non-lucid

It is slowly turning to night, me and Thomas are coming back from something, he is following me. we don’t realize it at first but the house is gone. We get out of the car and something doesn’t seem right, cars are parked every where and I get out. Something is strange, all of a sunden I realize my house is not there. I say Dude wheres our house? And all that is there is a square rectangular whole where our house once lay. All I could think is where is my stuff, what am I going to do? Thomas Is not so worried because he is moving. I say what the fuck happened. It is getting darker and we look around more, I think the house was litteraly pulled up into the woods to the left over near my parents shop. We see it and go over to it and look inside it. It looks like it has been jumbled. I say again what the fuck happened and Thomas says well isn’t it obviouse, look around at these signs, he resites, or says something like you have been evicted for two months until further notice , or something like that, now it is dark and I think xan, my other roommate, is hiding from us up near his car because we hear a motorcycle pulling into our driveway, for some reason we are really scarred and we try to hide and that is when I saw xan. Then I scare my self awake.


Can someone please tell me what this means?

This was quite a long dream and I've been up for five hours, so I might not remember everything.

First, I was walking, just hanging out, really. It looked a little like a nice square, there were trees and benches. Suddenly, those two guys show up and start making fun of me for identifying as male. I ignore them, but they decide that they should "make me feel like a woman" and they try to rape me.

I start shouting for people to help me and the guys (there were two of them) laugh at me. They say "look at them. They won't do anything to help you." I look around and there are lots of people, just standing there and gaping at us. Whenever I look at them, they look away, but nobody walks away. They don't help either. They really just stand there.

I beat them up and some guy who seems to be my friend shows up and helps me. The guys look at us and say that "this isn't over" and they run away. I thank my friend and he says we have other things to do.

I wake up. Fall asleep again.

I'm at this weird kitchen-like room. My friend still is with me. He tells me we must get my dad to help us. He opens the freezer and says "you can come now" and two guys come out of it. The freezer seemed like Mad-Eye Moody's suitcase, with a hidden, huge compartment... except that it was cold there.

One of the guys doesn't have legs or something like that, he uses some... stuff to help him walk. He is, apparently... my father. He looks nothing like my father, in fact, he looks like Cliegg Lars from Star Wars II. Anyway, he tells me not to worry about those guys. They will all help me.

I wake up again. Fall asleep.

I'm back to that square place, but it's raining. I'm looking for my parents and I know they're there. I see my dog and he's trying to hide under some plants. I puck him up to protect him from the rain. I find my parents (my mother is really my mother and my dad is also my dad, but, even though he can walk just fine, he's still wearing the weird stuff).

The guys show up again, but this time they look different. I give my dog to my mother and tell them to go away. I tell one of the guys they shouldn't have messed with me and I start beating him up. As much as I punch him in the face, it's like he's an alien and can't be killed.

Until I tear his head off. Then I start tearing everything off. His body limbs that I'm holding stop looking like body limbs and turn into... machine pieces, I guess. Once I'm done destroying him, I burn it all.

I wake up. Back to the dream AGAIN.

I'm in a building, it looks a commercial building. Maybe a really big office. We're looking for the other guy. We know he has more friends. In fact, we know he has an "army". As we are walking around, we can hear them, as if they were very far away. I turn to the security guard with us and tell him they're in the vents. He's like "no way!" but then I just glare at him and he agrees that we can go looking for them.

He uses his phone thingy to ask for tools. I tell him to also ask for more people, cause when find them, we'll probably have to fight. He says that he'll only call for help when we find them. I find that super weird, because... what were we supposed to do? "AHA WE FOUND YOU!!! Now hold on a second and wait while we get our allies here, just a couple minutes, okay?"

I take my phone and send a message to some of my friends, telling them to let others know that we need help and also asking them to come. In the meantime, the security guard is opening the vents. One of the people helping him is Britney Spears. I say hi to her and it's a grim exchange. It's really early and it's a bit dark outside, looks like it's been raining all night. I out my hand on her shoulder and go "...hey, Britney..." and she turns to me and goes "...hi..." and we're both sad. I should mention that in this part of my dream, I'm a guy.

