memorable

Here’s another lucid dream (or OBE) from Aug 12, 2014. No LD last night, so I’ll add a memorable one from my dream journal.

I was lying in bed patiently waiting for the next dream to start. My mind was conscious, yet my body was asleep. I could feel violent vibrations originating in my torso and extending out to my limbs. These were coming in waves. I knew something was about to happen! Suddenly, somebody crawled into bed with me. It was my wife! I was a bit disappointed that she woke me up because I was just having ‘the vibrations’. I was sleeping in the guest room that night, because my CPAP machine was driving my wife nuts. CPAP, great for sleep, hard on romance. She didn’t say anything to me, we just snuggled for a bit, and then she moved over to the other bed. Little did I know this was a false awakening? To my surprise, my dear daughter then crawled into bed beside me! Seeing my daughter made me instantly lucid. We snuggled for a bit, and then I told her that mom’s in the other bed, can you see her? She looked at the other bed, and said, “No.” I then looked, and sure enough, my wife wasn’t there. I then tickled my daughter’s stomach, and said nonsense words, like I use to say when she was a baby. My daughter laughed and giggled.

She then jumped out of bed, and asked that I follow her. Standing at the end of my bed, she reached up to grab something, and then passed me a gold fishing hook, with a golden spring around shank. This is a very unique hook. I looked at it, and it was the exact same as a hook I found a week earlier, stuck in my cabin’s front door! I was shocked by this! My daughter then asked me to come explore with her, and she opened my bedroom door and ran out. I was about to leave, and follow, but I could hear my CPAP mask leaking air on my face. I turned around and saw my body lying on the bed, asleep. I walked up to my body and adjusted the mask, so the leak would stop hissing. This worked! I turned around and ran for the door to follow my daughter. I got too excited, and then I woke up consciously from the LD, but my body was still asleep.

I stayed perfectly still and focussed on returning to my room, so I could go and explore with my daughter. This worked, but I was no longer lucid! I was lying in bed again, and then a black cat jumped up on my bed beside me. I petted the cat’s back and then its stomach. Btw, black cats are my dream sign, but I didn’t clue into the fact that I was dreaming. Darn, I should have done a reality check.

I went to my cabin, the weekend following this dream, and found that hook, and it now hangs in my bedroom shelf. Also, as an additional synchronicity, I was visiting a physic medium a week or two later, in an effort to connect with my daughter. The medium described this dream to me with some detail; without any input from me whatsoever, and she said my daughter wants me know this was an OBE, not a lucid dream, and she wanted me to follow her out of the bedroom. Well, who am I to argue with that, and why would I? I did manage to follow her, a few months later, in lucid dream titled, ‘A Little Noodles Please’.

02.12.2014

Time Travelling to Lin Beifong's and Peggy Hill's Life (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I recall being in an environment that had a royal vibe to it; spacious, and fairly luxurious with big panel windows that would provide a nice view of what could be a gargantuan virtual experiential world my mind is creating. Most of the dream is blurry at some points, mostly occurring through peripheral vision, and I felt this was done to fixate on the premise behind the dream.


The plot itself is contrived, and I’m not even sure if this is the correct objective, but I believe I’m assigned to go into the past to find out about someone’s life in their youth. I’m presuming between Lin Beifong’s past, and for some reason, Peggy Hill’s life as well. I didn’t question the logic behind the dream, mostly because I felt like there were some kind of psychosomatic predispositions at play to constrain any temptation to speculate further.

I’m not sure who was assigning me this task, but I have a feeling it was Suyin Beifong.

I do recall interacting with someone that looks just like her, albeit more calm than her already calm and upbeat disposition in the series, The Legend of Korra. Apparently, the tool that I would be using as a conduit for time travel was apparently a cut-off piece of a Cheetos Puff bag.

But at the same time, I felt weird that a Cheetos Puff bag-ex-machina would be my means of time travel, and I became more skeptical later on in the dream of its potency in general. To describe the experience of whenever I’m time traveling for in this dream, imagine being engulfed by a dark, jaded green surrounding with elaborate and fanciful markings in the background; almost like some kind of trippy, spiritual, and metaphysical vibe that would end up as the intermission while my mind tries to fabricate another virtual experiential reality for me to partake in.

And while I’m time traveling, it’s pretty much spectator mode at this point rather than having a conscious third person view point that I can fluctuate in and out with first person view as well. There’s all sorts of camera panning, zooming in and out, and rotations during this experience. One of the distinct experiences was seeing Peggy Hill sitting down in what seems to be a classroom. It was peculiar to see her in a class sitting listening to someone rather than the other way around. She was also wearing red royal robes with a gold trimming near the region from the top of her breast region, and all the way down to her feet.

It could’ve just been bath robes that seemed to be luxurious as well. I synch myself back to the “present” in the dream to probably relay information to Suyin, and I noticed that Lin Beifong is offering me a bar of dark green soap with varying shades of green that looks like it’s been used already judging by how small and thin it looks.

Apparently, this would be another means to time travel, but at this point, I figured it was just the item itself that was a crutch for not having to deal with how I would have to conceptualize time travelling when I’m doing it subconsciously, I guess.

Or she’s giving me a bar of soap to hint that I should go clean myself in the dream. But I didn’t really feel filthy in particular; I was surprisingly calm and collected throughout the dream, almost as if there was a surge of positivity inside of me that gave a cool and liquid sensation.

Morning of December 2, 2014. Tuesday.



Once again, I travel back into “history”, though my Cubitis backyard becomes part of a fictional composite; this time there is an ocean that is mainly south and east instead of the backyard itself, though our house is still there, otherwise looking the same somehow. A high commercial concrete bridge seems to extend east of the carport (with highly ambiguous access plausibility), continuing easterly as far as the eye can see (taking on the implication of my recurring “eternity bridge” regarded in my note below*). I am with my wife Zsuzsanna. Our youngest son Oliver had been playing near the water at one point. It is almost as if we were originally going to go see the ocean (several miles away to the south at first) but instead, the ocean “came to us”.

(*Note: This more commercial bridge has something in common with an equally fictional wooden bridge in the exact same location and orientation from a childhood dream, where it was above a prehistoric swamp, which also seemed to be my backyard at one point though the overall setting was ambiguous as if bilocated.)

I am not sure where our son is at one point, but I do not think he is in any danger. I get the impression that he may be under the bridge on a sandbar. Several items are floating south on the ocean’s surface, each of which our son had been using but had abandoned. There is an inflatable raft, two empty green wheelie bins mostly submerged diagonally, a half-deflated inflatable mattress for a swimming pool, and at least two other items I do not recall. The items are far apart from each other.

Our view seems about thirty feet above the water at this point as I continue to gaze southerly. The floating items seem quite far away to the south as well as far below. I am annoyed at the prospect of having to go out and somehow bring all the items back, especially as they are drifting farther away. My perspective is quite skewed however, as it would be impossible for the view to seem that far away while still supposedly in range of our implied backyard.

In a short time from this point, my dream quite drastically changes the bridge area where I am standing and mostly enjoying the view from - into then being a low section where my wife and I are lying down on a regular mattress floating on the water but our mattress being somehow fixed in position to the rest of the bridge as if it was a part of it. I do not even seem to notice this rather extreme change in height or the silliness of the design. Looking at the water, which is very realistic, I am aware of the approaching shadow of a very large fish about two feet under the surface, which I take to be a shark and which slowly swims easterly, past us. There seem to be a few larger fish, one possibly a tuna, but I mostly see only one at a time. I tell my wife about the shark and move back from the edge in case it comes closer to the surface (but it does not).

