lucid

There was big black dog. It was mine, but i couldn't remember its name. I thought that it can't be so, count fingers -six. I wanted to transform myself in live coals, like bad guys in iron man . I did it and went to my son - look! i'm like in iron man! I' m too!!! he said and i saw many red sports on it. His eyes was absolutely black, like in horror films. I said - Look! and spited with a fire. He came to me and touched me. In fact i was afraid a bit at first, but i felt no pain. I spited once again and there appeared a lot of DCs and i went to the garden through the wall.... With open eyes. I went about 2-3 seconds. In the yard i met kids- they were advertising something. I said - you know - you are dreaming....i felt that they attached me, fought with them a bit and went to real.

05/17/13

Labyrinth of Darkness
I am in a dark passage that looks like something out of a medieval dungeon. I am not exactly lucid, but I have the mindset that I am playing a video game. I somehow pull back and view my own character as if from outside. I am me, dressed in black Assassin's robes. I must be playing some new Assassin's Creed game. I go back to 1st person. I can sense where my target is, but this time it isn't a target to kill it's a target to rescue. If I can avoid being seen by the demons here I will be better off. This is a stealth mission. So I quietly sneak down the corridor, following the closest route to my target. I see movement down the corridor and I move into a dark alcove just in time to avoid being seen by a really ugly guard as he walks by.

With my dark robes he doesn't notice me at all. He looks a bit like a human sized troll… and he smells worse. I continue down the corridor, watchful for any other guards. I hear the screams of someone being tortured. Is that my target? I might have to fight to get him out after all. I follow the direction of the screams for a bit and I realize I am going the wrong way. But I am close to the source of the screams now… I have to check it out. I peek through an open door into a torture chamber with all sorts of nasty indescribable devices. There is a bald man chained to one of those devices being tortured with fire by three more of the troll things. They laugh every time he screams. I plan to go into the room and try to stealth assassinate two trolls at once and then hopefully get the third before he raises an alarm. I am about to do that when what looks like a demon enters the room and tells the trolls to back down. They immediately hurry away into a corner as if they are afraid they will be next to be tortured. The demon addresses the prisoner as Robert de Sable and says he must apologize for this treatment. I do a double take… the prisoner is a Templar leader? The demon says someone must have made a mistake, he had left explicit orders for Robert to be brought directly to see him as he has a business proposition. The demon acts as if he has just realized Robert is in pain, and waves one taloned hand. The scene shifts. Robert is now standing in front of the demon, no longer chained, and his wounds are healed, and he is in his usual Templar armor, I can recognize him now.

The demon says he wants Robert to work for him. Robert asks what if he doesn't want to. The demon says if the answer is no, he will simply go and leave Robert to his fate. The troll demons in the corner are muttering to each other. Robert immediately tells the demon not to go, he just wants to know what he would be doing for the demon. The demon grins evilly and says he only wants Robert to do what he likes to do best… kill Assassins. Robert mutters something about Altaïr. The demon laughs and says revenge against Altaïr may come later, but Robert's first target is actually one of Altaïr's descendents… an annoying Assassin by the name of Ezio Auditore. The demon says his power will allow Robert to crush Ezio like a small bug, but they would discuss details in a more suitable location. The trolls in the corner are hissing in anger, they want their prisoner back. The demon just glares at them and they cower back. Both the demon and Robert leave through an exit on the other side of the room. I think something should be done to keep them from going after Ezio, but I still believe I am playing a video game and I am not at a high enough level to challenge that demon. He would crush me like a small bug… So I make a mental note to find a way to help Ezio as I continue to track the target of my current mission. I finally find where my target is. A troll guard is standing by a prison cell door. I sneak quietly over to the cell door and stealth assassinate the troll guard with my hidden blade, charging the blade with light energy in order to make it more effective. I use a Harry Potter spell alohamora to unlock the cell door and I go inside. There is a man huddled in the corner under white robes. Is he an Assassin? He is my target. I go over and tell him I'm there to get him out. He says if he had any strength he could open a portal. I focus on transferring some energy to him. He looks up at me, now looking more like a wizard than an Assassin. He stands and opens a portal. I can see it leads to somewhere green and alive. He says to hurry before the demons sense the portal, they hate it when someone escapes the Dark Realm. He goes through the portal but before I can follow him I wake.