The security guard comes back from the vents and says he found them. And then he starts laughing like a crazy man. Fortunately, we have a group of people there already. The main guy comes out of it and I start punching him. I throw him out of the window, but he holds on to it. I start opening and closing the window, trying to break his fingers. After MANY attempts, he finally lets go. He falls on a lower tower or something of the building. I go after him.

I wake up for good.

Wednesday, 8/14/13

Last night, bed at 11pm - 7:40am

DR 1 - 12:40am
3 people modding

DR 2 - 4:40am
I'm dining at a small restaurant that's at neighbors apartment, right next to the entry to my apartment.
Small, round table, white table cloth. Since my friend picked up the chack last time, I'm offering to pay for this meal. Waiter brings the bill for $93.

We are still eating and third person at our table, a male, pours some red wine and is howing me bottles on display and explaining about different wines. Normally I don't dring when out with someone IWL, and I remember this in my dream, I have a taste of red wine and it's devine. Surprisingly it's warm, but it tastes so good. Somebody, like a narrator's voice mentions the ingredients and that the wine is artificially sweetened. The guy nods with big proud smile, as if that was the best thing that can happen to wine and it makes it the best.

Not sure about it and frankly I suspect, that the bottle he got us is very cheap. But daum, it tastes so good.

I look in a glass and see some plastic. I also feel some plastic as I drink. I pull it out and it's a piece of blister pack, like what pills come in. I see another piece and one smaller one. I get up and start walking to another room, which is also dining room, and I wanna talk to a waiter. A guy is few steps ahead of me and he turns to me with "wtf" expression on his face. he also found some cut up pieces of blister pack.

On one of his pieces is something green. Like a tape, or label, that is not originally part of it. A partial word contaning "bacteria" is printed on it. People get suspicious and suddenly CDC guys are there in yellow hazards suits. We get quarantined and they wanna test us all.

The girls I was dining with starts packing her things to take with her to the hospital, where we suspect are gonna end up for the tests. She puts some fruit away and a orchid in a pot.

I figure I'm gonna need change of underwear so I walk outside to knock on my moms door, which is just 3 steps across a short hall. When I open the door I'm outside, in a different place. It's raining heavily. A grey car is turning to the right and I yell at the lady to push the intercom button on the long driveway she just left from. She can barely hear me but she jumps out and wan't to help me. Byt then I realize I can just cross the street and do it myself, but she still want's to help.

I start walking and suddenly I'm on a huge grassy area, on thel left side surrounded by a low wall. It's still raining and puddles of water are starting to form and cover up the grass. Someone says "there are these huge snails". I look down and yes, huge snails with elongated shells and small snails ar all over the place. I start to fly instead, just a few inches off the ground.

I come to the exit from this park. There is a boy or a girl doing something, and then he/she walks to the door, and puts some more money on the blanked on the ground.

DR 3 - just before getting up at 7:40
I'm in a room that's part of an apartment. It looks like classic motel, with a walkway by the doors. I'm on first floor. I'm in bed, and I hear the mailmen at the neighbors place. Suddenly the door flies open and it hurtles in the air. We all know, tha mailman was told to open the door that way. By giving it a good shove or kick, because it's hard to open. But he did it too hard. That broke some cable in the wall. Mailman now opened some access door on the wall and we see the broken cable. I say "well, that's easy to fix".

As I'm walking around the place, I see two small, skinny cables, red and black. I think those are leftovers from the repair and want to pick it up to keep it. Then I see that the room is literally covered with all kinds of cables and wires and piles of screws, nails, washers, tools, you name it. You could barely walk throught there without stepping on something. I pick up a large piece of wire, but I realize it's not scrap, so I better leave it there.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing Doom and roaming through some huge map. It was some kind of complex with outdoor areas at west and indoor areas at east, and also some ventilation system passages. It was pretty mazey and used alot of grey/white textures in places, but also brown ones in other places and green in outdoor area. There were some new enemies and something about player character was dragon-related(can't recall exactly what though).I realized that it's dream while viewing automap briefly and tried to memorize it. Then i lost lucidity.

