memorable

She didn't like the concept of labels, so I never asked for her name. I was first aware of her as the melodic, sweetly feminine voice that drifted over my head in quiet tones as I lie in bed each night. We shared a room with another man, you see, and their conversations became the music I would find myself drifting off to sleep to each night.

In that way that women have, she never truly thought that I paid any attention to what she was saying in those moments, although he surely knew. At times, he would sit on the edge of his bed, looking down at me with a small smile as his English accent carried over to the gentle laughther of her refrain. People are funny, that way, in that they will reveal so much more from offhand remarks than when they know they have your full attenton. But, then, it's those moments that cause the first sparks of attraction without anyone realizing it happening.

Her humor, her pain, her love of life, her solitude. Listening to these constants were what caused me to hesitantly reach out, across the barrier between us, and gently touch her foot with my fingertips. For a moment, I felt guilt for intruding on her relationship with the Englishman, but that soon faded as I committed myself to the act. Her skin was warm, smooth, and I instantly grew more courage.

"Hey," I said, "Why don't you join me, so that I can hold you for a while?" The room was cold, and having another body to warm the bed seemed reasonable enough. There was some light rustling, and I caught my first sight of her as she crawled across the top of my bed's comforters. Thick auburn ringlets framed her full, beautiful face. Soft brown eyes searched mine warily, inquisitively, for a motive. A body full of life and curves was shielded from view by thin pajamas, but the pure essence of her person radiated nonetheless.

She sat on her feet for a few minutes, regarding me. She was suspicious, but wonderfully intelligent at the same time. I opened my arms, careful in both my honesty, and in my conviction. She knew that there was no force to my invitation, just a desire to comfort and share the peace two souls find when in each other's arms, should she wish it. Slowly, she slipped under the covers, her eyes never leaving mine, ensuring that I knew this was entirely by a choice that could be rescinded at any moment.

Her warmth, her pure feminine form wrapped itself along my side as she nestled against me. She smelled of woman - not the floral or spice that women choose to hide behind, but the wonderful fragrance that fills your nose upon first awakening each morning, your face resting upon her skin. I gently wrapped my arm around the silk contours of her waist, and we finally accepted the comfort each had been unsure of before.

I pointed, then, to her full breasts, my eyes still not having left her own, as I told her that I knew of the difficulty she was fighting within. Fear, sadness, and uncertainty flashed across her face, mixed with the realization that I had, indeed, been paying attention to her remarks from earlier. Any misgivings she had melted away from the severity of it all. Being reminded of one's mortality tends to be sobering, that way.

Over the coming months, the gradual act of being mutual comforters blurred into that of friends, of lovers, and ultimately understanding. Her world was slowly slipping away, while mine consisted of a never-ending supply of warmth, compassion, and a reminder to her that she was always the voluptuous woman I had first laid eyes on. She was, in every way, my world, and her acceptance healed me in ways far greater than I could ever return.

As I lie there, in bed, the haze of reality and dream brought to focus the one thought I had been avoiding: her passing. No longer would her voice whisper in my ears, her warmth comfort my nights. The companionship that we had both grown to depend upon ceased to exist as the disease overtook the last of her will. I would have to start over, without her, and she... she would finally find the rest she had so desparately been seeking.

A sudden wave of pure, agonizing grief washed over me, and eyes still closed clenched tightly in response, sending the first tear I had allowed myself to escape across my lashes. The burning sensation upon my skin ushered me across the bridge from my memories, and she faded into their eternal fog.

It was 3 AM, and I was alone, but forever loved.

3/11/11

Lost a lot of the dream now as this is just from memory. It was quite an involved dream though, the first one in quite a while.

At night roaming around a large office on something like the 481st floor. There was a lot of university friends in various rooms as well and we all progressed as a sparse group together. Someone/thing was following us but we weren't in any great hurry, we just looked through anything that was interesting and then left everything exactly as it was when we arrived.
At the opposite end of the floor was a corridor that turned to the left and through some sort of 'team' sight I could see a trap that someone in the group had set in the floor.
By stepping on certain areas the floor would turn into spikes but we could 'see' where was safe and all navigated quickly through to the exit door just past it.
A sense of urgency sprung up now that we had actively begun to 'fight back'. The next section of the building was a large warehouse whose height spanned multiple floors. Someone pointed out that we had moved to the next floor in entering it.
Strewn all about were big crates with tarps tying them down that everyone was standing on and nervously waiting on top of.

Then something tripped the trap and we all knew we had been foolish to try it because now whatever was following was just going to be more pissed/harass us faster. People began bailing and splitting from the group.

I decided I would summon my wolves to help me escape/be prepared if/when I was caught. I raised my hand to the ceiling which as I activated my magic turned into a twilight sky that rapidly bled to red and then a deep purple. On the floor in front of me two large circles, about 4m in diameter, opened up. Their perimeters spun with golden runes and markings around the midnight black centre.
Out of the centre two enormous wolves appeared. These things were the size of buses, in snow white to contrast the their darkening summons. Despite their size and raw power they behaved like lifelong pets and were very playful, like they were my guardian animals. They had blue and orange edged eyes respectively and distinct personalities.