I am eventually somewhat concerned for our son, but I seem to realize that he is probably not in the water at this point. Interestingly, I am eventually vaguely aware that I am creating the shark and the other shadowy submerged forms though I am not at all lucid. (This has often happened before, where I had a subtle awareness that I was creating my dream - even the eerie or threatening aspects - yet was not remotely lucid at any point - in a sense that I knew I was manifesting everything but did not actually know I was in a dream state and did not contemplate taking conscious control at any point. It sometimes seems more about “making a movie” or even avant-garde art.)

My wife is to my right, though beyond that side of our mattress is a far less defined environment, which I am not sure is water (the ocean continued northerly) or a half-wall of the old shed (which would occupy the space in reality). I have a vague concern about the shark going in that direction but sense some sort of “barrier”. There is nothing nightmarish about any emotions I hold, even though the perspective is quite vivid. I turn on my side and wake from my dream (in the same position implied in my dream) though I had not moved at all in reality.

Morning of December 1, 2014. Monday.



This entry has been abridged and reformatted for use as a study guide.

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In my dream, my family and I as we appear now are living on Gellibrand Street in Clayfield. I am uncertain of the time. My beautiful wife Zsuzsanna confronts a golden cobra that had gotten into our apartment. The activity occurs on our porch. There is an extraordinary awareness of perfect movement and rhythm. She is apparently going to catch it without difficulty. Her visage exhibits no fear. They slowly sway in amazing contrast to each other’s movements and Zsuzsanna exhibits knowledge of martial arts stances. It is like watching a perfect analogy to ballet. Zsuzsanna faces the open entrance to our bedroom (which was originally designed to be a living room) while the snake mostly faces the porch windows.

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Eventually, my dream self’s level of awareness changes. I do not want Zsuzsanna to be in any danger even though she seems adapt at what she is presently doing as if she had done it many times before. I am able to capture the cobra and soon throw it out the back door, which is now that of the Loomis Street house in America. Its open mouth goes over my hand a few times on the way to the back door, but I am in no danger and its bite does not break the skin.

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In the next dream segment, my family and I had gone shopping. I soon realize, looking down, that I am walking on a narrow board that is elevated about three feet from the ground, which is supposedly where many people walk to get from store to store at the shopping mall. The board is no wider than one of my feet. I get really annoyed with this setup and verbally express how ridiculous it is. I jump off and walk along the normal sidewalk from that point.

Soon, I am wondering where our children are and I become worried. Our oldest son is present but the other four are elsewhere. I go under the house, which is a larger and more elevated version of the Clayfield house, and I see that there is water everywhere as well as larger stones.

I have to pull our second-youngest son out of an apparently unused pipe. Our oldest daughter is there and her feet had become stuck when trying to help him. Our youngest son is farther down in the same pipe but I manage to get him out as well, carefully maneuvering him past a couple jagged rocks as I pull him up. They are weak and ill from the cold water. I find an unfamiliar toddler lying on her back who does not appear to be breathing. I first think she is ours, but then she turns out to be a doll, but then turns into someone else’s child and starts giggling and seems healthy. Eventually, our toddler daughter is with the others. We are then immediately all at a hospital (as if having teleported), but in a mostly featureless room with no beds so everyone has to lie on the floor, although a nurse gets a few blankets. I notice that all the children have black fingernails, which indicates frostbite. They are still shivering and seemingly ill.

From here, I project waves of light from my hands, which eventually comes from my entire body. It makes everyone healthier and stronger over time. During this time, I look in a mirror and see a light blue halo over my head as well as patterns of light that resemble holographic angel wings.

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Study questions. I am deliberately including questions meant to expose how asinine “interpretation” is (in the popular usage of the term):

Why did my dream render the porch setting?

Why did my dream render the cobra?

Why was the cobra golden?

What did Zsuzsanna represent?

What did the rescue situation represent?

What does the toddler to doll to toddler represent?

What is the origin of this dream?

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Answers to the above questions:

A porch is a type of autosymbolism that I create to serve as a liminal space buffer during RAS (reticular activating system) mediation, which I learned to do when I was four years old. It has ZERO to do with symbolism in the conventional sense or any factor of real life. It represents a specific state of consciousness that delays RAS modulating the dream state.

The cobra comes from four factors, the fourth explained in the next answer. Factor one is subliminal (non-lucid) control of RAS mediation, which otherwise pulls a dreamer out of the dream state. Factor two is vestibular system correlation, the most dominant factor of both lucid and non-lucid dream control, which is based on controlling the perception of the illusory dream body, the main factor of flying dreams. Factor three stems from lucid dreaming at age five, when I often created and controlled a cobra in a hayloft while standing in the center of the floor of a barn.

Gold dominates the dream state when I become semi-lucid (and is autosymbolism for an increase in dream state awareness) in the last stages of RAS mediation. In this case, I did not wake but shifted into a different dream scenario.

Zsuzsanna literally represented Zsuzsanna, though was also the vestibular system correlation (type 2) avatar in this case, and also held a nuance of our oldest son, who is experienced in martial arts. My dream combined these dynamics just as it combined the two houses I had lived in.

The rescue attempt is semi-lucid dream state reinduction using the “giving birth” analogy. The presence of water tells me what factor of ultradian rhythm I am in and has ZERO to do with waking life or waking life emotions.

The toddler scenario is a precursory emergent consciousness thread and simulacrum. The changes signify my varying levels of control of RAS mediation and changes in level of awareness within the dream state. Otherwise, a doll is autosymbolic of physical inactivity while asleep. The trick is to project the association into a simulacrum or avatar without waking up.

The healing scenario stems from autoscripting, though only the foundation, using such as “I am of the healing energies of Universal Mind”. Be aware that using “healing energies” in autoscripting will probably create a random scenario (as here) where healing is needed. Using “Universal Mind” may result in contact with the transpersonal interconsciousness or your own transformation in the dream state into an angelic being. (Do NOT use “healing” when actually needing to be healed; only use “I am the continuity of maximum well-being”. This was given to me by The Source years ago.)

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First off, before I describe the lucid dream, I had no idea what ‘epiphany’ meant (though I did remember hearing it before). This word is not in my vocabulary. I immediately Google ‘epiphany’ upon waking and this was what I found:

Epiphany: Ancient Greek word. Enlightening realization allows a situation to be understood from a new and deeper perspective.

As part of my lucid dreaming regime I always drink one or two glasses of water before I go to bed, so that I have to wake during the night (yes the P word). I use the ‘Wake Back to Bed’ method so I can be consciously aware during my REM cycle as my body sleeps. This need to pee entered into a dream prior to my waking. I was at a ‘fancy pants’ hotel standing the conference room lobby area with a bunch of people. I had to go real bad, so I found the closest washroom. This was a private washroom, with a lock mechanism ¾’s of the way up the door. I locked the door. The bathroom had a large window facing the sidewalk, and a skylight facing the multi-storey brown brick hotel. It was very high-end, and very clean. There was a toilet and sink. I found it really weird that there were large windows in a washroom. My first thought was that the windows were mirrored, so people couldn’t see in. Any which way, I wasn’t taking a chance, so I decided to sit on the toilet instead of standing. Have you ever tried to pee during a dream? Well, you can’t (most of the time).

