non-lucid

My friends JT and Tom were out front of my house yelling up to my window. I followed them to some weird abandoned building and we looked around. Nothing interesting really happened.

01.11.14

Last night bed 10:30pm - 7am

Had a lots of dreams.

Dream before last:
I'm in someone elses household. I have my 2 cats with me. The lady of the house tells me, she got a kitten. I'm mad, because they already have 2 cats and those will not like a kitten. Then I see the kitten, and another one, and then another one. So she brought 3 kittens to the house.

There is something about some people that just came being witches. They look normal, but I sense something sinister from them. I don't remember much else, only that they finally showed their true nature and I was fighting them somehow. Or defying.

Last dream at 7am:

I'm in a dark room. It's large and it could be a cellar, or some underground place. The only light coming in is from the stairs going up, on the left.

I'm laying down on some low platform. There are monsters around me. I'm being accused of something. I say yes, I did that, but it was not the way they think. One of them says that I have to die for it. I plea with them, or at least think about pleaing. But then I think that I have never experienced death in dream before and I wouldn't mind experiencing it. So I'm trying to think where I would want to direct him to place the spear. He has it against the middle of my chest. I'm thinking if leg would would be sufficient, but somehow I know it would not.

I was in a marsh kind of area. There was a girl who was making surf boards out of stretch insects and sea creatures. I took one of her surf boards and she became angry. I spent some time fiddling with the board, basically it looked like a large spikes caterpillar that you had pry open. The girls anger towards me seem to increase but I was confused as to why she didn't like me so I finally chased her down and talked it out with her( I don't remember any of the dialogue).

Then I was in California watching from a distance people surfing. There was some discussion about which is the best kind of surfboard and mine was not one of them. The tourists jumped over the barrier and kind of got in the way of the surfers. Then some of them headed down the cliff which was past the ocean they were at. Then in an instructional film style( like ones you see at a resort) it explained why the surfers were up in that water. It started where the surfers were then panned out to show that they were on a body of water on a huge cliff. Then it panned out to show the coral reefs by the cliff and where a huge long drop to bottom of the ocean began. Then it went back to the tourist making there way down the cliff. They jumped from one platform to another. They made it to the bottom and were at the waters edge. One of the tour guides was bragging and then she slipped of the cliff and fell in the water. She jumped back up but was embarrassed. The tourist were angry they couldn't physically see the drop. Then I piped in and explained that it was because of the perspective. Giant waves started to form and the tourist were scared they would get hurt. They asked the male your guide and he said "I sure hope not"this made them pretty mad.

1. [Non-Lucid]
Visited my best friend/love interest, I got to her house and couldn't get in because there where huge steps at the back and front door, her dad decided to rip 1 of the brown wooden doors off a cabinet and placed it over the step at the front door the, {I felt shock and embarrassment after he destroyed a piece of furniture for me} honestly I barely remember anything about this dream but, I saw her and that made me so happy to remember that.

Fragments:
I'm on a passenger plane waiting for an ambi-lift thingy so I can unboard I think

2. [Non-Lucid]
My nose started to bleed out of my left nostril {I thought to myself that this is odd because I never bleed out of the left nostril} so I held a tissue against it, now I appear to be laying down and my Nan & Uncle are holding tissues on my nose to stop the bleeding, it stopped after a few minutes, I'm now at College in a classroom worrying that my nose will bleed again.

I was on my way to school, walking down the road. But there were no cars on the road, just people walking in the traffic lanes as if they were cars. Also the world felt a lot smaller. That or everyone else was bigger, and therefore had replaced cars with their own bodies.
Whatever it was, I was arriving at school, where I came into a big crowd of people. These people weren't walking around the road like cars.
There was this one dream character who I just took one look at, thought she looked too strange to be real. She had like this bright red lipstick and this ponytail that went straight up from the top of her head. (Because walking down a road as if you are a car isn't at all strange.) So I reality checked by pinching my nose. But I wasn't really paying attention and didn't notice that I had just been breathing through my nose.
I proceeded go into one of these open holes in the road that led down into this huge complex beneath the school, where I proceeded to put on a pair of lime green tennis shoes and look for my friends before waking up.

