false awakening

I'm sitting in class across from Milan and we're playing paper football, ignoring a nonsensical and hypocritical rant from Ms. Kaminiarz. I hear her ask Dennis to go write something on the board and whilst he's up there, he tells a joke. Everyone finds it hilarious, I hardly laugh. Some girl starts up a conversation with me about school and I notice Tawnya glancing over with an annoyed look. I get the impression that she think I`m interested in this girl but I'm not. A little while later, I notice someone rubbing/massaging my back. It strikes me as odd and I'm not sure who it is; I have a feeling it's the girl to my right (the DC named Courtney from a few previous dreams) but then I go "it couldn't be, what would she want with me?"I decide that it's probably Courtney (from Caf class) who's sitting behind. I can't remember what happened next but I know I had a false awakening after.

I'm not sure but I think this was my subconscious trying to tell me to stop settling for less.

I realized that surrendering to the moment in a dream can bring true bliss if you are in the right setting (flying or better yet just falling). Instead of thinking of what to do or thinking of how to do it, just let go and dream in the NOW. this is the second time i have experienced this state of bliss threw lucid dreaming (wilds)

Last night:

I do a wbtb and induce a WILD. 90% of my wilds i enter the dream falling either from the sky or falling threw space. last night i entered the dream falling threw space, it was a dull version of space but instead of making commands to increase clarity i decide im just going to let it flow. I just surrendered to the moment and the joy of being inside of a dream. I then began to push my momentum without alot of effort into a flipping motion. i was doing long slow flips threw space with my body fully extended and my arms stright out, all while falling at about 100 MPH. feeling the wind on my body and the freedom of dreaming. I cant put into words the freedom i felt. after a good 5 minutes of this i stop the spin and yell "increase clarity now" the dream then becomes more vivd and to my saprise im about to crash land onto earth. i then pulled my flight up barley skimming the ground. i fly around the town for a moment deciding what to do (land or keep flying) I see an old lady walking on the street so i decide to talk to her. I land and yell (HEY!!) as she looked back at me she tripped and fell down. i couldnt help but to lauph... come on its a dream. I then ask her what she represents in my dream? she gave me a good answer but i cant remember do to a very long F.A

The point im trying to make is that it can be a better time just letting go rather than trying to complete a bunch of goals...I am fairly new to lucid dreaming but i have ben meditating for 5 years and The pure nirvana state that i reached threw this dream cannot be reached on earth, i can promise that.

Dream Journal #12 May 13th, 2011

First dream I remember was being in a car with my mom and we were taking Ian home. We took a shortcut and she did not trust me with the way to go, and we were going like 1 mph so that made me really frusturated and angry lol.

edit: afterWBTB

Had my 2nd lucid yet! Followed by another FA lol.

this one was awesome, and I had a LOTTT more dream control and stabability this time!!! omg lucid dreaming is fucking great. hahaha.

so it started off with me looking at the clock once again. This was a DILD- I’m sure of it. I was in a FA, and I looked at the clock. There was NO time whatsoever, it was just blank. At first, I was going to let this slide.. I was about to say, oh shit my clock died. But then it hit me- I realized I was dreaming. All of a sudden I felt this rush all over my body! The same feeling from my first lucid dream. Everything became way more clear this time, and vivid. I tried to put my “dream glasses” on but nothing really ever came out when i pretended to put glasses on lol. It started out dark in my room again. I went to the bathroom and I almost lost lucidity… but I tried to turn on the switch for the light. No light. Gained my lucidity again. Went back into my room and for some reason the light was on this time lol. My mind was just blown at how everything seemed so real. I looked at the mirror and my face was all weiird and out of proportion lol. Normally this would scare me but I knew I was dreaming so it really didn’t scare me at all. I looked at my hands too! My hands like fucking 10,000 fingers LOL. I was absolutely sure I was dreaming this time. At this point the dream started to fade.. I saw it fading right before my eyes. I rubbed my hands. Wasn’t working. So I found the new solution to stabilizing my dream: Rub my hands AND spin at the same time. I found that this worked absolutely well, the dreamscape did not change and I was back in the dream.

My phone was on my bed, and someone was calling me. It was some weird contact… the words didnt make sense and there was no number. I answered it. All I heard was static I think- again, this sounds scary, but I knew I was dreaming, so none of it frightened me at all. I was like “whatever” and hung up lol. I then tried to summon a pretty girl in my room. That failed. So I was like whatever again.

