dream fragment

I had an odd series of dreams and awakenings last night. Again my dream recall is pretty shitty, so I don't remember it vividly enough to tell it in order or in the form of a story. One thing happened though that was worth mentioning. In my dream I closed my eyes while making out with this girl. With the dreamworld gone, I could still feel her lips. I tried opening my eyes again from within the dream but it felt as if they were stuck shut. I finally managed to open them a tiny bit and that's when I realized I was opening my real eyes, and decided I did not want to do that so I shut them again. I was just sitting in a darkened dream world until eventually everything came back on its own. I think the reason I wake myself up a lot is that when I enter the darkness I try opening my eyes and end up doing so. Just sitting in the darkness, however, returned me to what I think was my original dream, but it was not in the same location, but rather a location I had been in earlier in that dream before blacking out. I was in the darkness for awhile, I started trying to imagine a Colosseum, but I found it pretty difficult to do so. I was trying to imagine myself standing inside of it and what it would look like from my perspective, but I couldn't really hold a good mental picture of it.... Maybe I need to start looking at a bunch of photos from inside the Colosseum or something....

Limited recall in my early WBTBs
6:34 Just vaguely rem being in school and having a large assignemnt due that i have yet to do. this is actually a reoccurring dream scenario for me...

9:14 I had a dream that i was kind of outside at school, looks like high school. i say kind of because the clothes dryer was out there. I was with a big athletics class and we were all outside enjoying the day. I wasnt in athletics clothes and there were many others who also were not.

I go up to the dryer and a cat that looks like mine is on it but i know in the dream its not my cat. I go to pet it and as i approach it the face almost looks human. I pet it and it starts to walk right off the dryer. I struggle to catch it and let it down on the ground more gently. It starts walking away from the dryer and toward the bench when i realize the cat is blind. When it reaches the bench it is no longer a cat but some dude dressed kind of like a chollo. He sits on the bench and i notice on his shirt it says, if i lose my shirt dont help me my parents will replace it in white ink, his shirt is red.

The class started heading in and as i was going i saw this girl with like red curly hair and she seemed kind of confused. I think i talked to her but cant rem what was said, she doesnt seem to be going inside though so i walk up a bit and find a chick who looks kind of like laurel. I ask her if the red head, i knew her name in the dream, is coming inside. Laurel said of course and looked at me like it was a stupid question. We start heading inside and now it looks just like my high school, where as before i did not really recognize the scenery.

I get into the locker room and david is in there. I also see a couple dudes that look like football players just standing around. David says something to me and i think about telling him about a dream i had that he was in, but i remembered that in the dream i say bad things about him. We walk into the lockeroom a bit and he points out that there is a girl on the football team. She walks over to the football lockers in a white uniform and dissapears behind some lockers. At this point i start to realize that there are girls all over the locker room. I look around and spot more and more. Eventually i look back towards the door leading outside and i see another strange girl, who is supposed to be the red head but she looks different. Now her hair is longer, straight, and brown. She is like moving her arms in waves, it looks kind of strange. Dont rem past this.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Had another fragment last night, nothing special.

22.30: Sleep

05.10: Fragment
*I'm three hours late for work. I tell my sister I'll give her 100 kr if she gives me a ride to the nearest train station. She agrees to do it. My youngest brother starts raging for some reason, he has also shaved his head.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 6½ hours

Supplements: None

That's it! I'm going out drinking tonight, so probably no lucids tomorrow morning, but who knows? Planning to do a WBTB on Sunday morning though. Happy weekend!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

17.06.2011

Moocher? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

At least I think I was a moocher in this dream. I do remember being a guy who looked like "The Dude" and who had a crush(?) on a female Elementary teacher. I've been a dude a lot lately. I also remember my apartment being very futuristic. I got woken up after this by Drew.

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17.06.2011

Giant Bugs. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There are only a few things I remember here. I was talking to my sister on Skype and she was in art school. She was making masks. I also remember talking to Mina but I can't remember what about. The dogs were in it too in that Taiko barked at a green but that left a slime trail on the floor. It turned into a giant Wiggler bug, though and then another, green one appeared and it ran from me while I chased it with a shoe. Then I woke up, not feeling safe from bugs. The sounds of bugs humming and chirping outside is what probably caused that part of the dream, though.