I entered into a lucid dream, when I started seeing things in my eyelids I decided to make the eyes into something not threatening so they started to form into the eyes of a kitten until I was in a dream and holding a little black kitten with blue eyes, I jumped out of bed and ran to my door with the kitten. (I don't know why I sprint for my door whenever I WILD) I opened the door before I could think up of a scene or place to go but it was to late anyways because I then lost the lucid and began dreaming that this man was chasing me through this house with many rooms, I ran to the back and ran outside on this porch/dock and saw many people on little one person speed boats and I held out my thumb thinking maybe one would give me a ride before the man caught up, then all the people pointed guns at me, and a women laughed and said please please please let me do it let me just do it. and I looked at her shocked and said no and then ran into the brush she kept her gun pointed at me the whole time. woke up

Date: 15 May

Pre bed: 400 mg valerian, 100b B6

Total sleep time: 7hrs

Impressions and Recall: There was my usual for B6 sense of aggression seeping through parts of the dream. After waking up from the lucid (after 5 hrs of sleep), I decided to take key notes and review as not to wake myself up. I got pretty excited and the internal dialogue turned on full power, resulting in about an hour of insomnia. After that I fell into deeper more unconscious type of sleep with a decreased recall capability. I had another lucid from which I remember only a part, I continued sleeping after it was over and had an non-ld.

Fragment1: Some kind of posts on DV that had to do with PennyRoyal.

Fragment2: At home, my parents have gone somewhere and I am in my room cooking some strange pancake/calzone thing that looks and tastes delicious. I have to leave some for my grandma.

Dream3 DILD TOTY attempt: I am in a room which feels familiar, three women are sitting around the table, and I am cleaning up as if after a meal. One of the women has some tempting white green chocolate cookies, I am secretly planning on having a few after the women are gone. Another female DC comes in and starts behaving really aggressively. She demands all the attention, looks me in the eye with hatred and begins complaining to one of the women in the room. I have the feeling that they will start a fight with each other, so get out of there fast. Her hostility feels kind of fake, and at this point the memory of the B6 effect for me reaches my subcon on a subtle level.

I find myself on the stairs of a building and lots of aggressive gangster type boys are all around me. One of them is particularly evil, feels dangerous. I become lucid on a distracted level, realizing this is a dream, but unable to do anything about the guy. I am trying to move away but it is really crowded on the stairs, I think somebody pushed me, and I end up in a niche on the wall. The wall is not really wall but something liquid that sucks me in. As I move forward in this thing, I achieve a better clarity of mind and am fully lucid and in control. There is a single task that I feel the urge to do now, go to Angel Falls. I remember CL’s advice to try to feel the floor, so I move my fingers, touching the empty space and feeling small grains of sand and pebbles. The dream idea was to be on top of Angel Falls, but in the water, so in addition to my feeling the floor, I begin to make swimming movements with my hands. The wall is already liquid and it is like a white pinkish sinking sand made of rubber-like substance. The whole world has disappeared and it is just me and the wall and I feel a closer to the void, afraid that the dream would destabilize and disconnect. I am swimming forward and nothing happens for a while, but I decide to keep on swimming. At some point the whole environment changes and I find myself looking at a flower, submerged in water.

I look at the dark purple flower and marvel its beauty, noticing every petal in detail. I look around, and see that I am in the middle of a pond/lake that stretches as far as my eyes can see. At the same time, mixed with this image I find myself in my old room, where all this is taking place. I focus on the surface of the pond which looks like a silver mirror reflecting the clouds. I then notice that this pond is covered or rather slowly begins to cover itself with lotus flowers. Bright yellow and magenta lotus flowers are everywhere I move my eyes to look. I feel happiness upon witnessing this beautiful sight. The dream is extremely vivid and stable. Needless to say, I am somewhat distracted by this, but keep gliding on the surface of the pond in the direction of Angel Falls. This doesn’t work too well, I am still within the confines of my room, looking through some glass that distorts the view from outside, which is the view from my room with strange rainbow-like effects. A bit like looking out during a bus ride. It looks like my room wins the battle between the two layers of images, gaining more detail.

