false awakening

Non-Lucid
(Side Notes)

( May 20th, 2011 - I have to say this dream is extremely scattered and pretty annoying to read. I remembered very little so I just blabbered on and on trying to fit some things together.)




I remember in one, I was on an Island (not like a remote island in the middle of nowhere. More like...A place like Hawaii..) part of it, I remember chasing the Backstreet Boys down a street and hugging Howie, then I screamed “ I'm fat Nick, so slow down.” even though he wasn't far ahead. Sarcastic humor ftw! They laughed then Nick turned around, wrapped his arms around me and picked me up to twirl me in a hug. He even said I love you! I think it happened twice in my twice that I hugged Howie and Nick. They walked under a bridge and disappeared. There was a group of people on some sort of stands to my right and one girl asked who they (BSB) were and I just sang “Backstreet's Back, Alright!”

At some point, I was standing line with a bunch of girls and we were attempting to sing and do the dance to everybody. I sang badly and the girls next to me barely sang and we failed. I ended up hurting my knee somehow and I was laying on the ground with a bunch of people around me; one guy holding my knee in place so I couldn't hurt it more. I remember crying and asking where the ambulance was but they said something about being too far on the island for one to come so we waited for a helicopter or a boat...idk...someone landed on my knee at some point and people laughed. Kind of happy that finally in my dreams, people help me and worry when I get hurt instead of ignoring me like they used to in em.

I had a school related dream and I don't remember a lot at all.

In another, I was with some kid and I think he had the hots for me...don't remember a whole lot except for laying on my stomach on the floor and wondering if he was going to..do my butt... By that point, I had walked to a door cuz he had to check on some kids and his father was coming and we wanted to get the kids to greet him. I stood in the doorway and remember screaming something like “hey all you beautiful blonde kids, go have fun!” and some girl smiled and idk... then we went outside with neighbors so his dad wouldnt catch me and yeah..


I REMEMBER RYAN FROM CELTIC THUNDER WAS IN ANUDDER DREAM! It was some big room with a bunch of table desks..I was walking around outside and there was a “vending” machine by the entrance with cigarettes sticking out and I picked one but someone with me said no cuz they wanted to check and see if it was a good one...then I picked another and it like...exploded in my face or the tobacco shit from inside got in my face so I went back through the room, to a door that lead to stairs. I went down one flight. Took a short left and down another until I found a bathroom called “Men” and idk why I entered but I did. Two stalls, very narrow, small sink to the left. I went to the sink as a girl came out of the left stall and she was black..very gross floor cuz there was urine and poop on it. I washed my face off then left... saw a “teacher” standing infront of all the table desks and we had these little pamphlets we were suppose to write in a bout a certain country and I wanted Ireland but they said something like “Oh it's taken” or some shit about me not being from there. I wanted to see Ryan but Ic ouldn't so I just..left.. then I was outside by lahouts here in lincoln and it was dark, deserted, and wet outside. It was suddenly chrismas eve with no snow and I guess it was a tradition to play outside at night as a kid the day before christmas..weird shit...I wanted to lay and cry and wait for Ryan so I sat in a chair near the steps. A woman close by started screaming and I looked and saw a kid (about 7-9 years old) jumping into a stroller and attacking a baby. The mom started crying and I did too..then people from nearby started running up to them to help...I walked across the street to where that mall shit is and waited until I saw mom walk out with a container in her hands with yummy food and she walked across to the mall parking lot and...yeah..then it ended..


I almost had a lucid dream. I remember laying in bed and I had my eyes partially closed but I could see my room and I was seeing weird shit as if I was slipping into a dream. I kept slipping in and out and I remember recording with my camera and feeling cool that I was controlling that shit....I am pretty sure it was a false awakening as I honestly thought I was awake and shit LOL.

I'm on Teraluna.
Yuya is teaching me about dream bubbles, or temporary dimensions like she calls them.
We've done this before, but this time she's telling me how to create a completely customized bubble, with my own rules at will.
She's explaining that using the 'natural bubble' we spawn in when we dream requires little to no energy, but it is also impossible to fully control.
We can definitely influence it to a great extend, but the control is limited.

