memorable

Bedtime 10:30p – 8:30a

1) 1:45a Playing some sudoku like board game with Jess and Megan at our house. I walk into the living room and there are red Christmas lights everywhere. I continue the game on my phone like it was words with friends or something. I also think to play my old supervisor.

I move to recliner and begin attempting WILD. After each NLD I quickly record what I remember on my phone app and resume WILD.

2) 3:29a find myself in SP. I try something a little different to enter the dream. I force myself in a rush to get up out of the recliner. I feel my dream body stumble and fall and then I re-enter SP. This time I relax too much. I have a false awakening.

I have the laptop on my chest and the recliner feels like it is reclining way too far back. I am still trying to WILD. I ear the alarm clock distantly in the bedroom. I wonder how it is 6:00 already. I expect my wife to come looking for me and sure enough I hear her walk in the living room. I just lie still because I really don't want to ruin my WILD. I figure she will just see me asleep and leave. But the computer is on my chest and on. I think she will see a post by RareCola and read it.

Then, I hear her say. “You're going to kill yourself with that.”
I give up my charade. “What?” I look at her as she is going back to the bedroom.
“I said your going to kill yourself.”

I get up because originally I had planned to get up with her at 6 and stay up for 30min and then WILD.
I notice the recliner is turned wrong but when I go to move it there is another recliner in its place but it is a darker brown. The other recline shrinks and slides next the the strange one. I then walk into a strange kitchen. I wake up.

Another SP episode from DEILD. This time I know that I just need to visualize a dream scene and I will enter. For some reason I get too excite and SP fades.

3)4:38a I plant some sort of seed in the crack in the back deck. They are round and small but I don't know what it is. I water is. The water hose floods the area. Then I have another FA. I look next to me and see Janna sitting on the couch. She has marijuana seeds. She tells me she gave a seed to some kids and is worried they will get in trouble. I tell her they probably won't plant it. I go to use my phone app to record the planting dream and I realize “This isn't real”

I wake up briefly

4)I am now watching Johnny Bravo through my window on a TV in my neighbors yard. Then I FA and I am back in my recliner. I feel like I am holding a remote. But wake for real and see I am not.

5)4:42a I am in the recliner. I see Travis and tell him about the fake picture I sent him. He say, “Dude I don't know how those pictures of me get posted.” I explain to him that it was just a look alike with a tramp stamp. He changes the subject.

6)5:28a *LUCID*

For whatever reason I am driving with my wife and another guy was with us sitting in the back but he never says anything. We go down towards my job. It is late in the morning and I decide to just take vacation. I pull into the parking lot. And I tell my wife maybe I should just call it in instead of going in to ask for vacation. Then I notice the time on the car's clock. It is 8:38AM and I realize I can't ask for vacation after 8. So I decide just to use the call in line and not have a vacation day.

Suddenly we are inside in an office. My wife is at a desk typing on a computer. The guy is sitting several feet behind her watching the computer screen. He is behaving like a silent observer. Ignore him completely. I am on the floor putting my shoes on. As I am getting the last shoe on I remember to pay attention to my awareness like I do in RL. I think to myself, “I am dreaming.” But I didn't mean anything. Then it dawns on me. “I AM dreaming!”

I don't have my shoe on but I know it doesn't matter. I look around. I remember to stay calm. I try to focus on various office supplies on the desk. I see things like a coffee mug with pens and pencils in it. Then I look my my wife and see the guy in peripheral vision. I never really look at the guy. Maybe he will be my dream guide. Too bad I forgot to think of that. Anyway I know neither one matters and talking to them at this point would be a waste. They are just DCs.

I stand up and turn around. I see a door that is partially open. It is the only way out of the small room. I briefly remember that if I ever become lucid at work I would have fun with it and do the things I couldn't do in RL. I rush for the door and expect to see the production floor.

I open it and instead... The room I was in is at the end of a long hallway full of doors. Each door goes to a different office. "OK fine. Stay calm. Focus. You are dreaming. Keep awareness." I walk down the hallway and pop into random offices. The walls are wood paneled and with no decor. The doors are those cheap hollow wood doors. They are unpainted and stained a very dark brown. I don't notice the flooring. The color scheme is very bland and boring. All the offices are empty. There are no people anywere. "Ok strange but not that strange for a dream." I hear a phone ring once. I walk into an office room that I thought it came from. I see a desk with computer and a phone that is off the hook. There are a few papers scattered on the desk. I pick the phone up and put it to my ear. I hear nothing so I press zero. I hear a short ring and then, a young woman's voice answers, “Student services.” I think it's odd so I don't say anything. I press the hook with my finger to hang up. I don't hear a dial tone. So I just lay the phone back where it was. I can hear her voice but distantly, “Hello?” The sound of it is as you would expect for a phone away from your ear. I am a little impressed with my subconscious at how vivid the dream is.

I continue down the hall. Now I am looking at double glass doors. It looks really dark outside and I can't see anything beyond the glass. I want to break glass so I rush at it. I can hear my footsteps like I am wearing boots on concrete and I actually feel the impact of my feet on the floor. I note this is really cool for a dream.

