dream fragment

My dream starts as sort of a nightmare. The nightmare itself is jumbled and confused - there's not a clean narrative. It's mostly short, quick clips of action strung together and viewed from a 3rd person POV. Mud and rain; earth sliding into a river, pulling people down with it... switch to what seems like a motel and some sequences that seem like they're out of a slasher horror flick, people running in fear, and severed limbs and blood everywhere. It mostly seems like it's just my brain tossing up whatever seems disturbing and frightening at the moment.

Because of how disjointed it is, it's failing to really frighten or disturb me. My mind starts to get more and more distanced from what's going on, and starts paying less attention to it. I gain lucidity in one of the motel/dorm rooms while two women are arguing with each other. They look straight out of the 80s - one has bleached hair teased up a mile high and fake orange tanner, and the other is a brunette with a ponytail and teased bangs. As soon as I realize this is a dream, I am no longer a disembodied observer. There's an oval mirror on the wall - I run up to it and look at myself in the mirror in order to reaffirm that I now have a physical presence.

I immediately crouch on the floor and start running my fingers through the carpet in order to solidify my surroundings. Things seem to be fading, so I stand up and produce a hand mirror from behind myself and examine myself in it. The two women have stopped arguing and are looking at me. I feel embarrassed about them potentially thinking that I'm just extremely vain (despite the fact that they're just dream characters), so I shrug and tell them, "I'm just making sure I still exist."

They lose interest in me, and I lose interest in them, because I've decided that since my scene changes haven't gone so well lately, maybe I'll just mold my current surroundings into what I want. I pull up the software interface for 3D Studio Max and start modeling furniture for the room. Despite being a motel room, it has no bed, so I decide to experiment with creating one. I begin working on it as if it's a 3D model for a video game.

The two women have faded away. I minimize the "software" I'm working with to check and see if the bed has appeared. It has, and looks very solid, but it's the plain solid white of a 3D model that has been imported into some engines but doesn't have a texture linked to it (or the texture isn't loading).

I decide I'll texture it later, once I've gotten the hang of this, and decide to start working on one of the windows. I "import" it into my software and begin tweaking it. The window is a little bit tougher - it resists conforming to what I want.

The dream fades. Eventually, another one starts, but it's non-lucid. I'm watching a bunch of characters in a video game and "piloting" some of them, and the game is sort of Harvest Moon-y but instead everybody is little Lego people and they're going to classes at a university. One of the landslide scenes from the prior nightmare replays, but with little Lego people instead of realistic people. The character I'm piloting is supposed to get a date for a festival coming up and has until 5 a.m. the day of the festival, but because of the landslide, I don't manage to complete the objective and watch the festival play out without a date. The characters go to class, and the professor is very boring. The textbook is 900 pages long, but the professor is focusing on a 4 page section of it. The students have smuggled some pot edibles into class, and when the professor goes to another room for a few minutes, they all leave class to get high. The character I'm piloting stays in class. When the prof gets back, he seems bummed that nobody cares about the lecture.

Note: I forgot most of the dream because I moved in my bed, I remembered it 20 minutes after I woke up. I don't know why I remembered it, it just came to me. I had the feeling that I have had 3 dreams, but I only remembered one.
I had an important exam today, so I didn't think about my dreams.

Date: Apr 24
Sleep Length: 8h
Techniques: DILD
Dream Summary:
(1) I was at a municipal public pool with my father and sister, and I was gonna use a slide like in my childhood. when I was at the end of the slide I saw a japanese girl, a bit younger than me. Since I like japanese culture I tried to talk to her. I said some japanese phrases and she said some phrases as well, I understood parts of it, then she tried speaking german. We were at some weird place, it seemed to be close to the pool but it looked like a room in a basement... pretty weird. Oh, she said something like konbanwa [...], and I didn't understand her.
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10): 2/2
Emotions: none?
Tags: public pool, family, slide, conversation: japanese, languages

Hello DV! Finally broke my dryspell, which lasted 29 days. My last lucid dream was on March 25, so it's been awhile, but I finally broke it last night. Sadly, most of the dream is lost in my subconscious now, but I can recall a few things at least, both lucid and non-lucid.