All of a sudden, I hear a man asking me a question. Holy crap, there’s a man sitting to the right of me, on another toilet! He had brown hair, brown eyes, and was wearing what looked like a Star Trek uniform. I said to him in a stern voice, “How did you get in here, I locked the door!” He jumped to his feet (I’m glad his pants weren’t down), he apologized, and then he walked towards the door to leave. I looked at the door, and realized the lock mechanism was gone for some reason. Well, this kind of stuff only happens in dreams. I instantly became lucid, and the clarity was perfect. DILD (Dream Induced Lucid Dream). Actually the dream clarity was perfect, even before I became lucid. I then said to dream figure, “Wait, stay! I’m aware!” He stopped and looked at me slightly surprised. He turned again to leave, and in a pleading voice I said, “No, wait, please stay, I’m aware! I want to talk to you!” He turned around and faced me, and his eyes momentarily went dark, and then they returned to brown. I was careful not to say I’m dreaming, or lucid, because that seems to mess with dream figures. He then sat on the toilet with his right leg over his left. His right elbow was on his right knee, and his right hand was up by his chin. He had this perplexed look, and then he said, “Interesting, an epiphany!” Then he asked me if I knew what epiphany meant, and I replied, "No, but I can look that up." I instantly woke, Googled ‘Epiphany’, and then recorded the experience in my dream journal. I didn’t want to wait until the morning to do this, because I would have forgotten 'epiphany' by then, since I never use it.

First thing i remember was speaking to DC. I spoke to him that i wanted to share a dream with this one person. I wanted to somehow send message trough a dream to certain person. I looked around and i was in this yard. I saw huge tower in front of me made out of building like temples,huts, japanese houses,skysrapers.....fused together in very messy way. It was like i was looking into mashed world of dreaming. It was really confusing and the clouds were all over the places. It just look like it was place beyond time and reality. That there was just all sorts of thing. The place beyond the tower and the yard was just blue sky covered by clouds all over the place. The weird thing though was when i flew around the place it had four invisible walls. I flew below,over,up,left ,right the tower until i hit invisible wall in all directions. I could see just endless sky trough these walls and this wasnt the first time i was in a dream like this.

In the other dream i became lucid and i created portal. I jumped into the portal where i appeared at this weird place were me and thousands of other people where were pulled by gravity to different direction. The place was colored by orange sun light and which painted the clouds there beautifully. As i was pulled by gravity to different direction ended up this path were i had normal gravity and could walk. Everything beyond that path was covered by clouds. As i looked up it was painted by clouds and orange sunlight. I just saw clouds and orange sky everywere i looked and there was on thi one path to follow. There were many people walking in this path. I asked one of them were i was he didnt know and said maybe heaven. I said to myself that im just dreaming and flew outside of this path and i was hit by gravity and i dropped down beyond the clouds and entered this dimension. It was same as the previous place it was covered by the orange sky in every direction i looked. I noticed that there was no gravity there and i was alone there. There were all sorts of object in the air all over the place.
I flew around and grapped this towel and tried to move it. It sretched really far and as i let go it snapped back to its original form and stayed compeletly still without any effect at all. I flew around and i saw huge skate ramp, weird objectss like toilet paper to rocks, clothing,small parts of land and things i didnt reconize. I flew around until i hit this invisible wall. I wondered why i couldnt go trough it even though i was lucid so i began to fly to other directions. Same thing there were wall every single direction. I tried to get out but i couldnt this place was without gravity and objects all over the place and all over the world just staying still in the air. When i tried to move the objects they just scretched and snapped back to its original form and place. I flew to the huge skate ramp and landed there. I began wonder should i wake up. I just thought it was even too weird for a dream so i just snapped myself back to awake.

Part I
Setting: Earth. mid apocalypse. a city.
Characters: Me, Father in law, Wife, people, Strange solders, zombies, demon creatures.
Influences: World war Z, Constantine, the matrix, left for dead.

We are always running. being chased by gouls, zombies, demons. The Police cant handle them all. They just keep coming. People get bit and turn into creatures themselves.
We are hiding out in a school. I'm not familiar with it. Its dark, dirty, scary. We hear gun fire outside. The military is here to help. creatures keep coming. They don't seem to be affected by normal guns very much. They are trying to hold them off. We move to a lecture hall. The lecture hall reminds me of a theater. Stage where the prof. would talk and then seats going up in rows. They barricade the bottom doors. Outside more guns, yelling, screams, snares. The creatures break through suddenly! Guns blaze and cut through some of the smaller ones. Bigger ones push through and make their way up to the back where we hide. The back doors burst open! Can't see what came in its to dark. Its a man. Dressed in a trench coat and wearing strange glasses, and firing a futuristic looking hand gun. It seems to shoot strange colored projectiles, almost like light. Another man similar look enters and jumps on to a desk and begins battling the creatures hand to hand. A woman in similar fashion bursts in and tells us to run! My Wife, her dad, and I make a break for it out of the room. We find ourselves running down a dark alley way. the school to the right of us and a large industrial looking building to the left. Smoke stacks and cylindrical tanks adorn the building along with a crane and loading area. I turn around to see the hoard chasing us. jumping down from the roof tops, running out of doors, breaking through windows. The mysterious group continues to aid us and the others in our group. My wife falls behind with her dad and i stop to wait for them. I see a creature dive from a near by roof at them as they walk beneath it completely unaware of the danger. I run, jump and collide with the zombie creature knocking it away from them. I wrestle the zombie but it bites my side savagely. I break away from its bite and proceed to tear the creature apart. I look back at my wife and father in law and say im sorry. I run into the building to the left leading many of the creatures with me.
=Perspective change=
I see one of the strangers fighting a group of creatures and receive several wounds and bites. He crawls into what appears to be a release pipe for the factory/industrial buiilding. Through his eyes I see strange colors flowing like water toward a place of unknown origin.
=Perspective change=
I am me. Seeing my self crawling now like the wounded stranger. I unexplainedly start to see the same flowing colors and remember one of the strangers saying go to where the white is. I crawl, stumble, limp. Following a stream of color. To my left i can see a orange stream, and in front a green stream. I crawl into a large pipe and see that the colors are mixing into white at the end of the pipe. I slide down the pipe. Like a water ride at a amusement park i slide through tunnels and caverns. Through a conveyor belt system. Then into a sort of mine cart. The cart races down the tracks and i start to see light ahead. I slam into the end of the tracks and i am flung out of the cart. I land on my feet and seem to be OK. I hide as I see a person has seen my entrance.

Part II
Setting: unknown. resembles a farm. dirt roads. strange pool of water like fluid. Forrest like area. futuristic training area and obstacle course.
Characters: Me, Fairy Women, Fairy Men, Trainers, Humans like me, Liam Neeson look a like.

