non-lucid

I haven't updated in a long time because I haven't been able to remember my dreams since that last lucid one. I don't know why. I think it took a lot out of me.

I'm in this enormous library with my family and this old man named Dave (I think my brain based him off Dale from The Walking Dead). The thing about this library is that it is filled with ghosts. Also, uh, apparently you can keep any book forever but you absolutely have to ask a ghost if you can keep it--I didn't know this at the time. Otherwise, you're cursed and you die. Now, all the ghosts are making me nervous and I leave with Dave and half of my family. The other half--the stupid ones--decide to stay. I eventually come back to the library where a ghost librarian tells me that they aren't going to hurt me as long as I ask permission. There is this Hayao Miyazaki film I really want but I decide not to get it because I don't trust the librarian.

Then I woke up.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

To get a bank account, or anything official, people are required to identify themselves with DNA fingerprinting. I'm applying to a job or something like that and they take a drop of blood for DNA sampling. I'm sitting in an uncomfortable chair for too long before I get any feedback and then without a warning the chair locks me in and I feel a needle on my back. I feel scared for a bit and then become aware I'm just dreaming and decide to play along and just memorize every detail of the story as it unravels.

I am drugged and transported somewhere. When I get back to my senses I'm with some other persons, rounded up on some fenced place with red dirt floor. A guy who befriends me says we're on another planet, a red planet and we've been selected due to something in our DNA.

He invites me to escape with him. He says we have to face some giant guy who protects the gates. At the end of a long open ceiling corridor, we meet him. We fight and I recall I can fly and do all my kung fu tricks, so we win.

We escape and along our path we meet someone who offers help. Says we must go alongside the river until we find a bridge. We should not cross it. Just meet there some guys who will take us underground.

But when we arrive, there's no one there. We admire the beautiful iron bridge. It leads to a gorgeous palace on the other side of the river.

Then we see an abandoned boat and a floating body. We get in the boat and rush up to grab the body. It is a woman with dark straight hair. We bring her inside the boat and do CPR. She is alive! Then we see a chain pending from the boat and on the other end of it is a dog fighting for his life. we pull the chain, he offers some resistance because it chokes him a little bit, but soon he is also on the boat with us and looking very thankful.

We seek help in the palace and we find that the woman and her dog live there. We are taken in as heroes. She had went for her usual boat promenade and the guys who we were supposed to meet with, had decided it was much more interesting to assault her and rob anything she might have of value. She didn't had much so they reacted with anger and decided to kill her and the dog. Luckily we appeared on time.

We were given jobs in the palace and we stayed there.

Now I start seeing life through the youngest girl in the family, a gorgeous teenager with a thing for art. Her father spoils her with everything she wants, as long as she doesn't get out of her golden cage. She surrounds herself with paintings, sculptures and all fine arts she can ask her father to put his hands on. But she is frustrated and unhappy. One day, the palace and the gardens are super busy with people preparing some big event, and she hids on one of her art galleries. Looking at those marble sculptures of naked bodies she feels so horny. She touches them as she masturbates furiously. She is going crazy that she can't reach an orgasm. I am her but I am also the guy who is now working in the palace, so I feel her horny despair and I also see her through his eyes and feel his lust.

Then I realize again I am just dreaming and I wake up.

//No LDs//

#1 - W.I.T.C.H.

I was reading some kind of W.I.T.C.H. magazine. I searched for character that I "might become" (whatever it means...). I found two of them with descriptions. One looked like Hay Lin. Can't remember the other one. It could be Cornelia, though. Anyway, I wasn't sure which one I should choose. I was near 'Cornelia', but my cousin said [with a big smile - he wasn't serious] 'Hay Lin' is perfect to play. Then he showed keywords that described her. It was "happy, melicious, bitchy". So I decided it will be 'Hay Lin'.
Don't remember rest of the dream.

#2 - Prediction of Death.

I was in some room with man and woman who were around 50. I knew their two sons. And I somehow knew they're going to die. So I told parents it. Mother started crying. Didn't see father's reaction. I knew that one of the sons will be shot in the chest.
Later this one was in some empty building. There were bunch of people who were trying to shoot him. I'm not sure if they weren't halfdead or even fulldead (zombies?). And building was really old. I took guy's hand and started running away with him. I was trying to protect him. I got two shots - one around the chest and another one in the stomach. But I didn't stop running, though I was tired. Felt like I was going to fall. I knew I can't stop, so I kept running, ignoring everything.
Finally, we left the building.
And then... All I remember is that I couldn't save him.

#3 - X-men.

