lucid

Irrelevant perhaps but note to self...

14/03/11

Tried OBE-ing tonight. I can slip into deep meditation/sleep paralysis quite quickly now with the help of binaural beats. I tried different techniques to Exit my physical body and I tried four times in the span of 3 hours. Not sure what's holding my astral self (correct term?) back...
The closest I got was on the third (or fourth not quite clear) try when my whole body starting tingling and vibrating and it instantly became lighter and I felt like I was floating halfway out of my physical body and halfway in. I had vague dream-like flashes of vision - of a humanistic lizard who appeared twice (Maybe my guide?), a dream-like world with a large tree shedding leaves in autumn sunset, of demonic white faces half in shadows...- and I managed to keep this up until I started to lose consciousness of my mind and I felt myself slide back into my physical body and I opened my eyes.
I was trying too hard on my first few tries of OBE-ing (I was thinking too hard) but I found it helped to clear my head, concentrate on my breathing and to look deep into the darkness of my closed eyes. Sometimes if I do this I find my astral body spinning and feeling lighter and expanding and I feel like I could just fly out of my physical body and something is holding me back!!!!!!! I've tried different techniques but it didn't work. I guess practice makes perfect?

Lucid-Comments-other dialogue-Inner thoughts

This week I've been trying to have a lucid waking life by staying aware of the present, the now, that way I don't have to physically reality check all the time. I've also been treating my life like a dream.

Flying mission:

Some business woman had recruited a bunch of apprentices to help her beat up her boss and I was one of them, for some reason everyone could fly so instead of using the door, we were instructed to fly towards the nearest skyscraper and get in through the window, which was her office apparently.
Flying is one of my dream-signs so. I became lucid and decided to part company with the flying crew. I was already relaxed and extremely aware so I just flew around for a bit upside down until I was satisfied...

On the street:

But after a while I decided to interact with some characters so I landed on the street and realised I was in Korea (never been to Korea). I seemed to have a lot of time and didn't feel like the dream would end any-time soon so... I took a time out and looked around at all the characters seemingly going about their daily lives oblivious of the situation..hhmmm..what do do.., then I saw a beautiful girl across the street looking at me with an odd expression on her face, I couldn't be bothered to walk so I used my telekinesis and drew her to me. She seemed amused by my little trick.

"Hi, so um do you want to have sex or something?"

she though it over.
"no".

A part of me kept thinking ( "this is a dream remember?, you can do whatever you want"

"yeah but if she doesn't want to, I'm not going to make her".

"but shes not real!".

" whatever").

So I turned and started to hover...

"wait, I'll have sex with you if you change your hair".

"huh, what's wrong with my hair?" as I reached up to feel it..

" I mean sure its not combed but considering I'm"... ( I didn't want to tell her it was a dream)

So I fixed it with my hand. and started taking off her clothes.

"wait, right here on the street?" she protested.

"yup" I replied.

"but I don't feel comfortable with all these people watching"

I took another time out..

("listen man, aren't you going to ridiculous lengths? she's just a dream character remember?")
" just make her do whatever you want")
"I'm not falling for this"
"ok lets find a hotel" I said to her

During this exchange of words, I hadnt realised that I had turned into this guy...

After finding a hotel. We finally had sex no need to bore you with the details but it was worth it( take that subconscious).
As we lay in bed holding each other, she turns to me and says..

"I know why you did all of that".

"Did all of what?"

"searching for intimacy", "you don't need it".

I smiled got out of bed and handed her a towel, at this point I knew the dream was ending. This how my mind works.

"get up its time for you to go".

She protested " why, what did I say?"

"Nothing its just time for you to go"

Her: Will I see you again?
Me: I start laughing.."its doubtful"

I wake up with a smile on my face.

DJ Log: March 14, 2011 – 4:45AM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I am sleeping over at a friend's place in their living room. It looks like we were playing a lot of video games, as there are several TVs and video game consoles all over the room. My friend and his girlfriend are laying on a bed roll on one side of the room and I am laying on my own bed roll with a female friend of ours on a separate bed just next to mine. They keep kissing and moving around, keeping the other friend and I awake. The friend and I are pointing at them, exchanging sexual hand gestures, and giving each other weird looks. At one point, she grabs her pillow and starts humping it briskly, I do the same. They start getting a bit more frisky, then get up and leave the room. Their friend looks at me and says, “I can't believe that they would just get up and go have sex like that.” Suddenly, she grabs my leg which is hanging out from under my covers and starts massaging my leg, working her way upward while giving me that 'come f*ck me' look. I quickly stand up from my bed and become lucid. I look at her and say, “You know we're just friends and it needs to stay that way! Why would you go and f*ck that up!” I say to myself, “Wake up...wake up...WAKE UP NOW!!!” I wake up disgusted and do a quick nose pinch RC.

