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Morning of October 2, 2016. Sunday.



I am in our front yard at our present address in late morning. Three of my fictitious sons and one real one (the youngest; Oliver) are present. They are in a group facing each other. There are also a few unknown children, both male and female, closer to the curb. No one is perceived as mischievous.

I absentmindedly tell a fictitious son, “I told you not to stand around at the front of our house”.

Immediately after this, I am facing a young girl and it is implied that she thought I had said this to her. The sudden location shift, as if I had unwillingly rapidly turned counterclockwise as my fictitious son only moved slightly to my right so that I now suddenly faced the girl, does not strike me as impossible or trigger any realization that it could only be a dream.

I inform her that I was not talking to her but was saying this to my son in the hopes of not offending her. I am not sure why I am making an implied apology to the preconscious avatar, but this situation seems a bit backwards, as it would make more sense to tell strangers not to hang around at the front of our house rather than our own children (whether they are only a dream state denizen or not).

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This dream is not symbolic of, or literally relevant to, any recent real-life event and I would certainly not talk to any of our children this way in real life. It is typical waking transition autosymbolism that often involves the preconscious avatar (the unknown girl in this case) initiating a return-to-consciousness trigger, in this case, because I had been asleep on my right side (which I consider unhealthy, as it results in lighter and less restful sleep). In this case, it is a precursor to rolling over in bed (counterclockwise as in my dream), in the direction Zsuzsanna is sleeping (on my left).

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+ miniature stick constructions from big log, avoiding giants on the road.

+(f) [last night perhaps?] on a beach listening to the "shhhhhh"ing sound that the waves made as they pulled back and the water sinks

+ old woman tag, fragile bugs on plants, woman races and breaks her leg (compound practically, bone sticking out but skin not broken), I prepare ice pack thinking about how best to make it at what temperature and with how much insulation, in my CH back porch, hopping over washing machine which is blocking my way.

+ in CA central valley, dark stormy skies, cold, cartoon-colored houses in a row, see lightning going off in the distance, group of kids from across the street comes to us (I'm a kid?)

+ playing pinball, punching buttons trying to understand the starting controls, many balls in play, I vigorously hit the flippers, afterwards I"m in my car and my strikingly beautiful girlfriend comes up to me to say goodbye, leans through the window and kisses me. I love her so much, she is so beautiful, I should just break up with her now otherwise she will 100% break my heart. She puckers up and leans in, her mouth is way too small when she puckers, like a 1/4 inch in diameter.

+ girls gymnastics in huge hall, the library card dispenser machine goes BZZZT! and displays a message that all the cards are sold out, this happens every time I try to key in the "purchase card" combo.

+ buying socks in crowded department store aisle with my kids, "Excuse me, young man", trying to find matching orange-band white athletic socks in the bin, many very orange socks and some with the band but they're too thin, cheap feeling, to my right I notice colorful shorts: in my GS colors of purple and gold, in shiny, satiny material. I take them out and look at them and determine they're too girly-looking: they have terry-cloth portions and are quite small it turns out.

- dream (non lucid): I proposed my girlfriend and she said yes, then also get ex proposed her and she also said yes. Then she told me that she was going took meet him because more similar to her.

- dream (non lucid): a woman that I know married another woman. Curious about her I ask her why, she said that she was bored of fucking around with men. I then ask her if she loves her and she admits that she doesn't.

Continuity, locations and weird dialogues were my main dream signs.

Another night dreaming about the sea! (last week it was cats)

1) I think I was on holiday. I was in a queue, in my car to start with, then on foot, in a seaside town, queuing to get to the sea to go surfing. there were some children behind me, as we reached the sea they pushed past me in the queue, but I let it go. I could see the sea in the distance.
The sea then became a small indoor pool. It had just opened and we all walked inside. It was actaully mostly a hard indoor surface with a small pool in the corner. Lots of people were finding a spot to settle down. I looked for somewhere to put my towel but it was all wet. I started talking to another man asking where I could go without sitting in a wet area. He atrted explainig to me about the activities on offer and that the surfing was a disaster because the pool was so small and the water was flowing so slowly, so they wouldn't be doing it again today.

