non-lucid

Date: 07.11.13
Total sleep: 9 h
Daytime Techniques: wonderings about self and reality + ADA
Lucid Techniques: Mantras between dreams and before sleep, haphazard short WILD attempt
Recall Techniques: weeell - got to learn to write so I can decipher it - first dream, I put down is not retrievable
Fell Asleep: 0:30 am (jippee! and stone sober)
Dream Title: High Romance!

Dream:
This was the last three dreams - and so I have very good recall without having written much.
It started at a festivity where the people having finished school with me met - but there were other people too - like a friend of mine from university.
Somehow, I hadn´t managed to dress up for the occasion and wasn´t "styled" in any way - but the others were looking fantastic.
So - wasn´t that bad, but when that friend of mine wanted to go to some sort of vip party afterwards - a friend of hers, whom I didn´t know, wanted to keep me away from that.

So then something happened which is unusual for my dreams - usually I would have tried and not managed to go with them, or went, looking horrible or whatever.

What would not have happened would have been me getting what I wanted - namely making my friend drop that bitch, she brought with her, and take me home with her to give me a really nice evening dress and her make-up and perfume and whatnot and chastised the doorwoman for not instantly letting me in there too. Lovely friend in real life - but ex-model and always soo beautiful..

Anyway - in we were and it was like in a high-society movie.
Great party - later it had somehow changed scenery to a garden in the morning.
...edited ..
Awake: 9:30 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) 12/13
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) 9 non lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) Dream in 3 parts - twice reentry because it was soo nice - all in all maybe story over 2/3 days
Emotions: Weeell.. right - for the sake of analysis: started with feeling inferior, ugly, awkward - went to self-satisfied, radiant, attractive and confident, then totally smitten, in love, satisfied, hopeful and even sort of calmly confident for what would come, liberated

Dream Signs: People from school, university - the garden party was for some reason in our old garden of the house I lived in my youth (that´s a strong recurring sign, the house+garden)


Conclusions - Overview:

First of all - it is so great, that the journalling and general aim of lucidity and gaining dream-control spills over into my normal dreams and makes them so much more satisfying - amazing!!

Secondly - got to work on readable notes in between dreams.
First dream, after which I woke up got lost because of indecipherable nonsensical scribblings - except the dart-board snippet, which I posted next door - that I can remember vividly.

Then - realization, that I actually always was and am able to re-enter a dream after waking up.

Lucidity:
I did my mantras and expectation-rising for DILD, but looking back - the real inner plan was more to do a WILD attempt after the first inter-dream awakening.
I had talked to my hubby - finding out to my surprise that he had sometimes what seems to be called EHS - extremely loud noises from inside his head while falling asleep - and he hates it with a passion.
Told him excitedly to ride it out next time and try to WILD himself.

But - just like before several times - I felt tired and lazy and unwilling to try the WILD when the time for it was there - thinking - ah I will wake up once or twice more anyway.
Which I did - with even less motivation - see dream-content..

This is so silly - I know, it would have been easy to at least get that far as last time once more - that only took like 2 min. lying still and vibrations and optics came.

My first dream was boring. I dreamed I was at work and hadn't taken my lunch at the time I was supposed to (I was an hour late going to lunch because I got caught up working on something) and my manager was mad at me.

My second dream was more interesting:

I dreamed I was at Disneyland. I was staying in a hotel building that was white and faux "plantation style". I was on the 2nd floor. The layout was weird because the kitchen was split in half, and part of it was outside on part of the balcony.

Anyway, it was also a first person shooter. I was trying to get out of the hotel room and sneak past Snake and Patrick Stewart, who were armed with laser rifles. I accomplished this by crouching, going out onto the balcony, leaping off, and hiding in a large stand of trees. Unfortunately, a patrol of enemies led by a woman in a strapless top (it was red and looked like part of a ball gown) and camo pants killed me because I used my own laser rifle (which, by the way, I thought was pretty awesome) to shoot the wrong mook. It also drew the attention of Snake and Patrick Stewart. Game over.

I restarted, but forgot to crouch when leaping off the balcony, and got shot.

I restarted again. This time, I crouched as I lept off the balcony, made it, hid in the trees, shot the woman in the camo pants, and completed the level by making it to an opera house/ballroom. It was a large, French-looking manor-like building with a moat and fountains.

