lucid

01.15.16

Yesterday work 6pm-11pm. Stayed up till 4 am today. Slept till 11:30 am.

Read the TOTMs thread and decided to do the Read the book title, meet someone from IRC and change gravity for a DC.

900mgs of my new alpha-GPC at 12:30.

Went to sofa at 1:34, woke up from a 40 min long event at 3:18.

In less than 10 min I was already feeling it. Body relaxing, getting light, even with my cat sleeping on my legs.

Then I realized I forgot to pull my hood on my eyes so I can see the HH better. I did that even though I could barely feel my body anymore, but I told myself that it will not ruin anything.

I was very close to a lucid, when a dog int the neighborhood started to cry and I'm like oh no, coyotes. I thought my attempt is over, coz that got me out of the mood.

I thought I'll stay for 2 more min. I realized I'm typing something and that I'm dreaming.

LDs

40 min long event with 2-3 distinct entries. Rest of it was "i'm dreaming" "oh it ended" "no wait I'm still here" "it ended" "nope still here"...

In one of them I started to move my dream arms in front of my face to see if I am dreaming. They covered my face and it was dark. Then I noticed a sliver of light between my fingers, so I put my hands down and it was a sunny day.

I walked to the window to jump out but I remembered I wanted to see my room to compare if it's the same. The shape and size was the same, but furniture was different. I got to the window again, when I decided I didn't compare enough so I went back and said, yup, still not the same. Then left through the window.

I'm sitting on a floor of some room. Looks like a nursery. There is bunch of books around me. I pick up one and it's a small choldrens book with all hard pages. Nice green cover and it's about animals.

I pick up another one, it's an atlas. I got excited and started paging through it. I thought what if I pick a place and teleport there. I'm looking at map of afrika and thinking NOPE. I look for north america, I know it's at the beginning. I think New York would be nice to visit. I find the east coast, but Los angeles is in it's place. Dangit. I put it down.

Then I remember the TOTM. I pick up the atlas again and start reading the cover. As I do it, the letters flip and now I see the back side and it's also upside down. So there is the barcode, and ISBN# and bunch of tiny numbers. I turn it around and it's the back side again. I laugh. The page turned upside down like on a tablet when you turn it sideways.

I pick up a childrens book and it's about animals. I pick the next and the next, all about animals.

Then I see some book titles, not sure on what. I read like 10 of them. I think I better write them down. I reach for an empty envelope and pen that I prepared. I know i prepared it for real in WL too. But I know this is a dream and the envelope is not the same one. So after I write them down, I keep repeating 2 titles so I remember them. One I forgot, the onter one was "6 doctors laughing".

Now I'm in a room, laying on a floor. I hear some commotion from the other room and there is a guy with a suitcase comeing by my room to the front door. He stops and asks me what the hell I'm doing there. I say I love there, even though I know I'm just visiting. And I know he doesn't live there either.

He walks up to me and starts touching me all over. Then there is another duud and another chick. Fun goes on for good 10 min.

In one transition I wanted to take it further so not sure how, but I got some really strong vibrations, strongest in over a year and a half.

From the dark void I enter into my favourite dream starting scene, expecting to reach a little lake at night. The dream teleports me into a forest and now it is daytime, daylight. Coloring is enhanced and seems a little overexposed: too light, too green but a wonderful forest. I am alone here, surrounded by big and tall trees, moss on the floor, big roots everywhere. I decide that I want to have mirrors here (to play with, because I can). Small and big ones appear, hanging on the trees. I try to look into them, try to use them to enter another dreamer's dream. All I see is white empty rooms. Every time I get close enough to a mirror to look into it and I check the emptyness behind, it morphs away. I draw a huge rectanle in the air, painting another golden-bordered mirror into a tree. Again I see a blurry myself and then a white empty room. As I try to step into the mirror, I'm kicked out of the dream. I manage to reenter the dream but then lose lucidity shortly after being involved in a picnic in the woods.

The good news: I HAD TWO LUCID DREAMS!!!

The bad news: I wasted them both.

It was all very confusing.

I was at this family party thingy. My aunt arrived and sat down at the table. My grandma was like "your aunt thinks everybody hates her". People around us went a bit "well, nobody LOOOOVES her", so I felt a bit bad and decided to go over there and say hi to her.

When I got there, I tried my best to be pleasant, but I messed it up and went all "hey, aunt X, how are you!? I'm glad you're here for the party! Why didn't you say hi to us when you arrived?" and she didn't take that very well, so she said she'd curse us all and left.

I wanted to go after her to apologise, but everyone was reacting to her words. I couldn't see anything very well, it was like my eyes were partially closed and I couldn't and I couldn't focus the little that I could see.

