false awakening

Hoping that i will manage to synchronize my pc dream journal with the online dream journal, i will post all the lucids and favourited dreams. After that i ll try to keep the online journal up to date posting each new dream on time...

25.12.2010

Lucid #10 (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's morning. My mother in outside my room in the bathroom and she is using the hairdryer. I wake up and turn my cellphone on. I am really sleepy. I leave the phone next to me and close my eyes. I 've tried 2-3 times to wtbt during the night but i didn't succeed. This time i don't remember trying, or even thinking about it... Witout notice a girl friend of mine is lying next to me. I was lying on my right side in the same posture as when i was awake. She was lying behind my back, i couldn't see her. She is talking. It's like she's awake for quite some time. Her voice is clear and cheerful. I feel like we are a couple or sth. She asks me some totally random questions. As if she's a child that wants to learn RIGHT NOW why the snow is white. I moan "aha... yup.." trying to sleep. I still hear the haidryer. She get up and walks over me to get off the bed. I slap her ass for waking my up and i sit up. I stare at her as she's standing next to my wardrobe. After a while the situations starts to seem kinda weird... I do a nose RC. Most times everything gets crystal clear when i do that. This time everything gets burry but i am lucid. I try to look at her. She is still standing there and she 's looking at me, but i can't see her face. It's blurred out. I still hold my nose and breath, waiting to stabilize. I feel that dizziness coming, like the dream is fading away. I close really strong and open my eyes wide some times and after a few seconds the dream gets stabilized. I now see her. She has shorter hair and doesn't look like her waking version much but i know it's her. She comes near me, in front of my face and says: "HIIIII THEEEEEREEEE!". The dream fades. I wake up in the same posture i was before. Nose RC. Yup i 'm awake...

This one was messed up so bad - started off just me walking down the road with my friends into a pub - i ordered a beer and she said "just one minute i need it to refill" i saw a sort of glass chamber above the bar filling up with beer. After the one beer we decided to go back to my friends house, we were driving on the way home and i realised i was dreaming so i pushed my finger through my palm.

lucid:

so i flew out of the car and flew up into the sky, i changed the weather so it was from night time and a thunderstorm to a perfectly calm sunset with a nice red sky.
I then felt myself waking up so i started to vigerously rub my hands together - i felt like eyes close and everything go black - this was when i realised it was because i was waking up, i felt the sleep on my eyes as i struggled to open them and i lay awake in my bed - i pushed my finger through my palm just to make sure and i realised i was dreaming, i wanted to go back into the last dream - so dreaming - i closed my eyes and i could see the sky which i had made before i had "woken up" i instantly WILD'ed back into the last dream but then started to awake immediately.
I rubbed my hands but woke up again , so i pushed my finger through my palm with my eyes closed and felt it go through my palm. so i opened my eyes and felt myself waking up. - i lost lucidness here
I woke up in my friends car and it was raining and the roof was leaking and i was getting wet (forgot to RC because of this)
i took off my clothes and tried to get dry and all my friends were looking through the car window at me.

I woke up again in my bed and did another RC - i was really awake this time.

Dream - Lucid

I woke up in my bed. I looked out the window, and it was very cloudy. I looked at the stereo clock across from me (don't have that anymore in waking life). It read 11:30. SHIT! How did I sleep so long? I was supposed to have a final at 10, and now I was an hour and a half late. I wondered why the hell my alarm didn't go off. I looked at my phone. The alarm was still set. I tried to do an RC on the clock to see if I was dreaming, but it passed. Well this sucks.

I got up and started trying to figure out what to do. Then, the phone rang. I answered it. Some lady was asking me why I wasn't taking my final. I apologized and said I had slept in too late because my alarm didn't go off. She told me to just go ahead and get over there as fast as I could. I threw some clothes on and left.

As I got to the parking lot outside of the auditorium, I noticed a tornado forming in the parking lot. It spun for a bit then disappeared (I actually saw something like this happen in waking life a couple of days ago O_O). It then happened again. The clouds looked super ominous.

I got into the room I was supposed to be in for my test, and saw a line of students with notebooks and neatly organized papers going up to my teacher. Shit, I thought, I was supposed to have my notebook together for her. I frantically started trying to get my worksheets and stuff together. I got up to the teacher, and she told me I should have done that before now. I told her I knew. I started tearing sheets out of my workbook (don't have a workbook for that class in waking life) to put in order for the notebook. When I finished putting everything together, I handed it to her to check. There were candy wrappers all over and between the pages. As she was looking at it, I was cleaning up the wrappers.