I jumped on the back of one and rode it around the large warehouse and adjoining access ways. Eventually I met up with people I want to stick with and they seemed reassured that my wolves were on hand in case things got hairy.

But I never got a chance to do more than ride them around which was still pretty fun.

This dream started with me outside my 3 story apartment complex. It was all packed together, not divided buildings. For some reason, I thought my apartment building was on the first story so I went down there. I went as far down the hallway as was my apartment, but I realize the windows and doors were set up slightly different. Upon realizing I took the wrong way again (first was another dream that night) I punched someone's door.

Then I walked the stairs in the middle of the complex to take me to the top floor. But to my surprise the stair area had been changed into a few little snack and drink shops (i.e. gelotis, starbucks, etc.) But after an initial 'wtf?' I took it as normal. There were people buying, enjoying their food, and hanging out. It really seemed to be quite the hangout. I found a small set of stairs to take me to the next level.

When I got up the stairs there was a subway and a child's play area. Same as the first level, there was a lot of people hanging out, eating, etc. Then there was these small, goofy looking stairs. I started to go up them as a 16 yo Mexican female tried to go up at the same time. She tried to come onto me, but I didn't want her, so I went up the sketch, one-person stair case.

When I got up that flight of stairs the area was mainly empty. with a few toys laying around. I figured it was an extension of the play area. Now the genius who invented the next stair case obviously had never seen a staircase. It was as if the staircase was folded up into the wall, like those fold up beds in New York apartments. But you couldn't pull it down, there was just an indent of it. To make things more interesting for the inventor, he mockingly put a ladder all along the back of this indent. The top floor had wooden guard rails with a small wall under them. You know, just in case a child wanted a quicker way to the play area. So I stood there marveling at how stupid it was, but I had to go over it so. The Mexican girl followed me and tried to get up over the ladder, but couldn't. I tried to climb the 60 degree ladder, but that didn't work out. As the other girl tried multiple times to get over, I jumped up and barley grabbed on to the railing. It was a bit slippery, so if I tried to pull myself up I would probably fall back down. So I let go. I jumped up again and I had a bad grip and I was already slipping, so I let go. This time, I bent me knees and gave my best jump. I had a decent hold on the rail, so I took it. I pulled myself up and put my feet on the ladder. Then I jumped over the railing.

I walked around a corner to see a white girl standing near my apartment door. As I got closer she said something along the lines of 'poor bird. you've had a bad day haven't you?' She was looking at a bird that was on a window, at a break in my apartment and the neighbor's. I remember thinking that she had to have been a bird whisperer or whatever you want to call it. I went up and said something more outgoing than I usually would, like something you would say to a girl you want to get to know more. She had a good response, with a smile. I said something else. You know, gettin points and stuff. She looked my age (17), had blonde hair, light colored clothing, and she was pretty. She seemed to had already warmed up to me and ready to hang out. As in, walking and talking, having subway, etc. Since everyone seemed to spend there time at the eating areas, hanging out, and not at their apartments.

I went past her a little to finally get into my house. That's when we realized that the door was opened, no one was supposed to be there. she moved over so i could have full access to the door. she got quiet cuz she knew what an open door meant. i put my left in front of me in a defensive position and my right hand in a ready-to-punch position. After I checked the immediate area, she came in and closed the door until it was cracked open. She stood at the door to wait for me to finish investigating. She seemed really calm. I searched the rest of the apartment to find these two random friends of my moms' laying on her bed. A man and a woman that were dating eactother. I had a run-in with these people in another dream, that same night. I didn't like them.

The girl I met outside came into the room and sat down on a chair with her feet rested on the bed. I went to go close the door that she left cracked open. When I came back, I sensed the guy was wondering what the girl's name was and that reminded me that I didn't ask yet. So i asked,"I haven't got your name yet. What's your name?" She started to talk then paused and asked,"what's your name," like 'tell me your's first then I'll tell you. As if I could do something bad to her if I knew it. But that was fine, she came off as a kinda reserved person."Justin," i answered, then in a lower voice i said,"Patterson." You could tell she still contemplated telling me for half a sec then said,"my name's Nicole." I think she told me the true. I somehow knew she was a nice, caring person; and I don't think she would lie with a straight face. The two random adults gave their names too. She said something along the lines of 'I dont like my name, its plain and boring.' 'wow she seems like a nicole too. She was somewhat reserved, nice, caring, a little weird, but not problem weird' I thought."I like your name," I said. I think a blue/white bird came up and landed on her finger then. She held it up, looked at it, said something to it, then it flew off. She had a smile on her face, you could tell she was happy to see the bird or a bird in general. I'm pretty sure she had a strong connection to birds, maybe also a goddess of birds? The random adult's two chiwawas run up to her and played with her. She was giggling and playing with them as they barked. I didnt like the chiwawas.