Anyway, now it turned into sort of a minigame. I had to collect cartoon pigs and store them in the ballroom. I also had to collect food from various plants around the hotel and either store them in the fridge or use them to fill my Hunger bar.

I felt semi-lucid toward the end, but my alarm went off.

Review
Dream clues: Pretty much everything. If I had to pick one thing, though, I'd say the ability to "replay" reality was a pretty big one (and a potential bridge to lucidity).

I was about to do another one of my check in entries, but then, I blinked as I was about to press "post" and saw an image of a forest. It made me recall the dream that I had last night.

So I was in some kind of park/nature preserve area. It was quite expansive and had a number of meadows and forests. The forests were lush and there were a number of large oak trees. The meadows were full of tall grass.
Anyways, I was walking along some path, the path ran around the edge of a meadow, with perfect row of oak trees on the side toward the meadow. All of the trees seemed to be exactly the same. The opposite side of the path, that led into the forest and had a more random arrangement and distribution of trees.
While I was walking, a number of dream characters approached me. Some of them were family members, and another Lia. (My dream guide for those of you who do not regularly read my DJ.) Still others were complete strangers. I think I walked-and-talked with about 8 people in total. I can't remember about what.
I can remember one of the dream characters had a sword. It looked like a Minecraft sword but it was made out of real metal and actually looked like a sword from real life. But it was meant to look like a sword out of Minecraft. I do remember that whatever dream character had that sword was sort of showing it off to me. They ran their hand up and down the blade some. I can't remember what dream character this was, but I do believe that they said I was not worthy to have this sword. (Okay, whatever.)
I got to the end of the trail that was at the top of a small hill. Half the hill was covered by forest, half by meadow. And, there were two water slides that ran down the hill. (Random). There was some man there and he told me about how he put these water slides there to make money and attract people to the nature park. I couldn't help but think that the hill wasn't very large or steep, and there didn't really seem to be anyone going on the slides.

I was Batman and I think it was Superman that was with me, we were stuck on this one planet and couldn't get home ( It was Earth but we didn't know it for some reason) because my teleporter device was out of batteries.
I saw one of my classmates do this one thingy where it could turn you into another super hero.
She tried to make me a Green Lantern but I didn't want to so I just went to explore around the place and found out I was in my house.
My teleporter was now ready for use and i tried to do that cool style where you just walk through the wall and teleport somewhere else but failed
I teleported somewhere and I don't remember what happened after that.

I remember appearing at my high school just walking around where I usually walk around
and I noticed a number at the bottom left hand corner of my vision, kind of like looking at a TV and you see a number at the bottom left corner.
I was curious of what it does so I found out that it was how many times I could dash forward very fast.
The more I use it, the more i could dash. For example, if i use it once, I could use it again. If I use it twice, I can use it 2 more times and so on.
The number would be something like "2d" or something like it.
Since I was dreaming though, the number was a bit weird like it would say "3d 1d 2d" which meant I could dash 6 times or something like it.
After that I went into a classroom to find a little girl( I don't know if it is my Dream Sign girl or not, but I did become Lucid for a bit) standing on top of a stair which wasn't suppose to be in a classroom.
I don't remember what happened next but I was walking home and darkness covered the skies which made it too dark for me to see.
I went back to the school to find it burning down. For some reason, I was able to put out the fire with my Ice Breath like Superman.
I put out all the flame in the school and went into the classroom with the little girl.
I saw her pointing towards something under a desk. It was a yellowish white orb sitting under the desk.
I tried to reach for it but it was no use. I then somehow was able to use telekinesis to control it to come to me. Took a couple of tries but I got it and it disappeared.
I then went out and noticed that it was bright again. when i reached the street. it was not the street that awaits me, it was a 6 feet deep river that covered the streets. I was scared of it because I'm afraid of deep waters, and because I was afraid of it I lost my Lucidity.
I looked to the right and saw my brother, I looked to the left and saw my younger sister.
I told them to jump in and make for the other side of the river as fast as possible (AFAP).
From the looks of it, there was nothing in the water but when we went into the water, there was these two black humanoid frog-like creature waiting in the deep to eat us.
My brother and I got to the other side, but my sister wasn't going to make it in time because one of the creature's tongue wrapped around her leg and pulled hard.
I help on to her hand and got her out even though we almost for pulled in.
We kept on going towards home when we encountered another river. But this one was 5x deeper than the one we crossed before. We did the same thing and got across AFAP, but when I looked back, my sister was going to get eaten by them. I rushed to her and got her to safety.
However, one of their tongues lashed onto my leg and pulled me down hard. But I remember that I still had 8 dashes waiting to be used. I literally dashed to safety and the I woke up.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was talking to someone about dragons.