Creating a custom bubble whilst in the dream plane requires a lot of energy, and it is fully customizable, but unfortunately they are very small and somewhat limited in features.
You can create a simple room, and apply some rules to this room, but you cannot create a beautiful outdoors environment for example.

The idea is quite basic, create a custom room and apply the rule "create gradually more powerful monsters attacking myself".
According to Yuya this is a rather high level training method, and quite effective.
Not only do you have to stay alive, but you also have to keep the dream bubble up, which requires a high degree of concentration.
Maintaining such concentration during a battle is very hard.

I don't understand how it works, but I somehow understand how to do it.
It's quite complex and requires delicate energy manipulation and a lot of willpower.
You have to fade into the new dimension at the same time you're creating it, it is a very weird and confusing experience.
My first few attempts are quite unstable, and the dream bubble breaks twice.
When it breaks I simply fall out from the spot I created it.
But then I get a feeling for it, and suddenly it seems very straightforward.

I am fighting waves of increasingly more powerful monsters, using my dragonic powers and my katana.
Even though the monsters are very realistic, there is no blood or anything.
When I slice through one, it simply fades away.

I'm trying to push myself to the limit, to see how powerful I truly am.
My own aura causes massive vibrations throughout my body, it feels great!
I move at an incredible speed, and the heat of my aura leaves burning trails behind me.
The dragon tattoo is fully grown and glowing in a bright blue.
Even though when I fully focus, time progresses so slovely I can time every one of my movements perfectly,
I still occasionally manage to move so quickly that my mind cannot keep up.
It's a fantastic experience.

I'm at my limit, I cannot keep up with the monsters anymore, at this point I'm just reacting instinctively to stay alive.
One scorpion like monster manages to pierce me with its tail.
It feels really cold for a split second, then the dimension disappears and I fall back to Teraluna.
I check my chest, I haven't hurt myself, this really is an amazing way to train!

... I'm now at Yuya's place.
I'm exhausted and we go to bed... I feel myself falling asleep very quickly...
I know this feeling from waking life. The numbness of my body, the heavy blanket feeling, the lightheadedness, I'm beginning to dream!

I am floating through darkness. I do not have a body, I am pure energy.
A scene starts to form around me.
The ground is volcanic, there are small crates everywhere and colorful plasma is streaming out of them.
There are a few lava streams as well.
I realize I cannot be on a planet. The horizon has no curvature and there is no atmosphere, I can see directly into space even though it is daytime.
Somehow this place feels oddly familiar.

I feel a presence behind myself and turn around, I am still floating in the air.
A white and blue dragon approaches me. He is very beautiful but also very fear inducing.
He has two pairs of insanely large Wings, and two tails with white blades on them.
He stops right in front of me, gazing into my eyes.
His voice is deep and so strong it is resonating in my body.

"You are Dragon!"

I am surprised by this statement, even though people call me Dragon all the time.
I always figured I was somehow using dragonic abilities, but I never considered being an actual dragon.

"I use the powers of a Dragon."
"No. You are Dragon. Always."
"You were born Dragon. Appearances are irrelevant. You are Dragon!"
"I am here because you need to know this."
"You are near the age of waking. When you do, your powers will fully awaken."

His presence is absolutely overwhelming, I feel that whatever question I would ask would be inappropriate.

"Thank you."
"Remember... you are Dragon... ALWAYS."
"Yes."

I wake up in my bed at home. I want to tell Yuya about this dream, but when I turn around I realize my mistake.
I am not on Teraluna, I am at home... I just woke up... stupid me.
I take some quick notes but then my eyes start to itch.
Rubbing my eyes, I walk to the bathroom to check in the mirror if I have something in them.

