non-lucid

[COLOR="red"]Lucid [/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I had a dream of me playing StarCraft II. But when I started to play, everything started to run much faster.
My opponent could for some reason keep up with that pace and then he smashed me with his army.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="slategray"]I woke up and saw that I had forget to turn the volume up on my Iphone so I had overslept one hour.
So I had to spend 7 minutes on fixing the timer setup on my Iphone app, but everytime I changed something on the Iphone it changed back, so I even thought I was dreaming, but I was just so tired that I messed up the buttons.
When I was done I got right back to sleep.

The alarm woke me up 4 times (8+4+8+12=32 minutes) but when I got the feeling agains I gave up and moved...

I then started to have a pretty vivid dream[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I dreamt that the characters from "How I met your mother" was going to be my new neighbours.
I got really happy and excited, then Robin comes and say that she hated this neighborhood and that made everyone to change their mind. For some weird reason I went down to hug Lily before they went away. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="slategray"]I woke up and thought damn I want to have my fourth lucid dream, I have to go back to sleep.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I had a dream about me having a dog and it was so cute, then I don't remember exactly because this was just a fragment when I woke up the next time.[/COLOR]
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I woke up and remembered a fragment of a dog, and were still dissapointed that I didn't had my fourth in a row.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]Then I had a really vivid dream about me and my friend talking on Skype, but I can't remember what we talked about...[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I woke up and thought "That's it I can't, maybe I have a normal dream today and a lucid tomorrow no biggie" and I fell asleep.
This next dream was so vivid, and that is why I remember this one the best.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="blue"]I was standing in a arena, and all my friends that I have known through out the years was standing on a blue square with a white circle on it. We were jumping sideways on the edges of this circle, and had foam balls to throw at each other, like a wierd version of the game I used to do in school on sports. Then I got the ball and throwed it at a guy next to me and he said "no you can't throw it on people near you it has to be someone far away from you. And they were far aware from me right, I almost needed binoculars to see them, I took the ball and aimed to a girl but the ball bounced in the ground 10 times before it reached her. And that didn't count. Then everybody just walked away except me and 4 others. So they said ok new rules you can only throw the ball at someone next to you, so now you have to run![/COLOR] [COLOR="royalblue"]I ran really quickly I run so fast that I was almost touched to ground with my ear in the curves.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="royalblue"]Then I also went out of there, and opened a door and was inside a squash room,[/COLOR] [COLOR="red"]and there from nowhere I just realised that I was dreaming! I got excited, too excited... I said to a girl that I saw "What?!, yes! yes! I am dreaming! [/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]and I woke up... still counts as a fourth to me :) [/COLOR]

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I was in a hallway in school with one of my teachers. I made her angry and she quipped she was going to hit me. I said "I like a girl who can beat me up" so I pulled up my shirt and she thrusted two fists into my stomach I could feel it and told her to do it again and again. After that I left with my mate and we went out, as usual I had my chewing gum and we walked past some people who were spittin barz (rapping) then we went around to look for our friends.

We couldn't find them, then I thought that we should try the back playground to see if they're playing football. As we walked to the back playground one of my classmates was spitting barz I can't remember what he said be he said something about "doing it". I turned around and said "It's true, he's not faking". He was going into music club or something.

We entered the back playground and there they were playing football my friend had just booted the ball down the pitch and another friend was in chase, the goalkeeper was about to pick up the ball when the chasing person slide tackled the keeper. I said out loud as I laughed "He just tackled his own player" when he kicked the ball it bounced and then came backwards, everyone was like "OOOOOOHHHHHH" I was thinking "He didn't do it on purpose."

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

[Last night, I had probably the longest and certainly the most highly lucid dream I've ever had. I'm writing this at the end of the day. I tried to recall this dream as best I could upon waking, and I made some handwritten notes, but by now, although I remember the highlights of the dream, I've forgotten what order they went in and how I moved from one to the other. This is my best attempt to reconstruct the whole, long sequence, but some of these are most likely not in the correct order. I do remember that I consciously chose to move from one activity to another in the dream, though.]