I then remember sitting down in a classroom that looked very similar to one of my elementary school classrooms.

~

I was with Ryan. We were at my parents' house. We were trying to play Cupid and set a couple of people up on a date. I remember the guy being obese, and I think the girl was too. I remember seeing the guy in my parents' house. Him and Ryan were talking about cars.

I then remember Ryan and I looking at these receipt paper printouts that looked into the future of these people, and some other people as well. I remember Ryan talking about them spending 60 days of the summer together, but I corrected him and said it was winter break, because they had gotten together during the fall semester. He agreed with me.

Then, I remember being in my car with the obese guy beside me in the passenger's seat, and Ryan in the back. I reached for my sunglasses in the cup holder. The obese guy had to move for me to get them. I started to back out of the garage. I noticed my mirror was about to hit the edge of the garage as I was about to pull out. I pulled back up, adjusted my wheel, and tried again. Only I had adjusted the wheel way too much. I said
"I don't know why I can't back out of here!" I thought that Ryan was getting frustrated with me, because he's so into cars and driving.
I finally made it out.

Then, I was standing in a room with everyone. The obese guy was holding a very fat cat. He put it down, and I picked up an ugly brown argyle sweater that was sitting on something behind me, and I threw it on the cat. The cat started walking around with it draped over him. Someone asked if the sweater would fit the cat. I said
"It's a size 24!" We all seemed to agree that it would fit the cat. We laughed.

I remember driving down the street, and seeing that the sky was very cloudy. I saw a piece of dark cloud stuck to some telephone wires. Then, as I drove a little further, I saw a few people standing on the side of the road. One had a little dog on a leash. A tornado formed above them. I thought they were screwed, but they just stood there as if nothing was happening. As the tornado disappeared, it got smaller and smaller. It was then very tiny, and stuck to one of the guys' shoe. He started trying to shake it off.

Lucidity: 8/10
Vividness: 9/10
Length: ~20 Min.

I became lucid and started to talk to this girl, I wanted to have sex with her, but she said "no." She said that she was also lucid. I was very excited. Then, after that. I was holding a camera, walking around listening to other people's conversations. Then all of a sudden I was in a lab where they use a divice that makes you lucid dream. For some reason, some guy was upset that I was there. But let me proceed with the lucid dreaming thing anyways. Then I was walking in a large room with Zach. While we were I was thinking about my body for some reason while Zach was looking a bushes. Then I was vs. some guy, I believe it was Saskae from Naruto. I was slower than him, he was gaining speed each corner. I was suprised. Then I found out that I was in someone else's dream. Then I was trying to send a post card or something to myself. I didn't understand why. But some people wanted my flash drive for some reason. Then I was in a large building and someone grabbed my flash drive from me and started tearing it up. It contained information of lucid dreaming. Then I had the flash drive again for some reason and was blocking a door from somebody. Someone set up a timer for me so I would wake up. It said 17:03 and counting. I really wanted to wake up for some reason. I had a false awakening. I thought I was on my computer and was distributing the data from the flash drive onto the computer. I asked my dad if they could stop it and he said "no." It was about 70GB or more. But it worked, I could view pictures and videos as I'd like. But then I was dreaming again and desired some pussy. And for some reason I couldn't find a girl to fuck. Then I woke up. Trying to DEILD but I believe failed.

I am a lucid dreamer.

My dreams are mostly lucid, and the ones where I don't feel I am dreaming are just as vivid and realistic. I always feel an underlying tone of control in my dreams.

Dream - Lucid

I was with Ryan. I remember there being 3 children, 2 girls and a boy. For some reason, we had to buy them each 2 gifts: An article of clothing, and a toy. They gave us lists of what they wanted. We were shopping for them at Old Navy. I remember seeing that the youngest girl wanted these purple-striped panties. I found a pair, but they had multi-colored stripes instead of purple. I looked for the purple ones, but they were out. I picked the multi-colored ones off of the shelf. They looked like a thong. I thought that they were NOT age appropriate, because the girl was so young. I mentioned something about it to Ryan, saying I couldn't believe what 'kids these days' were wearing or something.

I then remember telling Ryan we could get the shopping done faster if we split up, and I went and found the shampoo (??) and he went and got the clothes. We started shopping that way, but somehow ended up shopping together again. I remember wishing that the store had the purple-striped panties, because the girl really wanted them. I kept picking up the multi-colored ones, and finally deciding to get those.

Then, I remember something about a girl named Twila ('twi' as in 'twilight'). I remember being in a room with her and a lot of other girls. She had long, wavy blonde hair. I remember her being at a table with some codine pills on it. I compared her to some girl I used to be friends with in high school named Stephanie.