Red - Non Lucid
Green - Semi Lucid
Blue - Full Lucidity

I was somewhere out in the wilderness. I explored for a couple of minutes and found a massive spaceship crashed into the earth - the shape was similar to that of a frisbee. I touched what seemed like the entrance of the spaceship and it opened. The interior was purple and green. The floors were plain purple and the walls were green with paintings on them. I looked around and saw an old man with a turquoise skin colour. His hair was grey and he was sleeping on a broken brown arm chair. I walked through a blue door to see a hole in the floor of the spaceship which lead to the ground outside. I looked down the hole to see a woman with the same turquoise skin and wearing a green dress. Her hair was purple and she was holding a blue sword. She was slashing at some weird monsters that seemed to be part tree. She saw me and gave me a weapon. She did not like me and in fact she gave me a look of disgust when she looked at me. As we were clearing out this deep cavernous hole from monsters a monster attacked me from the back and killed me.
It was another dream, and I woke up in a village. I was in a bed, almost as if I'd been resting from the adventure I had.

I started thinking about my other dream and wondered what happened.

I lost my semi lucidity and was looking around at the room. The walls were made of wood and had various paintings about. There were chairs, a desk with some notes on it and a window which I looked out of. Through the door came bursting through the woman in the green dress. She was caressing me and worrying about me. Not because I was injured but because of something else which I do not recall.

Journal Entry non-lucid #3 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: "A Boy and his dog" dream, was dreamed up because I watched a YouTube clip called "Don't hug me I am scared-time". The rest of the dreams I have no Idea where they come from. I am not a paramedic and I have no actual problem with people in waking life. To come to think of it I had some problems with people on GTA 5, I kept killing them they got mad and started calling me names.

Dream fragment 1 "Paramedics saves lucid dreamer": I was driving an emergency vehicle, as a paramedic. Me and my partner got a call for a job. As we were in a freeway we see another paramedic respondent. The other paramedic starts ramming our car. I was shocked at first thinking that we were going to help each other, but since they kept ramming, I started ramming back. We beat them to the spot. My grandmother was at the scene. We asked her where is the person that needs our assistance. She points us to the body, it was a child just laying there. They put a blanket on top of his head because they thought he died. I opened the blanket and said, "people should stop calling with false reports. He was just trying to have a lucid dream". I woke up upon realizing what I said.

Dream fragment 2 " Uninvited guest": I was at the school and I was hanging out with my friend, just for my own reference I will call him Ed. I started walking to him and I noticed all these people watching me. They looked pissed off, as if I did something to them. I was talking to Ed and I started speaking loud so that they could hear. I said, "Yeah remember that guy, I heard (this...and that)". Basically it was to intimidate them. If they knew that I knew a guy that was tougher and more "gangster" than them they would just leave us alone, since it was like 5 vs 2.

Dream fragment 3 "A Boy and His Dog": (I was a spectator in this dream, I am only watching what is happening.) This dog and this boy were together. The boy tells the dog that he is going to die. He takes the dog upon a mountain. The mountain was red from the flaming volcano inside of it. The boy picks up the dog and raises him up high. He tells the dog that this is good bye. He tells the dog you will be a mayan god. He looked at dogs eyes and said, "you will die and burn ". (I think he tossed him in volcano or something) the dog skin got incinerated, and i could see the tendons and meat on his face. It was pretty gory. Even though this happened to the dog, the dogs first and last words to the boy was "I still love you". The boy felt guilt for what he has done. He was now inside of his house. He was a dog or dog like (I don't remember exactly). A dog investigator showed up and started asking him all of these questions. The boy tried to act like he was doing some calculus problems. I really wanted the boy to get caught and pay for his crime, but I got zapped out of the house and was now spectating outside the house. I saw this old 1930s car pull up and here comes Harry Potter and the cast. The old man, the weird creepy guy, all of them were there. They were trying to get the blond creepy kid from Harry Potter, to commit crimes such as stealing cars. The old wizard said," I don't even know who's car that is?"and he started laughing.