I am quickly found and captured. I am not ruffly handled but bound non the less. My captors are human in form. They whisper among themselves and I catch words but don't understand. A female of middle completion approaches me and ask why i am here. I then realize that i can no longer speak. My mouth moves and nothing comes out. I panic. She says " I see" then motions to some one to the left. I am sat at a table by what appears to be a lake not far from my entrance, which now has no tracks or carts but rather a gently winding path up a hill. I beautiful woman, looking similar to my age, comes to the table and sets some things down. A strange bottle. A strange flower. A root of some sort. She doesn't speak just looks at me. She has a soft look about her. Golden brown hair. Blue-green eyes that seem to reach out to you and make you feel good. I immediately take to liking her. The way she interacts with me and her almost loving glance is intoxicating. I feel safe when she is with me. Warm, loved, cherished. I am extremely shy of her though. The sensation of her is almost to much. I will name her Clair for discernment sake.
A man strongly resembling Liam Neeson approaches. They others that have gathered part and greet him. He seems like a leader of sorts. Clair stands smiling beside me. I notice that all the people are scantly clad with garments that appear to be made of large leaves and some simple white cloth as a scarf, cape or toga. Elvish looking one mite say. Leader Neeson ask me a series of questions to which I still cannot talk to respond. They show me visions of my life. The only ones i see are a repeat of the earlier occurrences. I have a scar but no wound from the large bite i receive from the zombie creature. They tell me that I am special and will join their ranks. They explain that the warriors that tried to save me and the others were a special troop from their world. Trained to wield weapons and perform feats unthinkable by normal humans. Certain people have a hidden aptitude and power and can become these elite fighters. I accept the offer and get whisked away to start training. Clair is with me always. She seems to enjoy my company almost as much as i enjoy her's. She does seem to grasp my shyness though and breaks the boundaries of comfort.
My first task is a simulation of rescuing friendly captives. I am shackled with strangle chains and suspended above a pool. A strange clay/resin like ceiling and walls are in front of me. I see the captive dummies stuck in the resin wall. I don't understand how to get to them. The trainers shout go get them! I can talk now! I ask them how am i to rescue them if i am chained. suddenly the chains jerk and send me into the ceiling. I feel like i am flying. I collide with the ceiling. I am then drug across the ceiling. The resin breaking against me is painful and i reach out to block incoming obstacles. The trainer yells but i can't hear. I see another recruit to my left experiencing the same training. "FLY!" Screams the trainer along with some soldiers watching. I see the wings for the first time. All different. Each pair special and unique like a finger print. Shapes, sizes, textures, colors, all different. Each person had a main color. Some had 2. I would later find out that was a measure of natural ability. I tried to think I had wings. Maybe I did and had to make them appear. The chains continued to drag me around. The pain was intense. I push out my hand again to will myself in a direction. It worked! The chains pulled me towards the captives now. I smashed through the opaque wall encasing them. I grabbed both dummies and again willed my movement back to the place i had started. I descended to the platform and the teacher and Clair stood astonished. I turned to see if I had wings but sadly I did not. A soldier step up to greet me and congratulated me. "I was one of the few that got it on the first try" he said. "You did to and even quicker than i did" he followed. I smiled. i fell to my knees over come by injury, emotion, and mental exhaustion. Clair looked worried at me and I quickly became super embarrassed of my sad state and sorry for making her worry. Even though she never spoke with her mouth, I could feel everything she was trying to say and how she felt. I was taken to rest in a bunk house near the lake i had entered this world at. I woke up, in my dream, from my rest and instantly sad. my heart ached and i was afraid again. Clair was nowhere to be found. I started to panic. I ran out side. I looked around feeling lost and abandoned. I looked to the hill and spotted Clair looking a mirror of my dreary state. As quick as it came my terror and ill feeling left and i was overwhelmed with joy as her gaze met mine. We ran to each other. We met and is grabbed my hand and held it to her chest. I freaked, but was entranced but the feeling of her heart and more so the feeling and emotion that she displayed along with it. I could tell she had worried about me since they had separated us yesterday.
We are approached by the lady from my arrival and Leader Neeson. They explain that i will be partnered with a beast of color today and it will help me advance and strengthen my inner being. The lady asks Clair why she is so protective of me. The lady ask this of Clair the same nonverbal way Clair talks to me. I seem to be able to speak this almost base telepathic language and i catch the conversation. Clair doesn't answer only states that she will do the discerning. The Discerning I am informed of, by Leader Neeson, is the assessment of my potential, my color affinity and other qualities about me even I don't currently know. Clair is apparently very good at this but has never taken such interest in a recruit before. Leader Neeson is hesitant but gives the ok. Clair leads me off down the path she came from when we rejoined. Beside a lake next to what is possibly her dwelling we stop. She positions me against the wall of the house. She stands arms length from me and stairs into my eyes. Her vibrant blue green wings emerge. They shimmer matching her gorgeous eyes. I feel squeamish. Its just us, alone, her and me. I am nervous for my Discerning. Will it hurt? Why does she like me so much? What is she going to do? She places her hands on my shoulders. I feel her telling me to relax and that it will be ok. I feel my self start to relax. She stares into my eyes and i can't look away. She is getting closer and closer. I start to panic. Her Eyes glow, her wings glow. I see the universe spanning before me in her eyes. I feel as though i will be sick. Her nose is now touching mine. Locked in a solid unblinking stare I feel like we are flying. My nerves are about to explode. the sensation of her touch, smell, gaze, and nonverbals is overwhelming. Her expression changes to one of shock then concern. Then for the first time she speaks. My legs give out. My eyes glaze over and I break my stare. I feel myself slip from consciousness. "Chris" Is the word she said. My name. Never in waking or dream had i ever felt so much from that name. Never had so much feeling and passion been put into it being verbalized. everything is black.
(Dream fastwards itself)
I wake to find Clair sitting beside my bed. Watching over me as usual. I am dressed in a uniform like the other soldiers. Clair and I report to the obstacle course with the other trainees. She watches as I begin my final test. All the recruits charge into the course. We defeat trainers dressed and acting like enemies. We climb and crawl through terrain challenges. Then the color field. Our affinity makes allows us to draw power from certain colors of light. Others hurt us and darkness always hurts us. The color fields test our knowledge of our affinities and our endurance to our weaknesses. I approach the field and the "enemies close in on us. Capturing and ravaging recruits just like real enemies the trainers enforce the realism and direness of the moment. I was never told my affinity so i hesitate. I feel Clair reach out to me and say "fly". I smile at her and see her smile back. I think of that day we met. I think of my training. I think of my discernment. I jump full force arms outstretched into the air.

I wake up. Alarming buzzing. My heart sinks a bit and I revel in Clair's eyes until i can't remember what she looks like. though out the day i think of her and how she made me feel.

Was at university, sharing dormitory rooms but I didn't get on with anyone and kept arguing with people within the first 10 minutes, char s was in the bed next to me which was good, there were 6-7 beds but loads more girls who were going to go in the other room and this blonde girl who I really didn't like was sat on my bed talking to libby who had just come in. Got into an argument with the girl. Was like my bedroom at home but a lot bigger. I was going to suggest moving mine and chars bed apart more so lib and that girl could sleep on the floor between them. They didnt, i had a tv in the corner which was good. Was getting shouted at for having food. There was a common room which I never actually went to and the woman in charge said we could pick 3 (?) people who we wanted to share aroom with but no one told me when that was so I didn't get a say but I ended up with just libby who was in my bedroom at home on the other side by my desk. Wanted her to read a book.
Trying to get through a door and Sparked was sat on the floor opposite where my bag was hung up by the front door when I came in and said "Clares the type of person who wouldn't get in to drama school" and I was really pissed off, tried to tell libby who was with the other girls and they were ignoring me and I was literally shouting at them. Texted Daff because I knew he was at rose Bruford too so I asked if he was free as I was really upset. He didn't reply.
My birthday, dad and his dad, went to a shop but nothing there I wanted so we went to the same shop in Winsford but the bags were £400 despite others being 3. Wasn't allowed in the wig department because you had to be 28 and was lifted up and pushed away from entering by a guy who looked like John. Wanted to build a swimming pool in the garden and was hallucinating as to how big the pond was (was a different garden to mine) Mrs hauge was there.

so this dream was a refreshing step away from all the dark things that i ussually dream about!! It was a bit goofy :p the beggining doesn't really make any sense but... i play alot of Dead or Alive 5, so i understand why it was in there. And without further Adieu...


