lucid

Context: before going to bed I watched Trancendence. I was wandering whjat would happen if I try to build an AI, what would happen if the AI was able to reproduce, maybe a little mathmatical nonsense to this and the idea of all possible thoughts. Here is how it turned out:

Once in the dream I tried shaping a small unit, like a singele neuron, only difference: I tried to model it so big, that I could see it. I used a „thin tube“ as input and several larger tubes an an output, different thickness, being a higher prabability of conducting something like water poured into it. Concept seemed to work, constructs of larger size were able to solve „simple“ tasks like the TSP pretty well. Problem is, this modelling in RL would be a heck of work, slow, unpractical. Conclusion: I need to model more neural networks of different kinds, maybe one is RL applicable… well so much for this result of my dream.
Second I imagined a world where I supposed about every 6th part oft he soil was usable for constucting the robot I tried to set free. Only task: gather recources, reproduce. Given a slow circle to reproduce, the whole plain I was standing on was destroyed in a few minutes.
Memo to myelf: never ever let a robot build itself from corbon, oxigon or silicon… bad idea.
Next one I tried the Banach-Tarski-paradox. This enables you (in theory) to duplicate points in the 3rd dimension. It actually is quite fun to watch in a LD how it specifically works. Sad thing, this is not possible in RL…
Last one: the idea of the ending for Trancendence. I spend some time working out the details. The end is, (stop reading if you wanna avoid spoilers) yes, we can in the best case destroy an all powerful singularity, but maybe that’s not even the smartest thing to do. Sometimes external things know what’s best for us, better than we ever could. Like in politics, really:
We always cry, as soon as change hppens. Maybe we need to get a little more open minded.
With this I do not mean, we should accept everything, heck no, but we should try to see the good intentions, we should try to see the persons long term motivations, we should see what it has as consequences. For example, though this is arguably my personal püreference: we should see, that some things are unpleasent, but still must be brought through, taxes for example. Great medical applications like stem cells research. Some times you need to take a leap of faith. The world ahead can be a pleasent one… I think.

1/10 LDs for remainder of Feb. accomplished

earlier:

+ driving around the area, hills, freeways. Stop on a very steep hill. It's so steep that if you walk on it you may sleep and slide down it. My mother gets out of the car across the street, and I'm telling her "careful!" but she walks towards me. I'm concerned a car may come down the street. She comes over and squats down to pee on the side of the road. I'm looking for people approaching and I think I see some so I stand in front of her, I feel a bit of her pee splashing up on to me.

+ water slide
I'm on the top of the steep hill near the LH museum in the B hills. They've built slides down the hill. I go on them. I think that they could make loop-de-loops because the speed would allow it. On the bottom of the hill there is a sort of club, the place that manages the slides. I'm looking for a bathroom. There is a sign of a sort of shower bench displayed outside a small building, I think this means "toilet" because old people could down on that bench and stick their butts out the other side and use the toilet that way. I walk in that direction. There is a business meeting of the developers of this slide complex there, a bunch of men standing around a table under a canopy. One man is talking authoritatively and using a lot of big fancy words and jargon, and someone says "that means he doesn't really know what he's saying." I start to climb up the slides for another ride, but I realize part-way up I wouldn't have to pay if I just started sliding down from
the middle, so I do that.

+ childhood home
I'm in my sister's room, wishing I had some good NSFW magazines, there is a black satin sheet on one of the twin beds with a suspicious dollop of liquid on it and I wipe it off. I know my dad's around so I head for my room. There are what appear to be muddy footprints on the ground I think from my climbing around the slide hills earlier, and I reach down the pick them up, then I realize they're flat dried animal turds. I want to wash my hands. I hear a radio show featuring a bunch of angry young SJW's, and among the shouting I near a voice yell, "yeah! Throw the f^&*ers in the river!"

later:

+ kitchen, sex planned, guy in the bedroom, little dog with key in its mouth opens the safe and out ride the toy firetrucks which can sound the alarm

+ with a girl in a "house of ill repute", not doing anything, I see advertisements written on the mirror that say things like "sex" and "hardcore". I notice I have fuzzy hair covering all my fingertips, I head to the bathroom to wash this off. The girl leans over and she's wearing a very loose top with no sleeves and nothing underneath and I get a good look at her right breast.
I ask her tentatively if there are "additional" services available, thinking about what was written on the mirror. She says "Yes, with two guys at once, with a banana and a tomato." I can't imagine where the tomato would go. I say "uh, ew, with another guy is not interesting."
I hear the doorbell ring. I guess it's the next customer. I'm scrambling to get my clothes on when some people come in. "I'm still getting dressed!" I say. I rush to put on my belt and I see that my belt is inside-out, oh well.

