dream fragment

Opening Statement
Well, I'm back, and it's summer again. Yes, I know, not the most energetic opener, but can you blame me? After all, it's been an entire hum-drum year of school, which is painfully good at giving me no time to focus on Lucid Dreaming. Seriously, I've had to re-brush up on everything! But, more to the point, I'm back again, and ready to redo and relearn everything! Of course, you know what that means... Time for dream fragments!

Legend (Not that we need it right now)
Black = Dreaming
Blue = Awake (I've changed blue to meaning awake since being aware of dreaming is generally taken over by Lucid Dreaming.)
Green = Lucid Dreaming

Entry
I was in an odd city (think old British Architecture, with a sepia-toned light shining on everything), with a small group of people that I regarded as some sort of sqaud I worked with. One of them shouted at me to 'get ready', which I must of contemplated a bit before being interrupted by a Combine Helicopter blowing half the city up to crap. For no explained reason I suddenly left my body, and got right up behind said helicopter. Oh, quick note, if you didn't know, the Combine is a giant army of aliens hellbent on conquering everything, and are the main antagonists of Half-life 2. I had quite a good view of the copter, but I couldn't really do much else besides watch it. Of course, though, this didn't matter, because my mind got bored and decided to whisk me away to another dream scene.

In the same type of city, albeit a lot cleaner and happier looking, a group of apparent friends and I were standing around and doing people things. Amidst these people things was socialising, and socialise we did. Me and a particular female of the group (interestingly, I can't remember any of their faces in the slightest) connected pretty quickly, by which I mean we were suddenly intimate. Literally, just like that, we were in love. I can't imagine why, considering we didn't even exchange any greetings, but logic has no place in dreams, now does it. So, we walked around, I fondled her a bit, and then my brain realised that it was morning now, so time to wake up, and watch some more Squid Girl.

Ending Comments
Well, wasn't that... That. I think my favorite part of this whole thing was waking up and watching Squid Girl, because that's possibly one of the greatest shows ever. Wait, what now? I'm supposed to say something about the dream? Oh, umm... Combine Helicopters are neat, I like their shooty noises. There, happy? Anywho, I'm going to start looking for patterns in these dreams, maybe find a recurring theme to use for a Mantra, or whatever that diddley's called. Anyway, thanks for reading, and, as always, cheers!

Goals
[]Miracle of Flight! (Fly)
[]Bros 4ever! (Brofist a clone of myself)
[]Fus Roh Dah! (The title says it all)
[]Satisfaction! (Kill Adolf Hitler)
[]Kahbeeewwmm! (Blow something up)
[]Mewzickawl! (Make my brain compose a song)
[]Childhood Dreams! (Breathe underwater and explore the ocean)
[]Adventure... Yeaaahhhh! (Go on an adventure some where)
[]Decadream! (Have ten Lucid Dreams)
[]Chaos! (Take the role of Rico Rodriguez)
[]Let There be Realumpco! (Create a planet, galaxy, or universe)
[]Hero Worship! (Do something with a favorite youtube LPer)
[]Dual Chaos! (Cause a chaotic event with John De Lancie)
[]Sleeping Turkey! (Have three LDs in a row)
[X]Inception! (Have a False Awakening)
[]Screw Evil! (Beat a nightmare)
[]You've met with a terrible fate, haven't you? (Succumb to a nightmare)
[]Fooling the Mind! (Enter Sleep Paralysis)

Date: 24 June

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Pre bed: 200mg valerian

Comments: went to bed extra early, took some valerian and planned to caffeinate myself in the morning. Missed my natural wake, it was really late to WBTB plus caffeine, so just enjoyed my sleep. Got lots of fragments, here the most interesting ones.

Fragment1: I am in someone's house and do something that causes lots of expensive looking plates to fall on the floor. As I am watching them fall they arrange themselves/land softly so nothing is broken, I feel relieved. A butler comes and starts examining the plates, and picks up one with a crack, then breaks it and blames it on me.

