nightmare

1. I had come to a large pool area from somewhere else, and it was as big as a water park. There were many rides. First I went with friends and family to one specific ride. It was a slide and was also an inflatable. I slid down it and once I did I immediately tried to climb back up. There was a clone of one specific person that would continually come down from each section of the slide. There were 3 sections on this slide. I climbed back up and held on to the edge of the slide where the drop was, kinda like a cliff. Another clone flew over me and eventually I lost my grip and fell. This time I went all the way down the slide and just got off. This is where I went to the huge pool. When I got there, everyone was either swimming, playing badminton, volleyball, or just chilling. I myself tried to play some badminton but couldnt because there wasnt enough room. I then just went to the middle of the pool and swimmed. Soon I realized that I had an inflatable tube wrapped around me and that I wasnt really swimming, I was just floating the entire time. Great, I wondered how I looked to other people. I floated my way towards this girl I thought I knew, but it turned out, I was just mistaken. I talked to this girl and asked her what she was doing, but I dont remember her reply. My friend Darius passed me and he too was in an inflatable tube. I grabbed onto his tube to get a free ride and he floated towards where I wanted to go. Darius never knew that I did this until I let go. When I let go of his tube He turned around and asked me "Who do you think you are?". I told him I just wanted to get over here fast. He said he was going to push me underwater, but I told him not too. He came over to me and was about to do it, but midway he just stopped for some reason and left me. I got out of the pool and walked over to this robot fighter arena. I went over and activated the robot. Turns out, you dont use robots, you just fight one super big strong one by yourself. I grabbed a gun and started the match. The way my gun would work is that you have to charge up each shot for about 10 seconds and then shoot. I did this for a while and almost killed the robot, but I was getting low on ammo and needed a new gun. I went to the corner of this arena and there was just a pile of guns laying on a platform. I grabbed one and as I did, some random dude decided to jump in to my arena and help me out. I got my gun and we both started firing down on the robot. But something was weird, he was getting stronger. The dude that was helping me out told me to back up cause, "its about to get messy", so I did. I watched the random dude. He was apparently super charging his gun to the point where it would completely obliterate the robot in one shot. He finished super charging his gun, then He jumped in front of the robot. All of a sudden the robot let out a huge blast of energy from his chest and immediately the dude that was helping me out flew and slammed against the back wall. He had just died. I decided it was getting too crazy inside the arena and left. But before I did, I went back to that gun platform and saw some papers that the dude had brought with him. I read the papers only to find that they were MY notes that I had taken about the brain earlier that night. I knew that he stole them, so I took them back. I also saw some past DJ entries on purple paper from a while back. I then walked down a road and oddly enough, all my friends were there. We walked to a point in the road where it was covered in barbed wire. There was an opening in the wire and we went through. This led to another road and halfway down the road, my friends car was parked. We got to the car and Ryan(it was his car) opened the door and told me and my other friend to get in because we were leaving. I asked why and he said because his feet hurt. So we got in and thats where it ended. (god that took me 30 minutes to type up)

2. I was in my house, laying on the carpet in front of my door. It was daytime. My sister was next to me. Out of no where, a random mole climbed onto my body and started rubbing his nose on my head. He was hairy, and he put ALOT of pressure to the point where I freaked out, threw him off, and got on my way. I looked around my house and noticed this was the Dream version of my house which had always interested me because it was really different from my real life house. At this point I became lucid and explored the house. I walked into my sisters room where a huge part of the house was. Her room led to the other 90% of the house. It filled me with curiosity and I made my way into her room. My dad went in front of me because I said something like, "I think this part of the house is haunted". (I always get that feeling when Im in that part of my house in dreams, its weird). So my dad walked down the next hallway into the other part of the house. I took off my glasses because they were messed up for some reason, and continued to follow my dad. At the end of the hallway it opened up into a huge foyer room. I looked down and past the stairway and saw a huge room with tons of candles lit in what looked like a religious way. This is where I got spooked. (by the way I lost my lucidity during this part because I wasnt really focused on what I wanted to do) The flames on the candles started flickering in an odd manner, and some even went out. I turned around and my dad disappeared. I was pretty scared because of the fact that every time I come back to this house it changes and gets bigger. INSANELY bigger. I decided to jump over the edge of the staircase and fly over to the other side. I made it.(I think this is where I lost my lucidity for sure). I came over to an elevator and a little girl was standing there. I walked to her and she had a snake in her hands. It bit her and she said something like, "Fine, if you're going to bite me over nothing then Im going to punish you." At this point I became the girl and choked the snake. I put it on the ground while choking it and stepped on it. Its fangs fell out and they were like crystals of a rainbow. I do not remember any more.

3. This was earlier in the first half of the night. I had "woken up" from a dream and decided to write down the dreams I just had. I got my dream journal and started writing down the two dreams I remembered. I then woke up for real and noticed that entire thing was a false awakening. It made me kinda upset because in the FA I had just recorded two dreams. I decided to go back to sleep and not record them.

4. I was in my bed in a dream. I was awakened by the sound of whispering in the corner of my room. The whispering got closer and louder and I thought it was a ghost or demon or something. I got my bible and tried to speak to rebuke the demon but when I did I found that my speech was impaired. I couldnt talk right. So I just got the bible and held it in my hand, as I viewed it as a weapon. Whatever it was never touched me.(btw Im not a religous person anymore so I dont know why this happened).

5. I was in my house AGAIN and I was with my family and two other people. The two other people were one dude, and one girl. They were surviving along with us. They werent a couple in the beginning of the dream, but by the end they started going out and disappeared. Anyways, in the beginning we were driving on the freeway, and a blizzard was basically happening. The freeway was covered completely in snow. It was also very dark and gloomy in the dream. As we continued driving, huge globs of mud started falling from the sky onto the earth, everywhere. I was terrified and thought that the world was ending(Usually I become lucid during nightmares like this, but this time I didnt). I thought it was real and prayed to God to save me(even though im agnostic, so idk why). Some how we ended up making it back to our house in one piece. When we made it back it was night time. As I walked into our driveway after I got out of the car, I noticed I was shirtless, and also that my friends were 2 yards away from me. I said "Whats up guys, come on in." They came in and we chilled and talked. I also talked to that couple alot. We talked about how we were going to survive. I hadnt seen the couple in a while so I decided to get up and look around for them. I went into my China room in my house(where all the chinese glassware and every valuable chines thing is) and found them cuddling in a corner. I talked to them for a sec to make sure everything was cool and left them. (btw they were about my age, I think one year older.) I returned to find that all my friends were gone. Thats all I remember, even though there was ALOT more to this dream.

Dream recall has really improved, and Im remembering dreams from early in the night.

((I'd advise not looking this up if you don't want sort of Season 3/4 Spoilers! I thought I would post this as an example of the kinds of panic-ridden dreams I have on a semi-regular basis; I had never had a nightmare that felt as vivid as this, though I never became lucid.))