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17.06.2011

Very briefly lucid. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This lucid dream was pretty disappointingly short.

Lately, all of my dreams have been interrupted by my dogs, my husbands, discomfort and I can't remember my dreams very well if I'm interrupted.

Here's what I do remember. I remember trying to spin into my dream but I was already too awake by the time I started doing this. Then, I just sort of laid there until my mind wandered and fell asleep.

There are only a few parts that I remember here, too. I remember being in the kitchen were there was a problem with the gas. All of the burners were active at one point. As one was put out, another would light. After messing with the buttons for a little while, I realized that this would never happen (I spend a lot of time in the kitchen) since a lot of the flames were green, pink... colors that wouldn't happen in my kitchen. It was here that I did a reality check and read the 'power button' for the stove (which wasn't burning anymore), looked away and it said something completely different. I tried to do another check and read the time on a microwave twice. I tried to stablize while I was looking at it but I lost the dream when I got woken up by the puppy.

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17.06.2011

Scary doll. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

In the fourth dream I had last night (goodness these dreams are short) I only remember a scary burlap doll at the very end, being mad at a friend Craig, going to Burger King, catching a fish in a pond and putting it in my fish tank and kids skateboarding in the BK parking lot. I remember something like a classroom that Drew and I were in and I also remember choking on some antibiotics. Even the order of the dream is a little hazy, though.

Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was in my mom's minivan, which was a silver Toyota Sienna minivan. It was off, unmoving, and situated in a parkade - one of those multi-story, concrete lots that have ramps to go up to the next level. It was dark outside, and there was only one dim light on in the van - one of the ceiling lights between the driver and front passenger seat. I could see a few street lights that were on. I peered out the window of the van, down the parking lot and into the night for a few minutes, looking at the sidewalk and how quiet the street was. Nobody was walking home from work, or going places. I enjoyed the emptiness and quietness. Eventually, I reached down under the seat I was sitting in - the passenger seat - and pulled out a small ziploc bag with a whole wheat sandwich inside. I never got around to eating it before the dream ended.

Dream 1:
I vaguely remember a scene of me sitting next to a black grand piano while my friend N is twirling really fast.

I just took a ten-minute nap and had a dream in which I had posted on Facebook that I had a short dream and people were commenting on it, I think one even denied that I had a dream, saying that I was dreaming.
Umm..... Whhhaaaaaa...?????

I'm standing on the side of a road holding some kind of pad in my hands. A female voice speaks out to me and I say something about destroying our enemies. The rest is a blurr

I can only remember fragments this morning (umm afternoon). I can just barely remember one little detail, and then it just slips away. Here's what I do remember though:
The first dream that comes to mind I was in my old school, but it looked like my current school. I said hi to the teachers and ran towards these small rooms. In one of them was 2 kids that I'm very good friends with now. I hugged them and thats where it gets a bit fuzzy. The next thing I can remember in this dream is being in my old school assembly hall, and all the popular girls who didn't like me were writing my name twice on a small piece of paper. Another one of my friends was with them but she didn't go to my school. She had written my name down too. Apparently it was a good thing so I wrote her's twice on a piece of paper as well. I can't remember much more. Just fragments of all my theatre friends being there and running after and trying to talk to one of them thats mad at me right now. She won't talk to me in real life either.
The next dream I was in this huge mansion. This was a big dream, I wish I could remember more. I do remember this strange writing on the wall. It looked like a mix of chinese characters and the greek alphabet. This man explained to me that it was ancient english. I vaguely remember something happening upstairs. Thats where I forget.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Had a fragment last night, that's it.

22.30: Sleep

05.10: Fragment
*I'm with Monica at a dock. I'm in the water, trying to push a big piece of furniture up on the dock. I manage to do it after a couple of tries. I grab the strap on it and put it on my back. Some happy guy comes up to me and starts talking. I put the furniture in the back of a van.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 6½ hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I was new to town. My friends and I just moved came in on a bus and found our new apartment. Then I'm at a school where I presumably work. Then I'm talking to a Korean guy who wants me to drive him somwwhere the next day at 5:30am and make sure he survives, is okay (bodyguard type work). Because his girlfriend's mom will be doing an experiment on him and his girlfriend and maybe others. Something to do with increasing their memory. After he walks away I turn to someone who knows me and he says "Oh are you done mumbling to yourself now?" So I ask if he can see the guy as he walks away and he says there's no one there. So I believe him that I was hallucinating and tell him what I was 'talking' about.