Fragment2: I see I young guy from rl (that I am calling from now on) "the preacher". I have some realizations about reality and dreams that I want to share with him because I know he may understand them.

Fragment3: My school teacher wants me to immediately fill out my bank details on a form that is printed on a yellow napkin. My best friend from school invites me to The Offspring concert as she has an extra ticket. I hug her, but say no because the concert is too late?

Fragment4: I am sad about declining the concert invitation and have second thoughts. Now at our first home, I am preparing to go out. The clock shows 8:50 pm and I figure the concert starts at 9. As I prepare the time is 8:20 and I am a bit more relaxed because I am not that late after all.

around 15 mins before final wake, I wake up with full bladder, but want to sleep so roll over

LD: I appear on the street of my hometown, still having some residual thoughts about my best friend, but hey this is a dream! I am truly surprised to make it to a lucid, since I decided to let it go today. Anyways, let's enjoy this. Unfortunately, my bladder is bothering me and it is very hard to concentrate. I rub my hands and the dream is stable. Trying to ignore the bladder, I look around, there are many DCs on the street going their way. The "lucidity DC" task comes to mind and I try to stop someone. First there is a black couple and I say a few words to them about lucidity, but can't finish my sentence as they ignore me and go away. I get another DC woman, and tell her. She nods her head, but I have doubts about her ability to find me in a dream and tell me to become lucid. Therefore I continue terrorizing DCs, looking for someone else to talk to about it.

I turn around the corner and there is the black couple again. I am thinking that it is very weird that I run into the same DCs that I just talked to, especially since I didn't expect to see them. They wear stylish black clothes, woman is with a knee-lenght skirt. This time they are much friendlier, greet me and we shake hands with both of them. Alright! I concentrate and say two-three sentences about them finding me, telling me this is a dream to make me lucid. The very last word of the final sentence was lucid, and I notice how I have just been saying the whole Ld speech with a different accent. Very cool and they like it too. Task done so I leave them and cross the street with many other DCs there. Very crowded today. I continue walking in this still familiar looking street as I run 3 other tasks in my head, but don't feel like I can do any of them right now. As I walk forward and contemplate what to do next, the dream fades and I am back in bed with a slight feeling of the void. I could have DEILDed today, but needed to peeee so badly plus there wasn't much time left.

Can't remember much. For some reason I was able to handle a centuries-old roman scroll because I wanted to learn more about the ancient romans, or because I was doing a research project about them, or something like that. I sat in a little coffee shop with the scroll drinking earl grey tea, but for some reason I was separated from the scroll. A lot of the dream had to do with everyone looking down on me/disliking me and I wasn't able to prove my worth, and I had to keep trying to get the scroll back so no one would damage it.

I find myself at a UK station up north somewhere with electric lines and deserted as the trains just rush through loudly at High Speed. The thing is they are so random that I feel one will come yet it doesn't and if I'm on the Platform I fear the noise and sight.
A side NOTE: I don't fear trains in reality in fact I love them to death and appreciate their Hi-Speed!
So next I find my self on a path beside the mainline though it doesn't seem far enough so I turn towards a ditch. Then gravity reduces and I find my self in the air with the line below but the potential of Gravity increasing again. I try to pull away from the lines but as I float forward the lines bend towards me again.
Finally I pull away completely just as a Voyager 220 shoots north. Then I find myself miles across the countryside above another line, then following another and another then I force myself down as I find an abandoned route with torn track strewed over the place. But it still didn't feel safe!

1. [non-lucid] After 3:00 I Think
Was in a car with my step-dad (Ray) driving and my uncle (David) sat in the passenger seat, I assume I'm sat in the back in my wheelchair.
We were following Mum in the car ahead on an American highway, Mum turns off the highway but Ray missed the turning and so we carried on going, there's a toll booth approaching so David got the money ready to pay.

The car we are driving appears to be right hand drive which is odd because were driving in America and of course they have left hand drive cars.