If I try to think about what happens after that all I can see is a big bad spirit coming in to reckon with Nicole, but I have no memory of that. And that was the last dream of the night. Needless to say I would've protected her.

Then the dream ended.

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I think Nicole was an actual spirit. I dont care what the skeptics think, it's not gonna change my mind. The main reason I think she was an irl spirit is because she hesitated to give me her name. All the social interactions were normal besides that. Only with spirits can having someone's first name do some damage. Plus she seemed like a bird goddess and it's possible they could come through my dream to see her. Also that she was wearing light colors on her clothing, was white, and blonde hair. All representing good, and when it comes to spirits, color most times indicates good or bad. Our friendship seemed to build pretty quickly since she would enter my house and take a seat after we 'just met.' Which leads me to think that I used to know her from the spirit-world.

11-01-11 I dreamed I were a female 17-25 talking to a Latino young man about the same age there was chemistry. He worked for a local factory that is on 2-3 wk's. and off 1 wk. He asked if I wanted to go out with him, I got into a vehicle.I was possibly drugged. I awake on a freight train in a box car caged and we are crossing the Mississippi River, I am disoriented at first, cold and it seems really high off the water, I can still smell the river, see the lights, and feel the air, then I ask where we are going and he states we are going to visit his family for the week.I insist he put me on a greyhound back to TN but it is too late. He kinda smirks...I cry and cry silently. I am shaken and you might say in another place mentally. He is traveling with other employees Latinos and a best friend also Latino. He states the town W....something, cant quite remember Wesminster or Wenchester... not sure. There is something about him that has changed, he seems cold distant w/o a conscious. (this dream started around 2-3 am initially,kids woke me and I went back to sleep then in my sleep I disrobed...I cant tell you how unlike me that is) We finally arrive.This doesn't look like the TX I remember. It looked more like tropical mexico but in the heart of a city. I asked to go to a store for toiletries but was told we were going to the place we were to be sleeping at, no where else.He kept telling me I would be home in a weeks time, I pleaded "I have to go home I have babies.... what will they do w/o me for a week".Then it turned into 3-4 days he said I would be home.I knew I was never going home. I had lost all hope. I was ordered to disrobe?????? then I was allowed a small space to sleep next to him like a pet or something and slept. I awoke ...For all I can tell from this dream he did not hurt me or assult me in any way but I felt that my time was running short in a sense... I didn't get to see the end. I feel as though some dreams I have are real life possible situations and that I should be helping the victims in my dreams. It feels as though I'm her mixed with a little of me. All of the terrible things that she felt I felt too....the smell of the river.... Spanish language.... danger..... urgency... and total panic. I felt dehumanized and my life valueless. If this were a real situation I am not so good at remembering the details so how could I help anyway? feedback welcome....


I must add today 11-04-11 that I had this dream Halloween night so it was 11-01-11 around 2 am but did not post till the am of the next night because it was so disturbing I had to find an outlet and stumbled across the site and typed 2ce the 1st time was erased and I had to visit the details in my mind again to get it down. Oh and my time zones not right I entered this at around 3am newby error, its still not right.

So here's a snippet from a dream I thought was interesting that has left me feeling all happy-happy for the day.

I was in and out of lucidity, running down a street at night. Sometimes I'd vaguely realize I was dreaming and try to shout some command but a few moments later, I'd forget and just keep doing what I was doing. I also knew I was worrying about waking up so I think that was preventing me from becoming fully lucid and just doing whatever I wanted, because that worry was becoming an obsession.

Suddenly I came across a driveway full of cars. I assumed there was some party going on. I was lucid for a second again, but just enough for my brain to be like, "Hey Tara. What's up? I'm pumping a lot of blood to your vagoo, since you're in REM sleep and all, soo you're just gonna go look for sex now, okay?" and that's exactly what I did after losing lucidity again.

I walked through all of the parked cars, casually looking for someone to have sex with. I found one occupied car but the person inside was asleep or something. I don't quite remember, but either way, I kept looking. I came across another car with a young man inside browsing his phone. He kind of looked like the actor who played Thomas Kalmaku in the new Green Lantern film, with the glasses and everything. I quietly opened the door and said, "Hey." He said the same back and I bluntly and casually said, "Do you wanna have sex?" He seemed a bit confused and asked why and I said something like, "Because I want to, it's fun and it feels good." After fiddling around on his phone for a few more seconds, he nodded and said, "Sure." but seemed kind of tired and not into it. I asked if we could go in the backseat because he wasn't moving, so we did. The dream sort of abruptly transitioned to us being in the back seat.

