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15.10.2016

(DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was lying in my bed for what seemed like 5 minutes. I had HIs about Saizaphod posting something about being more calm during DEILDing. I calmed myself down and then felt SP. I held still another minute and tried to get up. I couldn't

I slowly moved my feet towards the edge of the bed. I was able to throw them over and sit up. I plugged my nose and breathed through it. I stood up, everything was spinning. I imagined I had just finished spinning and waited for the feeling to go away as it should, and it did. I rubbed my hands and looked at them, and gained a bit of stability. I looked around my room, decided to exit through the door. I phased through it, eyes open. For some reason there was a voice over about spinal cord injuries and it was extremely clear. I went downstairs, and opened the front door. It was night time, but I decided I would leave it that way. The neighborhood was dimly lit by the street lights and it was snowing lightly. I could feel the snow on my skin, but it was warm instead of cold. I started running down the street and took off. I flew towards the city, I could see it far away. I started flying so fast that everything became distorted. I felt myself break the sound barrier and heard a sonic boom which destabilized my dream.

I was back in bed. I held still for a minute and stood up again.

I plugged my nose to confirm I was still dreaming. I opened my bedroom door and went downstairs. My dad was in the kitchen, eating. I rubbed my hands to stabilize, and went on to open the door to the backyard. It was daytime, the sun shined bright, and the grass was intensely green. My dad followed me and asked me if I had seen Helio's dog yet. Helio is my brother's father-in-law who passed away 3 months ago. I smiled and told him I hadn't but would love to another time. He said Helio had just adopted him yesterday and that they were coming over.
I stepped outside and saw my dog Fiona playing in the backyard. I decided I would hop the fence, but while running towards it I tripped and ended up phasing through it. On the other side, I sat down and rubbed the grass to stabilize a bit more. I stood up, held my hands facing each other in front of me, and tried to create a portal to Kokiri Forest. a green orb formed between my hands and started expanding. I saw a forest inside, but I lost control and woke up.

I held still and felt HIs/SP come on right away

I stood up, plugged my nose, still dreaming. I wondered how Spellbee would count these, as I couldn't confirm whether these were actual chains, or just FAs. I assumed being able to distinguish between a FA and an actual awakening must count for something anyways. I looked at the window, decided to make a thorough RC again, and then ran towards it. I jumped through, but heard glass breaking. I flew over my neighborhood, it was daytime. I landed on a street and started walking. The houses were odd. I saw an over-water bungalow and for some reason I assumed it was my future house. It had a name above its front door, "Scala". To me, it meant Climbing (I love rock climbing IRL, Escalar means to climb in Spanish). Upon searching it online:
Scala: etymology, from Latin, Ladder; sequence.
(anatomy) Ladder-like structure in the cochlea of a mammal's ear.
A machine formerly used for reducing dislocations of the humerus.
The house was made of bamboo on the outside. Inside it was all made of wood as well. It had a lot of natural light and was decorated with pictures of me and my friends surfing, fishing, and other beach/water activities. Steph and Matt were there. I sat down with them. They were discussing where to go drinking. I asked them if they knew how to get to Kokiri forest and they told me to simply "use a portal". I went outside and saw a park across the street. I ran towards it and decided to "crawl into a portal through a tree". I got on my stomach and tried crawling through a hole inside one of the trees.

On the other side I could see Kokiri Forest through a portal; i crawled into the portal and heard weird sounds. I was standing on Link's treehouse deck, and looked over but it was night time and I couldn't see anything. I put my hands in front of me and spawned an Ocarina. I played the Sun's Song and the sun came up; the Kokiri Forest theme song came on. I jumped down, everything looked surreal. Everything looked like on Ocarine of Time, but real life-like, and even more real. The grass was tall and green. There were kokiri running all around the place, fairies dancing in the air. The houses were just like in the game, trees carved out. The river and pond were big, the water turquoise blue. I asked one of the Kokiri girls where Saria was, she told me she was waiting for me by the water. I found her, and she hugged me. She said I had just made it for the festival. Everyone came in the water; there was a stage on shore. Kokiris came on the stage wearing flower costumes and they did a dance. I lost a bit of lucidity. Saria morphed into my gf and we were introduced to another couple. The girl was spanish so I went to kiss her on the cheek when introducing myself, but she told me her bf was American and wouldn't understand. I laughed and shook her hand. I reminded myself of my goal. I left the festival and walked through the hallway to reach the Deku Tree, but instead, there was a tall building.