I've become one of the X-men. It was very, veryyy exciting. We were already supposed to sleep, but I and Scott wanted to find something. I don't know what was that, but we were very careful about it. We were jumping instead walking, because we thought steps are too loud.
Then someone woke up and started searching... for us? Not sure. But he was really near and there light turned on. I turned it off, but there was still on!
It turned out that 'he' was Wolverine. He wasn't mad, rather amused and let us continue it all.

[FONT="Comic Sans MS"][SIZE="5"][SIZE="4"]I'm standing in a hallway. I'm wearing a black skirt with a red top. My face is pale and my makeup is running down my cheeks. My hair is messy with debris in it. I start walking down the hallway. Every step I take gets louder as I continue. My heart starts pounding, my mind is racing. .I'm about two feet away from the window and I stop. Looking out the window I see people laying down in rows. The sky is green. There is thunder and lightning. The wind is blowing, the trees are shaking violently. Then i see a truck starting to run over the people and no one seems to notice. They all just continue to lay down. I turn around and the hallway is gone. In its place is a door. A blue door with green trim. There are daisies painted on the bottom. I grab the door knob and my hand starts melting. I proceed to kick the door open and see my two sisters, my boyfriend, and his kids all face down on the floor. I run in and try to flip them over but the moor i touch them, the more my arms start to melt. .Then my legs melt. I pass out and wake up sometime later. I have my arms and legs back. I look at them and their backs are rotted. There are maggots and rats feasting on their flesh. I quickly flip all of them over to see if they are somehow alive. All of them are dead except for Ben. (boyfriend) He coughs up blood and looks at me. Just staring.. I touch his face and suddenly he tries to back away from me. He looks terrified and then he starts screaming at me. Screaming, "Look at what you did! You better run. They're here." Screaming it over and over again. I turn to run out of the door and it's no longer there. The hallway is back and it's filled with snakes and bugs. I try to walk through it, but halfway through it, I get bitten by a big, black snake with red eyes. He slithers up to me and says, "This is the price you shall pay!" I start floating away, looking down on my body. Watching Ben and the snake eating me. Then I wake up. I have had this dream 7 times in the past year. . I just don't know what to make of it.

Dreamt I was working at Dominos pizza (which I used to) except it was a huge mall like equivalent with separate stores for different things on the menu.
I was on my lunch break trying to find somewhere but I got lost and couldn't remember where in the mall it was so I was racing against time to find it before my lunch break ended.
I ended up leaving the store and scrambling around outside to get back before the end of lunch break, I seem to remember feeling like I was running but my legs were really heavy. At one point I was trying to run up a grass hill but was struggling and grabbing bits of grass so I wouldn't slip until I realised there were some wooden rungs nailed into the ground to help my grip.
I remember being back in the store with some co-workers, we'd sneaked off to steal some food from any left overs. I saw giant bacon burgers and pizza crusts and we were eating our fill when a manager came along and nearly caught us but we made it look like we were just preparing the food for customers!
The dream seemed to change after that and I was in a room with some people learning how to assemble the parts together for an Xbox 360. I also remember we seemed to be inventing something else important..The rest of the dream is very hazy and fragmented I can't fully recall or explain some of the details.

With some people i tried to move along some raile road tracks, but we moved in a sysem simular to a skilift, were you have to hold on to a kind of a stick which is attached to a rope, which is linked to the cable car. we had to hold us on those sticks, and we did pritty good, but then a difficult passage came, and the rope of my stick was not really strong enough, i worried that it might snatch and then i would fall down. so we were thinkering about to make it stable.

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i sat in the flat of a friend (a girl) i was waiting for her, so i think, i started to watch so porn of hers, not with her inside, but one which she had on her computer. it was kind of strange, a kind of bdsm porn, but in a weird way. in one scene, for example, a man in a car splashed some whater on a women walking on the sidewalk. however, i always had to close the porn because i though that someone came in and also, i wanted to watch my one porn. i was really aroused. then she came home and showed me a dress on her, and the dress was liftet so i could see her but, it was nice, i really wanted her.
in between i woke up frequently, and i thought about sex and arousal

I believe I had at least one or two more dreams, but I forgot to record them when I woke up from REM so I can only recall these two from this morning...