This is when I realised I was obviously dreaming. This type of thing only happens in dreams. However, I was sure I was about to wake up, since that always happens when I can't focus my eyes in dreams. So basically it went:

Me: I'm dreaming, obviously! I'll wake up now, though.
Me:
Me:
Me:
Me: ...uhm...?
Me:
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Me: I guess I was wrong! Okay, this lucid dream is here to stay! Now what should I--

I woke up.

I fell asleep again and I was back to a family gathering. My cousin, my aunt's daughter, was extremely sad. I learnt that my aunt had killed herself, blaming us all for her suicide. I wanted to comfort my cousin, but she didn't want to leave the place. She said her mother was at the elevator. I told her that it was impossible and I went there myself to prove her wrong.

When I got to the elevator, my aunt's "spirit" was haunting it. She laughed maniacally and I flew against the walls of the elevator. I couldn't protect myself against my aunt, so I started praying to God. Somehow, that worked and I was able to get off the elevator, but I was still very confused by the whole thing.

Once again, the whole "I can't focus my eyes" thing happened. I was relieved to find out it had been one bad dream. I took a deep breath and decided what I wanted to do with the dream.

And I woke up again.

Except that I didn't. It was a FA. I "woke up" and I was terrified about the whole thing. I got off "my bed" and I found myself at this weird shop. It was like someone's attic, but full of clothes. My mum told me I could wear something, but I told her I couldn't. I told her that, in my dream, I had promised God I'd be different if he protected me. I felt like he had done it, so I was now under the obligation to keep my promise.

My mum was weary of that - we're not a religious family AT ALL - so we were leaving that place when I ran into my cousin. She was sad about her mother's death - which apparently really had happened, and not just in my dream's dream - and she looked sick.

We tried to help her and we found out her arms and her torso were all cut. There were old scars, from both cutting and burning. It was all very sick and I understood that my aunt had made my cousin do all that from an early age. And now, even though her mother was dead, she couldn't stop doing it. She was also very lost.

We kept trying to get her to open up to us, but it wasn't going very well. I ended up going to this weird house. The dude who lived there asked me for my help and I agreed to help him. Then, my cousin and her brother - also my cousin - arrived there. The first thing they did when they got there was to smile at each other. They said they could feel my aunt's spirit there.

It didn't make me feel good, but I shrugged it off. The dude told us he needed help to hide a body. That was when I realised he was covered in blood, and it wasn't his. I guess my promise to God didn't forbid me from hiding dead bodies, so I went for it. There were people outside trying to see us, they didn't know anybody was inside the house. So I got nervous they'd see me, but I woke up.

Before bed I took 200mg of 5-HTP (in a pill that also contains an inconsequential amount of B6)

Dream 1:

I'm swimming in a stream, the scenery is reminiscent of the lake district on a very bright sunny day (very bright sunshine or almost complete darkness is a dreamsign for me!) As I'm floating downstream I can see bright green grass on the hills and various rocky / soil patches. I look under the water and it's very clear and well lit. The possibility I'm dreaming crosses my mind and after a few moments of building up courage, I try to test it by breathing underwater! First I breathe out and note that there aren't any bubbles, which builds my confidence, so I take a deep breath in and suddenly, as my confidence in being lucid soars, the colouring of the scene changes dramatically. The lighting is still very bright, though not as extremely, and the colours around me get super-saturated (reds look extremely red, the blue water looks like peppermint toothpaste, no dingy colours or half-shades at all). After a moment, I notice that as well as the extremely strong colours, there are also completely grayscale parts to my view.

I swim down the stream underwater marvelling at the brightly lit coral reef like sights. There are luminously bright plants, corals and animals. After a few metres I swim up to the surface and continue above the surface, flying into the air and finding myself at a part of the shore with trees. I fly up alongside a tree which has an entirely grayscale trunk/bark but glowing green leaves. I'm just starting to think about what tasks I can do and I realise the dream is fading, more's the pity!

Fragment 1:
(After my (IRL) alarm goes off at 07:00, I had a brief FA fragment in which I looked at the clock on my phone and it said 07:56 and I was upset that I hadn't managed to use my snooze button for any fragmentary attempts at LDing, but then the alarm went off again at 07:10 (I'd snoozed it at 7) and I went back to sleep, convinced that I'd be able to get some tiny fragments to boost my score, but this one's the only one I got :-(

Lazy journaling strikes again, but this time it didn't claim quite as many point victims - just some earlier non-lucids. Mainly I just forgot some minor transitional details of the lucids I had. It's not my fault it's cold outside of my comfy blankets...