Then two young boys are snickering at me and saying "his pants are inside out!" I look down an indeed that explains my belt: I put on my jeans inside out, they look white and I can see the seams. I run to the bathroom to fix my pants while the people come in and make themselves comfortable.

I'm led to a small bathroom, the man who showed me the room says be careful the floor is slippery, I look down and there are a couple of amber-colored (vitamin-E, fish oil looking) capsules on the ground. There is also an open curtain to a tiny bedroom with a made-up double bed in there, part of the business operation I imagine.

A guy is singing near me (in a shower?). He has a good voice, and sounds like Frank Sinatra I think. Then I'm getting sprayed with water from this guy via a shower head and I say "HEY! I need to go outside in these clothes!" He says "you're doing it yourself". While not strictly true, I see I am also holding a shower head which is spraying water so I hang it up.

I'm heading up the stairs to the garage (in CH), the people including the wise-ass kids are at the table. Narrator or me or someone ways "I never expected to see someone like them in a place like this." Then the kids say to me, "Yeah, but we *did* expect to find a person like *you* in a place like *this*." Wrecked. I feel like cursing at them and giving them the finger. I turn around and head up the stairs and say "wait until you've walked a mile in my shoes."

Up on the street outside CH, there's a large (moving?) truck at the intersection, and a middle-aged woman standing in front of the L's house. She asks me in a very thick German accent, "Do you have any cash?" I think she's moving into the neighborhood but I'm confused about what she wants with the cash.

a BTS victory after about 8 hours in bed, yay.

+ LD#175
I'm walking by an indoor basketball court. A short blonde man is playing with somebody else, they're playing one-on-one full-court. The SBM makes a layup on the far basket. Then they play coming towards the basket I'm standing under, and the SBM makes a reverse layup right in front of me. "You really like layups don't you?" I say. And I say how I was pretty good at layups. I dribble the ball towards the opposite basket. I dribble the ball onto my foot and it goes shooting off to the side and I scramble after it and bring it back. "I was never very good at dribbling, however. I was pretty good at making shots, though, see: " and I try to make a basket from about 3 feet away and can't get anyway near the hoop. The ball just bounces right back off the backboard. Hmm, I'm having trouble. Maybe it would be easier without the basket? And the basket vanishes.

Then I'm sitting down near a glass wall [DREAM SIGN] to the outdoors, and I'm leaning forwards on something and falling asleep. A scary female figure comes and stands up next to the wall and I feel a tingling of fear, but I ignore it as I'm trying to fall asleep and then make the transition to the dream state. I feel a kind of shift and decide to try the advice of 'if you think you're dreaming, try to roll out of your body', so I sort of roll over and sit up in bed and I'm lucid. I have something partially obscuring my vision and I'm having a bit of trouble getting up off the bed, it's fairly dark in the room. I rub my hands together a little bit. I manage to get up from the bed and decide right away it's time to find some girls [sigh]. SG and ST come to mind immediately. I leave the living room and head down the hallway, now I'm in my previous adult home, I head for the bedrooms, the doors are closed, and I say SG, you're going to be behind this door! I open the door and look in the room: empty, with a futon on the floor, and a large sliding glass door which is open and heading to the back yard [false]. I then go into the other bedroom and call out for ST, but it is likewise empty. I then head to the master bathroom, ponder a moment, and head back to the 2nd bedroom and say "OK, come out of hiding now, here i am!" and I hear some voices say something like "here we are!" and the dream fades...

These are dreams of the past few days.

[SPOILER=spoiler to not crowd my dj page]Avatar shark croc against the stream downwards give up. i knew i was dreaming but not clearly, i could only spend extra effort and maybe only at the last moment.

in bus with selcuk dayi we crash. bear in car. ilknur tries to talk to me. huge beasts on road dayi says they should watch out. (rather than driving to the other side of the road to avoid them)

at school breakdance try to impress ym teacher with silly moves. Blac guys. i do turtle but have backpack so keep doing forward flip. take bag off do turtle then my elbow not touch belly so handstand. then dinner ready we hop skip over things because table is set and filled with foodplates.

here i have the lucid dream in which i did the totm.

standing guard. "you cant handle the truth" hearthstone. *wtf does this mean :P* it sounded exactly like this [URL="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FnO3igOkOk&feature=youtu.be&t=44"]Youtube you cant handle the truth[/URL] i dont know why i heard this and what it has to do with hearthstone or standing guard

tall dutch girl 2.50 big chamber with statues. stairs. nose plug lucid. 1 min. float around cant land. help girl while worrying parents. airport. she needed help crossing street. duran abi gets close while driving by on motor. another car she almost didnt see.