I dive head first for the glass but it is soft and doesn't break. I feel my head got stuck. It feels like a wall of Jello. Of course, the natural reaction is to close your eyes. I feel the dream fading. I don't want to lose it so I back out. I re-stabilize myself by looking at the glass doors and focusing. “OK fine. I just want to leave here its boring.” I slowly push the doors with my right hand. There is no sensation and its like the glass is gone but then the door opens and I am looking at the next set of doors. I feel a little frustrated that glass doors are keeping me in this building. I almost feel trapped but I am determined. "Maybe dreams are like being a ghost in the movie Betelgeuse. You can never leave the building. No that's a stupid thought. This is my dream." I push the next doors slowly open.

Then I am immediately engulfed in darkness. I feel myself wanting to wake up. I begin rubbing my hands together. I can feel the friction and heat. It is almost painful. So I stop and clasp my hands together. I am still in the dark void and I think, "Maybe I am awake and I was really doing that with my hands. No, I don't believe it." Then I realize that I in darkness because I just have my dream eyes closed. I slowly open them but cautious not to open my waking eyes. For a moment I am confused because my eyes felt so real. "Am I opening my waking eyes?" So. I only open then halfway. I see that I am at the driver side door of a Grey truck. I decide its safe and I open my eyes fully now. I notice It's not very clear or vivid. The dream quality not as good as it should be. except for my sense of touch. I touch the glass of the door. Solid and feels real. I slap at it a little and am surprised that it sounded normal and I could feel the impact on my hands. Then for some reason I am abruptly jolted awake. I think I heard a noise in the house. It was storming.


7) 8:24a I am going with some people to a house I own. I am renovating and selling. I see a bunch of low class scummy people on the porch. I see a shirtless fat man. His checks hang down real low and he pushes his man boobs together. Somehow it all looks like a giant ball sack. I feel disgusted. I loudly tell someone I don't know how I will ever sale this house will all these kind of people around. I enter the house and the floors are still dusty from sanding the hardwood. There is a little girl there and I kindly ask her to go outside. I wake up.

firstly i was at some concert.It was huge and there was like 8 major sections that made up a half dome. I started to imagine "there is a llot of people here, what if someone invadedd, like the Spanish" Then i soon saw through the scope of a sniper, a shot fire at the gase line of the San fransisco main pipe. Then another shot was fired at a nearby tree which incinerated a small root and caused the gase line to ignite. Then the entire SF Gas line seemed to catch flame, but since it was so cold everything froze and the entire city turned like into a stif block oof ice. I began hearing announcments throughout the city about staying in your section. It appears that the inhabitants in SF thought this freeze over was some sort of class war. All the buildins started turning away from eachother and everything became broken off into zones. They said on the intercome throughout the city "stay in your zone or you will be kiled" i was like this is bullshit we are SF and are about love we need to re unite. So i starteed moving through each zone singing "one love" amongst other Marley songs, and the ice slowly started to melt and the houses turned back towards each other.

I had too much recall on exactly what happened in the dream. Kind of scares me. I wrote down everything I could remember, conversations and all. I apologize for all the grammatical and spelling errors but I was going crazy with the typing since I just woke up and had to write it down quickly. I do not feel like correcting it tbh.

Begin dreaming.....now:

I don’t know how I got here. There wasn’t anything wrong though, my family and old friends were there. They were happy and I was happy. There was flirting going on between me and the woman I always thought had an honest heart, and she does.I chat with her online, seperated by only a wall it was our only way of communicating. For a while we enjoy ourselves and it becomes apparent to our families that were are happy together. Although we haven’t told anyone, even ourselves, that we are dating the relationship develops to the point of becoming an “unregistered” couple. Our makes take down the wall and we live together. The house is nice, I have an old fasion balcony, you know? One of those you see on an apartment in France. There is a small jacuzzi pool that is always dimly lit. It is in a rather dark room but seems kind due to the patio right outside. You would never believe me but you can see the world from here. It feels like your heart has embraced the air and towers the skies, it is such a beautiful cliff. The water is just as beautiful as the sky it sits below. The clean blue runs on till the sky and ocean touch. Scattered around this majestic blue are rocks large flat rocks that don’t upset the surface. Like a bruise that doesn’t cause any pain. It adds an important imperfection the the ocean. I can sit there night and day wondering what it feels like to be so utterly……. Simple. No worries, just the waves, the warmth of the sun kissing my skin and the sounds of bthe birds calling while passing above. But I am not the ocean so I must leave for now. I am a person and so are all you. We have secrets, desires and pain. Mine wasn’t too far away.

As I left the edge of the cliff I felt heavy. My mind was in a haze and my heart felt wrong. There was no reason why… my soul just wanted to cry. For now I just needed to think of happy times, current times, to releive me of this burden. Soon I found her, my lovers mother, acting strangely. She was trying to take me away from my lover…..something was wrong. This burden only grew stronger everyday. The world was taking the ones close to me and turning them inside out, revealing the the lies we all hide. The heart that bore the burden grew weaker, I cannot describe the event of days passed since it was all a dream to me. I just know like the hanged man I was between to realities. I had reality a where everyone was normal and the other place where there were a bunch of mannequins claiming to be my reality. I didn’t know what to chose. I didn’t care anymore. There was no reality, nothing had value. There was just fear.