I recall being in some sort of store of something with my friends and classmates. I also recall driving out of a gas station parking lot, and two guys cut me off in their car, but then allowed me to drive out into the interesection(sorry lol the parts I remember weren't too interesting).

Lucidly I recall the time shortly after becoming lucid. I fell backwards once to make the clarity of the dream better, and it worked quite well. Not too long after that the dream almost felt like real waking life. My ADA was kicking in to the maximum, so the details in the environment around me were staggeringly realistic. Not only was the area detailed down to each speck of dust, but my body also felt very lively and at work like it would feel in real life. I've noticed that normally the body just feels empty in dreams to me, and this is probably the same for other people too. Bottom line, I'm very happy with the results of the ADA method.

Now onto a few updates:
I'm finishing up this year of school, and so the end of the year stress is starting kick in. I have to constantly worry about my grades, and the mounds of work my teachers are giving me. This has been affecting my dream recall quite horribly, because I've been quite stressed out. I noticed that once this school settled in my LD count from the summer went out the window, and I've been having dryspells for the whole school year. I've been practicing All Day Awareness(ADA) since June, and it's continuing to prove useful in capturing the detail of my dreams, but it's harder to practice in the day time when it's never the first thing on my mind, especially in school.

Recently, just this week in fact, I've been thinking about returning to the DEILD method, considering I tend to wake up unintentionally at least once a night, sometimes twice, or even three times. It's a very hard method to get started with, because it requires you to not move or open your eyes when you awake, so it's been difficult to have my mind immediately have a twitch reaction to not do so when I awake. I almost had it last night though, so I could've had two lucids! So hopefully I can pull that together soon, and hopefully when summer returns I can get back to having weekly to biweekly lucids again.

I remember becoming aware for a few seconds in one of my dreams.
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I was in a huge cafeteria and with a lot of people. Some dude wanted to fight me but I don't remember what happened I was then taking a dump in a bathroom that I think was very dirty
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I went underwater into a beautiful reef that was enclosed on all sides. I saw 2 little fish-like things. One with 1 fin and another with 2 fins. The one I wanted to talk to was the one with 2. We swam around jellyfish and I warned the fish with 2 fins, who was a girl, not totouch the tentacles, only the caps of the jellyfish. The jellyfish were floating upwards and created a beautiful square wall with their tentacles. I took my phone out and took a picture of the jellyfish wall. The fish with 2 fins then turned into a mermaid and we kept talking and even took pictures together.
I was then on some bed in an apartment and the mermaid had grown legs. She started giving my apparent roommate a massage and I was mad because she was mine but not really because I never asked her out. I was still jelly. She left and she suddenly turned into Christa and would talk all retarded. I got disgusted and left to some karate place where the teacher/instructor was testing us on how to make origami out of popcorn bags. I didn't know what I was doing but Chenn from drill helped me while the professor wasn't looking.

Date: Apr 22
Sleep Length: 4.5h - (WBTB) - 6h (= 10.5h)
Techniques: DILD + WBTB
I also wrote down what happened to me that day, which is said to help dream recall
Dream Summary:
(1) I was dreaming about my piano classes and my piano teacher. I arrived in the classroom and there was a bunch of other musicians, but I don't like music groups, so I just sneaked away. I'm not sure if this is part of the same dream, but I was also having a rehearsal with 2-3 of my friends for some sing and dance show. We did some weird group dance and we weren't bad, but we were bad when the audience was watching.
(2) I was in the bathtub, and basically just thinking about stuff. I was thinking about posters I've seen on the streets. They seem to have been about fetishes, like japanese domina, bdsm and stuff like that. Probably because my father who's been in japan has seen such things
(3) I tried to remember this dream, but I was afraid I'd forget dream (1) then. I remember a fragment about a hill, and someone has been acting like a slut. There were rumors or we were talking behind her back, idk, in any case it felt like an american high school movie
(4) I was meeting a friend of mine (V), IWL he has a plane, in my dream I had a plane, and he kinda borrowed it. It was a small plane, but I loved it. For some reason there was a pixel mario drawn onto the door. I wasn't actually dreaming it, but I imagined using that plane to go skydiving. For some reason I checked his steam account (what a deep dream sign) and noticed he played lots of pokemon recently... go figure
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10), Length (min): 3/2/30
Emotions: mostly indifferent
Tags: piano, teacher, group musicians, stage;; bathtub (morning), fetish (posters);; hill, slut;; plane, skydiving V, games

