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Awake Non-Lucid

I'm in my grans house, on holiday. My mum, brother and cousins are here too. I go to take a shower, but before I start getting changed, my brother comes into the room.

I ask him to leave, but he refuses. "We're not supposed to let you be on your own. Too dangerous."

I frown. Is this some kind of joke? I ask again for him to leave the room. Soon my mum and cousins file into the room. I start shouting. No one will tell me what's going on. I get so wound up that I sit on the bed crying.

Sophie comes in. She sits next to me. "Who invited you?" I ask, sniffing quietly, glaring at my family who are talking amongst themselves.

"I invited myself I guess. I'm here to look after you." She smiles sadly. I get off the bed. Surely she's not in on this too? I start screaming at everyone, my vision blurring from tears. Everyone except Sophie leaves. I sit on the floor, my back against the bed.

"What the fuck is going on?"

My mobile starts vibrating in my pocket. I yank it out, quickly clearing my clogged up throat. "Hello?"

It's my mum. I forget she was in earlier and break down crying. "No one will tell me anything, is there something wrong with me?" Sophie rubs my back gently.

"Honey, you're going to hospital remember?" Hospital? I suddenly see a yellow sheet on the bed. I read it quickly. Anorexia? Bulimia?

I cry even harder. "You're s-sending me to a hospital for eating disorders? I-I don't have an eating disorder!" My mum says I've not been eating and throwing up. (I didn't eat for a few days because I'm sick. I ate something recently and just threw it up, I guess this is where the dream came from. My stomach's probably the size of a pea right now) "It's not like that!"

I glare at Sophie. "You're the one with the eating disorder! Why the hell am I going? What have you been saying?" I snarl at her. I hang up. "Just get the fuck out of here. Piss off, I don't want to see you."

She leaves and I just sit quietly, numb. I take a deep breath, and tell myself that it's just a misunderstanding. Though it would help if everyone would listen to me.

The door opens and a girl comes in. I recognize her as an actress. I sniffle, and she comes and sits beside me. She puts her arm around me, but says nothing.

"I really admire your work you know." I say, smiling slightly.

She squeezes my arm. "Thanks."

I also had a dream that Katy Perry was my roomie but I can't remember enough to write down. I kinda remember that she had blue hair, was really nice and dragged me out at early morning hours to run around fields and jump over fences..

Notes: 'Warning' and 'UKJp' stemmed from my hobbies, mainly being involved with fanfic in fandom, both English and Japanese.

I recorded all these with my iPod Touch by hooking up my earbuds, opening the voice recorder app and just clicking the record button whenever I woke up with a dream! It worked beautifully. Before, I was struggling with getting anything more than keywords down so this is an exciting breakthrough.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

04.16.2011

Warning (Non-lucid)

Mom was about to read a fanfic. There was a column of something online, but later there were three. There were warnings on the link titles at the top of the columns, you had to hover to read them. It wouldn't show them though, it would just show the title of the link. So I went into the source code to find it but it was all in Japanese. I found the line of English, and it had a word with a colon plus the warnings. It said that the story had scat, though I remember thinking that it wasn't quite that. I tried to warn her but she got angry at me. It was like the dreams where we fight or she's crazy. I cried but she didn't care. Honestly I just wanted to help, I didn't mean anything by it. I think this somehow involved my sister, like mom was looking over this for her.

Beach Contest (Non-lucid)

Me, my sister and my aunt were going to the beach for some kind of challenge that was going on. When we went we were worried that it wasn't actually going on then but what we saw when we got there reassured us. Even though I think it had something to do with there being more people, there actually wasn't that many there.

We're walking along the beach and there's feces on the ground. I think I point it out. My aunt starts running ahead and me and my sister run after. I try to avoid the feces but my sister doesn't at first. There's a dog running ahead of us, probably the one making the mess, and I get the feeling it's ours. It was a light brown and reminds me of a mini Cerberus from Eyeshield 21. XD We kind of halfheartedly call out after it.

I know at some point we go to a picnic table. My aunt gets up on the bench to the right and starts dancing. I get up on the top and notice some type of canopy overhead. I decide to leave the spot for my sister, though I worry how she'll stand without hitting her head. I go to the left bench to dance.