I am shocked when I see myself in the mirror. My eyes are glowing lightly... The same way Yuya's eyes do, the same way mine do when I look at myself in a mirror on Teraluna.
What is happening???
I am Dragon... always? Shit... this can't be!
I turn around to look at my back in the mirror, searching for the dragon tattoo which I know cannot be there.
But there it is...
It is not fully formed yet, my skin is bleeding in the spots where the dragon tattoo is in my dreams, and it is slowly being filled with color.
Holy shit... am I really a Dragon? Am I awakening?
I can't decide if I should be amazed or be worried about the consequences this would have on my future life.

But then I realize that I'm wrong.
Of course... I am still dreaming, holy shit!

I wake up again, this time for real.

I am lying in bed in my bedroom. My dog, frank, is standing on the desk across the room. She is whining and howling for me to take her outside. I open my eyes to look at her and there is a huge snot bubble growing out of her right nostirl. The bubble pops and turns into a huge stream of mucus that pours out of her nose and runs all over the desk. She is still looking at me and whining for me to get her some food.

Well, although I said that my last lucid was a REAL lucid, I'm looking over it and I think it was only a semi lucid.

I was in a strange world and me and my friends were battling a dragon of some sort. I threw a fireball at him and then realized I had never played anything like this. I became lucid. I rubbed my hands together and the landscape changed. It became a parking lot that I vaugely remember from somewhere else. I saw a few DCs around. For a minute I just looked around, IT WAS SO VIVID! I laughed and plugged my nose. I could breathe through it! I then tried to fly. I didn't but instead jumped really high over and over. I walked up to a DC and told him that he was a Yoshi, the first thing that came to mind. He just shrugged and turned into one. He tried to eat me though, so I turned him back. Then one of the people from my school jumped up to me and said that this was his dream. We decided to battle for control of it. I rubbed my hands and jumped. For a while we just jumped and tried to throw fireballs at each other. I landed and started up a kamehameha. Just as I let it go the dream ended.

I remember having a false awakening in there somewhere, but I don't remember exactly where.

(i would have gotten this up earlier except that my computer has been giving me crap since i fell for a false pop-up that turned out to be a virus, and i had school)



I awaken in my bed, i am unaware that im dreaming because i had been struggling to get back to sleep after really waking up at 2:45. i leave my bedroom and go downstairs to get a glass of water, then sit down to watch TV, i turn it on and a bizarre scene plays out, i see two guys standing side by side, in front of a mirror that seems to be acting like water. the guys are talking about whats on the other side, then suddenly one of them gets pulled through and trapped on the other side, the other guy runs to get help, then i awaken in my bed, completely confused

Well i've sleeped and then i woke up at my room again ...

the Dreams i had was Lucid and mixed with vividness .

it was my brother and dad and mom wanted something
then they went out of my room and i saw like 10 dishes at my room with food? i was like hmm?
from where? then i tried cleaning it fast cus if my bro see's he will bla bla for sure.. i didnt did nothing i just took one or two and put them somewhere fast fast and then all dissapear .. then i said to my bro ok go out of room i must go in work in -6 mins =D
he slapt me and i woke up but still in proccession of LD

it was like that i wasnt sure i am LD in this moment and when i LD my brain feels different i dont know how to explain . so i tried to open my eyes and couldnt , then i sleeped and joined other dream.

then it was again on my room and it was something like porn video at my screen and i woke up after 1 min looking it lol.
but still in proccesion of ld.

i LD being outside with my mom and some other friends of her or something
and we going with train somewhere
but the weird thing was im in germany and i cant move with train to cyprus
so it did moved me to my old scohol i saw it
but the more weird was i was driving without vehicle
i dont know how is this possible
but i was running maybe
but i was standing in train..
then in some moment the friend of mom left and runned faster at the jogging street
and i stopped runing
and tried to fly
..
couldn't
so i said mm enough my brain is dead today ;D
i woke up and write this down

It is 8.30 - i decide to try a WILD
I feel my body falling asleep but barely feeling the SP. from nowhere i hear this sound like im getting sucked into a black void. everything spins (and i must admit it was a little scary). As fast as it startet it stopped again.

