false awakening

I was in my bed and I knew that I was dreaming right off. I did a reality check by doing the nose plug, that confirmed the dream. I felt light, so i decided to fly around. I emember almost no sceanery, exept that it was well lit. I could tell that the dream wasnt stable and it started to get black. I tried to stablize it by using voice commands, but it did not work. I felt what felt like my real body but it wasnt. I then had a false awakening in bed and said dang it. The dream ended.

All at once I realized that I was in a dream and had been dreaming for a while, but my memory just started recording. The first thing I thought to do was pinch my nose and attempt to breathe. I was, in fact, dreaming. However the moment that I consciously accepted this my mind tricked me onto a FA.

Unfortunately for it, I knew better after reading and practicing to always RC when I wake up, so I repeated the previous reality check and I could breathe. This time I actually had a moment to take in my surroundings before my mind kicked me out. It was a hospital like setting and I stood up next to the bed I was on which for some reason was my bed and attempted to pull back the curtain. The moment I began to try to take control I was awakened for real, his time into an episode of sleep paralysis.

This time I stayed calm and attempted to drop back into a dream, if I did or not, I'm not sure but I know I did fall back asleep. Later I awoke all of a sudden to the program I had running on my phone telling me to do a RC. The rest of the night was uneventful.

I had a dream last night that I was in Seattle staying with my parents best friends in their house. I was upstairs which was apparently my room that I was sleeping in, my parents weren't here. There were these two little kids there and they were playing with very real looking lightsabers. I'm pretty sure the two kids were Brennie and Skyler from an old neighborhood I used to live in, anyway I had to babysit them for a long ass time and then their mom came to pick them up. They told her that they were 'hanging' out with me, and she looked mad because I'm 18 and they were like 5 lol. I told her I wasn't hangin with them and then she left taking them with her. I tried to go to sleep in the dream but then got bored so I tried to find the lightsabers which I couldn't find. So I went to bed and woke up in a sense that I needed to hurry, I was still in the same dream scene which is strange because usually after you fall asleep in a dream it changes or goes away completely. I go downstairs and Sharon is making me breakfast, she said something like "Oh Derrick there you are I didn't wanna wake you up even though I knew you had school." I looked at a clock in the dream and it was 9:30 meaning I missed two of my classes. So I hurried to get to my classes got ready and everything, and then I woke up.

Not a very exciting dream but I saw a lot of old friends I knew, and it's better to record something than nothing

I'm trying to induce a wild for some reasone I look up and there are sliding glass doors in my room. (I don't have sliding glass doors) I don't become lucid instead I ponder on why I never use those doors to go outside. As I lay back down to continue my wild my body starts a strong vibration and a very loud screeching sound. I can now feel myself rising out of my body. I rose up right threw the roof into outer space there are all these bright red spirals in space. I just keep drifing past stars planets and spiral things wondering if I was out of body or in a dream. I decide I want to fly back to earth so I imagine it in front of me. Earth appears and I fly down to to I landed in a shopping mall parking lot. I felt as I was waking(could feel my body in bed) so I spun in circles in the parking lot it almost seemed if I was drunk. But it worked. I stabalized the dream a litlle then walked up to a Spanish my who had a bag of food in his hand. I tried to think of a great question to ask him but the only thing I could think of was"what's the purpose of life?" he looked at me and started talking but his words were deep toned and I couldn't make out what he was saying then I woke up. I grabbed my dream journal and walked out the doors (that are not in my room) so I had INRALD and a false awakening in the same dream room

04.05.2011

Messing with a Garden table and kicking the moon (WBTB)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

After a while awake, I went back to bed thinking over ToTM. It was already the 4th in the morning and I was not done yet. I also recalled that it was time to dream with Dreamer and based on my time, she was sleeping, so I could catch her. I fell asleep pretty fast.