Another dream I was god-like with telekinetic powers and I could make people say whatever I wanted.

So a friend of mine who got me interested in this site has been telling me about the whole "reality check" things to enduce lucid dreams, but I've always failed in them UNTIL TWO NIGHTS AGO...

In my dream, I was in this big city that kind of looked like a tiny packed street in China or Japan or something, with tons of lights and words I couldn't recognize on tons of signs all over the place. My friend Lupe shoes up and she's all "hey, wanna go to this knick knack store?" or however she worded it that made it seem like we were going to some junk shop down the street. I said sure and we headed for the store. When we get inside I see tons of shelves and tons of figurines and such but I can't make out what they are or what they mean, but I somehow know what they all are. There's a clock near the door and a few people in the store. Lupe sees somebody she knows in the store and starts talking to them while I aimlessly wander down an isle of knick knacks. I check the time but the clock is all topsy-turvy like I can't make out the exact time every time a blink it changes or the hands move in funny ways (and that's normal for me in dreams, I can never read clocks. That COULD be a reality check but it never registers for me, I just think it's completely normal and that the clock will tell me the time later haha).

I turn back to the shelves and overhear Lupe talk about her class schedule with the person she ran into in the store. Whatever she said made me think, like "hey, she doesn't have that class this quarter" or "wait a minute, she's graduating next quarter not next year" or something that made me realize what she was saying was wrong. And then it hits me:

ITS A DREAM.

HOLY SH*T.

I start floating.

I'm all in my head "woah, I'm floating, this is a dream and I'm floating YES! I can do anything I want in this dream this is fantastic!"

And then like amnesia, I find I'm back down on the ground and everything in this dream is considered "normal" and I'm back to my fantasy in the dream not knowing it's a dream anymore. I just go through the isles, Lupe catches up with me, and we leave for another store a few blocks away. We don't get to it because I "wake up."

BUT I DIDN'T WAKE UP!

I'm in bed, in a room that is basically my apartment but the scenery is mixed with my apartment and Lupe's living room. I sit up in bed, stretch and see my friends Jackie and Sam are there but Lupe isn't. I groggily great them, head towards the kitchen (I'm suddenly wearing a white robe for no good reason), and pour myself a glass of iced tea like I would do if I actually was awake. I nonschalantly tell them about how I had a lucid dream but I wasn't reacting to it as I the actually awake person I am right now typing this. Everything after that becomes fuzzy and then I'm ACTUALLY awake finally.

So basically two momentous things happened that I'm not even sure really happened: a dream within a dream, which I never have, and a lucid dream, which I apparently had. But it was like I only noticed I was lucid for a few minutes and then I was sucked back into the dream reality. BUT after I was back in the dream reality, I had "split personalities" again, where I see myself in the dream doing stuff like I'm narrating or filming it or something but I can't do anything to change its course. Up til the lucid point in the store, I was in my own point of view FINALLY. I rarely have my own point of view dreams.

So I kind of want an opinion... was this really a lucid dream? Or was this my dream person making myself think I had a lucid dream? It's confusing...

TA DA

16.06.2011

Johnny Cage? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Tonight I had three Dreams. The first was very hazy. All I remember is that, for some reason, I was Johnny Cage and I was having sex with Sonya Blade. She got kidnapped from me, I went after her, and then I was woken up by my husband. I don't remember anything else. Both of those characters are characters from Mortal Kombat, by the way. I guess I just have MK on the mind.

Still half asleep, but I need to write this out. I cannot forget this one, there was too much.