"i am not your leader" necropost fa

basketball cant drible. breakdance impress people

swimming pool. jumping on top of the water without sinking. making front flip but theres no room coz too many kids. lot sof kids sleeping by the pool. another but on a beach. serkan on a boat. same dream? i ask if 3 meters is deep enough to dive. he says in the wedstrijdbad (with the duikplank) it is enough so its enough here.

at guney or enes. then i go away on bike. lars house is far. hes there smoking weed. i see daniek from tbl

i did the (nose plug) rc but nothing happened i did it multiple times and mentioned it. failed rc lars said do it again and i did and got lucid. mom in room, room is dark, i get a slight notion of maybe this is scary and she closes in on me with a slightly croaky voice and i get scared. i say "but i love you" maybe twice and the dream ends.

hearthstone. playing wolf team with david out and serdar, david has stronger armor but not to cheat us he just happened to have it. guney bora huseying amca. and guney abi and a girl in love.

rekt as priest in tavern brawl (where you create your deck by discovering and you get chickens and spare parts). someone house is turning inside. rotating and changing. david en mischa? turkey. middle part unchanging. im sleepy thinking is hard. im home late in köy.

on yt, saw daniela andrade (who was actually victoria justice from victorious) it said "voice demoted" kid says "i wasnt after the fuck" kripp says he should believe in himself and gets 4 random minions in a generals game and theyre tanks. kills 2 enemy tanks and goes on to destroy a building.[/SPOILER]

2 paper dj entries.

[SPOILER=number 8]fighting dad and protecting bro after fighting bro after he did something to me and i kicked his knee.

girl singing to me. she had light brown sweater. i was djing. it was hey there delilahs tune but different words. i think she was singing about what i was writing (asking what i was writing). it was beautiful. (now i just listened to it and the song sounds like crap, but when i woke up i had the impression that that was the music) occasionally we looekd into each others eyes and i looked into her eyes almost all the time. near the end i saw my dad there and i felt awkward by being touched by the music and expressing such enjoyment.

naruto fighting someone (i called hi naruto but hes a random here) fights then forgives him then cages him then takes his powers away (like avatar). both had spiderman powers. i found it cool and rewinded it/watched it/experienced it again. now im looking at it from a few meters away. kind old lady with sweet voice "why dont you take that lady out" and that was my mom. so i go with her and shes annoying and angry and isnt waiting for me to catch up. were both on the bicycle.[/SPOILER]


[SPOILER=number 7]this is all 1 dream with multiple paragraphs.
standing around near the house or walking outside, try to amuse kids by pulling something out of my pocket (by summoning) but hands are empty). friend told me about the prostitute graves, he went there and looked around (he wasnt interested in 96 past the hour) even when lucid i spent some tiem trying to cheer up my gf. she was disappointed or sad or angry at me about something. (not a waking life gf, only in this particular dream) her gf was there too. this was inside. my friend had dark hair. gf brown or dark.

when walking outside i thought i should summarize the dream so its easy to remember because lots of things happened. if i had remembered what happened inside and thought about it i would have remembered it after i woke up.

dojo. i suck and get owned they mistake me for one of them. (im not a martial artist).

i go outside and rub my hands a lot it really works feeling the dream and watching my hands

went outside with a friend and said "look my phone says its 96 past the hour but thats imposible, theres only 60 minutes in an hour" but he didnt care.

this is enough. typing is tiring and i just hope i wont lose the paper. this lucid was ~15 minutes.[/SPOILER]

Dream - short lucid
It's night time and I'm outside of a house by a road. I look at my hands randomly and just become lucid, I test this by pushing my finger into my palm which stretches, I do this a couple times for no real reason. I look around and notice how beautiful the sky looks, the dream is really vivid and stable. There's so many stars shining really brilliantly and everything is quite crisp in detail. I try to think of a dream goal but realize I haven't actually set one down, I fight the urge to summon my ex because I don't want to enter cave-man mode. The dream loses quality and stability quite quickly and I find myself awake in bed. I think the dream was only 10-20 seconds long.

I tried thinking of what dream goal I should try next, I think I may approach the dream goal of conversing with a dream character since that is a biggie in my book. I want to see how aware they are of me when I'm aware of them, or hear what random nonsense they might spout .

