non-lucid

Before sleep: noticing sleep sensations

Total sleep time: 7hrs

Dream recall method: dr1- wrote down a few sentences and went over dream 2 times in mind before falling asleep; fragments – no method, had to wake up

HH1: unconsciously talk thinking to myself about some DV post

HH2: was dream thinking how hard it is for a woman to go out with a man in some restrictive countries

Dream1: I was at grandma2, and backpack was on the floor wide open. I noticed how many strange objects were there. We were about to go to the mountains and I was happy about that. I was thinking what to bring to read there, some magazine perhaps.

Now we are in the outskirts of the mountain, near a bus stop. I have most likely forgotten to go up the mountain and am heading back home instead. There are people on the bus stop and without any notice a dog bites my back. I do not feel any pain but I am tightly grabbed by its jaws, it doesn’t let go. I start thinking out loud why it attacked me, I wasn’t mentally provoking it in any way. I try to negotiate my way out of its grab, by talking to the dog. It eventually releases me.

I am at the lower part of the mountain where there are houses around. I head down a slope, but as I look at it, I see the shore. This turns into a very beautiful scene, where I am looking at a wonderful array of sea cliffs, the waves slowly clashing against the cliffs. I look at the sky and it is clear blue, the sun is shining on the cliffs and they look fantastic. I feel the urge to go as close to the water as possible. The waves, though, wet some cliffs so I decide not to go that far because it is slippery there. There are lots of people watching the sea and cliffs, some take pictures. Just behind me is the city hall and the female mayor, short dark red-brown hair comes to tell us that pictures are forbidden. An unpleasant DC man continues taking pics even photographs me. Soon two guards come and take everybody to a bus to drive them home or just drop them off somewhere. I want to go back to the beautiful place, so when the bus doors open I escape and go back. At this point the sun is already setting and the cliffs are darker. There are no people around so I still tour around looking at the shore. The guard comes back to pick me up again. We are walking somewhere but he has a sudden surge to visit the restroom, so I say that I will be waiting outside.



Fragment2: I am with my bf in a café maybe. But then I decide to go somewhere else, on my way I decide to go back. I get really confused in this unknown to me city center. The dream was quite vivid and I had a hard time orienting and even crossing the street where there were cars but no traffic lights. I cannot find the place I was initially in, so I try calling my bf. I end up in some nice looking hotel, preparing to have lunch there. I am not a guest of the hotel, but can use its facilities including having lunch there.

Fragment3: Another confusing walk. Initially I found the restroom but go out and try to go back. I am in this building complex and go round in circles, always ending up in something like a café, but I can’t find the restroom, I begin to feel completely lost in this maze.

Fragment4: Some kind of embroidered patches with animated characters. What was peculiar about this embroidery was that it kept on moving even after you sew it on clothes.

Fragment5: This was supposed to be a friend of mine, but it was a completely another person, with short hair and bright red thin lips. She has some kind of red medallion, which looked like a soft cotton Christmas toy.

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End-of-the-month review

Days since registered at DV: 19

March LD before DV reg: 1 DILD

March LDs after DV reg: 1 semi-lucid; 2 DILDs (both snooze type), pretty long and stable

Dream recall: fluctuating between very detailed dreams to remembering fragments and noting key words.

DJ: I am content that I have kept a pretty consistent DJ in the last few weeks


Things to continue working on:

- RC: start the day with RC; RC every time I meet a person!

- DS: add toilet to DS

- Sleep sensations: to increase general awareness and prepare for WILD

- WILD: I have to organize myself and make serious attempts at least twice a week?

- Sleep schedule: go to bed on time


Challenges:

- Disruptions: Unfortunately 2 guests will come in mid April in our apartment for 3 weeks full time, so I guess at that time my dream quests will be harder to follow.

- Negativity: sometimes I would wake up and think “No LD again", feeling disappointed. This has got to stop. Think instead, “The next LD is just around the corner” “I enjoy what I am doing and am happy with any dreams I can recall”.

- Laziness: just keep on writing DJ entries and doing RCs!!!

terrible recall tonight

1. i am working on a group project with unfamiliar people. we are in the auditorium of my elementary school. we are on laptops and we are running a program with a neon green and red on black colour scheme. there is some anxiety associated with this dream.