There are peanut butter M&Ms, but I point out to my aunt how weirdly shaped they are. They were big and kind of mutated. I think there was another kind of candy and we were trading, or she reached over and ate a piece of mine.

At some point there were these guys, part of the contest and against us, I remember seeing them in the water. I was shy but my sister went up to talk to them. Apparently there was this gum stuff keeping us together and it came off. I was shocked and swam really fast after her, though I hesitated for a second because in RL I can't swim and the water there seemed deep. But I had no trouble in the dream. My aunt was somewhere behind us. I remember the gum stuff got stuck to somebody's leg and I didn't want to pull it off because it'd hurt.

I was able to see myself, at least my face, as if from the sky. My hair was shorter, maybe a bit over my shoulders. It was dry from having been wet, and had my blond streak in it. I think I looked younger.

UKJp (Non-lucid)

England x China, fanfic chapters 1, A, 2 and 3. Deja vu.

This is a dream I had when I was like 9 or 10. I had a job and was trying to get to work. I lived at the top of a huge building with no elevator. It would've taken forever to get to the bottom and catch a cab using the stairs. I then found a shortcut in the air ducts/vents of the building. I was hungry to so I took a granola bar with me for breakfast. While crawling through the vents i saw Spider-man. He tried to beat me up so he could steal my breakfast. I tried to get away but the vents were cramped. Then it turned out that the vent was on the side of the building. He broke the vent and pushed me out took my breakfast and I fell 20 stories, but I always wake up right before I die in dreams so then I woke up.

I saw Atlas Shrugged yesterday and I am studying to drive an 18 wheeler. These truths combined in a dream.

There was a valley in Arizona that was supposed to be perfect for truck drivers. It was a paradise supposedly.
I trusted that, though it seemed like it would be hot as Hell. It looked like AZ. It was a desert valley surrounded by
somewhat baron, rocky mountains. I was happy there was a place that was supposed to be so great for truckers.

I started down a hill into a valley. This may have been the same dream, maybe not. The valley was different now.
Anyway, I was with a girl or I saw a girl and I wanted to be with her. We were friendly with each other, but I don't
remember much about that part of the dream.

This dream bled into a new scene where I was setting up a furniture display. I set up a chair cushion and a bunch of
covers. The assembly fell onto the floor and got the top cover dirty. I was going to throw the whole assembly away when
someone told me it wouldn't be necessary. I couldn't sell them though, so I went to store them where I could keep them.

I was putting them in a drawer or something when my boss from an old insurance job I used to have appeared. She didn't
say anything that I remember, but she was still a...well...that doesn't matter.

I saw a brown and green finch that was flying loose. It was a pet, I think mine, so I thought I should get it some water.
I got a tiny flower pot. I cleaned it out and started filling it up. There was a hole in the bottom, so I was going to have to
do something about that, but the dream ended there.

I started my dream in a hotel room. My family and I just dropped off our luggage and were now relaxing. I go to look out the window and realize that I'm at the highest room on a sky scraper. there is no city in view though, just a few houses with a beach in the distance. I tell my mom that I'm going to go look around for a while and left. My view changes and I'm suddenly at the beach. The sand is bright white with the beach having clear blue water. In the distance, there is this giant rock wall in the water, kind of like a steep cliff. I turn around and see stairs going from the beach to a small grass plain and with it a two story bar. The bar had a square like base with no windows or doors. I see my mom and all of my aunts laughing and talking happily . I decide to walk off not to disturb them. I go back to the beach and find these weird cards in the sand. I start to look through them. Each card had a different color of plastic on it and had a weird pictures on them. I hold one of them and put the rest of them on the ground. I grip the card in my hand, hold my hand in the air, and a red beam shoots out of my hand. Finally something awesome happens. A giant army of heavily suited warriors start running towards me in a distance . I pick up the rest of the cards, start to run into the bar, and then I woke up.

I was able to remember a dream where I was on a field trip to a school to take a tour of it, but then while we were there we made alot of the students and teachers angry by pulling pranks it was fun but we then had to get in the school bus and drive through the school to get away, because one teacher had a laser gun and was so mad she was ready to use it. We barely escaped.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I just remember a lot of fragments of this dream, and mostly the house.