I was with some actors and one of the actors was driving some other actors and i just entered his violet car with no reason. But he was driving so slow and i said to my self "Man, i wish i could drive this car." Then i remembered a video i saw about LDs and the video maker said that he was driving a car but the dream went unstable and blah blah. So that reminded me of LDs and i said "Oh, it's a dream. I don't even know where i am at or what i'm doing with the actors" And rubbed my hands together, touched trees, even though it was in the middle of the street, and the car was gone. Then i said to my dream "Show me something hilarious!" Then, a giant, eagle-like bird came out the horizon and flew just above me. It wasn't hilarious but really awesome :O Then i woke up. O_O

I was with some actors and one of the actors was driving some other actors and i just entered his violet car with no reason. But he was driving so slow and i said to my self "Man, i wish i could drive this car." Then i remembered a video i saw about LDs and the video maker said that he was driving a car but the dream went unstable and blah blah. So that reminded me of LDs and i said "Oh, it's a dream. I don't even know where i am at or what i'm doing with the actors" And rubbed my hands together, touched trees, even though it was in the middle of the street, and the car was gone. Then i said to my dream "Show me something hilarious!" Then, a giant, eagle-like bird came out the horizon and flew just above me. It wasn't hilarious but really awesome :O Then i woke up. O_O

First dream

I was in my house. I looked through the window - it was a dark, cloudy day. I felt that there was some kind of danger coming, and realized that there is a zombie outbreak. I wandered around the house, alerting my family that they should prepare. We made barricades and stored all supplies we had. There were too many of them however, so we had to escape. We used a small window in the basement to escape and ran to a carpentry workshop of my father. Zombie didn't tried to enter it, they were busy with other survivors that came to our house looking for help. I watched a slim blonde woman escaping from them. She climbed up the rooftop and practiced acrobatic skills to escape.

Second dream, WILD

I was in my uncle's house. It was an unfinished building, with only parts of upper floor hospitable. I spent a night there. It was a bit cold, and the toilet wasn't done yet, so we had to make it inside a bucket. I fell asleep.

I woke up in that house again. I realized that it's a dream. I felt refreshed, full of energy. I have thought what to do, and decided that I should see the house finished. I turned around thinking about a mansion, and the building was mostly finished. There were only some small rooms unfinished. The building was furnished with expensive furniture made of black oak wood, there were several paintings on the walls and in overall it looked like it belonged to someone really rich. I thought that I should summon someone, just for the sake of summoning. I was teleported to a huge cottage with two really long tables. The room was lit by candles, this gave it a moody atmosphere, it was charming. There were people sitting by the tables. Kids and other people, but nobody I knew. Then I saw a blonde woman, and after looking closer I saw that she was that survivor from previous dream, the one that used acrobatics to escape. She smiled to me. I thought "Eh, whatever." I didn't had any plans for that summon, I just wanted her to roam the mansion. Then I was back in uncle's new house and looked through a window. Just in time to see the summon arrive in a silver Mercedes car. She entered the building. I went downstairs to kitchen. Uncle was preparing dinner, I noticed an unfinished room. He said "You're not going to finish it..." I replied to him in my thoughts (which resulted in my voice appearing everywhere). I thought "I'll try". I turned around and a transparent brick wall appeared in place of doors. I turned around again, and almost saw that room, the wall was fading away. It was mostly done, just a matter of phasing through the wall. It was a bathroom. I went along main hall and entered dining room. There was a long table with set of chairs. The summoned woman was already there. I have lost lucidity.

Dream fragment

I was walking through a dark underground passage.

I entered LD at my house. My wife looked like dream zombie, I couldn't wake her from that state. So I decided to explore my surrounding. I went into basement and there was a finished bicycle I'm working on (here is progress on it, my 9 years old daughter is presenting ) :

So I took it for a little ride. The ride was nice but bicycle started to change its shape slowly, and things started to interfere with my legs movements. I came close to my friend house while bicycle became completely unusable.
I went into her house. There were her parents... well, her mother looked similar to her real mother, but father looked differently(with yellowish spiky hair???). I spoke with them about their life, asked them things- their answers were strange, different to this reality. They wanted to repair their TV ??? I found that problem was with antenna and I fixed that problem easily.
I sat there and waited. After some time my friend came and she starred on me. She asked what I'm doing there and went dormant(like stature) I wasn't able to communicate with her. So I left. My WILD didn't last much longer after that. I walked and explored my surroundings till the very end.

Before going to sleep I heard a deep vibration or buzzing in my ear, it lasted for about 10 seconds and then stopped completely. It was extremely loud. Anyways my dream was that of a spinning ring, at first it was spinning in the air attached to some sort of leather cord, then it was on a table (no leather cord) being spun by the guy who appears in most of my dreams. The ring also changed in details, at first it was simple, looked as if made of silver or white gold, with some sort of tribal design. Then the ring became ornate, with a rainbow stone in the center amd smaller stones going around the band (smaller stones were of different colors).