1. I can faintly remember being at school and fomr some reason I had my mp3 player. Then I sddenly became concerned with this huge know the headphones had become, and asked my college counseler to untangle it for me. To acieve this, he simply stared pulling as hard as he could, and then I promptly asked for my earbuds back before he could brake them

2. I was at the mall downtown outside the Chinses restaraunt. I had just come outside to get back on my bike and go home. Then I remember some idiot getting on my bike and somehow starting it ( i had the keys AND had locked it to the side) and trying to drive off! However, then he crashed into a nearby car. THen it was wierd because he kept on pushing the car, despite the bike being totally wrecked. He then tried running everyone in the parking lot over, but then the bike finally died.

Although I rarely curse in real life, in dreams for some reason the profanity just flies, so I remember running over and cussing him out saying "Man what the f***! THis bike only had 1100 miles on it!" And... "you a**h***!!!", etc... Anyways, then the cops showed up, arrested him, and that's all I remember.

11.04.2012

Finding Food for Erii (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I would've recalled a lot more if I decided to stay up a bit.

I think I'm wearing a white suit, similar to what Wu Jing wore in "Sha Po Lang" when he played as Jack.

I meet Erii, at least the previous avatar of the blue colored striped Umbreon she had.

I think Erii showed her human form as well, but she was wearing a black hoodie jacket with the hood over her face. I think she asked me to find some food for her. We were near at the front of a house near a cul-de-sac neighborhood, and it seemed to be either night time, or early morning.

I forget my response to her, but based on the series of events coming later on in the dream, I most likely replied to her that I'll help her out. I started to dash quickly, though I'm not sure of where I'm going. I pick up the pace, and realized I'm in a random city at night.

There's just blurred city lights everywhere, and for some reason, I feel like I don't belong here at all. In fact, I even feel like I'm supposed to be hiding from someone. I hear motorcycle sounds getting louder and louder, and out of reflex, I decided to just fall down on my stomach to avoid whatever it is that's coming to me.

Nothing bad happened, it's just a line of people riding motorcycles at 15-25 miles per hour, and they were fairly close to the sidewalk edge I had my body on top of. After that, the dream shifts, to where I think I probably went through a portal of some kind.

This same portal that's showing what's on the other side, there's a cafeteria.

Then I most likely thought, "Oh, this means I can find something for Erii to eat" (not really thinking it, just having the reflex to help her out coming back to my awareness, if that makes any sense?)

After I go through this portal, there's people circling around me, people that I knew during second to last High School I moved to during my whole high school years. Their faces are all too familiar, the same people I hanged around in the round table during high school are not making a circle around me.

It's too overwhelming, these were people I didn't know that much because I moved to different High Schools to since we needed to find better housings. They look at me, they have neutral expressions plastered on their visages.

This pisses me off for some odd reason, I look at one guy who looked like Shawn, if that's even his name. He looks just like him, the black hair with spiky ends in the front, wearing a white shirt, and regular black shorts. He just looks down on me while I'm sitting on the table.

I have to get out of here, these people who clearly knew I wouldn't talk to them in waking life (except for the females I hanged around with), and probably had mixed feelings of hanging out with them in lunch....I had to get out of here...quickly.

I launch myself off the table, and just ignored my peripheral vision, and continued moving forward, ignoring all those random people in my life that I never gave any concern over, realizing that I only was around them because I was insecure with sitting along in High School, especially with 100s of people my age who have the habit to glance over at anyone that would sit by myself.

Those feelings, those petty insecurities kept augmenting, I wanted to get out, I just wanted to get the hell out of there....I kept running...after that....I can't remember anything else. Those feelings made me forget why I came to that area in the first place, to get Erii some food.

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11.04.2012

Crab Rangoon and Random Commercials (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I take out a To-Go Box that looks like it was from an Asian Restaurant out from the fridge. I open it, and find all sorts of delicacies here.

There's a lot of Crab Rangoon, in huge sizes, at least compared to the waking life versions I get occasionally nowadays. There's Chicken and Fried Rice, but I pay most of my attention on the Crab Rangoon.

I plan to take all but two left inside the box, and apparently my mother is sitting on the round table I have in my apartment in waking life to the right. I'm ignoring her at the moment, or at least passively accepting her existence. I take a bite out of one Crab Rangoon, feeling the chewy texture of the cream and other contents.

I can't recall if I tasted anything, but whatever the outcome, I do know that I enjoyed eating it. I was planning to heat them up, but I literally ate them in a few bites each, they were that good I'm guessing. I asked my mother if she wanted the last two, and I believed she said I can have them.

I take the last two, eat them out, and now the dream shifts where I'm watching something on the T.V. I'm not even sure if this was a T.V., my laptop, or some kind of electronic device that acts like both.

I realized I'm sitting at the living room, and the light for it is turned off while the laptop/whatever it is gives off most of the light in that area. The kitchen to my right has the lights on, and my bicycle in waking life is practically gone in this dream.