Dream 2(fragments):

I've had chain of false awakenings during which i either was trying to deal with mosquito or was talking to someone about PC hardware. Then there's another false awakening, and this time some nice voice is asking something, i try to respond and eventually get up i feel that i am dreaming and i feel... quite more aware of surroundings than usually, there's some female DC, we talk about something for a bit and i end up following her and losing lucidity, there are three more DCs, i become aware of dreaming again while going downstairs but then talk continues and i lose lucidity again, i look around and think about reality checking, but end up talking with DCs again. They say that we are going to certain place and i didn't liked it so i went back.

This dream may have been a third person dream, or I may occasionally have identified with one of the characters or another.

There was a young woman with Down syndrome who everyone thought would never have kids or be married or anything. But then a close relative of hers dies and leaves behind either a group of kids or a bunch of eggs about to hatch - there definitely were some eggs involved. Anyway, the young woman with Down syndrome is the only one willing and available to adopt. She turns out to be an excellent mother with the help of her brother. At some point in the dream someone also asks to merry her.

Fragment: I was at a hotel, which had a reception desk and in the next room a separate information desk. I kept having questions, and getting confused and wanting to ask the woman at the reception desk, and bothering her, when I should have gone to the information desk.

1. [non-lucid][sound]
I got invited to a nuke watching show with my dad where they drop nukes as we watch the huge explosions and mushroom clouds. I remember waiting for the delayed BOOM, and when it arrived it sounded and felt awesome.

2. [non-lucid]
I'm searching for my support worker(Joel) in the local College, I ask a few people but they have no idea, so I ask at reception.

Now I'm outside, its nighttime and I'm with Joel, a bus pulls up in front of us and Joel says I should take the bus home on my own in which I replied "I have never traveled alone by bus before".

I get on the bus...I arrive at home and knock on the door, mum answers and lets me inside, upon entering I notice that there is an iPhone mounted on the wall via some sort of bracket, I looked at the screen and it had an app of some sort displayed on it, then I got annoyed by it (I don't know why).

Finally! A dream I remember! Back to being someone else though...

I was the Bicentennial man (from that Robin Williams film), but I still lived and worked where I do in real life. In my dream, I was in a first aid course, in the conference room where I work. I was being amusing and everyone was laughing (I'm not generally the centre of attention - or even hugely outwardly spoken in reality, so that was quite strange). We had a test, and I flew through it with no problems (though, as the bicentennial man, I guess I shouldn't have had trouble!)

August 12, 2013 (Nap Dream)

Mom and I were sitting at a table doing one another’s make-up. She put these really crazy colors on me, like a rainbow and when I looked in the mirror I just busted up laughing, because it looked so funny. She got offended a little and asked what was so funny. I could tell that I hurt her feelings, so I stopped laughing and said nothing really, I was just messing with you; it looks really nice mom. When it was my turn to put her makeup on I didn’t know what to do. So I just decided to put it on like I normally would put on makeup. She looked in the mirror and started laughing hysterically. I was like, what’s so funny, mom? She said it was just all the colors looked so strange. Not understanding what she meant, I swiveled her chair around to face me, so I could see her makeup. It looked normal to me, a neutral look. I didn’t say anything, and just turned her back towards her mirror. When I glanced in the mirror though, all her makeup was different colors, and it did look funny! It kind of freaked me out and I felt a bit spooked with things looking different in the mirror than they did in real life.

The next part of my dream, I was sharing dinner with a friend, although I don’t remember who he was. I don’t recognize him from real life, but in my dream he was a good friend. I asked him what he was dreaming about and he said that he had funny dreams most of the time. He shared some of them with me, and we were laughing together. Then he looked at me and got all serious. He said isn’t there something that you’re forgetting right now? I thought about it but couldn’t figure out what he was talking about. So I asked him what do you mean? He told me to think harder and I could come up with the answer by myself. Then before I could question him anymore, he got up and walked away.