It began by me moving in with my parents, or thinking about it. The house was really strange, there was a bar that seemed to sit underneath the house, but it was still outside. I was excited that me and my son were going to live with them. I remember talking to my mom about how I'd stay and help out until I found my own house. I invited some friends over, someone I had just met and a few others I knew. My aunt and uncle had shown up too. I was on a bed in a bedroom with one of my girl-friends and we were listening to the wind howling. It started to sound like voices and we started to freak out. Then I realized what it might be. It started to sound REALLY creepy. I told my friend to hold on and got close to the window and was looking out, it was daylight. My suspicion was confirmed when my uncle and dad came out and started laughing at us.

Then we're back in the living room and my uncle and dad are sitting at the table with my friends and they're all laughing playing cards and having a good time. I'm standing off to the side with my mom and my aunt. My aunt starts to tell me how f'ed up I was as a child. She told me I would try eating and selling ants when I was FIVE years old. My reaction, I was super pissed, because I knew this was a lie. I could remember being five. I told her that was fucked up and that she didn't know the truth. She and my mom were shaking their heads at me. I couldn't believe they thought of me this way. I started to get really angry about it, practically yelling at them for lying. My friends had all stopped and stared. I told my aunt that she was ALWAYS trying to prove that I was a fucked up person/druggie/what not. (Semi True. She has checked my wrists for shooting up one time just because I was wearing a beanie...) I got too worked up and decided to calm down. I told them to forget it and I'd stop talking about it.

Then I walked over to the table and everyone was having a good time again. I looked up at the stereo and there was some crappy oldies playing, maybe from the seventies or eighties. I asked my dad if it would be ok if I changed it. One girl agreed with me. My dad firmly said NO. I couldn't believe he wouldn't let me change the music. I told him that wasn't fair and the girl agreed. He told me no again.

At this point, my mom, my dad, we were all fighting. I stopped in the middle and politely asked my friends if they would leave or come back later. They all got up and left. I started to run around and get my things because I realized I COULD go home to my husband. I was having troubles getting all my things together. My son was sleeping in his chair. Me and my mom were fighting, and I can hardly remember what about, but it was intense, and very realistic to how we used to fight. I needed to get the carseat for my son which I realized was in her bedroom. I went to go get it and she followed me. I saw the lock on the door and stopped, because I knew she was going to lock me in to get me to stay. I kept trying to get her away from the door but she just wouldn't go. I went into the living room and picked up my son and held him on my lap. It was late at night now. I was going to wait til she fell asleep. I'm sitting there with my son on my lap, he's awake now. I'm staring at the clock above the TV and suddenly it's like time just passed without me even noticing. The clock read 1:57 PM. I looked at my mom and said no way. I haven't seriously been sitting here this whole time, awake, staring, along with my kid being awake on my lap. My mom nodded at me yes, that I was. I almost became lucid, because I couldn't believe it, but I ended up accepting it.

I got up and left finally. I took my kid home to my husband and was telling him some of what happened. Then I needed to go to the store for something and I go. I see my parents in the store and am trying to avoid them, so I slip in and grab a whole clothing rack of baby clothes. I took them to the register, and I accidently went behind the register coming around. In the area where employees are supposed to be only. They thought I was strange, but I got to the register and realized there were baby girl clothes in the mix that I didnt need. So I started pulling out the ones I didn't like as I walked back over to where I had gotten the clothes. My sister was with my parents, they were all shopping and seemed fine. They saw me but they didnt' speak to me. I went up to the shampoo and conditioner and wanted to try it out. It was strange looking, they were both in seperate, short, orange cylinder-looking jars. My mom said something about me coming back to the house and I nodded. I went back.

My friends were all there again. I was telling one how I was going to try this shampoo and I opened it. They laughed and asked if they should go get me a towel. I was like, OH, shit, maybe I can make it home in time to rinse it out. They laughed again. I put it in my hair and somehow must've rinsed it because I started putting the conditioner in my hair too. I suddenly realized I took too long and T, my husband, would be worried about me. I told J, my friend that I had to run but I'd be back. He shrugged. I also saw the guy I had just met, his name was Ian, I don't know any Ians. Anyway. I got distracted again with movies, J was watching a movie. I can't remember what it was, but I looked down at the dvds and saw "What Dreams May Come" and said, heyyy, this was the movie you told me to watch right? He looked at me questionably. I said nvm and got up to leave. I went outside and realized Ian had a split personality, that there HAD been two people here before and I realized it was the same guy, IAN. Idk.. I figured it out.

