lucid

Writing this rather late at night. This is for the happenings of last night, and not this night.

I remember two dreams last night

Dream 1.
I am in a cliche jungle-esque area. I remember in this setting, I was not myself but instead placed in this dream as a man in his late twenties. I had brown hair and a suit on.
I believe I was a part of a race, or some sort of competition, as well, I believe I was partially lucid for part of the dream, as I remember at a point in the dream, I heard a kid, he's about 13-15, taunting me, he keeps yelling "I'm ahead of you, you can't catch me" He's near a log that you have to balance on to get across, and on his right side, a ladder, in case you were to follow off, I assume. So, when hearing this taunting, I specifically remember saying " ah yeah? We'll just see about that" By now my appearance has changed to me being my normal self, 16 year old self I usually see when day-dreaming.
So, considering there were plenty of rather high hills in front of me, making it tricky to get through this area, unless you're falling the specific path laid out for you. So, with my knowledge of my dream abilities, I made a very straight path, literally cutting through these hills, to the area where the kid was. I remember the kids face as a dumb founded, awestruck look.

Anyways, a little later on in the dream I'm in a small camp with a very quickly set up tent, with a large stump near it, a table with things to cook and drink and a fire in the middle, over top is the canopy of the trees. I'm trying to connect to the internet, while having a ipod playing music next to me. The internet connection is a little fuzzy but it all seems well, I'm on a wierd video, and then the internet, and my music start to glitch up at the exact same time.

I try fixing the internet connection, yet every time it glitches up, the computer takes me to a website. I still remember it very clearly. The website was about a girl who had died,. I wording was black on a white background for half the page,while the other half, the right side, was covered in red with creepy pictures of a girl stuck in barbed wire, biting down on it, shadows covering her eyes, and her scowling at the viewer of the page.
I started joking about how this girl was trying to haunt me and then my music started changing to songs named "Connect," "help", and one I couldn't read, even going so far as thinking in the dream " how strange, I can't seem to read the name."


Now, here's where the second dream starts. You see, while I was viewing the webpage, it was almost like one of those scenes in a movie where they zoom in on a screen, zoom out, and you're in a completely different place.
I'm now in my house, in our living room on the computer. The kitchen is attached to the living room, and in the living room, my brother is talking with his girlfriend on the phone, my parents over with him as well. There was a blizzard outside and my brother seems to be talking to his girlfriend about driving to her cabin. He then says something to the likes of "You know, I can never forget when a signal is being interfered."
With that, every light turns off, even my computer, the only exception being a single light over our kitchen table. The T.V. blinks on and off three times then even the kitchen light goes off.

Of course, since I still have memories of my last dream, I kind of freak out, thinking a ghost is truly going to kill me. After a few seconds, I force myself to steady my breathing and close my eyes to help myself calm down. It was eerily silent, I believe I forgot to keep the people in the kitchen there in my dream and I was now alone. After about 5 seconds, I tell myself I tell myself in my dream " Okay, now you just have to open your eyes" and of course, with this, I actually opened my real eyes, rather widely too. I did a reality check and I did find out that yes, I was actually awake.
So my dream self woke my real self up. First time this has happened in a very long time.

At least according to the text I have in my dream journal. That means we are going back to the past again - my current recall is still fragmented, but I just finished my first ever 100 % recall-at-least-something-everyday-month. Gotta be happy.

My Longest, Best Quality Lucid Ever
Date: November 2nd, 2009
Lucid: Obviously
Method: DILD

This might be the clearest and longest lucid dream I had, but it's also a bit weird and doesn't actually have that much happening. Again "I just knew" that I wasn't inside my own body. I was in this town with my parent, as in parent of the guy whose body I was inside. I wasn't sure whether it was his mom or dad, as it seemed to shift from moment to moment. We went to some shop and for some reason the parent cheated me out of 20 cents of my own money.

The point of the whole trip to the town was to get this guy to driving school. I just decided to run away from that parent and I figured out that I could go to the guy who was my real life driver's instructor. In real life he wouldn't have probably taken me, as there was an incident IRL, but as I knew I wasn't in my own body, I knew I could go there. At this point I wasn't lucid yet, even if it would make sense that I were if I already know that I'm not inside my own body.