Then, I remembered that I hadn't bought a toy for the youngest girl. I hadn't been able to find what she wanted, which was some "My Little Pony" doll. The kids all already had their gifts. I decided I needed to go to their house and tell them that I was going to get the youngest girl a toy.

I got to the house, which was at the end of a cul de sac. I had to climb a ladder to get up to the entrance of the house. I got up there, and the parents saw me. They wanted to kill me because I hadn't bought a toy for the youngest child. I tried to explain myself, but they wouldn't listen. They didn't seem angry either; they were eerily calm about it.

I then remember running away and trying to hide from them over and over, but they kept finding me. I remember the father flashing a pair of surgical scissors (not sure what to call them) at me, and I thought to myself "Face your fears, nothing can hurt you right now". It was implied that I was dreaming, and I recognized it, but I still ran from the man, forgetting my thought.

At one point, I was back in the main room of the house that you entered after climbing the ladder. I saw the youngest girl. She had blonde hair, big eyes, and looked like she was about 3 or 4 years old. I knelt down to her height. She said something about me not getting her a toy. She seemed sad. I told her that I was going to get her one, and I promised I would. She looked hopeful, and said
"Really?"
I told her yes, I would.

While I was talking to her, her father found me again. I knew it was only a matter of time. I remember then running to the entrance to the house, and going down the ladder. At some point, I remember trying to transform into Link from the Zelda games, cause then I could kick some ass. I remember seeing Kacey down at the bottom, standing in the cul de sac. I feel like there were many other people there as well. I was talking to and looking at Kacey, when I remembered my thought from earlier.

It's a dream! But I like this dream, do I really want to be lucid right now? I guess I could forget and keep seeing where the dream takes me...no, I haven't been lucid in awhile...fuck it! I looked at Kacey's face. She smiled at me. She looked beautiful. I started to laugh, rubbed my hands together, and took off into the air. I flew above trees. I said
"I can fly! Why? Because I'm dreaming! I can do whatever I want!!"

I then remember feeling the dream fade. I was then down at a very clear river that was located in a field of very green grass. I was standing next to Link. He told me he was "pandering" for gold in the river. He gave me 3 green leaves, one small, one medium, and one large. I then knew he used those to "pander" for gold. I looked into the clear river. Many golden flakes and specks floated by.

Then, I "woke up" and started to type out my dream on my mom's laptop. I was sitting downstairs in the living room. I started to write about how the dream had started with Link and I "pandering" for gold, and me turning into Link at some point.

I then "woke up" again. I repeated the same process. I had to minimize a ton of my mom's files on her computer, because she had a ton of them open. I started looking for my dream, I thought maybe I had saved it as a draft to finish typing later. When I couldn't find it, I knew I had had an FA and was kinda irritated about having to type everything again.

This happened a third time before I finally actually woke up.

I had a false awakening and saw this grandmotherly old lady in my room. I took it as normal and greeted her. She ripped off her head, grew it back and gave me the old one as a keeper. Next i was walking in my room from another room and saw it decorated for Halloween very early. I asked why and she said she like it. Then we where in my art class at school and she was talking to my art teacher. I looked at the old head I had, now shrunken and starting to rot in wonder. I then started eating it and got puzzled as to why there was no skull, then then threw what was left away.

27.04.2011

My microwave is spoiled! (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a FA at home. I recalled I needed to write down some dreams, so I went to my kitchen table. I opened the microwave's door to get light when it started to work, but with no light. I started to take pieces away. I found rubble and junk inside, in addition of grease and spoiled food.

I explained my mom what was going on with the microwave and she told me she would take care of it. I was at my parent's home and my parents were at the sofa. My mom told me I needed to talk to the doctor about Lucid Dreaming.

I told my mom there was no need to. She told me I needed to be more grounded on the physical plane. I told her it was the worse plane of all, that I rather enjoyed my stay and the Astral or Etheric planes.

I had a FA in my room. I turned lucid and tried to exit home. I was already floating, so I went outside and took a flight. It was dark out and I flew over the neighborhood. I wanted to Astral Project, but lost the dream.

27.04.2011

I own the moon (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a FA and I found myself at work. I was having a staff reunion and the store was closed and totally dark. However, I suddenly noticed there were three customers. I told the customers I was not lucid during the dream.

I had another FA and realized I was dreaming. I decided to fly to make my dream stable. I flew to the moon and it was awfully small. I could see how dark was the moon, and also found some source of light being generated.