I was laying down on top of a roof with my hands behind my back jsut staring up at the sky. i didn't have a care in the world!! it was a nice beautiful sunny day. But suddenly my peacefulness was disturbed by some people yelling close to me. i sat up and looked around. On the other side of the roof, Ryu Hayabusa was standing there looking rather annoyed. on the building across from us was Momiji and Hayate. Momiji was yelling across to Ryu, telling him that we wheren't allowed on the roofs anymore. I remember being very dissapointed, but of course that wounldnt stop me either.... i don't follow laws!! So at this point i shoudl mention that the roofs are really only like 10 ft off the ground, i mean we are in like middle of a summer celebration and these are just a bunch of vendor stalls around here. The particular roof that we are on is one of those japanese roofs. (the picture is also a good description of how high up we where.)


So i was about to jump down and go walk around before i hear Ryu say, "I can't get down!!" i stopped right where i was, dumbfounded. The Legendary Ninja is stuck on a 10ft roof?! i remeber thinknig to myself. I had to do everything i coudl to stop from bursting out laughing. I thought to myself, 'oh, this will be good.' and sat right back down. So then what happened here is even weirder. Momiji shot an arrow near Ryu and he jumped on it as it shot past him. He started riding it like a skateboard. he was going in a circle of sorts around the roof, slowly building up momentum. once he had enough momentum he used it to jump across to the other roof, and land next to Momiji. They all said "Nin!" and dissapeared. I was just like.... okay i'm gonan pretend that didn't jsut happen; and decided to go mess around. I got to my feet and jumped off the roof. When i landed, i rolled. Not because i was worried about breaking my legs, but i didn't want to the people to know i was on there roof, so from my roll i actualyl started laying down, like i had been there all along. I remeber eharing a few girls in the vendor whispering ifi had been there the whole time, where did i come from etc. I jumped to my feet and started walking through all the stalls. I bet there's tons of good stuff in here~
As i walked by stalls i would casually stick my arm out and grab something non-chanantly and keep walking. At first i took a took a toy bear, next i grabbed a pink pair of gloves with a smily face on them, and then i walked by the dunkin donuts stall. (wtf?) i grabbed a donut and started eating it but i heard the stall vendor yell, "HEY!!".

I looked over at him with a mouthful of donut and said, "mmf-Swowwy!!" And threw the stuffed bear at him, then kept walking. What was he gonna do, chase me?? he's got a stall full of people if he leaves they'll take everything. And i was right, he didn't follow me. So i left the fair and was just walking along the street when my dad finally came up behind me and started walking next to me. I glanced over at him and said, "Oh, hey what's up pops??". He looked at me with a little anxiety and Anger in his gaze, the same also applied to his voice when he spoke. "The FBI is looking for you. They where just at my house. Apparently you have burned one too many people, and i guess they've finally had enough complaint calls about you finally make a move.".
I yawned and put my hands behind my head. "Awh man, what a pain..."
"What will you do?" my father asked.
"Well im gonna have to dip town for a bit. Thanks pops..."
"Here it's cold out, why don't you take my jacket.". I just realize it's almost winter and im walking around in a spaghtetti string tanktop... but i'm not even cold. (What happened to that beautiful summer day?) "Nah i'm good. Welp, see ya."
"Wait, let me go with you, i want to help."
"Hmm... alright. But you have to do exactly as i say."
"Sure."

So we walk a few blocks down the road and apparently, This is the new town!! It's also apprently like been 2 weeks. (lol dream logic). So we're walking along, when i notice a car has been following us.

Damn.. i thought to myself. Well, i know how to lose them.... I had to make him get out of his car, and follow us on foot. Eventually we came across a park, and i grabbed my dads arm and lead us into the park. Sure enough, the Car following us had pulled over, and the man got out of his car.

He follows us into the park. We're walking along the park when suddenly up ahead i see a man standing there with a gun, casually waving it at me. "Heyy!! Dunkin`!!!" I say to him as i run up to him and give him a smile. It was the guy from the Dunkin Donuts stall...
He looked at me and chuckled,"You're not even afraid of the gun...."
I replied," awhh i knew you wouldn't shoot me, i'm too sexy :3" and swiped my finger across his chin, while i kept walking forward because the FBI guy was still following us. He ran up to me and walked to my side.
"Look im jsut here to offer you a job. I think you have exactly what it takes to work for me. You see i need a hitman." He says as we waves the gun around while he talks. I grab him by theshoulder and nod my head in the direction of the FBI guy following us. Dunkin` guy nods in understanding, then says. "Think about my offer." and dissapears into the crowd. We eventually come to spot where you have to climb up a steep slope, and then sort of climb your way out of the park. (weirdest design ever.) This is when i get my idea. I till my dad to go first. When i am trying, i will pretend to fall so he will have to catc h me. He nods in understanding. so he goes up to the top and waits for me. I only start climbing when the FBI guy is behind me. When i reach the top, i pretend to fall. I smack right into the FBI guy and he goes tumbling down, and falls into the water and jsut sits there. My dad pulls me up, and i turn and say, "Oh geeze!, hey mister, soooowwwwwwyyyyy!!" and walk away. As soon as we broke the line sight, we ran across the street to the church and went behind it, because it lead into a bunch of small twisting turning alleys that would be easy to lose someone in. When we get behind the church we slow down to a walking a pace. I look at my dad and say, "The first to do when escaping is to break the line of sight. The next is..." But we stop in our tracks. There are some catholic school girls trying get changed.. for... gym or something? (i have no idea why they where doing this outside.) I grab my dad and cover his eyes, then drag him back to behind the church. We lean against the wall and just take a break. Well shit.... I thought to myself as i sat there trying to figure out an alternative route. At least he doesn't know where we went, so we should be technically safe here.. though it's never good to stay in one spot... hopefully those damn girls hurry up... seriously why are they out here...

And then my dream ends xD

Funny dream, i enjoyed it. There was also a ton of things in here that just screamed like "Oi konno aho!! YOU'RE DREAMING!!" but i just wouldn't get it haha. Ah well, fun stuff :p

You know what.... now that i think of it i've also seen this detective before in another dream... he tried to recruit me to join his 'organization'.... he even drove the same car before....
and now that i think abotu it, the dunkin` hitman was trying to recruit me as well.... hmm... if anyone wants to discuss this further PM me. You have to be open minded though.

11/28/14 Epic sex LD. I am walking around the inside and outside of a house and seem to have trouble figuring out the layout and what leads to the backyard what leads to the front yard. When I make my way outside I go through what looks like the front but it is actually a fenced in backyard I guess and the gate leads to another unit I guess it is a duplex. I make my way back through what seems like the back and out onto the street and this whole time its just me walking around. I think that I'm already getting suspicious that this is a dream. I run into a guy out front and something about the previous scenario and something about this guy makes me realize I am dreaming. I float up into the air and get ready to fly but the guy grabs hold of my ankle and I motion and shoot an energy burst at him and he let's go but then another guy comes and I decided to try a more traditional flying left hook. After a few hits I'm able to get away and I fly off. I wonder if there was something I should have stayed there for and perhaps I could have asked those DC's why they were trying to hold me back and what they represent. (But then I probably wouldn't have had the experience that comes next.) I'm flying and the visuals have gone a bit gray on me so I decide to visualize where I'd like to end up. I visualize a huge crowd of beautiful women in bikinis and before long they start forming but not real clear but good enough and I land in the middle of the crowd of beautiful women, and just send out the message that we'll

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have one big orgy. It is using something like telepathy but not exactly since this is all happening inside my brain, this is all my dream so of course all I have to do is think what I want to happen! I feel around on quite a few different women before I choose one woman to focus on and she has nice size breasts and beautiful silky skin and her nipples are little bit pale but so beautiful.