Soon the water level in the room goes down and with it my lucidity. I struggle to restore the water level with intent, but non-lucid already. I manage to briefly do so, but then I see the floor and the water is retreating. There is also mud everywhere, the furniture is falling apart. I become concerned about the state of my old room and wonder how to clean everything. [end of memory]

After the dream ended, I had a brief awakening, noting to myself about the lucid, but then fell asleep again. I heard some kind of bell-like sound, I guess a type of HI, that actually woke me up. After reviewing the dream I had 1 hour of insomnia. Then - deeper sleep and less memorable sleep.

Fragment4: Having to share the bed with relatives, I preferred sleeping on the ground.

Fragment5: Some more beds, family friends.

Dream6 DILD: I am in my hometown, in a familiar park and am lucid. I see a few dogs around, mostly small ones and larger one (no idea what breed) captures my attention. I keep looking at it and feel my emotions reflected in the dog. I observe it a for a while, the dream is stable, I am happy. By simply looking around, I unconsciously summon more dogs of different smaller breeds. I find this cool. [end of memory]

Fragment7: I see and talk to a politician I don’t like.

Didn't really care much for using self-hypnosis for lucid dreaming and just wanted to have the sleep where you sleep through until the next morning.

17.05.2013

Sex with Teal Scott [DILD] (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Okay, can't really remember much, but I'll try.

The dream, at least from what I recalled, was already occurring, it's just that the non-lucid state was so hard to remember until this point. I feel I was lucid at the time, seeing as how it was similar to me doing self-hypnosis sessions to go from waking to dreaming state quickly.

So the dream starts out with me and a female that looks exactly like Teal Scott on YouTube (The Spiritual Catalyst). My memories of how she would talk, and her overall personality, and her positive demeanor that she naturally shows (or maybe it's just me wanting to believe that), combined with her being half-naked in front of me...it's just hard to describe my emotions at the time.

Damn it, I need to work on my descriptions more.


I don't know why two spoiler's are showing up, but whatever, too lazy to edit this.

Spoiler for 18+ Content - Read at your own risk:

Her hair is very detailed, with individual strands coming off to the left side of her forehead, and her lipstick was either black or a very dark pink color. It was hard to tell since there was more focus on me having sex with her. I couldn't tell if it was vaginal or anal, but whatever the case, I find myself shifting between two people once more. I'm not sure if there's another clone of me, but it feels like I'm filming this sex scene with her and my doppelganger.

It feels like I'm blackmailing her for the majority of the dream, but I found she doesn't really care anymore and ends up smiling. She was on top of me, and I was lying down on the bed, gripping my hands on her love handles, and she has her back facing me. She was probably wearing red lingerie seeing how they were on the right side of the bed.

The bed itself was fairly dull in color, like a muddy brown color, and was probably laid out like that so that I would focus my attentions towards Teal Scott. She has her shirt lifted up, but not taken off, just enough to fit and wrap around on top of her breasts about 3-4 inches. She's really enjoying what's happening, and I find the more she looks at the camera, the more she starts smiling.


She's confused with her own sexual expressions and trying not to laugh at the camrea

Spoiler for 18+ Content - Read at your own risk:

(hopefully she wasn't laughing at what I did to her ;____; ), and even though we didn't reach climax, I could still remember how intense things were. I decided to shift back to being a spectator that's filming this, and I take an electronic device and told Teal Scott that we'll be taking a picture of her as well.


She mounts herself off of me, and she quickly pull down her red shirt, and it ends up being a red netted shirt with the neck region and some of the shoulder region being regular fabric. I don't know why she wanted to cover herself, especially since all of this was going to be filmed in any case.


And when I saw her in the netted shirt, it made me focus more on any colors different from her overall skin colors, and her brown nipples became eye-candy for me. I gazed at her breasts for a bit, and I'm sure there's more that I did to her,

but that's all that I remember.

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17.05.2013

Mirror, Mirror, On The Wall....and a Demon (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm looking at a mirror in a random room that seems to be there for me to focus more on the mirror. The room itself had bland and dull colors of crimison red and burned red (I'm horrible with color naming, sorry).

I could feel that looking into this mirror would turn into something random and potentially bad. I didn't bother looking at myself, just at the mirror in an angle where I couldn't see myself. I see a sinister face show up, and I start getting jumpy. I shift my focus to a random point in the room, and then turned back to the mirror, having a longer gaze than before.

I do this once more, and then focused on the mirror until the face of a demon shows up, and I can't remember what happened next.

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17.05.2013

Chubby Anal Sex (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for 18+ Content:

I had anal sex with a dream character that was chubby. The most awkward penetrative dream sex so far. It was like a mix between realism and cartoon effects.