I had a FA in my bed. In fact, it felt like if I never felt asleep. However, I had no vision at all. I focused on my surroundings and on my own body. I felt my body in bed like when I am awake. I could also hear my ears buzzing, but I considered is was normal because I wore ear plugs. I got out of bed, slowly, still without vision. I decided to jump and see if I levitated. Most of the times it works, but I just jumped. However, I made an odd noise when stepping the floor. I decided to jump again, and it was the exact same noise, so I wasn't sure. I took off my sleep glasses and walked to my living room. Everything was normal, even my cats behaved normal. I was not satisfied so I looked at my hands. They looked and felt normal, but when I counted my fingers, I counted eight, in addition, they were super thin.

I turned lucid and felt it was funny the resistance my mind was opposing this time, and how I overcame it. I looked right away in the sky, but it was day and I saw no moon. After a short flight to make my dream stable, I landed on a field. I started to look for Dreamer, but I could not see her. I saw instead a lot of zebras walking. I felt like some psychokinesis so I pointed at the zebras and taunted them. The zebras started to walk towards me, all of them, they were around eight or nine. I found it funny but I knew it was no psychokinesis. My dream was not stable enough and it had no quality, so I felt like more flying was appropriate. I flew at a hight speed, I could feel the wind in my face and the heat (not much) of the Sun on my skin. While I was flying, I lost vision only on my left eye. I focused on how to dream feels on my body when I recovered vision.

Suddenly, the quality of the dream dropped dramatically. I lost vision on both eyes and I knew that was going to wake me up. I kept feeling the wind on my face, so I anchored myself to that feeling. I also focused on Dreamer and our field, to take profit of the imaginary lost. Blackness was all I could see. I tried to use conventional dream recovery abilities. I knew that those never worker for me, as I was used to do my own recovery techniques since I was a kid. I started to spin, but I did not feel I was fast enough and it had no success. I also tried to rub my hands as last resort, but I recalled one lucid that I tried, and just ended into a faster awakening. My hands felt like if I had plastic gloves on, so I took them off and kept rubbing my hands. A few seconds of complete nothingness of feeling and seeing happened, until I started to see some sun light. I though I was awakening and what I took previously, were my sleep glasses. However, I started to feel wind on my skin, so I realized I was not in bed indeed. I could see a big field, made out entirely of grass. I saw mountains around me. As the imaginery recovered completely, Dreamer was in front of me and told me, "Finally Mister! It was about time! I missed you!" She hugged me. I told her the both of us have been very busy and we did not focus as much.

Dreamer grabbed my hand and we started to fly. She told me to go and mess up with the moon. We had a few minutes (or felt like it) of flight, however, I recalled that I needed to do psychokinesis first. We landed in a high end neighborhood. Dreamer told me that she wanted to speak with some guy and make a joke on him. Dreamer told the guy about something on his house, so this guy entered his house. When he was going, I saw a white garden table.







I opened my palm facing the table and channeled energy the same way I do in waking for energy healing and PSI Balls. The table started to shake and it soon levitated. I rose the table about eleven feet (four meters) and kept it floating right over the door of that guy. As he came back from the building, he grabbed the table without surprise and placed it around his neck. Then he walked to the left site of the patio and said something to Dreamer. I started to focus on the table again and it started to move, but the guy grabbed it hard and did not move. I focused on the feet of the guy and did the same hand movement. The guy (with the table) started to levitate and freaked out. Dreamer laughed and suddenly, grabbed my left right and started to fly saying, "Moon time!"

I was curious how my mind was going to handle not one, but two flying to the moon, holding hands. I knew Dreamer was dreaming, but I was not sure if we were sharing the dream. We got pretty fast to the moon. Dreamer told me we could kick the moon and set it right into the Earth. However, we were on the actual moon, so it was going to be hard. I told Dreamer, "You are good in growing your size! Let's do that" Suddenly, we were on Space, and the Earth was about four times our size. The moon, was three times as big as a basketball, but it still looked like the moon. I told Dreamer we could kick the moon. I also told her I actualy suggested that over the boards. I kicked the moon with my left foot and Dreamer with her right foot. The moon started to move at a fast speed towards the Earth. Suddenly, it became a fireball entering the atmosphere of the Earth. A few seconds later, the Earth itself started to crumble and exploded.