21st June 2014:

Tonight's dream was particularly unpleasant. I am writing this a lot later than when it actually happened, but I still remember the basics. In this dream I was Reek, from Game of Thrones, not Theon, but Reek. Luckily, though, I still had my manhood. For some reason, Ramsay Snow had taken me to a museum, a huge, grand place, with beige marble steps leading to its glorious entrance; inside were high domed ceilings, and esteemed works of art; everything was the same marbled beige, with a hint of orange; it was a very regal colour, I thought. I was led along by Ramsay by a chain on my neck, and once the brief tour was concluded, which I actually saw little of in the dream, I was thanked for my obedience, and Ramsay said that there would be a reward for me when I got back, to which I replied "Thank you, master." meekly. As we went outside back onto the cliff, which somehow floated in the air like something out of Avatar (yet it had none of the lush vegetation, only short green grass and steep, grey, rocky sides that formed a point beneath the landmass, like a floating pinnacle), I realised that a rescue attempt had been staged by Brienne of Tarth, Asha Greyjoy and what appeared to be an identical twin of Theon. I don't recall what happened to Brienne or Asha, but I know that the clone of Theon was knocked off the cliff (by an arrow to the chest, I think), which he fell from wordlessly, and I did not see him again. I knew I could not allow myself to show my dismay to Ramsay, or he might think me disloyal, so we continued back to where we were intending to go; I don't know how we got off the floating cliff, though.

In the next scene, I was sitting hunched up beneath in a tight corridor surrounded by mesh fences; the floors were made of a rough, splintery looking wood, and behind the mesh fences there didn't seem to be anything, so I can only assume that they were spacious holding cells, or maybe they were just there to make the corridor uncomfortably narrow. Set into this corridor was a huge iron door, locked and bolted, but I think I could hear screams coming from inside. Ramsay spoke to me threateningly about my "reward", his sadistic half-smile on his face. I insisted pathetically that I was loyal and that he promised he wouldn't hurt me, but I knew then that I had been wrong. I knew that something terrible was happening to the man behind that door, and that I was next. I knew that he was going to chop my manhood off. I had no choice but to run. I sprinted through the cramped corridors as fast as I could, and felt the exasperation as I had to squeeze through narrow openings, through tight walls of spikes and rollers lined with the same sharp implements; every time I had to cross such an obstacle, Ramsay caught up with me a little more, but I kept going, and going, and going. I came to a large marble staircase, sensing that I had reached the less shabby part of the castle, nearing freedom. I bumped into a wiry, frumpish serving woman in sweeping skirts, with her white and grey hair tied into a neat bun. I began to cry weakly for help as I neared the exit, until finally I emerged out into the daylight, or at least I think it was day; I don't quite remember. I stopped the first man I saw, a smart looking gentleman with a fine moustache and a posh Southern (British) accent that suggested lordliness. I rambled that Lord Ramsay was evil, that he was going to chop off my manhood, that he had to alert the authorities, that he must do something, but the man seemed positively nonplussed by my desperate pleas for help, and simply said: "I can't help you there. Lord Ramsay can do as he likes." I should mention that outside, the exterior of the castle where I had been kept looked very much like the rocky, barren land that had covered the floating museum-cliff.

Seeing no other option, I ran until somehow, I ended up on the main high street of my city. I began to feel hopeful; I was losing Lord Ramsay, but perhaps one of his lackeys would catch me; no doubt he'd have them combing the area for me. I had never felt so desperate in a dream before, and I felt my real life disability setting in (I walk with a limp), yet I continued running, panting raggedly. Then, my legs gave out, and I fell to my knees, still I kept moving, crawling along the ground in a desperate struggle for freedom; if I could reach the statue of St. George and the Dragon a short distance away (even though it was in the wrong place in the city during this dream) I knew I might be further away. As I had been running down the street, I had glimpsed Lord Ramsay, and heard him shouting "Reek! Reek!" which only enhanced my desperation. It was then that my legs had given out. I must have been running for what felt like 20 minutes.

I managed to reach the monument, only to be stopped by Jaime (an old school friend of mine, surname omitted. ); he had apparently become an agent of Lord Ramsay's, and he said in a matter-of-fact tone: "Sorry Reek, but I'm going to have to take you back." I felt angry and betrayed, and swung at him, having managed to stand up, but all the strength had gone out of my arms. I knew that it was useless to resist, and that Lord Ramsay would take me back to the Dreadfort. It was only then that I woke up, agitated, but also relieved.

1. I was inside of a pretty big house when it all started. I was just chilling when a guy in the house freaked out and said "theyre coming". Immediately I got up to see what was going on. I walked to the room where this guys voice came from, but before I got there I noticed blood oozing out of cracks in the wall. I continued into the room where the guy was screaming. I entered to seem him lying on the floor telling me, "dont worry about me or the food, just leave!". As I walked closer towards him i noticed some cabinets on the wall. I looked at these cabinets and noticed that each cabinet had an age on it, and they all belonged to the baker that was now on the ground yelling for us to leave. The first cabinet closest to the door had the age, I think, 30. As I passed that one, it continued going up, 31,32,33,34,35,36,37,38,39,40,41, and then it finally ended at 42. Also, all these cabinets had drawings on the, very wierd drawings, but I cant remember them. One had a drawing off an egg with legs. But anyways, I finally reached the Baker and looked at him on the floor. I turned to the cabinets and grabbed a cinnamon pastry. The Baker said it wasnt worth it and kept telling me to leave. I kept wondering why He was just lying on the floor, waiting to be killed by whatever was coming. Then I noticed He had an injured leg. The Baker was lying next a door entrance, and the door was gone. I looked inside but it was literally PURE black, I couldnt see anything. I turned around to leave and once I did I heard the Baker scream, I turned around to him getting pulled into the black darkness, which afterwards, several zombie/infected people emerged. I took a bite of the cinnamon pastry I grabbed earlier and walked out. I closed the door behind me. Everyone was freaking out and stuff, so I became a little freaked out and followed this group of people. Zombies started flowing in from everywhere and we ran into a room to hide. The zombies made it in the room. The lady I was with told me and the other dude next to me, "Come on, we need to get to the children's basement quick!" We followed her to the back room of the house which had a big cabinet that looked as though it could store 5 people in it. We got inside of it and locked the cabinet door and waited. Only seconds later a storm of more people and zombies came in. We opened our cabinet door for a second to get some more people in, and instead a soldier ran in with his gun. We closed the cabinet and locked it again. The rest of the people ran to our cabinet but could not get in because it was locked. The cabinet had a big window, but it was tinted to pure black, so no one could see us inside. While we watched the whole seen, the soldier that was with us started losing it and began shooting at me. Somehow I turned invisible and starting dodging his shots. He began shooting anywhere inside of the cabinet just to hit me. I slowed down time and dodged all of his bullets. After he was done shooting I took his gun from him and beat him to death. After waiting th rest of it out, and seeing everyone else getting killed by the zombies, we opened the cabinet door and walked out. Immediately I saw a screen, and it covered my entire field of vision. This Vision had Megan fox in it, standing next to the staircase of the house. I wrote on the walls of the staircase(I have no idea how) and I wrote "You can come now", but I quickly erased it after I realized what I was saying. I simply pressed the "back" button and it went away. I looked at megan fox to see what she was doing and it was like she was glitched because she was continuously dry humping a small table. I made her stop. After that, the vision stopped and I walked back into the living room, and everything returned back to normal. Everyone was socializing, and were starting to watch a movie they had just put on. I noticed my friends sister Emily among them. Out of no where my friend Dylan came up to me and said "lets go outside". And we did. Once we got outside of the house I immediately noticed it was storming and there was alot of lightning. We continued anyway. For some reason Dylan wanted to get on top of the roof of one of our neighbors houses. They had a wierd driveway. Their driveway curved like a swirl, and it led into their garage. But instead of a garage being there, it was their living room and it was separated from the driveway by a glass screen sliding door. Their car was in the driveway too. Me and Dylan didnt notice this until after we tried climbing onto their roof. In the middle of climbing up dylan said, "oh sh*t, dude they can see us". We climbed down and started running away. We ran back to what seemed to be dylan's house. We knocked and dylan's dad answered the door. We had a short conversation with him but I forgot about what it was about. He let us in, and somehow we became sitting down in an automatic couch that seats visitors as soon as they come in from the door. The couch led us from the door to the living room. And we started watching the movie as well. I got lost in that, and sometime after, my parents walked in a said we were going to main event/the zoo. Cant remember which one. I looked around and everyone else was gone. It was just me and my family. It was also pretty late to be going to the zoo, it was 8:00 pm in the dream. I thought nothing of it really and decided that I probably wasnt going to go with my family. My dad told me we were leaving in like 8 minutes. I just sat on the couch. I talked to my sister for a bit, but I dont remember what it was about. At this point, the dream ended.