I’m in a large room with a really cool indoor playground in it. I observe that they’ve added more decorations and more play elements to the playroom since the last time I was there: there is now a long chain with brightly-colored wooden blocks in various shapes (cylinders, hexagons, and others) threaded onto it hanging across the ceiling, and there are more things to climb and play on. I climb up one of the climbing walls, along with another girl. We press against each other as we climb it.

Later, elsewhere in the same room, I’m looking at my reflection in a mirror. I notice that my neck looks strange, and tilt my head back to see. I see that my neck appears to have been replaced with a shiny, silver metal bar that appears to be a piston. This causes me to realize that I’m dreaming. I pinch my nose to confirm and find that I can still breathe. The familiar sensation pleases me, and I'm very happy to be in a lucid dream. I have a slightly higher degree of lucidity than I've ever had before.

I go outside the building. There is a grassy lawn outside it. I have a discussion of systems for play and discovery with MA [a real-life friend and colleague] and another dream character.

I then decide to explore a bit. I walk away from the large building and head toward another complex of buildings that appears to be an elementary-school campus. As I start walking, I say to myself, “Again, why am I walking when I can fly?” So I start flying over there. I find a party in progress on the far side of the elementary-school campus, where there are some picnic tables. People are hanging out and drinking beer. I obtain a pint glass for myself, but leave it sitting around on or near one of the walls as I wander away.

I see the entrance to a mall, and enter it.

I fly up into the air to get an overview of the area. From up here, I can see that the town I'm in is on the ocean and has a beach. I think, That makes sense. Oceans and beaches are part of my schema for what a broad overview of an area of land should look like, because of where I grew up.

I'm walking along a rolling dirt path. While walking, I eat yogurt out of a plastic cup with a metal spoon. It's raspberry-flavored and smooth and creamy, and it tastes exactly like real yogurt. Then, I find a handful of coins that someone has dropped on the side of the path, along with a bronze medallion. The medallion has some text inscribed on it that says the name of the country I'm in and what the medallion was awarded for. [I don't remember what it said now, although I could definitely read it in the dream, and the country name wasn't the name of any real country.] The coins are all common U.S. coins, but there's also a fifth coin, a brass-colored one that's shaped like a little house [a square shape with a pointy roof]. I pick all these items up.

I wake up in a car with MA, JL, and one other friend. One of them is driving, and I'm in the back seat. I remember that I had just been dreaming, and pinch my nose. Yep. Still dreaming.

While exploring the grassy, park-like area outside the building I started in, I spot a silver, metal, quarter-spherical shape rising up out of the ground. I say, “Ooh!” because I see an opportunity here. The structure is roughly the same shape as the baseball backstop I once fantasized about flying to the top of [see my DJ entry dated April 28, 2011], even though it's solid silver rather than chain-link, and it's maybe two-thirds to half the size of the real one. I take off and fly to the top of it, stopping myself by grabbing hold of the top edge of the hollow quarter-sphere with my hands and then swinging myself up onto it, so that I'm sitting at the top with my lower legs dangling over the edge. I'm facing a crowd of DCs standing on the ground, one of whom is a burly man who flashes me a thumbs-up sign. I proudly declare, “I'm the coolest kid in school!” The DCs seem to approve, but then they start flooding into the hollow space inside the quarter-sphere, filling the space and causing the structure to tip over backward. I climb off as it slowly tilts over, unhurt.

Having accomplished both the old goal of flying to the top of the backstop [well, sorta] and my other goal of trying dream food, I say aloud, “Okay, chores over. Time to have fun.” I fly up and let the wind carry me away.

The dream fades, and I find myself lying down. I try to move my arm, but judging by the feel of it, I realize, No, that's my real arm! I don't want to do that! [Whether or not this was actually true, I couldn't say for sure, but it sure felt like it was at the time.] After a brief moment of feeling stuck in that position and trying to figure out how to get back to exploring the dream world, I roll over and fall out of my bed. I think, Wow, that actually works! I quickly determine that I'm back to the lucid-dreaming state, and remind myself that all that's around me only exists inside my mind, as I read in EWOLD.