I was running up some hill and alongside the street there were some houses that had a carefully decorated facade. I found this odd given that I knew the town where I was in and there shouldn't be houses like that there. I decided to RC and got lucid. Part of me wanted to go along with the dream's plot, just to see where it goes, so I started proceeding further towards this driving school. I ran right into the traffic, knowing that even if I get ran over, it can't really damage me. Damn, thinking afterwards I ought to have done couple more RCs just to make sure.

I come to the corner of some building and remembered the monthly challenge of our forum. First I still decided to try out my powers by stopping all the traffic. Everything froze like I would have pressed the pause button. I got drunk with power and started shouting "I! AM! GOD!!!"

My forum's challenge that month was to meet your dream guide. So I just walked along in the empty town, that was still frozen by my pause-button, and started screaming, that my dream guide better show up.

Ground started to rumble, like something was running towards me. I was behind a building's corner and I heard how it ran past me. "I'm here", I shouted behind it.

I had wondered before what kind of dream guide I would like to have, but in the end I just decided that I wanted my subconscious to surprise me. It certainly did it.

My dream guide emerged. It was.... WOODY FUCKIN WOODPECKER. Like what the fuck? How the hell did that happen? I never even watch Woody Woodpecker, yet it's my dream guide. That's messed up on so many levels. My mind created an incredible 3d version of it (or should I refer to it as him?) as well, I was impressed about that, but still, what a mindfuck. Needless to say, I obviously don't believe any of these dream guide nonsense anymore.

So anyway, I asked Woody whether he'd help me have more lucids in the future and help me know myself better, like it read in the Dreamviews (oh my god, this is comedy gold... I couldn't even come up with anything as good as this). Woody was similar to my DCs usually, he didn't talk much.

I don't remember what happened to Woody, but given that I already did the challenge and met my dream guide, there was only one thing in my mind - sex. So I found myself a girl and had her give me a bj. I wouldn't normally go into the details in these kinds of things, well, not here anyway, but it felt so good this time that I came in like four seconds and was more intense than anything I've experienced in real life. Normally dream sex doesn't feel pretty much anything for me.

But yeah, I had gotten off so that part of me was satisfied (and for those of you curious, NO, I didn't wake up with messy pants), but the dream was still going on. Next I tried to burn my own house just after getting a random idea. Again, might be wise to make couple of RCs before doing shit like that, I don't think "But I though it was a dream" is going to be satisfactory explanation for the insurance company after committing arson to your own house. Anyway, the house didn't burn very well, so that's a relief.

I had a false awakening and then the nose test didn't work as it should have. For some reason I wasn't able to breath through it despite still being in a dream. Nothing noteworthy happened after that.

Still, kind of sad that this still probably the best and longest lucids I ever had. I've had a couple lucids later that could challenge this, but I think this should be the average, not among the best.

I forgot a lot of my dreams from last night. I'm starting to get lazy about jounrnalling I'm afraid. Anyway, here's what I remember. I think it was lucid, but even then I'm not 100 sure.

Lucid Jumping

I am standing on top of a tall building, when I apparently become lucid. I look at the long distance down, and decide to jump off and fly. I dive off the building gracefully, and swoop up into the air. I fall towards the ground, I think I am intending to dive down and swoop up at the last minute. But then I become curious about what would happen if I hit the ground while I am dreaming. Since it's a dream, I know I can't get hurt.

When I hit the ground, I apparently bounce up into the air. I fly up backwards and drift to my right, towards some pillars of the building. These look painful, but when I hit them I just pass right through them as though they were a hologram.

The only Lucid dream I remember having since I was about 8 years old.
The morning of Saturday, 28th of January. 2am to 12pm.