2. I was pool side at my friend Lindsey's house. I was just chilling when all of a sudden, Lindsey and all of her friends came over and sat down next to me. I got up to get something and Lindsey told me to stay, I noticed they were all checking me out, and I was shirtless. I sat back down and we talked. Soon though the pool session ended and people began to leave. All these weird dudes I didnt even know came up to me and started trying to start something. I got up, seeing what was about to happen. All the dudes were jealous. But in the end they decided to leave me alone and left. I left as well. It was dark outside and there were rain clouds above me. As I left the perimeter of the house, all those guys came back. This time however they just wanted to chill. We talked, and I talked specifically to this black dude that had dreads, and was really short. Thats all I remember.

3. Earlier in the night I was falling asleep. I eventually entered the Dream World. When I got into my dream, 5 seconds in I realized I was dreaming and looked around. However, because I wasnt used to a simple transition into the Dream World, like what had just happened, it stunned me and the dream ended.

4. This was yesterday, but I forgot to record it so here it is-
I woke up around 2:00 AM, I realized it would be a good time to WBTB. I layed back down and let myself drift into sleep. As I was almost asleep and drifting into the dream world, I CLEARLY heard somebody whisper in my ear quite loud, "Its me". This freaked me out pretty bad, because I havent had Hypnagogic stuff in a while. But the voice sounded like a demon, so it kinda disturbed me. Any who I fell back asleep soon after, forgetting my attempt to WBTB.

.../It's night, we're in a farm with my wife and other people. I see somebody's driving sort of a harvester inside the cow pen. I see some cows running scared from the lights of the truck. In the middle I see a calf sleeping. The driver doesn't care and runs over it. We're pissed off and start insulting the guy asking him to stop. He turns in stead and start chasing us. We get dispersed and I realize there's no other light but the lights of the truck. I hide behind a pickup truck. He uses the lights of the harvester to look for us. I just want to get him down, but by now, I have to hide while he turns closer where I am. I hope my wife is in a safe place. I think the lights under the pickup will show my shadow projected on the wall behind me/...

A large group of people, including me and my family, are going to battle. We are on a cliff, and far below us is a rapidly flowing river. Across the river on a cliff opposite us is the enemy. I have several wooden spears which I throw with all my might, but fall short of their destination and into the water. Frustrated, I pick up a bow and arrow. I have trouble loading the arrow, so I duck down for protection as sharp objects come showering down around me. Soon I am ready to shoot, but I never get the chance. A dark, strong man whose face I never get a good look at is on our side of the cliff, even though I know he is the enemy. He's asking around, and looking for certain people but I don't understand why. He finds Hiro Nakamura (I was watching Heroes last night), and starts stabbing and slashing at him with his sword. Hiro's terrified screams leave me paralyzed and unable to think. This happens to be a very inconvenient moment for my mind to go blank, because the man stands up and walks toward me. He stops right in front of me, and looks down. I realize I'm the person he's looking for, but when I deny it he turns to my sister. He draws his sword, and when I realize what he's about to do, I rush over to her and beg the man to take me instead. I can't let my sister get hurt; especially not because of me. His response to my begging is, "You'll do." His words bring me relief, and then horror as I realize what's about to happen to me. He makes me lie on my stomach and then I feel the sword cutting through my arm. The feeling is not painful, but more of a cool, tingling, burning feeling. I decide that the knife must be so sharp I can barely feel it. It's still not a pleasant experience at all and I'm relieved when the man leaves. I go into the bathroom and start speaking french. A lady is in there, and gives me a funny look. The bathroom is bright, neat and cheerful with walls that are painted red. I see a mirror in front of me, but I don't look into it because I don't want to see my injured arm. I worry that if I see the extent of the damage, then I will start to feel the pain that should come with it.