I'm having some herbal tea and a glass of apple juice while I record this directly to the computer, then I'm going back to bed hoping that I'm not girl-raped again.

¡Single Sentence Sizzler!®

15.1.2011

3 Lucids 1 Sentence (DILD)

★★★☆☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Originally Posted by Mzzkc

Plagued by a shadowy dog, black as the deepest night, yellow eyes alight with a fiendish glow, I worked to release the many seals (set upon me to reduce my powers to a mere glimmer of what I possess) in order to fight back and reclaim my territory, my soul, myself.

1. I'm swimming in some stream with my boyfriend. The stream is pretty deep but the current isn't very strong. There are lots of ducks in the stream. I keep laughing at them quacking and swimming about. I tickle one of the ducks' feet under the water, and the duck quacked angrily and flapped away, causing me to laugh hysterically.

2. I'm packing in a hurry, but I don't know where I'm going. Someone is telling me that people are coming to get us and take us somewhere, but we are going to be unconscious for the trip. Once we finish packing, they tell us to look left, right, up and down. We all pass out and I vaguely feel my wrists being bound together.

We have woken up in some strange mansion. They dressed us all very fancy. We have dinner in a huge dining room. There is a very elegant dark haired woman sitting at the end of the table. She is very polite but seems very cold. I have a note in my hand that I am supposed to give her. I walk over to her, and for some reason I start speaking in French. I say "J'ai une note pour vous", and she nods as I hand her the note.

3. I'm climbing up some kind of wooden structure, and I can never seem to get to the top. This reminds me of my dream that I had the other night, and I suddenly realize that I am on the street, feeling the pavement, trying to stay lucid. It must not have worked, because I can't remember what happened after this.

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Lucid Non-Lucid

The non-lucid part of this isnt really importaint, but it started off with me visiting a mansion, and ended with me stuck in a small cage and an evil clown (i believe it may have been ronald mcdonald) trying to kill me with a bulldozer. yea i think its wierd too. anyway, i kinda just got freaked out by the clown and got lucid, and got my ass out of there. i walked from the mansion down the steps to the bottom of the hill i was on. it was in the middle of the forest, and when i came out of the woods i was near my nana and papas street, except the road was 20 feet below me. i smiled because it was the perfect place to test out a teleportation techinque. i jumped, and dived to the ground pretending it was water, and i dove right through the road. on the other side gravity worked the other way so i fell back onto my feet, but i would have been upside down underneath the road if you could view both at once. so i wondered what i should do, and i wanted to see if i could make objects appear. i wanted to start out easy, by walking up to a house and expecting a girl i like to be there. and it worked... almost... she was really disfigured, so i just said "oh you must be her sister, ill find her upstairs". i went upstairs and couldnt find her, but almost fell out a window. the distorted version of the girl followed me up, so i tried to fix her, but then i woke up.

I blink
I became lucid and in less than a second wake up (this is weird because this has never happened to me before).

Don't Snub Me
I was walking down a hallway after becoming lucid and so I say to everyone, "Hey I'm lucid" everyone cheers besides a six and a half foot tall 200 pound football player. I walk up to him and say I'm lucid again, but he ignores me so I start wailing on him. He can only block every third hit so it feels great but he just won't die... (I lost lucidity while beating him up)

I had two lucids between entires that I didn't feel like posting, they were short and during them I didn't have a very high level of awareness. I sort of remember something about sex, I think.

13.03.2011

My first lucid dream - preparing for a swim (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I decided to try the afternoon-nap thing again. I hadn't been really successful with this one, but I wanted to try it with me staying in bed instead of on the couch.
The first try was not successful. I visualised my dream storage room and chose a previous dream to enter, but it didn't work (the last step - sinking into the chosen dream). After an hour I got up, went to the loo and decided to get another hour of sleep... not really trying anything, just hoping to dream and to recall it afterwards.

