non-lucid

I was sooo close to getting lucid last night, I can kick myself. In this dream, I actually performed a reality check! Problem is, it passed! AND, unlike IRL, I did not perform a backup RC, so I just went along my merry little way.



August 15, 8:00 am

I was so close to lucidity! I'm in the house it is afternoon. I've been doing something outside...shoveling snow, that's what it was--lots, and lots, and lots of snow! I finally finish, and come inside. My parents are about to leave somewhere, and they ask me to clean the refrigerator for them while they are gone. I then tell them, laughing as I say it, now would be a good time for me to do a reality check. I then haphazardly press my fingers into my palm, but without really looking at my hands. My fingers don't go through, so I don't become lucid (My hands felt solid, and for some dang reason, I DID NOT FOLLOW THROUGH with another RC--which is odd because I ALWAYS do at least 2-3 RCs every time. Dangit). I'm pretty sure there is more to the dream than this, but I can't remember what else happened after this point.

3rd person. Some centuries ago this guy's life was ruined by getting mixed up with a demonic creature using the name Elinar, which looks vaguely like a rabbit. (Or possibly Elihar. Can't read my own writing.) Now he's working together with a witch, and when he visits her in her workshop for the first time, he finds Elinar there, serving as her familiar. Up until this moment neither he nor the witch had been aware of the other's connection to Elinar, and now a lot of the 'coincidences' that led them to work together are starting to look suspicious.

Fragments from earlier: A woman pretending to be blind is followed by men in black suits, who aren't aware she can see them. A musician reminisces about the time about a hundred years ago when he'd played for a town that had never heard of alcohol, and found the place surprisingly refreshing.

Not much of recall, mainly because some construction workers or w/e decided to make some really loud noises outside as i was waking up.

Dream 1(fragment):

Was talking to someone about dreaming stuff and recall.

Dream 2(fragment):

Was playing spiral knights.

1: A small fragment at my friends house. 2: A dream about getting drunk at a party in a big house. 3: A dream about weed, a trumpet bong and a homeless dealer. 4: A dream about me working in a mobile library.

• I am with two good old teenage friends of mine. The dream is not about back then, when we were younger, but we are as we are today. The front door of my friends house reminds me of an apartment that we had lived in earlier in my childhood. It is very neat and clean inside. We have a big hangover and we talk about the previous night, where we drank a lot of alcohol. One of my friends talks about how much money he spend that night.
  
  The house was purely dream fiction, but it had some interesting familiar features. We often used to hang out together on hangover days back in my teenage days.
  
  
• I drive a big black car. It feels new and comfortable, some good old friends are with me and some other friends follow us in the little blue car of my grandmother. We drive down a small curvy road through a forest.
  
  There is a parking area down in the valley and I decide to stop, because we are looking for a nice place to rest and to do our barbecue and camping, we have everything we need in the trunks of the cars.
  
  My friends from my grandmothers car seem upset, they say this is not a nice place to stay, they want to go further. But one of them had spotted a big party as we were driving on the hill, so we decide to leave the cars for now and take a look. So we walk upwards again on the small curvy road through the forest, where we came from. The walk is about 1 km and we take our time, we are not in a hurry at all, it feels like we all have summer holidays and this is our big vacation together or something like that.
  
  We finally get there and there is indeed a big house with music and a lot of people. Somehow they are of course strangers, but it feels like we are all friends and we are definitely welcome at the party. We start drinking a lot of alcohol, the party is held throughout the whole house including the second floor and the garden, there are people everywhere.
  
  At a later point we are all drunk and I gather my friends to tell them that I need to go down to the cars to get something. None of them wants to join me, they laugh and are clearly drunk and so am I. I think 'f*** it, I'll just go by myself'.
  
  I try to figure out where we came from, so I walk around the house. I almost choose a wrong path, which leads to some fields with high grass. Suddenly I remember it, and I turn around and walk across the street and towards the small curvy road through the forest that leads to the cars in the valley. As I'm walking, I think that time moves so fast when I am that drunk, while it is slowed down, when using weed.
  