Today I took a trip outside with my “family”. My camera was on hand so I decided to take pictures. Since I didn’t want to spend time with my “family” I headed out to the back of the house. It was here that I was stuck for hours. Fear had immobilized me. Where is this fear? How is it doing this? My eyes searched and my heart searched and I knew… well I could feel it. This made no sense. I felt it coming from the woods as though something was threatening me, telling me to leave. Whatever it was filled me with fear. I broke. I couldn’t help but look and feel so small. If it came after me I would be like like a bush caught in a brush fire. It would consume and leave nothing. My hands move without me tellnig them and look through the lense. My fears are only intesified. Why do I want to look closer? I want to crumble. Please let me disappear. I sound so hopeless and weak.




“….It’s because you are weak. That is what I seek”
Am I weak?
No, I am not weak
Fear is my weakness
Fear is not my own. It is not MY weakness
“… the weakness that you cannot see are those which prove to be the most scary….”
So how can I move forward?
Fear has shackled me
My mind and my body are stuck
I cannot see you or touch you but you have stolen my body and mind
“…fear is yours to alone. It isn’t anyones to own. You must share it even if you think it is wrong”

The world is moving closer to me. My fear is moving away.
I feel it free me. On my shoulder. I see it telling me everything is alright, even though it doesn’t know what I’ve been feeling. It’s a hand. My lovers hand. I look away from the woods and I bearthe. I still feel it behind me looming. But when I look at her I feel it collapsing, all of my fear built up….it’s just crumbling.
That reality… it wasn’t real, was it? I just told myself it was. It was easier to give in. To sever my commitments, my relationships. It was easier to fear.

I always think about it when I sit by the cliff. I always feel it, alive and waiting. Life should be so simple and beautiful as the ocean the lies before me. But maybe it is just like me. The ocean can be calm, warm and predictable but it can also create fear for days or minutes. I don’t know.

It wasn’t long after that I slipped. For just a moment. I was leaving for good. Heading outside I stood by the jacuzzi and looked out at the world. It was then I SAW it. In the bubbling water next to me. The pale, fleshy, dead mannequins reaching for me. They got me. My body now submerged I struggle… I feel the blistering heat. I cannot breathe. The heat is too great.

I am stronger
You are not that man anymore
You are loved
You love
You have always been strong
Your only weakness was not knowing how to use it
Just be happy
Be the person you deserve to be
Love you memories
Now go and make new ones…

I am free. As I glide across the room I know it can’t be… I see the smiling faces all ready to leave… as I get close we all fade away.

End dreaming

That is of course when I woke up.

i was in a room with some of my best friends jacob skeen calvin jedy and seth and they turned the news on and the man was saying something about a planet that was like ours something was going to happen to it but i dont think it was bad though then it said the thing would happen on dec 21,2012 then i started talking about acension to calvin i said you ready and we high fived and seth said what is going to happen i said the earth is going to get rid of all the garbadge, the bad things in its water everything thats killing her what will happen is when the poles stop a huge shock wave is gonna throuw all that stuff into space this field is big enugh to hit the next to planets next to us and i said but dont worry after 3 days of darkness the sun will come up and we will be on a new bautiful earth and i said to seth so basicly wee will all be hippys and i said seth you have the hair for it. but i think my dream was trying to calm me down so when i woke up i wouldnt freak but i did anyway.

I am with my mother,walking beside a main road where we stay.I can see lots of cars,bikes,buses traveling in the road,in this cool shady sunlight, & am enjoying this calm & pleasant atmosphere,its like rain is about to fall any min. now. but kind of getting irritated cause of the vague noise caused by the people around me. As we both walk along the road,a strong gale suddenly rushes through us in the direction we were going.I instantly realize..something bad is about to happen!!!.I look back & see a man,dressed formally, running like a wild dog,hovering his arms in the air like a swimming motion & screaming something on top of his voice,in the middle of the road.A sharp,cold chilling sensation runs through my spine,as i see a large,red fire truck,whose back is on fire,comes crashing,making sparks with the ground & a screeching noise, suddenly rolls over & SLAYS the man, & about two cars & then bursts into flames few meters away from us,causing more casualties.. I am awestruck by this scary yet beautiful site & though not hurt in any way,i can literally feel the heat on my skin.Now i realize what is actually going & get scared.My mother grasped my hand tightly & just as we are about to run away,another can crash in the explosion,followed by many more.The road is totally blocked now.I can hear the screams & crying of many people who got themselves tangled in the accident & many people trying to save themselves start running wildly here & there without any sense of direction like ants running away from a fire.I can literally sense the fear in the air,the chaos in the environment,& start shivering vigourously because of the sheer realism of the dream, & to my surprise i realize i can't move an inch!!!no matter how much i try. .The smell of burning tires is making me dizzy,& my heart started throbbing like someone is literally hammering my chest.!!!Now a man looking like Morpheus ,with a black coat & sunglasses slowly comes to me & Whisper's in my ear"Stand still if u want 2 live,Ur time has still not came" & disappears leaving a horrifying laughter in the air.Now i realize"Hey WTF!!!! This cant be real" & just about to go fully lucid,I woke up.Shit

So, I have been reading about Lucid Dreaming for a while now, and want to get into the topic, as I find it very interesting.
Of course the first thing to do is practice dream recall and start a Dream Journal, but I somehow couldn't find the motivation and time until now.
Nevertheless I can recall at least a dream every night, without practice.

