non-lucid

non dream - lucid - non lucid

Still kinda stressed with school, my dream recall is pretty bad, but I still remember occasional lucids.
Dreams are usually either short or not very vivid though.

… I’m sitting at a table with 3 girls. They’re all wearing fancy dresses.
We’re finishing our beers and waiting for a specific event so we can leave.
We are going to drive somewhere, I know where. I notice the girl on the other side of the table is insanely beautiful.
She has immensely detailed and bright green eyes, I can’t keep my eyes of them.
She obviously notices me staring at her, but she seems to like it.
She makes it very clear that she’s interested in me with very subtle signs.
I contemplate asking her to go for a walk until we’re ready to leave.

Then I finally realize what’s happening. She’s “perfect”.
And perfection exists in only one place: the dream world.
But this perfection intrigues me...
What is perfect? Why does she appear perfect? I want to find out and look at her very carefully.
The truth is, apart from maybe her eyes, she looks kinda normal.
I can’t find anything specific that gives me this feeling of perfection.
Maybe it is the way she smiles? This pure and innocent smile, something you’d never see in waking life?
I finish my beer, stand up and hold my hand out to her. “Let’s go.”
There is no need to bother with an explanation for the other 2 girls, I’m lucid, I’m in control,
I don’t want them to ask questions, so they won’t.
She gets up and we leave the room…

3/15/2011 - 3/16/2011: 1 fragment

I dreamed that there were little plastic animals on a shelf in a store. I was thinking of turning myself into one of those animals. [fragment end]

Dream notes: This dream was good news, because I was dreaming about a lucid activity. Hopefully this means I am getting closer to possible lucidity.

WILD notes: I drank two glasses of water before I went to bed @ 10:30 last night and I woke up with a full bladder around 3:00am. Unfortunately, I let my grogginess overcome my desire to try to WILD. I'm kicking myself for it because it was probably a prime opportunity to get some good results.

This was at one point probably the most vivid dream I have ever had. ok so I started in my 70 year old woman p.e. teachers house and she was very nice (this part of the dream is a little hazy) and I went her her room and I laid on her bed trying to fix something for her but I can't remember what it was. I left her house after a bit and it was afternoon and I seemed to be near a beach town with all the small kinds of building and houses of a beach and the beach off to the left (it just gets more vivid from here) so I walked out and my best friends dad was there with my best friend in my moms car so I got in. We drove along a beach road past houses and palm trees and he stopped and I got out. The beach was on the right so I started walking there but there was a huge strip of land made of sand and had a little grass and some palm trees I walked to the end where I found a fence with a small opening and I walked in and there were security guards with big machine guns looked like m4a1 and he said I had to leave immediately but I ignored and walked towards where some workers were pushing giant rolling cages down ramps into the water and there aS a dock and a huge walled water facility (no roof) out in the ocean and I looked far out to other end and I saw a whale being lifted over a wall by crane and I walked to the dock and started yelling at the owners (I'm a bit of an animal rights activist and veg) and the owners were all very fat and I said you fat f*ks (sorry for launguage) and I was just ranting for a bit and they had one guard that was 8-9 ft and about 600 lbs of muscle he wore a blue button up shirt and black dress pants and I called him a fat retard and i started walking back to land and there was a hotel on regular land with a over hang entrance and I walked through the door and some of my friends were there so I said hi and I turned around and the huge security guard was there and he started crying lol so I gave him a hug but I felt kinda crushed from his hug and I said sorry he left and then I gave this girl sofie I know a hug and 3 buttons from a button Ik shirt I was wearing undid themselves so I put them back and that was the end.

My dream recall would have been pretty good last night. Except I only wrote them down in a FA dream journal and not in real life.

Balls.

I was pregnant when the dream started, no explanation, and was making many trips to the abortion clinic.
They were telling me all sorts of things I wasn't listening to. I wanted to be sure of what I was going to do before I did it. I decided that this was my choice to make and no one would sway me in my pursuit of finding what was best for me.

I didn't want to just abort the baby with out the consideration of outside adoption and those sorts of things, but I also did not want to add another baby to a foster home or something. And I would not be able to take care of it while going to college.

So I kept it for awhile.

I did normal things, like watching netflix with my friends (the house looked like one from a friend in CO) but I was unable to focus, I all could think about was what I wanted to do with it.

I made more trips to the clinic. I went into a room with a large group of people sitting most of them watching a TV suspended from the ceiling. It looked like a large scale doctors waiting room. I looked a the TV to see some sort of cheerleading routine. I watched for awhile and thought that it would be a much harder decision if i was pursuing some sort of physical career or engaged in some sort of sport. I felt my stomach and realized that I could feel the child inside me.

My dad took me to the next appointment. (I do not have a good relationship with him irl). As we were walking to the door, I felt the baby inside me and officially decided to abort it. I realized that I did not have time to be the mother I would want to be to it, and that there is a lot more I wanted to do first.