Dream 2(fragments):

I've had to make a choice between two things, but somehow ended up choosing both.

Dream 3(fragments):

There were a few characters on a base, guarded by solders. Base was getting attacked by zombies. Two of characters, man and woman started talking, then she asked him to get as much health restoration pills as possible. He agreed to do so, but also added that those pills are like drugs.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was exploring some indoors place and in the end i've used some card that summoned a dimensional gate, i went through it and dream ended.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was watching a story about a team that had a cook that could do things extremely quickly, he helped one village with cooking really huge amount of food in a few seconds. Then in team also was Honeydew from yogscast, as a dwarf. The team had some talk and then they went on a quest of some kind.

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Date: 06.11.13
Total sleep: 8 h (3 am - 11 am)
Daytime Techniques: oddities - 10 min. back, only 3 times for some minutes - trying to sense everything around and inside me - like in Joshi´s ADA tut
Lucid Techniques: repeating mantras before sleeping and in between dream-parts; after final waking up I tried a bit hapazardly to WILD but lost patience real quick - heard the traffic outside - got itches here and there - gave up very quickly - maybe too awake - or maybe happy to be done with all the stress while dreaming.
Recall Techniques: criggling notes for the first part - the other two awakenings not - the second I had sweated through my pyjamas and tried writing, but was shivering and had to change clothes and lost it - third time I jumped out of bead, happy to be out of the nightmare
Fell Asleep: 3 am (bad girl - and had drunk alcohol too - like Friday - there was also impaired recall then)
Dream Fragment number one - Title: Hunting Dog-Loving Nazi-Killers
Dream:
Really bad recall - but anyway:
I was coming to investigate a murder of a girl and a boy with an other investigator.
It was a nasty affair - kids pretty much chopped up (shouldn´t have peeked into the Sally Hook thread..).
But their dog was missing - and we got shown pictures of a beautiful pedigree dog.
Then it was obvious, it must have been the Nazis, camping somewhere in the woods - because they like such dogs, and sure had taken it with them - otherwise it would be howling around the corpses.
So - we made out into the woods - it was winter and we walked and looked and walked - and suddenly I got lucid.
I forgot about the planned hand-rubbing - just remembered to really put my full attention towards a detail somewhere - still a bit concerned about the dream - wanting overlook - I choose a branch fork a bit in the distance and quite high up.
Sure enough - this fork "sucked" me in and I was up there (no flying like I usually did when lucid = air-swimming - I was just "zooming" there).
The last lucid thought I had was - damn - now I don´t have a body - what now?
Next thing - I saw that camp and lost lucidity and was somehow on the ground again - to go on Nazi-hunting.

We came to that camp and it was not as expected - no Nazis but the dog alright and many skinny scared people, who had some sort of problem with a fire-magic they had tinkered with and which burned them out now.
Now it starts getting all jumbled up - the above I wrote down, but I don´t have anything coherent from there on any more.
It seemed all one story what followed - with one awakening in between - but all a horrible stress.
I was with a sort of tribe of people who had brought nasty stuff upon themselves and we were constantly fighting, trying to catch someone or something and chain it down or whatever.

Strangely - much later was another moment, we were at a lake - and again - I got lucid - but not a lot - and tried to zoom over to the other shore of the lake for some reason - well - I got off the ground and can´t remember anything else from there.

All else are only pictures or mini-scenes - see snippets later.
There were also some strange sexual rituals somewhere connected - but I was only observer.
Now I write - it is a lot I can write - but the other days, except Friday - I had whole storylines.

