feels away from me and someone just pushed as if he was going to cut the ball from the center with his hands but nothing was ripped because the material or what ever it was just gave away and someone just got out and with him a huge amount of water and the person just came towards me and entered my body and at that exact moment a voice whispered in my ear ,u want to know where we come from well this it but we are different from the others ,they a mark in their upper leg and I just woke up.

I walk through a portal that takes me up to this stone island floating in the air. Mostly it's this pillar of rough stone but the top, where I'm standing, is level. I walk around the tree in the center and through a second portal - this one takes me back down to the surface, just a few feet away from where I started. Superficially, it doesn't really seem like I'm doing anything aside from walking around - but the act of someone passing through the portals in sequence is leaving a mark, setting something up. I think of stitching a thread through fabric.

To get to the next portal I have to swim across a river. As I'm swimming, I think briefly about growing gills and just walking across the bottom, it might have been more pleasant. I decide to stick with what I've got.

The next portal takes me to an almost identical stone island, except this time there are five portals up here. I step through the first one, and it takes me only a few feet away, in front of the next portal. I'm exasperated by this setup, but I go with it, passing through each portal in sequence. But before I step through the last portal that should take me back to the surface, I step to the edge of the rock and look down, curious about where I am exactly.

Far below, I can see a mountain range. There are two rows cut into the side of the mountain, one on top of the other, with closely-spaced openings for doorways carved into the side of the rock. There are rooms inside - I walked along those paths on my way here. I remember looking up and seeing these two floating islands, and wondering how to get up there. But something occurs to me - I look around for the other floating island, the one I was on just before, and confirm it. Yes - it's still floating upside-down, with the flat surface and the tree on the bottom instead of the top, like an Escher sketch. When I was standing over there, I must have also been standing upside down, at least relative to here. I feel dizzy.

Two fuzzy unfocused non lucids

Walking along a wide promenade like place with my father in law. We started walking across a big chunky stupid looking shiny sliver bridge. From there I could see a pub on a corner I said to my father in law
'These places are great, coz bairns will meet their parents there instead of getting drunk'
'You think people will stop drinking?'
'Well, a couple maybe'
We then reached the end of the bridge and turned right. There was a churchy looking building that ahd a sign outside that said 'The Haunted Inn'

Walking towards my inlaws house. There were some House Sparrows on the grass. They were moaning to each other coz there was no food about. I pinched some fat balls off a hedge and threw them down for them. I then passed a lassie who was holding a rope which was looped around a tree. I went inside and my mum in law said 'Is that lassie still out there'
I said she was, to which she replied 'She's amazing!!'

Lucy, you did it again! I got another DILD this morning! I was dreaming that I was driving this car...it was such a beautiful scenery. Then, I approach this very steep hill and I thought to myself, "There is no way possible I will live if I go down that hill...this has got o be a dream!" For a split second, I thought about me driving down that hill, but I thought, "What if you go down that hill and die?" Don't try that as a reality check! I did my levitation RC instead and levitated and then like magic, everything stopped and I was lucid. I felt the vibrations and just laid there waiting to pop out but I never did. I could see my room through my closed eyelids so I concentrated on my third eye and the vibes came back, but I just couldn't wiggle out...sigh. Oh well, keep them coming Lucy!

NOTE TO SELF: What I should have realized was that I was already 'out' and just changed the dream scene