I’m standing outside of a stone house, it’s raining, and the dream looks so detailed. There is a large, picture window in the middle of the house, with one normal sized window on each side. The stone house is on a little road with lots of green over hanging trees on a cobblestone road that is about 50 feet off of the main road- that is also cobblestone.

I’m in England on vacation. I walk in side of the house an greet the person I’m going to be staying with. I guess I rented a apartment instead of a hotel. The person inside is nice, and shows me around the house. He tells me how everything works, and I remember him showing me how the TV worked.

I wanted to try boating in England, so the next thing I knew I was on a lake (it looked a lot like a lake in New Hampshire that I have been to a few times). The lake is extremely crowded with boats, and there are a lot of islands on the lake, too. I remember that my boat is low lying to the water and it could easily sink. I’m going around pretty fast on the lake and then someone yells at me “Watch out!” then they tell me via telepathy that there are some sharp rocks up ahead that are right on the surface of the water. I slow down my boat because now I’m pretty scared of sinking or flipping it.

The funny thing is, right before I went to bed, I was talking to a friend about swimming in lakes and how I would hate swimming in the middle of the lake and looking down. Its just darkness and I would hate to get pulled down or something.

I can see the rocks on the surface. They just look like they are floating right there. I hit a few of them, but manage to keep the boat going and get back to land.


I think about going back to the house, then the next thing I see is that I'm standing outside again. I go inside and I just handout with the person and talk. He mentions something about how "You never should have moved to America". So I spit back "I wasnt the one who moved". I remember that the conversation started over American and its separation from England.

The dream suddenly ends and I go on to another dream (that I cant remember).

Real life Dream Lucid Nightmare Dream sign Thoughts

This was an amazing dream. Outstanding recall, vividness, and lucidity. I could fly well and I did a lot more than flying too! I lost lucidity later in the dream, but oh well. I'm still happy!

Winter dream
It was night. Me and my family were driving through a strange city. Maybe it was raining? The buildings were arranged in blocks like Minecraft and they looked cool. We commented on the buildings and joked around. There was a sense of coziness in the car.

Morning came and we finally got to my house. Work was being done on the house. I asked what was going on, and they said they were converting our house into a store that we could still live in as a house. The people working on the house were my extended family. I could see each room in our house sold different things. Our kitchen sold different kinds of foods, and our unfinished room sold furniture. (I remember my grandparents working on that room; they have lots of antique furniture at their house.) There were a few other rooms with other stuff but I don't remember what they were. I went up onto the nonexistent roof deck of our house. (I imagined coming up to the real roof-deck of my grandparents' house.) It was going to sell plants. To my strong surprise, the roof was several times larger than the house we live in below it. What? This is impossible! Wait, we don't even have a roof deck... I'm dreaming!

Using the roof as a lift-off area I flew, flapping my wings. Our house was surrounded by wintery forest. It actually is, but only on one side, and it is Spring right now, plus it isn't as tall. The leaves on trees were long gone, replaced by snow. It was totally beautiful. I kept flying. I can't waste my entire dream flying! I decided to try making a portal in mid-air by drawing a circle with my finger. It failed, probably because I've never even done it on the ground and I had no intention of where to go. I started to get a little too far away from home for comfort, so I headed back to what I thought was my house.

It wasn't my house but it was a place of interest. It was some camp-out. There was one big tent where most of the event happened. I landed. I remember practicing a few skills successfully like flying without flapping arms. I realized it was almost evening, and people were getting in their tents. The tents were these wide diamond-shaped pods that you slept in, only needing stakes at the two farthest tips of the diamonds. I looked for an open spot, and then I stuck my finger into the ground. I pulled it out with a tent stuck to it, and then pushed my finger into the ground 6 feet away. I had one of the diamond tents, and it was successfully staked in, without having to go ask Administration for a tent. I went to sleep.

I woke up. Not as a false awakening in my real bed, I just got out of my tent and stretched my arms. It was the morning. Frost covered the grass. People were already setting stuff up. Someone got me to do work. He wouldn't let me leave. Work, work, work.

I woke up after a good night's sleep.