2) Sitting at a table talking to a young man opposite me. One of my old doctor partner was sitting next to me. We were tlaking about smoking roll ups and about what the best tobacco is. I don't smoke. I watched as the doctor next to me rolled up a cigarette as well and I rememberd seeing her smoke once before and I commented on that.
Then I was walking around somewhere and someone was commenting that I acted as if I am married (I am) but in the dream I was just in a relationship. I was calling my girlfriend 'the wife' and started thinking how I was acting as if I was married.
Then I was in a room with a glass wall watching a woman talking to my children. They were standing by a pond and going to harvest some of the weeds in the pond. They had laid down a floating path on the pond.

WHY AM I DREAMING ABOUT WATER AND THE SEA SO MUCH??

Lucid
Side note
Non-lucid

Pretty cool lucid, can't remember all of it though.




I gained spontaneously lucidity. It was a very bright day and I was on a trampoline. My sister was talking to me. She kept annoying me so I created a laser from my finger and shined it in her eyes. It acted more like a red-dot laser and a small flashlight simultaneously. I made a cranking motion with my other hand and it became brighter. She left me alone after that. My lucidity levels dropped and suddenly it snowed really hard making several feet of snow.

I kept trying to create a tool to melt the snow but it didn't work. I walked into my house but it was super dark even though it had windows. This was a past dream sign of mine, and every time it turned out really bad so I walked outside again. I tried “grabbing” it from the corner but expectation just wasn't helping. I decided to run right through the wall of snow and felt the sting of the cold on my face. It significantly raised my lucidity so I tried to summon the tool again. I first started by creating a pen out of thin air. I managed to actually create it inside my vision giving me confidence of my dream control. Then I imagined the pen turning into a tool.

The snow levitated from the ground and then digitized around the staff forming new parts of it slowly. In the end I was left with this weird red stick with a small black figure of an elephant. I used it to melt the snow and create new snow. My sister seemed vaguely impressed in the background. It had tons of buttons all over it so I pressed one randomly and it created a bunch of bees.

I panicked and pressed a “world reset” button. It brought the world back to the way it was before I had changed it so I dived into the snow again. Afterwards I slowly lost lucidity until I had almost none at all. The dream changed into a portal-like game I was trying to solve with an underworld theme. After doing that for about three minutes I spontaneously forced myself to wake up, so that I wouldn't forget this lucid.

I actually had a fairly long stretch of non-lucid dream in which I had been to a Rainbow Gathering. Lisa was there and asked if I would drop her off at a cabin that was on my way home. We got in a car and drove. She had me stop at a building and we interacted with a DC in the building. When we went outside the girl disappeared. I realized it was a dream. I started looking for the car. It was not there. I planned on summoning a sports car, perhaps with a gold metallic flake finish, but decided I would just fly where ever I was going to go. I feel like I will need the ladder that is near by? Seriously? Yes, an inner voice tells me I will need the ladder soon. What, should I hall a ladder around? Fuck that. No, you need the ladder. Fine, I will shrink it and keep it in my pocket, hows that? No response. I shrink the ladder. The visuals fuck up and the ladder kind of just disappears. Whatever. I see a flashlight. I pick it up and decide to make it work. I look into the lense and it is off. I focus and it comes on shining light. The girl calls to me from a near by motel room door. I go over there and the dream quality falls off to an nREM state.

This was a long DILD that went for at least 10 minutes. I stabilized 3 times successfully. Highlights: I look up and see a beautiful sky of stars. I decide i will fly up to the stars and pluck some from the sky. I superman up there and find that the stars are made of doughnuts (crullers). I took one in hand and flung it to earth. I did this to a second one (should have ate one). In another part I was inside a giant crystal dome climbing on scaffolding. I went outside and was on top of the dome. I heard a large crack like breaking ice and flew off.