  The big black car was cool. The dream had a nice summer holiday feeling with the good company of friends instead of the everyday worries. It is astonishing how well dreams can simulate the state of being drunk or being high. Also, I find it interesting how socially active I am in my dreams, like I was some years ago. Nowadays I choose to be socially more isolated, not that I don't like people, I still love them, but I am just rather by myself at my current stage. My dreams do certainly not reflect that.
  
  
• I am with a group of 10 people around my age. They are a mixture of friends and acquaintances. It is early in the evening and we walk and relax together. We gather on a playground and just hang out and talk.
  
  I have a black friend and we go and sit on a bench at a bus stop. He pulls out his bong, which I know he had for a long time and that he uses it quite regularly. I listen to the familiar sound, as he uses it and at that moment I think to myself, 'funny that I don't smoke anymore, it's been a long time already'.
  
  As I watch him with his bong, it occurs to me that it looks like an old trumpet. He must have somehow build a bong from a trumpet and some dark glass. It looks nice and stable, though. I ask if he cleans it every now and then, because I imagine it must be very hard to clean that thing, it is so unique. I get no response, he just smiles. I find it is a delightful sight and sound to just watch him handling it. And yet I find that I have no urge to start smoking again whatsoever. I am allowed to inspect the trumpet-glass-bong closer. I suck on it (without weed, just for the feel and sound) and I immediately get some water in my mouth, I spit it out and give him back his trumpet bong.
  
  There is a man coming to the playground, he looks old and homeless. The group of friends and acquaintances gather around him and he pulls out a big zip lock bag filled with marijuana. He starts selling nice, green and round buds to everyone. I think, 'wow, what an intelligent disguise for a dealer. A homeless looking old man with a bag of weed, which I estimate to be worth some thousand euros. He is not old and poor, he is smart!'.
  
  I know that I have money in my purse, so I take it out and look at two 5-euro notes. Another close friend of mine takes out 10 euro as well and we decide to buy something, just because it has been so long time since and because we can. We go after the old dealing guy, who is about to leave the playground.
  
  This is MJ calling for me once again. I had many dreams about cannabis when I stopped using it completely more than a month ago, this dream is like the final residue of that. I never had a close black friend, but in my dreams I often do.
  
  
• I am on my walk home. It is daytime in a residential area, but it is totally quiet. Then there is this big bus stopping at every corner and honking and calling for the people living there, but no one ever responds. It is the bookmobile trying to get peoples attention.
  
  I think to myself that I can maybe get a ride home or I could even ask for a job. So I speak to the driver, and surely, I may join. So I walk around in the back of the bus, which is filled with books and neat little reading corners, the mobile library has two floors.
  
  We drive around in the neighborhood and the driver calls the people by their family names, apparently he knows them all. No one ever gets on the bus, which I think is sad, because people don't realize what a great thing they are missing out on. I decide that I will just make the best of my situation and find some interesting books to read, while I'm 'working' here. I am excited, because there is so much variety to choose from.
  
  The bus drives into a grocery store and parks between the shelves filled with canned food. It starts to fold out and to transform into a temporary stationary library section of the grocery store. The shelves start moving as well to make space for the transforming bus. The process does not seem random at all, but very well planned and well-orchestrated.
  
  The driver takes out 10 waffle irons and tells me that I have to make waffles for everyone who visits our mobile library, there should be people coming soon. I am overwhelmed with the whole situation and I find it weird. But on the other hand it is a creative idea, I think. So I begin thinking about how to manage that task. Shouldn't be that hard, I think, there should be cooking books among the books and there should be all the groceries I need somewhere in the store.
  
  A nice, creative surprise by my subconscious.

(I consider for terms of dreams that once the night pops up, That's the next day - Not when midnight pops up.)

(Also, I had been listening to some Mudhoney songs in the few hours prior to sleeping.)