2. i am waiting for the bus in the snow with an unfamiliar girl. the atmosphere is very bleak.

3. i cannot remember anything about this dream except that i became lucid at one point! i simply realized that the circumstances of the situation were unrealistic and deduced that it was a dream. sadly my lucidity faded very quickly -- before i could do anything of interest.

4. false awakening. i am in bed in my room: very tired and disoriented. windows 7 error messages pop up and disappear constantly, obstructing my vision. i wonder if i am dreaming but decide that i am not. i am afraid that i am going insane.

Sunday 3/31/13
Bed 12:30 am

WBTB 6:12am - 8:30am

Cup of tea from peppermint tea and mint with green tea for iced tea.

woke up from 20 min long WILD at 10:10am

Regular DR 1- 2:30am - I'm walking down a hospital hallway, all happy, because if I can turn in a resume with lucid dreaming on it, I can work there helping people by teaching them LDing. (IWL, before bed, thinking if LD/OBE would help patients by trying to heal themselves/aura)

Regular DR 2 - 6:12am - I'm in a camp, packing, looking through every shelf and cabinet, not to leave anything behind.
- Then I'm walking through empty hall with a small girl. Someone is after us. I'm about to exit, when girl decides to pout and goes into one room. I feel they are about to get us and yell at her to follow me right now. Too late. Young woman is grabbing her.

I'm comming towards the camp in a car someone else is driving. At the fork in the road, we go to the right, but realize camp is to the left. To the right is something else.

I'm comming to the fork in the road again, I'm driving. I take the wrong right turn again but realize it and make a u-turn. At the camp, trying to blend in so bad guys don't recognize me. In cafeteria, cutting in line with a gun. Getting some steak pieces, masched and roasted potatoes for a kid.

Bad guy follows me on the street where I ran away. I yell at people to call the cops, but they can't hear me. Finally someone does and a female cop in light shirt shows up. I rpotect her from one guy, but another one shots her.

WBTB - while watching TV to get sleepy, I felt my legs getting relaxed pretty quickly. I knew it's gonna be a good one.
Mantra - when I see my room, I get up; when I see something, I touch it.

Listened to W. Buhlman's youtube interview on KOST 101 after dark (or something like that)

I started out on my back and turned to left side when vibrations were already happening. It didn't stop them. I moved my attention from vibrations in one knee to another, and they seemed to be stronger in the knee I had my attention on.

WILD - I suddenly realize I can see my room and I think to myself, that I don't need to wait any longer for a clue this will do. So I just get up and walk away.

I notice I'm only wearing socks. I'm hovering and gliding just few inches above ground. I know I have the desire to walk and to feel the ground so my LD is more stable, so I touch down and walk. I notice, that walking feels very realistic.

I recognize the house as mine and I'm happy. (it's not mine IWL) I walk through few doors in direction i know I should be going. I fly out and as the building stays behind me, a view to georgeous valley opens up. It's vibrant with green grass and houses. The beauty of it literally takes my breath away and I gasp for air. (Thank you, I have not had this feeling in a while and I really love it)

Now I'm talking to 2 teenagers on the patio of hotel or restaurant, same valley. I ask them if they lucid dream. Guy has a thick accent and there is a lots of noise, so I don't hear his questions or answers. But I do hear when he asks if you can go to restroom in LD. I tell him you can, but it's not satisfactory activity. It feels real, but you don't get satisfaction as if you empty your bladder IWL.

I'm in a cafeteria of a school. As I walk by a little boy, I notice a tasty aroma. I look back and he is eating some kind of a rice crispy bar. From writing on a box I assume it's something ethnic for the Easter holiday. I want to know where I coud buy some. Teacher takes the cookies out of the box and gives me the box. I'm pleased that there are some dark and light crumbs left, and I eat them. They taste good.

I'm asking this teacher and a few other people, if they know we are in a dream. I say, well, I'm lucid, and you are dreaming.

I'm outside. I remember the zooming trick I read about a few days ago. I look up and try to zoom myself to the moon. I raise my arms up and move them to zoom myself. (same way you zoom in and out from pictures on iphone - spreading or bringing closer your fingers/arms) But it's not working. I notice an island in the skies, something like in avatar, but this one is long and flat, full of greens. I think I'm getting closer to it.