I also saw three more moons in the sky and other one in front of me. I also found myself on the Great Canyon.

I focused in projecting, but I lost consciousness (or lucidity)

27.04.2011

One month dream (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a room and I decided to go to bed. I slept for a month and I had some dreams about homes and forests. I also had a different looking wife.

I had a FA in my grandma house. All my family was there and we were about to party. I went to a grocery store and felt very rested. I wanted to repeat something. I also wanted to share something.

i am on the way to a job interview and i meet the other people going for the job at a bus stop. They both appeared older and more competent than me and it was very worrying
then i had a weird false awakening type thing in which i heard a knock on my door and woke up suddenly.

Me and my friends Kristopher and Coty were outside skateboarding and my brother got introuble with my mom. i went inside the next thing i know is im in my bed then i hade a false awakening i was in the same thing the same dream but i remember going into my grandmothers room and my brother found this black remote my remotes in the house allways have black bottoms but this one hade a blue bottom the two remotes were now in my room. i remember saying in my dream. "I will remember my dream" ..and i shut my eyes. in my dream avatar the last airbender was on the television when i shut my eyes in my dream i could see the little lights flashing on the tv through my eye lids in my dream i woke with my eyes still shut and i noticed the light was just stopped through my eyelids it was white i said in my mind "what the" and opened my eyes a whole different show was on im suprized i didnt figure out i was dreaming because the whole time in my dream i was laying down with my mom sitting next to me in a wooden chair..

I am watching a video on my Zune about McGruff the crime dog, he's helping me take a bite out of crime. He is warning me about the dangers of dream gangs in my neighborhood. He says that they are going to come and snatch my dreams. I went out to the car carrying a big blanket with my earbuds in. My focus was parked on a side street. .I wrapped the blanket around me as I looked for my car. There was a group of women around and they were looking for their cars too. It was nighttime on the street. I found my car and put some weezer on my zune. I was getting ready to go to sleep when one woman told me not to sleep over there or the gangbangers would find me. I looked back up and saw a bunch of scary dudes prowling all over the cars. That's when the old tan van with the hippy couple pull up and ask me if I need a ride. I said sure.

I get in the van and there's no seats in the back, just a mattress on the bed of the van. The girl is driving and the guy is sitting shotgun. They are singing. I lie down on the mattress and put on the video and try to watch some of it. There is a cartoon oak tree sitting in a meadow with a blue sky. A male voice says "I want to tell you about lucid dreaming. You could be lucid dreaming right now." They ask me if this is my house and I look outside the van. It is. I thank them and I get out of the van.

I walk up to the front door and my key doesn't work. I walk around the back and there's a new cement patio and lots of construction. I see a little girl and I realize that this isn't my house. It starts to rain. A Little blonde girl comes out of a sliding glass door and asks me what I'm doing. I say that I'm just a little lost but please not to tell anybody, I am going to leave as soon as I figure out a way to cover up my Zune and figure out where my house is. I put the zune in my pocket and walk over to my house.

When I get to my house it's morning time. I walk inside the back door and people are sitting in my kitchen around the table laughing and looking at papers. Ed Helms is reading from a list of my lucid dreams and laughing every couple of seconds. I sit at the table and put on my zune again. I see the Tree in the meadow and an apple falls from the tree. The voice speaks. "there are many ways to find out if you are dreaming. You could be dreaming right now" then I wake up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I've been having dreams lately, but I just haven't had the time to write them down. I'm going to try and get better about it.

Most of this dream has to do with a green colored cell phone. It starts out (from what I can remember) with me on a cruise ship. My family and I realize that Katy Perry is there, so we go to the main gym of the ship and wait for her. She comes in and looks like what I imagined. She then starts to talk to people about how there are a lot of people who helped her get to where she is now. She starts to introduce all of the people (the people she introduces are people who were once friends of mine, but aren't any more. I don't seem to notice in the dream).

The dream skips around from there, and I'm walking to a class with some friends. One of them asks why I could possibly need a new phone. I tell them that my old one was crap- and it was just time. I'm then sitting down with a friend in the lunch look (it looks like the real lunch room, not fake lunch rooms that have been in my dreams). Me and the friend I was talking to just keep talking about the whole phone thing. I don't really remember much of what we were saying though.

I then get up and leave to go to class. I'm talking with another one of my friends about Graphic Design and what we are going to be doing that day. After a while of walking with him, I realize that I'm going to the wrong class. I ask him what period it is and he tells me. I turn around and start running. (I don't remember what class he said).