So we drive up to the toll booth pretty fast, Ray throws the money, I don't know where it went because I couldn't see but we got let through. Ray decides to floor it and do a 180 to the other side of the highway, we hit a police officer (African American woman with dark hair) who was walking across the highway and to make things worse there was a green & white police car on the other side that saw the 180 and the collision with an officer, we got told to stop so Ray pulled over in the middle of the road.

The car is now gone and was left just me in my wheelchair in the middle of a highway, the police officer pulls out a gold shiny sticker wrap thing (like the ones they put on your bags in the airport) and put it on my chair.

Fragments:
I had an invalid passport.

2. [non-lucid] Before 3:00 I Think
I think I was in the game GTA: SA and at the edge of the map i climbed a hill and on the other side there was flat grassy land that had craters with sand in them on it kinda like holey cheese, was really weird.


Times:
Sleep: 11:00 Attempted DILD
Alarm: 3:00 Attempted WILD/MILD (Fell asleep I think)
Wake: 8:00 - 9:00
Got up: 10://

I had a dream. And as I lay still upon awakening, I stabilized its recall. I remember it was short but significant I felt: a brief insight into consciousness or awareness. Then my head moved slightly, and the insight was gone right away.

3 fragments. Feels like they somehow belong together to one big connected dream, although they are independent situations.

• I meet all the friends of my old clique again. My ex-GF is among them also. I am happy to see all of them and we are walking to some benches in nature to celebrate, we drink alcohol. I have this weird feeling of being unwelcome, as if i had to justify myself and my behavior. They seem very critical and disapproving. Somehow I want to show them that I am still awesome, especially to my ex, and that I'm doing really good without them. There is an enemy feeling that I have never felt among them before. There are some new people who are joining us, I presume they are new friends of them. They are all gangster and have caps and smoke weed and although they seem happy, I feel that they don't like me and that they look down on me. I start introducing myself, they are polite, but they don't seem interested. I am pissed and I make no secret out of it. My friends tell me that I have to sign a gift card for one of the others, so I do that reluctantly. I feel sad and go to two of my closest friends, who give me at least a little love. I am tired and want to sleep, but I am scared that if I do so, the others might paint my face and do weird stuff, after all they are drunk and have been so weird all the time.
  
  First unpleasant fragment in a long while. Vivid with many details and strong feelings/emotions.
  
  
• I am with another group of friends, the ones I study with. We are going to have a nice evening at their house. It is a big house with stairs, many large rooms and a long way to the ceiling. I lose track of where I am, it's so big. I find myself in a storeroom in the cellar without windows, not even with a door, but it is only accessible through a small hole in the wall. I am trapped there, can't come out of the hole. One friend comes and helps me out and we go and join the others, I feel weird among them, as if they got it all right and I am a failure.
  
  The house is completely imaginary, nothing I have seen IWL. Also unpleasant, but not as much as the first fragment.
  
  
• I am with yet another group of friends. We are having a party (third one this night lol. But this time there are only happy vibes). It is a small room, we sit tightly together in a big circle and have fun. One of my old friends even brings his father, who is a mixture of the one he actually is and another friend's father. I welcome both of them and they are happy about that. There is free food and munchies for everyone, there are steaks and pizza all you can eat.
  
  Short fragment, but I liked it very much.

legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid , side notes.

Hotel Dream Lecture:
I had chosen to stay overnight at some hotel. The hotel had shower chambers outside with the guest's name on the shower door. I looked around but couldn't find mine,although i did see a shower with the name "caenis lucidis" on it and inside was a female with a good looking body. I suppose the name was a reference to "CanisLucidus", a user on here that i haven't met before. A little odd but pretty cool.

since i couldn't find my shower, i decided to get in some nearby line, whatever the line was for, i have no idea. As i was waiting, i noticed this person standing on a ladder giving a speech to a crowd about lucid dreaming. After that, i decided i should go get some food, i found myself on my farm looking for food. As i was doing that, i was ambushed by bandits which i quickly gunned down as i was hiding in a bush.