Then, I wanted to fly. So i opened my window, and I thought “man.. what if this doesnt work, I start to fall, and I wake up?” But again, my mentality was like “whatever” (thats just the kind of person i am). So I stepped on my window frame, jumped like super high rofl, grabbed the roof of my house, and jumped off of it. I started to fall a little bit- but then I remembered I have to believe. So I started to flap my arms, and I started flying! Fucking best feeling of my life lol. The view was so awesome outside my house as well. I was mountains from the far distance and the moon and stars were shining. It was kind of hard to control though, because I would flap my arms once and sometimes I would go a bit too far up or forward really fast. I fixed this somewhat. I then realized that my neighbor was a hot lesbian. I flew on their roof (actually they had no roof, I flew right through it). She was making out with this other hot lesbian, and they took their clothes off. My dream started to fade again LOL so I started spinning and rubbing my hands at the same time. It stabilized again. The two girls started to go outside to their backyard, where there was snow… somehow it became winter and there was snow everywhere now. They started to begin making out there again fully naked. This is where I eventually woke up into my false awakening.

My false awakening wasnt as bad. I was not lucid however. I was typing out my dream on my dream journal and talking to my cousin that I just had a lucid dream. That’s all I really remember. Oh, and my dad walked in the door to wake me up to go to school. Then I really woke up- kind of confused. I almost forgot that I had a lucid dream when I woke up from my FA lol. Turns out I was only asleep for around 40 minutes- I’m not sure when the dream started though.

Yay for 2nd lucid

I was at some strange doctors office. I remember him wearing a lab coat and seeing Zac from school to. The room color was in the cool color range, I don't remember exact colors.
I then zoned into a different part of the dream. I was in a hallway, the floor was brown wooded planks and it had 3 paths leading to doors, The walls where white. It was like looking on a 2d game screen. To the north a door on the left hand side, south a hall way, left a wall and right another hall way. The door that was seen had a dull metal color to it. I knew a zombie came through earlier, so I made note of that. I also knew the BIG CHEESE from Resident Evil 4 was coming from the south. Before he came I woke up outside the doctors office still dreaming. I entered his office to tell him about my dream and I took and ate a lolly pop. The lolly pop was very realistic. The dream ended.

I "woke" up and walked to my rooms doorway and saw a guy in a lab coat being crushed by a big zombie like monster. The house was unusually dark for a dream. I "woke" up again and went to my mom's room to talk with her and I felt an evil presence. I saw a monster that looks like long black hair resting on moms head. I said "I guess this will be a problem with everyday life." Mom agreed with me. I then saw a giant spider make outs the black hair like substance, walking and hissing as if about to strike. The dream ended.

I had a dream that I was being shown through a prison.
I was expecting to see a horrible place but they were living in the lap of luxury. The inmates, while still dressed in the orange jump suits, had flat screen TVs, exercise equipment, nice tables and furniture with beautifully designed interior and exterior spaces, made of mostly hard wood. Plus all of them were walking around calmly and politely, not a care in the world.
I turn to the person showing me around and say "What the hell! These people are living better than I do, I should just get arrested!"

On the way out I see some one wearing close that I have. As she gets closer I realize it is me. Slowly many of me show up all dressed differently with cloths I have irl. It is at this point I realize I'm dreaming. I run around happy that I am lucid for awhile until I decide what to do. I take control of all the other mes and take a sky view of the area I spell "I am awesome" with all the mes on the ground (I hindsight I have no idea why, but it is funny) and go right into a false awakening.

I "wake up" in the kitchen in what I would best describe as a mix beween a dentist chair, a therapist couch, and the personality imprint chair from the show doll house. I turn and tell my roommate irl S that I went lusid and she gives me a high five. I go back to "sleep" and have another dream that I don't remember.

Early this morning I read an artical in the German dream-forum about dreamapps in iPod. Two hours later I have dreamed about dreamapps or my iPod 4 times! For example:

I awake in the morning and want to speake a dream in my iPod. Then I see the iPod is on and shows a forgein app. As I try to switch to memo nothing happens. I look to the battery icon and see no power. I remember the iPod was the hole night on and so no wonder... As I will stand up to connect the iPod with the pc I awake up and realized that I have a FE .

I FINALLY GOT LUCID!!!

hahaha. Alright. So I used the WBTB method, didn’t think it would work, but it did! And wow it is like an experience of no other. I also think I had an OBE because I felt as if I was trying to escape my realistic body.

So here’s how it started. Woke up around 5 am, peed. Went to dreamviews.com, browsed a little bit for 20 minutes and went back to bed. I tried to WILD, but at that point I was already too awake because I had splashed my face with cold water, so I just told myself “I’m going to lucid tonight” and let my concious fade away so that I could fall asleep.