I used my fingers to go through my hair and had a tuft of hair in my hand. I laid it aside and looked at it. I was dismayed as it was quite a lot of hair. But relieved to see that it was not full length - so I would be bald, only one side of my head would have shorter hair.
I fingercombed another strand and came away with another tuft.
Then it came to me. I thought "That can't be right. Something like that does not just happen." and I realised that I was dreaming.
And so, I thought "Hey, as this is a dream, my hair will be back on my head and actually arranged in a sleek, long braid that swishes along my back.
I realised that I was not alone in the room and that we all prepared for some swimming contest. So I decided to beat them all in the race. But before that I wanted to wear a great bathing suit. I already was close to the door to leave for the contest as someone asked me a question. She wanted me to do something before leaving. I turned away from the door and saw a mirror. As I looked inside I saw my face - nothing weird or strange about it - and I was wearing a simple black bathing suit.
Then I heard my phone ringing.I woke up thinking, that I couldn't stay in bed all afternoon, especially if someone called to talk to me. So I got up and went to the living room to check who had called. Well, the answer is NO-ONE. My mind was playing a trick making me think in my dream that I could hear the phone through two closed doors.

Damn...
But hey - my first lucid dream - and I had some control over it.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm on a dark ride at Disneyland. When I concentrate on the images that are moving vertically in front of me, I can accept and maintain the optical illusion that traditional animation is taking place right there in the space in front of me on the ride.

Later, I'm in a dream version of Disneyland's Haunted Mansion. This version is two-story and walk-through, with a large, rectangular open space in the center of the house where you can see the walkway that runs in front of the entrances to the second-floor rooms. I think, They've redone this entire place again? It's actually this realization that makes me aware that I'm dreaming. I've dreamed about this attraction many, many times before, and it's different every single time, so if I'm on yet another new version, I must be dreaming. I continue to make my way through the house, being scared [in the good way] by some of the ghosts that jump out at me.

I somehow end up in the landscaped outdoor area around what appears to be a shopping mall. I look at my hands and see that they look normal [I've been doing this a lot in reality lately], but don't lose lucidity. I'm pleased to find that the dream is stable, my dream self feels real and normal, and that I'm not aware of my real body at all. I then remember my current personal dream goal and decide to start trying to walk through a wall. I see the orange-tan-colored outer wall of some restaurant and think, Maybe it'll be easier to go through if I don't know in advance what's supposed to be on the other side. [I don't even know.] I don't end up going through it, though. [If I attempted to, I don't remember it now.]

While walking around the outdoor area, I touch a metal hand rail and find that it feels real. I also try to walk through a low, rectangular concrete wall intended for seating, but it's just as real and solid to me as it would be in reality. [I think I just haven't fully convinced myself that I can walk through things like a ghost yet.]

I continue walking and find a small, amphitheater-like concrete area where there are big concert speakers set up, playing hip-hop or rap music. Facing the speakers is a picnic table with a bunch of teenagers sitting on it, all of whom are really into the music. One girl, however, is sitting on a bench off to the side by herself, reading a book. On the opposite side of the table from the speakers is a grassy lawn. Fifty or so yards away at the other end of the lawn, a live rock band is playing on another stage. I think it's kind of sad that the poorly-designed setup of the area, with the big speakers so nearby, means that no one is paying the band any attention. [What is it with me and rock concerts in my dreams lately? I don't have any plans to go to one in reality.] I think about talking to one of the teenagers there, but [for some unknown reason] decide not to.

The back of my left thigh started to itch, which made me aware of my real body again, which caused the dream to dissolve. I scratched it, now awake and disappointed at the interruption.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I felt like I had to make up for lost dreamtime, so getting lucid and doing awesome things was on my schedule. After doing a WBTB I managed to do it. The mantra was: "I'm dreaming"

01.00: Sleep

07.00: WBTB 20 minutes

07.45: Fragment
*I'm showing my WoW characters to a coworker.

07.45: Using all senses MILD
I'm petting my mom's dog Igor at her house. "He's loyal as long as there's food" someone tells me, not sure if I heard it all in my head. I get up and walk out the door, it's freezing cold outside. I head towards the parkinglot and then decide to go back, it's too damn cold. I decide to do a RC. I count seven or more fingers. That can't be right... I recount them and this time I can't even keep track on which finger I am on. But it's too damn cold for it to be a lucid!