Next thing i know, i'm at this summer camp, these people are bringing giant coke coolers. They have diet coke and reguler coke, they also have tea and i decide i want the tea, but the tea has no ice in it. So i get coke even though i never drink coke in waking life. As im getting it, i literally crush the cup the coke is pouring into and everyone gives me a weird look. xD

Fragment #1: I'm in some sort of old game, it appears to be daggerfall, i'm there inside the game with a couple of friends.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid , side notes.

Fragment #1: I remember using a phone app which had a virus on it. The virus transported me inside the game in which i took the place of a lonely ghost.

Fragment #2: I remember being in some sort of jungle collecting resources and blowing things up.

Party: I'm on my farm, my mom is yelling nonstop at my brother, my brother soon leaves. Next thing i know, i've gone to some summer camp, which took place in my basement. While i was in my basement, i noticed a kid and a man. The kid had paid the man 1.3 million dollars to act out something but the man demanded a blowjob from the kid, and the kid didn't want to feel as if he lost his money...so...anyway, i didn't want to watch any of that so i headed up the stairs. As i head up, i see some friends of mine smoking outside and one smoking on the stairs, i tell him something that had the meaning of "don't smoke in here, go outside" because i didn't want the smoke smell in the house.

Eventually, i find myself going to a party with them. I think i remember going to like two of them and then a third one, i don't remember the first two but i do remember the third. At the location of the third party, there was a big dome which had stores in it, on top of the dome was a thorn bush and elevated above that thorn bush was the house the party took place in. It started out with me walking on some wooden stairs up to the house at the top, i saw some other friends there as well. I also notice some idiots diving into the thorn bush on top of the dome. Then, all of a sudden, an alien like creature attacks us. I run over and do a front snap kick and manage to hit it. It then gets up and jumps behind us, i then run over and attempt a chop at it's neck but it dodges it. What happened to it next, i have no clue.

After that little incident, i decide to walk down and check the dome out, there, i meet this lady which tries to teach me warm ups for basketball. ( why my dreamself would do this, i have no clue, i dislike basketball a lot and already know stretches and etc from martial arts). I then see my family in the distance, so i run over to meet them, they decide they want to leave so i go with them. They drove two cars, i get in the one with my dad, who then drives up to a gas station and crashes into it.

June 23, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (too exhausted to stay awake for my WILD attempt )

Dream Frag:

I was in a car with someone and I told him that I wanted to go home, but we kept driving around in circles. I would look down at my clothes and they would change everytime I looked down (do you think this was my dream sign??? Uh...yeah!). It didn't seem to concern me that my clothes kept changing, I just wanted to go home...never did make it home .


Note: One of my famous recurring dreams about being lost and not being able to find home.

I tried to have lucid dreams last night for the first time officially using RCs throughout the day and repeating my mantra "I will realise that I am dreaming, I will trust my reality checks" (changed it after what happened last night).

Dream 1: woke up within dream, had recorded a video on my phone that I didn't remember recording of myself explaining that I had seen something weird in my room.. the video then turned to my face and recorded something running by behind me, a tall white naked figure

Dream 2: I had saved earth somehow, was in outer space, had to say goodbye to somebody I was in love with in the dream - who was female - and head back to earth

Dream 3: lived in my ex boyfriend's mom's old house - she has passed away in WL - we realised we had never thrown our neighbours a welcome party therefore did and they were insulted with how non-chtristian we were,of random animals running around the house *** just remembered that this dream was connected to the first one - the room from dream 1 was in this house

Dream 4: I did reality checks but was in bed in my dream and decided I wasn't dreaming even though I was able to breathe with my nose plugged and push my thumb through my hand, I now realise also that I was alone in bed which I am not - I live with my boyfriend, I decided to try anyways but couldn't remember any of the monthly tasks haha... I may have tried to sit on an egg... but broke it? Hard to recall.
That is all!