Awake: after that first fragment - forgot to look, all overall 11 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) 7/8
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) mostly maybe 5 but twice shortly lucid first time much clearer
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) That fragment felt like an afternoon - all nightmare together - maybe a week?
Emotions: shocked, angry, only a little afraid, also a bit of morbid fascination, but most of all and by far most intense - stress - I had to prevent bad stuff from happining all the time it felt - I did manage - but it took my all
Dream Signs: There was a mini-scene interspersed, where I was in an audience for a performance - and suddenly an old schoolmate turned up with the maths material I had missed the class for - he gave me his notes to copy

Side-note

Craziness at home
I'm in the family room working on the laptop (though I have no memory of actually seeing the screen). I've placed an order with Amazon for about $20, but since I had a $20 gift card code, the order ended up being free. I wasn't entirely happy with one of the items, but I decided it'd do. Later, I find the item I really wanted. I check the status of the original order, and it's still processing, so I'm able to cancel it. I'm not sure what to do about the gift code, though, since I threw away the original paperwork. I hope they'll give it back to me or give me a new one and that it's not just lost. Later, leafing through some papers in a drawer, I come across some Amazon paperwork. I look through it more carefully, hoping it might have the gift code. On the second or third page, I see a box for a "sponsor code" and realize this is what I'd been looking for.

Now I'm in the dining room. The dining room table has been moved right under the window, and there's a tiny plant on it, no more than a couple inches high. It's an ugly thing, thin and spirally. The plant is dangerous, often shooting energy beams at anyone nearby. I tried to take my own shots at it, but I missed, so now I'm hiding under the table with a couple of my daughters. I'm hoping the long tablecloth will be enough to hide us from the police when they come looking - they're the ones who put the plant here, and they don't like having them messed with. I realize my younger daughter is moving around too much, that she'll give us away by moving the tablecloth, and I get her to calm down and sit down. I look up and realize that the table above me is gone. We're still surrounded by the tablecloth, but I can see up to the ceiling. Now I'm out from under the table, backing away, hoping the plant doesn't fire on me.

Now I'm standing at the kitchen window, looking out. Something is different, but it takes me a moment to realize what it is. With a start, I realize there's a big tree down between our house and our neighbour’s that hadn't been there before. It starts in our yard and goes back towards his house, coming uncomfortably close to it. I realize it was the big old one that was dying; then I realize it can't be, because we had it cut down. I'm trying to think what tree it was, but I don't worry too much about it, since it's obviously there and has to be dealt with. Looking at its base, I can see where the tree fibers ripped away from what's now the stump. On the side where it fell, some of the fibers are still connected to the stump, just bent at a crazy angle.

Now I'm back in the dining room area (though the plant is gone). I'm trying to explain something to my parents, something about what a D&D wizard can do. I'm looking at a chart showing levels, HP, MP (yes, I know D&D doesn't use MP), success probability, and other stats. I'm trying to show that wizards aren't bad because they can use a certain really handy spell. Loooking back through the stats, I realize it's not so great, because this spell will use up most of a high level wizard's MP and it only has slightly better than a 50% chance of success. I start poring over the numbers again, trying to find a better way to use his resources to accomprish the same thing. On the spell chart, I notice there's a version that can be cast from the main menu, and I decide to take a look.

Now I'm looking at a projection of a game on the wall. I'm poking around the main menu trying to find the spell. Instead, I end up in control customization. It seems the game was designed for phones, not tablets, so by default only the left side of the keyboard is available for shortcut keys. I switch it to tablet mode to get the full keyboard available, but when I try to save and leave it warns me that my layout will have to be completely redone. I don't feel like doing that now, so I just cancel it.



Disturbance at church
I'm in church, waiting for it to start. It's getting quiet, but our pastor hasn't stood up yet. I turn around and ask a question of the eldest daughter of the family behind me; then I realize it's completely quiet and that one of our elders has stood up and is waiting for me to be quiet. I sheepishly turn around and sit quietly. The elder announces we'll be starting the service with hymn ???. Along with the rest of the congregation, I grab my hymnal and turn to it.


Strange flame
I'm in a room with a man and a woman. In the middle of the floor, a tall thin flame is coming up from nowhere. We can't leave the room, and it's getting hotter by the moment. For a while, we stand in a wide barrel near the flame. It helps, but it's still no solution. We get out, and the other man moves the barrel onto the flame. I don't think this is a good idea, and I'm proved right when the flame melts through the barrel's bottom in just a couple of seconds. We actually get back in the barrel, standing with the flame at our center. We know some people are going to be coming soon, but it's not going to be a good thing.