Today I decided to do my first DJ entry, as I had my first lucid dream, and it motivated me to write it down.
It was a DILD, and happened about 4 hours into sleep, as I checked the time after i woke up.
Of course, as it was my first LD, it was very short.

I was in a "normal" dream first, running away, or rather hiding from police, although I hadn't done any crime. At first I wasn't even sure they were chasing me, but somehow I just assumed it and i tried to lose them in smaller streets and alleys. This was probably one dream sign that made me realize it was a dream and made me lucid - there was no reason why the police would be chasing me.
I came from a place I knew into a slightly different scenery, that I had no recognition of (probably another dream sign), where I stopped for a second, and thought to myself: "Hey, this is a dream, stop running away from the police and confront them / your fears" At that moment the police were gone, or rather it was me that was gone, as I found myself in a room with computers (not many, just some standing around) and became lucid. I jumped up and started flying (which I heard is not so easy for beginners, as you can't really "think away" the boundaries of physics, as gravity at first, but somehow I managed it on the first try) I was in the air for a moment when I noticed the dream fading away, probably because I was so excited, and maybe because instead of getting to know the surroundings, I started off with flying. Then I remembered that spinning can help maintain the dream. So I tried spinning, which in mid air was weird, but possible, but it didn't help a lot, maybe a little, but the dream still faded and I woke up.

I took some notes on my phone as not to forget and be able to write it down after I woke up (I went to sleep again, as it was 4 in the morning), but I can recall the dream almost perfectly even without the notes.
It was a great first experience, and I hope I will have more like this and better experiences in the future!

I was at Ted's house wandering around. He lived in a trailer, I believe, or some kind of large mobile home, which isn't the case in the real world. Kate, Hannah and Jordan were there. I went back to talk with them. I went up to the den, where Ted was sleeping, and pulled out my dream journal, or what was supposed to have been my dream journal. I started sketching a mans face, from the shoulders up. It was better than anything I could have actually done. Went to the back of the house where everyone was... and moved to the next dream.

Where I was playing LoL as Karthus and getting the shit farmed out of me by a teemo. You didn't spawn at your Nexus, there were no lanes, it was like a free roaming thing. And when you died, you just respawned in the same place. So I'd spawn, and teemo would poison the shit out of me, and slow me (I assume he had a mallet), and I'd die, and this happened over and over.

Then I woke up to call my girlfriend as an alarm, so she could get to work on time. I was gonna lie down and try a WILD, but I was feeling sick, so just rolled the dice and went back to sleep instead.

In the dream I have after waking up and returning to bed, I'm checking what I think is my email account, though I realize it is Alex's. I log out, get ready to log into my own, when I get a text. It's some guy claiming that I've been talking to his girlfriend. I'm about to text him and tell him that I have no idea who he is when I hear this sound from upstairs. It's two people having sex. I look up the steps at the room, and this guy walks out. At this point, I'll add that the home we were in had the feel of a really large silver metal mobile home. Anyway, I'm looking up the steps at this guy, who is kind of old, kind of balding, grey scraggly hair, grey beard, and I'm in this just really weird scenario and all of a sudden I'm lucid. I realize what is happening, and I don't freak out. For once in my life, I don't get overexcited, and I keep looking up the stairs and repeat to myself "this is a dream, you can do this, stabilize." Immediately as he walks down and starts talking, his voice starts to shift, as if the dream is in danger of falling apart. I don't allow this to happen. I focus on what he is saying, willing my mind to fill in the sensory data. I focus on the feel of the floor beneath my feet, and how my body is feeling at the time. I focus on the smell of the room. I focus on as many things happening around me as I can, and I force my mind to fill in sensory data for all of it, sensory data that makes sense. As he reaches the bottom of the stairs, he's asking me what we should do in this situation, and he seems somewhat hostile. I strike him on the top of the head. I feel the texture of his scalp, I feel the impact of my hand hitting it. This is fantastic. I tell him to take me upstairs. The dream is stabilizing. He starts to do so... and then my alarm goes off. It was a brief lucid because of my alarm, but the dream was actually stabilizing instead of falling apart, and I was incredibly excited, but I was controlling that excitement. That's the first time I've been able to hold a dream together without fear of it collapsing, and it happened by being hyperaware of my surroundings and forcing my mind to create tons of sensory data. Victory.