P.S. no explanation of a spinning ring in dream dictionary

What an awesome dream to have on my 200th DJ, it was really stable and quite long. I entered that old 'cave-man mode' once I couldn't think of anything to really do.

#200 - Telekinesis is a wonderful power
I was in a hallway during day time, I followed the hallway until it led me to the back entrance of the building I was in. Ahead of me was a kid, I don't think we were supposed to be there since there was a wedding event going on or something and only the staff were allowed back here. A waiter comes out the back in the standard dark trousers, dress shirt and lower waist apron. I wrap an invisibility cloak around me and the kid, the waiter is suspicious though and gets some dust to blow into the air. He's trying to detect us, we hold our breath until he gives up and leaves. Phew!
I talk to the kid a bit about how invisible people can be really difficult to fight, "I'll teach you a spell just incase you need to use it on invisible people" I say. I raise my wand (where did I get this?) "Ignitus!" I say with force, a bright blue flash radiates out in a delicate fashion, I show him twice I think. I talk about how invisibility is easily countered otherwise it'd be a real pain to deal with, many mages have come up with ways of dealing with people who use it, the spell I taught him is just one of many. I think I walk outside a bit and sit on the grass, there's a gravel driveway for cars to come up to the building nearby. I turn around and head up to the entrance to the building, as I go inside I notice that it's night time. I'm aware enough to become lucid and I turn around and head back outside. I'm in a botanical garden with the sky dark above me, there's some white-lighting from a lamp in the garden. I decide to give telekinesis a go for the dream challenge me and Emnition have going. I look to the side and see four chairs lined up (I assume they were for the aforementioned wedding gig), raising my hand I will them to lift up... Obediently they all fly up a metre of the ground, I'm a little amazed at how natural it feels and how stable the dream is. I swiftly swing my arm left, hurling the chairs with an intense force directly into the brick walls of the building I came from. Next I look at 2 nearby large green rubbish bins, raising both hands they rise before me.. I scrunch my hands into fists and the bins crumple and compact. I release them and they fall to the ground as a plastic heap .
Next I look at a wooden park bench + table nearby, once again I telekinetically lift the object. This time I want to rip it in half. Using both my hands I make a ripping motion, but instead of getting torn in two the bench has this strange glitch effect. The two halves I intended to split kind of rolled outwardly without separating or tearing in any fashion. Bah, whatever. I decide to move on from telekinesis and find something else to do in the dream, it's been going for at least a minute already and is quite stable, though not the most exceptionally vivid (still really good though). I decide to try summon my first ex girlfriend, intending to complete that old dream goal which I no longer care about (though at this point in time I thought I did). I call her name and walk around the edge of the botanical garden, I round a corner expecting her to be there but no luck. I try again, calling her name twice more before rounding the other corner. I see a figure up ahead, success! I run on up to her, her back is facing me. I swivel her around and start flirting + kissing, she's really receptive and things progress instantly Things got sexual pretty quick as cave-man mode consumed me, it was a little more vivid at this point which is great for obvious reasons unfortunately like in most sex-dreams I woke up before getting properly satisfied.

#201
Dream 1 - Candy store lucid
It's night time and I'm in a small well-lit candy store. I turn to my right to see my friend Daniel and his gf Josie bouncing around in an action that looks like they were having sex. They weren't, thankfully, otherwise I would have felt pretty awkward. Apparently it was some new dance craze O_O I head over and start talking with them, there's so much candy around us. I think Josie and Daniel both work here since they're behind the counter. I seem to realize that I'm dreaming, upon this realization the dreamscape changes dramatically but I don't even notice. The light in the room goes out and beside me is a cute chick but she isn't very busty. I'm pretty much in cave-man mode as I instantly decide that I want her, since it's a dream I decide to enhance her bust with my omnipotent dream potential, I place my right hand on her left breast and will it grow . Unfortunately the dream wasn't particularly vivid or stable, I had intended for both breasts to become really nice but instead only one grew... And pretty weirdly. It kind of just shot out, it was longer and harder than it should have been. I became aware of how dark the room actually was and looked up at the the girls face, she really is quite skinny. There's a certain evil feeling coming out of the dream that I tuned into."Ugh, well if I get her other boob to grow then take her shirt off I can just rely on the dream to correct the weirdness" is what I thought. But before I could give it a go I ended up 'waking up'. In real life I was lying on the couch and when I woke up I was the wrong way round, I had this feeling that I was drooling intensely and was slobbering everywhere. I then checked my phone and saw a message from my ex saying "Hey! Hows it going? I really love you and your fossilized wood stuff ..." there was more to the text but I can't remember it. I had told her about all the fossil wood and stuff I had found on my recent trip, which is actually true in real life. But I stopped as I read it and was like "Uhhh what?! O_O", I was confused about why she would say 'I love you' in that sentence and found it a little inappropriate. I had a feeling that she meant it as a friend but it still felt weird, I didn't manage to click to the fact that it was a dream.