Very vivid, very lucid, and I actually did stuff other than flying! I think I forgot a few things in the camp-out part of the story, but oh well. I still love this dream.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Was up kinda late last night, and I didn't expect to get lucid at all. Had two lucids which was sweet since my last lucid was a week ago. What happened can be read below.

01.30: Sleep

10.30: Train and bus DILD
I'm down in the subway trying to get home. I check the signs and head for an escalator going underground. I push my way through the crowd and quickly reach the bottom. A train is at the station and it's my train. I run and quickly enter it before the doors close, and take a seat. As the train starts moving I spot a coworker, Fredrik. He seems upset and is walking back and forth in the train. "What's up?" I ask him. He tells me what's up, a friend of his has been kidnapped. "She hasn't responded to any of my messages" he tells me. "Damn, I'm sorry man, I hope she comes back well" I say. He tells me she was last seen in a two kilometers radius. I tell him he could always grab a map and hold a ruler with a hole in it and spin it around to make a circle. "What a great idea" he tells me.

The dream skips. I'm on a bus now instead. A former coworker is next to me and we're sitting in the back. I start worrying about getting electrocuted by some machinery malfunction or something. I look at my hand as a habit. I've got way more than five fingers, more like ten. That can't be right... I recount them, yep, they're short and tiny aswell. I realise I'm dreaming. The bus stops and I get up. "Where are you going dude?" the guy asks me. I don't even care, he's just a DC. I exit the bus and look around.

Looks like I'm in a neighbourhood with villas. I rub my hands and check them again. This time I've only got four fingers. I intend to go to the Ninjaworld and I start walking toward the nearest wall. It's a brick wall and I rub my hands as I slowly walk over to it. I put my fingers up and draw a door line on the wall. A golden glowing line appears and in an instant the wall has transformed into a hatch. I pull the handle to reveal a metallic ATM-looking machine. "Welcome, where do you want to go?" a female voice asks me. "The Ninjaworld" I say and watch the panels change. I put my hand in the lever slot and push the button.

I fall to the ground with my hand still in the machine, but it feels more like I'm doing it on my own instead of actually experiencing it.
Everything is black for a while, suddenly my sister and Monica appears infront of me. I realise my attempt to go the Ninjaworld failed. Oh well, might aswell have some dreamsex. I start pleasuring Monica with my hand. After a minute or so the dream starts to fade.

11.00: Sick
I'm with the black mormon from House. He's almost fainted and I want to make sure he doesn't die. We sit down and talk for a while before getting up. I put his arm around my shoulders for support and walk into a conference room. Most of my coworkers are there and they're sniggering. "Yeah, totally homo to help out a guy in need" I say and help the guy into a chair. I leave the room and walk down a long corridor. I talk to some guy about previous events in this place. He tells me some rich, famous lady had sex or something.


11.00: Getting lucid in my appartment DILD
I'm in my appartment, brushing my teeth. I spit and check my fingers. I can see like ten. Again I'm not convinced entirely, I recount them. I realise I'm dreaming. I spit once again for fun and leave the appartment. I walk down the stairs and when I reach the bottom, I can't think of anything to do. It's sunny out though, and there are probably some girls sunbathing outside. I head outside and there are indeed two girls lying there in the sun. I walk up to them and lie down ontop one. We start grinding and I run my tongue all over.

11.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 9 hours

Supplements: None

That's it! I will give going to the Ninjaworld a last try tomorrow morning, but if I don't succeed, I will just let the project be on hold for a while until I can successfully make a portal or teleport. I don't mind though, superpowers are just as fun.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Dream - Lucid

I remember something about doing some study, something about lucid dreamers and non-lucid dreamers.

~

I was on a school bus, sitting on the left side towards the back. We were going on some band trip. It was nighttime. I remember some guy from elementary school being on the bus. I had had a crush on him or something. We were all talking about how many girls had liked him.

I then remember I was the only one sitting on the bus seat, and I had wanted the guy from elementary school to sit with me. Instead, a girl I knew in very early elementary school came and sat next to me. She asked if she could first, and I said yes. I fell asleep on the bus.

When I woke up, we were at our destination. A band parent was trying to tell us all what to do and where to go. Everyone started to get off the bus. I picked up my bags and left too.