Fragment#1 I was observing sharks ( well I didn't actually appear to be in this dream) but there were researchers watching sharks. One shark would eat another one then sink to the bottom. This happened three time in a row and each time the sharks belly would expand and become larger. This is just a side note but I am pretty sure they were bullsharks. The whole scene if viewed like within a picture plane took place on the bottom left side. If felt pretty smooshed to the bottom left side( this is kind of difficult to describe). Fragment#2 I was walking in a mall and had a plate of food in my hand. Went to the centre on the mall and there were two picnic benches. I sat down and began to shovel corn nibbles into my mouth. Just kind of gazing up and eating the corn. The next table to my right had two children and there parents and they were whispering that they knew me. They had the debate for a while and finally the little boy said I know you. Then scene panned out to where I saw myself from the Boys perspective and all I could see was my eyes black covered the rest. I then started to pick corn pieces out of my hair( I thought this was pretty funny). Then person at my table said its because I was only eating corn and she pointed to a huge platter which I got the feeling I was supposed to eat. I declined and left. I categorized these as fragments cause I felt there was so much more that I left out.

I'm in an airport, on my way to catch a flight. I'm wearing my travel backpack with my laptop and other items on my back. I'm in an open space in a concourse, waiting in line for the escalator. There are floor to ceiling windows to my left, letting in a lot of light, but I don't look through them to see beyond. Waiting for the escalator is out of character for me, so I look around for stairs, but this is the only way up the 6 feet to the rest of the concourse. People are going up the escalator one at a time, waiting for the person ahead of them to get off at the top before getting on themselves. I realize this is not how escalator etiquette works, and at the same time everyone else in line ahead and behind me realizes it as well, and we all push forward and use it like normal.

Now I'm at the top and walking fast. I don't feel particularly rushed, I just want to get where I'm going. As I walk, the rhythm of my steps puts a song in my head. I start humming the tune quietly. In my left hand, I'm holding a coil of 2.5" shop vacuum hose, and in my right some kind of weird blue-green rubber hose. I don't think this is strange in the dream. A good part of the song comes up and I do a little 360 turn without breaking stride. As I'm facing backwards I notice that some of the other people walking with me from the escalator, strangers, are looking at me funny. I realize that walking through an airport with strange hoses in my hands is a bit abnormal and they may be concerned, so I finish turning around and hum more quietly.

I'm coming up to a right turn. Ahead of me pointing left are some automatic walkway conveyer belt things, like moving sidewalks. I see Michael J Fox walking to get onto one. I'm surprised by how smoothly he's walking. I decide not to say anything because I think it would be rude. I hear someone behind me say "Oh, it's Marty!" pretty loudly behind me. I repeat the phrase under my breath with a smile on my face.

My route now somehow requires me to go through some restaurant seating areas. I think I must have made a wrong turn somewhere. I look up and see a sign with my gate number 17 and an arrow telling me to continue this direction, so I do. An adolescent male sees me and says "Hey, you look like MacGyver." I realize he's talking about how long my hair has gotten. Just then, Richard Dean Anderson turns around looking just like he did in MacGyver season 2, mullet and all, and he starts a bit when he sees me. I say "Hey, it's me!" He still looks surprised as I walk on, weaving my way through people and tables.

I've had to go up to the second story. There's an empty little bar section here. Some previous patron has left his drink on the bar. I need to get down to the first level to continue to my gate. I move over the bar and grab the upside down cloth handle to a reusable shopping bag suspended from the ceiling. It's got an automatic winch in it that slowly lowers me to the floor. As I go down, suspended by my left hand, I wonder if I should have put a tip next to the abandoned glass at the bar above. I don't know if I'm causing the restaurant trouble by doing what I'm doing.

Now I'm in a generic inner hallway, and I bump into E, whom I haven't seen since his Army Special Forces graduation ceremony. He's muscly and has the Army haircut. He seems to think we had planned to meet during our mutual layovers at this airport, but I don't recall setting up a plan like that. He wants to ask me about our matching USB thumb drives we keep on our keychains, and how 8gb isn't enough so he's going to upgrade to 32.