I was now an Assassin. I looked down and I was wearing Ezio's black outfit. There were two demons shooting at me from the building's windows. I ran up the wall and leaped in the air towards them. I slowed down time, pulled my short blade out, and smoothly cut off their heads at the neck. Blood splattered all over the walls. I landed, and tried to get to the Deku Tree, but the dream crashed.

I was in my bed once again, I thought I was done dreaming, but held still just in case. I felt SP/HIs again.

I stood up, did a RC. I walked outside and crossed the street towards the park. I saw my mom following me. I tried to hide but she found me. My dad came as well. They told me Tonka, my dog, was dying. The vet had said we had to put him down. Although I knew this wasn't too far from reality, I told them it was just a bad dream for now, and flew off. I was crying and screaming, I lost control and crashed down.

I woke up for good.

15.10.2016

(MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up at 4:15 for a WBTB. I read through some of the dreams and posts on DV. I played Zelda OoT on the Emulator and explored Kokiri Forest. I incubated my dream for a bit and then went to bed at 4:55, and tried MILD and WILD. At 5:20 I still hadn't fallen asleep an was worried as I worked in the morning. I lost consciousness between 5:25 and 5:55, then fell asleep

I was walking down the street, FaceChatting with a friend from Edmonton; he was complaining it was snowing over there, whereas it was nice and sunny where I live. I went into a McDonalds and bought a burger. I was watching TV with my brother and my dad eating my burger. I spilled my drink and went to the kitchen to grab something to wash it off. My house looked like the apartment I used to live in when I was a child. The kitchen was undergoing a renovation and I couldn't find what I was looking for. I went outside and my brother came with me. We were on a backyard looking at the sky. He pointed out a cloud that looked like a raccoon. I couldn't see it but then I saw one that looked like the gamecube logo. I was finally able to see the raccoon. My brother looked at me and told me "You know what those mean, right? They are dream clouds". I was trying really hard to understand what he meant when it hit me. I became lucid and thanked him. I took off and started flying. I saw a forest far away and assumed it was Kokiri forest. I had forgotten to stabilize, so the dream started fading.

I had this dream previous night. (It is a non-lucid)

I was a boy. a little fat, but not too much. I had blonde hair, and I was around 9?
I was a real anime lover, but was mostly looking at fish, because there were a lot at my place. (We lived near a lake, and the land we were on was like island) It was far off the main land.

I also was in love with a girl, blonde curly hair. She had pretty blue eyes, and she wore expensive dresses. She looked like a doll. I don't know why I was in love with her, but it wasn't because she was rich or anything like it. I just liked her. We, together, looked at fish in aquariums at the zoo. We first looked at a group of goldfish together. Most of the goldfish were still young, and they were beautiful colored.
I was captured with one goldfish. It was a young goldfish, a boy, with white and little red spots. I really liked that goldfish, and wanted to observe it more, but I was with the girl, so we continued to the other aquariums.

We saw more tropical fish, who would live in regions with coral, and ended up at the last aquarium with more the shark-like fish, and the scary fish who would live in the dark part of the ocean.
We were done, and played outside, I had potato chips with me.

A little while later, I watched the goldfish on my own, and still captivated with the little goldfish with red spots. I wanted to name it, but couldn't think of a good name for it, so I let it be, and just call it, ''the little friend.'' I wanted to protect the little friend, I want to take it with me.
But suddenly I got absorbed in a black hole. I only got to see the goldfish, and me with only darkness around us. We fell endlessly, and suddenly spawned in the middle of the lake. I knew the lake we lived near was enormous, you could never come back if you drove off the island, but now I am here?

I couldn't see any land in my sight. I only found out that the little friend was with me, swimming circles around me. I had no other choice, but find home together with my little friend. I didn't know where to go, but I just began swimming. Only finding out that I could breathe under water, I could swim with my little friend on my side under water. I had to protect the little friend from dangerous fish who wanted to eat it, and help to overcome obstacles.

A day later, I met a young man with a hat on. He had dark brown hair, almost purple, and long almost touching his shoulders, and red eyes. He looked a little like Willie, from Willie Wonka. He asked me what I did here.
I told him that me, and the little friend appeared in this lake, because of a black hole who absorbed us.
It is hard to believe, but he helps us find home, he said.