The next thing I remember is sitting at a kitchen table in a house with some of my friends. One girl, someone I knew in high school, Sarah, was sitting next to some guy she was apparently dating. I was sitting next to the guy, putting me at the very end of the large table. We were all laughing and talking. I noticed I was sitting next to a counter that had some spiders on it. Sarah lifted up the guy, who killed the spiders. I looked at the guy, who was still lifted, almost hoisted over Sarah's shoulder. He had a green dinosaur tail and dinosaur legs.

I then remember waking up outside. It was still nighttime. I was behind a white van. I had apparently fallen asleep standing up. Anyway, I started to hear a noise; someone was coming. I ran into the house that we were all staying at, and started to run into the kitchen. I saw someone approaching the door that I had just entered.

I made it into the kitchen, and was with Sarah and another person. A man entered. He was disheveled-looking, with greasy shoulder-length dark hair and some facial hair (he looked very similar to the dog-killing man from another one of my dreams). I was scared; we all stared at him with dropped jaws. He pulled out a gun, and fired it at me. I flinched, and all that happened was I felt a puff of warm air go by my head. Apparently, the gun was out of bullets. He commented on this, and said he'd be back later to have sex with me. Then, he started to steal things around the room, mostly food items; I distinctly remember him taking some boxes of granola bars.

He then left, and I was very upset, scared, and overwhelmed about the situation. I bawled. I saw myself in third person, and I had tears and snot all over my face from all the crying I was doing. I went up to Sarah, who looked the same as I did with the tears and snot, and said
"He almost killed me...he almost killed us!"

I woke up terrified. I was afraid to go back to sleep for a few minutes.

The first dream I remember is not very coherent. I feel as if it is just fragments that i mixed together..

I was with two people, R. and someone I don't remember, at a asian store to buy pineapple. The brand however I wanted to buy, shouldn't be there. It was from AH and not from the asian store. But nevertheless it was there and we were talking about how we would share the pineapple because there were 8 pieces, so we decided we would slice one up. Then I saw a asian guy. I was busy with a lot of things and then a blonde girl came by. She was maybe the GF or something of that guy, and he was having an argument with his parents about her. Something about the fact that they didn't like hi being with her and he couldn't care less. But he also looked at me and for no reason I felt really sad. Then I remember a pokemon game running and after that i was in my room in the old house. I got a text of an old crush of mine C. He texted that he wanted to talk to me about what had happened and he wanted to explain and that he also wanted to tell me what he couldn't tell me before. I felt, an feeling odd to describe. I was both relieved and confused. Here I found out that that Asian was supposed to represent C and then I also felt sad because he would drag me into my crush again if he explained things. And I also was astonished how he would come with this so long after we've last spoken.

Well I woke up again, and still couldn't do a DEILD. So instead i wrote down my first dream. And then i fell asleep again.

I was somewhere in a high building, and there was some kind of competition going on or something. When i wanted to enter the elevator I saw another girl who wanted to enter. She had blonde hair and was a bit chubby? But only a bit, but somehow I knew she was in the competition too and then i wanted to close the door but it didn't close quick enough so I got annoyed. I tried in ALL kinds of ways to lock her out. Once i tried to push a button of a higher place and then closing the door so if she entered she would end up above but that didn't work. Anyway in the end we were both downstairs and we went to the competition. Which started with things i can't remember. I was with someone I cannot remember and we went by car and I was driving rather reckless and then parked the car.

We continued to the place and the end of the competition was a huge water slide and at the end of that pictures were made. I remember that scene from another dream I once had, or at least i remembered it though i did nothing with it. Then I walked to my foster parents and a a good friend of mine S. I hugged him and then I was complaining about not going to do the slide again and I told him :'Even if it's mandatory, they will not expel me will they? I mean look at my clothes I an definitely NOT going to go on the water slide in this.' Then I looked at myself and saw that I was wearing a black lingerie set with a bright red shine through night gown on top of it so.. Then he was like:' yea probably not, look at how many people are leaving too.' Then I left that scene and that unknown person was there with me and we were getting robbed. They told me that they cloned my car keys,(i have a card one) and told me to use it so they can use it on other cars. I however wasn't scared at all. That unknown person was already in the car and I was randomly pushing every button except the open button because i didn't want to grant them the satisfaction of winning. Then a lot of cars came and circled the burglars and my friend S. was in the last car. And I was smiling at him and then got into the car and left. Then more of reckless driving like switching lanes on last moment, and I went back to the parking garage which was very familiar and it felt as if my dreams was going to start over again.