I'm in a room with 2 guys and I'm seducing them, but I don't want it to look like it.

Ok, this was my single longest LD. Pretty good control and kept awareness by saying mantra before and during LD "I'm aware". Was able to make a decision to walk instead of fly, and got to talk to DCs again. Happy as can be.

03.31.2013

Spiders and Chainsaws and Fairies, oh MY! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

In my back yard at night, two of the giant spider people who live in the forest come to pay me a visit. They tell me that I am "invited" to play a game with them tonight. I must survive in the forest until sunrise to win the game. If I decide not to play, there will be serious consequences. They show me a vision of an innocent looking butterfly-girl being tied up in webs. I intuitively know that this vision represents a person I care about being taken by the spider people if I refuse to participate.

I go out and by the brightest flashlight that I can find, because the spider people are weak against light. This will be my only protection against a race of beings who can blend perfectly into the shadows and see in the dark like it's nothing. "I'm totally screwed," I mutter to myself as I head back to my house.

I would really like to find someone to come with me to play the "game," but everyone is too busy. (There is some kind of adventuring Guild at my house that I am a part of.) I come across Cheyenne in one of the back rooms and briefly consider asking her to join me, but I realize that I'd only be putting her in danger and that she is likely the person the Spiders will take from me. I've got to do this alone.

As I head out, a Werewolf who is part of the guild (and possibly an old character of mine from high school) asks me to go on a really important quest for him. I say that I will, but I have to play the Spider's game first.

When I get out in the forest, I hide myself under a tree and wait. After a few minutes of nothing happening, I get bored and decide to leave. ((So apparently it wasn't that important after all...?))

I take up my werewolf friend's quest and head out with my brother and my dad down the back road. It is a two part quest: part of it involves something deep in the forest, and part of it involves killing the daughter of a very important man in a village not far from here. We decide to deal with the girl first.

The gravel road should lead directly to the village, but there is a big red truck parked in a nearby field with two sentries. Our first plan is to sneak by unnoticed. We begin crawling low to the ground, but are spotted anyway. We stand up quickly as the truck approaches us. Time for plan B.

Before the two men in the truck can ask questions, I put on a stupid expression and point down the road. "We were wondering where this road leads to," I say amiably. I can see that the driver believes us not to be a threat.

"Oh, just follow us," he says and drives slowly down the gravel road. We follow for a short distance, until he stops just before the village and gets out. "I'll show you around, he says."

His passenger gets out as well. He is a GIGANTIC man with a chainsaw, which he revs threateningly. I am concerned about this one, but I play my part of the oblivious traveler.

The two men take us through the village, showing us different shops and various important people here. The man with a chainsaw follows at a distance, ready to cut us to bits at any moment.

At one point, my companions and I step just outside of the village to have a brief talk. There, we find a Fairy Ring. We stand in the middle of the ring. One of the people with me ((no longer my dad and brother, my companions kept changing throughout the dream)) says that this is a good sign and that we must ask the Goddess for her blessing in order to complete our quest. Suddenly fairies begins swirling around us, emitting a beautiful light. They swirl up to the very heavens, where we can see a vision of the Goddess smiling down at us. She sends the light back, even more beautifully than before, and tells us that we have her blessing.

We return to the village and have audience with the leader. We are hoping to gain knowledge of where his daughter is. I am sent looking for the leader's missing shoe, which I accidentally step on. An evil skeleton wraith lunges up from the shoe and starts attacking me. I shatter it to pieces, dispelling the spirit. Apparently we had needed this spirit for something, and the leader tells me he can not bring it back.

I wake up shortly afterward.

This dream was on dreaming again. It took place in some sort of board room filled with official people. I was not there, just observing like a movie, not an actor. The officials could have been judges or moderators, or they could have been consciences of DV members, or different representations of the one God.:

The discussion seemed to be a decision making debate, where the consequences of the decision would matter / make an actual difference / change. The discussion's topic was whether dreams should be limited or unlimited. It appeared that a recent development meant that a prior decision needed to be re-examined, whether it needed to be changed.

31/3/13 Same conditions as last night -.- I recorded my voice this morning instead of writing it out.