All of a sudden I was outside and it was raining. I heard that guy’s voice again, but I couldn’t see him anywhere. He asked me if I knew yet. I was like…know what?? The voice asked me, what would you like to see happen right now. Since it was raining and I was getting soaked, I said I’d like it to be sunny and warm outside. The instant I said it, the rain stopped and it was a beautiful sunny day. Blue skies and I was dry instead of wet. I didn’t say anything, was too busy looking around and trying to figure out what was going on. From down the street he came walking towards me. He looked really mysterious, but not scary. Once he got to me, he said to me, you know what I did right? I answered yes, you made the rain stop. Then he told me, no I didn’t do that, you did. What are you forgetting right now? As soon as he said that I knew what he meant, and I smiled. I looked at him and said you’re lucid aren’t you? Then I woke up.

*Now that was a really awesome dream. I love the way my DC was giving me clues that I was dreaming and could be lucid if I would only remember. At least that’s how I interpreted my dream. Maybe that could possibly mean I’m getting closer to becoming lucid. *

August 11, 2013 (Dream I had last night. Woke up at 2:45 and wrote my dream in journal)

I woke up at about 2:45 this morning and remembered part of my dream. I was on a road, like a long winding highway riding a bicycle really fast (more the speed of a motorcycle). The road was really smooth and paved at first. But as I got further and further the pavement started to break until soon it was rocky and all broken up. I had to slow way down and at one point I couldn’t even ride anymore. Out of nowhere, somebody was with me and I remember complaining to them about it, saying that with all the taxes we pay, they really should fix the roads.

There was another part to this dream that was really fuzzy, but I was on my bike and needed to go through this neighborhood that was very scary to me. It was dark and there were strange people outside. They had guns and knives and were just roaming around the neighborhood. I was alone and didn’t want to go through there, but it was the only way home. I started to pedal across this road, and realized that I was lost! I was feeling in danger and didn’t know how to get out of the neighborhood.

Next thing I remember is being in a car with my mom. We were going somewhere that we had been many times before. But neither one of us could remember how to get there. There was a woman at a stoplight so mom pulled up to her and asked if she knew how to get to the place we were going. The lady gave directions and mom said, “Well I could also just turn left at this light and keep going straight until I get there. Yeah that’s the way I’ll take, it’ll be easier than the way you just said to go.”

I thought to myself, she did know how to get there. So why did she ask this lady for directions if she already knew. Then I woke up.

August 11, 2013 (Dream During Nap)

We were at a bowling alley. It was dark and raining outside. Shawn called me on my cell; he was hysterical and told me that people were trying to kill him. I told him I’m in the parking lot and to come outside that I would meet him at the door. Jump in the car and we’ll get the hell out of here. We hung up and I started the car. It started but it wouldn’t move. I couldn’t get the car to go into Drive or Reverse. All of sudden all these people started pounding on the doors and glass trying to break it. They were yelling that they were going to kill me and still, the car would not move. Finally I got it to go into reverse, but when I backed up there was a hole behind me and my car just slid down to the bottom and I was stuck there. Here comes the crowd of people, so I jump out of the car and run to the building. I have to get across the parking lot and they’re chasing me. I hear a gun fire behind me, and I’m thinking okay this is it, Im dead. They’re goanna kill me.