so i sleept then i had some dreams that i can not remember till now

but i do remember some

i had dream about the black hole on the galaxy..
it was likei had to climb up there with friends and build something
so no meteors and such stuff can come from there and attack the earth lol
i just hear that earth attacked by black hole meteors in my dream and moon too and so then we builded something and there were girls and so but i dont remember exactly who they were and what we did..

omg crazy dreams ...



16/04/2011

WAKING LIFE DREAMING LUCID
BOLD IF IT FEELS PARTICULARLY SIGNIFICANT

Slipping a Picture Out

A younger man and a man who seemed to be something like his mentor. Doing some organizing or redecorating of some sort. Cleaning? Inside an old, historic feeling building. Many large windows around one end.

The younger man (was it me? I seemed to switch back and forth from third person to somewhat identified with him) had accomplished something, some landmark. He seemed like a learned novice. He had a picture of himself to mark the occasion.

The older man took a frame off the wall. The frame and its anchoring to the wall was complex, attached to a simple wood rod decoration with a few soft undulances and shallow, smooth, symmetrical crevices. It was dusty. Some old, shriveled cobwebs huddled against it. The frame somehow slid onto this bar to connect to the wall. He told the younger man that he was going to replace the older picture of another of his (students?) with this one. The younger man felt uncomfortable with this, knew it would upset the person who was being replaced. The older man didn’t open the frame, just slowly slipped the other picture out of the bottom, surprising the young man, who was me, and then slid the new picture in.

The new picture looked casual and somewhat professional, but not strong, solid, and fitting like the old picture. It looked too new, too much of a body shot, too bright, not authentic and serious and traditional enough, with muted colors, like the picture that used to be there. But it did look happier and younger.

The man whose picture had been replaced came over from the dim back of the building, which felt like an old bar. He was somewhat angry and jealous, disappointed, about his picture being removed. He didn’t feel positively toward the young man.

WAKING LIFE DREAMING LUCID BOLD IF IT FEELS PARTICULARLY SIGNIFICANT


Dinner and “Centipede” Lizards Licking Legs

At dinner with 3 people. I felt younger, perhaps college age or just graduating. It was some kind of planned event, like a celebration. I thought we were there with others who were at different tables.

Three other people with me. Empty (used?) glasses already on the table, shoved to the side. Cluttered with, were they layers of old menus as “placemats”? Dirty, dusty, old.

They brought us drinks. Mine was a warm margarita-type drink. I wondered again about the service considering the warm drink. I drank it, flourishing it a bit like I was an old hand. I thought how I was trying to be something I wasn’t. Projecting a persona, and that wasn’t subtle enough. It didn't feel like me.

Me and the others didn’t seem too connected, but there was a comfort.

It took a loooong time for the food to come, if it did (I don’t recall).

A foot long creature came through the wall and walked under the table, turned right, and kept going. I followed. I called it a centipede in my mind but realized it was more like a lizard with 4 stumpy legs, like a long, unshelled turtle. Another one came, following the same path.

I sat back down, next to the girl (who had been a part of the 4 of us before?).

Yet another creature walked that path, and I wondered about them being young and is their mom about to come? Another young one. Then the mom, larger, with a more rounded mouth. She noticed us (unlike the children) and slowly opened her mouth near my leg. I thought she was going to lick me but maybe bite me.

I pulled my bare legs up onto the booth. She put her stumpy front legs up on the side of the booth but couldn’t reach me. She turned toward the other girl’s legs and slowly opened her mouth. The girl didn’t seem concerned and I cautioned her about the saliva, that it might be poisonous. The creature had a very large, wide almost human-like tongue. It seemed friendly. The girl let her lick her legs. The creature licked slowly and in wide strokes. I inspected the girl from a distance. She seemed fine, no reaction to a toxin if there even was a toxin in the saliva.