The dream started with me hanging out with friends getting cupcakes from a political party expo that we were sitting outside. Sitting on a park kind of table/bench. Going in and stealing trays of muffins/muffin cakes? I say muffin cakes because there was this one large lump of what could have been a tray of muffins. Opposing political party paraded in- JB, a parents friend from years ago was with them. They took people hostage with imaginary equipment/weapons. The leader had an imaginary knife. They walked around to the left side of the expo building that reminded me of a Marai (Like a traditional Maori church). I went over. Said something to the leader. He responded and then all their equipment became real. They chased us and we went underground into my old schools basement. Running into a room, and then a different room. quite dark. Hiding in a basket. I was almost too big for the basket and it nearly broke, but I was wobbling around in it. Someone else came in and said they could hide in there more convincingly. I got out and went to the opposite side of the room. There were piles of clothes, 2/3rds of the room tall. Found a small gap I could crawl through, almost like a small cave under the clothes. Using my phone for light. 2 people come in, one of them the leader. They saw my phone light. I jumped out and surprised them. Leader swinging round his knife. Managed to disarm him. I think the other guy was attacked by the other person from the basket. I somehow remove his head from his body, but he's still alive. Punching his head in the face again and again, not doing much damage (Common dream about having no strength in punching). Leave the underground basement of the school. Walking down the street. 3 Salvation Army people in a Jeep kind of car waiting to pick someone up (relates to my parents being Officers in the Salvation Army). Walked down Layard street on the road. A car swerved to hit me, I jumped onto the footpath and the car managed to fit between a car that was parked on the right side of the road and the footpath (Cars drive on the other side in NZ). Became Lucid. Decided to go see KW. Started rollerblading towards her house. Stop at a house and go to the back, talk to people and begin waking up. Started spinning and listening/remembering a song. Dreaming became solid again. Situation repeated as I was leaving. Saw the cars numberplate was Muse, which is the music I was then remembering/listening to. Acknowledged that and laughed. Continued rollerblading to KW's house thinking that I had to see what being lucid and in control was like. Ended up in a house nothing like hers, went in, her and her dad were happy/celebrating that he was having twins because of some surrogate or something idk. Hugged KW. Went looking for a mirror so I could see what I looked like in a dream. Walked through a door that happened to lead to the Kitchen. It was full with random stuff, creating a small path on the floor. No mirrors. Left the room. Told KW I couldn't find a mirror. Hugged her and found she had a chest that belonged to another friend, AY. Woke up?

I'm in a correctional teenagers prison, and these kids want to kill me. One walks towards me, so I back up towards a set of stairs behind me, to escape, but a kid is standing there, blocking the way. "You wrecked the reputation of the prison, by doing that tv ad." Now two people are after me, I sidestep the original one, and back away, towards another set of stairs. A third person comes out, and says pretty much the same thing. This time I dodge him, and then try escape to the bottom by using the stairs, but then I realise they're attempting to kill me by pushing me down the stairs anyway. I turn around and walk down slowly backwards, while holding onto the rail, so they can't push me. I make it down the bottom, and feel safe, but then I realise the whole "prison" is just a masive open six level scaffolding. I begin running down the stairs away fom them, trying to make it to the bottom floor. One of them shouts after me, "This is all part of my plan! I got permission to take you to the lowest level, and kill you, so no one will see." There are about three staircases all leading down to a lower floor that you can take on each level, so they attempt to cut me off a few times, but it doesn't work. I finally make it down to the first floor, and then for some reason I say, "What a minute! You have permission for ME to be here, NOT YOU!" This seem to mean something to him, because he stops chasing me. I continue running, however, and see an alleyway leading out into my town. I head towards town, but I can't resists turning around, giving him the finger, and exchanging a few nice words. He doesn't seem to care though, he just laughs and says "He's going to use that car!" Reffering to the one infront of me. I walk past his vision and decide against using the car, seeing I'd be easy to find. I look towards a field with long grass, leading into a forest, and decide to walk there. I run through the field, and into the forest, but I have a feeling someone is following me, so I hide behind a tree. It's actually more of a park with a fair bit of trees, and a fair few people are around. It turns out to be people on bikes, anyway, however just as I emerge from the tree, I see the actual people, that were chasing me. They're coming from my front, left side,so I have to hide on a diagonal angle to the right, to not be spotted. I gradually move, and they become none the wiser. I step out relieved, but then I realise there's a police officer with them, and he spots me. I begin running, and the police officer shouts " He's running away" They turn, and try to grab me, but I jump over them. I head into a restraunt at the end of the park/forest, and see a group of my friends. I sit down with them, and try to blend in, hoping the police or prisoners won't notice me. My friends greet me, and I say "Hey, I'm on the run from prison, I need you guys to be quite. They all laugh, which draws attention to me, and the people after me, see me. They call out my name, but I look around, pretending to look for the person. I look at a young boy, and say "Excuse me sir, I think they're calling you." The police officer shouts "Cut the crap, turn yourself in." I jump over the table, and run towards the kitchen, hoping for an exit. They follow me. I turn towards a window, and he shouts "He's going to jump on the chair, and try to climb out the window." I do what he says, but the window is way to small to fit through, and he has an easy oppurtunity to grab me. But he doesn't, and I realise that he's trying to help me. "He's going to jump on the table, and then go onto the ledge. I smile at him, then quickly run out of the room. I walk a few metres, and then slide into a hotel room, throught the window. I'm with Jessi, and I open the fridge, for some reason, looking at the food. I take nothing, and then exit the room. I look for the room that looks the least likely to be looked in. I take the one at the far end, and step inside. Jessi begins walking away, and I demand to know wh he's walking off when there are people trying to kill me. "I'm going to buy the room, you can't just barge in there..." He does have a good point, I follow him, and we end up in the foyer. Jessi begins paying, and I stay the steps, being cautious. I hear a voice that says "You know you're dreaming, right?" "Of course I do" I reply. Then I realise I actually AM dreaming, and become lucid. I turn towards the person who you rent the rooms off. "I want to eat something.... can I have an apple?" She throw me an apple, and I bite into it. Crunchy and sour. "I want you to summon me a badger." It turns into this game, where you have to get the badger. Eventually I win, and I "wake up" with a badger in my lap. I get up, and mum iss tanding at the end of the bed. I wake up for real. (By the way, the guys at the prison weren't actually that scary, considering they're supposed to be in the world's toughest prison..)