1. I was outside of a house on the corner of my street, I had seen this house before, so nothing seemed unsual. I walked inside the house and found myself in a theatre. Everyone was sitting down waiting for something to begin. I sat down next to some guy wearing a mask, from a movie. Then an announcer came in and told us someone special was among us, and that it was the actor guy wearing the wierd sci-fi mask. Everyone turned and looked toward him, at this point I became the guy in the mask. The announcer told me to talk in my creepy alien voice. I got up and stood on a seat so hopefully everyone could see me. But not everyone could so the announcer told me to wait and I could go around and talk in my wierd voice to everyone in a second. So I sat back down and seconds later, the real actor and owner of the mask came to me and told me he was going to be going around talking to his fans. I said ok and tossed him the mask. The mask was orange and looked like an alien for star trek or something, and it was also slimy. After I gave him the mask I decided to walk out of the house. I wasnt the only one who left, a whole group of people left as well. I stood on the sidewalk in front of the house and talked to the people outside for a minute. After that, they all left and I was on my way leaving as well. Upon leaving I remembered that I had left my snapback in the theater, so I walked to go get it. As I walked back I wondered what a beautiful day this would be if it were a dream. haha. I ran inside and found that the theater inside had turned into a regular interior of a normal house. I looked around, there were many rooms, each had a small staircase so you could get to them. I yelled out "Anyone home" because I felt intrusive being in someones house I didnt know. An answer from a man saying, "Yea who's there" returned and I explained that I came in to get my hat. I entered a room and found my hat and the owner of the house along with it, he made sure I got my hat and then made sure I did nothing else. I walked out and went back to my house to chill. When I walked inside a small black dog was there waiting for me. I played with it but then it started getting aggressive so I decided to leave it. I walked away but the dog followed me and continued biting me. I remember at some point asking the dog why he bited me, and he said, "Because I like rock music." [WTF??] But anyways, I tussled with this little dude for a while and eventually I pinned him down on his side after he gave me a good deep bite. I held him there and watched him squirm. I think I eventually let him go. But then he started biting me again. Just then I looked out the front door and saw an old grandma sprinting towards my back door. I became a little scared and waited until the old lady had opened up my back door, then I opened the front door and ran out. I ran to my neighbors house directly to the left of mine and just ran in and told them what was going on. I closed the door and explained how some old lady was on the loose and after me and told the girl I was talking too to lock the back doors. She went to do so. I glanced out the front door of this house and saw again the old lady sprinting towards the back of the house. I locked the front door and told the girl I was talking to a second earlier that the lady was coming and to lock the doors quick. I ran to the back of the house to make sure she did so. Once I got to the back door I locked one side. The back entrance was two doors wide. But the girl couldnt lock the second door. She decided that it would be a great idea to instead open the door and proclaim that she couldnt lock it. The old grandma ran in and seized me with her car keys. It was my grandma, she told me if I ever ran away again that she'd "have me". She even stabbed me once with her keys. Any who once that resolved I found myself listening to the girl and how she hated this house and didnt want to live in it, I asked her why. She said she was being forced to watch movies with these 2 old men, and then they came over to the kitchen where we were. The old men told me about how they were watching old vietnam war movies and listening to rock music. The one old man was tall and was wearing panties in see through spandex. I was disgusted but kept it to myself. The old men continued talking and I began eating these chewy gummy like candies while listening. This is where it ended.

2. I was following my dad by going through a secret passage to get into my house. I climbed in an opening in the floor and tried to get out but got stuck. I immediatly blamed my sister who walked over the door lock right before I emerged out of the floor. She apologized, but I was still stuck halfway in the floor. I decided to remove some tiles so I could crawl foward and get out, and I did so. However I removed too many tiles and took some tiles from underneath the fridge. I replaced them quickly, my dad noticing none of this.

3. I was in my room and was hanging out with my friends patrick, dylan, and trey. We were all chilling in my room and I was trying on some of my shoes. I had new shoes that I had never seen before, but it didnt occur to me. I was talking to patrick while putting on a pair of green high tops, and he was telling me about how something was fair. Once I tied on the shoes I stayed sitting down and talked. I remember going into my closet again sometime and seeing alot of new stuff.

4.I was in a dark alley, planning to save someone with the real batman, and batman beyond. It was kinda wierd really because Batman Beyond in this dream was old and crusty and was wearing a blue suit instead of a black one, and he didnt have a mask. We devised a way to save someone and kill these hostile guys. At one point I insulted batman beyond in a way I didnt mean too and he told me, "Hey, Im the batman that came out of a trunk with no parents." I didnt reply, but instead agreed with him in my mind as if, "oh yea thats how his story line went".

5. I was in Kroger with my mom and sister. I was quite hungry so I looked around for something good. My mom came to me out of no where and recommended that I get these spinach enchiladas with cheese. I told her I was good and instead focused on some fresh cut salmon from Private Selection<<< a company.

6. I was in an underground system of tunnels. I noticed my sister wasnt following me anymore. I looked ahead to the tunnel infront of me and noticed that walls were building themselves inside of it out of cement blocks. I ran inside the tunnel and jumped over 3 or 4 walls until I couldnt go any further because the walls completed themselves. I looked back toward the entrance trieng to see if anyone was there, but there was no one. I remember somehow making it deeper into the tunnels, and then my sister appearing. We re united and made our way down ward 90 degrees down ward in fact, so basically a hole. As we went down it an enemy attacked us and was about to kill my sister when I finally killed it. Once I did, I saw that my sister was extremely low on health, and she said that she wanted to leave so she wouldnt die, I said ok and we made our way out.

* Dream recall improving, Im starting to remember really early dreams that I had in the beginning of the night.

it was my dad and I don't know what I did wrong but he had a lethal injection and was trying to kill me. and my boyfriend (lets call him John) was by the chair where I was supposed to be and we were in an office like setting only the entire side of the building wasn't there and when one would walk out it was a huge interior of another building with a skating rink and a hockey game was going on. My dad had me and was trying to pin me to the chair and John didn't do anything, but I didn't care, I was just trying to live. I broke free of my dad and quickly went to these two ladies across the room in a panic and tried to tell them what was happening to me but they didn't do anything, they said they couldn't help me. then my dad was coming after me and so I ran to the other building/ice rink thing and there was a hockey game going on, and I was running and my dad was catching up. For some reason, he was extremely upset that i was going across the ice and interrupting the hockey game. I passed this girl who i've always kinda hated growing up, for some reason. Then I was running across the ice in the middle of the hockey game (there were no walls around the rink) and I got to the other side and there was nowhere to go. I tried yelling and my dad and trying to get him to understand that whatever I didn't isn't worth killing me over and he said if he didn't it wouldn't teach me a lesson, and I said I wouldn't learn anything because I would be dead. Then I ran back to the ladies in the office and I was looking at John, and I was explaining to them how in love with him I was, and I got all teary.. then I woke up.

I was in a gloomy and snowy place, and was following a group of kids who were sledding down a snowy hill. They were following a snowy road. It was cold and everything seemed as though it was covered in snow, and it was still snowing lightly. Anyways, I got a sled and followed the kids, quickly I noticed that a tall white, evil looking elf dude was also on the childrens tail. As I got closer to them and finally right up on them, we started turning a corner. The Tall elf guy pushed one of the kids and ended up killing him. I remember thinking "my god what the hell is going on" as the kid and his sled flew directly past my face. A deep curiosity filled me and I continued following the children. As the road straightened back out I some how lost my balance, and seeing that I was about to fall off my sled I slowed down and regained the balance I lost. Right in front of me I noticed that the Elf was nearly stopped. I decided to help him out and I shot some sort of fire at the back of his sled and it fueled him and he went foward. Seeing that I helped him, the elf helped me and made me go faster. Soon I was quickly nearing a water puddle, but near the water puddle was tile, like the type on kitchen floors. And to get to the puddle you had to cross a thin beam on your sled, it was like an obstacle course. I gained alot of distance between myself and the elf and with caution crossed over the beam. After I crossed it my sled landed in the water puddle. I went to go pick it up, but it disappeared, "it was just there", I thought, "where did it go". I frantically searched for it, but it was gone. I looked back and saw that the elf had fell off the cross beam and he had start over the entire obstacle course. Upon his return he came back and started shooting arrows at me. Frightened, I hid behind a door, but it was see through. He shot at me and the arrows would go through the door but would stop halfway in. Somebody saw what was going on and killed the Elf. I was safe for now. I was in some sort of hallway, but it wasnt complete, it was only a small hallway in the middle of a snowy wonderland. I decided to go check out the Elf's body and when I got to him I noticed his head fell off. I picked it up and it started talking. I told him he was going to go to hell or something like that and he disagreed. He said he wasnt going to suffer. Right after he said that though some sort of helmet type thing covered his skull and it started turning bright orange, and it looked like he was literally burning up inside. I could tell that he started suffering and something inside of me told me he was going to hell. At this point the dream became a nightmare. I turned around and walked through the hallway and saw "satan" himself behind me. I got a little scared, I didnt want to go to hell(I dont believe in it in real life, it was just in this dream). I acted like an evil person around him so he wouldnt think I was some good guy and so he wouldnt kill me or anything. Just then a huge soldier dude came by and it was either me or him, but one of us asked satan if he could give us a pair of headphones that had 4 headphones instead of two, and that they would have the greatest bass ever. Satan came up to the soldier and put some head phones in his ears, and I remember him putting some in my ears as well. I listened to a short song and that was it.