After my WBTB, I'm at my old high school, hanging with some friends. We're jumping around the flowerbeds for some reason, when I realize this seems fairly odd. I think immediately to RC by trying to fly, but I can't quite get it right at first. By now, my friends are all wondering what I'm doing, so I say I'm trying to make sure I'm dreaming. I keep jumping, and each time I get a little higher. I've notice by now that my friends are all trying to do the same thing, so I finally have the idea to flap my arms to maintain my height. It finally works, until I get high enough to prove to myself that I can fly, after which I fly off to somewhere else.

I woke up here, because I heard someone coming down the hall (my mom actually confirmed that she went in the bedroom next to mine, so it wasn't just an FA). I stayed up for a few minutes, before rolling back over and going to sleep. I had some definite WILD transitions, possibly some of the cleanest I've ever had. I'm now lying on the ground in this warehouse-like building, so I get up and try to remember what I wanted to do next. I recall my second step of my 3-step task is to teleport. I'm not great at teleporting, but I remember wanting to try it with a portal gun, which usually works in my dreams. I reach into my pocket and pull out the gun, even though it looks and feels more like a rolled-up umbrella. I point it at a brick wall near me and shoot, making the firing sound effect with my mouth. Nothing happens. I try two or three more times, but still nothing. I then tried my old method of drawing the portal on the wall, but even that did nothing. Well, gotta go with the golden rule of lucid dream control - fake it 'till you make it. I charge at the wall where I placed my portal and dive into it. There's a short second where I'm surrounded by blackness (the loading screen as I like to think of it), until the scene appears around me. I'm now at my old house. Well that went better than expected.

I remember my next task that I wanted to complete - summon KestrelKat from my team. I don't even remember what methods I try to use to summon her, but nothing works. Meanwhile, my dad walks in and asks me to help him with his medicine. He hands me his pill bottle, and I read the label:

Directions: Add one Kestrel and stir with warm water.

I bust out laughing. The dream was basically making fun of me for not being able to summon KestrelKat. I lose control of the dream and go into a non-lucid.

I'm helping out at some drama and dance competition at my church. My pastor asks me to take some chairs inside that had been out in the parking lot, so I roll them inside. There's a ton of groups in each room practicing, and every time I try to pass through a doorway to the next room, someone stops me and tells me I can't go in there. I tell them that I'm just passing through, putting some chairs back in the sanctuary, so they let me through. After dropping them off, I get back to the main stairwell, where I see two of my friends dressed up for their skit - one is dressed as an older lady, and the other as her obnoxious teenage daughter. I wish them luck on the competition, before eventually waking up.

WBTB - 2 pts
First DILD - 10 pts
RC/Stabilization - 1 pt
Flying - 5 pts
First WILD - 10 pts
Teleport - 10 pts
2nd Step - 10 pts
1 NLD - 1 pt

Night 4 Total - 49 pts
Competition Total - 90.5 pts

13/1/2016 (tue)

Fragment
-Recall holding a rifle with a scope. In an enemy base. We capture enemy soldiers. I threaten people with the gun.

Fragment
-Victoria ag. My family are dying of syphillis, lying in beds. Covered in red sores and scars. There is a small boy who gets in trouble. The others order him to go stand facing the window. I make the others laugh about what he did and realise it was a joke, not malicious. They forgive him.

Short LD 335 "Back to Brighton"
I am lost in an unfamiliar city. There are overhead signs in the street. Roads filled with traffic. I am disorientated. This must be Brighton, which is where I went to university. I should probably go see what the sitation is, because I haven't been in a while. Maybe they will kick me off the course. (The course which I finished and graduated from several years ago.)

The streets lead to a pedestrianised shopping area. The university is just a few streets away. Sure enough, within a few minutes of walking I find the university. NH from work is with me, along with an unknown male DC. The entrance to the university is closed, but the reception desk is open. My awareness rises and I become lucid, however in the few moments that I gather my thoughts and try to work out what to do next, the dream fades to black and I wake.

Fragment
-Competition for a pair of motorbike boots. I put my hand up to show interest, but don't win them. My parents win a DVI cable, and Mum also gets a brown handbag thing.

14/1/2016 (wed)

ND -not posted due to freaky weirdness of the NSFW variety.

6.30-7.40am
Short LD 336 "Cloud Chimera"
A normal dream which I can't recall turns into a false awakening in a strange room. The walls are bright yellow. I get up and have this feeling that things are not right, thinking this must be a dream. The pinched nose RC 'proves' it to be a dream.

Seeing a dark window I phase through it and levitate smoothly down to the ground below, down a couple of floors. The area is dark and open and in the sky are storm clouds. I reach up and form the clouds into a chimera shape... well, it looks like a freaky cloud-goat-thing. I couldn't remember the other part of that TOTY. Behind the cloud-goat is a gigantic robot face formed also from the clouds. It looks like a Decepticon. I fly fast up into the sky, straight at the face. It becomes more sinister looking, but then I pass straight through it into darkness.