Dream 2 - Baby crazy
I remember looking after my daughter, she was just wandering around in my parents house and it was when she was quite a bit younger than she is now. We entered the kitchen and I was practically hover handing to make sure she didn't fall over, she wandered into the kitchen cupboard and my mum came in and distracted me somehow. I was really annoyed because it was somehow inconsiderate and I wasn't able to talk with her because I had to look after my daughter. I turned back to look at my daughter but she was gone. I instantly freaked out and we started looking for her, at this point I looked around at my surroundings and saw my cat Peaches lounging around, as I looked around I kept seeing lots of her. I rounded the corner and looked down the stairs fearing that my daughter had fallen... I was really scared. I look down and saw at the bottom of the stairs... My cat peaches O_O. Lying on top of another Peaches, there were so versions of my cat.

I woke up and next to me was my cat sitting there sleeping...

Dream 3 - Old friend
I must have had a dream much earlier on in the night where I had discovered my friend Aaron, it was insinuated somehow that he was dead and I made a burial for him (thought there was no body I think).

I'm in an institute in what I think is post-apocalyptic (non-zombie, possibly nuclear). It was a concrete facility at the bottom of a deep crater. I have a feeling there was a water on one side. I can't recall what I did while I was inside this facility but I remember that there was a doctor who decided to break the rules and tell my I had to GTFO. He punched a button and sprinted, dragging me and throwing me through an opening outside, then jumped to follow. A door slammed down behind us and we high tailed the hell out of there, it was really intense. I think they were planning on capturing me unawares and using me as a guinea pig (I have a feeling they experimented on lots of animals too). We made it to the top of the crater and sat side by side... It was a calm moment, the person next to me was no longer that doctor, but instead it was Aaron. We talked, I hadn't seen him in so long. Then it dawned on me... And I punch him really hard. "I thought you were dead!!" Tears instantly start flowing and I'm consumed by this extreme sadness, I'm holding him with one hand while the other is on the ground keeping me stable during my emotional fit. I wake up, a little stunned by the intensity of the dream.

I had a brief LD this morning.

As usual, I forgot the exact moment I realized things were odd, but I remember they were not too odd, I just somehow managed to tell it was a dream, so I had to test it. I did something I never thought of awake or a sleep, I decided to hit the dream character I was talking to . It was someone I was buying something from. I thought if nothing happens when I hit him, then it is a dream. I hit him on the head many times and the bat went through his head like he was a ghost . It sounds crazy to me now, and I have no idea how I got this idea in the dream.

I also remember being in some family's house. I wanted to leave them, to do some adventures, but they were saying goodbye and being nice, and I thought I have to be nice and take my time saying goodbye. It is crazy, I was very aware I was dreaming, but I cared about their feelings, and couldn't just leave them, so they wasted my time, and eventually I woke up.

Anyway In this dream, I acted a little bit odd. Let's hope next time, it will be longer.

Created Sunday 14 February 2016

Today, I managed to get into a few waking-dream states, one of which transitioned into a more complete dream scenario. Before that, prior to my first known awakening, I had a normal dream. There's more to the non-lucid portions of what's below, particularly in the scene within the second dream, but I don't know much of it now.

Dream 1 - Unnecessary Work Day

The visuals were dim. I was in a long, dark hallway, the construction of cement, hauling around a blue plastic cart full of cleaning supplies. This familiar object made me think I was back in my old job at the gas station, specifically in the back room, despite the area being much larger. Well, considering as much, I assumed I was tasked with cleaning the windshield washer containers.

During my walk, I encountered two former co-workers, Ricky and Maja, both dressed in the appropriate dark blue collared shirt and khaki uniform, and the latter having red-tinted black hair. There was some brief interaction, but I don't remember much of this.

After that, I head out to the store from the storage room, though by then, I lacked the cart. Anyway, I noticed there was a huge line forming, enough to reach all the way to the bathrooms. So I hurry to the registers to see if anyone needs help there. Once at the counters, I saw that both machines were already occupied, one serviced by my uncle, Hippolytos, and the other by an unknown, tanned skinned, dark haired Hispanic woman. Wasn't needed there, so I started my way out. My uncle calls out to me just then, telling me to fill in for him in a few minutes.

I don't recall much else until the dream ended.