I'm looking at a different, grassy lawn. There is a little red demon thingy growing out of the grass. He has red roots that run all over the surface of the lawn. I have a magic sword, so I hold it out, wondering if it'll help and what I can do with it. The demon takes the sword and kills himself by using the sword to sever all his roots. When he and his roots have all disappeared, a small chair rises up out of the plus-sign-shaped hole in the ground where he had just been. It is a reward for my defeat of the demon. I take the chair and carry it with me as I fly back over to the party, which is still in progress.

When I get there, I use the chair to help me grab onto some structure to arrest my motion and land. Flying is easy, but stopping is hard, I think. I can't find the glass of beer I left there earlier, but I decide it's no big loss. I take my chair and sit down at the corner of one of the portable tables that are set up in the party area. I'm facing the outside wall of the elementary-school complex. Up against the wall I'm facing is another table with a clear pitcher of beer on it.

There is another handful of coins on the table near me – again, standard U.S. coins, all of them shiny and brand-new, plus the odd house-shaped coins I saw before. I decide to swallow some of them, because I know I can't do any harm to my real body by doing so. I see another girl at my table doing the same. It feels good. I can feel them going down my throat, but the sensation seems to be weaker than would be realistic, which isn't surprising, since I haven't actually done this in reality [and certainly never will]. After swallowing a few coins, I decide I want more beer to go with them, so I get up and get myself another cup. The beer is cold and rich and flavorful; it tastes exactly how I like my beer to taste.

I've run out of coins, but I still want more. I cup my hand, place it on the table palm side down, look away, and think about what I want to have happen. I feel little pops under my hand, like bursts of compressed air, as more coins pop into existence. Then I feel the coins themselves against my hand as the pile grows. I remove my hand and continue swallowing coins. I'm very pleased that I've suddenly become so good at summoning objects.

My dad is sitting right next to me, at the end of the table, so his chair is perpendicular to mine. He sees me swallowing coins and absolutely freaks out. He recoils from me in disgust, asking me, “What are you doing?” I simply respond, in an “it's not a big deal” tone, “It won't hurt my dream body.”

Then I woke up for real and waited while the last of the SP faded away, concentrating on remembering all that I'd dreamed about. I was very pleased to have accomplished so much and to have been lucid for so long. [In fact, I got to check two goals off the big list in my profile today: trying dream food and summoning an object. ]

My memory picks up whilst I am in a car with someone I know, but I cannot specifically remember who it was. We are driving down a road that I usually drive on when I head out to a town that is close to my own. I then notice a women running across the road, and a pick up truck headed straight for her, and I immediately know that she is going to be hit by the car. The truck collides with the women, but I cannot actually see the actual impact because I am driving behind the pick up truck. After I notice she was hit, I speed up and get directly behind the truck before I stop and get out of my vehicle. As I get out of my car, I notice that the women is somehow standing back up after she was hit by the truck so I quickly run over to her to ask if she is okay. When I come closer to her, I notice that she is of Chinese descent and she has long black hair that goes down to around her shoulders. She is panicked, and she seems like she doesn't want to hang around for much longer.

She turns and begins to walk away from me in a rather fast fashion, toward a small line of trees. I follow her through the small area of trees, and I then notice that we are on one of the bike paths that runs through my city. I once again ask her if she is alright, and she quickly tells me the reason why she was running across the road in the first place. Apparently she was running away from some bears that had been chasing her for a little while. After she tells me this, I take a look into the woods that I just passed through and I see about three bears that were following me, and her at this point. One looked as if it was a mother bear, and the other two were a bit smaller so I figure they were her cubs. I then turn to the women, and tell her to follow me as I quickly ran the opposite direction down the bike path. I didn't have to run too far to notice a small corn field in front of me, and a white house to my right sitting next to the road. As I ran up to the small country home, I noticed that some of the members of my explorer post were standing out back speaking to each other.