I was living as a part of family that was meager in means & was constantly trying to find ways to pay the bills in some shady ways & some resourceful ways. This dream reminded me a tamer version of the tv show Shameless (American Edition). I was the mother. Lots of kids! It started at a school where one of my kids were being bullied & his sister was w/ him. It got chaotic & fast paced so I can't include all of the details or it will just be monotonous because this was a really long dream. One of the kids informed me at this point that their father went to jail but I didn't ever find out why. We then were plunged into the dark in our house. I didn't panic. I sat the kids down & had a heart to heart about us having to come up w/ ways to get our lights back on. We all were laughing at the craziness of the situation & different ideas that we had to pay our electric bill. In the end the lights came back on & we were all laughing yet again.

It was a feel good dream. Lots of fun for a change. I woke up again today w/ a runny nose. I hate allergies. I'll be glad when I make it through the seasonal change & can breathe a little better. It mostly just bothers me in the morning & right before I go to sleep. Unfortunately it affects my dreams sometimes. I live in an old house so it makes my allergies 10 times worse.

The two dreams of last night were about me being back in Italy.

- dream (non lucid): after two years and half in Netherlands I decide that I miss Italy and I quit my job, leave my apartment and go back to live with my apartment. I find a job in a not very nice workplace and I start a new relationship with my ex. (Terrible idea lol) I soon realize that I made a terrible mistake and that I desire to go back to the Netherlands. I discuss it with my mother but she is upset with me.

- dream (non lucid): instead of going back to the Netherlands, I decide to go to a different region of Italy (Tuscany I think). I go to live with a flatmate, a girl, which I find attractive and there is immediately a click.

Dream signs: in my first dream I ate a breakfast prepared by my deceased aunt, still alive in my dream. The food really had a taste though. In the second dream I receive a comment in Facebook by an ex of mine and the second time I read it the text is slightly different. I unfortunately rationalized it as my mistake and didn't become lucid.

I'll start this post with a few dream fragments from past week...or two:

-I saw a huge fiery space rock falling down, lighting up the evening sky. My vision jumped to space. I saw the fireball fly around the planet twice, then it escaped Earth's gravity and disappeared.

-Thanos and Avengers were fighting on a distant planet over the green infinity stone. Thanos got the stone. My vision jumped to space. I saw a black and gray planet, like it was made of metal. It had a small moon as well. The planet and it's moon teleported, as Thanos used the stone.

- I ran into a tall woman in some sort of barn or whatever. Somehow I knew she was a monster, like I had met her before. "I know what you are." I told her. Her expression changed. I shouldn't have said anything. I tried to run past her as she was transforming. Her legs and arms grew longer and she grabbed me with one hand. She lifted me up against the wall as her pretty human face turned into a disgusting maw. Then she screamed. It was the loudest freaking screech. It was painful to hear it.

Dreams from today

Exploring another alien planet

I was on an alien planet, in a massive city with humans, inside a research facility. I was hungry, and found vending machine with something resembling pink and white pudding. I wondered if it was safe to eat. I tried to read the ingredients from the side. First of all, the ingredients were in an alien language. I couldn't read it. I kept looking at the cup as I walked through the empty corridors. I found a lab with three researchers growing bacteria. Two of them was my age, one of them was a girl. The oldest guy was leading the study and clearly busy. As he ran around the room, I still tried to read my pudding cup. There was a part that was in Finnish now, but all the ingredients were alien to me. I don't know what I was expecting. The female researcher told me it was safe to eat. She had straight black hair.

I left the research facility with the girl. A wide street was full of people. We walked past a Quidditch arena. The city was clean and futuristic. I tried to talk with the girl. I asked her name, but she didn't give it at first. After asking a couple of times, she turned towards me and told me her name, but all sounds were muffled as she told it. I couldn't hear it.