I see a bald man at my bed, talking to my feet. "it just be a FA" and i did the nosepinch RC - i realise i am dreaming:
I don't know what to do yet. On one hade i could go for my ToTy and ride a unicorn on a rainbow but what the heck, i'd rather make this dreak very vivid and clear. I startet touching my pillow and everything around me to highten my senses in the dream. I saw the bald man looking with an intense look with his dark brown eyes. He found his little suitcase and left without a word.

I went outside. i am still at my house i live in IRL. not a cloud on the sky and the weather is perfect.I see a man with long brown hair and a hat walking on the sidewalk. I kinda wantet to talk to a DC so i did.I asked politely if he knew what time it was, but instead of giving me the time he gave me his watch and moved on. Anywho i moved on down the main road, observing what my mind was creating. Apperrently everything seemed new and fresh. i thought by myself i must have gone back in time.

i was at the road where the school usually is. i looked at the new watch. it was a leather strap and a golden watch. it was 13.50. i tried to yell at that DC that gave me the watch and after a few seconds i looked at the watch again. now its 14.10 - Yep.. i must be dreaming..

Every road i see is a chaos. Cars everywhere. Normally my city is calm and not a single car on the road. I keep walking - i wanted to see my friend. i was at that road i wanted to see. everything was new and odd. i was almost at the house when i thought by myself: what is he is a baby since i was in the past. While standing in my own thoughts i herd 2 kids arguing about colors. "I WANT IT IN PURPLE" one said and i was like "wat?". I saw a toy store and I wanted to see who is in there and what kinda toys it is.

While walking towards the toyshop i wake up

Even though the dream seems very boring it was THE MOST CLEAR lucid dream i have ever had and also the longest. It was also the LD i had most control in

Going to sleep now, it's 10:35 am. I will become lucid.

First dream I remember was having Sherry come to me and be like, "i think Dan might ask me to prom because vlahblahblah" and she asked me if I knew anything, I said no. So she asked me to tell her if anything came up cause she wants to know beforehand. Soo then it goes to just me alvin and ian playing basketball. I do remember we find out that Ian has a crush, and kuya don don was like dude she's in the philippines? forget about it! but Ian was like no and he said he's waiting till he's 18. So were like whatever lol. Then we go play basketball.

edit: remembered a couple more things (2 things that i had to stop and think about because of it's weirdness.. almost became lucid i think)

first thing was me seeing katrina in 5th period with a motorcycle. i was like, hmm.. that's weird.. she got a motorcycle instead of a car? then my mind goes.. OK, THAT SOUNDS TOTALLY FINE. NOTHING WEIRD ABOUT THAT. then i continue whatever i was doing.. which i forgot.

second was in a FA. I woke up, and I still had my boxers on (i put back my shorts after WBTB cause it was cold, but i didn't question that). Then I look at my thighs and I see cuts, almost like I cut myself on purpose. There were quite a few, and I think I remember seeing cuts on my arm too. I was just like.. WTF? when did I get these cuts?? then again, my mind goes, HMM WHATEVER I JUST DONT REMEMBER. IT'S FINE. and I go into the bathroom and wash my face and everything, and I wake up for real and I'm late to school

It seems like I'm getting closer to become more aware in my dreams, as I'm actually questioning these weird things that are happening in my dreams. I've never done that before, so hopefully my awareness will boost up over time and I can finally have a DILD in fantasy land.

and there doesn't seem to be anything I can do to save it.

My reality resides in my dreams...
and this is the nightmare I wake up to.

I awoke in my bed, in my room. My dog (who has passed somewhat recently) ran from the foot of my bed through the door. Then I looked at my old completed puzzle turned picture on the wall. There were clumps of puzzle pieces missing, and behind them was a mirror reflecting a storm out my window. At that I became lucid.