After waking up, I walked around some, then went back to sleep and had a non-lucid. I was driving to work; apparently I work at a whole foods here in montana, and apparently I have a car. I'm listening to some awesome version of "One For You, One For Me" by Bright Eyes, but it's a live version where mostly people who aren't Conor Oberst are siging, and he does like every other verse, while they constantly sing backup or lead. At this point I realize Bree is in the car, and I've been singing like an idiot the whole time. I apologize, but she says that it's fine. Something happens with the car, and we have to leave it. An Amish guy picks us up. We are going down the road in the back of his wagon, watching cars pass, he stops and pulls over to let some farmer with tons of sheep or cow or goats, can't remember which, and some weird hyper-real llama, the farmer and his animals being guarded by some kind of canadian mounted police, pass. We move on, his wagon almost flips over, but it's fine. Bree gets a call on her cell and he seems to get angry, so Bree hangs up, and she says something to him about apologizing and us "taking it slow..." and then we're at the Amish dude's house. Which is this incredible mansion built into the side of a mountain that is mostly just a massive cave formation with rooms built into it. This shit is really baller. Chris Tucker is there, turns out this Amish dude and Chris Tucker are good friends. He offers me an alcoholic beverage, which is like an orange or purple slushy with tons of alcohol in it, I take purple of course, and offer the orange one to Bree. Now Kyle is with us. He asks me for one, and tell him he'll have to ask the Amish dude. Then we hang out in the mansion for just a few more minutes... then I wake up. And here I am.

Right, so, my first entry- something wierd happened towards the end, but I'll come to that in a minute.

*****DREAM STARTS*****

I've walking across a flat desert with some old classmates from highschool, who I haven't seen for about 4 years. On the horizon we can see buildings- They're clearly very far away, but they still appear towering and huge, and look faintly futuristic. As we draw closer, I see that there is a power plant, and what appears to be a launch tower for some kind of space shuttle.
When we arrive, we're greeted by a very tall man, who takes us on a guided tour of the power plant. At one point, he picks the 3 of us up and sprints down a spiral staircase very fast, making us dizzy, and then puts us down and disappears. We're in a sealed room, and the staircase is gone. As far as I can remember, the walls were made of metal. I phone the tour guide, and explain that we're trapped, and he says that my friends and i will have to find some way of passing the time.
A door then opens up in the wall, and I walk out of it. I'm taken to the edge of a forest, and told that I have to do a 25 mile run through it. I protest that I wouldn't be able to manage even 1 mile, and they just tell me to follow the path.

When the race begins, I start running, but about 5 minutes in I get to a long stretch of path, with leaves littering the floor. It looks similar to THIS photograph. As I'm running along it, my vision seems to stretch, as if my FOV suddenly increased dramatically, everything seemed to stutter for a bit, and I was snapped back to the start again. Put simply, I'm having major connection issues (maybe I should turn my firewall off? )
This happens every time I reach that point.

***PAUSE***

Ok, this is the weird bit- I'm not entirely sure what happened here- was I in a partial DILD or what? Basically, after this point, I was aware that I was dreaming and started thinking of nothing but dream control. It still felt fragmented and dreamlike- it didn't match any of the descriptions of lucid dreams I've read, but at the same time, I WAS briefly aware that I was in a dream....

***RESUME***

the third time this happened, I realised that I was dreaming- I tried to grab on to the landscape, and kept telling myself that I'm dreaming. Everything then went completely dark- I had no body- and a sort of control panel appeared on my vision- like some kind of GUI. Bear in mind, at the time, as soon as I'd realized I'm in a dream, I had an urge to control EVERYTHING. It had a load of sliders for things like characters, landscapes, etc, and when I moved them things appeared in my dream. I used my usual approach of pressing things randomly until something works, and I managed to get two people running around in a room, but the 'graphics' were blocky and I was viewing everything from above. I then woke up, and tried to perform a reality check, but it was either a false awakening or I fell asleep again immediately, because I then woke up again. That time I was definitely fully awake and conscious, unfortunately

Another thing to note, is that just as I was waking up the first time, I could hear someone talking about driving trains, and how he has to wear a different jacket to drive different trains (I don't even know anymore.. my mind is clearly a very strange place)

*****DREAM ENDS*****

Right, so a few thoughts on this- firstly, I had the feeling that I was almost in a lucid dream at one stage, but it didn't actually feel lucid- Any thoughts or comments on that? Is that something anybody's experienced? Does it mean I'm on the right track or not?

And the other thing is that I've clearly been spending too much time on the computer recently- lagging dreams, FOV and a GUI? Yeah, not normal

I've tagged this as non-lucid, since I'm fairly sure I wasn't actually in a lucid dream, but I'm still confused about that.

04.08.2012

The Lazy River and Monster (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember being at some sort of beach resort. We came to a strip of small stores and houses that occupied the back side of the stores, well the other side. I was with Ken and her friend, Beth.

We walked down the little strip of stores looking for something to do. We found some sort of water carnival thing at the end of the strip. Once we got inside, it was suddenly nighttime. The inside of the building that hosted it looked like the inside of a space shuttle, only bigger. One man sat at a chair as we walked in. He had a control panel sitting on his left, our right. He greeted us and asked us to wait in line. Now that we looked, there was a pretty long line of about 20 kids our ages.

The man got up and told us that we could get in the water now. Not even changing, everyone walked down the steps into the cool water, and we followed everyone else. Once everyone was in the water, the man pressed a button on his control panel. Suddenly, a large wall lifted itself up in front of us, causing all of the water to be sucked out, including everyone else. We found ourselves floating down a deep stream of water, like a lazy river, only much faster. And I had the interpretation that we would get lost out at sea.

Looking on both sides of the water we were floating down, I saw some orange walls. I guess to keep the water and everyone else in. But I still didn't feel safe.