1. i was on some field or destroyed city square. there was darkness all around. And i saw 2 people competing in archery. It was germany vs slovakia. The german had a crossbow, and slovak guy had a bow. And i was supposed to help the slovak person. They were shooting piles of hay, trees, and some fireworks with fire arrows. I helped to choose the targets.. and i showed to the shooter a big pile of wood next to river shore. And i said shoot. He hesitated but he scored. A small fire was starting on the logs.. and i said shoot again. Another hit. And then from nowhere a wildman came to the scene.. he was running towards this logs.. jumped on them and the logs turned into a flat viking ship made of stone. The ship fell into the river and the wild guy was surfing on it.. we ran after it.. and we met a polar bear. It started to chase us.. and he bite me on my hand.. it was not that bad actually.. the wounds were like a dog bite.. i still had my hand.

2. I was in a supermarket on cashout. Im not sure if I was buying or selling czech crowns to euro. It was all around numbers 8 and 28. But im not sure if i bought 8 crowns for value of 28 or another way around. I even took the hand calculator next to the seller to do my math, how much it should be. And it was correct what the seller gave me. Then i stepped out of the line.. Put everything in my big bagpack. I was going on some trip, i had quite a lot of money. And i met a friend in the waiting line in this supermarket and he said you still owe me 30eur, can you please give it back to me now. And i said.. yeah no problem. I grabed my wallet from the bottom of my backpack.. Started to count the money. I took 1x 10 and 1x20eur.. but the 20eur bill was wierd. It was red instead of blue. And the surface was harsh. but i said well it is a special edition bill and i gave it to him anyway. Then when i was walking on some stairs there was something on the wall. something plastic and round. I tried to move it, i thought it is somesort of mechanism. And actualy it was a plasticwatermill but it was broken. The weels were not there, but all the rest worked as it should.

3. I was in a bulding. I guess it was a school because of all the whiteboards. And on one there was writen Dag Og. And i tried to read it.. and it was in Danish i said. and next to the board 2 girls were sitting and laughing to my pronaunciation of the words.. Then i started to walk on stairways.. i wasnt alone. And an old woman asked me if i speak english. I said yes i do.. and are you perhaps danish i asked. She said yes.. i asked her what does Dag Og means. And she answered "help me" but that is incorrect. THen we came into a classroom. And there were some foreign students in there already. THere was music.. August burns red in acoustic version. The students started to sing something.. and my group was from my country. and we started to sing some comunist slavic song.. so loud and in one voice.. i never heard this song before.. we were like one big team. We oversang the others so the teacher said.. well i think we have a problem.

Woke up around 3:20 am with terrible toothache. Took pain killers. Went back to bed. Was awake for two more hours. Rolling around not able to relax or fall back asleep due to my toothache.
Only remember a dream fragment in which my boss calls me and asks me about a project on which I'm working on in my waking life as well.

Last night

*translation pending

1. soñé que vivía con mi familia junto a un pantano. me acercaba a pescar con un trapeador, esperando que los peces quedaran atrapados en el trapo. tenía intención de aventar el anzuelo para llegar más lejos pero no había tal y me limitaba a sumergir mi trapeador. luego estaba con iri u otra mujer pariente y le mostraba cómo pescar con trapeador pero al sacar el trapo sólo tenía mojones. todo el pantano estaba así. le decía a alguien que había algún animal que se estaba viniendo a bañar a nuestro pantano. me enorgullecía de mis habilidades biólogas deductivas.

2. estaba en un puerto. había un barco estacionado en el puerto. mis padres estaban metidos en el barco, haciendo un descbrimiento científico. cuando terminaran debíamos hacer ruido. ¿eran ellos o era yo? o alguien más y yo quería estar ahí y avisarles cuando terminara el evento. llegó mi prima Tania con su hija, seguida de un niño de unos cinco años y una niña pequeñitita de un año. mi prima les pedía que dejaran de seguirles. yo cargaba a la niñita y la ponía en mi regazo para dormirla. veía que yo traía puesto el vestido de terciopelo azul oscuro. acurrucaba a la niña y ella cerraba los ojos. en algún momento hice un movimiento brusco y ella volvió a abrirlos. su cara no tenía expresión, como isabel de caballo negro. se quedaba dormida y su hermano la llevaba aparentemente con sus padres. el niño regresaba y recibía una llamada. yo le ayudaba a contestar, escuchaba cómo empezaba a angustiarse por el regaño de sus padres y le ofrecía acompañarlo de vuelta con ellos. el niño vestía una playera verde bandera con letras blancas grandes sobre el pecho.