I had mini-dreams, ALL about lucid dreaming. The most vivid one I remember was me being at school in the quad, and ALL my friends were talking about lucid dreaming. What technique they were using, how they did it, if they ever had a lucid, etc. Then one of my friends comes to me and tells me, “Did you know you’re dreaming right now?” And as soon as he said that, I tried to recollect my thoughts. How did I get to school? That was all it took for me to become lucid. As soon as I became lucid though, I had a false awakening! I went non-lucid.

Although I had a false awakening, I didn’t open my eyes. I just knew that the dream had ended. Actually, now that I think about it- I don’t think this is where the FA started. I might have DEILD’ed accidentally, but as soon as the dream ended it went black. After a while of blackness (I was very unconcious, I think SP was happening here), I felt as if I was trying to rip myself off my body. Makes no sense, but that’s what it felt like. I was trying to tear away from my sleeping body. And as soon I was doing this, I immediately knew I was dreaming. No RC, nothing. I sat up on my bed, and I was like… holy shit, I’m dreaming. I look at the clock, 3:!5 am? HELL YES, I am truly dreaming. The time switched before my eyes also. I went from 3:15 am to 2:00 am to 4:00 am all in like 10 seconds. I woke up in the dark so I found the dream to be a little unclear and unvivid- but my senses were 100% REAL. At the back of my head I was like, if I move, I know that I’ll feel my real body moving too- but that wasn’t the case. I decided to move my hand, and I didn’t wake up! It was if I had 10 senses, 2 of each. I felt my real hand staying still and not moving, and I felt my dream hand moving around. At this point I wanted to clear the dream up and stabilize it, and maybe change the dreamscape. I tried rubbing my hands together, and focused on the feeling. Rubbing my hands definitely felt as real as waking life- although I couldn’t really even see my hands clearly. It was like a motion blur as I was doing it. It didn’t work though, because I was closing my eyes trying really hard to stabilize the dream lol, which was a big mistake. I have no idea why I even tried to close my eyes because I knew that if I did I might wake up.

I woke up twice, both into the false awakenings. I remember music playing and my laptop wide open right next to me (the laptop was actually the sun shining down on me and the music.. i have no idea.) I barely opened my eyes and tried to go back lucid. It worked. I had gone back to the same exact dreamscape as before, except this time, it was a nightmare. I felt as if there were going to be demons spawned around me and I’d die. As soon as I felt this, however, I was like “Oh this is just a dream” and it stopped. Again, I tried to stabilize the dream but I failed. This was my biggest failure- I was like, I wonder how real it would feel if I took off all my clothes and touched my penis. Dumb, I know, but hey, I was dreaming. The dream soon faded as soon as I took my clothes off, and I awoke in my real body because this bright light was just annoying the hell out of me, which I thought was coming from my laptop. As I opened my eyes, I realized it was the sun, which made me conclude that I was also in a FA (I had seen the laptop with my FA eyes).

All in all, I’m proud of myself for becoming lucid. The next step is dream control baby

Date:08-25-10
Length: 2 Minutes
Vividness: 6/10

I was at my friend Graham's house, except it was way different looking.
I was talking to his mom, Jane, about a computer game that I was playing, except it had to do with questions about my sex life somehow.
She commented on how my bones were not strong enough and that I should drink more milk.

I had a false awakening into another dream where I was in my room with an alarm clock playing the Hip-Hop radio station 103.3 on my desk.
I reached upwards and turned on the stereo on my drawers too.

-frenchblablabla

09.05.2011

More Fire song (L-DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a FA in my room. I found funny that my L-DEILD technique failed, as it was fail-proof... I decided to write down my dreams, so I went to the kitchen table and opened the microwave for light... but it never opened.

I looked around and my vision was very blurry, found it out but I thought I might be tired. My wife woke up and said what I was doing up in the middle of the night. I told her the Microwave was not working, that I might been dreaming. She told me to stop talking junk and to go back to bed, that the microwave always worked bad (it does on my dreams, lol) I told her that I did not feel awake. I jumped a couple times but did not levitate. My wife got mad at me and started to talk out loud. I showed her my hand and told me, "So, having four tiny fingers is normal for you?" She said, "Yes" and kept complaining I just crushed the door and left flying while my wife was arguing.

It was day now and I decided to fly at high speed. I was about to look for Dreamer when I reached a big home where I met with my brother. I told my brother to compose a song about fire for me, to make my song longer.