We were laughing and eating orange creamsicles. Well, I was mostly acting like a goof and making him laugh. He commented on how silly I was. The excitement died down as we finished our creamsicles and sat in silence. The car light made everything orange and grainy, but provided enough light for me to see that he was smiling at me. He looked somewhat contemplative, like he was pondering the weirdness of the situation and who I was. I smiled back for a long while before glancing at his lips. My ears burned and face flushed, I could feel it. My heart was beating uncomfortably fast and hard. I had the overwhelming urge to kiss him and the overwhelming desire for him to kiss me. After staring at my feet and gathering my courage back up, I stared at him again, then looked at his lips while he sheepishly muttered, "I'm not going to have sex with you." I chuckled, smiled and nodded. I wasn't all that bothered. We were having a genuinely good time, as if we were best friends. I had kind of figured the sex wasn't going to happen as soon as the dream transitioned to us laughing in the back seat. But I still wanted to kiss him. I'm upset that I didn't. My vision faded as I began to have a false awakening, in which I went on Facebook and saw that the guy from the dream had added me and I was astounded that I dreamed of him before even knowing he existed. I was also quite excited to actually be friends with him. Then I woke up for real and was very disappointed but quite pleased with my brain for coming up with such a nice dream.

3/4-11-2011 .

4 awakenings in the night, very light sleep no real lucidity.

#1. France
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I was back on the farm in france. I was doing labor when I saw a woman on a hill, she looked like she was in distress. I thought she was being attacked by animals or something. I remember being in her house talking about what happened and she basically said there was nothing wrong, she was just doing some work.
Later i was talking to the guy who owns the farm, Jack. I was telling him about the woman and how i thought she was being attacked. I can't speak french that well anymore tho so i had a lot of trouble trying to speak my mind. I was aware of not being here in a long time. I decided not to waste time and just speak english.

#2. Sniping
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The environment was dark and futuristic. Like an Unreal Tournament sniper/camping map. I believe there was a border that defined the area of play. I was hiding on low ground. I followed a guy I know, S. I wanted to shoot him. We where on low-ground and he moved up a metal platform/elevator. It went way high up in the sky and I lost him.
I was still standing on ground-level and i noticed a balcony up high. There was a blue guy that spotted me. He tried to snipe me down but missed a lot. I shot back and after a 20 second shoot-out i killed him. I went up the elevator and moved to the edges of the map.

I was sniping in a very dark spot, on a hill. There was a tower i was hiding behind and I lied in the grass looking for frags. Things got weird tho and I moved back to ground-level or i fell there. I was still lying in the grass but on the ground without cover I was easy to spot. I was scoping on S and his mate who where walking over a playground. I didn't shoot them because I was being nice. I thought i was hiding well, but then S yelled something to the extent of : "How's it hanging! Aren't u gonna shoot me?" . I thought shit, if they can see me everyone can i better find a new hiding place. And i woke up.

#3. Invitation
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The environment was a 5vs5 video game in a forest at first. I was with my 4 teammates standing together looking at pieces of paper that looked like formal invitations! I was holding a red piece of expensive paper and perhaps some ribbon was nailed in the top corner. There was a button you could click and when you did that ur character would change into a minitiature aerial vehicle of sorts. I clicked it and mine was a small spaceship. If i'd move around the spaceship would leave trails of rainbow colours behind. (Everyone had something but i forgot what the others where)
During this, the environment shifted to a large clothes store. Further maneuver made it obvious that it was also a high school. And probably a whole lot more things.
I was moving around the clothes store and i noticed a woman going around her business. I thought i'd suprise her with my new toy and turn into a spaceship in front of her and fly around her. This time I was holding a white invitation and tried to press some of the letters to turn into a spaceship again. But nothing happened. I didn't realize i was using a wrong piece of paper until later on when i went to do some business in the school area. I looked into my pockets and found out that the red invitation was right there.

#4. Blue stardisk
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There was a dream scenario beforehand that involved some competition with a fella and apperantly I won. Or that's what i thought when i was standing outside and looked at the night-sky. I peered into space and my attention was grabbed by a bright blue star. As i was looking at this the star slowly transformed into a disk. It got much bigger in size , getting much lengthier and a little broader. (The longer side was vertical and it only grew a little horizontally) While i was watching this I heared a loud ringing noise and my brain got pressured immensely. (most likely my forehead, tho i don't remember) It got so intense that i woke up from that eventually.


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K, some personal thoughts on dream #3 and #4. It's interesting to note that i was looking up and hearing stories about aliens and ancient humanoids coming from the Sirius system just before i went to sleep that night. I was so inspired and awe-struck that i had in mind i was going to attempt to make contact with Sirius if i happen to be lucid. In reality i am also bored with this planet and i'd rather live in interstellar space. Not this crappy isolated earth. So i wished for some more aliens to come into my life and see how life treats them and learn learn learn.