The room was similar to the ones I had with the dreams above me, which is kind of weird. But whatever.

My penis wasn't really working that well, and I had to ignore the person's face so I wouldn't get turned off. I think that was the major conflict her, her visage.

Eh.

Flying Over a Mountain Range [DILD]

The setting in this dream was odd, I was at home but I was also in some kind of school class working on a project. There was a decent chunk of this dream that was non-lucid, but I can't really remember much of it now. Basically where my recall comes in is when I became lucid and decided to go for a change of scenery.

I had decided to try walking through some doors instead of phasing for once, but then I remembered a thing I read where it said that walking through a door is enough to disrupt short-term memory and decided against it. I phased out through the backyard door of my house and flew over the fence and across other peoples' yards. The main thing I remember is that in this yard immediately behind mine, which looked nothing like it does in real life, there was a naked woman sunbathing that just caught me by surprise so I thought it was funny.

Next thing I knew the area around my house had completely changed, and I was flying high over a bunch of fields and a mountain range. It was extremely vivid and lifelike, I think it may have been the most realistic flying scene I've ever had in a lucid. I was just in awe of all of it, especially the trees, some of which were hanging in the air. They actually had very similar designs to these plants we have hanging from our living room ceiling, so I'm betting that that's what inspired them, but they were much larger, more complex, and very beautiful and natural-looking. The whole view was just incredible.

Anyway... I started thinking the name S, which I've known lots of people named, and landed somewhere in a field by this compact trailer home. I looked around and saw this girl who was one of the people with that name, this girl SS I knew from acting classes in middle school, and ran up to her and said hi. She pointed out this tornado to me that was in the distance, and either she told me or I just suddenly knew that she was training to be a wind witch and I told her to try to change its path. She wasn't really able to though, but it did pass right by us in a very unrealistic fashion without even creating any feeling of gust, it's more like it just phased out of existence by getting closer to me in my vision.

After that SS and I just sat down and I wrapped my legs around her, but then I woke up.

05/16/13

Escape From Jerusalem
I am lying on a blanket in the middle of a green field. I look up at the clouds passing through the blue sky, I see that one of them looks like a cat. I sit up and look around. I am by myself. I remember my dream plans. Healing. I have been making it a habit to do some healing on Nomad's girlfriend Winter to try to get her fibromyalgia under control. Unfortunately it doesn't seem to be helping. But I guess I'm not ready to give up trying. So I open a portal to the healing springs on the moon. Nomad and Winter are already there, so I go through the usual process of healing with the song Voices. It makes me want to fall asleep in the dream, but I remember that there is another plan. To share an Assassin's Creed dream with SJ. As if he already knew what I wanted to do, Q appears and says he will send me to the proper instance of Jerusalem. He snaps his fingers and the scene around me changes. I am now standing in a back road of a city that looks like Jerusalem from Assassin's Creed. I am just missing SJ. I use the song Dream On by Aerosmith to initiate a shared dream. I focus on SJ, and after a bit a woman appears. She is dressed in dark Assassin robes and is looking around at the city but doesn't seem to notice me. I ask if she is SJ, she says yes. Now to find Altaïr. Of course that could be difficult in a place the size of Jerusalem, especially if he doesn't want to be found. I figure Q probably sent me to a place fairly close to Altaïr. SJ and I walk out into what looks like a busy market place.

There are vendors all around selling their wares, people buying, it is very crowded. I see what appears to be the main gate out of the city not far away. There are Templars blocking the way, which is getting quite a few people more than a little pissed off. I look around the area and I spot one of the game hiding places. Five robed scholars approaching the gate. But the middle one isn't quite right. The differences aren't nearly as visible as in the game, his weapons are mostly concealed beneath his robes. I can see the tip of the sword hanging down below the robes, but that is it. If I didn't know what I was looking for… The group of scholars approaches the gate and tries to pass through but the Templars block the way. After briefly arguing about it and then getting threatened with execution the group turns back into the market place. I see a bench nearby, so SJ sits on one end and I sit on the other. As I expected, Altaïr sits right between us and looks over at the gate, watching the Templars closely.