My brother said he needed inspiration. I invited him to do pyrokinesis. His hands started to release smoke, but never fire. However, he said:

- Oh fiiiiiiiiiiireeeeeeeeee,
you destroy treeeeeeeeeeeeees,
make them fall
crash some trains
carrying teeeeeeeeees!

My brother said he needed a fire costume. He said he needed to go home to look for one. I touched him hoping his outfit would change, without success. He insisted in leaving. I told him that he was not my real brother as we were not sharing a dream. If he left, he would vanish. He left so I decided to fly away and look for Dreamer when I woke up.

Dream - Lucid

I remember being with a friend I met last semester, Windy. We were outside taking a Data Analysis test. The only way I knew it was Data Analysis was because my teacher from that class was giving the test. It was a strange test; we had to go to different "stations" and answer questions about the stations. It was a lot of fill-in-the-blank. I remember feeling pretty good about most of the test.

Then, Windy and I got to a station where I remember there being a GIANT pair of scissors, and a measuring tape that was outstretched a few feet. Windy was trying to get the scissors to cut, but it was proving to be very difficult, seeing as they were so huge. She finally, slowly got them to cut. They severed the measuring tape. She had to go tell the teacher what she had accidentally done.

At some point during all this, I remember seeing my face in the mirror, and seeing that the right half of it looked weird and saggy. My eye looked really messed up. I started to freak out, thinking my Bell's Palsy had come back. I remember asking my mom if my eye looked weird. I don't remember what she said. I do remember trying to move my face a few times though, and the right side would barely move.

~

I then woke up, and decided as I was drifting back off that I was going to become lucid. I felt my body fall asleep, and I entered another dream.

Windy was there again. It took me a minute to get my bearings, but I remembered I needed to reality check. I did my finger count, and ended up with 8 or 9 fingers. I was dreaming! I said to Windy
"Windy...look at your hands!"
She did indeed look at them, and a look of wonder came over her face.
"I have 6 fingers!", she said.
"It's because you're dreaming!", I replied.
She laughed and said something else, though I can't remember exactly what it was.

I then remember us having to rescue all these people who were in prison who were innocent. We started the mission, but I woke up.

Or at least I thought I did. I was still dreaming as I woke up standing in some room. Some guy was in there with me. He was talking, though I can't remember what he was saying. I closed my eyes and "fell back asleep" into the dream I had been in before and was immediately lucid.

I was outside somewhere. I kept examining my hands and rubbing them together to ensure that I stayed lucid and aware. Sometimes, though, I counted 5 fingers and would have to redo my check.

Anyway, I wanted to walk on some clouds. I saw some light blue and purple-tinted clouds spilling over the ground, and started to approach them. I climbed up the low, spilling clouds as if they were solid. I remember wanting some special boots to walk on them with, and I remember then having them.

I then "woke up" in the other dream again. I "fell back asleep" and continued my lucid dream.

I was then on the ground again, and I think Windy was there. I remember wanting her to fly with me, but I never asked her to. I remember her laughing as I took off. I started to climb higher and higher into the air. I started to feel like I was going too high and the dream would get lost, so I lowered myself a bit and watched the ground below me. I remember seeing lots of clouds covering a pale blue and pale purple-lit land.

The land then started to disappear until there were only clouds. It was then a cloud world-type place. As I flew, I spotted little islands in the clouds. It was a very beautiful sight. I remember trying to land on an island, but I was flying too fast or something and couldn't get my timing right to land.

Another "wake up" in the other dream. "Fell back asleep".

I was then on the ground. I tried to remember some of my lucid goals, but they were so hard to access. I remembered then that I wanted to try to get to Teraluna with my new portal system. I couldn't find a wall anywhere, so decided to try to draw one in midair.

*Sigh*...another "wake up" and "falling back to sleep" episode.

The next thing I remember is we had rescued all of the innocent prisoners from before. I can't really remember how we did it, I just knew that we had done it. I remember seeing some in a cave with some water running through it. Their prison cell was behind them.

~

I was going to have to go to trial...about my mom's oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. I was appealing a decision that had already been made against my mom. Something about the cookies being misleadingly unhealthy or something to that effect. The person filing against my mom? My first real boyfriend's mom, R.

I remember preparing for the case, which was going to take place in my old high school's auditorium on the stage. I remember not understanding wtf was going on, and why R would do this. It was extremely stupid.

