lucid

Delted

Color-coding key:
Awake, Non-lucid, Possibly lucid? (not sure), Lucid, Lucid 'dream within a dream,' [Commentary made while awake]

[This morning, my alarm went off at 7:30. I had planned to get up and write, but I still felt so sleepy that I decided to sleep in. I believe I had all these dreams during the extra hour I slept in. Again, I don't remember the transitions that connected them, if there were any, which is why this entry may seem fragmented.]

I'm out somewhere with my parents and T&P [some real-life friends of ours]. We're in a gravel parking lot, getting into our cars to go somewhere. I'm driving my own car by myself. I follow the other car, which has my parents and T&P in it, out of the parking lot and along a narrow, gravel-covered alley. There are two big rocks in the middle of it. I watch the other car drive over them and worry that my car isn't high enough off the ground to clear them, but it does, with no problem.

I have a small patch of thick, dark-brown hairs growing out of a mole on the right side of my chin. I want to pull all the hairs out with tweezers, but I look for the tweezers and can't find them. Later, I look in the mirror again and have a short, but thick beard, with only a couple of long hairs straying outside of the beard zone. I still can't find the tweezers, so I try to pull them out with my fingers, but can't; they're too solidly rooted. I continue playing with those hairs with my fingers as I go about the rest of my day. [Funny how at no point during this sequence did I think to question the situation; I'm a girl! I do, however, find and pull on stray hairs like that often in real life.]

I'm explaining to someone, over the phone [I think], that J&L have passed away. The conversation continues, and I say something about how hard it must be for the other person to find this out. [J&L are the original owners of the house I'm now renting. I've had this conversation over the phone at least twice in real life. Even though I never actually met them, it's still hard to tell people that news.]

I'm in a body of water, and there's this little cartoon guy swimming in the water. He has a mask and a snorkel on. There is a song playing: “let's go swimming under the sea!”, it says, or something like that. I'm following the little cartoon guy as he swims through the water. I have my own snorkel, but no mask. I don't really need it, though, because when I duck my head below the surface, I can see underwater just as clearly as if I were wearing a mask, and the water doesn't sting my eyes at all. Then, the little cartoon guy starts diving deeper under the water. I think to myself, It annoys me when cartoon characters do that when they only have a snorkel. [Somewhere toward the beginning of this dream, I became aware that I was dreaming, but I don't remember precisely when, nor what triggered it.] I want to continue following him under the water, and I think to myself, I can breathe underwater in dreams. My known dream ability to breathe water activates at this thought. I abandon the snorkel and continue following the little cartoon guy. We're in what looks like an ocean. The water is deep blue, and there are sea creatures of some kind swimming in it.

I'm in an unfamiliar bedroom, going to sleep. I even feel sleepy. While I'm getting into bed and falling asleep, I think about the fact that I'm going to be in a a dream as soon as I fall asleep, and that I'm going to be lucid and take conscious, intentional action while I'm there. [I remember having a specific mission in mind, but I don't remember what it was.] After a few seconds, I roll sideways out of bed and know that I'm in the dream world. [I think some kind of dream followed, but I don't remember it now. After that dream ends,] I'm back in the same bedroom again, and I go through the same sequence of falling asleep and knowing that I'm about to enter a lucid dream. This time, I sit up in bed to enter the dream, and then climb out of bed and step away from it, towards the door of the room. I cast a sidelong glance over at the bed and get a glimpse of myself, lying asleep. I quickly look away. I think, I know this is a dream room, and that that isn't actually my real body, but still, it's creepy. [I'm pretty sure I was aware that I was dreaming throughout this entire sequence, even the parts where I was falling asleep.] The reason I know that the whole experience is just a dream is that the bedroom I'm in isn't mine. The walls are painted a dark, cool color, the bedclothes match the walls, and the room is longer and narrower than my real one.