Somehow we end up in water. We are going to her friends house that's in some water filled cave apparently. As we dive, this extremely strong current carries us into complete darkness. I HATE it. I summon a glow stick or something, but it barely provides any light. I see small glimmers of light as the group of people I dived with pass by me. There are some ruins in the cave that we are surging through incredibly fast. I spot these structures when I get really close. I'm spinning out of control as the current keeps carrying me.

We end up in a large air pocket in the cave. There are houses built above the water and it's still very dark. I crawl out of the water, onto a wooden walkway in front of the houses. The group is exploring the place. I hear growling. There is a monster dog here. One guy from the group know the dog and I get the idea that the dog is friendly. I summon a flashlight so I can see the dog. Very alien looking dog, but seems chill around the other guys. Tentacles reach forward from my flashlight and scratch the dog. He seems to enjoy it. Dream ends.

Mice Village

I was in a snow covered farm-like area. There was a large group of people behind me, some I recognized as old schoolmates. The place doesn't look even remotely familiar. The winding path leads to a pond that's partly frozen. I see a cat on the other side of the pond. I jump towards the cat. I make it over easily. I look back and signal one of my friends to jump there. The pond looks a lot larger from this side, no human can make that jump.

I continue forward. The outdoor area starts changing into a building progressively. Wooden crates, large shelves, floor panels...and suddenly there's walls and a ceiling, I'm inside a building. The group follows. Among the crates we find tiny houses. Then we see mice. We are all suddenly tiny, mouse-sized. It becomes a bit hazy, but we climb the shelves and meet with some talking mice. We don't trust them. We arm ourselves with weapons found in the area: tiny golden sawed-off shotguns and stuff like that. The shelves are separating two rooms, behind them is a human-sized toilet and a lionman in sitting on it, reading a book or a magazine.

I wander off as a disembodied observer and find Cartman. Then I find the rest of the South Park crew and the creators Matt and Trey. Matt and Trey acknowledge that they are inside the world they created and that it's weird.

I'm standing on a dirt path at the edge of a forest. Everything is kind of dead and in shades of grey and brown. I feel like there's a huge house near us. It's important but I don't really see it. I'm half hugging a tree trunk, watching Jungkook and Jimin practice a few dance moves from Save Me. They're doing the moves while walking to a crossroad not far ahead. They know I'm there watching them. They get back into position, ready to start again. They start moving and I step away from the tree, smiling brightly, and follow alongside them. While dancing they both smile back at me. They stop and we all stand in the middle of the crossroad. A girl appears, an old friend that's a mixture of Krystal and Jazmin. And then a mini van pulls up right in front of us. The girl and I get in, me in the back and her more in the front. Rapmon is driving. Jimin is in the van too and I think Jungkook is still there but I don't see him. The car starts moving and we are suddenly about to get onto a freeway. I say to no one in particular that I don't like vans. Everyone hears me and Rapmon tries to reassure me by saying we're safe. Then I try to explain that when I was younger something happened with a van and I'm traumatized.

I recall a fragment. It was afternnon, I was standing in front of a canyon with rope joining edge with a rock pillar with some house on top of it.

I am talking to my cousin and telling her that I am surprise she and my brother are living with me. My brother tells me goodnight and I say night back to him. My cousin demands me to close the door for her, so I decided to just do it and I remember the door being odd to me. Infact the entire place seemed different to me, it look like a japanese traditional place than the actual homes I am familiar with. But I didn't put much thought about it. As continue walking down the hallway while thinking that was rude. I get interrupted by seeing the entire environment change infront my eyes.

I am now inside a car on the backseat and for some reason I couldn't move. There is a man in one of the front seats with a dark grey beanie turnbing his head to look directly at me. I kept trying to move but this weird sensation kept coming over me that felt like it was preventing me from moving. I was lucid at this point but could not do anything. Eventually I just lost awareness due to not focusing.