1/30/12

WILD

Notes: I didn't smoke, and I had some REM rebound. I had a nightmare about an exorcism. Every time I woke up from it, I would go back asleep into the same dream. I tried to stay awake longer and think about different things. Eventually I decided to WILD. I didn't feel any transition for any of the WILDs.

The first time I tried to WILD I missed it. I had no lapse of consciousness, but I woke up again suddenly. I noticed that my train of thought shifted back to exorcisms when I went into the dream. I used that as an RC for the next one.

I told myself that I wouldn't think of exorcisms, and then suddenly I was. I did a nose RC to confirm.I sat right up and the dream was fairly stable. I walked out my door, but woke up immediately afterward.

This cycle repeated one more time.

I had longest lucid dream last night (even longer than the last one I had) where it took ages to wake up. This time I tried spinning in many different ways but nothing happened. Everything occurred at night so places were not vivid at all except in places like rooms with lights turned on. It all happened when I woke up with a false awakening and a doll moved. I knew that something was not right. Immediately I did a reality check and went out. I met people, including a group of tourists at a temple (in which I asked three foreigners to do a reality check but it didn’t work), and I met friends.

I jumped off the balcony (of my condo) multiple times to fly. Sometimes I succeeded and sometimes I did not, but not one of them was vivid and I was not happy.

A number of bad things in the dream occurred where people were chasing me but I did not care; however I was afraid and I had to run away, despite knowing that it is a dream. Or perhaps I forgot for a minute that it was a dream. I was stabbed in my chest once, but it did not hurt at all.

I told people (my friends from university/high school) they were in a dream. I told them (including Mintra) to pinch their noses. It turned out that some people didn’t want to do it because they think it’s crazy (I should ask on the forum how hard it is to convince people in our dreams that they are in my lucid dream).

When I was at the temple I asked three foreigners and they didn’t do it the correct way despite my detailed explanation. I told my friends, and many of them just did it the wrong way. They didn’t seem to understand, no matter how many times I told them. One, however (I forgot who, but she was one of my friends), tried and said she could breathe. I told her to look at the clock. It was 7. I told her to wait for five seconds and look again. It was 7.30. She was amazed, but still did not want to fly with me when I asked her. I told her I could do it. So I jumped off the balcony but landed on the ground, but it didn’t hurt. I was asking myself why this needs to happen when I’m showing off my flying skills.

I was frustrated that everything was not as vivid I had wanted to. I also tried rubbing my hands as suggested by some people on the forum, and consistently doing nose checks. Sometimes when I got chased in my room; for instance someone was about to open the door of my balcony, I rushed to sleep with mum. The setting was mixed between our condo and our house in Dindaeng. Mum was sleeping in her room and then I asked if I could sleep with her. The lights were on.

Now I remember where it all started. I thought that two other people were sleeping on my bed, including P’Noo, a coworker. I called her name very quietly. Somehow I couldn’t get louder than that, and she did not respond. I tried to kick her but I didn’t feel anything. Then I realized hat no one was there. I was surprised. Then I saw the doll and became lucid.