The black void continues. I think about creating a new world. It starts to rain heavily, and lightning flashes all around me. I continue flying, waiting for something more substantial to form, but instead the dream fades.

When lucid dream started, I found myself walking down the long street. It was empty, quiet. And I observed my surrounding. I found, that while I walked slowly, I was moving very fast-paradox. I had strong thought- Lets find someone to communicate. Because street was empty I turned and walked inside nearest building.
Inside of the building there were stairs. And I walked up the stairs. I was thinking about shared dreams... how to induce it, which experiments I will make to do so. There were doors on one side of staircase. I tried some of them and found out, that they were locked. So I walked up higher and higher. Then I heard some man with black short hairs walking fast after myself. When he was close, I felt invisible hands catching me on my sides and dragging me to side of staircase... and that man walked ruthlessly up, roughly pushing me into wall. If not for those invisible hands, he would throw me down from staircase... I went slowly after that man up the stairs. And we came to the end of the stairs... there was only blank wall there. The man looked on the wall and he was looking confused. He looked like he lost the line of consciousness and started to behave like dream zombie, and walked back down the stairs. When he came close to me I felt invisible hands to push me out of his way and then they pushed me up the stairs. The blank white wall changed to doors and I was pushed towards them. I looked back on the man- he saw me going through doors. He looked even more confused. And doors were closed after I went through them.
I turned from doors and I found out, that I'm in large hall. It looked like hospital. There were doctors pushing beds with sleeping people from some rooms to other rooms... I felt strange feeling in my head, it felt like I'm falling down backward... faster and faster, while all my thought were evaporating from my consciousness. But it didn't correspond with senses of my dream body which was standing... My mind became singular- there was only single thought chain, very subtle one. I felt that I have to call my friend. And I started calling for her. Doctors starred on me sourly and hushed me, People are sleeping here!. So I asked one of them where I could find my friend. And he showed me the way. I walked down the hall to doors and went through them.
Behind those doors there was room , maybe 10 meter x 40 meters or so... and there were girls from my high school(My high school was for medical laboratory assistant and there were 35 girls and only 4 boys in my classroom). They looked much younger, than they are now... more like they looked 25 years ago. I was walking through that room and somehow I was constantly bumping into those girls. I felt that I have to go elsewhere, as fast as possible, before they start to make notice of me. I managed that and went through next doors.
I was in another room. There was young girl, blonde with nearly yellow straight hairs and slender body I felt I had to have sex with her- she disagreed, but didn't complain and didn't try to oppose that act. So we joined our bodies. I felt arousing growing like wave inside of me... and then I felt it wrong. The girl wasn't exactly cooperating during that act... it was one sided. I disjointed our bodies even though that girl protested to that. It was confusing. I cooled my arousal down to neutrality and left through next doors.
On the other side of those doors, there was rural country with only a few houses. I looked behind, it wasn't house I know... the house on the other side of road was also unfamiliar. I decided to try to go into that other house. I went behind the fence. There were two dogs... puppies... one was small, like larger cat, second one was big. Very big, about 1m high and 1.5m long, but puppy nevertheless. It started to lick me. It wasn't exactly pleasant to be wetted by large volume of slobber... so I returned behind that fence. Some people came out from that house... I didn't know them. I asked where I'm, but they didn't tell anything. So I took walk on the road into distance till I fell into deep dreamless sleep.

Remarks
Interesting thing those invisible hands helping me on the stairs.
The hall behind invisible doors- could it be something like dream crossroad? Dreamland where all people are connected and through which we can go to other people dreams?
Maybe those doctors are something like managers of dreams? Beings of that land? Non-corporeal?
Room with highschool girls- it looked like meeting of classmates...
Next room- I'm not sure what that meant to be. Why I felt first I had to have sex, then that it is wrong, dangerous even.

Oops. I had a lucid dream last night, I woke up around three in the morning and was wise enough to write some key elements down.

And then I forgot about it.

So:

I was at the same weird place I was in my last dream. Everything was dark and there were some weird dolls and I felt like I was travelling in time. There were some crazy weird spaceships there too.

I was walking around all the weirdness when it got SO weird I just automatically noticed that I was dreaming.

I could feel I was about to wake up, so I rubbed my hands together. I don't remember ever trying that, but I remembered that people always talk about it. It worked a bit, but not much.

Still, it worked well enough to keep me in the dream, so I laughed cause I was happy. Then, I spun around a little, cause I could also remember people talking about it. And anyway, I was happy.

Then, my younger cousin was there and talking nonstop, so I got annoyed. I decided to leave her talking to herself, jumped up and flew away. It was fuuunnn!