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some 2D platformer/shooter game and there were fights with some huge bizarre creatures, then later i was using some editor to search particular sprite in the spritesheet, finding that there are even bigger creatures than the ones i fought.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was flying with some characters on some kind of air balloon construction, we were discussing something and there was also small dragon with us. We done our mission in the country and we were escaping it. Then the balloon got hit by something and we were forced to land. We use fuel to make construction flammable. Then there's cutscene where some scientist is searching for team and laughing. Then back to balloon construction, that small dragon transforms into human form for some reason and then firebreathes at the construction, setting it on fire. Then we leave.

2 Fragments. 1st before WBTB, 2nd afterwards:

• I am at home with my roommate. An old friend is with us. My roommate is playing video games, while the friend is trying to fool him and making jokes at his expense, I am a passive observer. I have to laugh at some of the jokes, but for some I think they are not funny and this goes too far. I think to myself 'give him some peace'. The friend pretends to leave the apartment, but opens and then shuts the door without leaving, another 'funny' joke. There are 3 doors in the floor, 2 of them make a loud noise when used.
  
  The apartment is the same as my home, apart from the 3rd door. In the dream I notice it but I take it for granted and not as a weird circumstance. Pretty random fragment, nothing too weird or significant.
  
  
• I am in the front passenger seat of a car. The seat is big and soft and comfortable, so is the car. A girl I once dated is driving. We are in Copenhagen, Noerrebro, I see a long and big street ahead of us with two big crossroads and traffic lights. I tell her 'to the right is the place where [name of a friend] lives', she nods disinterested, feel like she does not really notice me talking. The seat belt sits very tight and makes it hard to breathe, I loosen it a bit, but it doesn't help. I try to tell her that I would love to 'do' her again once, if she is interested. I tell her 'no one would know, this is a dream anyways, let's just have sex, in the end it doesn't matter'. Still she seems like (or pretends to(?)) not really noticing me. I get upset and louder and say: 'Hey you know, it's a dream, all of this is not really real, not even you'. Suddenly she looks at me, says nothing but everything is shaking and crumbling, I feel that it is due to her anger. I think to myself 'I shouldn't have said that, of course no one likes to hear they don't exist...' I slowly start to believe my own words, that it is all a dream, so i gain lucidity. But by the moment that I am convinced of dreaming, it is too late; everything has fallen apart already due to knowing it is not real, then I wake up.
  
  Weird, this girl used to troll around in my subconscious for quite a while, but it is rather long time ago. Also how the hell did I not get lucid in a situation, where I try to convince someone that it's a dream. This was pure non-lucid, as there was no active lucid dream time, although I convinced myself to be dreaming, which kinda caused it to end.

1. [non-lucid]
I'm on a ship doing gymnastic swinging off the ships ropes and sails while in a sword/fist fight, (probably with a pirate)(I remember thinking: don't fall off the ship as I went quite high) this went on for about 5 minutes.

The pirate knocked me to the floor, I struggled to get up as he attempted the finishing blow, then all of a sudden I was saved (by a bullet?) at the last second by the actual crew of the ship who where held hostage I assume by my attacker.

Captain Jack Sparrow took the ship the wrong way or something, then left the ship

Were on land in some sort of town square (There's a yellow haze on everything as the sun shines down, like a sort of sepia tone), the ground laid with bumpy light-grey cobblestone, there's a cobblestone and wood building to the right, there's a cobblestone road going straight with a dock along it and buildings, there's a building in front of to the left, I think there's a well in the center of the town with a stall across from it. we are searching for Captain Jack Sparrow after he ran away.

Times:
Sleep: 11:10 Attempted DILD
Alarm: 3:00 I hadn't slept before 3 anyway
Wake: 8:00 - 9:00
Got up: 9://

I can remember little extracts from my dream:

Firstly that someone came to our house to buy DVDs from us, sort of like the CEX store in town. One DVD we sold was Stargate season 1 and 2, joined together, making something like £30.

Stargate then traveled over to my next dream, where I felt intrigued by it one day. Looking through the boxes to see how many seasons there were. I somehow saw Quatre and Trowa from Gundam Wing in the series ~ Strange..!