SJ is staring at Altaïr. Maybe he sees her from the corner of his eye or maybe he just senses her watching him, but Altaïr turns and looks at SJ. SJ hesitates briefly, then holds up her left hand with the ring finger bent over to indicate she is an Assassin. I can't see his face, and it is too loud to hear if he is speaking, so I don't know how he responds. But after a short time he turns and looks over at me. I copy SJ's hand gesture to indicate I am also an Assassin. He looks at me closely for a bit, perhaps checking my identity with his eagle vision. He seems satisfied that SJ and I are both Assassins. He says it is important that he get out of Jerusalem as quickly as possible before Robert de Sable meets with Richard. SJ indicates the gate. He asks if we know how many Templars are out there. I say it's not enough. Altaïr says he'd been hoping to avoid a direct confrontation with the Templars but there is no more time to wait. So all three of us go over to the gate. Templars get in the way and say no one enters or leaves. The Templar who spoke eyes us suspiciously. Two more Templars join him when we seem unwilling to leave. There are three of them, three of us… three stabs with three hidden blades, three dead Templars. The others don't seem to immediately realize what has just happened. We are halfway through the gate before some Templar sounds the alarm, pointing at us and yelling that the Assassins are here, don't let them through. So now a fight begins. I look over at SJ and see she has produced a sword from somewhere and knows how to use it. She kills a Templar as I watch. The next thing I know Altaïr yells to look out. I turn just in time to see Altaïr's throwing knife embedded in the neck of a Templar who had been coming at me. I need to pay less attention to SJ and more attention to the Templars! I dodge an incoming attack from a Templar and counter strike with my Witchblade sword, taking out another Templar. We are fighting our way towards the stables. Altaïr is after a horse. So we fight our way to the stables, leaving a trail of dead Templars in our wake. Then Altaïr is on a horse, tearing out of the stable at full speed and running down a couple Templars who had been blocking the gate. SJ and I kill some Templars trying to get to the horses to give chase. I see Altaïr disappear into the distance. There's no way they'll catch him now. I have just killed another Templar when I wake.

4/16/13

1. I am on a tennis court. Odd things happen, and it turns into a competition. An adversary wants to trap me on one side. I walk horizontally out into the city area. I become certain that I am dreaming. I go into a restaurant. The faint image of a man running into down an apartment hall appears.

2. I have a false awakening, and I lose my lucidity.

3. I am in a city street. I am lucid again. I am awed, and I decide not to do anything while I am lucid because I am unprepared. I decide to just view the dreamscape. I want to go to the Woodland away from the city. I begin to fly towards it. An enemy comes up to me in the field. I fly up into the air to avoid him. He taunts me and says that I will have to come down some time. He says that he will cause many nightmarish false awakenings. I say that he is just a dream character. and I wake up.

4. I am still dreaming, and I awaken to a figure slicing skin off of me in my sleep. I realize he has a face similar to that of the man of before. I still am not lucid. He is rambling and psychotic.

I call the police, but instead just mumble into the phone, "Something's wrong," before dropping it with newfound lucidity. I awaken.

5. It is another FA. I go the man from the dream that is in my house, but I am illogically non-lucid. I yell at him. I am shocked. He winks at me when I complain about the FAs. At that, I become lucid, but I wake up for real.

#184 - DILD - 10:08AM - 4 of 4

I'm feeling ill today so lay back down for a nap.

I am sitting in the living room on the couch watching TV next to my younger daughter. I hear her say "[something something], mother fucker". This gets my attention and I look at her startled. I say, "Dalynn! You don't get to say that word. You're just not old enough."
She replies, "But mom said it. She said she was going to get lucid like a mother fucker." My eyes get big and I'm surprised she said it again. I look over at my wife and see is blankly starting at the TV oblivious to the conversation. Then I get it. Several things hit me at once. First, my daughter is really 6 but she looks 13. Second, my wife would have come unglued if my daughter had really said that. Third, the furniture was all wrong. Fourth, my daughter said her mom wanted to get lucid.
I say out loud, "I think I might be dreaming." I nose plug out of habit and blow through but it feels a little restricted. Hmm. I'm not sure now. I do it again several time until I am satisfied that I am dreaming. "Hey! I am dreaming."

Then I make a classic mistake of thinking way too much about my physical body lying in bed. I find myself in hard SP. I open my eyes and can see I am on my left side. My face is slightly buried into the blanket and all I can see is the gold and burgundy pattern of the comforter. I try to roll over but I am completely paralyzed. I feel really hot and think I am sweating profusely. I just want to uncover and get air but I can't. I feel claustrophobic and restricted.