She looks like a natural blonde petite and very sexy. There are two sexy Asian women nearby and I will them to come over and

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lick her breasts while I have intercourse

with the blonde. They are a little bit foggy but the blonde is not in the least! She is very vivid! I will another woman to come up behind me and hold me and

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touch me while I continue to thrust into the blonde.

I notice that the blonde seems a bit disinterested and even at one point reaches over to a pen and notebook and writes a few quick notes. Funny I guess...but I want you at least pretending like you are enjoying this! At this point I actually speak with my mouth and I say I want

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you to moan <snip>, it is quite sexy. She does it a little bit and I look around and back down and I seem to lose the visuals but I still have some of the feeling and I continue to thrust

and eventually the visuals come back but I am in a bedroom and the woman is now my wife.

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We continue having sex

but at some point my wife says that someone is coming and I forget what name she used but it sounded like someone important. This is one of those moments that can try to pull you away from lucidity especially after the fading transition from that extra-ordinary scene to this more normal setting. The person comes in, she is a butch stocky short haired blonde woman and my wife seems concerned. I say it is ok this is all just a dream and I decide to float up just to confirm it in my head. Sure enough I float up and decided to

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pull back out my "ahem" and offer it up to my wife's mouth. She looks at it like that thing has been so many places just recently. It looks significant but slightly flaccid and an image of a child size one

shows up on the opposite side of what is becoming more of a narrowed tunnel vision. Eventually the visuals fade and I decide not to fight it and at first feel like I am in a void but then feel myself back in bed, I've already had a terrific experience and I want to make sure I commit as much as I can of that experience to memory and record it. 238

This dream was strange. uhm.... it has a very VERY messed up thing in it and i am honestly hesitant to even put on here for how awful it is... so i'll just call it 'the thing;'. (if you really want to know what it is, leave a message in the comments and i'll tell you.) So this dream was like a movie.... and since i can't type a movie, i'll be writing it as if it where a book instead. I was the main character in the dream... though she didn't look like me at all haha.

The dream starts off in a dark room. the room is furnished with olden style things... such as grandfather clocks, oak hardwood floors, rocking chairs and carpets... those sorts of things. very old fashioned. the room is dark and musty... but what is odd is that in the middle of the room is a pit. A perfectly square hole, that leads down. the pit was maybe 15 ft. deep, with metallic walls. at the bottom of this pit is the thing... (or maybe i should say things; as there is more than 1 down there). they lay in a shallow water, reproducing unnaturaly. i(during this time it kind of shows how it reproduces, and what the result of that is. Basically, the thing is reproducing monsters.) and then the scene fades.

The scene reopens with a car. A white car, sitting on a dirt road near the trees, jsut out of view of a very old, ominous looking house. Inside the sat 3 people... a woman, and 2 men. The women was loading bullets into a magazine, occaisonally glancing in the direction of the house. She was a little apprehensive... She wasn't quite sure what laid inside the house, as no one was able to gather intel... and it was so dark and foggy now that she could hardly see past 10 ft. She pondered what would happen....

"Hey. you okay?"

She was suddenly ripped from her thoughts as the man spoke to her.

"Listen, we've got a deal set up, so hopefully you don't even have to use that thing. Just stick to the plan okay?" said the man next to her. "just go in, make the deal, and get out. We'll be waiting here."

She said, "i'm fine Barry." then glanced over to hi, giving him a stern look. She saw a bit of worry, coupled with a slight annoyance in his face. His aged skin seemed even more wrinkled than usual, and his white hair lay messy as oppossed to the cool slicked back style he always kept.... and the top of his blue button up shirt was unbottoned.

"hmm... maybe i should ask if you're the one who's okay?" she said to him with a small smirk on her face. Barry grunted and looked into the back seat. He saw the man sitting there, typing fervently on the laptop, only stopping every few moments to push the curly hair out of his eyes, and to slide his glasses back in place. "hey kid, are you able to see anything inside?"

The man responded without looking away from the laptop. "There's nothing in there!! not a single spot of electricity! no computers no lights no fridge, nothing!!" Finally the man looked up from the computer screen. "The only thing i've been able to detect in there is 3 heat signatures...." he looked over to the girl and blushed a little "be careful in there Lara." She responded without look at him. "Will do." She finished adding the bullets to her second magazine and slid it into the gun, cocking the chamber, then looked over to barry.

"So, remind me again what this deal is all about??"

Barry looked at her. she could see the anxiety in his eyes.... he was hiding something. "it's not really about the deal Lara. the deal is jsut an exscuse to get you into the house. what we need you to do is look for anything suspicious in the house."

"Something tells me you are looking for something very specific, Barry."

"just go in there and do your job, you're a field agent. you just to follow orders."

She gave him a sarcastic smirk and then got out of the car. The cool air carressed her skin as she began making her way towards the house. The leaves crunched under her boots as she walked. When she arrived at the front door, she adjusted her ponytail and then used the old ring knocker and banged the door 3 times. The door opened, and a short young male apeared. He was dressed in very formal attire... that of almost a war admiral. but his clothes where completly white, save a few blue linings. his skin was pale, and his dark blue eyes had a peircing gaze. his white hair swayed freely when the wind blew into the open door. He gave a fake smile and said, "You must be Lara. Come in."

"Thank you." she said he opened the door fully and she stepped into the house. She heard the door close behind her. She turned to face the 'white man'. He began walking to a room to the left. "Right this way." She followed. when they arrived in the room, there was a table with tea on it, and 2 chairs on each side. Opposite that, there was a lit fireplace, but all it did was give the room an eery glow. "Please take a seat, and i will be with you shortly." Said the man in white, as he dissapeared through a room in the back. Lara sat quietly, doing her best to listen for anything. but all she was able to hear was the crackling of the fire. She closed her eyes and did her best to map out the layout of the house. Given the age... and the fact that there was no electricity... and the split directions from the front room...
She hit her hand on her knee. "Got it." she murmered to herself, as she rose out of the char and turned towards the door the white man dissapeared through. No signs of him coming back yet... good. She went back into the main room, then went to the opposite side and entered that door. She looked around the room, but it was dark; so it made it difficult to see clearly. Suddenly, she heard water ripple. What was that? she thought to herself. She looekd around and then noticed a faint Blue glow in the center of the room. it almost looks like a square... Something popped up from inside it, only to fall back down again as she heard water splash again. She pulled the gun from her leg holster and slowly walked towards the square, trigger finger ready. As she approached, she noticed a fowl smell. A cold sweat ran down her cheek. This was not liek to feel so apprehensive... what could possibly be down there? She came upon the edge, but did not look down yet. She closed her eyes and let out a small sigh, then peered over the edge, her gun ready.