Running as fast as I can, I weave back and forth until I get to the front door to the bowling alley. I rip the door open and run inside. There are a lot of people there but I don’t see my son anywhere. I keep thinking to myself that I need to find a cop and my son. The people that were chasing me are still outside, so I go looking around inside the bowling alley. There’s a large man sitting at a desk with a huge stack of money. I run up to him and tell him that I need help; people tried to kill me and my son is missing. The guy continues counting his money and then he slowly looks up at me. He tells me to come with him. Leaving the money sitting there, he walks to an area near the doors I came in. He gives me a letter and tells me to read this and I’ll be completely safe from the man that was firing off rounds. So I read the letter and immediately walk outside. I go find the guy that was shooting at me. As soon as he sees me he points the gun at my head. Real quick like, before he fires the gun, I tell him that I have a letter from his sister. He looks at me with a shocked expression on his face, and lowers the gun. He begins to cry and we walk into the bowling alley together. We sit down and I begin to read the letter. After I finish reading it, I look up at him and he tells me that he’s so sorry for trying to kill me. I tell him that I forgive him and that he doesn’t have to do these kinds of things. He says that I don’t understand what’s going on, and that I need to get my son and get out of here. So, I leave and go looking for him. He’s nowhere, so I figuring he has to be outside somewhere, I walk out the door and run to the center of the parking lot. Once I get out there, it turns pitch black. I can’t see anything at all. Just blackness all around me. I hear the people who were chasing me earlier and I’m scared. I decide to try and make my way back to the building very slowly. I’m stumbling into cars and people, but finally make it.

Once inside, the building is no longer a bowling alley. Now it’s the DMV and my mother and brother are there. Mom asks me to put on these really super high heels before we go get in the car. They don’t fit, but I do as she asks anyway. She has on the same type shoes and my brother tells me to be sure and hold onto mom so she doesn’t fall down. I get irritated and tell him that I’m not stupid! I know to hold on to mother. I go to help mom and she doesn’t want the help, so I tell her I want the help then. We walk to the car hand in hand. Once inside the car, my brother says he wants to show me something. The car is a kia but as soon as he says he wants to show me something, it changes into a nice racing car and I’m in the driver’s seat. He begins to buckle me in and hands me a gun. He says to be very careful with both the car and gun; but that both will offer protection should I ever find myself in similar situations. I’m just getting ready to see how fast the car can go when I wake up.

*Now that I’m awake I find myself wondering: What was in that letter??*

I was in some sort of adventure house which I had entered through a video game. Some other people were with me such as Billy, James, Beth etc. one of the rooms had a slutty woman in it and it was weird. The room was dark and had a party atmosphere. I tried to get James to go in because his reaction to it would be funny but he was relaxing on a bed. I went to the bed and sat on it and he woke up. I took him through the room but I forgot what his reaction was to the woman. There were 3 slanted bridges resting on metal barrels that we had to climb up to get to the next bit so we did. Suddenly we realized Simon Cowell was hosting the event and I think he did a speech or something but not sure. The next bit was shops and there was a build a bear factory where I saw Simon Cowell standing outside. He was crossing his arms and had sunglasses on. I screamed "SIMON COWELL!!" And we all rushed over. I said "Can I have a hug" while stretching my arms out and he accepted. I said in the hug" I also want an autograph" and he said "ok". I waited for him to stop hugging but he didn't. He said "Well get your autograph book then" and I was like Oh! And grabbed it from Annabelle who was next to me. Simon still hugged me and he seemed to have lifted me up so I sat on his arm or something. He signed my drawing book which had a drawing of him on it. There were lots of drawings of him in it but I chose the best one. I said "We have to go home now." And he said "I'll give you a lift if you want?" So we accepted.
Me, and some other friends I can't really remember who, got in the car. Simon had some friends with him and I think one of them was Dom!!? He was driving and I was next to him so I got my photo book out and tried to find a bit with large space that he could sign for Sam. I found a page with a photo of two fingers or something with a large space under so I showed it to him and said "Can you sign here?" He said "no." So I just kept hold of the album feeling sad.
Simon took us to a ferry or airport place I don't know which but it was some sort of travel and had the same entrance bit as Legoland. It said it was going to France. I realized quickly he was trying to kidnap us so I quickly pointed this out to my friends and started to get out the car and run. Our stuff was in the back so I opened it and it was like opening a lorry and I think the car had turned into a lorry. Simon was actually a fake and he just wanted to steal us. My friends helped each other get their stuff and run! Someone called the police and we escaped. It wasn't too difficult, luckily we managed to do it.
*blank moment here*
I was in a hotel near the pier on the seafront. Me mum Sam and dad lived there. I remember playing a Hell's Kitchen game or something I think they were Lego people in it? I chose who to kick out and who to stay. I made Jon always win. Under Jon there was a picture of some cabbages piled up in a triangle like a profiterole tower but bigger. He had done something like push them down a hill or something I can't remember. Then a Facebook comment thing popped up on the photo and both Jon and my friend Freya had commented on it. (???)
I was back in the hotel and me and Sam decided to check out a shop opposite us. It had orange scaffolding on it. We went in and it was dirty and sold drugs as well as normal stuff. Some girl started going crazy like "You expect me to drink this!?" And stuff and then I realized that the people who tried to kidnap me and Dom worked here!! Omg so we went back to the hotel but outside the door mum was there crying! It was because we didnt tell her we were going to she got worried. I think I told her about the kidnappers and she went in the shop while me and Sam went back. Dom texted me saying "omg that was you in there?" Or something and I replied "yeah why are you turning evil now?" Then I can't remember what he said but he starting making fun of me for running away and I said "what the hell I was being kidnapped what was I supposed to do?" Then ended the convo.
I don't remember what happened now so I'm just going to say the end!