OK I can accept this. I close my eyes and relax and transition out of bed. I feel like I am walking with my eyes closed so I instinctively open them. I really just open my physical eyes. I see the blanket again and feel surprised that I had not budged a muscle. I feel so hot. I close my eyes and try to move the blankets of me. I feel like I really did it for a second but when I open my eyes again I see nothing changed. I decide to just ignore the hot feeling again and try to dream. As soon as I relax I wake up and realize I am not the least bit hot or sweaty.

#183 - DEILD - 5:26AM - 3 of 4

This time my wife's not budging so I physically get up walk around the bed and hit the snooze button. I quickly lay back down hoping to DEILD

I get vibrations really quickly but seem to have trouble moving. I decide to roll left. I spin really fast and feel like I am moving a great distance. Then the motion makes me feel really nauseated so I stop. I just wait for the scene to form on its own.

I am on the front porch again. I see some a small strange looking green and yellow bush growing in the sidewalk by the steps. I float down to it and feeling it for stability. It must be only 2 feel tall.

Then I look up and see a woman walking into my yard from the street. She acts like she knows me and we hug. I realize I can't see her face in the darkness. I say rather franticly, "Let me see your face! Let me see your face!" I am obsessed with seeing her face now. I aggressively put my hands on both cheeks moving her hair back and tilting her face to the light. She looks like attractive with brunette hair and really familiar. I think of her as my wife but she doesn't look like her. (Past life memory?) We kiss passionately and fall to the ground near the curb. I begin to pull her clothes off. I don't care if I am lucid dreaming right now. I really want this. But no, she pulls away and laughs. She says, "Not out here. I need to go pee anyway." She runs into the house expecting me to follow.
The house always feels like a trap in my dreams so I really don't want to go back in. I really don't feel in the mood now so I say, "Well you have fun. I'm staying outside."
She calls back over her shoulder asking why but I just ignore her.

I stand there trying to look at the stars again with my hands in my pockets. Still can't seem to manage it. Suddenly I hear a car approaching. I see headlights coming form the North and I run out in front of it. I think of terrorizing them at first but decide to take the car instead. I stand in the road with my hands out in a "stop" gesture. The car slows and I hear the brakes squeal a little. It looks like an old wore out 1990 red Ponitac Sunbird. I can hear to door make a 'sqwonk' sound as the driver opens it and gets out. I decide to be nice but manipulate him a bit. I say, "Oh hey. Thanks for bringing my car to me!"
I can't see the man very well past the lights but I can see him walking away causally. He replies, "Hey man no problem."
I get in the car smirking at how stupid he was and mutter, "I love DCs."

I notice right away that the car sounds really rough like it's missing a muffler. This car's a hot mess but it really doesn't matter right now. I punch the petal down and drive off. The acceleration is poor but I'm moving. I forget to think of a destination and end up just aimlessly driving around at night. I keep telling myself that it is day time but the dream doesn't change for me. I continue driving anyway... Grand Theft Auto style. At one point I end up down town at a red light. There's no way I am stopping for a red light in a dream. I swerve to go around the cars stopped in front of me and sideswipe another car knocking out of my way. I watch the red light as I pass under it. Then I lose control and there is darkness. No. I'm just in a tunnel. There will be light on the other side. I begin to believe this and see in fact there is a brightly lit road several hundred feet away. At that moment the alarm goes off again.

Non lucid false awakening. My ass feels wet so I get out of bed. Glenn from works walks in the bathroom and laughs. He tells me I shit my pants. I take off my underwear and see I'm drenched wet with spatters of brown. I think I must have horrible diarrhea. I wake up on my left side. My ass was out of the covers and got cold.

#182 - DEILD - 5:26AM - 2 of 4

The alarm goes off and my wife hits snooze.

I hold still and concentrate on awareness. I feel someone stroking my hair next to me. I think it is my mom. The TV is on. I hear my dad on my right. I feel like a little child again. I am trying to get lucid. My left leg twitches and my mom laughs at me. She says something about me falling asleep. My dad just grunts a "huh". I twitch again letting my body do its natural falling asleep. I am aware. This time both legs twitch. My mom giggles. My mom? What the hell?