I come up to the group, with the women still behind me and I tell them that we are being followed by about three bears and we need some help. They seem as if they are willing to help us out, and one of them runs into the house and comes out a few seconds later with a rifle in his hands. At this point he raises the rifle up toward the bike path, where the bears are now walking, and shoots off three rounds, all of which make their mark. The three bears drop down dead and I feel a sense of relief wash over me. The Chinese women disappears, and I simply forget about her as a whole. I then somehow make it to the front of the home, and I am looking to my left at the small corn field. I suddenly notice some small cubs running through the corn, and I specifically remember counting them one by one all the way to six. I explain to the man standing next to me that I see six of the cubs, and I seem generally worried about the rise of the bear population in the area. We stand and watch as the small bears begin to hop out of the corn, and begin to casually cross the road.

Somehow I find out that someone wishes to see me over at some area that is down the road from the white house that I was standing in front of. I then see one of the advisers of my explorer post ride up on a four wheeler and I ask him if he can do me a favor. He looks as if he is annoyed by my request, and asks me what it is that I need. I then tell him that I need him to let me catch a ride on the back of his four wheeler and he tells me to hop on. We ride down the road and I remember seeing how beautiful the sky was, and I remember feeling the sun shining down onto my face. Soon enough we take a right off the road, and onto a gravel road into what looks like some sort of plant nursery with green houses all around. I see one of my friends walking around as I hop off of the four wheeler and I go to walk toward them and I wake up from my dream.

Desert? I'm in a truck. The driver went off to buy gas. Someone arrived. Priest. Woke me up to drive. Told him no gas. Home. Prepared things to warn people if the priest does something wrong. Hotel room? Rob's mom. Check? Game?

I was in a jeep. Then, I was in a marketplace. There was a street urchin. He took the money on the table of fruits. I caught him there, but he feels... solid. Like I caught a wall instead. I told the peddler, and I picked up the money that fell on the dust pan. But the kid is still counting the money he took, so it must have been different. When the peddler noticed, she walked away.

Walking along the streets in the morning with Rex. It was a subdivision.

NOTES: I did around 5 9s. Still couldn't sleep. I kept losing count on each in-breath. Instead of focusing on a dream event afterwards, I get distracted by surrounding sounds. I kept waking up in the middle of the night

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I didn't really recall much yesterday, but I had a funny Nightly Adventure in which I was looking for sticks under my pillows and I asked Monica to help me find them. Last night was a bit random, got more sleep than I use to get on weekdays, and so I had a few dreams.

20.45: Sleep

05.10: Dreams and frags
*I'm with my friend Eric, Felix and two guys from the UK. We're all drinking heavily and I've got two glass bottles with raspberry soda. I chug and I'm getting very drunk. "This will do for me" I say and sway a bit. We need to find our cabin and start walking. We end up near a lake and it looks amazing. It seems to be a garden around us. I spot a temple, and two girls kissing. We head up a small hill, and another couple is kissing, this time it's two guys. Some gay temple of sorts. We walk past a couple having sex to our left, and I spot a glass tank with small turtles in them. They snap at me when I try to pet them.

*I'm fishing and I can't catch any fish. Kristofer from work is there with me, he gives me some fishing advice. I accidentaly throw my lure into the weeds and when I pull it back, a black guy in a big, red, rubber ring appears. I've landed my lure in the middle of the ring and he looks very surprised that I caught him lurking in there.