I need to stop thinking there are limits to a dream, I usually incorporate pain and cold in my RC's as I experience them daily, never in a dream. I have no particular task in my mind except stabilizing the dream with my senses. I grab a pinetree and smell the air. It's cold and doesn't smell much. I head back to the house and run my hand against a truck standing in the middle of the road. I find a snickers bar in my pocket and take a bite. It tastes like regular snickers.

I realise I've forgotten hearing and start singing "Land of down under". My sister Malin shows up and I throw the half-eaten snickers bar at her. It hits her head and I laugh happily. I'm behaving like a crazy man and I start singing on another random tune. I find some bark strips and throw them at her as she's going inside again. They all hit her head and we both laugh. I head towards the parkinglot again and spot some dog pee in the snow. I wonder if it would stabilize the dream if I ate some. Pushing the thought aside I remember a small village being ontop of a hill behind the forest infront of me. I start flying on the spot and go five or so meters up. I fly right into the thicket of pine trees. Everything becomes alot darker once in the forest and I start crawling up the hill, touching moss and pine needles.

My hoodie gets pulled over my eyes and everything goes black. I refuse to let the dream go and franticly try to get the dream back by imagining touching the forest floor. Suddenly I can see again, I'm still in the same place. I let the needles prickle my skin and I yell at myself to stabilize. It works great! I start climbing once again and after a minute or so of climbing, I can see the top. The trees all change into something more fitting a warmer country. Gravity seems to be weaker but I don't care. I'm in no hurry and I jump from rock to rock as I climb higher.

After what seems like forever I reach the top. I'm standing on a flat mountain overlooking a huge forest. There's a broad dirt road going through the top of the mountain and I spot several houses further down the road. I start walking and check my pockets once again and find a lighter. I fill my hand with gas and light it. A small fireball stings my hand but I ignore the feeling. I remember trying to play around with fire but always failing back in the days. I make a fist-sized flame appear in my hand. I watch it flicker for a second before I reach out with my hand towards the first building in line. The small metal chimney in the middle of the roof (which has an inwards tilt) starts burning. I light another fire in my hand and stretch it out at a wooden house further away. The house starts burning like a torch instantly.



I am satisfied, but not entirely. How about having some dream sex for once? The road ends up ahead infront of two houses. It's getting darker and I intend to get laid. I walk towards the building on my right and look at it. It's completely dark inside, but I force the dream by imagining someone being at home. A few meters away I see blue light which must be coming from a TV on the top floor.

I enter the dark house and head up the winding stairs infront of me, silent as a ghost. There seems to be two rooms on the top floor and the left door is slightly open. I push it open and TV light illuminates the room. A girl in her twenties is sleeping in a bed with a blanket over her body, she's very cute. I start removing my clothes silently. The dream feels stable enough still and I can feel my pulse quickening. I don't intend to do anything she doesn't want to, but I know she will be willing anyways, it's just a dream. I try to remove my pants but they get stuck at my ankles. I struggle to get them off for a second. BAM! Awake.

10.00: Fishing
I'm watching a movie where my friend Jonas catches a pike. He's in rather shallow water and there's a crowd of people standing on the shore cheering him on. He gets it out of the water and heads up to the dock. I walk up to him (apparently in the movie myself now) and congratulate him on his first pike. My brother Martin shows up and his friend. They start arguing and I spot a plastic tub with dead fish in. I weigh them each in my hand, all of them spiky. My brother seems to have caught quite alot today I think for myself. It's time for us to go fishing. I head out in the water and Jonas shows up with a strange, pink flower on the hook. "Look what I caught!" he tells me excitedly. "Put it back before anyone sees you! That's just a plant dummy" I tell him and worry about how the crowd would react.

He gets disappointed but throws it away. We swim further out and soon a few more friends appear. Jonas wants to fish for more plants but I tell him that's a bad idea. I feel like swimming under water and head down a few meters then swim like a fish for as long as I can. When I break the surface again I'm at the mouth of a river. I feel dizzy and have to take huge breaths. The rest of the group catches up with me.

10.00: LHC-Nuke
I'm at my computer. My old computer is hooked up to my new one and I'm trying to play some game through the new one on the old one. I get bluescreen and it's really messed up. Suddenly I'm playing a new Battlefield game. I'm in a tank and I'm blasting away. The tank has some new kind of missiles that doesn't explode right away but sticks to the target for a second or two first. I eliminate an entire camp with my tank and soon I'm left with nothing to destroy. I have two missiles left though and I wonder if I could shoot one out into the sky and make it blow up. I rightclick and then hold both buttons. The missile gets controlled for a while before it blows up on the sky.