All of the sudden I wake up. It's strange though, I'm just standing in the middle of a white space. The white is blinding and I can't see anything but the same white color. I do a reality check and realize that this is a dream and I just had an FA. I immediately wake up after I realize I'm dreaming.

I wake up again and have a FA, I'm in my bed this time and everything looks normal. I'm so excited I grab my laptop and log onto DV to change the amount of lucid's I have.

Then I wake up for real. I wish I had dream control and when I realize I'm dreaming, I don't wake up right then.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a grocery store/office building. Everyone was lined up at these tables all over the store. We were all in pairs. The person I was with, a guy, was making smoothies with weed in them. He made us each one, and we drank them. They tasted slightly sweet, but mostly earthy. We were trying to avoid being caught.

Then, the guy was my friend Melody. She wanted to buy more weed, but didn't have the money. Her dealer was there, this big guy. He was asking her for money and she was begging to pay him later. I told her I could contribute $20 but that's it, and she would have to give me some of the weed. She kept saying "Thank you! Thank you so much!". The dealer gave me the baggie of weed. The problem was, I didn't have the $20 on me; I had to go to the bank to get it. I tried to give it back to him until I had my money, but he gave it back to me.

I then remember being outside my house in the driveway. It was dusk. I was waiting for my motorcycle to come back so I could get back to the store/office with the money. There were lots of people there waiting for their motorcycles to return. Funny thing was, no one was manning the cycles; they were just driving up and people were getting on them. I then had someone warn me to not go back to town, because "everything was getting smashed". I felt like I had heard about this, but still decided I needed to get back.

I got back to the building. Melody had a sheet from her dealer that she had to fill out since she didn't have the money, explaining why she didn't. She pulled out a pipe. It looked similar to mine, but had a much bigger bowl. She packed it and started smoking. She passed it to me. I took a hit, then heard, saw, and felt something.
Thump.
My perpective changed and I saw a wall being shaken.
Thump.
I looked up. The ceiling was glass above me. Through the glass, I saw a piece of construction equiptment. It was what was causing all the destruction in town; it had malfunctioned and was out of control. I remember someone referring to it as a "hammer". It was very tall and yellow. It was barelling towards us. There was a clamour to get to the basement; we all ran downstairs as part of the machine came crashing through the glass ceiling. Glass was flying everywhere. I hoped to not get cut, but thought that it would be better than being crushed. I remember being huddled with Melody in a small corner.

Then, just as we thought the whole thing was over, the whole machine fell down into the building. I thought it was going to land on me, but it landed right in front of me instead. It had trapped some of my friends under it. I remember seeing my old friend Cameron trapped under the huge machine. He was crying out for help, a pained look on his face. I reached out to him.
"Cameron!", I cried. Many people were reaching out to help him. I remember people touching his face.
Then, I saw my friend Jason trapped as well.
"Jason!", I cried out. I reached out to grab his hand.

I then remember typing out this dream in my DJ here on DV. I remember typing out a weird title in the "Title" box. I worried about the drug content of the dream being discovered by my college.

~

I was in Ryan's van with him. We were parked next to my neighbor's house. There was a van parked next to us with two older women sitting in it. They looked like they were up to something. Ryan and I were trying to figure something out or we were talking or something, and after awhile, the ladies were still there in their van. Hmm...

Then, I remember walking through the halls of what looked like my elementary school. I saw two dead dogs in the hallway. One was a big brown dog, and the other was a small Beagle laying in a space under my neighbor's mailbox. It was like I was inside and outside at the same time. I then knew that the ladies had killed the dogs and left them there. I remember seeing a few girls crowded around the dead Beagle and patting its head. I thought that maybe he was still alive.

I then remember talking to Ryan. He mentioned a brown dog named Espresso, and I told him that dog was the dead dog in the street/hallway. He gave me a weird, surprised look. He said
"Oh...", and then something else...can't remember what.
I remember then telling him that was what the ladies in the van next to us were doing. Either they dumped them there or they placed them there and ran them over.

I then remember being under some pavilion outside. It was after my first class of the day, and it had a bunch of booths set up for food. I remember looking at one line and seeing two people from high school: Megan and Daniel. They were apparently dating. I remember seeing Daniel wearing a white shirt with small flower shapes cut out of it. I thought about this for awhile: Why would he be wearing that? He's a dude. I examined the sleeves. They weren't ruffled or anything. I decided he was just wearing whatever he wanted.

I then turned around and saw a Chik-Fil-A booth. I wanted lunch, but they were only giving out biscuits and some nuggets. I remember hearing someone say something about a biscuit being a "snack".