The carpet is still the same, a really light brown color, and the walls have or are close to the color of the vanilla-covered walls in waking life.

The first commercial portrays Bill Maher, and he's wearing a Camelot type of knight outfit. Shiny Gray metal arm pods with a metal chain vest. He also wears a red cape, and he's holding a baby with both of his hands.

The baby is making a lot of farting sounds, and it starts to get annoying, and I was wondering if someone was making fake farting noises or something. A baby cannot shit or fart that much.....EWWWWWWWWWWWW.

Then there's another commercial with Bill Maher in a different situation, then another, and one more. A total of 4 commercials together that seemed to be different trailers for the same movie with him in it, though I can't recall the name of the movie that was going to show up at the end of each of them.

I can't recall much after that.

I was exploring this city that was mostly underwater. I can remember flying into the city, though I was not lucid. Then I walked through these causeways, entering though part of the city that was above water.
At first the causeways were kind of bland. They were two or three story rooms with concrete columns. I can remember walking past some construction workers, so I assumed that this was a new section of the city that was under construction. As I continued to walk, the hallways got more decorated with shops, like a shopping mall.
I eventually ran into this young man, and said to him in a woman's voice:
"I'm done exploring the shopping mall. Can we go now?"

Something related to the main dream. I can remember flying past a cargo port, where a crane was loading crates into a submarine. But the submarine was grey and red, like a ship, but had the shape of a missile or rocket. The cargo bay on the submarine closed. It submerged and pulled away from the port.

Something to do with me finding all of these toys by the side of the road. I can remember it being in a sunset, near a broad curve in the road. I started collecting them and putting them into a bag. Then someone pulled up in this black van and told me that the toys that I had been picking up were theirs. They thanked me and took everything that I had picked up.

I was looking out the window of an airplane as we were taking off. I think that I was laying my head on someone's lap. Not long after we got to our cursing altitude, the plane started descending. We must've crashed or something. I can remember washing up on the beach of a tropical island. I thought that I was still alive...
The words "game over" showed up written in white cursive in the middle of my field of view, as though my dreams followed video game rules.

Nov. 4, 2012
6:00am-7:00am

This dream had to do with school. I think the teachers of my classes were involved. There were also a lot of my classmates involved in the dream. All my friends ignored me.

I rejoined the boy scouts and I went to one event. I met a friend from school named Mn there. She didn't talk to me at all, ignoring me the entire time. At the boy scout event, the only thing I wanted to do was archery. I did really good at it.

I think why she didn't talk to me was because I lost all interaction with society: I lost all my friends, family, and acquaintances. I was a very lonely person.

Nov. 4, 2012
12:00am-6:00am

I was hanging out with some cool guys I found somewhere. They were in their teens. They skateboarded a lot. I went into a skateboarding race with some of them. I won the race. They also gave me some girl advice. They said that "if I wasn't giving 100% effort, I didn't get her."

I also went to a party somewhere. I don't know where it was, but I did almost get with a girl. I think the dream ended before I did. This might have been another dream, though.

This dream I barely went lucid at the very end, but it still counts i guess. I was in this guys house and he was setting up this fall out shelter in his basement that he was preparing for the apocalypse or something like that. So these people start coming in the front door and he says oh shit its immigration or something lol, nothing about the dream told me we were illegal immigrants but i think thats what he said. So we start running downstairs to the shelter and they start chasing us and we keep going down for about 5 floors through all these different rooms. Then once we finally get the shelters we put these big crates of food in the shelter and he puts in the code and closes the door. And I say hey whats the code because he locked me out but he doesnt respond. So I go out this sliding glass door to the outside when i get this hint that I'm in a dream, so I make this katana appear in my hand and thats when I'm near this bush thats under a porch. The main person chasing me is this boss, its this lady thats fit like a gymnast and she jumps down off the porch and i slice her head off with the katana, but the only thing thats left is her hair which looks like brown clay with little pieces of hair stuck to it.

I also had another dream where me and my brother were in someone elses house and there was cleaning maids there. Then we took off our shoes and walked down the hall and there was a bearded dragon that was much bigger than mine (i have one as a pet) and i was thinking why mine isn't as big as this. Thats all I remember before waking up.