I started heading to a rec centre/youth club with my friends Emma and Aaron to go a an old friend called Josh. I was dreading it as I had two pieces of paper that contained information about me and Josh that I had typed up (rather similar to a diary entry) on a website.

Once inside, we all sat down and Josh started saying that I needed to remove the diary entry as he would never ask me out, I had written that we were dating. I was crushed. Aaron took his side speaking to me as if he was my father; telling me off severely.
Soon after I left in hysterics, felling humiliated (I know even the dream version of me is a drama queen).

Suddenly, I was on my way to a biology lesson with my friend Charlie and this kid Evan from school. Evan was being loud so this scary teacher came to tell him off whilst me and Charlie ran too our separate lessons. The assistant teacher of this lesson was taking our names and when I told him he spelt my name wrong he answered "Sometimes people get names wrong, even yours" I sat at the desk still feeling sad.

Recall massively improved from last night, dream signs are emerging.

Teal = Awareness dream sign
Purple= Context dream sign

Speaker was male, no clue who:
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"But if we eliminate dreaming, what effective approach would we use instead?"
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I'm in a house I've never been in, standing near a girl I don't know. We are in a kitchen. The girl walks up to me with a small, glass teapot. She holds it out to me. I take it from her and immediately start drinking. It's filled with warm, sweet tea. I drink every last drop and lick as much of the inside as I can reach. Once I'm done, I turn around to the kitchen sink, turn on the faucet and begin to rinse the teapot. The girl walks up next to me with a few more in her hands. I finishing rinsing and place the pot on a towel on my other side. As I set the pot down, the handle breaks off. I panic for a second, but instantly I calm down and rinse a new teapot that the girl hands to me. "That always happens," she says. "You have to be more gentle with them." I nod slightly in agreement and we rinse off the rest of the teapots.

Yay for another decent length lucid dream, and once again it's WILD from a dream.

Only thing i can recall from non-lucid part is that i was at home and i was WILDing.
I wake up and take off headphones, confirming that i am dreaming, i get up and the dream becomes very unstable, i start rubbing hands and dream becomes more stable, but still not fully stable, i go to balcony, on the way i imagine time of day changing and it rapidly changes to night then back to the day, i start touching the door frame and concentrating on that, dream fully stabilizes. I jump and and glide in the air, i start feeling wings but for some reason i have trouble moving vertically, which prevents me from flying through the doorway. I drop back to the floor and jump again, i feel wings again and this time flight works properly. I fly through the balcony doorway, but instead of balcony there are some other rooms, i quickly navigate through them and find true balcony doorway. I fly outside.
I fly straight and then slightly to the right, i am flying even faster than previous time. Near trees i attempt to increase that speed even more, but end up zooming my view in instead somehow. Surprised, shortly i restore view back to normal and continue flying beyond trees. I reach different area, finally it's non-city dreamscape! There are hills, various trees and river. There are also bridges connected by cobble roads and DCs are roaming around. I decide to try to do transformation into a dragon again using method that worked before, with visualizing and shouting 'Dragon Form!', but once again i can only manage to transform hands, black scales appear on left hand and green on right hand, as well as claws, and fade out shortly. I do a couple more attempts while flying along the river, on the third attempt i have a bit more success, i get red scales on left hand and black on right hand, and this time they look more detailed, have more vivid feel and last longer. I fly around some more and eventually i get distracted by some DCs and transformation disappears as well. I can't recall much for a while other that we went to assault some enemy DCs.
Eventually we get into some sort of treehouse where enemy commander resided, the team beaten him up but all the fight destabilized the treehouse and it was barely balancing. After some balancing attempts it ends up completely upside down and everyone falls onto the ceiling. There are wasps. Lots of wasps. Hundreds of wasps. They sting me and somehow get into my mouth while i was trying to get up, i feel a bit of pain but not much. I suddenly remember what i was doing and fly out of the house, which falls. There are hills around and a few trees, and there are wasps absolutely everywhere, a whole swarm of them. I fly around while spitting out the wasps that got into my mouth, then i concentrate energy and imagine healing and pain goes away. I also try to breath fire at wasps, without transformation, but that fails too, though i think i ended up scaring them off and they shortly go away.
I fly back to the river area, looking around for something interesting, but after a while, suddenly, dream instantly changes the palette and instantly destabilizes, i rub hands but dream destabilizes again, time stops for a bit and it screws up my flight, so i end up falling to the ground.
On the ground i look around, there's female DC right near me, looking at me. I ask her 'You again?' even though i didn't meet her before, but in dream i was pretty sure i did( ). Shortly dream fades out.
I wake up and get distracted, because everyone is watching movies in my room for whatever reason. Shortly i wake up properly with some heavy hypnopompic hallucinations that someone is still watching movies in my room, which lasts for a few seconds, making me do a bunch of RCs.