I was dreaming that I was in a locked room with two people and perhaps there was cold and I had trouble communicating with one or both of the people. I tried to make sense to one concerning a religious wall in the room and later when I got out Mark MacLaughlin (AKA "Mark Arm") of the band Mudhoney was there and later we returned a coat I apparently stole months ago to someone's house. I then fell down into the house in a small room and I turned computers on, At which point I tried to turn them off and then since I was about to be discovered by the family I tried to turn myself off with a power button on my stomach (This might be sounding rather bizarre or concerning to me) as if I were a computer.

Later, I think I was trying to talk to Mark (Who looked younger than he does now, BTW) and then he started running away. I ran after him as he ducked under at least two fences trying to avoid me and I still went after him. Then, I went near or to his house and a friend of his who was bald had an ATV which he took in through the back door and he was outside but on the other side of the house - There was another door not far from the back door. I or he asked about Mark and one of us answered the other. Then I saw small onions and containers of Agave syrup.

Later, There was talk among Bronies (As I did spend much time in the Equestria Daily chat room - I use the screen name "Barry_From_Mars" there) and I saw Heartbreak (A fanon Pony) there. (It's not the first time I dreamed of her either.) I said that I ate flies and then I ate a green one and I did taste it too. I do not remember actually eating a fly in waking life!

Then there was running near Natrona Heights, PA as if it were a house and I saw sexual imagery including some black creature on a tree that asked if it could do something. Later when I was thinking of something and saw a push-bottle and thought of m*********** the Pixies song "I Bleed" Played as I was next to my car or was in the garage.

so in my dream i was at this huge river. it was an activity in the land where i was in my dream, an activity that involved riding an animal that seemed to be like a camel under water. i sat on the animal underwater like riding a horse, and the head of the animal popped up. the head looked like a cross between a deer and an ostrich and a camel, and it was the color of a camel. i rode it down a crowded river (there were other ppl riding and in boats and swimming so it was difficult to navigate at times). i finally got to the end where i was to pick up sierra. weirdly enough, i'm not sure i actually saw her in the dream but i know she absolutely loved the sea animal ride that i took her on.

then i was in this huge frat house. it was a beautiful house like you would see in a magazine with a large backyard and pool, but there were bottles and random crap everywhere bc they had a lot of parties there. there were huge frat guys there that i apparently knew. one of them was wearing sunglasses in the house. throughout the house, there were dudes passed out randomly from partying.

me and matt and kiely were on the floor in sleeping bags next to the couch where bryn was watching tv. it was some cartoon that was out of this world. it was like 3d and it was a mish-mash of crazy alien-like images set to techno music. kiely was freaking out bc she thought she was a slut bc of some story she told us about her past. apparently she went into the bathroom with some guy and he said you can have your pants on or off. she chose off. i told her she was just freaking out and shes fine. kiely went to the bathroom, and me and matt wanted to cuddle so we rolled next to the couch so bryn couldnt see. i remember pushing back from the couch so that she couldnt hear either. i remember this part vividly- looking up at the couch from the wood floor and pushing as hard as i could to slide us back. we didn't really get to do anything bc the dream switched or i just dont remember....

i was outside by the pool. there was some huge hammock device. i was told to swing into the hole that the strings created and onto the large tree. i swang like a park swing a bunch of times, back and forth as hard as i could, and i remember yelling things like "i cant do this!! this is so hard!" and laughing.

dream switched again. mom found my computer and freaked the fuck out bc she searched history and apparently i have something to hide. she was screaming and furious and i felt dread and fear. i grabbed the laptop from her, and then started to gather all my shit from the frat house. i had to babysit sierra and i only had 2 hours to get there. before leaving, i went to some drawer and found a bunch of stickers and things and went through them for about 15 min it felt like in order to find sierra some cute things. i picked out pumpkin halloween, barbie ish, stars, and other stickers. i remember their images completely clearly, each sheet of stickers was as real as anything.