I ended up flying towards this really dark "tunnel" (it was in the sky somehow). I couldn't remember the TOTM, so I figured I could do the last one: blow up the world. It's my face TOTM so far. I could see the planet at the end of the tunnel, almost as if I were in space. I concentrated on exploding everything, which happened... which killed me.

I woke up. Except I was still dreaming. Stupid FA. In the dream, I wanted to log my lucid dream.

So when I DID wake up, I wrote it all down and here we are!

#2

This happened more so randomly and unintentional but I'll talk about it.

The most vivid lucid dream (if you want to consider it a dream) I had was after I had awoken and went back to sleep one night. I couldn't distinguish if my eyes were still close or open but, I remember laying on-top my mattress in my room. Everything looked the same, and the placement of a couple of furniture pieces were exactly where they were in the waking world. I sadly couldn't move but I could see with my eyes. I looked over the blackened silhouettes of my computer chair paired with another item and eventually from those black shapes emerged a creature.

Completely black and half my height, shared very similar aspects of the heartless from Kingdom Hearts, particularly the shadows. His hair almost resembled that of a straw hat with a kind of point on top. He had a yellow smiley face logo, similar to the one Impmon from Digimon has, on his chest. He approached me slowly towering me, sporting a wide grin with ground sharp teeth. Through various ways he exploited himself, I knew right away wanted to have sex with me. I wanted to engage in the act with him but again, I couldn't move due to being in a paralyzed state. Eventually before I could do more about it, I was snapped back to the waking world. The perception still did not change from me coming back but the figure vanished from view.

It was disappointing that I couldn't continue on in the moment, and I was ecstatic about it. About meeting someone/something that normally one wouldn't see in this physical world. But I enjoyed the intensity and vividness of the event nevertheless. I also drew a picture of the creature afterwords but I can't find it at the moment, though I could easily create a new one.

• Notes — Before I started attempting lucid dreaming, I was more focused on astral projecting. The methods I learned from reading up on WILD and MILD are practically the same methods I used when I was taught astral projection from a former college friend. Excluding the part where I imagine my spirit body detaching from my physical. This event happened unintentionally, but I feel that the habit of ding a routinely MILD - WILD
seeped into myself doing it automatically without having any thought of doing so.

Encountering the Shadow creature and wanting to engage is sexual intercourse with him, in my opinion, exhibits a lot of myself and how sexual open I am as a person, especially when it comes to different species. Being that I wasn't at all scared as most people would when being face-to-face with such a being, could explain the fact that in the waking world I do not have fears the ghosts, shadow people, demons, types of fears that exist. Thus, could be why I had such a positive synergy with this creature.

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• Date — Somewhere around the year 2012

• Went to bed — N/A

• Woke up — N/A

*Time logged — N/A

• Total sleep — N/A

• Stress level throughout the day — N/A

• Techniques/Practices — I been doing methods of MILD and WILD for a bit before this event occurred.

*Daytime — N/A

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — NA

• Dream Signs — My bed, my room (being that it wasn't shown to be altered in any way), the exact same placement of furniture

• Perceived Length — 5 minutes

• Emotions — Curious, Happy

• Awareness — Hard to say. I was aware that such an event doesn't normally occur in my world (the waking world), but it wasn't much of an importance in my mind to really focus on.

So I tried this product I found on Amazon called "Dream leaf". I tried the alternative method which says take the red pill the first night and the blue pill the 2nd (because the first method involved waking up 4 hours later to take the red pill) also on the 2nd night I took about 2-3 10 mg of melatonin and I entered the dream world. At first it was a normal non lucid dream, I was standing next to this white 2 story house and I had a ladder in my hand looking up at the open window and this ladder was one of those single sides ones you put on the wall to climb up but instead I put it perfectly vertical not attached to anything and started climbing and I set my hands on the final rung and looked over at the window about to jump through it and I stopped myself and my train of thought and I looked forward and said "wait, this doesn't feel right." "I think I am dreaming...." "Yeah I am dreaming." and then I said I was going to find out for sure so I stood with my feet on the last rung with perfect balance and stared at the ground. I did have 2nd thoughts however I jumped head first anyway and I started to fly and I flew higher and higher and I was in the clouds, I flew over cities, forests, beaches and the ocean and I changed the sky to dusk with beautiful purple and orange clouds. Finally I "woke up" but it was in a different dream and this time I didn't realize I was dreaming.