After it was done, Dreamer told to just enjoy our mutual company and fly together, so we did, but shortly, I woke up.

I dealt with a forgotten situation mixed with a false awakening and ended up saying to myself, "I could have become lucid (if I had done something differently in my dream). I woke up disappointed that I missed that dream sign.

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I dreamed a dog was dragging something. Our pet rats were making a ruckus.

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I had a dream about my Dad's old house. As usual, I was around back. The house is on a hill, but in my dream, the hill was held up by a wall which was collapsing. I was talking to someone and agreed to
shore it up which required tightening some screws to push the wall back. There was a train track dividing
the land in my dream.

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I had done a video project on things falling; parachuters and meteorites were the two that I actually thought of in the dream.

I started watching the video and it started with an intro scene I can't remember. Then it went to a scene of these ladies dancing. They looked the right size based on the perspective in one sense, but a giant hand came down to make it look as though the hand was making the ladies spin. The hand was not designed to look giant either. The hand only looked large and the ladies small relative to each other. It was strange, and had nothing to do with the theme of the falling things.

I was waiting for the real part of the video to start to see my editing work. Then the scene went to Jennifer Love Hewitt. She was sitting on her butt on the floor in a dress with stockings. Her legs were open, but the angle did not show her. Then the angle slowly turned to show her crotch. It was a playboy shot rather than a Penthouse shot (taste versus detail). She had a thick landing strip. That was great.

Then there were more women in a lesbian orgy scene. It was great, but I was waiting for the real part of the movie to begin. I turned around to see a lesbian woman I used to work with watching the video. When I saw her she kind of chuckled and walked away, though I looked back later and she was there again. I tried to tell her that this wasn't the real point of the video.

Eventually the lesbian scene stopped, but so did the dream. Maybe I woke up. I really don't know.

I "woke" up and saw my room was bright with sunlight. I looked at my phone clock and it said 7:36. I then got worried and was about to wake me parents. I looked at my phone clock again and strangely it was 8:06. I thought it was weird but was to worried about school at the moment. I then woke up.

Before the lucid dream started I just remember fragments. Something about eating four-leaf clovers in my bathroom, but I didn't mean to, it was just habit. I was supposed to let someone else eat them. Eating the four-leaf clovers granted superman-like powers.

The next memory I have is being lucid in the hallway outside my room. I wanted to do something other than flying around looking for women so I decided to talk to my parents, I walked to their rooma and asked them what they thought of L. As in, what do you think of me dating her/marrying her. My father said "Well she's not who I'd go with, but she's nice." My mother said "I think you want to have her goals, like her double major and you call her everyday, well you don't call her but you ask her questions."

While they were talking I decided in my mind I'd like to try spinning and teleporting somewhere, I've never done that in a dream. So I started spinning and everything went black. I thought about going to see M, but settled on a wooden cottage. I stopped spinning and came to in an attic where a little boy was playing with a dollhouse cottage with figures in it. He started telling a story with it and his parents were there. I asked if it was haunted and made the shoe toy float (I think it was supposed to represent the mom).

Then I flew straight up through the ceiling (I decided on doing this earlier too). Now I'm among the stars in mostly darkness, I pass over water and the reflection of stars. Then a giant cell phone appears and I can scroll through a student story on the screen with my mind/perspective. It's the beginning with the author's names and I try to read it but it keeps switching perspective like it's in a mirror. I decide I can always check the phone when I wake up so I continue on. Then it starts going black and I start to wake up so I try to fly fast and teleport again but through my eyelids I see red, like light pouring through.

Then I experience one heck of a false awakening!