I ran out of things to do. I got bored that I could not control much at all and I could not change the scenery. There was this time when I was flying and landed at a place. Sometimes I flew by gliding, sometimes flapping my hands, and sometimes roller blading. But I was not happy as it was not vivid.

As I was roller blading in the sky I landed somewhere near this place where I saw some guys rollerblading. I got raped by two girls and a guy (they only touched me thought). They proceeded to perform oral sex on me. I think they tried to bully me in the end though.

It seemed very long indeed. I wanted it to end, but I couldn’t. Another reason I wanted it to end was because it was too long and I was afraid I couldn’t remember all of it. I wanted to wake up so I could immediately write it in my journal.

I was consistently doing reality checks too. Sounds weird…at times I want to wake up and at times I do not want to. But this was a bad lucid dream, and I don’t really know the point of it. I wish so much that I could have more control.

I was also thinking of reading a philosophy book at that time, but I don’t remember what kept me from doing it. Whenever everything was not vivid, I tried to open my eyes again but the scene was my room, and I did a reality check and I was still lucid. That was weird. I also remember trying to pick up my laptop to type my dream. Then at one point I woke up in bed. I was very glad. And it wasn’t a false awakening.

Now it’s 6:27 AM (as I am writing this entry).

Another fragment recall last night, on to the classic of the day.

Dimension Portals
Date: October 13th, 2009
Lucid: Yes

Once again I was in a threatening situation. Some guy was holding me at gun-point and I hoped so intensely that it was a dream, that it turned into a one. All the sudden I teleported to my living room. There was no need for reality checks - I immediately realized that it indeed was a dream. I also had an idea on what to do right away - the challenge in our forum back then was to enter a tv-show's of your choice reality. My choice was South Park, as that was something I obsessed back then.

I did stop to talk to some random little girl that was in the living room, but then I proceeded with my plan. I went out, towards our barn. For some reason outside was mostly dark, but there were some illuminated flowers there as well. I just passed them by, but as I went by them, one yellow flower appeared in my chest pocket.

Once at the door of the barn, my brother was there. I am no stranger to asking help from DCs, so I told him that I need to get to the South Park. He gestured me to follow him inside. There were some rectancular, light blue energy fields - dimension portals. My brother lead me to one of them and told that it will transport me to South Park. He went in first and vanished. I followed him through the portal and... it didn't work. I just went through the blue field. I felt this odd, cold feeling, but it didn't transport me to anywhere. I was sitll in the barn.

I tried going through different portals, entering them in different postures, etc. Nothing worked. Finally I noticed that there was one port on the floor. I dropped through it and poof! I was still in the barn... something had changed though. I felt like I had travelled through time - in to the future... 1000 years into the future. There were some people there that put an odd contraption on my head, so that I couldn't hear or see anything - they feared that I would become distraught for being so far in the future. I guess that makes sense, give me some time to take it in before exposing me into the drastic changes of the civilization.

It would have been interesting to eventually see where the world had gone to in my dream's future, but unfortunately I woke before seeing anything more.

I don't remember what it was - DILD or WILD, but I was making RC and tried to move to 1900 and wrote on the portals 1900 several times. No results. Then I jumped in the portal and Imajine that I moving on a time machine. It looked like ski with a panel))l. I set 1903 on the panel and found myself in the sky, landing on the island. I land near the some factory and began to search the camera. The owner of the factory took picture of his wife and workers. I came to him and ask to change camera on my flying time machine. He agreed and gave it to me. Now I was a happiest owner of the brownie camera. I took picture of the workers - it was easy - only push the button. Took picture, looked at the picture, notised that the task has done and moved to the real....But here I don't remember what was on the picture. Not count.

So there I am in my dream classroom, there are some students waiting for some teachers to come with some fireworks. two teachers come into the classroom with some crystal boxes and inside about 8 cylinders to fill them with some colorful firework powder.
I start to fill the cylinders as the students are patiently waiting. I start thinking that there would be a lot of smoke and the roof may burn, but then I realize that this is just a dream and nothing would harm me or the people around me. I continue putting as many colors as I want, the other teachers are ready to start the fireworks...When I finished all cylinders I look at the teachers and they can't start the fireworks, then I say I could start them with my superpowers, so I tell them to move back; and there they are 3 crystal boxes full of fireworks i concentrate on the boxes and then with a snap of my fingers they all light up at the same time, many colors start to shoot out into the ceiling, and as they touch the ceiling butterflies start to come out from the top of the colorful fire fountains everyone is amazed, until...a big explotion on one of the cylinders, one of my special education students ran away so I have to go after him and the dream starts to fade out.