Note: I'm happy about my dream recall quantity. 2 dreams per awakening. Odd detail: when I woke up for WBTB, I remembered 3 dreams and wrote tags down. When I woke up in the morning I didn't remember anything about dream (4). When I wrote down the other dreams, I started to remember more details about dream (1) and suddenly recalled dream (4)

Dream
Notes

In my first dream, I was defending against some monsters with turrets and towers, like the game Sanctum 2. My girlfriend woke me up while I was dreaming this.
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In my other dream, I was on a plane flying across the sky. The pilot was saying something about the sunset which was very pretty. Suddenly, we see Russian and American ships shooting civilian boats on the water. The boats turn out to be pirates and the plane turns into a ship and we sail past them. We keep sailing at a pretty fast speed and see a lot of cars sailing the ocean two parallel lines. The ship turns into a car and I'm with my aunt, who is driving, my grandma in the passenger seat, and Andrea to the seat on my right. We're still in the ocean and suddenly we see more pirates. Some of them are unarmed and I don't know why they're getting shot at. Someone says there's civilians being held captive in their boats but I say "Then that's less of a reason to shoot them." Some pirates then shoot a missile at an American ship and I expect it to cause some major damage because it looks like it's going to hit a weakspot but nothing happens to the American ship. We arrive on land and I know we're in Venezuela. We're speeding through the road and a right light comes up. I yell at my aunt about the light and she says she's not gonna stop. We keep going and a car almost crashes into us. The car suddenly appears and we come to a stop. A woman gets out with an iron stick and hits my aunt with it. I get out of the car and get behind the woman, pick her up, and slam her to the ground. I was trying a different move but this one did the job just fine. I get back in the car and tell her to speed off and hurry. We pass a lot of cars and hills and we start arriving where we're going. I see these floating naga-like creatures and ask if they're truly real.

This is when I started using Vitamin B-6

Ordering or buying food for a difficult group of kids, including a vegetarian, someone on a kosher diet, a kid who wanted pizza with "peppermint, peppers, white meat, no or little sauce."

Date: Apr 21
Sleep Length: 4.5h - (WBTB) - 1h light sleep
Techniques: DILD + WBTB (+WILD)
I got up for WBTB and thought I could try WILD. I killed some time and got back to bed, but then hunger started to distract me. WILD was impossible (I tried but distraction was too much), I tried to sleep, but I could barely fall asleep. I rolled over and over and couldn't find a comfortable spot, after an hour I got up and gave up (WBTB failed)
Dream Summary:
I dreamed that a friend of mine (K) was my girlfriend, even though I don't have feelings for her. She seemed to be pissed off or angry at me, but I can't remember why. In any case, she was doing chores in my sister's room. I offered her to cuddle and calm down, but I don't remember the rest.
Another fragment: I remember being at an old looking house, everything was a bit rusty or dirty. but there was an elevator (small but it worked). I think I did something in the kitchen, but I forgot the rest while trying to remember the first fragment
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10), Length (min): 2/1/5
Emotions: mostly indifferent
Tags: girlfriend, annoyed, cuddle, chores; house, elevator

Note: I woke up before my alarm went off

Night of 4/19/14


In a mall
Big suze from peep show is having a seminar on how to be a kindergarten teacher, a friend is there attending the lesson
I am late to something again, (possible dream sign?)
have to sit in an office chair in one of the shops and do coursework

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My dad was in an accident and is now mentally handicapped; he wont be able to pay for college.

Note: still no proper dream, never mind LD, but it's only the 3rd day after all... gotta have patience!