I stood in my room and marveled at the realism of it all, the texture of my sheets and curtains. I touched my hands a bit to stabilize then flew out the window. The window broke into puzzle pieces and stuck in my hair, I was worried they'd block my sight and force me to wake up so I did some flips in the air to get them out. Then I landed in my neighbor's driveway which was surrounded by long flowers. A man drove up in a low golf-carty vehicle and asked me if I wanted 60,000 dollars. I said sure, but in the back of my mind I was wondering if it was some sort of trick my subconscious was playing on me, a test. I asked what I had to give him and he said "10, 20, no 21,000 dollars". I said okay and he drove by a little. Then I decided to try spinning and teleporting to Egypt to visit the pyramids (My loose intent for lucid dreaming) and while spinning, woke up.

I was "awake" at 4:45 AM. Dad told i should stop trying to lucid dream. I of course did not listen, I laid down in my room and cleared my mind. I focused on a violet sphere and rotated it with my mind. I then had a falling sensation.
The dream ended.

Dream Journal #15 May 17th, 2011

First dream I remember was being in some weird house, trying out for something.

Actually scratch that. First thing I remember was having a fake tattoo on my arm and I had to go to court for it rofl because it was against the law or something. So I go to court, but literally nobody shows up but me and the judge. The judge lets me go. I then go to some weird place to train for something and I have to put on this thing on my head. I then have to wash my entire head with shampoo for some reason.

Then, I’m at ralphs house with alvin and ian. I also remember something about AK’s and pistols lol… and that like a dog was trying to get the AK to shoot another dog.. idk weird ass part of the dream. We had like piles of weird stuff in the room. Then DJ calls me and hes like whatupp blah blah and i think hes at paolos so im like ok we’ll go to paolos (even though i didnt even know he wasnt there). When i get to paolos he not there, but my mom is. My mom said were sleeping over there lol. Apparently we were going to play beer pong, but we were still waiting for DJ. Then my alarm woke me up.

edit: here’s after WBTB.

I could feel myself going lucid. I felt all the vibrations- everything that I felt whenever I knew I would be going lucid. Then it just stopped.

I had an FA. Ellean apparently just appeared out of nowhere and started sleeping on my bed (he was never in my house in the first place) and I thought that THAT is what caused me to lose my lucidity. sigh im so dumb. I even did the nose plug reality check and it failed! I breathed through my nose but for some stupid ass reason I made up some reason in my head for why I was able to.

lol. then the dream continued from me giving up to go lucid to me and ellean watching tv and eating snacks (cookies to be exact). sigh.

also quick note: i watched a subliminal messages video right before i went back to sleep.. i think it helped, but im not sure.

16.05.2011

Exploring Space (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The 500th dream was coming up. I was aware that with 500 dreams I would get the "Epic Dream Journal" award. I wanted to have an epic lucid dream and I knew it was a one lifetime opportunity, so no chances to make it wrong.

I was living with some friends for some reason. I had a girl friend instead of a wife. She was very different from my wife as well. We went to the beach and we were going to have sex. She told me that she would meet me later after doing some assignment I had. She was very happy to see me.

I realized all the nonsense of the dream and turned lucid. I decided to take a flight to make my dream very stable. I flew over a huge town. It was night and I could see the whole town lit. I was happy as it was a high quality lucid dream.

I flew over a lake between the tall buildings. I could see boats floating and also, submarines. In addition, I saw like stores that were sunk, but they were supposed to be like that, as I could see customers inside (it was made out of glass)

Double consciousness triggered. I could feel one of my cats and the dream quality dramatically fell. I needed and epic dream to celebrate my 500th dream. I grabbed a piece of bush and started to squish it with my hands, so I would stay anchored to my dream. It worked fine, double consciousness ended and the dream quality skyrocketed once again.

I got to a more quiet place of downtown. However, it looked more like a low end neighborhood. I found a dog that needed to be walked either on the dream or Astral plane. I was going to walk the dog and see if it changed the physical plane and actually walked the real dog. I realized it made no sense what I was saying.

I decided to enter a building and see what my mind created. There were a few people, but they were acting very dumb. I found a container with Cola Cao (chocolate powder) so I opened and tasted it. It looked like blue crystals, but it tasted like the real thing. As I was about to exit this weird house, I saw a giant yellow plastic duck next to me. The nonsense surprised me.