From that unfamiliar bedroom, I walk out into a plaza surrounded by buildings. It is a sunny day. There are signs in the plaza directing people to an area where a birthday party is being held for a child. I walk into that area and find a table with a bunch of party food set out on it. From that table, I take a cupcake and start eating it, without bothering to take the paper off first. I want to take advantage of the opportunity to do that. I know that this is my dream body, so I don't have to worry about the paper doing me any harm, and in addition, I don't have to worry about what the DCs around me will think if they see me eating the cupcake paper. The cupcake itself feels and tastes exactly like cupcakes do in real life. I walk around while eating it, observing all the people walking around and the kids running around and playing in the courtyard.

As I continue to explore the dream environment, I come upon another sign reminding everyone that it's time to go and complete the paperwork to register their cars. I follow the directional arrows on the sign, and end up entering a building that contains an office with a reception desk front and center as you walk in the front door of the building. I go up to the reception desk, tell the woman there my name, and ask for my car registration form. It turns out that the form is filed under my old address from when I was living in Florida. She gives it to me to update. The sheet of paper she gives me is the top sheet of a piece of carbon paper. It's a sheet I already filled out back when I was living in Florida; it has all my information from those days on it, in my handwriting, in blue ballpoint pen. I start working on bringing the information on it up to date.

The top section of the form contains several multiple-choice questions with checkboxes below them. These questions are all about your religious beliefs, and they're really only on the form as a formality. They ask about whether or not you believe in the Bartel Water Bug, and the boxes indicating non-belief are already checked. I read over this section and then start updating the form with my current address, but then it occurs to me to think: Why am I wasting dream time filling out a form? I look up from the paper to see what the woman behind the desk is doing. She has turned away to do something else. I set down my pen, turn around, and walk quickly out of the building while she's not looking.

Back in the courtyard, I discover that the item I've decided [in real life] to use as a totem, which in my case is a thimble, behaves in a very interesting way when thrown or tossed in a dream. Namely, it acts like a magnet. Whenever it comes anywhere near another person [yes, even if the other person is just a DC], it flies away from them as if it were being repelled by their presence. Then it flies back toward me, straight into my hand, as if it were magnetically attracted to me. I encounter a family that I know in real life, walking along the edge of the courtyard. I say something like, “You're gonna get this thing thrown at you,” to the 7-or-8-year-old daughter in the family, and then I throw my thimble at her. When it gets within about a foot of her, it flies away from her and back toward me, and I catch it. [That's the last I remember.]

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Side notes:

When I woke up for real and reflected on the part of my dream where I kept dreaming about waking up and falling asleep within the dream, I thought, "Cool! My mind came up with a kind of hybrid dream experience, incorporating characteristics of the lucid dreaming experience that I learned from Inception (the knowledge that I was about to fall asleep and immediately find myself in a lucid dream, the experience of entering that dream from within another dream), as well as characteristics that I learned from DreamViews and from EWOLD (the perception of rolling out of my dream body and the knowledge that that room was itself a dream)." To those people who looked down on the newcomers who jumped on the lucid-dreaming bandwagon after Inception came out: I was one of those bandwagon-jumpers, even though I tried not to be too obnoxious and annoying about it, and I believe that we newcomers are perfectly capable of learning and growing into the world of lucid dreaming as it is actually experienced outside of the movies.

WILD

I see an image of me swimming through the water....almost feels like a game. Everything transitions perfectly....and I'm actually doing the swimming. I'm in some ancient underground area. The walls are made of stones, and there are painted murals. Just really old stuff. ALL OF A SUDDEN THERE'S A LOUD BANG AND i WOKE UP.

I was riding in a car with my dad, brother, and a friend. I was staring out the window when suddenly I became lucid. I tried to open the car door and jump out but just as I reached for the handle I could feel myself waking up. I tried to stabilize the dream but seeing as I have no idea how to do that I failed. Lucid for 4 seconds, yay

Hey DV. Had two lucids last nice, but sorry, they were too vivid. My recall is a little shot.