Thanks for reading!

I was in fetal position in my bed when I realize I need to get up and take a shower even though my body feels paralyzed. Then I realize that my legs are my children and that it would be unethical if I left my children for a month long shower so I weep while I contemplate this, after all I didn't want these two children, then I realized that they are my legs, they can't be children, So I sit up then I see this man sitting there, I walk behind him and blow air on his head because it's funny that his head is the size of my thumb yet the rest of his body is bigger than mine. I take a picture if my thumb next to his head, then I look at the picture I took and the man isn't in it, then I look back to him and he's gone. Then I go into the bathroom and decide to cut my hair, I have these blue scissors in my hand, but then I put the side of my mouth into the scissors and cut my mouth open joker style and then I just go oops, and then cut a chunk of hair and jam the hair into my wound. Then I find a shaver from under the sink and shave most of my hair off and then take off my shirt and put make up on my eyes and then I go into the kitchen and lay on the ground that has cigarettes all over it but I call it carpet and then I take a picture of my self and in it I have a weird face.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some video games.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was creating dragon character for some forum game and then was updating some of my RtD forum games, while discussing something with someone on some forums and playing some minecraft custom level.

Though I remember almost nothing, I will still post the one sentence description that I **can** remember. Maybe my brain will take the hint and decide to cooperate with this dream recall thing if I keep bugging it

August 13, 2013, 8:00 am

All I remember is my dream had something to do with walking in a blizzard of some sort.


Another dream fragment from earlier: Something to do with the hamster Rolo again. I don't THINK it bit me like in the last dream I had about her, but I'm certain she was present in the dream--I just can't remember it, darnit!

3 dreams and one fragment. The first is about a getaway from a threatening situation or people, the 2nd one is the fragment, it is about motocross in a forest. There is much more to it, but I can't recall more details. The 3rd entry is a pleasant dream about flirting with a married woman (I forgive myself, she is beautiful). The 4th is about coming home:

• I am together with my brother. We run away from something or someone, it is a threatening situation and I run for my life, I am very fearful. We are in the ground floor of a building with narrow corridors and white walls. I have the impression that my brother is not really aware of the danger of the situation, so I yell at him to convince him to move faster and to follow me.
  
  We come to an elevator, 2 or 3 people are waiting for it and I decide to move upstairs as well, as it seems to be the only way to go. But there is no time to wait I think, so I chose a narrow circular stair to the right of the elevator and run upwards, while again reminding my brother that we have no time to rest, or 'they/it' may get us.
  
  I tell him 'don't worry about grandmother, she will be alright as she has always been. She has lived most of her days happily, just leave her behind and let her go'. As I say that I feel that I myself also have trouble leaving her behind and letting her go, but I force myself to do that and to continue running, so that I am a good example for my brother to follow.
  