I leave and go home and T is gone. I had just gotten there and was putting my things away. Then he comes in asking where the hell was I. I told him that I had been at my parents and had taken more time then I thought I would. He didn't believe me at all. He started to accuse me of doing something else, but I interuppted, and told him to call J because I had JUST been with him not five minutes ago. He started to laugh, I knew we didn't have a cell phone. I told him to go to his moms and borrow her cell. He laughed again and said he had a device that allowed ppl to TEXT him. He said his daughter texted him all the time. I was like wtf... you have a DAUGHTER?? He laughed like he was just fucking with me. I'm holding the device and see a text from a girl I used to babysit. I thought it was weird. I start to feel weary because I hadn't slept. I think me and T started to fight, but everything after this gets hazy.

I think I woke up, thought about taking notes down because it was a very long dream... and I didn't want to forget it. I fell asleep again though and I went back in the dream I think... but then I was with someone who had a bunch of kids on her lap laying down. They had something wrong with them and she had chopped their heads in half surgically, they were still alive. They started to collapse in on eachother and the little boy's brain was pressed together so hard that it started to ooze. It was really gross. I told her and she popped the little girl on the side, rolling her eyes. She said the little girl was putting too much pressure on him...

I'm not sure, I remembered more earlier, now I don't... The strange thing about this all is that I went to bed only less than three hours ago. And I know this sounds weird, but sometimes I pray... and it is my birthday. I prayed that I would have vivid, meaningful, long, and possibly lucid dreams. And I'm kind of freaked out. I don't pray religiously really... I'm not a christian, I just pray for positive reinforcement, but I DO pray to God. It's how I was raised, so it's the guru in my head. Anyway, I just think it's really strange and that this dream MEANS somethng... I couldn't even go to back to sleep without typing it. I started taking notes and it took up too much room, so I had to come in here and type it. I'm still half asleep and the wind IS howling, it's creepy. I had to turn on Modest Mouse. I'm a little freaked out from what I experienced in the dream... hopefully I can go back to sleep...

There ARE things I missed, but I have to get up early and I don't want to go back and put the pieces in. Maybe I'll remember when I wake up, who knows... if I can even sleep. Goodnight...

06/10/11

There was a plague of some sort and everyone was getting sick. A lot of people were gathered together in this hospital type place, it was huge. Like an airport, it had restaraunts and what not. I believe it was my 21st birthday and I had two people with me, they were people I knew, but I cannot think of who they were. We went inside a restaraunt because we were hungry and I wanted to celebrate.

After this, I'm walking through one of the hallways and start coughing up blood. I knew I had it. So I found a room that I could slowly die in. Strange enough, I seemed to have accepted my upcoming death, even though I knew it would be slow and painful.

06/11/11

Took a nap, fell asleep watching the X-Files.

Soo, needless to say, my dream was a little creepy. It was nighttime and I forgot to shut my window. I heard someone mowing our lawn with headlights and it was really scary. I was crouched down on the floor with my son, hoping they wouldn't look in the window.

Also remember alien ghosts and JUST remembered I did become lucid. There was FBI everywhere and it was daylight again. I jumped off the ground hoping to fly, but I came back down and woke up.

06/12/11

I was in a large building and there was a room with a curtain and inside there were two showers across from eachother. I wanted to shower and had no towel, so I walked across to another room just like it where there were a couple people. I can't remember if they were showering or not. I recognized a towel that we have in WL and as I went to grab it I asked to make sure nobody was using it. They told me that some girl was. I was slightly annoyed because I knew it was my towel. I walked back to the other room and began to undress. I left the curtain open and it didn't seem to matter to me. It felt alright, nobody cared. Like a Co-Ed locker room or something...

I'm in the shower and notice my grandpa walks in. (somewhere between that last sentence and this next one I changed clothes.) He was talking to me about a game, like he was my coach. He wanted me to exercise but he said something like, "Ohh, you might not want to spend THIS time training." I didn't really feel like working out but I didn't want to disappoint him. I told him I didn't mind. I can't remember anything else.