Dreamt that there were these hackers in the dream that could change a dream scenario entirely. I was playing diablo 2 type game and kind of knew I was dreaming but not fully. A half lucid. It started out with me in a normal diablo type game. I was going to do a secret cow level. I knew there were hackers in the game and at the right time they told me to prepare for change. The scenario changed and I kinda knew it was a dream. I was sucked into a Mario type 2d environment. I decided to study this weird world and write it all down in detail later. The world was a fast paced moving screen. It was also a mix of sonic the hedgehog. I was be jumping off trampolines and trying not to fall into spikes. I never got low enough on coins to die. After that scenario It went back to a normal world where I was playing d2 collecting items. I told the hackers to do it again because I thought it would make me stronger somehow. It happened again but it was a mix of me at Safeway and un the game. Safeway was a little carnival and the slot machines would take me further into the game. There were others there trying to win prizes. I got into a mini argument with one guy because he won a prize that I wanted. There was one weird girl in the meat section looking at me. It weirded me out a bit. I was preparing to leave Safeway. I talked to a few employees about random things before waking into a false awakening. In this fa I wrote down extreme details of the dream. The dream ended up being over 10 pages long and described all the items I found and every monster I fought.l

Dream; Semi-Lucid; Lucid; Memorable; 1-4 My Recollection;

3; Shampoo in eyes dense packs of amber stars backyard. Lucid trying few things, went flying down the street at night.
Kept having FA's.

Well, due to life getting extremely busy I had to take off a week of keeping up with my DJ, and last night being the first night of the weekend, I got to try again to lucid dream...and boy did I!

1) & 2) Just fragments of the first couple dreams of the night. Can't remember a lot of what I did, but I do recall quite clearly finding a mirror, looking at myself in it, and telling myself that I was dreaming until it sank in that I really was. I went lucid this way in both dreams and then went to do stuff, but sadly lost lucidity again fairly quickly.

3) I was keeping a DJ (yes, in the dream) of the previous two dreams in the night. Suddenly I realized I was still dreaming though, and so I happily marked a third lucid dream for one night...just before waking up.

4) By this point I'd finally gotten enough sleep for dreams to be fairly clear, and so I was wandering through some futuristic facility, unaware that I was asleep, when out of the corner of my eye I caught my reflection in a broken sheet of metal that was dangling from the wall. As I approached it, I began to marvel at how realistic the reflection was...which clued me in that I was dreaming and subconsciously knew it. I repeated the process of looking at myself in the mirror and telling myself quite firmly that I was dreaming until I really did gain lucidity...and this time held onto it! When I looked away from the mirror I was suddenly Adam Jensen, which I found cool and decided to stick with. I was on the basement level of the facility, and I decided there would be a villain at the top level, and I had to get there to stop him from some evil plot. And of course in Deus Ex style, that also meant I had to do a lot of sneaking around to get there. Well, I didn't do the best job at being subtle so security guards caught onto my presence very quickly, but a single punch to the face took each and every one of them out so easily it was almost disappointing. So I let two guys wake back up from the knockout punch and start chasing me, this time with the fun being in finding a way to hide from them. I began to half-fly-half-freerun all over the place until I rounded a corner, expecting to find a door to a crazy room on the other side. I did. Once inside, I was in a room that had its geometry duplicated on the ceiling, making it vertically symmetrical. I flew upside down and stood on the ceiling as the two guys ran inside on the floor, which was upside down to me, now. They couldn't figure out how the heck I was doing what I was, and it confused them enough for me to fly up some upside-down flights of stairs until I reached a pillar jutting sideways out of the wall. I stood by the pillar now, at yet another orientation different from the floor. The DC's were totally confused by this point, and so when they came after me, I simply kept myself on the opposite side of the pillar from them, and eventually they gave up looking for me. Just when they were about to leave though, one of them saw me, so I took them both out and kept going towards the top. Sadly I lost lucidity and woke up before I could get there, but it was still a pretty epic dream.