  On the second floor we climb out of the window and slide down a slanted roof. I think it's fun to slide down here, but then the fear of the people/thing following us takes over again. We land in the garden of the house, where I find an air pump. I pick it up, just in case I could use it as a weapon. We encounter a gardener, who is raking leaves. He says something, but I don't trust him, he might be part of the complot (after all, I didn't even know exactly what we were running away from). I consider piking up a rake lying next to me and just beat the gardener to the ground, but then I decide it's best to just leave. We walk out of the garden and the fear wears off.
  
  I don't know what I was afraid of and running away from. But I was scared, that is for sure. I don't know what the passage with our grandmother means. I rarely experience fear in dreams, but I appreciate it afterwards, when I do, because it makes the dream very vivid and detailed, as the fear forces me to be completely in the moment or situation.
  
  
• I am riding a motocross bike on small forest paths. There is dense vegetation and small hills. The bike is light, but strong, so that it easily rides on almost any terrain. I ride in a group with some other people, I have a lot of fun.
  
  I find myself on a broad road between some fields, riding the bike. I have lost the group, which makes me sad and I try to find them again. I ask some hikers to help me, they direct me to a small house in the forest and they claim that this is a sort of meeting point for hikers and bikers. So I go there and I am happy to meet 2 people from the group to rejoin. We go into the small house to rest a bit and maybe to find some others.
  
  I know there is more content in this dream, but this fragment is all I can recall. The forest paths were beautiful and the bikes were really cool, I had a lot of fun.
  
  
• I have a conversation with a beautiful, young, blond woman. We are on a small hill under some big and wide trees, the scenery is very calm and relaxing. We are with some people we both know, but I only talk to her.
  
  We are in a bus, I sit in the back end of the bus at the left window, the blond woman is in the seat in front of me, but she has turned around to talk to me. She has a cute face and short blond curls, I think I am in love with her. But somehow I also know that she is married, so I am not sure how to behave. I decide to ignore the beautiful landscape outside the window and to look beyond my morals and doubts straight into her eyes. As I force myself to do that, I find that it is not at all uncomfortable, but rather it is the most natural and pleasant thing to just rest my eyes in hers. Suddenly my fears of being hurt and my doubts about the moral situation seem ridiculous and I give her my undivided attention. Wow she is beautiful, I think, while she talks (I'm not really listening ).
  
  I want everything about her, now, there is no doubt. I sense that she feels the same way, but that we both are unsure how to express that. We walk along the ocean between a forest to the right and a beach to the left. She takes my hand and we just walk, saying nothing. I think, wow, I almost forgot how good this feels!
  
  I had several dreams about cute, blond women recently, but I don't know how to relate that to my waking life or why or where it comes from. I guess I have just been single for a while and maybe I am just ready for someone new? In any case it was a nice experience, I am certainly open for more dreams with her
  
  
• I am in a residential area and I walk on small paths between tall houses. A boy, who looks Korean/Chinese, walks past me. He makes some clicking noises behind me and as I turn around, he suddenly has a bike and he rides away. I wonder where the hell did he pull that bike out? But then I just move on. I decide to turn around and go to my mothers place.
  
  The apartment door of my mothers place looks a lot like the door of my room I think, as I stand in front of it. There is light and noises coming from the workroom, so I figure that my stepfather is at home. There is no door handle, though. So I investigate the door further and I find out that it is opened by a little light switch. I am now inside the apartment in the hallway, but all doors are closed. I know that everyone is at home, because I can somehow sense their presence, but I don't want to draw attention to myself yet, so I go into the kitchen. There are 3 burned pizzas in the oven and the oven door is open. I sit down and enjoy the calmness, peace and idyll of the situation. Smells and feels like being home and everything is alright as it is.
  
  The bike coming out of nothing should have made me more curious or even lucid, because I noticed it in great details and even wondered about it. But somehow I just went on with my walk. The apartment is not the real one, but purely dream fiction. It was a pleasant dream nevertheless, it had the comforting feeling of being home.

non lucid
*I was about to sit down in front of my shrine while chanting the vajra guru mantra. I felt a lot of happiness because of this.