Suddenly I'm ingame. A bunch of friends and Monica are there. I shoot the last missile up into the sky and it explodes, a shockwave rips through the sky and change position of all clouds. "Look! Isn't it awesome?" I ask Victor. He doesn't really care. The shockwave doesn't go away right away but keeps on rippling through the sky. Another blast gets my attention. I see a bright light over town and realise this is the day they're launching the new LHC. I can see an enormous rocket being lifted to an upright position. It must be several km away. "What should we do?" I ask everyone. I suggest we split up, I want to play some computer games with G. "I don't even like you, I never have haha!" he tells me. Wtf? I'm hurt and take off on my bike. I go up on a hill and turn around to see if Monica's following me, she's not.

A few people show up and they're whistling. I can't do that, would make her seem like some kind of dog. Another loud blast sounds, this time much louder. A bright light appears on the sky and it's quite beautiful. I go down the hill again at great speed. A car almost hits me and at an intersection I break with the entire bike. I slide in the snow for a while before stopping. "Babe!" someone yells behind me. Monica appears on her bike and she falls into the snow. She's crying out loud and got snot all over her face. Poor thing I think as I comfort her. I left her all alone when it's night out. I'm such a bastard.

10.00: Fragments
*I'm visiting a doctor for my wrists. "Anything that's wrong with you?" she asks me. "Well, not now but I'm always hurting somewhere" I tell her.

*I'm at work and telling a few coworkers about my lucid dream I just had. They laugh and shake their heads and laugh as usual, but when I come to the sex part they actually listen, before I tell them nothing happened. HAH!

10.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 9½ hours

Supplements: None

That's it! Quite a cool night. The lucid was pretty sweet as I was bouncing around like I was on the moon the second part of it all. I guess I did a DEILD and induced the same place successfully. That was probably the longest lucid I've had to date.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I was in a mountainside cavern talking with two females about the fight going on the valley below, after while we left cavern and it was snowing outside, i asked were they going to need transport as i was planning to jump down the cliff(which was bout 800 meter long (half mile) drop).
They said that they were okay and would be there with their own ways, there i remembered that they would anyways appear there (half-lucid logic).
jumped down the cliff and started dropping real fast but would not bother to open the parachute, so dropped to the valley floor.
I went with scouting unscathed and ended up at big ice wall without finding anyone in the way, so i shot an grappling hook from my left arm to the ice walls top parts and started climbing but i gave up before the top because i thought this must the edge of the scene coz its so hard to get there.

Later i was in a city with same two females raiding a military base, thats where my self awareness got high enough for spontaneous LD.
I noticed that i didnt have any kind of weapon so i started to throw enemies to walls with telekinesis, after a while i remembered that i had planned to wild this night but i had failed coz sudden awakening of my parents.
So i teleported of the scene and ended up in my fathers old home.
I walked trough the house and saw some "things" i was supposed to do later in the failed WILD but i would not do them yet coz they were too unstabilising to the dream(as they were sexual in nature).
I went outside and walked to the road to start flying and to find "The Receptionist"(Self designed DC created for causing LDs, one of my support and control system DCs)
It was snowing and it was cold so i raised the heat level and pretty soon all the snow was gone and it was cloudy and windy weather.
I wasn´t able to fly with few tries and there was pretty strong wind so i raised it to really extremely high wind speed and jumped of the bridge was standing on to the wind.
Wind carried me really fast upwards to the clouds but dream destabilized after i hit the clouds.

Damn it would have been awesome to fly above the clouds in such cloudy, rainy day, better luck next time.

Lucidity:A
Vividness:B
Control:B

Friday, March 11, 2011

I only remember being surrounded by blackness and then stating "I am dreaming." I then became lucid, but immediately awaken.

Not sure if anyone has ever heard of a mesmetron before, but I am able to build them and use them in my lucid dreams! I have run around using one in New York City. So much fun! Has anyone else ever had any kind of engineering type dreams like this? I have made other things but the mesmetron is by far the most fun.

A Mesmetron is a hypothetical device which allows the user to override brain patterns of who it is fired at effectively mind controlling them.