Here's a basic illustration of the crazy geometry I built into that room on the fly. Just goes to show the creativity the sleeping mind can have! I'd never think of this while awake

I'm starting to get the hang of this!
Anyways I woke up at 2.30 naturally which isn't normal for me, so I thought since I was awake I'd try to WILD even though all of my previous attempts had failed. I entered sleep paralysis within a few minutes and then promptly fell asleep

I found myself in a small corridor made of stone


I was in another castle (starting to become a dream sign) I knew I was dreaming and didn't do RC's or anything. I walked through the square wooden door in front of me thinking I had to get outside and start trying things. I looked to the right, two guards were standing there looking at me. I panicked and immediately killed them both forgetting that it was a dream and that I had the time to try things out. "Not to worry" I said "because I am dreaming" I continued in the direction I was going wondering how I could get outside (My connection to the concious side of my brain wasn't very good so I didn't know much of how to go about things) I kept going until I arrived in this huge cave

I didn't look around too much because I spotted what I thought to be a giant snake over in the corner.

Wanting to have an epic battle like other people have had I went over to it but to my dismay it was only the skin of the huge snake. Then I remembered I killed it in an earlier non lucid dream. I floated upwards and hovered (Not flying!) and started kicking parts of the skin which then fell to the ground in a cloud of dust and for some reason ash. Then the scene changed and I lost lucidity.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! My recall was kinda lousy when I woke up, do have a few dreams I recall. Won't go into much detail as I have stuff to do. Let's get to it!

23.00: Sleep

10.30: Dreams and frags
*I'm in a rock band of some sorts. I play the guitar and it sounds pretty awesome. The lead singer wants me to try singing but I tell him I have no singing voice. I try it out anyways and we rock it out. It sounds a bit like disturbed, pretty cool feeling.

*I'm playing Battlefield 3 only I'm actually in the game. Standing by some buildings I kill off alot of people who doesn't seem to see me. A tank shows up and takes aim at me.

*I'm having sex with a girl I don't know. She's on top and not tight at all and it doesn't feel too nice. Suddenly I get lucid. I enter her as deep as I can and she moans. "That's it!" she says and I start pounding away.

*I'm in a car going up a big hill. My friend is in another car on a parallel road. We arrive at a big gate and the guard asks me which school I'm in. I shout at my friend, asking him which school we're in. He says the school and the guard opens the gate. I get out of the car and walk up to a big mansion. In the speakers, someone's bragging nonstop. I recognise the guy they're talking about as my brother's friend. "I had sex with four women last night" he says.

Later that evening he's going to have sex with all of them again. I watch through a window as he walks into his little house below with two of them. The other two are left waiting in the house I'm in. I walk up to them. "Hey, wanna have sex with me instead?" I ask one of them. She seems willing enough, but says no. "Later perhaps" she says. I smooth talk her for a while when the door suddenly slams open. I run into another room and try to hide, but the door to my room slams open aswell. My dad and my brother comes walking in, they put on a weird paper rocket suit on my brother.

10.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 11 hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Notice that the brown texts are for indicating when someone else's dream is occurrin. It's a very rare event, but I'm gonna write it in the dream legend right next to the dream, so there's not gonna cause any confusion.

DREAM 1: It was like 4:00 AM. My sister came into the house after she bought a dream reader device. She was going to give it to my mom as a present for her birthday. Anyways, the device had some kind of an arm with a sucker on it. You were supposed to put it on your head so it can read you your dreams. It was reading dreams from the most recent to the oldest ones. We agreed to test it on my sister. After we "plugged" the device into my sister's head, it started showing in the monitor her very last dream. My sister headed into the living room. Our mom was there. As she was starring at my sister with a look of an insane person, she started shouting "CATS! CATS! CATS CATS! CATS CATS!!!" while a weird music began (a song kind of like the castle song from Super Mario World). She moved along and from the left side, a random raven appeared and flew all over the room. It was kind of funny. Everybody was laughing. My bud was there too. It would had been a shame for me to miss the occasion to read his dream. He dreamed of an FPS game. He was a robot and was trying to escape from the cops that were chasing him. After all this, I wanted to test the device on myself too, but my sister wouldn't let me. She said that I would just overload the device. I realised that it was a dream when the device suddenly turned into a notebook. I tried to turn it back, but it didn't worked and the dream faded away.
DREAM 2: Suddenly I found myself in a battlefield. I was a robot army leader. The leader of all armies put us all to construct a building that would protect all the robots from the enemy armies. I made a mistake in the contruction. I didn't knew how to repair it. I tried to find out, but I was making the building look even worse. I asked my friend and he told me to press the "Windows" button 2 times. I then realised that I was actually playing a game.