DILD#1
I woke up and noticed that I could see through my closed eyelids. I got up and towards the back door to go outside into the night. The moment I stepped outside I dropped and fell though the ground into a void. My body was being forced around, first gently, then suddenly shifting me in another direction, before taking me hard and fast. I could feel the G forces being pressed on my body as I looked at the dreamscape passing by, going too fast to identify anything. I waited to stop and feel solid ground. I finally did...directly in front of a guy standing on top of his head doing the spits. I walked around and noticed it was now sunny and I was at a fancy hotel pool party. The many DCs were middle aged and elderly, all in formal attire. There was some light dance music in the background. There was a big curvy pool that caught my fancy. I jumped in and began to swim around, enjoying the atmosphere. Then, I remembered I had dream goals. I scrambled to get out of the pool but woke up.
DILD#2
I was delusional. I had no idea where I was, or what I was doing. I tried to figure out how I got in this confined space at my Grandma's house but couldn't. I was thinking I was having a confusional arousal. This reminded me of dreaming which prompted me to do a nose plug. I could breathe. I got up out of the room though a small door which bumped into a car in the front driveway. I looked for a nice clear area and found one. Finally! No distractions! I got this! I put my hand behind my back and called for paigeyemps. I felt a hand, turned around and it was her. She was perfect. I greeted her enthusiasticly but she didn't look at me. She had a blank stare on her face, looking at something beyond me. I knew this was trouble, she was preoccupied. "I have to go" she says. I tried to stay in front of her but can't go fast enough and she walked away. I desperately cried for her. "No! No, Paigey! Come back! I love you! I love you! I love you!" I woke up.

I took a nap this afternoon AND GOT LUCID. But I had next to no control...

Anyway. My dream was very confusing. I remember this girl I had a crush on last year. I suggested we snuggled and she said sure. It was nice. Then, I had to go somewhere. There was a lot of running around, but I have the impression I was travelling in time too.

Anyway, we were somewhere and I took her hand. She got uncomfortable and I let it go. I apologised, but then I was upset. So I walked around on my own and there were lots of creepy dolls everywhere. I blame Magic Kingdom's "It's A Small World".

I was paralysed and that was when I realised I was dreaming. I laughed, but I couldn't move. I decided to wake myself up, so I forced my weight until I was falling to the ground. I could see my reflection at the door next to me. I was on the floor, my face looked like a doll. It was creepy...

And I woke up.

Wow, I've been so off my DJing game...
I keep thm on my phone every day but I don't even remember the last time I actually typed them up here, and I'm too lazy to check right now...
Either way, here's the DJ-Comeback (or not) for Spellbee's Sweet 16 Competition!


Night One - January 11th, 2016

Had a horrible night's sleep; plan to go to sleep super early (like 7:00pm) and wake up super early to get work done backfired immensely. I was wide awake still by midnight (yes, that's 5 hours of just laying there, trying to sleep) and I got maybe an hour and a half in short bursts through the rest of the night until 3:00 when I decided to fuck it all and get up.

Interestingly enough, I had some very vivid dreams and managed to get lucid...


This was actually the first dream I remembered having:

I was in the Void. Literally just floating around in darkness. I knew I was dreaming right from the get-go. I had thought maybe I was still awake, but also knew I wasn't. I started walking in the air, trying to figure out what to do with my lucidity. I remembered something about creating a new world from the Void, and decided to recreate a minecraft world. I wasn't sure if it would count for the bonus TOTM, but it was worth a try. First, I made a body of water, in which I was standing. Then, I made sure there were large hills all around me. Somehow it turned into an area of the minecraft server Zukin and I play on, in which we've constructed this huge wall to enclose us and inside the wall are building all sorts of crazy, trippy, colorful, wonderful things. I was so happy and started flying around to explore. There were new structures around my "spawn point" and they were completely beautiful. I was a little sad because I knew I couldn't make something with of this level of beauty in Minecraft. I landed in the water of another pool nearby and there decided to try becoming a man. Upon looking down I discovered my manhood and touched it. It was an interesting feeling. I was starting to lose rational lucidity and then another man comes into my view and things got steamy. I think he was doing research on the water levels in that area of Minecraft when he saw me (apparently I was nakey) We touched each other. A lot. I lost lucidity. And then I woke up.



Later in the morning I had another dream, non-lucid. I was in Lilo and Stitch for some reason, and Lilo and her sister were living in this little house on a FUCKING GORGEOUS grassy, forested hill. Like I was climbing up through the trees and come out on the top of the hill and I just wish I had this view in front of me ALL THE TIME. But it turned out that Lilo and her sister were like... no-class. Like they were not upper-class, middle-class OR lower-class. They were not even on the class scale and this made them absolute nobodies in society. Lilo had a big blue bird (Stitch??) but this bird was kinda a bitch to any other birds haha.