I lost hold of Ken and Beth along the way, so I swam along trying to find them. I bumped into random people trying to find my way, since it was dark. I accidentally grabbed onto the wrong person once. He looked familiar though.

I finally found Beth. I held on to her trying to keep balance. She laughed.

Somehow, the lazy river came back to the same entrance we left at. Everyone got out and left. I was the last to get out, and had trouble finding the exit.

Soon I found myself back with Beth and Ken. We went into some kind of Walmart or something. I Was walking past the microwave isle when a mean looking old lady hollered at me to bring her a drink from the fountain. I looked to my left. Sure enough there was a small fountain.

I grabbed a half full cup without thinking and filled it with some more water. I then looked inside and noticed a couple of strange orange pieces of something. I passed up the thought of taking them out, they were probably for taste or something. I then walked over to the lady and handed the drink to her. "Here you go, ma'am." I said. "Thanks." she said gruffly, and took it.

The dream sped forward. There was a neighborhood beside the strip of stores, and in the neighborhood were hotels and small houses. Somehow my friend Mike came along with me. We were walking down the road, checking the hotels. We had heard a story earlier about the woman in which I had given the drink to. She turned into some sort of monster from the orange things that were in her drink, however the police were unsure of this so they were going to check up on "her" later.

We decided to go see her to see if she was still untransformed. But if she was, we had to take action. We found the hotel she was staying in. We went up and found her room. Before we got any closer, Mike pulled out 3 knifes from the sheaths beside him. "Here, take one," He whispered. "For protection." I smiled at him. He put the two remaining knives in his left and right hand. He
nodded to me, and motioned me to get on top of the table beside her door. I did, and he followed, standing to my right on the table. Our backs were up against the wall, knives in hand. "Knock." he whispered.

I slowly knocked with a shaking hand. After a couple of seconds, we heard the doorknob turn. The door opened just a little. Then it opened a bit wider as if she was looking around. I caught a glimpse of her, but she hadn't seen me yet. She looked much more paler than before, and she looked way older than when I saw her in the store. Then she saw us, and retreated inside, and closed the door.
"Wait! Ma'am!" Mike yelled, jumping off the table. "We haven't come to hurt you. We just wanted to ask you a couple of questions."

Then the dream ended.

I managed to go to bed at 11:45pm, but I don't think I fell asleep until a little after midnight. Then I woke up around 3am, and had trouble getting to sleep (weird heart palpitations, not a racing heart, but it felt like it was doing somersaults in my chest.. not painful, but disturbing and annoying).

What followed next was a series of nonlucids and more importantly, false awakenings. I needed to wake up irl for work by 5am, so I kept dreaming that the alarm had woken us up, or that we slept in, that I suddenly owned a clock radio that kept coming on and Dean Martin was singing Christmas Carols. Finally I had a FA where I had gotten up before Danny (ALWAYS the other way around, and I questioned this), let out the dogs and started getting my food ready for my long work shift. I reached up for something behind the stove, and accidentally knocked a blue pot off it's hook. It fell partway behind the stove, so I'm struggling to get it and hang it back up... when I think to myself "I don't own this blue pot, where the hell did this thing come from?" I kinda stood there for a few seconds, holding the pot, a little confused, then boom! "Abandon this project, I'm dreaming! " I stood in the kitchen, kinda bouncing with excitement, trying to remember the basic TOTM. It hit me right away, "Perform Surgery!!" One issue with this task is if you want to go full on and transport to a hospital, it may take a bit of time and control, and I wasn't sure what time it was irl. The alarm could go off at any moment, so I wanted to waste no time whatsoever. So I went to the living room couch and tried to summon a patient. Nothing. I went to my son's room, hoping to find a patient sleeping in there. I found Chris asleep in there, but no way was I going to perform surgery on him. At no time did I loose lucidity, I even remembered that he was at my mom's irl, but no way am I gonna cut up my son in a dream. And you can cross Danny off that list as well. I went back to the kitchen, trying to figure out what I was going to do, when I glanced at the window and saw the reflection of a man behind me!! I whipped around and it was a tall, slender Hispanic man with a very pallid expression on his face. I asked him right away "Are you here for some surgery?" He said "Yeah." I said, "Well you're in luck, because I'm a wiz with knives," and I proceeded to the kitchen and grabbed my chef knife, fillet knife, and paring knife. I told him to lie on the couch and explain to me what was wrong. He said that a previous doctor had fixed a "kink" in his intestines with a bandaid, and put a little microchip in there as well. I guess to monitor the kink or something. He said the microchip was causing him extraordinary pain and wanted it removed. He laid down on the couch for a moment, then got up and said he was going to his car real quick because he brought his own anesthetic. I told him that's fine, I have some too just in case (I knew I didn't have any, so I was going to just put water in a little flask and will it to work as anesthesia). He came back and said he didn't bring it, so I went to the kitchen and got the water. I held it up and said "I will this water to act as an anesthetic." It didn't look any different, but I didn't care. I wasn't the one who was going to drink it! I gave it to the man and he took a swallow, but choked on it a little bit. Then he took his shirt off and laid back down. It looked like he was drifting off a bit, but he was kinda restless. So I starting rubbing his chest gently, speaking softly, "Sleep, sleeeeeeeeep..." Of course this action produced an erection and I took advantage of it a little bit. I'll skip those details. (I was hoping it would help him pass out!!) It didn't work, he was still conscious. He even asked me if after the surgery, maybe we go out to dinner sometime lol. I said suuuure, why not. He wasn't going completely out, and I was running out of time. So I said I need to start cutting anyway, but he'd be just fine. I held him down with one hand, took the little pairing knife with the other, cringed, and made an incision in his belly. He groaned in pain and tried to sit up, but I pushed him back down. There was no blood. But I could immediately see the loop of intestine with the bandaid. Turned out it was kinda good that he was still conscious, because he was able to talk me through it a bit, and didn't seem to be in pain anymore. (I guess my subC is too squeamish.) I pulled out the little loop of intestine, and noticed the little microchip, which looked more like a tiny stone, sandwiched between 2 of the baindaids. He said just to remove the chip and leave the bandaid, so I did. I was just about to push the intestine back in and sew him back up, when Danny coughed irl and woke me up. Still success! I can't believe I could cut the guy, especially while he was conscious! Surgery went well overall I'd say though.