I realize I am deeper that I thought and get out of bed. I go straight outside out the font door. It is chilly and I feel like I am just in my underwear. The wind picks up. I feel it swirl around me then lift me. I am suddenly sucked off the porch and land in the yard. When I roll over to my back I see the porch light has become super bright. The intense yellow hurts my eyes and I advert my gaze so that I don't become lost in it.

I wonder around in the yard a bit, looking at the grass, feeling it and stabilizing. I see many stars but for some reason looking up is difficult. It's like my head wouldn't move up and my eyes kept darting back and forth. I wanted to focus on a star and fly there but I just couldn't hold it still.

Then I remember my original task and proudly proclaim, "I'm the doctor!" I left the TARDIS right around the side of the house. I fully believe myself as I walk around. I can see my back yard and a street light and BAM! A dark silhouette of something like a tall box. Not quite what I had imagined in my MILD attempt earlier but it'll do. I run up to it and when I get next to it, I see its about half my height. It's dark but I can see the police call box sign and the blue doors. NO! Not good enough I reach inside it and pull it apart. It stretches out and becomes big enough to step into. Ah but its just a dark box! I am a little irritated that it's not bigger on the inside with that sweet center console but I'm just glad I finally found it. I decide not to close the door and just imagine that its going to work anyway. I see the scene outside morph and change. It looks snowy for a second then darkness. Then someplace bright and sunny, Then I am flying. I see treetops and stars. Then it gets all wobbly. I can't seem to control it so I decide to bail. I jump out and find myself face down in the grass. There is darkness and confusion.

I am back in bed. I get up and try to open my eye but I feel like I open my real eyes.

The snooze alarm goes off.

#181 - MILD - 4:05AM - 1 of 4

I forgot the first part of this. It seems to be a very low level lucid. I forgot my lucid task - pretend I'm The Doctor and walk to the TARDIS... but the red converse came to mind.

I am with my parents in some clothing store already lucid. I wonder off on my own looking for something I might like. I don't really think to do anything awesome but go lucid clothes shopping! I find it hard to see what I am looking at. There are clothes rack with shirts and jackets but it's all blurry. I make some comment on this.

I find a little hidey spot in the racks and think I could have sex wife my wife here but quickly dismiss the idea when I look up and see a camera. Then I wonder off some more and see a wall full of red converse. I remember wanting to do some task about The Doctor.

I try to DEILD and go into vibrations but I can't seem to go much deeper. Every time I try to transition I end up moving my physical body. I eventually give up and go to the bathroom.

Before my WBTB I had a non lucid about being in college again. I was lost and late but all the classes were empty anyway. I saw my old English teacher from high school. I had to take some strange abstract test. We all sit in an empty gym with our tests while being distracted by a funny BBC TV show called 'Just For Fun'. There were bleachers pushed back to the wall and Mr. Bean was sitting on top staring at the TV like some crazy psycho killer.

I googled Just for Fun tv Show. It's a Canadian children's game show television series which aired on CBC Television from 1975 to 1976. BBC... CBC... Close

Thursday 5/16/13

Last night bed at 9:40pm - 6:40 am

Lots of dreams.

DR. I'm at home in NZ. My parents are arrainging marriage. They are giving me to the son of a inkeeper in A. I don't want to. But they are some kind of a mafia or something. Even my brother guards me with a shotgun, so I don't run away.

DR. A neighbor enters while we at the table eating. I ask him if he grabbed my keys last time he was there. He sais no, I have my own. I'm telling him it's not ok, to give me the key. He sais he made it himself so it's his. His wife is telling him to give me the key. He is so sad.

DR. My mom is hiding some secret in a folded up yellow cloth. When I unwrap it, bunch of beads fall out.

Took a nap 9-9:30

DILD and DEILD

Don't remember how I got lucid. But the whole thing was very foggy.

In first one - I'm walking around with my old classmate Renata Sz. It's bright and I'm clapping in excitement and to remind myself that I'm dreaming. I'm thinking I'm gonna make it last this time.

I pushed my head back for a headrush and got up from my body, but it was so hard. I remember thinking I may have not separated yet. I also see some HH video but decide to wait for the black void. I only get the 2D void, so I enter by pushing my head back.

Second one - I remembered I wanted to connect to my spiritual guide. There are some people and I ask them if they have seen him. One guy with backpack starts going around a parked car as I follow him.

Then an idea of sx pops in and that's the end of spiritual exploration.