*Watching some transvestite parade.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 8 hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

im in front of my old house with a bunch of peaple and i have head phones in but they keep getting relly tangled so i keep untangling them,it raining and im saying im going in the house but i dont then were just in a van going to church were all in blue coouts that reach down to are feet i have to untangle my head phones agian then were in this big biulding like huge i think it a church peaple are singing and it really crowded with millions of peaple ;i look to my right and see a room with clouds coming out of it i some how know that hevan so i go in because there no room for me so i go in with my mom so i dont have to get up by my self.Im thinking it sucks for my sisters beacuse they cant get up alone; when i walk in to the room i make a cloud float away and the floor all white i site down on the floor being quiet becuase i dont know if i deserve to be there this little kid is in there to i guess we are realted he white and he in this many star wars miny trooper thing he has to get out of it beacuse his friend dosent have one and thats not fair. when i click a button on the trooper thing it lowers and he looks at me all crazy like WTF then i take of is shoes becacuse there like sonic shoes or somthing and is friend dosent have them;there baby blue he like 4 im only taking these things away from him beacuse is mom my mom is telling me to. Then there this bed in front of me it black and the girl thats was sopost to be my mom is now the other little boy big sister this guy comes in and give me 40 bucks saying we get are money back i look at the two 20 and there green but they have darker black ink in the center i lay them on the bed saying i will leave them for are parents then the girls dog that was on the bed ate one of the 20; so i grab the other one and give it to my mom in the corner and she says well that sucks for them

4:09am woke, with sight headache so didn't go straight back to sleep then remembered unusual dream.

Lady came and told me and others, she said I married GM 40 years ago. In the dream I went along with it for a while cos I couldn't remember where I was or what I was doing 40 years ago. She seemed to know so I trusted her memory.

Then, within the dream, I remembered something of who I was and what I was doing 40 years ago.

I said, "Wow, I didn't marry GM. I remember getting the news of his marriage when I was among the hippies in Cairns.

The marriage was emblazoned over the front page of the morning paper and I dropped to my knees in the front lawn.

Oh, you've got the wrong person.

I walked off with a couple of friends, in the dream. I hoped the journalists woman would find the right woman who married GM, but I clearly remember now, where and who I was 40 years ago, and it isn't me.

In the dream I was amazed that my memory came back to me. I wasn't expecting that cos it was a dream and, don't I usually go along with the dream scenario, memoryless?.

I.wake, then cos this slight headache stopped me from just dropping back to sleeo, I remembered this remarkable dream incident, of getting my real memory back within the dream.

4:29am Friday 19/August/11 now and I will post this phone not, in my dream journal now.

August 18, 2011

Mostly recall fragments so small that they are impossible to write.

...Not sure if I wrote an entry the day before but it was basically the same iirc.

This is a weeks worth.

Went with leo to another amazing planet where we could breath. It was a whole giant city with its own set of rules. We explored it for a long time before it was time to go. We got in the rocket and went back to earth. I remember being scared of the rocket. We got to earth and leo had to leave. He said we would be back the next day and we would go again. I wanted to live there. An alien force attacked earth and everyone started getting ripped to pieces. This is a repeat dream. Leo and I just barley kept getting away until it was just me and him hiding under sleeping bags in our car. There was a family there and a giant creature ripped them out of the car. We thought it was over for us. Then 10 police cars surrounded us and made us leave the car and lay on the ground. They identified us and proposed an idea. We were to work for them on the other planet. We instant left and rocketed off to the planer again. There the government agent said we would make 10 mil in the first year and we got super excited.

Was in a super long multi layer dream. And then I was teleported under water with the jelly fish and and a group of friends. The teacher was explaining something to me as I softly pet the jellyfish. They feel warm and so soft to the touch. The water was blue but very see through and non threatening. Poetic lightning was what came to mind. I was super happy here. I walked further into this cast ocean when someone came to me and said karas dad had a message for her. He told me to tell her not to give up and that she could bring him back to life. I had to figure out how. I awoke from this trance and was back in the mansion leo and I were staying at. I ran to tell leo about the adventure in the water. I told him about how I could bring her father back to life but he said its impossible. I proposed the idea of shared dreaming and that if we were both in the dream seeing,feeling, and hearing him than what's the difference. He had no answer. We had to get to the game room but it was dark and scary outside and the only way to get there was to go outside. I was a little scared and locked the door. I remember before that dream I was playing total annihilation. I got destroyed by the computer and was building am airport to kill their army. I wanted to get back on and try to destroy the computer. Somehow that was vital to my journey. We went downstairs and I found baron sitting in a corner chewing on some rubble. I ran to pick him up and was glad to see him.