2. False Awakening- I woke up out of my bed, got up and looked in the mirror(as usual). I turned around to see what time it was and my digital clock had the word "no" on its screen. I turned around and saw another digital clock with the letters "THC" or "HTC" across it, I dont remember which one. Here I am, looking at 2 digital clocks, and both arent working and I dont become lucid. A missed oppurtunity. After that I woke up for real and noticed what had just happened.

3. I was in a them park along the coast with my family. I was wearing shorts, a shirt, and a snapback. I had on no shoes or socks, I just walked around barefooted. Me and my dad were looking for my sister and my mom because they had walked off without telling us where they were going. We spotted them in the distance and walked toward them. We caught up to them and my dad asked them what they were doing and then we all turned around and went to the middle of the theme park. When we got there my sister wanted to ride this Water Log ride where it just swings you around in a log on the water. My parents said ok, so I had to go as well. Another family wanted to ride it as well, they were mexican. Luckily there were 2 of these logs so each family could get in each. My sister got in the opposite log while me, my mom, and my dad got in the other one. I asked her what she was doing, and she simply said "getting in for the ride". I got my phone out of my pocket because this was a wet watery ride. I asked the manager of the ride what we do with our electronics. She said to put them in the container next to me. I turned around and sure enough there was a drawer with some shelfs and was about to put it in there, but the lady corrected me and told me to put my stuff in the top container, which was a really small plastic container. I put my ipod, headphones, and two cellphones that I had in my pocket. I noticed that I only had 1 cell phone so why did I have two now? And the other phone wasnt even the type of phone I really owned. I soon realized that I had my sisters phone(even though it really wasnt hers) and just put it in the container along with mine. With all of my stuff in the container there was no room left for my moms phone, and so we couldnt fit it in. Thats all I remember of that dream.

4. My entire nuclear family was in my room with me. My dad was going around my room taking pictures( I thought he was doing this because he was trying to sell the house). Upon noticing what he was doing, I decided to fix my bed so it would look nice, and my mom decided to help me. I straightened up the sheets and my mom ended up messing it up by making it hugely uneven. And I also noticed how extremely small my bed was. It was only about 1 foot in length, but I thought nothing of it because I thought it was always that way.

5. Me and my friend dylan were in school. [small fragment]

6. I was in a car and I think my grandma was driving. We were near her house and out of no where a blue insect/worm got in the car. I watched it and it started laying eggs in its own body and half of the eggs it was laying were missing the insects pouch and falling onto the ground. After it finished laying its eggs, it went into its own body like a hermit crab and stayed there. I looked at my sister and suddenly she had a huge spider on her head and also a centipede. I told her and she quickly tried shaking them off. I told her not to get them on me. The spider flew onto her leg, and the centipede disappeared. As we continued driving me and my sister saw more of those blue worm things and decided to smash them because they were really gross. We did so and we killed 3 or 4 of them.

07.13.2014

Of Sleep Paralysis, Molestation, and Demons (SP)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This is a jumbled mess in my mind, but I'll try to draw some sense out of it. I normally consider my SP episodes lucid, but I was so confused that I thought all of this was actually happening because of demons instead of SP.

After some kind of parade involving Sam and Dean Winchester, I find myself in sleep paralysis, entirely unable to move. I don't know where I am, but I'm not in bed. There is a sharp pain in my hips as if someone is pushing my legs up towards my chest--- as I am not flexible at all, this is quite painful. Despite the pain, I am inexplicably somewhat aroused. I keep expecting something sexual to happen, but it doesn't.

I open my eyes when I feel someone grab my wrist forcefully. It is my grandfather, who's a preacher, performing an exorcism over me while shaking a bible. I notice that no one is actually moving my legs--- they are flailing around on their own accord. I am quite calm and not freaked out at all. Simply confused.

I manage to break out of whatever spell I'm in and pull away from him. He explains that a demon is after me, but I don't listen. I think that I'm late for a class and have to go get ready.

I end up at my friend Jake's house where I ask to take a shower. For some reason they have this large bathhouse outside that has locker-room style showers. There are other people in here at first, but after I start my shower everyone else leaves. I had been told by my grandfather not to enter here, because this is "where the Fallen Angel landed when he fell."

In the midst of my shower, I somehow end up flat on my back as the water splashes down on my face. I can't get up, or even move. My vision is confused because I'm seeing the dream shower as well as flashes from my actual bedroom (so I assume my eyes were at least partially open during this time). I hear an old-fashioned radio announcer ardently reading some apocalyptic sounding text, though I can make no sense of what he's saying. There is a high pitched screeching in my head.

Now starting to get a little freaked out, I use my normal foot-shaking technique to wake myself up.

I wake up, but don't move and instantly go back into it. I'm now thinking of turning this into a WILD, but I still think I'm lying down in the shower and I'm really concerned about either the demon coming back or someone wondering why I'm just lying here, so I wake myself up again.

By the time I realize I'm not really in the shower, I'm too awake to get back into SP.

"Yes!" I said to myself as Sleep-paralysis sets in "Now, don't think of anything scary... like the grudge...
fuck!" said I getting scared, but Luckily for me, nothing happend. Instead I left my body and felt myself floating
to the ceiling. I opened my eyes and looked down onto my bed, empty. "Jesus, my bed is a mess." I said.
I tried to floath down, but gravity had not set in, so I pulled myself down on an invicible rope.

"Okay..." I said happy. "... Gravity is setting in." I realized as I walked down the stairs. When I reached the ground
I looked up and saw, with horror, my mom sitting in the faraway couch. "Okay, Kasper, concentrate... Atleast you
can use your trick to spawn Constantine... Just use the script" I assured myself. My mom looks up.
"Hi! Mom! uhm... is Constantine outside?" said I, trying to be confident. "Yes, she is." my mom said calmly.
"Where you going?" She asked. "Grocerie-shopping with Constantine" I said, sticking to the script. "Shopping
for what, dear?" She suddenly asked. Dumbstruck I panicked, because this she never asked before. "Uhm...
Cookies!" I said. "Cookies... What...kind... of... cookies?" She began to say, in a robotic voice. I reached
for the door, ready to make a run for it. "the...salty ones?" I said quickly. "WRONG COOKIE!" She suddenly yelled.
I screamed, for my mom changed into a demonic nature. Eyes turning red and spinning... I shrieked, while opening
the door wildly. "Hello Ka - 'NO TIME TO EXPLAIN!'" I yelled, interrupting Constantine mid-sentence. I grabbed her hand
and ran away.