Had another lucid dream out of the blue last night, due largely to the fact that I noticed a dream sign:

I'm walking with my wife along a sidewalk. I'm not sure where we're headed but she's leading the way. We come to a chain link fence and suddenly she is on the other side of it and I ask her, "How did you get over there?" Looking at the fence, the only way I see over is to climb it, so I do. When I get to the top, I see the fence is right next to what looks like a souvenier shop or convenience store. But it's strange because the store has a chain link (or chicken wire) roof and I can see down into the store as I'm crawling over it. I'm going slowly, as my weight is causing the wire to sag down onto the items that are on the top shelf. I wait for my wife to cross over to where the cash registers are so that it won't have both our weight on it at the same time. We finally climb down and walk out the door.

We're walking toward my truck when I see my son, my Mom, my Dad, my brother & his wife getting out of a car and walking towards us. I tell my wife, "That can't be Justin; he's halfway around the world. And Grandpa (my Dad) is dead. This must be a dream!" I become lucid and do a reality check by pinching my nose closed and trying to breath and I can. So I do it again, just to make sure. Then I remember some stuff I read about studying all the little details around you, so I do stuff like look at the ground and feel the fabric on my shirt. Then I look at my hands and there are fingers missing; I only have, like, two or three fingers on my right hand. So I turn to my son and say, "This is a dream. Look at your hands." He looks at his hands and lets out a little laugh. I say, "You're missing some fingers, aren't you?" and he nods his head. We all walk over to this house and some more people (relatives) are sitting out on the front porch. I tell everyone, "This is what's cool about dreams...you can do stuff like this," and proceed to cup my hands together in a ball but not quite together, and move them back and forth. I'm trying to conjure up a fireball but all I get is this faint blue plasma looking orb. So I concentrate harder to create a ball of flame and the blue color turns to yellow with a small flame springing to life for a few seconds. I try to hurl it forward, like the superheros do in the movies, but it only travels a few feet before sputtering out. Then a cousin of mine says something like, "Uncle Vance died tomorrow." So I ask her, "Do you mean tomrrow? Or do you mean yesterday?" After that I woke up.

I was talking with a guy who seemed as though he wanted to teach me, but I knew for a fact that it was only evil shit, and the first step of the training he wanted to give, was for me to loose all of my goodness. He told me he would give me a night to make my decision, a night of all the things I could have, all the powers and whatnot.

He nodded his head and did something with his hands, but I didn't feel any different. I said it was all a trick, but he told me to light him on fire. Without having to think about it, I raised my hands to become blue-green flames and threw fire onto the guy, engulfing him, but he didn't scream, he just smilied at me. I thought it was bad ass, and when he wiped the fire off him as if it were dirt or something, I threw the fire on him again, laughing.

I roamed around this camp site that had a house in the middle of it, but the place was awesome as hell. It was just getting dark at that moment, and the sundown looked like a flame flickering out. I saw a lot of people, who seemed like they wanted me to join them in their fun, but then I heard this weird ass voice coming from one of the rooms in the house.

I walked into the house and saw my girlfriend in one of the rooms, she was wanting me to be with her, but I told her to give me a minute. I walked into the room that I heard the noise in and it was completely empty. I looked around, it was like a burnt red color with black floor and ceiling. I saw a bed, and saw a shoe under it. When I reached down for the shoe, a hand with sharp nails came out and swiped at me like a cat.

I backed away and waited a second before getting back down for the shoe, ready for the hand again. When the hand swiped at me again, I grabbed the wrist and pulled out one wicked hot chick. She was pale skinned with black hair, icy green eyes, and one hell of a body. She seduced me, though it wasn't exactly hard for her to do. Not going into detail about what happened at this point, but the guy who gave me the powers was watching from an outside window.