Thursday Morning 16th May 2013

I decided to use the Wake Back To Bed technique as that was how i achieved my previous Lucid Dream, and suits my schedule at the moment.

I can't remember exactly what it was i noticed to know i was in the dream, but it was a struggle to stop myself slipping back out. I kept saying 'This is a dream,' followed by rubbing my hands, and it was still fuzzy. I then said,

"Improve dream quality" (which i'd seen somewhere else)

After that demand the quality was incredible, so good i almost thought id woken up again, thanks to a quick reality check i knew i hadn't.

I had arrived in a busy market square on a lovely sunny day, the detail and colour was amazing! I decided to start again by practicing my flying, again like Sunfire (see previous entry.) My skills had improved a little, but i thought i'd try something different. I'd read flapping is quite effective, it didn't feel as cool but it worked so hey!

The next scene i remember i was in a Bank, somewhere in the market square. I was looking around when suddenly i remembered the Task Of The Month. I thought my best friend Jamie would be most appropriate for the 'Prank A DC' task. So i thought of him, turned around and there he was bless him.
When he wasn't looking i bent down and started tying his laces together. Unfortunately he spotted me and said,

"Stop that!"

I thought i might as well test my powers to force the issue. Still crouching down, with my left hand i used my mind to hold him slightly off the ground but completely still, with my right hand i used my mind to tie both his laces together with just movements of the fingers. I put him back down but he was being stubborn and refusing to move! I signaled to some guy behind him to just give him a push. He obliged, with Jamie tripping over himself and face-planting the floor.

As funny as it was, i'm not gonna count that abysmal attempt, need to think of something smarter next time!

After that i took a wonder outside, it was night time now, a nice clear night. Outside there was a big wooden table, with a parasol, like the ones in a pub beer garden. There where two girls stood there doing a BBQ. They had sausages on sticks, the stick was going right through the sausage like a kebab. For some reason they were holding the sausages over the BBQ until they caught a purpley/yellow fire, then eating them.

I approached the girls and asked them,

"Can i show you something?"

They agreed. I took one of the sausages on a stick which was still on fire. I held it upright infront of my face, pointing towards the sky.

I knew what i wanted to do but didn't know if i could pull it off as a novice.

I then flicked the bottom of the sausage as hard as i could, off the stick. It went flying miles into the night sky, a trail of small yellow flames behind it. As the sausage was going out of sight, i expanded my hand, all five fingers as wide as i could, the sausage exploded into a huge purple and gold firework lighting the dark, followed by a loud bang, BEAUTIFUL!

They were very impressed, as was i! The next thing i remember it was daytime again, still sitting round this table.

A guy called Lee came out, who i'm friends with in real life. Turns out the girls i tried to impress were already taken! It was apparent the trouble was just between me and Lee. He stood up and tried to shove the table at me,

(Baring in mind the size of it, a human probably couldn't even move it in real life.)

I was quite angry at that point and i flipped. I stood up and put all my effort into shoving the big old table back at him (as if i was pushing a broken down car.) It took a lot of force to get the movement started but i built up speed and ran the table, with him sat on the other side, right across the road! I tried to ram it into a wall but he managed to jump off and run away.

I tried to chase him round some housing estate but he disappeared pretty quick. I spent a bit of time practicing my flying whilst looking over the gardens, but to no avail.

I tried to wander back towards the previous scene but this is where i lost my lucidity.

I was so happy with my second Lucid Dream particularly the firework bit, that bit was really a incredible moment!

Thank you for reading, feedback appreciated.

Dream recall from today's nap. Counting this as one lucid since i am not even sure if i briefly woke up actually for DEILD attempt between them or i was trying to DEILD from FA...
All short, but it's some kind of progress on getting back to longer lucid dreams anyways i guess.

I wake up in my bed, take off headphones, still hear binaural beats, i get up and rub hands, dream fades out.
I am again in my bed, i take off headphones realizing dream again, but as i go to window view zooms in and dream fades out.
I am in my bed again and i feel that i am dreaming, i try to get up but dream fades out.
I get up from the bed and i am standing in the room. I take off headphones and can still barely hear binaural beats, i go to balcony door while rubbing hands but dream fades out.
Again in the bed, and already feel the dream, i get up but dream fades out.
In the bed, take off headphones, lucid, get up and rub hands, go to balcony door, fade out.