Back in history class, with no teacher in charge, the dream is just beginning.

The sun is out and shining, but there is hardly anyone around. I'm seated somewhere in the classroom and remember looking up at the board. This scene has got to be my dream sign! There was no teacher around, so I wasn't sure what to do. I do remember walking outside for a while but there is like almost nothing I can recall.

The dream began changing places. I was now standing next to the ocean, right next to a Minecraft biome. There was spruce trees but I found no snow around. At the time, I was asking for someone's help, a moderator's help. Their name was Netsui. I sent them a message but accidentely wrote out, "/hoe", somewhere in the sentence. I apologized after, even when I felt that Netsui was useless as a moderator(most of their staff really don't know what's going on in the server, they help keep taking great stuff out from the game itself too).

I later entered a scene where I found many friends and strangers. I also had vivid thoughts about some of their pasts. This area looked a lot like docks, but it also looked like an area where it was always trashy and no one bothered to clean up any of it. I was walking around a corner and found another server player. I walked up to him. As I was following him, I saw him break a chest placed under a tree and there was a lot of materials that popped out of the chest. There were redstone, lapis, and about 5 or 6 eyeballs. These eyeballs were usually used to scare people, so I decided to use them on one of the residents in town.

I walked up to a two story home next to the docks and slowly approached one male. I gave him one of the eyeballs and asked him if he could show this eyeball to the first person who knocks on the door. I also gave another eyeball to a kid walking in front of me. These eyeballs scared the hell out of me, though, they didn't scared anyone else.

After ding dong ditching some residents in town, there was a new place I wanted to explore. I wanted to go in to the building located in the back corner of this small little town. Upon entering, I found one of my cousins laying back in one of the apartments. She was pregnant at the time(no, it wasn't me). My mother, who was in the building at the time, agreed to have her stay here a few nights, to accustom the baby's needs. I also noticed a back window in this room. I don't remember anything after looking through it.

I walked up stairs to search the rest of the rooms. I entered the second floor, finding only detailed information about some of the people I met sometime in this dream. One of them was a woman. She had red hair, looked really old but used make up to hide it, and she looked a lot like one of the staff from the school I am currently attending. These thoughts that I had about her, I was placing her on a hated part in the mind. When I thought of her, I saw her working for the gaming industry, being successful in all that stuff. It was the only idea I had about her. It's probably jealousy but, my jealousy isn't towards her. It's someone whom I hold closer to the spear of love and hate.

All I remember is doing a RC (pinching nose and breathe), it worked! That's all I remember haha

The dream started with a couple in a bed,they slowly started to turn into half human,half monkey creatures,like those in Ape Planet. The wife started to get really hungry,and then the focus changed to a street,lots of those monkeys wandering off,eating rats and what they could find.

Then I was following a group,they were at first in a mall or store,but settled down in a box shaped boat made of metal. They decided to look for supplies on the store,got them and killed two old man that were trying to kill us. My mother also fell from a tube we got to enter.
The group sometimes had my family and myself on it,along with a woman with a young child,a young girl,a guy that looked a lot like Andrew Lincoln,a guy that looked like Rupert Grint and a girl that looked like Odette Yustman.
The Odette lookalike complained with the Rupert lookalike how all of the women thought she was a diva.

I had a LOT of trouble falling asleep, possibly due to weaning myself off of decaf (which still has a very small amount of caffeine in it).

I dreamed I was roaming around Seattle, only Seattle had grown to the size of New York and a lot of the buildings were in ruins. I was on my way somewhere with my brother and mother and traffic was so heavy that we couldn't get onto the main road at all... it just didn't let up. We were in a parking lot and mom announced we were leaving, but she and my brother left without me.