Was at qfc. Kara and I decided to get helium balloons and play with them. We took a cab back to our place. The driver was nice for the first part. He got irritated on how far we lived. I gave him 20 but accidentally gave him more. I tried to get it back and he wouldn't so I started punching him. He pulled out a gun and I jumped out of the car. I started throwing rocks and he dropped the gun. I grabbed the gun and he wouldn't give it to me still so I hit him in the leg. He still wouldn't so I shot him in the arm and eventually just killed him.

Was in school which somehow led to the forest. We were outside of the main gates in the camping grounds hanging out. They would let us into the forest because it was closed till next year. It started to turn night. Everyone took some drugs and started running into the forest. I didn't know how to get in. A guy came and showed us. I saw fire throwers and dancers in there. I ran into the gates and into a giant building that would lead to the forest. One of the guards took shrooms and was now running through the forest like a creature. I went inside trying to find my way into the forest but could. There was a little hole that looked interesting. Someone went inside and got sucked in. It looked scary so I left after a weird zombie man was crawling out.

Was working at the restaurant and was super confused. I forgot how to serve food and was messing up. Rio and nikko were there. I realized I had a lot of money and did not need to work there anymore. I told this to my manager and he looked upset. I said I would finish the shift. I was really annoying so I just left and met blake outside. He asked me why I quit. I said I didn't need to work there. He told me to follow him to his car. I went to my car first and couldn't find him. Rio came out to her car and drove. I honked at her car and made her pull over over so I could ask her where blake was. She said instead to come over and hang with them. I agreed. They said they could be intimidating and I said I couldn't be intimidated by any girls. One of the girls was Russian and I started talking Russian to her. A guy pulled over and asked me for weed. I said no. He pulled out a gun. He was going to rob me. He had 3 friends. He was asking me for mybackpack. I knew he was going to beat me up. U saw a police car driving guy and I honked. They panicked and the guy with a gun ran to kill the police. I got a stick and stabbed one of the guys a couple time. Then I got out of the car and stabbed the other one. The guy with the gun killed the cops. He ran at me and I stabbed him too. I went over to rio and her friends and they were naked. Rio came to me and was going to kiss me but she turned into a zombie and was going to bite me. I turned her human again and she invited me over to her house again. I said ok and we got ready to leave.

Dream - Lucid

Something made me go lucid, I think it was my cell phone again; I was examining it, and the battery kept going more charged, then less charged every time I looked at it. I also thought it was weird that it was still charged at all, since it had been on for 5 days at the airport. I examined my hands and counted 6 fingers on one of them. I counted them again with the same result. I tried to show someone who was with me that I could make more fingers appear out of my hand, though it didn't work. I started to feel anxious, and I lost the dream. -_-

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I was in what looked like a hospital. I was next to a gurney, and I was standing on a black rubber mat (like the ones you see in the kitchens at restaurants). The walls were white, as was the tiled floor. I was standing next to someone, a lady I think.

I then saw sharks swimming under the tiled floor, which was apparently transparent. If you weren't on a rubber mat, the sharks could get you. I was temporarily on the floor, and a shark quickly went after me. I jumped on another mat, and the shark swam under it. It couldn't get me anymore.

The lady who had been standing next to me had a system figured out to where the sharks couldn't get her. It worked like this: She would put some unused staples through one of the holes on the rubber mats, and the sharks would leave her alone, even if she wasn't standing on a mat. She wouldn't share this system with me or anyone else, and I was angry because of it. That wasn't fair.