Dream 2 - WILD Feelings

Scene 1 - A Typical WILD Initiation
I was in bed,I was in laying in bed, where I sensed a faint dizziness. So, I made an obstructed breath test, which indeed revealed I was in a (near) dream state. I soon noticed that I was sleeping with my covers over my head, and was also leaning on one of my hands. I tried not minding this much, until I suddenly felt short of breath, not to mention my hand going dead numb. And although I knew better than to heed this much, I eventually gave in, and forced myself awake.

Scene 2 - Spin It on Its Back!
Shortly afterwards, I found myself in a similar state, only this time, I made sure to sleep in a more appropriate position. Kinda drifted between this state and back, until I calmed down enough to anchor myself through my breaths.

From there, I tried moving around, but it seemed I was stuck. Even just imagining movement didn't seem to have any results. I then tried opening my "dream eyes", but aside from some faint, colorful flickering, I didn't notice any changes.

After waiting a while longer, I again attempted to imagine myself moving. This time, I could feel myself tilting just the slightest bit. So, I focused more intently, trying to force myself off the bed. I got far enough to do as much, but was suddenly thrust back into my bed by an unseen force. Furthermore, I was now spinning in place on my back. I rolled with that, and tried spinning faster and faster in hopes of transitioning, though I didn't really have a place in mind. It's perhaps for this reason, and that I probably went overboard on my intent, that I woke up abruptly.

Not that it mattered, for I found myself in the same state soon enough, albeit briefly, for I was transitioned immediately.

Scene 3 - Ignoring My Own Advice
The visuals were slightly blurred. I was standing within the courtyard of a complex of wide, short buildings, what I assumed was a school. Most had white walls and teal colored linings on the top, while at least one was painted peach. There might have been others around, but I ignored them. All this, visible from under a dawn sky. From the start, I retained awareness of my state.

I might have been to excited, for I thought nothing to just fly out of the place. But upon noticing the visuals deteriorating, I stopped, landing on the roof of the nearest building. For a moment, I thought I should be more careful, perhaps even deliberate, in my actions. There's so much possibilities, but I only have so much to consider... only to shrug this off and continue on my way without a care.

Now, I was cruising through an empty blue sky. By then, the visuals were very choppy, but I didn't mind, as I knew things would get better in time. Eventually, I noticed a row of tall, thin objects to my right, what seemed as ridiculously long picket fence posts. Their terrible, blocky resolution made it seem like dated 3D video game graphics, much like in Minecraft. I groaned at the thought of being in such a dream again, but on seeing the textures more resembling those of a PS1 era game than that, I let it slide.

Things get hazy for a moment, until I transition into another scene.

Scene 4 - Let's Not and Say We Did Play
The visuals were blurred. I was in my room, looking at a video playing on some computer (not sure if it was mine), the lighting indicating it was daytime. At this point, I lost awareness.

From the start, I identified the clip as a playthrough for an unknown game, some early era 16-bit arcade platformer action game, not unlike Ghosts and Goblins. Much of this had some armored hero guy chucking weapons at various monsters, all set in a brown mountain area under a monochrome blue sky. Apparently, something from this game was referenced by the cartoon show Rick and Morty, and so I watched eagerly for signs of this.

At one point, the hero fights the boss, a large, grey gargoyle. This creature switches between that and to a variety of shapes throughout the battle, including into a giant, demonic stone head, and an angry cloud of dust.

Around that point, my brother, Markuss, barges in, curious as to what I was watching. He seemed displeased at this video for religious reasons, getting slightly upset at seeing the fictional demon on screen. He was likewise offended when I muttered "Geez" at a close call in-game. I found this all quite wearying.

The video then crashes mid-way. I reloaded it again, but was quite upset at seeing it was replaced with a "Let's Play" of the same game, not helped that it was announced by some bored sounding, short of breath kid. I tried looking through various other clips, only to get similar results. From there, I couldn't help but yell various expletives to the screen, which, needless to say, weirded Brain out.

To assauge my frustrations, I decided to look for that "No, God, No!" scene from the Office in Youtube, all to better convey how I felt at the moment. Instead, I found a number of links to completely unrelated videos. I then tried looking through Google, but this proved most unhelpful, as my commands were being auto-filled with even more nonsense. I remember one having "Ashad's 'No, no, no!'", or somesuch, which only served to enrage me further.

"Who the fuck is Ashad?!", I ranted. "Fuck that! Fuck this guy!"

This only made Markuss even more concerned.

Not too certain what else happened until the dream ended.