This dream was really vague. I actually didn't even remember it until i was walking to class and all of a sudden it kind of came to me..weird, i know.

The dream started with me sitting on some bed, with my friends little sister and one of our friends. My friend(the first girls brother) died, and one of our other friends that was with him also died. I'm not sure why, or what happened. I just remember consoling her about it. And when i stood up and hugged her it was one of those tight hugs...and when i got ready to let go, she didn't. And from experience i know that's when a girl is really upset. For some reason that triggered my lucidity. That's when i really realized how weird the dream was.

She just kept crying on my chest, which made me cry...

Then i woke up..

NON-LUCID LUCID

Identification: (No. 78) Summoning attempt
Time Recorded: 9:00, 31-01-2012
Genre: Ordinary
Character(s): Gavin D.
Method(s): Mantra
Lucid: Yes (DILD)

I am sitting in my bedroom, at my desk, looking at a series of written messages on a single sheet of paper. For each paragraph there is an illustration on the right, of a lady dressed in 3-century-old clothing, from various angles. I somehow realise that I am dreaming and become lucid. I stand up from my desk chair and walk towards my door, thinking about what I should do. I get the impulse to summon someone. I look away, thinking to myself that someone will be there when I look back. I fall on my clothes drawer and lie there. I can hear Gavin's quiet feint voice, calling my name. I believe that Gavin is going to come here and wake me up. I start to loose the dream, so I try concentrating on the dream again, but it is too late.

I don't remember the first part of my dream or how I became lucid, but I do remember the moment of awareness and trying to tell another DC. Everything was still kinda fuzzy and not as vivid as it usually is in a LD. I am in a landscape where it is dusk and the sky looks purple. I remembered reading about investigating where dream light comes from, so I start to look around for a moon or light source, but don't see one - everything does seem to have an inherent glow. I remember my goal of wanting to talk to Nietzsche - so I teleport to Germany and his house. As I am traveling through the teleport tunnel I can't remember his exact city or what year he lived and felt like I should have known this to be able to teleport to him. I do succeed, however, and end up in his house. I sit down at a table to talk to him. The dream is very unstable, and I don't remember the conversation.
I walk outside and decide to start looking for a light source again. This time it is daytime and there is a sun, but the sky is strange and there's still a patch of darkness. I feel the sun somehow isn't "real", so I reach up and pluck it form the sky. When I place it on the ground, it looks like a raw egg yolk. I look around, then put it back in the sky - certain that this daytime landscape has an inherent glow also. I lose lucidity sometime after this.

I am in a public bathroom putting on makeup. I walk out form where the mirrors were. Even though I saw the women's bathroom sign when I walked in, there are now guys in the bathroom. I walk out to make sure it is a women's bathroom, but the sign has also changed and now says men's. I walk back in and the bathroom has now turned into a locker room. I realize this is weird and suddenly become lucid.
I then fall through a tunnel made of brick walls with little bristles coming out form them. I feel the dream start to fade, so I rub my hands together. I spin around in the tunnel and the dream solidifies even more. I fall through a portal to a park. The details are very vivid. Unfortunately, the grass in the park is dry and looks like it needs to be watered - not a pretty sight. I see a blue haired girl across the park that I believe is a fairy. I hear a name in the dream, but can't quite make it out - it's something like Adelle, Amelie, or Amelia. The blue haired girl leaves, so I fly to a street where I thought she had walked. I start talking to a blonde-haired girl. I feel the dream start to fade and am aware of my body in bed. I want to have sex with the blonde-haired girl and I wake up.

I am in a bedroom with yellow walls. My Aunt Deb is there along with a man who looks a little like Herman Cain. I don't remember the exact moment of becoming lucid, but realize when in the dream and try to tell the other DC's. I walk up to a mirror with the intention of getting to a higher level dream. I am immediately in a black void. I can't see my body, but can still feel it. I feel that I am traveling through a tunnel. My speed keeps increasing until I fell I am traveling at light speed.. The tunnel ends in a black sea. I must have had a FA sometime after this and lost lucidity.