Her face went pale. Her eyes grew wide. Her mouth hung open. She wanted to move but she couldn't. The things looked back up at her. and they all let out in-humane bloodcurling screams. It was deafening. Yet still she was unable to move. The door behind her burst open, and two creatures came running in. One lunged at her but she kicked it square in.. what appeared to be the face... and it fell on the floor. However it did manage to scratch her wrist in the attack. She shrtugged it off, and then aimed her gun at the second one, and it stopped running at her. Is this creature intelligent? "On your kn-" She began to say when she was grabbed from behind. A white glove covered her mouth and the other white glove held out her hand to reveal her cut. Suddenly the creature lunged forward and bit her where the cut mark was. Green ozze poured from its mouth and her skin started to burn and smoke. She knee'd it in the stomack, then kicked it in the face. The she moved her body to the side, and thrust her elbow as hard she could into the man behind her. He let out a grunt then let go. She turned aroudn ready to attack him but her vision wobbled. In that time, The man had plunged a syringe into her shoulder and shot more green liquid into her. She yelled then ripped the the syringe from her shoulder and attemped to stab the man in white with it. He moved back far away, from fear of being. She yelled at him, "WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME?!" But the man did not respond. he simply gave that same fake smile that he gave when she first arrived. Suddenly the door she had entered the room from burst open and a man with a gun started firing at her. She turned and went through the door.
Just as she thought, there where stairs leading upwards. She sprinted up the steps, two at a time. When she reached the top of the stairs, she heard men yelling at the bottom of them. She turned to the right and went into the first door on the left. As soon as she opened the door the men had reached the top of the stairs and started firing automatic weapons at her. She ran into the room, and ran straight forward. She covered her face and leapt out of the window. She heard bullets wizzing by her. She reached her arms out and grabbed a branch. She swung around it and then let go to leap forward, grabbing another, lower branch. She repeated the process until it was safe to fall to the ground without injury. The minute she hit the ground, she started running. Damn.. she thought. Which direction was the car again? What the hell did they inject me with? What WHERE those things?! She just kept running. The bullets where hitting the ground around her, too close for comfort. She spotted the white car. She sprinted as fast as she could towards the car. When she reached it, she opened the back door, and flung herself into the backseat; inadvertenly plunging herself into the young mans lap. Her vision blurred and all she managed to mumble was "Drive..." and the car took off. The last thing she saw was the Young mans eyes look at her through his glasses before her vision faded.

(Un-fortuantely, some part of the dream is missing. During the part we seem to find out that Lara in infected with some kind of plauge. and it killing her very fast. She eventually finds out that someone has a cure. Barry also knew about the creatures. He was ordered to have his team dispose of them, and the source they where coming from. But he was not given intel so he wanted Lara to gather for him.)

The dream comes back with Lara, (or myself rather... this kinda becomes important in a second) walking up onto a porch. The porch is decorated for summer. Patio furniture lying around, a Grill sitting to the side. A radio was set up. (no music was playing.) Even the two old people sitting on the porch where in summer clothes, sitting under the patio umbrella. And it gave me an incredible sense of Deja Vu... So much in fact, to the point that i realized i've been here before, in a another dream. i have been to this exact place before, but it was fro ma diffferent dream. and that makes sense why everything is set up for summer, yet it is completely down pouring, and the two old people don't even notice it. I had thought about becoming Extra Lucid, and going off and doing something else, but the dream was so interesting to me that i actually just forgot about it and let the dream play out. I was far more interested in this. So got back into character....

Lara drew her gun and walked up to the man. She walked right up to his face and put the gun point blank at his neck. "I know you have the antidote for the plauge. where is it." She said a sense of urgency in her voice. The old man chuckled and lightly placed his hand on the gun and easily pushed it down. "You don't need that. i knew you where coming... Yes... i do have an antidote." Said the old man, as he looked over to his wife, who got out of her chair and walked over to them. "follow me deary" she said as she shuffled off towards the direction of the slider. Lara holstered her gun and followed her quickly. They both entered the house, and upon seeing what was inside she immediatly drew her gun again and pointed it at the old woman. "You too?!" she exclaimed, her eyes wide with a mix of anger and terror. "Relax child. " Said the old woman dissmisevly, "Ours do not breed creatures of evil..." She reached into the shelf next to her and pulled out a syringe. "We created these one ourselves. We created them to breed cures for disease the other ones cause." Lara lowered her gun, but did not put it away. She walked over to the ledge of the pit and looked down. There was a creature down there, but this one was far more acceptable then the one she had see back at that manor... It just looked like a rhinocerus, though its skin was dark red and 'rusty'. Lara sighed and put her gun away. She walked over to the old lady... and clenched her stomach. Green patches started appearing on her arms and legs. The old walked up to her and grabbed her arm, then stuck the syringe into and and filled her with the strange liquid. Immediately, the green patches dissapeared, her vision normalized and her skin got (what little color it had) back. Lara brought her hand to her cheek and touched it lightly. "it worked...." she said, as she turned to the old lady. The old lady just smiled at her warmly. Lara asked how she could repay her, and then the woman replied with, "Go kill the man in white. You must put a stop to his plans. and the his wretched creature..."

Lara turned towards the slider, where a thick fog had set; Phrohibiting all view of the outside. Lara slowly walked towards the slider. She straightened her jacket, fixed her hair, pulled out her gun and cocked it with a grin on her face. Music started playing as she opened the slider and dissapeared into the fog.

The 'credits' roll with with Lara walking in slow mow motion through the fog. the Camera is behind her on her back as she walks on the left side of the screen. the 'credits' run through left side of the screen.
A quick doodle to show!! (i can't draw ppl but im good at landscapes >.>)




i really loved this dream!!!! i jsut wish i knew what happened in the in-between part >.>

Cast: (please understand these are just for reference, they wheren't THE actual characters in my dream... just closely resembled them.)

Lara (me)

Barry:

The Computer 'kiddo':

Man in White:

Creatures: (not the ones in the pit, the ones that bit me)

Crazy!

The first dream was pretty scary.
I was back in Czech in my room. There was someone else there with me, I think it was Krzia. All of a sudden, in noticed that the carpet is rising at one point and it is taking shape of a person in a baby position (on his/her knees). Obviously I freak out and start punching the bump, start jumping on it etc. Somehow I know it is a demon. I managed to press it back to the floor. Then it happens again. I punch it back in again. Then, there is some kind of doll house. It starts moving or shaking. I know that it is another demon getting through. I lift the roof of the house and I see a face of a woman. I start jelling at it, punching it and jumping on it to push it back to the floor. This repeats several time. I call my parents to come and have a look. I cannot remember what happens after, but I have a feeling it stops and we find an explanation to it.

The next dream.

I am in Czech going home from Jablonec and I am at this particular rising road at the edge of my village by the skying slope. The road is in fact made of water and I am swimming home. I see myself. As I watch myself swimming as if I was filming it, I see a small boat in front of me and somewhere around is my sister and my mum. They spot a shark like fin. I go with my camera view under the water and I see it is a killer whale. It wants to play or communicate. Somehow I know that it can sense what I think, so I am calming my mind, and in fact I feel very friendly towards it. It swims around me, nudges me few times, sometimes a little bit rough which pushes me under the water. The killer whale is getting excited to play with me, but it is becoming a little violent. I decide it is better to continue swimming and ignore it.