Then, I was in a grocery store, walking down one of the aisles which contained a couple of shelves of coffee mugs among other things. I apparently worked there, but wasn't on the clock. I was still angry about the lady and the sharks. I saw a guy I know in waking life, Mason, walk down the aisle as well. At first I wasn't sure if it was him. He was wearing a black shirt with white lettering. He almost looked a little younger than he really is. We didn't really talk to each other, but we looked at each other. He had a creepy-looking smile on his face.

Anyway, I was still really angry, like I said before. I was raging angry, in fact. I think the lady was supposed to be my boss at the grocery store as well, and she was doing other extremely unfair things, though I can't remember specifics. When no employees were around, I started to tear all the coffee mugs off the shelves. I would grab them and pull them off angrily and quickly, feeling more and more satisfied as each stack of mugs fell to the floor. However, none of them broke, but I didn't seem to think this was strange.

As soon as all the mugs were off the shelves, I left an anonymous note, though I don't remember what it said. I then walked away.

I was then talking to one of the employees about what happened. I casually asked if they had heard about the coffee mugs. They said yes, they had. I asked who cleaned up the mess.
"Tony," they replied. (Tony is a guy I know in waking life who actually does work at a grocery store).
I imagined Tony cleaning up the mugs.
I also talked to a couple of other people about the mugs, asking if they had heard about it, or letting the person I was talking to bring it up themselves. I wasn't about to give myself away.

I then noticed that I had posted pictures of the note I wrote on the internet. The note looked like a placard. Why I did this was beyond me, because it seemed like a dead giveaway. I immediately took the pictures down, thinking to myself
"I'm incriminating myself..."

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Going to bed 12:30-1
Goals: MILD, Free fall
4:23 Have a dream i was in school athletics or something like that, we are all ini the gym and getting ready t oplay basketball. I rem holding the basketball under my arm.I rem the coach being upset about something

*I rem being in a house, o\couldve been mine, with a secret room that we had to get to by climbing through something, cant rem how we got there. I rem being in there with my dad and someone else, they are lookingaround, my dad says he wants to do some cleaning or repairs on it. I have a mem from later in the dream of going back and finding a big armoire like thing, the doors are all wet and mushy and falling apart. I rem something pushes the doors open from inside and i think it turns out to be a face covered in what may be blood, cant rem anything else.(this dream made it hard to go back to sleep )

6:14 Have a flash of a dream where im in trouble with the law or something, first thing i rem is showing up at some bridge thats closed off, it seems to be kind of in a rural area at some kind of military base or sometheing. I just rem being near the outside of it and seeing a booth with a security guard. There is something by the booth that i know is explosive, i have a combat shotgun and shoot towards the booth, i think, its possible i used some other explosive. I shoot and it causes an explosion that im sure takes out a guard. I see another one running by a car, the car now on fire from the previous blast, i shoot it and it erupts in flames taking out the second guard. Now i have cops andswat after me, i run towards the front and break the window of a blue truck, just as i do this a swat team member from down the street and behind a telelphone pole starts taking shots at me. I hop in the truck and take off, im talking to someone on the phone now and they are helping me find a house for some reason. I rush to the house and they tell me to get inside, cant rem what they were having me look for. I get inside and head to the front door telling the people on the phone, im here. Just as i do a girl walks down the stairs of the house, she is my age and fairly attractive, with light brown hair. She asks me something, i follow her up the stairs asking if she wants to make out, she says no.

9:00 Quick flash of playing hackey sack at night in the street of a small town, dont rec any dcs although in the dream i feel i know them. A random dc, kind of chubby dude comes and joins us/ we are kicking a juice carton instead of a hackey sack.

*Had a dream that it was early morning, checked the clock in dream and it was like 8 something, i rem coming into my room and seeing my sister and rachelle smoking. I get kind of annoyed for some reason and try to talk to rachel about it but she just leaves making me even more annoyed. I try to talk to my bro about it but he says something about his dog dying. I freak out and run back to my room extremely depressed. I get up ad go look outside, i can see my dog running next door. I tell my bro, he says she didnt but almost, he tells me he was trying to get her up on the counter for some reason but she kept falling off.