We swum together. Under water, but what was weird is that I forgot to help the little friend. Like, how could I forget to protect it? It is my friend, I can't leave it alone. It is still too young to survive on its own. Why does this guy let me forget it??
We found more people, they came from Atlantic. But Atlantic looked a little old, and not cleaned up at all. It was full of nasty stuff from the lake, and how could Atlantic end up in a lake? I didn't think about it too much.
The people from Atlantic were very kind, and wanted to help us. I was relieved when they had a special device that could bring you to your destination. It was a flying elevator.. (Like in Willie Wonka)

The elevator stood under water at the bottom of the lake near Atlantic, but there was one problem. The little goldfish/friend, couldn't get out of the water. The scales of the fish could dry up, and it could die. The people of Atlantic had a idea. They had a plastic bag with water, and they could the gold fish in. I was a idea, but is it really good? I want to know if the little friend finds it ok to be in such a small bag.. They had not a little aquarium sadly...
I asked the little friend if he wanted that. It answered with a blub. ''I think it says it is ok.'' I say. ''Hang in there, little friend.'' I say to it.
We began to swim to the bottom of the lake. I dragged the little bag with me, and the little friend near me.
The hatman is going with us together to the Island, he needs to go there too, somehow?

What was shocking, is when I stepped in the elevator, I again forgot to take the goldfish with me in the elevator. ''Again?!'' I quickly got outside the elevator, and wanted to take the little friend, but it suddenly drove on his back, and slowly fell to the ground. I quickly hold my hands under the goldfish, and hold it in my arms.
''........It is dead? Why, what happened?'' I didn't saw what happened, but it suddenly was on it's back. Did it have a heart attack of something? Still having it in my arms, I got condolences from everyone from Atlantic, and from the hatman. I cried my eyes outT_T Why is my little friend dead? It was still so young.. it had a whole life ahead for him... I didn't know what the case was, but I hold my little friend dear, and never let go of him.

We had to go, and I held on the elevator. It began to go to the sky. I still hold the goldfish in my hands. Planning to make a pretty grave for it when I arrive home. I got a little fatter because of the trip with the elevator. (Somehow I get fat when I sit too long, I barely sit, and always move.)

I arrive home. I was really happy to see everyone, but what was shocking was. For me it was only 5 days gone, but for them, it was a full 2 years missing. How can I be gone for two years? Is time gone faster in the lake then normal? The girl I was in love with was also gone. She is in Hollywood, trying to be a actress. I didn't even had the time to say goodbye to her... What happened here while I was gone??

I already was 11 in this time I was gone. I already made a little grave for the goldfish, and prey for him everyday. Also getting more thinner, because I move a lot again like crazy!!

It was here that I woke up. I hope it is a interesting dream I dreamedxD
See you with the next dream!
-Yukita-

*Sorry if the grammar is bad at some point!! I am trying hard, if there are any things that are written wrong, you can tell me! thank you!*

I'm a cyborg ninja. I can go invisible. For some reasons, I think that shoplifting will be a useful way to spend my powers on. I made some noises accidentally and the workers start to look for me, and they also have an angry french bulldog looking for me. I go to the back of the store (the store is separated into two sections, with a glass wall between) and go visible to rest, but a girl sees me, but she does not raise any larm. I grab some soda and chips and as the dog sees me I make my escape, with a cinematic interlude that looks like me slashing the dog, but I actually cut off its chafing collars. I am gone but I see things in third person where the workers realize the dog didn'5 like the collar and now it's happy that it's gone.

I meet up with the girl who let me go and we go on a date at the arcade. One of the games is like one of those light gun cabinets, but with throwing knives. We have two opposing characters, she throws her knife and scratched me a bit. I throw mine and headshot myself. I say that wasn't my intention while she laughs. There is a lengthy cutscene with yaoi overtones so we lose interest and go elsewhere. She takes me to the opposite wing of the building, which I remark is a museum.

First dream

I was in a party. It was a huge party in some great party complex. There was dancehall, bar and even a cinema. I was there with classmates, we were sitting by a bar and drinking vodka. People around were having fun, but some didn't. I also had fun. We finished drinking and looked around - all people went to cinema. We went there too and took our seats, but I couldn't see a thing from mine so I changed it. There were some girls sitting behind us, they allowed us to take these seats if we won't disturb them. The movie started, it was about a man who used a ray to make his children gigantic. One of classmates said that I left my vodka by a bar and laughed.