I awake super tired, it's hard to remember the dream but I lay still and piece it together. I'm still too tired to write it down and consider briefly using my cell phone to record it via voice. I hear movement in the hall. My father is dragging a chair from the closet to the bathroom and left the door opposite mine open. Inside is a two-headed mannequin with a shawl/shirt on. I ask why he has such a frightening mannequin. He opens the other closet and asks me to do something with the car somethings, because they look like whips.

Finally I wake up for real and it takes a moment to realize the first time was a false awakening.

I woke up. My alarm was going off. I hopped up out of bed. I was late. I rushed into the closet, picked out my clothes grabbed my bag and went down stairs. I woke up. My alarm was going off. It had been going off 45 minutes I had missed the buss and so had my brother because I usually wake him up.. My mom had to drive us to school that day. I never really believed my mom until that day all the times she told me she had mistaken real life for a dream. It was a frustrating but eye opening dream.

I had been alone at "the farm house" for the last month . I was asleep in the living room with the tv on and my black light in the living room I woke up in, in this dream. Its the dream that creeps me out the most still..

I woke up. It was dark. The tv was on along with my black light. I had fallen asleep on the couch in the living room. I got up and walked to the window in front of me. It was open. I looked out side and the ski was lit up by the moon and the sky was purplish. A van came driving down the gravel road slowly. It had black lights inside. I seen a figure in the back glass when it reached a point I could see the back. The van stopped. It went in reverse and then went into my drive way. I went and hid in the closet. I heard a few people come in the house. They passed me. Then I hear screams of some one in the house. "I thought every one was gone" in my head. Then another persons. "I could have warned them" I started crying. Then a figure walks by the closet I'm hiding. He goes out view just a second passing the entrance. Then his head peaks around the corner. I know he has seen me. He starts to approach me and I wake up. On the couch just like the beginning of my dream. I didn't get up for a while because I was scared.

I'll post the actual lucid dream. I was on the bus but it looked the bus from the Simpsons that's when I realized that I was dreaming, tried to summon up the first thing I could think of because I knew i would wake up in seconds but woke up before I could really see what I had summoned. I think it was Bart Simpson, because the dream had gotten fuzzy by the time I got to summoning him, I saw lots of yellow. Then I had woken up and decided to do a reality check by putting my finger through my hand it went through. I tried summoning something again, and i was unseen before the world got fuzzy again, and again it looked yellow.

I woke after nine hours of sleep. I had zero recall. I had an hour before I just had to get up so I tried to dream some more. My mind was racing with thoughts and I couldn't fall back to sleep. So I did a few minutes of meditation to relax and quiet my mind. Then I started my "I am dreaming" mantra. I had a though about a haunted tour my fiancée told me about but I pushed it aside. I think my consciousness split for a few minutes. I also had a thought wondering if WILD could actually happen. I was doubtful. Then I had a thought of a ghost or demon or something coming for me. I wanted to run but I was paralysed. Then I remembered myself and said no I must be about to dream.

I was indeed in SP. I felt all tingling and twitchy. I told myself I didn't care about whatever was coming it wasn't real. I relaxed and in a few seconds my body became calm. I partially opened my eyes. I could see a brightly lit window. Somehow I mistook this for reality. I did not expect to enter the dream like a FA. So not realising I was dreaming I closed my eyes again. I felt very disappoint. I felt a few twitches of SP and then.... I don't know. Memory gap. I had given up. Next time I will know what to expect!

I vaguely remember getting up and seeing myself dressed with crazy bed hair.

I remember fragments of being in a building at night. Some strange workplace. Using keys on doors. Bruce from where I really work.

Then I was in my ex in laws living room. We had just watched some movie about long haired gerbils with my kids. Their grandmother and grandfather were watching it too. She said to him

"You know what they are selling at the pet store now don't you?"

"What? Long haired gerbils?"

"Yep!"

I wake up.

I doubt I had a true WILD. I did sort of forget myself before the SP. Is this a normal WILD experience?