Guess I should get back to posting here more often. Anyway, I got quite a number of dreams to note, including two DILDs, one non-LD, and two fragments. I'm pretty sure the full non-LD was at least two dreams, but I never detected any awakenings from them. Depending on how specific the criteria is, I might have also accomplished a TOTM task. Furthermore, I'll paraphrase the non-LD to save space.

Scrap Group 1
Playing Duelyst, switching between Vetruvian and Vanar. I accrued consecutive losses, mostly due to my opponents having a plethora of high value gold cards. I complain about the "pay2win" model of trading card games to Marcus.

Dream 1 - Tournament, Wilderness, Shoes, and Work

Scene 1 - Are Pocket TV's Still a Thing?
Game tournament in an assembly room. TV's on tables by the walls. Many people. My brother, Marcus is there. Encounter an old gaming bud, Mordecai, who'd a ridiculously tall blowout hairstyle. He almost cried for losing a money match. Some guy is watching a pocket TV, laughing. Shows me footage taking place on a dirt road overlooking a forest clearing at daytime. Colorful chicken and short, squat black cattle are there. An angry bull tackled a large rock, which rolled down and squashed one of the birds. Transition.

Scene 2 - Wild Herds
At the clearing described above in the afternoon. Cattle there, along with many people and my brother. Reach a lake past some thickets, then went to a beach briefly. Walking back uphill. An agitated bull tackles some guy. It kicks and headbutts dirt. I try crawling away. Marcus alerted me to a herd of wild elephants that suddenly appeared. Some almost stepped on me. I scurry to the lake unscathed. Blacking out. Felt waves crashing on me. Worried I went too far. Transition.

Scene 3 - I Knew Those Weren't My Shoes...
At home, going upstairs. Both Marcus and I are surprised I made it out of the previous conflict alive alive. See it's dawn out my bedroom window. Figured we didn't sleep. Female calls from below. Unknown woman with auburn hair and dressed in a dark blue uniform. Supposedly Marcus' girlfriend or wife. She's angry he stayed out and makes demands of him. In bedroom. Two pairs of shoes in doorway. One seemed as a pair of Converses I own, but they were black, too big, and had their soles intact. Very confused. Uncertain transition.

Scene 4 - No Admin Privileges
Back at my old job in the gas station. Different arrangements. Counters in the center formed as a circle. Newer computers, but antiquated Windows 98 software. Old boss, Michael, set up a profile for me. Unwittingly set me as an admin. I try correcting this, but have trouble. Another co-worker, Johanna, tried helping, but gives up quickly. Noticed a few odd names. One was "Amuth-", a cut off misspelling of "Amethyst", I thought. Muttered lewd joke of name under my breath. Found new co-workers behind me, all Hispanic women of varying ages. Finally corrected my profile by deleting and remaking the old one. Wake up.

Scrap Group 2

Went up and down the wooden stairs of a narrow, unknown home. This directly relates to the dream below.

Dream 2 - Wonder What's in the Photo Album?

The visuals were slightly blurred. I was in similar home described a mess. Various boxes were scattered around.

Soon, I meet up with a white haired, bespectacled little old white haired lady. She was constantly squinting, hinting bad eyesight even with glasses. The lady beckons I follow her upstairs so I could see a photo album. But first, she asked me to clear a few things from the stairs, including various boxes and a filled laundry basket.

While moving these, a thin, dark haired, college aged Asian girl enters with a box full of random stuff, a supposed "friend" of mine. She seemed awfully grumpy. I wanted to introduce her, but forgot her name entirely. So, I nervously asked her if she'd a nickname, which merely earned me a deep glare. This somehow helped me figure out the dream state. "I know", I said, "I'll just call you [my Dream Guide], 'E' then." The girl rolled her eyes and ignored me. Somehow, I feel I shoulda known that from the beginning.

Then, a young female voice calls from upstairs. Oh, yeah, the photo album. Maybe there's something important worth looking at there. I creeped away from the other two. When I looked back, they were gone. That's weird... Oh, well. I was making my way upstairs, when the scenery began fading. Tried rubbing my hands, but that did little. The dream ended abruptly.