"What happend?" she asks confused. "Vincent's... favourite... monster!" I stuttered, running
at high pace. She looked back. "Your mom?" She asks. "No!... Cookie...monster". "How did that happen?" she asks me
in a confused tone. I stopped. "Things... tend to turn demonic if I panic. For some reason my mom left the
script and asked me something new, so I panicked. Cookie monster, for some reason, came up in my mind so I
said 'cookies' and... - 'COOKIES!'" Interrupted by my mom, still chasing me. I grabbed Constantine her hand
again and ran back in a wide circle to the house. Slamming the door shut behind us, I let out a sigh. "That was close"
I said. Suddenly the door started to open. With haste we held the door shut, with our back. Re-acting the scene
of Jurrasic Park. "Search for a shotgun!" I yelled, while wildly looking for a shotgun to blow my mom her head off.
At the end, there was no shotgun... "Keys" Constantine said and locked the door. "NOOOOO!" My mom yelled outside.
Feeling safe for a second, we came to the conclusion my mom had her own pair of keys. "It knows how to open doors!"
I yelled,still trying to re-act Jurrasic Park in a vain attempt to spawn a shotgun. As we were holding the handle,
a voice behind us spoke. "What's the problem?".

I looked back. "Who are you supposed to be?" I asked annoyed.
"Your father" he said. Getting angry for someone to impersonate my dad, I lost lucidity for a second and wanted
to punch him in the face if it was not for the reason I had my hands bussy holding my mom outside. Luckily, I came back.
"Do something!" I yelled. "Oh, your mother is in one of her periods again" He says, while shoving us away and opening the door.
"WRONG COOKIE!" My mom yelled at my dad. "I know, hon. I know, come with me" He said reassuring, while walking away with my mom.
We waited until the yelling of cookies was over, before we left the house and went to the opposite road.

"This is NOT what I wanted" I said angry. "The only thing I wanted was to spawn you, then we could just walk
and talk... Maybe about my dad or what Anne said. But nooo, I changed my mom into a monster... AGAIN!" said I in
a frenzy. "Do things turn demonic often?" asks Constantine. "I once punched my cat in the face... it turned demonic.
One time I came here and my dog was acting apeshit. He acts apeshit IRL too, but now it was, like, tottaly apeshit...
so I punched him in the face. And he turned demonic" I explained. "you... punched your mom?" she asks. "No, not yet
that is" I said back. "Thing is..." I started, "... I once changed the entire world into minecraft! Then I lost
lucidity and transformed into a mindless Steve... But I could do stuff! I once spawned a dragon, I did lost
control of it, but there are times I just can't do shit... I want to re-create a scene of Godzilla and King
Ghidorah from GMK and spawn Lars in it so he can see - 'is he black?' - intterupt Constantine me. "What? Who?
No, he is not black!" I said. "Why would you ever ask..." I began, but suddenly fell to the ground.

"What's happening now?" I thought to myself, when I suddenly found me and Constantine standing in a wooden house
with multiple floors. "This is so not going as I want it to go..." I sighed. I looked at Constantine and noticed
she changed faces again, but always keeps her black hair. "Why do you do that? Changing how you look?" I asked her.
"Because I want to look different sometimes" She said back. "So WHAT was the point of you taken me to shop for clothes
the entire time yesterday?" I asked baffled. "No point" She said calmly. I let out a sigh. "Constantine..." I began,
"... do you, like, hear me when I talk or think about you when I'm awake?" I asked nervously. "Yes, but not clear.
Like a radio with a lot of white noise. Words pop out, sometimes sentences." She answered back. "Oh... uhm...
about some of the things I think sometimes... You know..." I said in a little voice. "No problem for me" She said.
"Oh great" I said reassured. "You know, I found you as a kid..." said I. "Yes, but you asked me to take the form
of an adult" She said. "I only did that because we were thrown naked into a room and I didn't like the fact you
were a naked kid" I pointed out. "So, I changed" she said. "Yeah, you did" I said back. "I woke you up when you
saw me" she points out. "Yeah... you DID do that, yes" I said. "So... Why re-act our world with shopping? This
world is far superior!" I remarked. "You really think that?" she asked, frowning, in a voice that I felt slightly
offended by.

"So what do we do now?" she asks while we climbed the stairs. "I don't know... maybe I transform
myself into a woman?" I said suddenly. She stops. "Do it" she says. I closed my eyes and said "WOMAN" and opened my eyes again.
"Did it work?" she asks curiously. "I don't know... I don't see anything" I remarked. "Maybe I'm flat-chested?
wouldn't be a surprise IRL if I would have been a girl... Ah, no, that doesn't belong. No, still a guy" I said.
"Why not start small?" she said. "Small?" I asked back. "You know... wish IT away?" she said. "... and then
build it. I would show you, but you would just wake up again" She points out. "No, let's not do that at all" I said sharply.
"Why a woman, though?" she asks curiously. "'Cause your sex has it easier then us" I said unknowingly. She let out a sigh
and suddenly walked further on her own. "What? What is it? Constantine?" I said, following her. Suddenly I collided with a
person. A whole crowd appeared on the second floor and Constantine was nowhere to be seen. "Watch it!" Yelled a guy and pushed
me away onto another guy sitting on the edge of the balcony. "Watch it!" said this guy and pushed me back. I got
pissed. "No, you watch it!" I responded and pushed him with my whole body, causing us to fall over the balcony.

Luckily I discovered I had super-strength and with one hand I catched the edge and with the other the foot of the guy I made fall.
"Wow, that was close!" I remarked. I looked down and saw the guy I was holding looked rather lifeless... I saw his neck in a weird
position and it was dragging on the floor. "Oh Jesus..." I said. I let him go. A hand reached for me, I pulled on the hand, making
a second guy falling down and break his neck aswell. "Oh God!" I yelled. I pulled myself up. Suddenly every Dream-character
began to yell, making a hurricane of noise. I ran away, they ran after me. It was as scary as in the movie Inception. Suddenly
I was in a room and out of the other door, guys in white came in. "No, not you guys! I'm NOT GOING BACK! You guys captured me for 3
nights in a fuckin' row and held me in a looney-house before I could escape. And fuck the talking Taco-guy!" I said furiously, remembering
a past event. I said out loud "KATANA" and swung my arm, while grabbing an innocent Dream-character. "STAND BACK!" I yelled, while
holding my weapon against his throath. "OR I..." I began, realizing it was not a katana but a plastic knife you find in fastfood-chains
like McDonalds. "... slith...his...uhm, throath?" I stuttered. For a second I thought I was fucked, but the crowd seemed to take
my warning seriously. So I just went into it. "STAND BACK!" I yelled. "Easy, easy" said the men in white "Noone should get hurt". Out
of the other door, a cop-woman came in with a gun "Oh, no" I cried. I was so not in the mood for my brain to simulate what it thinks
a gun-wound would feel like. "What are your demands?" asked the cop. Now, from my experience with movies... and I watch alot of movies...
this was not going to end well for me, it never did in the movies. "I want Constantine!" I yelled. "Ok..." said a guy in white and got
closer. "But let him go, take me". I was more then happy to replace the two.