Today I had my second DEILD! I'm going to look into this technique...

Dream 1:

I am doing something and I am at first under the impression that I just woke up. Then I wake uP for real, and still kind of half asleep, I decide to return to the dream, but when I get there, I am Lucid. I do the nose RC, and It works.

Then my alarm went off
I also think the dream took place at a beach with a grey sky overhead.

allen, leo and I were at our apartment. I got a new black suv mercedies. Leos dad was in town looking for him. Allen and leo needed to go to qfc so I let them take my car so leos dad wouldn't regonize them. I took allens and fallowed. We saw leos dad and drove back scared he would catch us. They walked inside and I turned around to grab my phone I left in allens car. I got in and decided to do nose reality check. I passed. Looked at hands, was missing fingers. YES! Allen stood on balacony and I shouted im dreaming. He said he knew. Suddenly a loud boom came.from behind me. I fully got into the back seats and shut door behind me. I heard creepy little alien laughs and allen was shouting they're tiny aliens. I locked the doors.and thought I should just drive away cuz.I didn't want to dream about aliens again. Crawled to front of car, didn't have key so I stuck in finger to turn on car. Started to pull away. FAULS WAKE UP: turn to allen, ask him what he was dreaming about. He said small aliens and I thought we shared dream. Closed my eyes and was back at my apartment but no aliens. Allen is with me. I do nose and hand reality check, I realize im dreaming again. Feeling frisky I tell allen to get naked outside with me. He does and were running around laughing. I wanted to play.WAKE UP: I lay there still and within a minute im back into the dream. Allens close are back on. REALLY wanting to play. I know im dreaming without checking. We start to play outside on someones car.
Wake up: lay there. Go back into the dream, decided I was.done with playing. Im with allen, he tells me to fly. I jump in the air and do but I can't go to high. I land. He is blowing things up with his hands. He tells me to shoot ice from my hands and I actually did it. We running around for a while icing and blowing things up.
I wake up: Go back into dream. Im there with a fat girl and some other people. I am doing reality checks, knowing im dreaming, but they are semi failing me. I tell her to do them, they fail her. Then I grab a clock. I look at it several times. The time changes with each look and sometimes says error. Im certain im dreaming. I wake up

Hoping that i will manage to synchronize my pc dream journal with the online dream journal, i will post all the lucids and favourited dreams. After that i ll try to keep the online journal up to date posting each new dream on time...

25.12.2010

Lucid #10 (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's morning. My mother in outside my room in the bathroom and she is using the hairdryer. I wake up and turn my cellphone on. I am really sleepy. I leave the phone next to me and close my eyes. I 've tried 2-3 times to wtbt during the night but i didn't succeed. This time i don't remember trying, or even thinking about it... Witout notice a girl friend of mine is lying next to me. I was lying on my right side in the same posture as when i was awake. She was lying behind my back, i couldn't see her. She is talking. It's like she's awake for quite some time. Her voice is clear and cheerful. I feel like we are a couple or sth. She asks me some totally random questions. As if she's a child that wants to learn RIGHT NOW why the snow is white. I moan "aha... yup.." trying to sleep. I still hear the haidryer. She get up and walks over me to get off the bed. I slap her ass for waking my up and i sit up. I stare at her as she's standing next to my wardrobe. After a while the situations starts to seem kinda weird... I do a nose RC. Most times everything gets crystal clear when i do that. This time everything gets burry but i am lucid. I try to look at her. She is still standing there and she 's looking at me, but i can't see her face. It's blurred out. I still hold my nose and breath, waiting to stabilize. I feel that dizziness coming, like the dream is fading away. I close really strong and open my eyes wide some times and after a few seconds the dream gets stabilized. I now see her. She has shorter hair and doesn't look like her waking version much but i know it's her. She comes near me, in front of my face and says: "HIIIII THEEEEEREEEE!". The dream fades. I wake up in the same posture i was before. Nose RC. Yup i 'm awake...