Second dream

I was in my house, browsing the web with my phone. I was downloading something - a game engine. It weighted only 7.1 MB. Then two of my sisters appeared and jumped on me, then started hugging me. The engine downloaded when they were finished. I hid my phone and went to kitchen. Looking at the table I saw a few rows of glasses with pickles. On the hallway there were parents and sister talking with one girl from my class.

Third dream

It was in some city, a sunny summer day. I was wandering on a sidewalk when some people rapidly run out of nearby house. Some people with machine guns chased them. They wanted to kill them and tried to kill me too as I was a witness. They took cars and escaped. I took a nearby sports car and drove with them. They stopped at some mansion of a man that controlled half the city. They went there to ask for help on eliminating them. I went with these people and said them that they should just shoot them. But they didn't listened, they went to that crazy man and he said that if they want help, each of them should entertain him. He gave a tall blonde girl a mug and told her to fill it with cereals. She did it and then he ordered her to eat it. I left them, meeting another dude from the group on the way. I told him about what happened and he said that he waits for his turn. I ran out of the building and got into my car. I took off saying that I'm just gonna shoot them. There were some Muslims talking in the radio, they were talking about their homeland. I just drove, hitting a few cars with high speed on the way. Then I drove to that building. There was group of women, one of them seemed both attractive and really close to me. I knocked to door and men with guns opened. I disarmed one of them and got inside. But instead of shooting them all, I gave them an offer. I thrown some really shiny crystals in the ground and told them that it's beginning of my business, which will repay to them in mere weeks if they'd invest in it. I gave them bank account number and left.

~ 5 hrs

1st half:

+ personal library cabinet, with (girl?), she makes her books appear, than I make my journals appear, I show them off to her, then I see a picture of ex-GF having sex with a black guy the picture is fuzzy, I see this guy sitting on a couch live action, I'm upset about that situation

+ coming up on a raid from behind, it's a raid on us so my move is daring, pretending to become one of the raiders, under a table, then push through, I see that the raiders are zapping our field, and burning all the people in them, totally ruining them. I run through the blockade up the steep hill, see flowers on the ground and signs of mowing, there is movement in the trees I go under trees, a guy says there is a collander hidden in a tree stump and you can use it and it means "termites for dinner!" I imagine catching termites in that thing. I find my old boy scout sierra cup, then another on a well, and I clean off the rust and see my old name tag on the bottom and see an engraving indicating something about brass players and french horns? I drink from the water anticipating a clean, cold fresh water but it has a distinctly unpleasant mineral/salty taste. There is a boy and girl, brother and sister, I want to see them the girl comes to me and says "buenos noches!" and I say it back assuming with an accent, I wonder if I"ll understand her if she keeps speaking Spanish, but she says s.l. "oh your're an american", then I see her mother who looks like her, and something about the mother's boyfriend.

+ coming up on an apartment with a sliding glass door on a street, there is a bustling university to my right with students moving around, in the apartment I'm trying to decide to keep my little stack of 5 grey books on the table there or take it with me, I talk to the guys inside and I'm telling them my plans to return after class, they're upset that it's later than I said before (7? 8?) but I say it will take time for me to get there and return in my car. There is a loud bang and they all freak out and I tease them for being afraid of just a sound.

~ 10 hours

2nd half:

+ club/girl/sidewalk/grieving hot woman, addict stairs halfway house with shivering addicts and socks messy, guy doing better his stack gets knocked over by leader ,guy swears, "ocean 11" presentatation, up on stairwell over pool, watch plane take off then crash on purpose, 2nd guy saw it too, girl's fist hurt dive into pool ot help, say I saw it, CC asks about how to draw a normal curve, we all try to draw one

+ get into SUV, shall I fill tank, yes, so out have to siphon it in, back in see tank is more full, take off road up hill full of bikers pedestrians, going slow, falling over on purpose, get to top start going down, pass two hot girls speaking [foreign language], see another buxom one grab her go down start sex get to bottom she says "time to play nurse" and takes control, puts me on stomach and I look arond to watch she says "no peeking!" and puts something in my butt, I'm upset at the loss of control and conerned that she may break off a thermometer and give me mercury poisoning, her intentions may not be good (upset at me grabbing her?)