i got in my car and raced over to the hymans to see them and then pick up sierra from somewhere. it was the second time we were going to go sea animal riding. i went to the hymans residence, but it was a different house but i knew it was them still. they were nice, but for some reason i couldn't remember their last names and they asked me to find their phone number on my phone just in case of an emergency. for the life of me i couldnt remember their last names, or even first names, and i also couldn't navigate my phone bc it was a whole different interface. they were kind of weirded out by my inability to find them in my phone. they eventually called the sea riding off bc of it, and i felt rejected and tried to change their mind. they tried to distract me by showing me some cat that their friend had created from scratch? it wasn't a real cat it was made from a human. i told them i had heard about it. she said that it did a bunch of tricks. it was a creepy black cat like ricky and its fur was all mangled up like a shitty black haired barbie. it was all contorted and freaky looking. hillary told me she wanted him to do a trick with me. i uncomfortably agreed and the cat came towards me.

idk what happened after that. i did enjoy the sea animal rides and the animal was so cute that i rode with its little head sticking out of the water so cutely.

firstly nat and i were hanging out and i made up my mind that iwas going to try acid. she gave me these litle paper tabs like you see and then i fell asleep and drempt that i took them. i started seeeing all this trippy shit and woke up back to my dream.

still with the acid i continued in my dream and decided i would take it for reall. i woke up

went back to sleep

completley different setting now , i was back at some huge mansion where all this evil shit was happening. i overheard a boss talking about how world war 3 was in progres. i some how gained the ability to turn invisible. i used the power to run through walls in my old high school and eventually tackle cody to the ground and tell him i n eeded help. he didnt really do much for me.

i ended up driving a flying car that could shoot missles being chased by a god fanatic that was working for the bad guy who thought i was the terrorist and was trying to save me from killing the world. while trying to kill him by launching my misles i shot them into this barge like monstser that had a mouth that would open occaisionaly at which point i would shoot my missels into it

I don't remember much, but it's not a bad thing. My dreams were all fucked up last night. I can only remember three fragments.

Fragment 1: my ex girlfriend was at the same place that I was. I'm not sure where we were. It looked like a mall... and a school. It was lunchtime and she was being a bitch to me, so I made her drop her food (she was taking it to her table). She kinda cried and tried to hit me at the same time. I'm pretty sure I got in trouble for that, I think they wanted to make me pay for her food, which was super expensive.

Fragment 2: a friend of mine I hooked up with a couple years ago was angry at me. She kept ignoring me and glaring at me. No idea why.

Fragment 3: I was watching a play/film/animation. It was about an island where there were like five women and five hundred men. They weren't real people, though, they looked like this:



And there were lots of men all over the women. It was depressing.

That's it.

Dream recall from today's nap.

I am at home and some people are distracting me from my nap, there is some talk, i have to do something with some papers and then they leave. After that i notice some candles on table, and that one of them apparently slightly setting the wall on fire, i started thinking about informing someone and almost exited the room, but then "wait a second", i look at my hands and they are weird, so i am dreaming. I stop and recall some stuff to do then i go to balcony doors while rubbing hands on the way. Dream version of my room appears to be using old layout and there are apparently a couple of steps down on the way to balcony door, and also balcony itself has glass walls, some of them are open though.
I jump out and feel my wings, starting the flight. I fly around and soon i am above some other city, with high density of rather small buildings and some industrial buildings, all of them are mostly blocky and squarey. I fly above them while looking around, there are some weird reflective surfaces floating in the air. After a few minutes i spot square opening in the roof of one of buildings and fly inside. Place appears to have mostly metallic walls and some machinery, then as i look around it slowly turns into different room from my home part by part, and then dream fades out.
I wake up and i still feel that i am dreaming, and it's nighttime here this time, i get up and go to balcony, it appears to be same as before false awakening with those two steps and glassed walls, but this time closed, i get to glass, turn around and fall back, phasing through it. I feel wings and start the flight. Looking around, dreamscape appears to be more natural, there are some trees. I fly to the left and then i find some village, there appears to be some wooden water barrel thing, in the middle of it that immediately catches my attention, i have urge to destroy it. So i land and start tearing it apart, it appears to have some mechanisms on top and metallic parts, and it's insides are made of... bread??? As i tear it apart i also notice some DCs walking around. Then satisfied with that being done, i stand up and think about trying some of that bread, but dream shortly fades out shortly.