"No! My husband!" yelled a lady in the background.
A crowd formed around us. The cop holding her gun at me, the white men getting closer. A woman crying.
I almost began to laugh how absurd this situation was going, while all I wanted to do was talk with Constantine while walking
down a road. "What's happend now?" Asked Constantine, pushing her way through. "Constantine!" I yelled and threw away the guy to his
crying wife, making them stumble. I grabbed her hand and threw the plastic knife at the guy while yelling "take this with you!"
but rather then falling on the floor, it pierced the guy head and fell down dead. Everyone, like the cards in the world of Alice
in Wonderland, jumped in the air to get me. I fell down on the floor and yelled "Constantine, do something!" She bended over me and
created a bubble that defended us and suddenly a white flash appeared and we were in an empty room, but the same house.

My vision was distorted. I heard a voice. It said "Hey, there. My name is Paula!" It seemed my vision was zoomed in, suddenly I saw
I was looking at breasts. "Ack!" I fell backwards and restored my vision. A woman was standing there, with a huge cleavage. "Holy, STOP
you going to wake me up!" I yelled. She laughed. "You are not used to much are you?" she responds back. I didn't like her tone. "Who are you?"
I asked. "My name is Paula Shefe" She explained. "Paula Sheevee?" I asked. "No, look" My vision zoomed back in at a necklace that
resembled a dog-tag. "Ahn, Shefe" I remarked "Wow..." I said, "You DO can read in dreams! it's even crystal..." I began, suddenly noticing
I was, once again, looking at breasts "Ack!" I fell backwards again. "STOP MESSING WITH MY VISION!" I demanded. She responded
with more laughter. Constantine was chuckling aswell. "Damn you women!" I expressed. I began to walk away and they followed me.
Suddenly a kid came up and as frustrated as I was at that point I said "I'm gonna punch the snot out of that kid". "Sure" says
Constantine. "Murder, treason... what is child-abuse anyway?" she pointed out. "You're god-damn right" I remarked. "Falcon...." I began,
suddenly I was in my room, "... punch!". I hit a brick-wall. I shaked my hand, suddenly realizing I woke up.






- Because this is my dream journal I made it like it was a story. All the actions that happend, happend real. 85% of what is said was said indeed, some stuff were from other lucids I put into this to fill in a long gap where
just nothing happend. I began with only "I said" and stuff without emotions, but this got rather dull to read, so I made some emotions into it that I think would fit best. In short this is a story closely based what happend in ly dream. The character Paula original had more lines in my lucid, but I decided not to include them, because most of what she said was perverted. Figures the way she looked.

My dream starts out with me as a mermaid (?) urgently swimming away from captors on boats. My hands have been cut off in torture sessions; leaving only stumps in their place. But even with this obvious handicap, I am moving at an amazing speed. My captors have no gender to identify and they dressed their faces with black cloth, leaving only their glowing yellow eyes to peer out. I had no doubt that those eyes had the ability to see through the deep, dark water––that they had the ability to see me. That thought alone made me want to vomit.

There was probably more, but that's all I remember.

I'm in my living room with a group of friends. One of them finds an old mirror and looks at it. They let out a yell, obviously seeing something terrifying in the mirror. She asks me if I want to see the scariest thing in the universe... Curiously cautious, I gesture for her to pass me the mirror and look at it.

Images of dinosaurs flashed before me for a few moments. Then the moment came: I've never been soo terrified and frightened before in my life! Without choice, I immediately let out a scream and threw the mirror. Then I realized it was just an image of my face. It was in a different expression than I had, but still definitely just my very own face.

Once I realized it was me, I started to laugh uncontrollably. How did I scare myself so much?

I laughed so hard I woke up, and continued to laugh in bed for a while before actually getting up.

Journal Entry Lucid # 58 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed. And I meditated after doing WBTB. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I did fall asleep, without awareness. When I did my WBTB I woke up at 2:00 Am and I watched some movie. My parents are getting ready to start the day as always. I then talked to my dad and said to him, "Do you know what is so beautiful about the darkness?" He responded, " heh, nothing darkness is evil", he is a very christian man and only sees one way. Even though I know this will dissatisfy him, but I proceeded, "Darkness gives rise to possibility, only the imagination fills in the gap". He tells me, "darkness is bad..". I told him to look at it a different perspective and maybe he will understand what I mean. He didn't quite understand even though he claims to. Well you get the point.

WILD experience: I had a dream and I awoken from it. I kept thinking about the dream and I began falling back to sleep. I then hear the loud wind again. At first i was scared and the noise started diminishing. And I became sad, but then I resolved to myself that I will do it sooner or later. I stayed still. I felt like my hands were swinging. I felt out of control. I don't know if that was astral body or part of the dream. During all this I could hear the loud wind that was deafening and it got higher in frequency and it felt like needle that keeps getting sharper with the increasing of sound. I thought I can't do this, but I kept thinking about the dream I had to distract me. New images started to form, complex patterns. I could also hear sound now, no more pain. I think I came in with fear though. I hear laughter that keeps on distorting and getting lower in pitch. I saw blood dripping from the patterns. They turned into a pyramid. Then I hear a voice say to me, "Do want to meet our lord, Lucifer?". I thought this is only a dream, and besides I have to live by my words, I say to myself to face all fears. I then say yes. I see a book open and it was covered in blood. My body felt possessed and I squirmed around in the dream without my control.

Lucid Dream # 58, day: 07/03/14, time: 5:20-6:59 Am" Facing Fear:
I am now 180 degrees on my bed, sleeping where my foot should be. I see a clown, a lady clown looking at me, she had blond hair, She had a clown outfit but the colors were a little bit faded as if she has worn them for years. She said, "I am sorry it didn't work". I know it's a dream so I just looked at her. I could see that I am in my room, but it is still a dream. She looked at me and realized that I know. She said, "If you want to explore this place you have to put on a mask". I am still just thinking to myself, "no, mask is a representation of losing one's identity and replacing it with another". With that thought, she said, " okay you have to put on a scarf". She put it on me and told me to follow her.

As we were making our way through an office with little to no lighting. I am looking around telling myself be aware. I touch the desk to feel the texture. I would look at the wall for pattern and I am just occupying myself saying be aware that i am not truly experiencing the dream. The clown lady is standing next to the door like a SWAT person and she open the door slightly. I see a little girl in a bright pink room, looking frightened saying out loud to herself "Be aware. Be Aware." She is walking back and forth. I thought to myself what is my dream trying to tell me, the clown said calmly and slowly, "Calm down". I started settling in the dream. It felt stable. The clown disappeared. I wanted to see how the little girl responds to the change of my thought. I opened the door and I hear a short scream of something fearful, "Rah" and for that very second I felt a cold darkness come over me.