+(f) wake in hospital bed to nurse asking about my side, I say it's fine I don't feel anything any more I could turn

+(f) dance competition outside, dancers on left, judges on right, a small girl is trying but dancing poorly

+ sting at the car dealer, criminal boss is caught, undercover agent upset that is cover was blown

+ guy's tv is broken he's furious and starts breaking another guy's flat screen, the stripper girl is preparing "to go upside down and embarass her self in front of (us guys). I'm one of the few guys who will be watching and feel uncomfortable that there are a bunch of other women around who will be watching

+ sick girl, sit her on my lap, he mom near, she has painful varicose veins in leg, feet, "can you walk?", riding in car, her cheeks turn blue/purple, but she says she wants more cold, her nose starts bleeding, we arrive at "stripper park?" it's outside cold, snowy, one dancer goes off to see about getting a ride, girls walking around, one mother playing with her kids, mother is attending to sick girl, kids in doctor cabinets, the mother is the doctor to the sick girl, a boy in another room, a girl in another across teh way, I see a doctor present the findings on a screen, walk down the prominade to a showe area, turn on shower, find soap, start taking shower, noice naked girl on other side of wall, get bold and take a good look at her, get bolder and walk around squeezing through a narrow place get to her,

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

grab her boobs, get concerned about losing the dream and it does fade but I hold on and keep going, begin intercourse (guide with hand, miss at first she flinches then get it right), goes in deep, feel it all the way along, but can only move with hand, try with hips and nothing moves, squeeze her but with right hand, reach it back for breast and now the hand movement is me moving a pipe cleaner through her shoulder blade and coming out her armpit, blood? no the pipecleaner is red, I get really apologetic and say I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to do that, does it hurt? She says no but she wants to get up and take a shower, I say sure, as soon as you (BJ to completion)

, wake.

I accidentally erased my first entries for the day & left the fact about my grand children being here. But they just went to sleep so I'm going to try again.

D1: Mike & I were in my childhood home. It was dark & the twins were babies for some reason even though they were only there via the bond I felt. We both heard something. I knew it wasn't only me who heard this "something". We were moving & fumbling around the living room in darkness, around "it". Mike says, "We shouldn't have come here." And I said, "I told YOU we shouldn't come here." I awake & he is staring at me next to me. I'm in complete sleep paralysis & freaked out because I'm thinking we had a shared dream. He doesn't remember the dream, but he rarely does. And he doesn't remember looking at me. When I can move I go to pee, left bewildered. I tried to get back in the dream but no dice. This was definately memorable. I should have woke him up right then & asked him what he was dreaming about. But he just got done working 60 hrs this week & couldn't screw him out of his sleep. I should've manned up so to speak & said damn the torpedoes cuz this could have been a game changer. I've heard of it being done & my husband & I are very in sync w/ each other on a deeper level than most. Now I'll always wonder what it was. But then again I can now have a glass full kind of attitude. "If it happened once, it couldn't certainly happen again." Optimism, I like that.

D2: Dream sign. Damn shambled house again but w/ a lot of family around. Lots & lots of rooms per usual. And I keep thinking, "It's along a road which seems creepy but it's near a small town which is good." So odd.

Maybe I'll get lucky & the kids will go to sleep before midnight tomorrow night too. It's hard to predict w/ these 2 younger ones. My other set of 2 are just at home here so it's not anything out of the norm. But I have been making progress w/ these 2 this time around. I've prayed about it quite a lot.

I was just in my house, as normal. The only different thing was a very large, water-filled glass tank in our living room. At the bottom of the tank were around 20 larvae-looking insects. I watched them for a while, and a couple of them started forming cocoons. I continued watching, and after a few minutes one cocoon started to break open. A huge moth crawled out of one cocoon, and since they were underwater I reached in and pulled it out so it wouldn't drown. This moth had a wing span of about a foot. It started speaking to me through its thoughts, and we could understand each other somehow.

I just typed in my shit & accidentally hit paste & erased it all!!!!

My grandkids are here for the weekend. And not the ones that behave, lol. But actually I'm doing some Halloween crafts & giving them some good persona time & they are doing well so far. I think my daughter living w/ the new boyfriend instead of the old women beater one has done wonders for these kids. Unfortunately they still go visit him because he is their dad. Anyway, I probably will have problems getting to other ppls comments until Sunday. At which time I'll try to make rounds after they leave.