I woke up spooning with her as the sun was coming up, I didn't mind that I had wasted the use of powers with being with her, but she told me without the powers, I'd never see her again. I asked what she meant, but then she dissappeared in my arms.

I went to the room where I had left my blonde girlfriend (in the dream world she was) and I saw her with five black rappers, I stood there in shock, and she was jacking one of the guys off, smiling at me and asked if I wanted to join. I told her to fuck off, but then I actually thought about joining in. Instead LL Cool J tried to get me undressed, smiling and doing that licking lips thing he does, and I punched him so hard that his face exploded.

None of the other rappers seemed to care, neither did the blonde bitch.

I dreamed that I was Juice from Sons of Anarchy, and I was speeding on my bike, going very fast and more or less flying on the bike across the road. I felt the speed in my stomach like it was real. Toward the end of the road, he was caught off guard and taken down, at this point, I was an onlooker, but he survived the crash. He told me that he was fine, and blamed the two prospects that were with us. Each prospect apologized by giving him an artifact or something, something that looked Native American, and he took them and put them in his pocket, and showed me that what has kept him alive was a particular artifact. It was again Native American, and looked like a really big arrowhead, but it was white like ivory and had gold edges and gold flowing through the artifact.

Right after being Juice, I was Jax from Sons of Anarchy, and I was talking with Clay about a test I was going to have to go through. We were all in a trailer type house, and I called him Dad, and he looked at me funny at first, but then smiled. Inside he told me that the test was one of the hardest tests he had ever had to take, and then mentioned a guy named something Baggs. Like he was the test giver. Clay mentioned a party and mentioned that one sure fire way to pass the test was to invite the guy. I left the house as Jax, and got into a seventies model car (red) and started it up and took off.

As I was driving down the streets I kept speeding up, until I was going very fast. But it was like I didn’t know how to control the car, and I ended up driving on the sidewalk when I got into town, and then I was pulled over. I tried to slow down and adjust my driving. It took a while for me to stop, and when I did, there was the cop behind me, one beside me, one in front of me, and a helicopter flying overhead. I remembered thinking that this was a hell of a lot for simple speeding.

The cop that issued the ticket was the guy I was looking for, something Baggs. He didn’t care who I was, and was ready to write the ticket and impound the car, and possibly take me to jail. I tried explaining that I just wasn’t used to driving a car.
He asked what I was planning on doing that night, and I told him there was a party, and that I was looking for him to bring him along. He seemed shocked, but happy about it. I mentioned there’d be a lot of booze and a lot of horny bitches. He then tore up the ticket and followed me to the party.

At the party, it seemed as though I became Clay from Sons of Anarchy, and was watching Jax and the Baggs guy walking around the large amount of women and enjoying the party. I was watching more like a stalker though, as if I needed to take something away from the party. Then Gemma came up, said something (she was pissed) and then walked off. I was pissed that she was walking away from me, and wanted her to stay. Then a mess formed on the kitchen floor and I told one of the prospects, who saw the whole thing, to pick it the fuck up.

Dreamed that I was in a place that I didn’t recognize for shit. It was almost like it was a bowling alley. It’s really hard to describe. There were two women there, both seemed to like me, neither one of them blondes, or redheads (these are my dream signs with women), both were brunettes. One was a little on the cubby side, but she was really cute. The other one was just hot as hell from what I can remember. It seemed as though everyone around the place was there for me. Like I was a celebrity or something. At one point, I was in front of the entire crowd, and someone mentioned for me to take my pants off. I did, and my brother was there laughing his ass off at me. I mooned the crowd and smacked my ass.

Later in the dream, I told the chubby woman that I was tired, and she took me down into like a small type basement or something. But when I went down there, it was all sketchy, like the floor had a bottomless hole in the middle of it, and I was having to walk on thin boards to get across. She was very worried about me, and wanted to take care of me, and didn’t want me to fall or anything. I remember feeling as though I was drunk, but I told her it was my vertigo. It was bad. At one point I more or less hopped across the gap, and I think she caught me and held on to me.