House styles
I'm talking with someone about pencil and ??? houses, how ??? houses tend to be small and dingy where pencil houses are nice. I'm walking through a ??? with my daughter. It's small, dark, but still attractively decorated. Right next to the back door is a tiny kitchen which is only big enough for one person to stand in. A woman is in it, and I talk to her for a few moments.


Fragment
Something about sailing and friendly pirates.

I can remember 3 dreams from last night. One was lucid.

1. I was going to my school in a bike. At halfway i realized i was wearing underwear to my school. I went back and changed it.

2. Oops i forgot it!

3. In my dream i was reading about a celebrity in wikipedia. I noticed he was dead in 2010. (He's not really dead i actually read his wiki yesterday). I became lucid. Sadly i can't remember anything after it.

The past while I haven't been sleeping great and there are often days I don't sleep at all and wait until after college to take naps. Today I took two naps, the first one lasted for maybe 2 hours and the second one lasted for 2.5.

In the second one I had such an odd dream that's stuck in my head. I was trying to walk through what I think was a corn field or something. A blonde girl was following me and had a panther. She had control over the panther and often sat down to pet it like a cat.

I noticed I was afraid of being bitten, but never got bit. I also noticed that I had a greyish wolf with me, kind of like protecting me but the blonde girl didn't seem too afraid of it.

Please help translate this

Earlier today I did a lengthy side-notes entry about a rather strange meditation experience. Not long after, I recalled one of my actual dreams from last night. So here is the entry for that.

At my school we have a tradition (I don't know if this goes for every school in the US or just ones in my state or what.) but at the end of the last year of high school, all of the 4th year students (the seniors) walk through the halls of the school one last time before graduating.
And that's just what we were doing.
The school was also distorted in that there was this large arena-like room in the center of the school where the cafeteria normally is. The second floor ran around it, forming a balcony all around the room. And there was a huge single-file line of students running along that second floor balcony; all of the students that were walking the halls. Me included, since I am a senior this year.
One other detail I remember was that there were some large red and white banners hanging in the arena room. Strange since our school's colors are blue and yellow.
Anyways, I can't remember the specifics of what actually happened. I went through some bland, mundane argument with one of the teachers, because I wanted to be with S and K, but the teacher wanted everyone to be in alphabetical order.

Had a very light sleep tonight.

Only recall a single dream that had me searching through a giant pile of test meters to find one with a particular serial number on it.

stupid work related dreams....

I don't recall my dreams from last night, beyond that my mother was in them. At one point, I woke up because I felt cold. I know I had dreams... I just can't recall them. This has happened a few nights this week. It's weird for me, because my dream recall is usually pretty good.

Maybe as I go through the day, I'll remember and then edit this post.

Edit: I recalled the dream as I was eating dinner.

I dreamed I went to eat at an old buffet restaurant with my brother and mother. It was ugly, with lots of cheap wood paneling and muddy-looking murals of pine trees. The carpet was a sort of ugly beige pattern. The interesting thing about the chain was that it was a combo buffet/ "real" restaurant, so there was also a regular menu in addition to the buffet, but nobody ever really went there for anything but the buffet. So, they had regular servers, but very rarely did anybody order off of the dinner menu.

My mother was commenting on how they couldn't keep servers there because they only paid the server minimum wage (servers make an average of $3 per hour in many states in the US because it's expected that their tips will make up the rest) and most people didn't tip their servers at buffets/tip enough, because they didn't feel like their server "did enough".

I don't remember if the food was any good. If I don't remember... I guess not.

LUCID
*I remember telling him hey you should stay lucid in the dream always. He didn't want to because it was to intense he choose to be in a state of non lucidity. Then I started to fly showing him how this was. I flew with great precision and composer. I floated above him thinking I will always watch over him.

NON LUCID
*My brothers old girlfriend was so happy to see me that she gave me a hug and didn't let me go. I thought ok you can let go now kind of weird being that I am not attracted to my brothers girlfriend at all. She was with her friend who looked just like her and was kind of cute. Then I noticed Thrangu Rinpoche who is a great master. I sat next to him and bowed with out really knowing what to say.