Dream

I was in my house, it was late afternoon. My mother and younger sister were in home. I was mad at my younger sister and was shouting. Mother tried to calm me down, but I was still mad and continued shouting. Then my younger sister entered the room and I said as calmly as I could "For three hours you were bothering me about slippers that never was in our house!"

Fragment

I recall a short fragment in which sister made me a full face makeup. She added loads of brown.

It is stated, re-writing dreams to another format may help with dream recall.
So, to start off this journal with.

12th of Feb, 2012

Boy, was I an obnoxious fellow back then.

My first dream recorded in journal was lucid. The second dream was common, and I'll write of both, since they have happened in one night.

1st lucid dream.
Rocket party

I am present on some luxurious party, with tuxedos, champagne, golden drapery and such, Gatsby style. The party was going on inside. Suddenly, I realised I'm in a dream. Why? I guess I just felt it. I became excited and started rubbing hands with each other. to stabilize the environment. I went outside through the coatroom and wished so there would be a beach shore. I pushed the door and there it was, sand and sea.

After walking there a bit I spawned a rocket with an intent to fly it. I hugged the rocket and turned it on by a demand. I don't remember the physical sensations, then the rocket took me to some village during winter. It wasnt't cold. I jumped off the rocket and felt my grasp on dream loosen. I took measures against it, but I fell in a grey fog nevertheless.

Subjective ratings:
Physical sensations - none
Lucidity level - 10% to 20%
Audial sensations - partial

Common dreams here and further
Troll invasion

I was on a shore I don't recognize, sorta mediterranean. I had few other kids with me. We went home by the shore. Then we noticed giants walking across, they were fat and skin of a green colour covered theirs.

*Jump-cut*

We're at home, which seems to be my former school, particularly it's entrance hallway. I'm changing shoes. There's a hammer near me and a broken lego piece. I 'knew' what if I were to smash the lego piece with a hammer I could obtain some power. So I did. And when I done it, I reappeared directly a floor above my last location. Old master spoke something, something was bad and I should be sorry for it. When I looked out of the window, I saw trolls heading towards the entrance. This concludes it.

6th of June, 2014
Dragon assault

I went to hunt a dragon with some soup-like substance to lure him. I left it in bushes, close to forest. It was sunny, not a cloud. The dragon came and started munching away, I tried to sneak in from behind, but he noticed me before I could land a strike. He turned to me, but I didn't like the way he looked, some unholy abomination with snout like pacman or something? I rewinded my dream back to the point when I set a lure in there.

Then came another dragon, a fine looking beast this time. I sneaked in and jammed a makeshift spear into his rear. The dragon was enraged and exhaled fire all over me. To my displeasure I noticed a lack of weapon in my hand (I left it back there), but I took another spear conveniently laying nearby and fought the beast. Dragon made haste to neaby forest, there lay an entrance to some goblin cave (which, I suspect, was a dwarf minesite before) and I continued to fight him there. It was very dark and only flames the dragon emitted illuminated the shafts. Dragon kept me low on health (suddenly skyrim ui turned on), so I constantly switched to inventory and gulped down health potions. This concludes it.

27th of Aug, 2014
Freezing howl

I walked my way up a ice-covered road. The road actually went at a very sharp degree, higher and higher. I pulled with me a log with spikes (branches?) covering it. I've also seen the other man carrying down a big log with some weird construction on it, it kept sliding to a side. Car appeared on scene, and speeded onto him. His log slided and hit it in the left side, knocking it in the air in slow-mo fashion. I've noticed splatters of blood on its hood. I made haste onwards, couldn't keep balance (must've walked on the edge of road) and fell down into snow, from somewhere-somewhere 12 storeys high.

I've landed somewhere in a deep forest. Sight of wolves seemed through the black trees. I hurried there where my eyes looked, and found a burning village. It was infernal, fire was at its peak. I thught I could find some help, but there seemed to be not a soul around. Wolves' howl kept getting closer. That concludes it.

That's about it for now. I'll get down some more in a few days.