I was either traveling to China with my father, or already in China. I was in a store looking for a suitcase with a few dudes, then they were replaced by my crush, Jade. One of the suitcases had some glass compartments, and I thought, “they’d be perfect for storing food, even ice cream!”

I saw that my dad had tried to call me on my phone, but my phone didn’t have service anymore. I asked to borrow Jade’s phone, and when I started pressing buttons, the phone was beeping. Jade grabbed the phone from me, hurriedly putting the phone on silent so we wouldn’t be heard. I urged her to hurry up, as people started to gather in the room we were in; they made me uneasy. Some of those people were missing limbs, or were smeared with blood.


Just imagine the blood is a darker shade, closer to purple.

Suddenly all of the merchandise in the room was gone, and there was just a circle of chairs. One man sat in a chair and started sharing a zombie story. Jade got excited and wanted to join.

“Jade, don’t, we have to go.”

“Caenis, you have to do what I say!” Good to know she's demanding even in my dreams. Jade sat down next to the man sharing the story, and quickly began sharing her own zombie story.

I watched the crowd of bloodied and dazed people grow. Anxious, I abandoned Jade, making my way to the front of the store. The front of the store was dark, most of the lights had gone out. There weren’t any more humans, crowds of zombies passed me by. I peered in a room where a human corpse was sitting in a chair, with a severed zombie head on top of his. His head was crushed beneath the zombie head.

I found the exit and wandered the streets. Zombies and humans ran chaotically through the city. Zombie blood sprayed my right cheek. I wiped it off and decided that I wouldn’t turn into a zombie from coming in contact with the blood. I observed a few zombies get struck by lightning, and thought it fitting that even nature was trying to retaliate against the zombies.

I found a nice couple to travel with, and we walked to a Georgian city. We stopped in front of a large, elevated building. I looked up and muttered “No….” It was a train station. Though there were no zombies on the streets of Georgia, I knew zombies would pour out of that train station. People and zombies alike streamed out of the train station, and lightning struck the building causing an explosion.

My hand was torn or bitten off. Determined to not become a zombie, the couple and I suddenly appeared in a room. They amputated part of my arm in hopes that the zombie infection would not spread. “Cauterize the wound” the woman declared while stretching and cutting my skin. My skin was peach-colored and transparent.

Awareness - 9 / 10
Control - 9 10

Although I did become lucid in this dream, I am not counting it because I kept slipping in and out of lucidity, and was never quite fully in it.

Anyways, the first thing I remember is that I was walking down main street. I had apparently just won some big grand prix thing and was headed to the celebration. I went up to the stage and accepted my prize. Then, instead of dunping Gatorade on me, everyone threw mustard and ketchup on me instead. It was kind of wierd but I didn't mind. Then I started walking back and then one of the people from my pit crew came over and the dream faded a little bit. I wondered what was going on and then he said that we were in a dream. I asked him how this was possible, and all he said was, 'go see for yourself'. I went over and asked someone else and they started talking with a baby'like voice I couldn't understand. I was now convinced we were in a dream and was lucid, but only for a couple of seconds, not enough to work on dream goals or anything.

Then the dream shifted and I was now out in the forest at night. I was with some random chick who I was apparently in love with or something and for some reason we were just sitting out here. I then became lucid for a couple of seconds (idk how though). Anyways, I then went on and tol her how since this was actually a dream, I was in love with someone else and basically dumped her. Then things got really wierd. She suddenly turned into a vampire and came to try and bite me. I said ("Back off bitch! *pardon the language* I'm in love with someone else and you are just going to have to deal with it!") Then she just randomly dissappeared and I was left there in the rain. I also lost the lucidity I had.

From this point the dream got pretty personal for me, so I don't really want to go into detail. I will just say that I was REALLY REALLY REALLY close to finally meeting someone from my dream goals. I saw them in the dream and became lucid again. I was so excited! They were about to walk by me and I was going to talk to them, but then I woke up. Aaahhhh so close!!!!!

By the way, sorry I always leave yo uon these cliffhanger endings whenever I come close to this dream goal, it's just really personal for me. But I guess we all have something. lol. That was a very good dream though, at the end anyways.