The last one I remember was really close to the time I decided to get up. I was trying to finish up my lesson plans for the week (For me, lesson plans for the whole week are due on Monday mornings) and I was cooking baby carrots in the sink. Like, turning on the sink cooked them somehow. My little brother was calling me and telling me about his new girlfriend (he doesn't have one yet, sadly).


Night Two - January 12th, 2016

Just one dream from last night, but it was a pretty interesting one.
I was at a huge party of some sort. We were in a hotel or convention center or something, and there were elevators. I got into one of the elevators (there were two.) There was only an up button so I pressed it. The elevator went up, and then BING'd and opened. I was at the end of a long, LONG hallway. I got out and started walking. Eventually the hallways started to be made of glass, and I could see that there was what seemed to be the end of the universe outside the walls. The hall took a turn and then opened out into this vast, beautiful space. All black, with dimly glowing stars nearby, though not hot and somehow very peaceful. There was absolutely no sound. Now that I was thinking about it, I started to wonder if I've come to the Void again, and wondered if I was dreaming. Looking at my hands revealed I'm indeed lucid (my ring had a white, a blue, and a green stone when it's supposed to be two white and a red stone in the middle).

I looked down from the edge of the hallways, and see these strange... almost negative-blue, structures. Like... hmm. It wasn't the inverse-color-of-blue (orange), it was like literally anti blue. Like so black it was blue. There were rough pillars and mounds, and some spike-like jutting out things, and some bowl-like spaces. I jumped off the edge of this hallways and landed in the structures, but gravity was being a bitch. I felt out of control and was spinning slowly in a zero-gravity that STILL wanted me to go down. I bounced off one of the bowl-things and seemed to float, spinning, off a ramp and into the darkness.

I FA'd back at the two elevators, this time with Zukin by my side. I had lost lucidity completely, and went into one of the elevators (the same one I picked before, though I didn't remember at the time) I had a vague feeling of deja vu, but didn't attain lucidity again. This time, there was also only one button, but it was a down button. I pressed it, and the elevator started plummeting at an extremely high, terrifying speed.

I legit thought we were going to die, but the elevator stopped and we stepped out onto the bottom floor. We were with a whole group of people, but four of them were getting extremely sick. I had a very bad feeling about these sick people, like they we going to try to spread their sickness to us. So Zukin and I tried to get away from them and ended up getting separated from each other. I took the stairs (fuck if I was getting back into that elevator) to the third floor (the 2nd and 3rd floors of this building were a big, open bar or club or something) and found a table where people I knew were sitting. I was hoping to spot Zukin from the railings (they were like huge lofts so you could see the floors below you). I eventually spotted her, called her over. She came to the table with a hamster ball. She invited me to play a game of "Hamster Jamster," whatever that was. We were on our way to a basement room where we were sleeping, and met up with two Gingers. I don't know how this made sense to the dreaming me, but there were two of him; one of them was Zukin's ex who was still clinging onto her at all times, the other was the real Ginger, whom she was dating. We decided not to play Hamster Jamster, and got into our sleeping bags. The not-Ginger was all clingy and kept trying to cuddle with Zukin, but she was all "No, we're not dating anymore..." and continued to cuddle the real Ginger. Or whatever. Zukin remembered she needed to take some medicine, and we found out it was in the most ridiculous packaging EVER. There were two pills in these huge cardboard things. Like srsly wtf drug companies.

Then I woke up.

Revenge of the DC
I wake up and notice I could sort of see with my eyes closed. I get up and go to the front entrance. I decide to try my trusty jump into the void RC which has never failed me. I jump but don't go anywhere. I look through the glass front door and see two postal workers approaching. They unlock the door and open it. From behind them, a man in a Dominos Pizza uniform approaches me and takes two dollars out of my shirt pocket while saying "My money." I wake up.
DILD
I'm walking upstairs with my dad when I randomly start thinking "What if I'm dreaming?" I recall the failure of my last RC and try to float in the air this time, which I do. My dad says to see what the cable cars outside. I fly downstairs to look out the front but don't see any cable cars. I could hear them though. I fly back up to my dad try to figure out what's with the cable cars. I wonder if I should call somebody to figure it out. I wake up.
WILD
I'm staring at the back of my eyelids while falling asleep when I notice some random text popping up in the darkness. I watch the dream being created. I get up from bed with the dream still a bit unstable but I hang in there. I put my hand behind my back with the intention of summoning a random female from DV. I feel a hand and turn around to see an attractive young lady that I don't recognize. I ask her for her name and she says it's Naiya. This throws me off because I don't know if it's Naiya because I don't know what she looks like. I know she's attractive though so I decided to make out with her. She's not into it at all, though. She's just standing there like dead weight. I back off and see she's turned real ugly, sort of like an alien. I'm like fine, be that way. I'll just summon another lady from DV. I put my hand behind my back, feel a hand, turn around and see a clone of the other girl. I ask her why they look alike and she looks at her clone as they both shrug as if to say "Well I dunno!" I've had enough of this and go away to try to summon just a random young lady. I feel a hand, turn around and see an old lady who looks like one of my Grandma's friends. She says greets me enthusiastically and comes up to kiss me. I wake up.