non lucid
*I am at the temple just got done using the restroom. I over heard someone in the restroom saying there are going to go outside to smoke weed to enhance spiritual practice similar to what sadhus do. There was a debate to whether this is was good or not. I thought this could be a really awesome experience. So I decided to do so and got really excited about it.

lucid
*I am in my apartment and it's dark. I tried to turn on a lamp but this didn't work. I thought maybe the power is out. Then I thought what is this was a dream but everything looks so real it can't be. I did a RC nose plug, I could breath but I still wasn't convinced this was a dream. I jumped up to see if I would float, I did and ended floated right down the stairs. I thought ok, this is for sure a dream! I started to walk and woke up .

Morrowind
I was in Balmora, and I did something. I'm not sure what, but something about a rebellion, and no0one wanted to support me and stabbed me in the back.
Anyway, a cliff racer was to take me from there to a safe place to randevous with friends. I had to cover my body in some sort of scroll so people couldn't see me. I did that, and reached a place between two mountains. Then, me and friends (included Nami) took cliff racers to some sort of palace. We took an elevator that looked like the one in the Library from Metro 2033. Then, we saw King Neptune (from One piece- the jamon guy). He said he was going to help the cause, and then started blushing when he thought Nami was hitting on him.

I don't remember what happened before this part clearly. Had an ugly day, that might contribute to my amnesia.
Must read more about ld.

So I had this dream where I was walking down a road with some people I haven't met before. And suddenly, I put my hand on the shoulder to the person next to me, and I say " Oh shit. this is a dream. I'M IN A DREAM" , And I kinda freaked out, since it was a dream, and I ran down the road, started looking around, but then I kinda lost it, so it was just a normal dream again, and suddenly i was a wanted war-criminal that everyone wanted to kill and then i woke up. And the funny thing is, I fell asleep again, and I started dreaming of my school. I was at school with my friends , and we started talking about lucid dreaming , and I remembered the lucid dream i had earlier on the night. That was kinda fun, since it made me realise i was dreaming again, so i had another lucid dream. xD
WEll that didn't last long. i woke up shortly after that.




Excuse my skills, I haven't drawn in a while.

I was on a bus which was heading to a place which I knew of in the dream, but I cannot remember now. I was going over this sort of bridge and turned away from another place, this disappointed me because the bus usually goes to this place but didn't this time. The bus was driving towards an entry to some sort of building and a big van type truck was coming out too, it was an awkward situation and the bus had to return back a bit so it could get through, which was the problem as the other driver wasn't in much control of the vehicle. The vehicle drove up where our vehicle came from and I had this sort of premonition that it was going to crash into one of those vans that have the hazardous fuel. I don't remember getting out the bus, but I remember entering the building and my premonition took place. People were panicing and I told them to hide behind something, this is where it came to me that this has happened before and the last time it happened the fuel tank exploded creating a mass explosion which reached this building, a lot of people died but I knew I could stop this from happening again. I told people to stay away from the windows as I remember that being a dangerous place last time. However, the fuel tank never exploded and people started having a go at me saying how I lied but I said that I just did it for their safety as this had happened before.

I'm pretty sure this was a separate dream: I was going back to school already because I was told I had to complete some test, I don't remember much of this part, just the room which was a basic science looking room. I do remember someone that I know trying to fight me, he grabbed me and I didn't fight back but just pushed him off me and he fell to the floor, he kept trying to grab me still and I did the same thing. I then remember being on the way home with the same guy and another person who I used to talk to a while back. We bumped into my friends back from school whom I hung out with, I remember one of my friends going on about how they were still doing youtube and were getting quite popular.

The first dream I remember happened when I was about 4 years old. I will also mention that this is the only time I have ever dreamed of a real place in perfect replication. Other times I have ever dreamed of a real place there is always something different about it, like the way it looks or the layout.