Anyway, i am inclined to interpret the dream as a calling heared and a clear message. Dream #3 had the symbolism of an Invitation that is associated with a spaceship.
Maybe my calls have been heared and I am hereby given an invitation to initiate me into their galactic civilization. I guess if this is true it should be evident in dreams later on because i'd gladly accept their invitation.

About dream #4 it is a little harder to interpret. But since i thought about Sirius before bed it could have been the Sirius star giving me a sign. The symbolism of a disk i don't understand. It was definetly a disk, not a sphere. But it could go both ways i guess. To make a comparison it looks a lot like our galaxy if you'd view it from the side.
A disk shape looks a lot like the UFOs depicted in hollywood. It could be the dream "telling me" that UFOs sighted come from Sirius. Or that the invitation i got earlier was coming from Sirius. Or it could be something else entirely, perhaps something more cosmic. Or nothing at all. I've found atleast ONE dreamer who also had a dream about a dark blue disk in the sky.

I remeber having a dream about being some kind of space travller in a scenario where earths civilization had ended and one of our crew members had created a free energy device. My friend clayton had invited me onto the ship or into the crew and first i remeber them just playing frisbee and trying to have enjoyable times doing simple things then travelling to another planet where there were different mutated human races that were not human anymore and claimed to be much more than human and not human at all there was a kind of super beings with white eyes and no pupils or eyelids that felt they were superior and at later in the dream attempted to kill off the humans and were stopped by this snake or serpant race that looked nothing like humans but had a much more friendly attitude trying to explain to the others why they should not act in such selfish ways but the white eyed ones were only interested in advancing their race as much as possible. later i found myself in a room trying to get my washed clothes back form some kind of human leader that would not admitt to them being my clothes, this was in a huge room filled with everyones cleaned and folded cllothes. Earlyier in the dream i recall on a previous planet a happier attitude of life where we lived like in a third world atmopshere, well it all seemed third world like atmopshere with little food and shelter and such commodoties but this one people were very rare and far between and i recall being under a tarped enclosure with about six others and knowing of only one other person on this planet, eventually we had to leave because of weather and my desires to travel which led us to the place with the snakes and white eyed ones... thats about all i can recall..

Alright, for the first time in ages, I tried not taking my melatonin. I have to say my recall did suffer a bit, but not significantly so, and I did log the most dreams in one night since I started my dream journal, so, meh. I got to bed around 11:15 pm I think....

2:57 am - Non-lucid, Nightmare

There was some kind of "training" going on at my house during the day, and everyone who was involved (my friend J and my cousin P as far as I can remember, but I think more than them too) spent the night afterward. The scene suddenly shifts to nighttime and I was in the den when I heard something in the kitchen and just barely saw someone moving in the dark. I yell out "Who's there!?" and it turns out to be J just getting something to drink. We start talking and head out to the backyard where we see a baby crawling around near the pool. Shocked, we go up to it, grab it, and leap up on top of the fence (which seemed perfectly normal, of course) to see a woman and another baby in front of the garage in the house on the opposite side of the alley, which doesn't exist in real life, there's just constant fence all the way across that side. I ask "Is this your baby?" and she replies "Oh, yes!" and climbs over the fence carrying her other, even younger baby, snatches the first baby out of my hands, and then jumps into the pool with them. Because physics are lame, they all start to sink straight down rather than float, although they do sink slowly, including the woman, who does nothing about it. J and I freak out and jump in after them and we pull the babies out and put them on the side. They're not breathing so I try to resuscitate them but it isn't working and I'm panicking. While I'm trying to do this, they're also slowly morphing into gummy bear-like snacks, though this goes unnoticed by me. Meanwhile I'm shouting at the woman to do something and dragging her up out of the water but she just remains perfectly still, smiling with this demented look on her face, and sinks back in every time. I'm really freaking out and thinking we're not going to be able to save them and then I wake up.... Why do my nights keep starting off with sad or scary dreams?

5:30 am - Non-lucid, Memorable

I'm walking around an airport trying to follow my friend D. I've got a suitcase with an extensible handle so I pulled it out so I could wrap another bag around it instead of having to carry it, then started walking and ran into an old friend, B, who I hadn't seen since middle school. She looked like she was proportionally older, though. She starts walking with us and then as we're moving the airport turns into a mall and I bump into my cousin K and some of her friends. I say hey to them and then run forward to catch up with a new imaginary person I'm suddenly following, a girl who seems to have it out for this other imaginary girl named Randy. Apparently, we had spent all of this time trying to track Randy down only to keep finding that we were still two steps behind her. Some stuff happens in between here that I don't remember that well, and actually I think it may just be that when this part of the dream started I was flooded with false memories that I didn't actually experience so they're not as clear as what happened before or after that. We run into some random person and ask if they know where Randy would go and they respond "To Japan and Korea, of course!" At that point we're suddenly in a car with a phone over the glove compartment which rings and the girl I'm with answers it. It's the FBI! They're calling because they know where Randy is and they want us to give them a reason that they can take her in, and the girl starts cackling and telling them about the "Verizon money heist" that Randy was involved in. She hangs up and shows me an old picture of Randy next to a big scary-looking guy with a newer photo of Randy taped on to the side to show how she had changed since then. The scene shifts to third person perspective and I see current Randy and the man from the photo, Randy is being sentenced to death for what she did and the man is the executioner. She is angry with him and he tells her that it's just his job and she did a crime and that "we'll all pass" eventually. She responds "No, you'll live on." and he says "Well that's where you're being absurd, you just use magic." Suddenly the scene shits again to what I can really only describe as a large alien lair that seems to be some kind of cave at the end of a tunnel. The tunnel is completely covered in shards of mirrors and at the end of the cave is a cyclops looking into the mirror, causing his one eye to be reflected out of that shard and all over the tunnel, so every single mirror shard has his eye staring out of it. Basically it looked like a giant tunnel of eyes. It zooms in to be in first person from the cyclops's perspective. As he sees himself in the mirror he is disgusted, and he throws an apple at it, shattering the whole scene. Then the dream fades... and I wake up.