12/1/2016 (mon)

Before 4.20am
ND "Rain Catching"
Most of the dream is spent wandering around after a strung out guy who is making an art film about war. He shows me part of it which features flags on a wall in the shape of various countries, with war like slogans appearing over the top. It is shown using a holographic projector. The guy starts waving a net on a pole back and forth over the projected image.

The film skips to being about mass killings. The next piece is about someone killing everyone in a department store by coverinig the floor in rat poison pellets. I question this - wouldn't they have to eat the pellets to be effected? The video skips to showing hundreds of people lying dead on the department store floor, and a racoon-faced man with a beard laughing about it.

Then it turned out to be a flash-forward, or a possible future scenario. I am in the store and everyone is still alive. One of the employees opens a card and the others gather around to read it. They start discussing the card and the rat-poison killer.

The dream skips back to the strung out guy. He is waving the long net-on-a-pole back and forth under a gutter where rain is running down off a roof. Maybe he is trying to catch the rain in his net. I wonder if this is supposed to be some fancy analogy for war and how pointless it is. Then he gets rainwater in his eye and it blinds him. In panic he starts running through an alley between two buildings. He jumps over a footpath gate and runs away.

At this point a woman shows up and the plot goes kinda sideways. Basically, there are two women, one I really like but who isn't that interested in me (let's call her B), and one whom I don't really care about but am sleeping with to get information ('A'). Neither of them are AB, my RL partner, and there is no mention of her at all in the plot. A is part of a drug gang, making me some sort of undercover agent working for B.

Anyway, so while chasing after strung-out film guy, I bump into A. She seems in a good mood and invites me for coffee at a nearby cafe. She is normally broke but apparently has a large amount of cash, so I try to find out where it came from. She is evasive and won't tell me, despite a great deal of flirting, kissing and touching (with clothes still on 'cause we're in the cafe, although we are way beyond acceptable displays of public affection here... think drunken uni-house party behaviour). "Can't I just treat you, for a change?" She replies, getting tired of all the questions. I decide to back off for a bit.

Leaving the cafe and A, I head over to B's appartment because all the foreplay has left me feeling extremely horny. There are a couple of guys who look like wrestlers heading into the appartment next to hers. B walks up while I'm standing outside the door. Damn she's hot. She questions me about A, we make out for a bit then she opens the door. It leads straight into a bedroom. I lead her straight over to the bed, but a bee flies out and attacks me. I try to fend it off and wake up twitching and trying to slap the bee away from my face. It is a few moments before I realise that there is no bee.

4.30-6.30am
Short LD 334 "Star Power"
I flup through photos on my phone. There are some of me. Among the photos are videos of people dancing, and a young kid with shaving cream on his face.

My friends JR and ST are sitting with me in a bar, drinking. We chat about dreams and I recall a (fictional) awesome dream from the night after I saw them both last. JR fell up a grass bank, or something... I try to find the dream entry on my phone but have trouble with the phone being typically unusable in a dream.

The surroundings shift, placing me in an exam room with AB. All the desks are taken. I move a metal filing cabinet and cover it with a piece of wood to make a desk to work at. There are bags on the floor that I shove out the way. The exam involves a bag of 'Lucozade tablets'. They can be used to clean things? While trying to read the instructions I notice that the guy at the desk next to mine has undone his trousers and is playing with himself. :yuck:

It occurs to me how utterly absurd this all is. Must be a dream. I leave and head outside, finding a children's adventure playground on a grassy hill. It is night time. There are no clouds and the sky is filled with stars. I recall the challenge task and reach up to hold a star. It feels warm, like a lightbulb, yet sharp like a jagged stone. I gently close my hand on the star and absorb the energy from it. Opening my hand the star has disappeared from the sky.

The stars are now arranged in patterns. They look like magical symbols, or possibly Egyptian heiroglyphs. Nearby DCs are looking at me and asking what I'm doing.
"I have the power of the stars!" I laugh.
To demonstrate I repeat the earlier action of closing my hand around the brightest stars in the sky to absorb their power. I feel incredible, as if I just downed an energy drink and won X-fighters. What can this star power do? I try and unleash it as energy bolts and do a sort of Spiderman web shooting pose but nothing happens. Feeling a bit hyper and full of energy I do some parkour over the playground benches and climbing frames.

At this point I recall the phoenix TOTY and think about setting fire to something, but wake up instead.