Date: Apr 20
Sleep Length: 4h + 3h (7h)
Techniques: DILD + WBTB
I just wanted to sleep. WBTB was a mistake.
I did lots of RC and Daytime Awareness before.
Dream Summary:
You can't call that a dream. I simply remember I was being a girl... for some reason. I'm not transgender, but I was being a girl.
edit: I just remembered I was wearing a shirt with a quote by someone called Harry or Henry, it was something satiric or cynic, and a friend of mine (L.R.) asked me if I was wearing a shirt by that Harry/Henry and we were talking about it
*happy that I suddenly remembered another fragment*
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10), Length (min): 0/0/0
Emotions: none
Signs: none
Tags: transsexual?, girl

2 nights in a row with recall, what's happening!

Anyway my first dream is in my classroom, the lesson is history.
But our classroom was so laid back, if you've seen the wolf of Wall Street, just think how relaxed and laid back that workplace was, well this was like it, but without the strippers and drugs of course.

I was with my friends at my table, we also had a teacher on it, probably an assistant teacher, but he was really cool wouldent tell anyone off or anything. He came over and said something to me and I jokingly said "That's what she said..." And we both laughed.

But our real teacher wasn't laid back at all, she gave my friend Charlie NINE warnings, I had 2 and Charlie had NINE. One of the times I took Charlie's chair and he got the blame for it. So that's fragment one.

Fragment 2 was near to when I woke up. So it's after school, and normally every one goes to the nearby shops. That was the same in my dream. I see most people in my year outside the shops. I overhear something about a prank call, then the hurdle of my year starts running across the road, me and 2 friends decide to follow them, we try to work our way through the cars. I nearly got run over and my friend advised to wait and not to rush.

We finally make it across the road and were running over to the group of people, when we have arrived the person has already done the prank call, and everyone's heading back to the shops. I see them all going into someone's house so I follow them, One of them tries to lock me out jokingly but I make my way through, and the rest of the dream is me waiting inside for it to be half past so I can get the bus to home.

Night of 4/18/14
In bed from 11:09 to 7:40

Dream 1

Late to meeting because I was in the pisser.
Wouldn't stop pissing
Unusual flow
Towards the end it was a wide and heavy mist, it also came out as a brown paste

In meeting. My writing was not what they wanted. It had no cohesion and no ending

I said it didn't need to be; I thought I was supposed to write about my dreams. I was really angry

Tldr: nutty piss and I turned in a dream journal as my assignment.

Dream 2 (fragment)

Outside was flooded, I was at the back deck of my house with my family fishing. The water level was just below the deck. I caught a few fish.

Date: Apr 19
Sleep Length: 4.5h + 3.5h (8h)
Techniques: SSILD + DILD
I almost accidentally did WILD after I prepared SSILD. I was falling asleep (SP), my mind was still half awake, I could almost enter a dream after I've seen lights and flashes, then I woke up again.
SSILD failed probably because it took me very long to fall asleep after the cycles (~20 mins) and I have to get used to the situation of getting up at 3:30 and doing meditation
Dream Summary:
You can't call that a dream. I simply remember an underground garage and my stepmom
during SSILD I had one FA (I think). I wasn't really asleep
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10), Length (min): 0/0/0
Emotions: none
Signs: none
Tags: Underground garage, stepmom

Note: I drank alcohol before I went to bed (beer and wine), which probably affected my dream recall and sleep

Recalling from a week ago: Standing in a rectangular shaped hotel room, two floor to ceiling windows showed the view of the skyline and the ocean behind it. We were in Melbourne because I recall Docklands (suburb) was just to my right where one of my friends live. I saw the giant waves topple over the skyscraper buildings but receding before it hit the tower we were in, however, everyone in the tower was panicking/recieving treatment/on phone to loved ones etc. I was with my friend inside the hotel room, we were talking but I do not recall what about.

We stepped out of our hotel room, where there was a rather large lobby area where people were receiving treatment, getting bandaged up etc.

This is the second time this dream has happened, I only recall the giant waves over the building twice though.

Recalling from a week ago: Sitting on the veranda of a house, I saw this massive red meteor heading for the Earth and crashing off in the far distance.

I remember getting ready to go to the airport prior to the meteor, I was questioned about if I was still going to the Airport (Melbourne?) and I said yes, vaguely recall driving a car towards the meteor/airport.