Then I had a third dream, and I had just seen the movie sinister the night before. And all through the movie when i was watching it i was thinking id be carrying around a shotgun the whole movie. So Im in this hallway that looks like a room from Resident Evil 1 and I see one of my friends across the hallway so I walk towards them but there are a set of stairs in the middle and this small person with the mask of Mr. Boogie comes up the stairs and I blow it to the ground with a double barrel shotgun. Why am I using so many weapons in my dreams? pic related, its the guy I shot in my last dream with the shotgun

I'm at the doorstep of a pretty big house. The grass is bright green....the weather is great. And Limitless opens the door. We smile, and I gave her a half hug, and we had a slight conversation, and then her mother came out. She introduced me to her, and she was pretty cool. We walked inside and there was a party going on. The house had polished wood floors with white walls, and I remember seeing someone sanding on a ladder while pouring someone a shot. U was there too, and I was telling her how it had been so long since we last saw each other. Lim asked me what I wanted to drink, and I suggested vodka since I was pretty sure they didn't have any tequila. I don't think I ever got my drink, but I remember collecting all these sea creatures to place in a bag to keep. Later on I asked her if The Unknown was around because I wanted to meet him too. She said he was upstairs in her room. We headed up, and I woke up.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids


November 2, 2012

No aids, No WBTB

I took allergy meds and a little DayQuil so I was pretty zonked. I gave myself a break from inducing lucidity because I was not feeling well.

Party 5:21AM

I am parting with my cousin from Texas. There is pot everywhere. There was something about being stuck in a cage.

November 3, 2012

3MG Melatonin, 200MG B6, SSILD

11:22PM
I was camping with V and S. I read V's Facebook status about ready to break camp but there is a picture of her being home. S's says something about their kids.

12:33AM
I am playing Sega Genesis Shadowrun but its on XBOX Kinects. I do hand gestures to attack.

WBTB, 400MG B6, SSILD WILD

I can't focus much on SSILD and pass out rather quickly. I think next time I feel so sleepy I will just do a more traditional WILD tech. That or try to stay awake longer. The problem was I knew that I didn't have much time once I finally woke up for WBTB. I still feel pretty tired and lack sleep time.

4:46AM
Long dream about playing someones old Atari. The game turns into a real life adventure. I am attacking inanimate objects that are coming to life. I completely smash a broom stick and thought I won. I realized it was more about climbing levels and turning of the power.
I quit the game and hand the joystick back to a guy at looks like Leo (That '70s Show).

4:49AM
I wake up from a dream and My wife and I are at my ex's parents house. My wife's mom and my ex's mom leave to go shopping. My ex wife goes with them. I am sitting on the cough with my wife trying to remember if my ex just kissed me goodbye or not. I think she did and can't believe she would do that especially in front of my wife. My wife is not freaking out so I wonder. I feel really confused.

6:16AM
There is a horde of old people from the nursing home coming over a grassy hilltop. I notice they are all zombies. They begin to shoot rockets out of their eyes at me.

Last night was filled with many dreams.


1. I was watching a movie about this guy who had jumped out of an airplane in outer space to skydive to another planet. Then the rest of his team followed him and they all began freefalling down this very long chasm and then just kind of hovered near the bottom. THen they all of a sudden they got bound by these mystical ring things that wouldnt let them go, and then out of no where a bunch of tentacle things broke through the wall, impaled everyone, and then ripped them apart. I remember in the dream though saying the special affects were horrible. Anyways, then there was the main landing party on the surface and they suddenly heard static over the radio. Then the creatures broke through the surface of the planet and grabbed everyone else and smashed / ripped them as well. Weirdly, there was this one lady though who had pepper spray and this for some reason warded off the aliens when nothing else would.
The aliens were really wierd cause they were these fat women, but they could run really fast. Annyways, they kept chasing this one lady until she went and hid under a truck or something and one of the aliens had sympathy and guarded her.

2. Someone wanted to watch this zombie movie so I went and started it for them.

3. Another video game dream with Sonic and Eggman in it. Can't remember what was going on

4. I was at a Runza restaraunt. I finished eating and went outside. Then this really wierd guy with a backpack started trying to open my trunk when I got in and jack my car or something. I immediately started it and backed up, sending him flying. Then I drove out of the parking lot and began merging onto the highway and calling the police.

5. I had been invited to a friend's birthday party through Steam and we were all gonna go to a disco thing, although that is the LAST place I would imagine my actual friends going. Anyways, then about 10 random friends came online and then another one invited me to thier birthday party. We all went to the second friends house and then I was holding this foam thing and they were all throwing baseballs at it. Then we were all randomly at this park and there was a big cannon in the middle shooting HUGE lacrosse balls at everyone.

6. I was checking the job opportunities for Sega of America website, and they had filled 3 of ther 7 open positions overnight.