I then get out of the water and see Martin Janda, my old class mate. He must be living in my village too. He has some trash that he wants to throw away, but is complaining to himself that there are not trash bins around. Then we get to the bus stop near central pub, and there is a notice board with hundreds of flyers and notes arranged in a cascade like manner. I am not happy that he lives in my village as I never liked him.

November 25, 2014

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So in this dream, there were like five different story-lines that happened in the same pool.

It was the pool at a house my aunt owned. The house itself resembled one she lived in for a while when I was a kid, but that house didn't have a pool...
Anyways, the house was my aunt's, and in the first of the story-lines, I was swimming in the pool with my brothers, cousins, and my cousins's best friend and roommate from high school. I somehow found out she was a crack dealer, and this was somehow so life-shattering. I've only met this girl like three times in my life, but somehow this news just shattered me, and I told my older brother about it and he flipped out, too.

In the second plot, the pool was the site of some sort of cub-scouts or camp-type thing. There were boats in the pool (it was pretty big), and we were all earning some merit badges. It was a co-ed group or something. But the other scouts really didn't like me, and so they kept pushing me into the water and trying to sabotage me.

In the third plot, it was night time, and the pool was lit up. There was a party going on, so there were a lot of people in the pool. In one of the corners, there was a huge group of people globbed together. I also saw a couple making out or something. I was sitting on the ladder and watching people, talking to my brothers who were nearby. I decided to swim around, and when I got around the huge group of people, I noticed the light in that corner of the pool was out. I was about to turn around, when someone grabbed my ankle and dragged me under. I could see arms and legs flailing around me, and thought that I was getting tangled in the lovers having sex in the water, but I wasn't sure really what was going on. I was drowning though, I knew that. It was really scary, but I could breathe. I got very slightly aware at that point, but the dream shifted and it was daytime and I surfaced. There were no people around me, and it was light, but the sun was setting. I get out of the water as fast as a could, because it was turning into monsters and demons and dogs that were bighting me. I told my brother that the water was out to get me, and even the pool toys were going to hurt me. I never actually saw the water and pool toys turn into monsters, but I had memories and visions of it happening that kept flashing in my vision. I ran inside to the kitchen and pretty much lost lucidity and sat on the table, holding my knees and staring out the window at the pool. My whole family was really worried that I was going crazy, and tried to coax me back out to the pool.

By the time I got back out to the pool, I was in a new (the 5th and final of them) plot-line. In this one, I had heard about a local legend about a water god and a mortal woman who had fallen in love. But they also had a deep wish to save humanity. The only way they could do that was to perform a ritual that could grant any wish. The ritual was such that they would have to basically become corpses, unmoving and unfeeling, all but one day of the year. Every year, they had to perform the ritual again. Only for that day, they could become live flesh again in order to continue the ritual. But because any other people could come and perform the ritual for their own wish, the lovers also had to guard the underwater temple on the day of the ritual and not allow any to enter, lest the wrong wish be granted.

I had heard of this legend a while ago, so it was in the back of my mind as I swam in the pool, enjoying the fresh air and cool water. I noticed that the water was flowing over an edge (the edge where the huge group was before, actually), and went to investigate it. I found out I could swim over the edge and became fish-like in my movements. I swam into an underwater building-like thing, and found that I could breathe underwater. I looked around, and suddenly there was a corpse that looked just like me. Like it could have been me, if I wasn't right there. I actually patted myself to check I was still there, and knew something was off, but didn't realize I was dreaming. My heightened awareness level made this weird in-between state very interesting. It was like a normal dream with bursts of lucidity fractions of a second long.

The corpse-me suddenly opened its eyes, and grabbed me as I went toward the entrance to the stairs that led to a room I felt drawn to. I struggled with me, and suddenly realized that I must be the mortal woman from the legend. I knew me was me, but Me didn't know I was her. I was almost at the stairs, and she was about to kill me, but I turned and yelled, "IT'S THE GLEICHE WISH FOR ME!" (Gleiche=German for same)

Me let me go, and must have realized I was her, and turned to live-flesh. She took my hand and we both went up the stairs. The water God was up there, and when he saw us both, he took our hands and led us to a bed. Apparently the ritual was intense sex. And since it was me, another me, and him, it was super weird but that made it more exciting. There were some very interesting sensations there. The other me watched the ritual, then closed her eyes, we sent back in time a few days, and I felt my body turning into a zombie-thing. The water God whispered something about loving me forever and to wait for him until next year. I saw him also turn to zombie-corpse version, and the dream faded, and I opened my eyes back at the pool house a few days prior.



This all happened in less than an hour, and because of the weird terror portion of it, I couldn't sleep much after that. But I did manage another 2-ish hours at 4am, and had this next dream:

I was a high school student filming a movie, and I got on a boat to find a site to film at, and the boat was huge. It looked like a normal jet-boat on the outside, but the inside was so huge. Like everything was just too big.

I was with my male classmate, who wrote the story with me, and we landed at an island with a 3rd world-ish society on it. We were going to film at the school on that island, but we found out someone had dammed the river that flowed through the town. It was a vital part of the story, so we were worried, but we found the culprit, who was a student at the school who hated everyone. But the kid found out the water was dying because he'd blocked it, and so he let it go again and we were able to film.

Just wrote about this. I had an interesting experience last night where I felt a complete presence of myself and my whole body in the present/moment/now the likes of which I have never felt before.

And my mind did not wander. It was cleared completely, and there was no desire to fill it.

It was one of the most intense experiences I've ever had. I'd almost describe it as being . . . Powerful? Without the immediate presence of power? Except the power that I have given myself, that I already possess . . .

I believe it does have something to do with the events that I cannot speak to at this time. But there was a definite shift in . . . well, being? I guess.

I'm curious, did anyone else feel that last night?

November 21, 2014

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I was with Zukin in a coastal town. We'd been hiking or something, and had to stay with a group of people in a cabin in the foothills or mountains. Lots of trees around, because the cabin was in a forest.

It turned out that there was a huge power plant of some sort just off the coast, and it was going to blow. Or it was radioactive or something. Basically, everyone in the area was quarantined and that meant that Zukin and I couldn't go back home.

And so we had to stay at that cabin with those people... At first they hated us (or at least avoided us like the plague) because we were just too weird for them.

So we were sitting at a patio table with that group of people some days later. They had gotten at least used to us by then, so we were all talking and looking up at the night sky. It was fucking beautiful. The sky was so huge. Like, huger than huge. It just seemed so big. There were stars and galaxies and nebulae visible and so many colors. We were watching for shooting stars and flying ships (Whoa, just remembered some dreams I've had about night skies and things flying and whatnot... Huh! In one of them I think I was watching the sky for a sign that something was happening. Like there were spacecraft out there lighting up the sky and I was watching them fly for some reason, like all the movements meant something. Anyways.)

So we were sitting at this table under this huge, colorful, beautiful night sky, and there is suddenly a sound and we see a sky-ship above us. It's got four circular hover thingies, which are all lit up. A speaker announced, "Attention. The following people have been authorized to leave the area. Will the following step into the cabin and prepare to be taken into the ship:"

And they called my name first, and I was so happy and ran into the house, assuming Zukin would be called next. But she wasn't. They called four of the seven people, and Zukin wasn't one of them. When I found out her name wasn't called, I flipped out and tried to get back outside. One of the guys in our group shook me by the shoulders and told me to get a hold of myself and not do anything stupid.

But I still tried to get outside and kept yelling that I refused to go with them without Zukin, and I was about to get away, but they tranquilized me and I woke up :(