caminábamos por debajo de arcos y casas vacías (tipo la casas de mar azul, con pasillos abiertos con arcos, pueblo fantasma) y llegábamos a un albergue para niños de la calle. un lugar con puertas de cristal, mesitas amarillas, una máquina expendedora de golosinas -un cuartito de espera, que daba a otras puertas de cristal para ver a tus niños jugando detrás en un salón amplio con una colina de hulespuma y alberca de pelotas. veía a una niña con parálisis y nanas/educadoras con delantales. pensé en la utilidad de un sitio así. es gratis, nadie te pregunta nada porque cualquiera puede ser un niño de la calle, en una situación de emergencia no te vas a poner a pedir comprobantes. el niño corría por su hermana y yo me quedaba esperándolos. un par de niños vestidos igual -uniformes de escuela?- empezaban a molestarme. acoso sexual. se sacaban el pito, se me acercaban insinuantes. tendrían unos 11 o 12 años. me enojaba mucho. intentaba pegarles para alejarlos pero no funcionaba porque no quería hacerles daño. ellos más bien parecían divertidos. los empujaba sobre unas sillas, ponía mis manos en cada uno de sus cuellos y les decía, “a ver cuánto aguantan”. apretaba. seguía teniendo miedo de lastimarlos y a la vez estaba muy molesta. me decía a mí misma que sólo sería un escarmiento, que no los mataría aunque eso era lo que en realidad quería hacer. apretaba fuerte y veía sus caras ponerse rojas, su sangre escurrirse de mis manos por debajo de su piel, pero mis manos cedía, no podía controlar bien mis movimientos, mis manos eran torpes.

desperté

January 8th 2014

*will translate later!

un hotel. mis padres y yo. mi madre y yo íbamos al cuarto de lavado del hotel a lavar las sábanas de nuestras camas. veía una lista de películas/libros buenos qué checar que había hecho renato.

la sala de espera de un hospital. una mujer morena, tipo gaby de caballo negro. gente sentada, frente a una ventana.

un departamento pequeño lleno de gente. un hombre atractivo circa 40 años. llega una periodista y anuncia que ha llegado el auto a recogernos. todos corren de aquí para allá guardando cosas y alistándose. pienso que tardaremos en salir. un encuentro con el hombre atractivo. le hago sexo oral bajo una manta verde. él lo disfruta pero recuerda que debemos irnos y se para diciendo que debemos irnos. todos le obedecen y en ese momento nos vamos.

January 7th, 2014

*** I'm sorry this is in Spanish. I'll translate later.

1. Buscaba un baño en un centro comercial muy grande que era parecido a una ciudad subterránea de película de ciencia ficción post-apocalíptica. Yo era parte de un clan de mujeres ruidosas que hacían un alboroto en cada baño que encontraba y no me dejaban entrar a ninguno, no tenía privacidad. Mujeres como las Brujas de Zugarramurdi.

2. Me quedaba de ver con Sergio en la calle. Nos fallaban las coordenadas -algo pasaba con mi teléfono, había un malentendido, algo asi- y nos costaba trabajo hallarnos -otro desencuentro. Cuando al fin nos encontrábamos yo sentía alivio porque necesitaba verlo para algo, tal vez para contarle mi sueño de las Brujas antes de olvidarlo. El centro comercial-ciudad ahora era una selva de utilería con árboles de cartón.