The dream started with me sitting on my bed looking up at the abominable snow man. He was HUGE, his head almost touched my ceiling. No words were exchanged between us but somehow I knew that he wanted to play hide and seek with me. I jumped up and began hiding in different places around the house, but he always found me, and when he did find me he would roar very loud and frightening, making me become scared and running off to the next hiding spot. The only places I remember what happened in detail was when I ran outside to our mailbox. I managed to squeeze inside it to hide, scared for my life by this point. He found me not long after and knocked the mailbox over causing me to jump out and run as fast as I could back into my room. I jumped under the bed making sure to keep quiet. Not much time passed before I herd him enter my room and saw his feet next to my bed. Everything got quiet until suddenly my bed was thrown off of me with a giant roar. I cowered, screaming my head off, when I finally woke up. I remember lying in bed looking around my room until I managed to convince myself that it was all just a dream.

I think this dream is either responsible for my deep fear of the abominable snow man from Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer, or was caused by that fear. Either way, that movie is involved. I have been afraid of that guy my whole life, and still am today, just not as much as I used to be when I was little. I used to run out of the room whenever he came on TV and I wouldn't come back until I knew that his scene was over. He is just, so incredibly creepy looking. I can stand to watch his scenes now but I by no means enjoy it.

I was sitting in a plane near the back, and I turned around and saw Jerry Seinfeld and his friends sitting in the very last row near the rear exit. As the plane started down the runway, he was making jokes about how the last row was where terrorists and murderers sit, and everyone around him was laughing. Suddenly the door to the rear exit started swinging open, and Jerry noticed it right away and did that silly shout he always does in the show as he jumped out of his seat and raced to catch the door and close it before the plane got airborne. My dream ended right as he reached the door. I saw the plane from the outside and it was like, halfway on the runway and halfway in the air with Jerry's arms hanging out the door when the scene froze and started showing Seinfeld end credits and playing that little concluding riff.

There was some sort of competition between me and someone else involving surviving in the wilderness. I was sitting near a campfire with some guy I'd hired to help me survive to give me the edge in the competition, but the guy was annoyed because things weren't going to plan and all the huntable animals that were supposed to be in the area were gone. The wilderness we were in was very beautiful, though. It was a large grassland with small amounts of trees and lots and lots of lakes, but it wasn't wet and marshy like areas with lots of small lakes usually are. There was a mountain range in the distance that spanned the entire horizon, and opposite of that the grasslands ended and dropped off down steep cliffs with no bottom. I think the person I was in competition with was either a ninja or a pirate, but he rode around on a big griffon so that gave him an advantage. He kept flying by and belittling me.

Some vague dream about a father and daughter sitting in the den, and the mother comes in and they talk about something. I remember the mother saying "That's why I had the fireplace put in." and the daughter and father were all surprised and weirded out by that for some reason.

I was in a grocery store, going up and down the aisles pushing a shopping cart. It was a very industrial-looking grocery store in that it looked more like a Home Depot except with food on the shelves. I got a few cleaning supplies that I can remember vividly. There were these huge mechanical aisles that were all pushed together in one massive block, and as I walked by them they automatically separated into actual aisles you could walk down and they were all frozen foods aisles. I thought that was very neat that they came together and broke apart like that and thinking it was very energy-efficient to keep the cold air in, even though the energy used to move the aisles was probably more than the cooling. As I walked up and down the frozen foods aisles, I saw that one of the freezer doors was actually a regular door that led into a building that was a labyrinth of even more freezer shelves except it was almost completely pitch black and I could barely make out the doors and the floor. I kept opening the doors but all the freezer shelves in that building were empty and had ice accumulating on the glass. As I tried to make my way through the labyrinth, I kept getting text messages from my ex-girlfriend I haven't seen in like eight years. They were weird one word text messages of random words, and she sent them super-fast, like I was getting a text every tenth of a second. I kept trying to text back but I couldn't keep up with her typing speed. When I got to the end of the labyrinth there was a dark room with some neon LED lights around and it was like a little lounge. I saw a lizard in a big terrarium and a door that led me back into the main grocery store. I was relieved to finally get out of the dark place and when I left there I stopped getting the texts so fast.