6:47 am - Non-lucid

I'm at Victoria's Secret (according to the dream, thought doesn't at all look like one) trying to buy a dress I want and there are two different registers open and not that many people at first, but by the time I'm getting in like there are swarms of people all over the place. I end up sitting down because there are so many people in front of me in line and I see and start talking to this guy A that I haven't seen since around 7th grade I think and he has this, like... demon mouth or something, it slants back like an anime mouth and has a little fang sticking down out of the top corner. I can't remember what he said, though. I get up when I notice that more people are taking advantage of the fact that I'm sitting down to cut in front of me! Another guy I haven't seen in years named D cuts directly in front of me, but I'm still only a couple of people away from the register. For some reason everyone in line (including myself) has a "gender card" which contains information about their gender and some other characteristics about them and for some reason is all you need to make your purchase. I swipe mine and get my dress! But then the dream ends. Oh well. Also, Adele's "Someone Like You" was playing in the background the entire time.

8:38 am - Non-lucid

I'm at school with O and I'm trying to find a bathroom but it doesn't seem to be anywhere, try as I might. In this dream I'm able to fly and phase through walls easily, but it's non-lucid so this doesn't really occur to me as strange or interesting. O eventually gives up on helping me look and gets to class. At one point I try to go through a wall and it fails, confusing me greatly, and I accidentally knock over yet another person named D and we fall on to a pile of students and we all get tangled up. I finally work my way out of the mess and go to join O in class. I see him on a computer and I walk over to sit at the one next to him and for some reason my legs are trembling like crazy the whole time! I told him that I fell on D "yesterday... no wait, like I minute ago", and then I woke up.

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An odd night, but not so bad if I do say so myself. I think I'll leave the melatonin out from now on and see where that gets me!

I first have to say I am not religious, but I believe in spiritual things and such. And also this is my most vivid dream I've ever had. This dream was about 6 years ago.

The setting of where I was sleeping was over a friends house in the basement sleeping on the floor.
Now my dream. In my dream I woke up sitting up with a strong cold wind blowing the left side of my face. So I looked over to my right and saw my older brother and older sister kneeling, but something was different about them. They were at least 10 years younger and had the emptiest stares.
Then I looked to my left and saw the basement empty (except for the carpet and the walls) and expanding and continuing to expand. Then I looked out in front of me and saw 6 boxes stacked in a cross, but each box and a punishment. Before I could read each punishment, they changed into the word punishment.
Finally, the boxes, one by one, disappeared and I woke up.
The left side of my face was as cold as ice which is where the portable heater was blowing heat at me.

Does anyone have any idea what this dream is trying to say? Whether it be some kind of spiritual meaning or if my subconscious is trying to say.

A couple of months ago i was reading about how Passion flower can be used to help relax one self into a deep trance needed for Astral Projection An Lucid dreams.I Proceeded By buying a Sleep Soundly Supplement which contains 500 mg of L-Tryptopan, Passion flower, Lemon Balm Extract,Chamomile flower, Valerian root 200mgs all together, L-theanine 50mg an 3mg of Melatonin.Just an all around relaxing cocktail perfect for entering deep trances.So that night i decided to take 3 pills an started to relax my myself.I would say it took about 30 mins to enter into sleep paralysis.From there things only got weird.I left my body in what is known as astral projection i was floating above my body then out of know where i couldnt move my astral body.My astral body started vibrating at such a high speed i was scared.So i closed my astral eyes then i heard Summerian lang talking to me with a metalic cling to it.It sounded so powerful almost godly. i felt the thing as it got closer it made me vibrate at a higher speed.I have never been more scared in my life.I move my real hand so it looked like i was making a chi ball i dont know why but it worked an scared the thing away i woke up out of the trance. Scared an confused went back to bed an it happened a couple more time so i woke up an called my best friend arden at 2am woke him up an talked.Waiting for sunrise.