Awareness - 8 / 10
Control - 9 / 10

So the last time I had a dream that felt as if there was a dream within a dream, I made a thread about it and was repeatedly told that this was physically impossible. However, it seems to of happened again!

The first thing I remember is that some of the people from my shared dreaming group I recently joined were with me and we were all at this nice hotel place. We all decided to try and have a shared dream, and went out by the pool and all went to sleep.

I then remember seeming to have another dream after falling asleep by the pool. I walked around for a while and coming to the place our group is thinking about meeting, and eventually ran into one of the people from my group! We exchanged a password just to be sure we had actually met in the dream, and then I woke back up. I was now back at the pool and everyone else was getting up too. I went over to the person who I had given the code to in the dream and asked them if they knew what I had told them. Turns out they DID!!! I don't remember what the code was, but in the dream I remember they repeated it perfectly and presto... shared dream! After amazing everyone with this, I think is when I woke back up into real life.

Overall I have to say, that was a VERY COOL dream. I don't know why everyone keeps saying it is impossible to have a dream within a dream, because this seems to be the second time now. maybe the scene just changed or something to fool me into thinking it was a dream within a dream, but whatever it was, that is what it seemed like. I am now really excited to attempt the shared dream with my group, and to get an explaination of this whole 'dream within a dream' thing.

See ya

I was thinking about biking, when I remembered my dream. It's separate from my last 08412 in recollection time only.
I was riding my bike, when I turned around and saw a man stumble in a car. *hard to explain* Once I was down the block, I turned around and saw his foot , DETACHED, in the distance. I jumped off my bike and tried to take a picture/ dial 9-1-1, but it didn't help. I turned and saw two kids found my bike. I didn't chase after them, but somehow I fought them off. It was a short fight/struggle scene involving scissors and a knife. No one got hurt, it was just a "whoever grabs the weapon, will get the bike". I got my bike and carried it upstairs. Here's the part where I should have became lucid: Upstairs, I looked out the window and could see the crash. The crash was on the opposite corner of my house. So logically, this should have been impossible. Albeit, I missed the sign and I continued looking at the scene from a window . I saw police beating witnesses, because they touched the witnesses. I got my phone out again, and could not take a picture. I gave up. Then I got taken in by a man...no relevance to my dream at all. But I remember there was a baby who was being taken care of, and when someone rang the door bell, he said to go upstairs. He was playing with his daughter. His ex-wife was my aunt and then there were her two daughters- my cousins. I remember thinking "why did they use my aunt and her two daughters for these roles? Maybe, because they already look so much a like." I compared bodies of the older (non-cousin one) and that's all I remember. I think my aunt was skinnier in the dream than in RL.

02.08.2012

Turning Into Babies (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


This has to be one of the most surreal dreams I've ever had. How this didn't spark off a DILD I have no idea.

I'm on the bus with one of my best friends. We get off the bus and start to walk home together. At one point in our walk, the conversation turns to the thought of having children [bear in mind we're only 19], and my friend talks about how bad it would be if his child didn't like the child of his best friend [me? I don't know].

Suddenly, we are babies. We're both about 1 year old, or whatever age babies start to stand up, but we're totally cool with it. It doesn't bother us. It's as if we've made this change by choice, and as if this was a normal thing to do. We're simply 19-year old guys in babies' bodies.

I explain that if I, as a baby, were to go up to him and push him over, which I demonstrate, he'd not remember by the time he'd grown up - in an attempt to explain it doesn't matter if babies don't like each other, as they won't remember anyway.

I then remark how strange it is that we have adult minds, and that anyone that saw us now would be incredible confused by our 19-year old intellect. I also point out that my voice is unchanged, while his is different - though he tells me this isn't the case from his perspective.

I get the feeling this element to the dream comes from the video of the two babies pretending to have an adult conversation, despite speaking in only 'daa daa's, found here.


I'm later in the attic room of my new house with my girlfriend. Again, we're both babies.

For some reason, we take some greetings cards sent for our parents and drop them in a large pot of liquid, so that the writing disappears.

After going downstairs briefly and coming back up again, we're back in our normal bodies. I pull her on top of me, and she complains that she's too tired to have sex. However, not because I'm trying it on, but because she's been complaining to me recently about being desperate for some action [we haven't seen each other in a few months], and now that's she's finally come to visit, she doesn't have the energy!

A flop of a sex dream if I ever did see one

02.08.2012

Witcher Obstacle Course (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


I'm in a huge cave with countless platforms and bridges over a large body of water, again with one of my best friends. We've just finished a Witcher quest [as in, from the game Witcher II, which I've been playing recently] and we head towards the exit.

We fight through a few easy monsters, with me using my typical Aard sign tactic. However, the magic comes from a giant toothpaste tube, which I squeeze. I'm carrying my coat over one shoulder, which causes me to miss a few times.

We cross various obstacles, such as a tiny floating platform which moves across the water, which we almost fall off. We eventually arrive at two rope bridges, now joined by two more of my close friends. Two of them take one each, but almost fall off after not realising how unstable they were.

The dream ends with a tiny, squared rope ladder, which all my friends help me down on my back, but drop me at the bottom.