I am scared and I rocked back away from the door. I then calmly told myself to calm down. I turned and started walking away. I pass through door after door in a endless mansion. I started to become scared. I see the walls crumble. I thought to myself without being scared, "wow this doesn't usually happen in a dream of mine, it is mostly stable". I started to walk away. I kept telling myself that I got to get out of here. I see a friend of my sister, KE, and he is outside the house being dragged by strong wind. He tells me that I need him for some reason. I tried to use telekinesis to bring him back into the house. I couldn't the wind were blowing really hard. And objects in the house started to throw themselves at me, a lamp, a vase, etc. I used telekinesis to stop them but they kept coming. I then found a slide looking thing that leads outside.

I see a man climb out of it. Towards the slide and he slides back down. It looked like he is having fun, even though I had hell in there. He actually wanted to come back to the mansion. I on the other hand flew up into the air. It is raining. I felt so relieved and i could think clearly now. I felt powerful. I then extended both my hands and used telekinesis. I created a barrier around me, I want to say spherical but since it wasn't visible and I know there was a force field because of the way the rain responded. The rain didn't touch me. I see myself in 3rd person perspective. I could see the water bouncing off of the shield, it bounced more at the top*. I am viewing first again. Since I could think clearly I thought why did I experience that. I realized the conversation I had with my father, that was one. I also know that I came with fear from the start of my dream.

I told myself If I go out and have fun in the dream it would be preferable, but if I go back I could face a fear that I thought I conquered, darkness. I judged myself and called myself a coward, I agreed that I am acting as a coward at the moment but if I go back and face my fear that is what courage is, to face one's fear. I decided to go back. I flew back to the ground. Just a weird thing I noticed, I saw the clown but now she is a business lady. She started walking with a long coat on. She takes it off and now she is naked and begins to approach the other guy. I just ignored them for I had no interest. I went back to the dark room. And I opened the door. I see a lot of people cleaning up the place. I see Walter White from "breaking bad" with a bandage on his face. His face looked bruised like on season 3 after he beat gust. He was next to a pay phone. He calls Dewey from "Malcolm in the middle". He looked dead at me and he said on the phone with a serious tone, "Dewey (3 second pause) it is done". I then feel my body being dragged at an alarming rate. I woke up.

My interpretation: I think that it had nothing to do with darkness, but since I came with fear in my heart from the start my mind related it to the last things I saw.
I think the whole thing was about me facing fear not the fear of but confronting fear. And maybe the guy having fun on the slide signifies that I make the experience what it is, he was having fun while I wasn't.

*I love mathematics and after thinking about the way the water splashed; I think it make sense that the water splashed more at the top of the force field because the top has the most amount of surface area that comes into contact with the rain. The side would just brush the water and the bottom doesn't really exist. I am just amazed at the details that dream present themselves. It truly is fascinating that something creates without us straining our mind.

I just realized that the clown lady could be Harley Quinn from the comic books. I never knew she had blond hair.

Non-Lucid Lucid

I heard about a zombie infectin, I instantly done a RC and it worked, I've been working on them alot yesterday, and I really wanted to have one, anyways, I became lucid and the lights were out, I looked at the lights and said "Lights on!" and they didn't work at first but I kept looking around and they were just on,I went to my kitchen and tested some jumps and I jumped high, I tried flying but still didn't work, I was thinking to do it outside to fly but I hate zombie, I looked outside my liivngroom window and saw these zombies chasing a guy, making scary noises, it was dark out there, I woke my mom up in the dream and she went to the kitchen, I said "mom, you're dreaming, do a RC" and she done it, and she was like "woah how did you do this?" (was watching inception the night before haha,) and i said "It's called sharhed dreaming, you are in my sub-conscience now, and I said, "look how I project kailyn's (my sisters) room, we walked in the hallway, and while I was going to show her, I tried to spawn a door, (didn't work) I showed her and it was different, while we were looking out, I was just happy that I was lucid for a long time, and I was just looking around happy, it started fading away but I saw my sister and her friends coming to the house and running, but there were no zombies, supposedly it was 12AM but I made it light out haha, I was scared I was gonna be a zombie and end the lucid dream, only because I got sprayed by bugspray, anyways, she came and I was just chilling in my sisterss room looking (IT LOOKED SO REAL), my mom went somewhere else, I went back into the kitchen to jump high, cuz that's the only power or something I can do haha, rather than change lights, I did another RC to actually confirm I was dreaming, and I felt more lucid then before, suddenly i was with darius (my friend) we all went outside for some reason and there was a couple zombies, I spawned a pistol in my hands and tried to shoot them, bullets didn't work, we opened the door again and then there were no zombies around except one laying down with his body chopped off in my yard, my cousin raigan had this big gun, so I spawned one, the sights didn't work so I just left it there, and in my neighbors driveway, there was this military truck and we were going to it, darius was trying to kill the zombie, so i helped, i stomped his head, grabbed a chain and whipped his head and he died, that's where it ended, it was one of my longest lucid dreams and I'm so happy that I was actually conscious in that

Hi, I've been having this dream every few months, no patterns that I can see in my daily habits for interpretation (which sucks!)
I keep having a dream in which I'm in my bedroom, and I suddenly can't control going to sleep, like something is making me go to sleep. It's an overwhelming feeling that I only resisted fully last night, which led to a very weird series of events. Here's two examples:

Dream #1:
I was in my bed, it was day time, and I pushed myself up out of bed. I felt an overwhelming need to sleep, and couldn't control it - like something was pushing my whole body down, only no-one was there. This was the first instance of this dream ever occurring, and I tried to resist it because I wanted to do something (I can't remember what). My back was to the door. All of a sudden, I feel hands on the back of my shoulders grabbing me, and I could see them from my peripheral vision - They were like shadows, but felt real. I turned around and I saw my friend, and then I woke up. And then I woke up again. (Dream within a dream).

Dream #2:
I was again in my bed last night, and I left the hallway light on before I went to sleep. My bedroom door was locked also. In my dream, I push myself up out of bed and I see the hallway light suddenly turn off. I assume my housemate turned it off and think nothing of it. I look at my door and it's ajar, but I'm not sure if it actually is or if I'm just imagining things, so I push myself up out of bed and again feel the overwhelming urge to sleep. This time I succeed in resisting it, but all of a sudden I'm pushed down (by the urge to sleep) and I start rapidly spinning around on my bed. I try to overcome the urge to sleep but it doesn't work, all the while I'm still spinning faster. I finally can move my hands and I start hitting them on my mattress, extremely weirded out and a little scared by this point, I call my housemate, but he doesn't hear me. And then I woke up. The hallway light was as I left it and my door was still locked, as I left it.

Funnily enough, I don't notice anything different about my room (dream vs real life) until I wake up. For instance - My dresser was on the other side of the room in dream #1, I had recently moved it from that side to the other side of the room. In dream #2, my laptop was missing from my bedside table, but I could still hear the audio from it, and my bedside table was also missing (and my room was semi-clean for once, ha!).

Is this anything that anyone can identify with? Has anyone had a similar dream?