My Fracking House

In real life, NPR has been talking about fracking. I think I heard this in my sleep. I dreamed that
"they" were fracking in my neighborhood (though I was living somewhere I have never lived before).
All the houses were moving up and down in a wave as a result of the fracking going on.

I said to an unseen DC that "Luckily, I can slide my house away" or something like that. I pulled a piece
of decking that my house was on. When the fracking wave came buy, it missed my house--then I was able
to slide it back.

Making it with an Old Lady

I got some ice cream in a strange restaurant / shop. An lady came with me
and said I could lick her head. I know that's what you want to do. It wasn't strange
in the dream as some how that equated to licking my ice cream.

I never did lick her hair, which is what I would have done at that point.
My thinking changed to where it didn't really make much sense to lick
her hair, so I eventually forgot about it. Then I started trying to make a
move on this lady who became an old lady. She wasn't attractive in the
least, and she was about 65 or 70 years old. I picked out a place
for us to sit. It was a quality wooden bench, a little off to the side.

We sat down, then we were able to lie down. It was a bed all of a sudden. I was having
trouble with the idea of what I was doing, though I didn't stop. She seemed to have a
decent figure, except she had a belly.

I eventually saw her breast, nipple and all. I went to suck it, but that part is foggy. I was
grossed out by the thought of what I was doing.

i was at this house with my siblings....and the setting around the house changed.....and i was at this pond thing....an me and my 2 bothers found this small dock and this shed thing that had only one door and it lead to the water.....the pond kept changing size and shape....and my brother that was 2 years younger than me was cleaning it out....and i was helping him take stuff back to the house because that place was packed and my other brother (6 years younger than me) was using this boat to transport us.....and it looked like a toy and barely fit me and him.....

then we decided to use a zip line to take things to and from the shed......the house was up hill.......and i eyed up where to put the line.....and thought it would be good to take things down to the shed......but everyone else thought it would be better to move things from the shed up to the house.....so they did that instead.....which had gravity going backwards.....but i didn't care.......and we had a ski lift type chair made of cardboard transporting people up hill....there were no mechanics.....just a thin rope which i was surprised didn't snap......and we had 2 people on swings that were a foot from the ground to tell us if the rope looked like it was going to snap.......and the one asked what she should do.....and i told her to scream if she falls because that means the people much higher up are falling and going to die.......

and then we were going back and forth in the boat......and i accidentally knocked over the water color drawings my two sisters made and they were mad......the water was hip high and they had it in a bucket to dry.....and i moved and a small wave knocked over the bucket and they were both pissed at me

the next dream.....we were in the same house.....but there was a tiny alley to go through to get from the street to the back yard where the only door was.....and the alley was so tiny i don't even know how i fit because my ears kept scraping the walls......and my friend was following me there.....and we got to the back yard......and she asked why i didn't just go through the back yard from the road out back because that looked much easier......then i saw a snake that my mom's ex-boyfriend was holding....he was always trying to scare me......it had teeth like a shark but it was obviously dead so i didn't care.......then there were tiny snakes as long as my finger that kept falling from the sky......and these guys from the conservation district came and dug up our yard and put them in buckets of water that we all had to get from the stream across the street.......none of this was weird to me though

the next dream....i was in the same house.....except i was getting these tests with weird questions.......they took me to the attic so it would be quiet....but it was summer and hot and they didn't even open a window.......and the first question i messed up.......because they had an upside down Q and i had to match it to the keyboard and i hit where the q would be on a regular keyboard without looking at the buttons......they were all really weird looking.....and then i had to start over......and they had me defining weird words i've never heard of.......but i seemed to get all the questions right.......when i got down stairs......which was a ladder....i have no idea how the test lady did it in high heals though..........she said she had the results.......and she was talking to the other lady.....and they were whispering and saying that my problem was pretty much that i was too smart for my own good

the next one was me getting raped and beaten and taken to a hospital to get bandaged up and report it......and they switched me to a guy doctor who wanted to transfer me to another long term hospital for trauma.....and i kept begging the nurses to get me a different doctor because i didn't want a guy after what i'd been through and i cried the whole dream

the next was me just talking with my siblings at my old house....but i kept having these thoughts of wanting to hit them all the time like my mother did....and i kept crying whenever i thought of it.......and my mother kept hitting them but then my dream would flash and it would be me watching myself hit them from outside of my body and i would cry more

the next was at a costume store.....but i was getting art supplies.....and these two guys with guns came in to rob it and i was telling them that the dress looks more like a t-shirt and i need to add lots of fabric to it (like i did to my halloween costume last year)......and i kept annoying them and not being afraid and they rolled their eyes and walked out

My twin sister, who occasionally co-stars in my dreams with me, and I are escorted into a huge throne room. Scarlet banners hang from the walls, and the floor tiles were gold. The king was there, but I can't remember what he looked like. He asked my twin what went best with wine, She tells him 'white dumplings'. Wrong answer, so we are escorted downstairs to where many others live who have failed the test. I never answered the question, so I am lined up with four others, who have yet to give an answer. We go upstairs, a new girl comes in and goes first. She says something, it is the correct answer, and she is named as an elf, which haven't existed in years.