Spoiler for Media References:

Aforementioned Office Video:

I emerged before house. It looked somewhat familiar. Like house of friend I was trying to share my dream with. Yet surrounding was unfamiliar. I decided to try and find whether that house is what I thought it is so I went inside. I was surprised. Once I crossed doors I found myself inside something looking like very big hall... a bank. There were people waiting in lines for money. I backed away from house... The house looked exactly like before. Not the first time house looked much bigger from inside then from outside.
On the other side of road the big house arose, it looked very old, rustic. The world around me slowly changed. The house and garden surrounding it stayed the same, but whole city grew around it (it was small village before I looked inside of that house). I rose into air, maybe in 2-3m of height and I started to fly down the street.

Remarks
I managed somehow to project myself outside of my friend house.
My friend wasn't inside...
Space inside of house was about 20 times as big as it should be, and there weren't rooms, only big open hall with
Atmosphere of dream was similar to astral projection- calm. My concentration was at similar height to AP, yet this was a dream.
The house and garden was vividly colorful, inners of house (bank), and city were greyish... it was like the garden and house was alight by sun, and city was in dusk.

I took dream leaf again, the alternative method really seems to work for me. Take a red pill the previous night and then the next night (which was last night) take the blue pill right before bed and then dream. I had a series of dreams, some of them repeated but there was something a little different each time so here we go.

1st dream: I hanged out with a childhood friend named Jet and another friend (who I knew in the dream world but not in the real world) we were kid of offroading with a jeep somewhere out in the boonies and it lasting long enough for day to turn to night, around night time I pulled out my phone and explained I wanted to record what we were doing and we came across this large mountain, it was sitll in the distance but it turns out to be a Volcano and it erupted and large amounts of black smoke and very hot stones poured out of it and they kept we kept driving toward it and a very hot rock landed on my stomach and it burned and I said to turn around and we did. We had to do something and take a drug test later the next day but we decided to get really really high anyway (weed people calm down) and so we went for the drug test still very high and there were a lot of people who had to do it but this test was different then normal drug tests we had to sit at a desk and spit into a test tube but not only that we had to put a manikin arm in the tube and it would change colors depending on if we were high or not and also it would inscribe in the arm our names and birthdays. For some reason it enscribed the wrong birthday (my real birthday is Jan 16th 1996, but it said Jan 16th 1949) and trust me, in my dream I was still my young self. The guy next to me was for some reason FaZe Apex and we talked a little bit and my arm started to change colors very fast and it was like neon weird colors and Apex said "this guy is still really high wtf" and it got to a point where everyone was trying to take the test tube away because I was sitting there staring at the changing colors for a long time, I said hold on and I put it down and my dream ended.

I had two lucid dreams but neither of them lasted very long, for some reason I would realize I am dreaming but before I could change anything I would wake up in a different dream and the thing that makes it even more weird is I was thinking about lucid dreaming WHILE I WAS DREAMING and I didn't recognize that I was dreaming in most of my dreams.

1st dream repeat: This one was about going offroading again in the open jeep but instead of my childhood friend it was one of my current best friends (lets call him Alex) and the other dude was the same, I didn't know his name but somehow we were friends. We had to run down this large hill to get to the jeep and it turned into a race so what I did was I jumped off part of the cliff instead and I had that suit that can make a person glide down, it had like flying squirl arms and legs and I flew over Alex and I was like "I am winning!" Both of my friends said I was nuts but I pulled the parachute last minute and landed perfectly next to the Jeep. I got in the passenger and Alex got in the back we drove around a lot and as day turned into night I started recording on my phone again, this time there was no Volcano but we got into a clearing in a wooded area and we stopped, at this point I realized I was dreaming and I just said "You know, you guys are my best friends." I didn't get a response because when I turned around they were gone and I was alone by myself and Darkness started to envelope my world and my dream ended. I think the part of me that is so very alone started to kick in once I realized I was dreaming and it took away my friends and said "you don't deserve to be happy, you don't deserve to be with friends."

2nd dream, it was very short, I woke up and I was a kid sitting in a bus with other kids and we were going on a field trip, I talked about my dreams but every other kid was mean and was a bully to me. I didn't let it bother me and I just woke up in a different dream. which was another repeat of dream 1.

I am at Pizza Ranch, filling my plate with food. I then realize that the counter looks suspiciously like the counter in the kitchen at my house. I look up and realize that I AM in my kitchen. I decide to do a RC, so I count my fingers. They seen to flash by my eyes and my right hand has eight fingers on it. I realize I am dreaming. I go out onto my deck and decide to use the rail as a gymnastics beam. It isn't working for me, so I decide to just fly around in the woods behind my house. My sister is there and both of us are flying. There is one point where she starts to fall, but I lift her back up. I decide that I want to fly around in the mountains, so I go on YouTube to get inspiration. At this point I loose lucidity all together.
During this dream I was lucid, but not really all that aware.