Bed @ 2245
Woke @ 0300


The old house
I'm outside, sitting at a desk I've set up on my driveway, working on my laptop. One side of the driveway is lined with trees, and a beautiful old house is on the other side. The other side of the driveway has sparse trees, and I can see the road through them. I'm on a conference call with Chad and someone else. While we're waiting for Tony to dial in, Chad asks when we last had any time off. I tell him it's been a while, and he says that we should all take a day off. Almost immediately, he and the other person on the call drop. Tony dials in a moment later and I explain what just happened. He's rather stunned, not quite believing they'd do that. As he's becoming less stunned and more annoyed, I invite him over for the day to work, and he accepts. He's never been to my house before, so I try to give him directions, but I'm doing a really bad job. He dialed into the conference while he was already driving, so despite my bad directions it's only a couple of minutes before he shows up. Now I'm inside sitting at a large dining room table in a room paneled with lots of old, dark wood. Tony's not there, but Amita and a couple of others are. I offer them the leftovers from lunch - some tostada shells, refried beans, and other texmex bits and pieces - and Amita immediately accepts. She grabs something large - the entirety of what's left of something - and starts dipping it into the refried beans. I've never seen anyone eat it like that ...

Now I'm with my wife and eldest daughter in the kitchen. One of them says we've been asked how many trees on the property produce any kind of berry. We start trying to run down them by memory, starting with trees on the driveway. The ones at the top of the driveway don't produce berries; the next plants produce beries but would be considered bushes, but the next ones are trees which berry. Now we're outside wandering around, checking plants one-by-one to see if they have berries and would be considered trees.


BTB @ 0315, though it takes about 30 minutes to fall asleep.
Woke on and off. Woke for the last time at 0715.

A slow invasion
I'm sitting with two or three people at a round table talking about the best way to keep <something> out of <somewhere>. Everything we've tried has failed, and I believe that, ultimately, there's nothing we can do; eventually the place will be overrun and it's just a mater of how long it'll take.


Fragment:Someone standing by a road.

I can usually lucid dream with abilities to wake myself up from a nightmare, control my actions, or even control whole aspects of my dreams.

but last night I had a dream that I could not do anything about. I was along for the ride.

ill cut out unimportant details.

in my dream I was my current age (27) and I was with 3 friends. we were heading to our old high school hang out spot. a small multi-level abandoned factory of some sort. we get there and I'm immediately overran with emotions of sadness, GREATLY missing her, love, and loss. I go to a spot where she and I used to sit on a ledge high on this building, and watch the sun set. when I get there I just stood there staring, missing her, and feeling so sad that she was not here. in my dreams I have flashbacks of our first kiss, me confessing my love to her, us sitting there I out cap and gowns from graduation holding hands, her crying because I had told her that I had enlisted with the army and was shipping out in a month. then one of my friends approached me and said that I didn't miss her as much as she did, and it was my fault that she is gone because I enlisted and left her. we both started to cry. so I sad down at the ledge and stared into the sunset as I cried.

then all of a sudden it was like my dream changed gears completely. the ledge changed to a back porch of a house. I was sitting there smoking a cigarette instead of crying. I hear the doorbell ring so I get up to go answer the door. as im walking towards the door 2 other friends of mine are walking the same direction. one of them yells "alright lets get this party started" I open the door and there is about 20 people all holding party supplies. they start flooding into this house like a stampede.

At the moment I hear my 3 week old son start crying and I wake up.

I'm here because the emotions from the dream have followed me into reality and I keep thinking back to the dream and I feel the emotions to the point of my eyes welling up on me.

I don't know what to make of it. if any wants to talk with me about it. or has some questions please ask away.

nothing is too personal to me as I am an open book. I will answer just about any question.

It's that when I made the sounds inside my mind louder and listened to them as if they are happening in real-time, I get sucked into them which is a sign I am very close to the dream state. The only thing I did not do was tie an anchor to it to keep my awareness for a WILD attempt.

Swear to god I spent half the dream giving advice to people. The first was an Iranian man. I was at a Delta hotel after coming up into the lobby from underneath. The manager of the place was this guy, who was a failed actor. We walked up to a scenic cliff and talked about what it means to act and how to become great, and I talked about deliberate practice. He then tried to seduce me, but a combat helicopter flew up from below the cliff in time for me to get away. I went back to where the hotel was, and outside I found hundreds of girls, all actors as well. They all wanted my advice. I didn't know what to say as I'm not an actor, but they were all trying to get my shirt off so I just kept making stuff up. Suddenly an attack fell on the city, a kryptonite nuke detonated 300 miles away on a mountaintop and superman had to fly head first directly into the blast. There was a long cinematic cutscene where the camera would just keep following him and cutting to different viewpoints of this epic sacrifice.