I had a black pickup truck, though, and I tried to drive that out of the parking lot. I ended up driving into an area that was nothing but steep inclines and loose gravel, and I couldn't keep my truck from sliding all over the place, so I got out of it and slung it over my shoulder so I could try to climb up the hill.

The whole place (which was inside of an alleyway) was full of archaeological digs, but they were all digging up stuff like old dog tags and license plates. I accidentally blundered through one of the digs and then found my way in through some tunnels to a hidden homeless shelter. I asked a woman there how to find my way back onto the street and she told me I had to navigate back through the dig site, or through the building we were in, which was full of labyrinthine hallways.

I decided this sucked and did a non-lucid rewind back to the parking lot. This time, I got into the truck with mom and my brother BEFORE mom pulled out of the parking lot.

Things got blurry. I was no longer in a truck, I was in a white car with a broken window. My friend A__ was driving. It was difficult for him to drive and steer because one of the wheels was missing a tire. I had a large kitchen knife with me, and I had it in my hand and was dangling it out the window. Part of the road was made of paper, so I was running the edge of it along the road.

I thought maybe that wasn't a good idea, though, so I hid it under the car seat as we passed a group of squad cars. Suddenly, everything was dark, like it was nighttime, and we were explaining to the cops what we were doing in the parking lot.

I was no longer with A__. I was with the Doctor from Dr. Who and we were running through the city on some sort of mission... I don't remember. I woke up.

Dream 1(fragment):

I recall outdoors area of some kind.

Dream 2:

There was bar on the moon and various cartoon characters were gathering and hanging out there, i recall some cats, dogs and mouses, possibly Tom&Jerry among everyone else too, some were entering the bar right in the cars since there was special entrance. Many were having fun in the bar, some were getting drunk, there were a couple of gentlemen which were mostly talking to each other. Others were here to search for female counterpart. Some were just watching others from their cars. But in the end, many got drunk and there was massive fight, then dream skipped.
I was on the moon and i was controlling a tank, which looked similar to M1A1 Abrams, except black colored, and there were some more tanks on my side and we were attacking enemy base, which looked like a big rectangular building. While others were distracting enemy tanks i found a safespot near base that was not guarded by stationary turrets and was out of sight of enemy tanks and was shooting the building, tank's projectiles looked like graphically enhanced version of shockwave from Warcraft 3, part by part i was bringing the base down and shortly i had to move since safespot was exposed after destruction of part of building. But in the end we destroyed the base and we were retreating back to our own base.
In the base i was writing some dream journal entry for some reason, and it was about hiding from something, then dream ended.

Saturday 3/30/12 Bed 1am - 9:30am

DR 1 - It was long and very detailed.
I was walking around town with someone. We have a destination in mind and are in a hurry. We are tired from the long walk. Taking shortcut, but turns out it's and entrance to movies, so have to backtrack.

I come to a indoor swimming pool. Roof is not covering the entire area, so it's kinda indoor - outdoor pool. There is a walkway around the pool, made out of tiles. Pool is separated into 2 parts, 1 larger and 1 smaller. I walk around. Lots of people in the water, that looks like ocean size of a pool.

I see dark shadow with some white patch. It's a great white shark and I start yelling at people to get out. But there is lots of noise and they can't hear me. I keep yelling, telling people on shore to yell, looking for a lifegueard.

Then there is another shadow. They are coming closer to people and swimming all around. I squat and now I can see as if I was in the water. I see one shark coming to surface and grabbing a toy pail. He dragges it with him. People still oblivious. I keep yelling until i think the start noticing and come out.

Now the shark made it into the adjacent pool through some opening, and since one pool was higher than the other, I cann hear him splash as he dropps to the second pool.

DR 2 - Very long and very detailed.
I'm in a house with people that owe me money. I know they can't pay me, so it surprises me, when he says "here is $500" and gives me cash and gift cards. I start looking at it to count and see one gift card is for $9. Then the woman starts counting them.

Now i'm on the run from there. Going through open areas and other houses, keeping out of sight.

3. dream just before I woke up can't recall at all.