Scene shifts, we're on my grandmothers front porch. She is holding a little green-and-purple cardboard circle with a hole in the middle. She comments on how the flowers are withered. I look at her, trying to relay a point. She understands somehow, and kisses the circle. Not exactly what I had in mind. She thinks for a moment, then whistles softly. A few of the flowers start moving, then top. I figure she could use some help. I start to sing very softly, just giving her a push. The flowers started to bloom. The new girl looks on in wonder. My twin walks up form behind us and starts to hum. The flowers brighten. As I sing, my twin hums, and the new girl whistles, the flowers bloom, lift, and brighten. We were each given elven names, but I couldn't remember what they were. I only remembered that I was sun, my twin was earth, and the new girl was water.

A few hours later I looked back in my journal. I KNEW that we had been given names. I went on Google Translate and typed 'sun'. I tried different languages. After many different tries, I picked French. It said that 'sun' in french was Soleil. As soon as I saw that I remembered our given names. My name was Soleil, the new girl was Eau, and my twin was Terre. I didn't have to translate them to know what they meant. One my coolest dreams ever

I was in a dark, dank and empty castle. There are streaks of black all over the place. It is filled with shadows. I am in search of something. The exit?

There's a monster after me. A creature bigger than I. It is pure black, and looks like a skeleton beast. It reminds me of the Balrog in the Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring, except that it walks on all four legs.

It has been stalking me, and I keep evading it. I know I won't be able to fight it myself. Then I saw my mentor; a hunter. He was walking when I saw the shadow behind him. I shouted "Master, behind you!" He struggled with the shadow demon.

Meanwhile, I was looking around to make sure nobody attacks him from behind. I tried to check the corridor to my right, but it leads down, to the catacombs, with an air of dread. I decided not to hang out in that area. I slowly approached my mentor who was still struggling with the shadow beast, and I walked backwards toward him, watching our back. It looked like a middle ages castle.

Then one creature appeared. I shot him with... something. A gun? A spell? It disappeared. Then another one appeared. A vampire! He looks like a vampire from the HoMM3. He's stronger, and the "gun" didn't work on him. I hurried to free my ceremonial knife from my belt, and tried to stab him in the chest. But it didn't go deep. It just looked at me. I pushed harder, and it went through.

I was flying wildly in the forest. I was with some allies. They also have magical abilities. We were looking for something, or being chased by something. We had to open a portal, or at least go through an open portal. The atmosphere/air/space ahead of us looked like a multicolored vibration as the portal opens. Some are trying to stretch it. Eventually, me, and perhaps some of the others, went through.

I was in the "real" world. I was in a supermarket. They were selling nuts, and they're stored in a freezer. I saw a mirror and saw that I was fat. These are some of my mentors in N21.

I was walking near the Bacolod cemetery in the middle of the street with Grey. I crossed the street, and looked back. He disappeared. I grew furious at whoever took him. I searched. I entered an internet cafe.

this is in my paper journal and i just now am entering it into dreamviews because, you know the more i think about the dreams the more i will think about the dreams tomorrow etc... anyways.

day 2 or about three days ago, The first dream i recalled I was in jail with a friend alfredo, i remember working out and later of realizing I had missed my court date my a day having been kept in the jail cell. somehow i thought i had lost track of the days while being in jail and i was very upset at the police officer who was somewhat guilty feeling for not bringing me to my court hearing.

somewhere else in another dream I was picking up another friend caitling from greenvale appts, she was trying to sleep outdoors and it is fall so somewhat cold weather. for some reason she ran into her old pet she said, which turned out to be a rat that had frightened her because it had grown much larger and wild as you would assume. she was quite frightened but then all i remeber was seeing this car something like a 88 oldsmobile that was kinda unclean but i invisioned it black and could pretty much see it changing before my eyes and loved how it looked with a nice silver/chrome trim, i wanted very badly and ended up buying it on the spot, i dont recall buying it from a person though. It was two different colors to begin with one color was blue and the other was yellowish white.
in some kind of foraging or herb identification competio
the most recent dream i recalled which was mixed with the previous dream, I drove the new black lovely car of my dreams lol no pun intended, down a road to a dead end where there was this hill filled with vegetation, the next thign i remeber was being lined up with a dozen or more other young males each with a 6 to ten foot row plastic roped off going up the hill the entire distance in some kind of foraging or herb identification competion. We were all compettingin locating specific herbs and i recall trying to cheat by looking at the other persons choice and trying to locate a similar one on my row on the hill, i also rember msot of the others were not staying within their boundaries and i was which didnt really bother me but i noted it as somewhat unfair.