Dream 3 - Reach In and Out

The visuals were pretty clear. I was back at my old job at the gas station, this time appearing more or less as in reality. Johanna and Michael working behind the registers and cooking area, respectively. I gained awareness almost instantly.

First, I strolled around to thoroughly look at things. Seemed my co-workers were frustrated, so I just left them be. I took notice of the roller grill, which was placed where the hot drinks would be. Anyway, there were two sets of hot dogs in place, one pinkish, and the other deep red. I horked down the former kind. Needed salt. That's a first. The second type was a little spicier, but still kinda bland. Both types vanished with but a few bites.

Next, I moved on to bringing E by grasping behind me and calling out to her. I made numerous attempts in different parts of the store without results. I took a peak outside, where I saw a clear dawn. Noticed a line was forming, where I found a tall Asian lady that seemed an older version of the DC in the above dream. Where I should've identified her as my guide, I instead continued that previous hand trick. I felt something momentarily, but found nothing when I turned around.

Concurrently, I recalled the pocket task. I reached inside with my left, and felt something thin and flimsy. I pulled it out, and yep, it was a stick of gum, the wrapping quite worn out. So, I unwrapped and chewed it, this being of the stronger mint variety. Just then, some other random food item got stuck in between. This distracted me enough to destabilize the environment. I tried hand rubbing, but the dream ended abruptly.

My family and I were shopping at the supermarket because my cousins were coming to stay over. When we arrived home, after disputing about who would play who in a role play, I decided to cause some mischief. But than I noticed one of my cousin had invisibility powers. He told me not to tell his sister and to help him sort out a situation that occurred. I said okay and took him upstairs where we than ended up in a mall or shopping site but at floor level. There I think I ended up getting something to feed my parakeets but it was contaminated by bugs or chemicals. But getting distracted when I saw my younger brother was in trouble while fighting a villain.I became lucid and decided that I would defeat the villain for my brother which I did end up doing by using a long sword but than I remembered the DHL mission and that my goal was to defeat a wizard. More specifically Ganondorf from Zelda.

I tried summoning him by thinking of him but even though he had Ganon's voice and body shape he didn't look like him completely. He was wearing a blue collar shirt and formal tight pants, while having his long flowing orange/blond hair out. Kind of like a lion's mane. But I didn't let this bother me because he still looked like a cool opponent to fight. He also had his close woman henchman beside him. I summoned a long sword,[Only now remembering that I changed it to a gun/blade a while ago] and tried slicing the Wizard while hovering above the ground. He laughed at me than asked me why I was using a broom. "Broom?" I thought confused than looked at my weapon that now was a witch's broom but with the end long and stringy."Ah who cares! I'm still taking you out with it!" I shouted than managed to push him far back while changing the broom into a sword again.

I than charged at him with the sword even though he shot beams at me.The beams didn't hit me though. After a few sword hits I decided that now was the time to use some wind power so I got him facing the direction I wanted,which was near the window, by using the sword to force him into place. However, I got distracted by a bag that had a bomb put into it. I used my power to lift it up but than it ended up falling again. So I said "Rise!" while putting my hands in the air. It rose for a bit but then fell again. "Aggh. I got this" I said than brought my attention back to the wizard and the bag. I imagined the line movements of the wind and than pushed forward with my hands making the Wizard fly out the window with the bag as well. However, the fight still wasn't over.

My older brother came up to me saying that my younger brother needed help fighting off the henchman outside. I flew outside following him and saw that the henchman were chibi like anime people that were fighting. I summoned my long sword again to attack the one that was bothering my brother. He was apparently strong for them but I sliced him up quickly making him vanish. I than turned to the side to a random chibi guy walking up to me. He said that there was a guy with blond hair that was black mailing the citizens and that he was the Wizard's most liked student. I could see him in my view as the guy was talking and he was sitting at what looked like a bar having a drink. I was about to approach him but...I woke up.