I looked up to the sky and saw the moon. I decided to fly to the moon, however, when I started to reach it, it fell! It started to melt until it vanished. I was wondering what could I do by then.

I decided to have a flight in Space. I was sure another moon was going to spawn. As I reach to space, I saw several black holes and explosions













Different shapes and a lot of colors were seen during this flight. Some of these happened right on my head, but I did not feel anything and it did not changed the path of my dream.

I saw a wormhole and decided to enter it. I started to travel at high speed until I got to a different dimension. All I could see was nothingness... a few seconds later, I saw a lot of starts and different colored letters... as weird as it sound. It looked freaking like Sesame Street!!! Each time I stepped on one of this letters, I could hear the sound of it.

I stayed there for a few moment and decided to take off again. I saw another wormhole and entered it. I got to a different planet. It looked like the Earth, there were humans and everything, but the sky had three suns and it was red.

I entered a building and suddenly, the daylight turned into night. I decided to exit the building and fly to keep the dream stable, but I was loosing it fast. I got to the top to a building where there was a restaurant. The tables of this restaurant were round and they had white cloths. There were two servers who were dressed up in business professional. I also could hear a violin playing. It looked very upscale. My dream was almost gone, so I asked the server if I could borrow a towel. He told I could, they had spare ones. I started to rub my hands with the towel and my dream got stable again.

I once more entered the building to explore. It was pretty similar to what I explored before. I even found the Cola Cao again, and once more, it was made out of blue crystals. As I exited, I found the same plastic duck too.

As I exited, I saw the sun and decided to fly to it. It was very cloudy and I felt like not flying through the clouds or I would wake up due blurry vision, so I flew at super high speed. Soon, I was in space again and I could see the Sun. As I approach it, the dream ended extremely abruptly.

I had a FA and I wrote down the entire dream when after I while I woke up for real and almost forgot the whole dream.

16.05.2011

Short FA fragment (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had another FA. My wife was out of bed and she told me she was not sleepy anymore. It was around five AM in the morning (dream time) I told her about my dream and she asked me if there were beers. I told her I saw some people with beers, yes. She complained that beers could not be sold on the streets. I woke up for real.

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16.05.2011

MMA Fights (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in some place about fighting, possibly the MMA or some boxing place. The place was huge. There were big locks and chains. There were some training devices that were like videogames.

The screen was about 50 inches and it had several cameras. You had to fight (for real) with a guy and the device would say how good or bad you performed. I realized I am not a fighter but a more spiritual person. However, I wanted to give it a shot.

Some slender guy who was taller than me approached and got read to fight me. I was not afraid as I knew how to deal with tall people. This guy threw me a kick so I grabbed his leg and swept his other leg. As he fell to the ground, I fell on him, elbows first to do extra damage on his face, however, for some reason I hit his ribs. I started to punch his face, right, left, fight, left... His face was not damaged, but he fainted due the pain.

I was excited because I was going to be respected if I won two fights in a row. A friend congratulated me and told me my next opponent was coming up. Another male, who was African American approached at me. He looked very strong and sharp. My friend told me, "This one does not talk! Watch out!"

The fight was more like an MMA fight, the both of us got hit. Suddenly, this video game beeped indicating that we both were about to loose. I started to hit him stronger, but he blocked all my attacks when he hit me once. I was up for more, but the system told I lost. I could see some status indicating our damage. The other guy was 99% damaged. I was a little pissed as I almost won, but ended up loosing.

I went outside and told about this to a friend. My friend told me it was a strong one and that it was very good for me that I almost beat him.

I had a FA in my room and went ahead to write the dream now. The clock of the microwave was blue instea of its regular color. I turned lucid and decided to go for a flight. I got out from home and started to fly, however, I realized that my previous dream was too long to start a new one, so I wanted to wake myself up to write it down and then, induce a LD.

I had another FA in my room. I went to my microwave and instead of the time it had └■ [COLOR="#DC143C"]I felt a little annoyed because I did want to wake up, and opened the microwave assuming it would not lit up, it did not. I woke myself up again.