3. Me peleaba a muerte con Erick. Nos aventábamos frutas. Él estaba arriba de mí, como subido en un estante. Había calabazas verdes y naranjas y mandarinas. Conseguía ponerme a su nivel, rodeaba su cuello con mis manos y apretaba. Veía cómo su cara se iba poniendo roja. Él no hablaba ni hacía expresión emocional de ningún tipo, como si no estuviera ahí. Yo deseaba que dejara de respirar, que muriera. Luego lo soltaba. Pasaba un rato y parecíamos olvidar el asunto. Recordaba algo que quería decirle y volvía a sentir cariño por él.

4. Mi prima Tania y su marido hablaban sobre matrimonio conmigo. Como si me hablara la voz de dios porque ellos no estaban presentes. Iba en un auto con mi padre. Yo tenía puesto el uniforme de mi escuela, el de la prepa, y me iba peinando en el coche. Faltaban cinco minutos para la hora (cualquier hora, XX:55). Tras de nosotros venía una cosa publicitaria -más utilería de cartón- que cambiaba de forma. Me asustaba un poco pero trataba de pensar que no dejarían publicidad semi-consciente suelta por ahí si pudiera hacerle daño a nadie. Mi padre se paraba en un estacionamiento pequeño, tipo OXXO, a entregar o comprar algo. Cuando volvía al coche yo miraba el reloj y marcaba XX:56. Me sorprendía qué poco tiempo había pasado pero pensaba que mi padre sabía lo que estaba haciendo, siempre llegamos puntuales con él. Decía algo y yo me miraba al espejo y veía que tenía un mechón rosa en el cabello. Recordaba que ya no estoy en la prepa. Me preguntaba cómo iban a dejarme pasar si ya no voy a clases. Le decía a mi padre algo de mi certificado pero no entendía porqué el uniforme. Me caía el veinte de que no, que no era a la prepa a donde tenía que ir. Le pedía a mi padre que me dejara en el metro para ir a la universidad.

No idea it might have been one dream or 5 but I was just napping with the intent to have a delid and seem to have had a huge chain of not so real awakenings and falling back to sleep ALL LUCID!!! And the most vivid I have ever had... Incredible.

I think I actually woke up once but not sure I just remember finding that my phone stopped playing music and then falling back to sleep trying to stay awake. The first couple were very vivid but I don't remember them I do remember using "BECOME VIDID" and shouts like that to keep my eyes open and chasing after a truck or something in the first one but that's it. But what would happen was I would have a FA and actually feel the exiting from a dream and try not to move. Then I would feel strange sensations and vibrations, for example I came too and felt like I was rising up from inside of my bed then floated above my bed and sunk back down into my normal position on my back (wasn't actually sleeping on my back though) then I would feel vibrations like a wild and lift off my bed a little and be swept off into the dream world. It would fade into a FA (although I tried to start of in a field of grass) but I was completely lucid!! In the first one I remember I got up and picked my dog up who looked so lifelike I carried him out of my room and dropped him down in the kitchen I did RCs and they worked but still had a hard time believing I was in a dream because it was so realistic. I then went outside the front door and saw tons of people going about there daily business (which is weird because most lucid dreams of mine have little or no people and I've never seen my street so crowded). I saw my good friend graham jogging by my house in his Berkley sweatshirt and stopped him and talked to him and did some other stuff I'm not sure of. When the dream faded I did the same thing and just chained them. This time when I had the FA I got up and saw through my sliding glass door my sister, who is in college in a little party hat for new years even though it has passed. She looked at me, smiled, and waved. Past her in the living room I saw the rest of my family. I did some RCs and they worked. I then pressed my hands against the sliding glass door and felt it. I turned around and found my seat was replaced by a beautiful and huge granite counter top desk and a big desktop. I felt the cool granite with my hand as I walked by. I went into the kitchen and felt the cabinets and then really analyzed the room. It was incredible how real it felt and looked. It then soon faded I woke.

This time I also realized I woke and was going to try to delid again but I also knew I had been in a completely different position than this and when I went to bed and I didn't want to forget any more. Nothing has ever happened to me like this before... Was I dreaming I was lucid dreaming and chaining them or was I actually doing it but when I woke my awareness was so low I thought I was in a different position? I have never had such vivid dreams and remember I also had a couple that I don't remember before those that were linked as well.