I then remember being on the stage, sitting in a chair. I had a lawyer behind me, and R, also sitting in a chair, had a Lawyer behind her as well. There was no judge or jury present, it was just us 4. I remember R presenting her case. She had a tray full of different kinds of cookies. There were a few that looked old and dark brown. I thought those must be my mom's. I thought "Wait...mom hadn't baked cookies for her in months...those must be from the last trial!". I interrupted R and said
"Aren't those cookies from the last time?", to which she replied
"Yes..."
I then yelled
"Then that evidence doesn't count! That doesn't count!"
I remember her trying to go on about how my mom bakes cookies for her every week and a half. I yelled
"Well, if you don't like them or whatever, why do you keep taking them from my mom? Why don't you just ask her to stop baking for you?"
She just looked at me with this sad, pitiful look on her face. She said something about needing the money. I started going into a rage and started throwing things at her while screaming at her at the same time. I remember some small, chubby child with glasses being there too. I threw stuff at her as well. I was fucking pissed.

I then remember being on some ride. I was sitting in a chair as it went through this flooded hallway. It was about to go down one passage, but a voice said that it couldn't, because it was a dead end. It had to go down some stairs instead. It was supposed to pretend to kill you. I remember someone else being there, I'm pretty sure it was Ryan. I had ridden it before, and knew it was all a part of the ride, but he didn't. He thought I was really going to die. I didn't tell him otherwise, I just decided to let him find out.

The chair took my down the flooded stairs. I ended up at the bottom, and pretended to be dead. Something then happened, something involving an airplane, someone trying to act like this puppet thing was real (it wasn't very convincing). I don't remember details of this part. It was really weird. It was kind of like a video game boss in a way.

So, It's like I am watching the end of a movie like a 2012 movie or something and this face comes across a little black girls face in the back seat of a car. It was night time outside which didn't make the feelings i was having any better. The feeling that something was going to happen and the feeling that aliens were among me at that moment. As this girl's face starts to twist in fear, There's a flash and a meteor hits straight into earth. The flash was amazing, almost real. I woke up out of the dead sleep so fast I was up on my feet in seconds and my boyfriend was asking me what I was doing.... All I could say was.... This dying thing is really getting annoying.

Date: 08-29-10
Length: 5 Minutes
Vividness: 10/10

I woke up on the living room couch to the sound of knocking on the front door.
People came in.
Then a really weird thing happened, the exact same event looped over, people knocked and came in again.
I thought to myself how weird this was, and how it doesn't make sense in real life so I thought, "This must be a dream!"

I became lucid

I opened my eyes and saw the living room wall all distorted and messed up, then everything went normal again…

I thought I was in my actual living room, awake.
I got up thinking to myself about how I could've let yet another lucid dream slip from me.
I ran over to my sister Marin, and told her all about it…
Then I woke up in real life.

-frenchblablabla

Date: 08-20-10
Length: 30 Seconds
Vividness: 10/10

I woke up and tried to look at the clock, but the numbers were all jumbled (I should've realized it was a dream).
I asked my girlfriend Dakota what time it was.
She said it was 10:30, even though last night I set an alarm so I could wake up at 7:30.

I got up and walked over to the door, but woke up.

-frenchblablabla

So I had my first false awakening today.. crazy because it seemed really real in my dream! I had fallen asleep normally, hoping that my subconcious would be aware that I was dreaming. In fact, the opposite happened. Fell asleep, and awoke around 2-3 am in the morning, I was like ughh and went back to sleep. This is where I had my false awakening. I woke up again, this time in my dream. I swear it felt real. I had also taken 300% vitamin b6 before bed. When I woke up in my bed, it was dark and everything so I couldn’t really see anything, but the feeling I got was pretty realistic. I looked at the time, and this time, it said 12:00 am! I was like WTF? Last time I woke up it was around 2-3 am. I’m so mad at myself for not relooking at the clock, because I only glanced at it once. I eventually concluded that when I woke up around 2-3 am, THAT was a false awakening, so I was like “hmm, whatever.” I then got up for some odd reason and went to the bathroom to take a piss. As I was peeing, no pee would come out. I kept trying and trying, but still none. This is when I woke up. I PROBABLY would have gone lucid had I not woken up, and I probably was being more and more suspicious of me being in a dream- which is probably the reason why I woke up. I don’t remember my thought process at all when I was in the bathroom, but I sure know that I was getting pretty close. When I woke up, I looked at the time: 4 am. At this point I was majorly confused, and did multiple reality checks. They all passed. This was when I concluded that I had a false awakening, and I was pretty astonished lol.

Unfortunately I remembered a few more dreams but I have now forgotten them, because I had some busy work to do as soon as I got up in the morning and had no time to write them down right away.