Suddenly the baby's arms and legs started ferociously kicking and shoving the inside of my stomach, all four limbs thrashing. I could suddenly hear him screaming and gasping. He began kicking my pelvis and then turned around to scratch my organs, still screaming somehow. Finally he pushed his whole form against my stomach until almost his entire form could be seen, him still inside me. He was having a meltdown, freaking out that I had decided to kill him. My dad stops walking but does nothing. He continues to scream.

I touch were the side of his head was and told him to calm down, I wouldn't do it. He continued thrashing, screaming and gasping. I began crying and pleaded with him to stop, it hurt. I told him sorry and begged him to calm down. Slowly but surely his breathing returned to normal and he returned to where he had been.

I grabbed my stomach freaking out, and woke up.

Had a phantom baby for awhile. So strange.

Dream - Lucid - AP

I was in a huge, open field with rolling hills. It was dusk. I was with some guy. I had a small airplane with a hangglider attatched to the back of it, though the hangglider didn't have any sails or anything, it was just a bar to hold on to attatched to a cord that was attatched to the plane. We were going to fly the plane and hangglide. I remember hanggliding on the back of the plane. My left hand slipped, but I got my grip back. I was not afraid, however. I was excited! There were a couple of times that I almost became lucid, but I quickly forgot. I also remember flying the plane. Both the hanggliding and plane flying were exhilerating experiences.

I remember it then being nighttime, and me and the guy were going somewhere else to fly. I remember driving on the interstate. Then, I remember encountering my old roommate, Katherine. I don't remember where we were, but I remember her saying she wanted to shoot her cat because he was becoming too much of a hassle. I wanted to offer to take him from her so she didn't shoot him, but I knew it would be pointless to try to change her mind. She seemed pretty dead-set on killing her cat. I also remember seeing her cat. He was his normal self, exactly as I remember him from waking life.

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I had a weird sore on my index finger, and it was surrounded by a strange, red, dotty rash. It was very sore to touch. I tried looking up "sore inflamed finger" on Google, but all that came up were Sesame Street clips. I also remember my friend Courtney being with me at some point.

I was then at my old friend Andrew's house. We were talking, and I apologized for how things ended up with our friendship (in waking life, we kind of just stopped talking after he tried to ask me on a date and I didn't really want to go). He started talking to his dog. I think his family was there as well. Then, I started taking a shower in the middle of his living room. A few other people were there now. I stopped for some reason, talked to Andrew some more, and one of the other people. Then, I had someone plug the shower back in (apparently it was an electric shower, haha...how ironic). The socket was behind a couch. They did, and I explained that I was almost done showering. I started to shower again.

I am sitting in a classroom with some other students who are in the Spring show. We've already been casted, but we're finding out that the show is actually a musical, and we'll be re-casted for singing roles. There is no second audition, though, so we just have to wait to find out who will be playing what. I sit there anxiously with my friend Chris, who gives some encouraging words. One girl starts singing loudly, as if it wasn't too late to prove herself. The director doesn't seem to notice, though.
Eventually, Mrs. Nardini (not the director IRL, but my consumer management teacher from first semester) posts a cast list, and I do not have a singing role. I am very surprised, and angry. Mostly because the girl who previously sang her attention-seeking heart out earlier got the main role, and somehow I know her singing out of turn landed her the spot at the top of the cast list. I talk angrily about this for a bit, and make my way to the foyer of the school.
On the way, I run into a girl who I somehow know is the daughter of one of the directors, whom I apparently haven't seen in a few years. We catch up, and she tells me she just got pulled into the principle's office because she was found with a backpack full of alcohol, but she claims it wasn't her backpack. I'm kind of bored of this story, so I make my way through the secret hallway to the foyer. It is almost empty except for my sister and some friends. I sit and eat lunch while I catch people up on my audition and the girl with the backpack.
My phone is out of batteries so I plug it into this giant computer screen in the middle of the foyer. I go on facebook (which is awkward because the screen is huge so everyone in the room could see what I'm doing if they wanted to), but there's nothing to do on there. I have something important to tell my friend, but I put it off.

This is when I wake up

Recent Dild
sleep Non-Lucid Lucid
I slept at around 11:00pm not awake enough to try a WILD knowing id soon fall asleep anyways [March 10th, 2011]
This is my most successful DILD to date, and overall lucidity acomplishment yet.
I cant remember every detail, but from what I do remember I was heading towards my friend Idrissa's house when I stopped at his front door and looked over my shoulder to find a man from about what seemed to be his early 30's wearing a large heavy tan trenchcoat and a Hook where his left hand should have been. He circled the front yard around the apartment complex and seemed to be singing a cheery tune, I eyed at him awkwardly and as not to seem rude I waited for him to repeat his refrain and sang along. He stopped towards me and gestured towards his hook and asked me if I wanted to play with him. Something about him signaled to me and I realized he must've been a pedophile, An uneasy feeling swept over me. I told him that I had somewhere I had to be and he let me go but not without showing me one more disgustingly pleasant smile, almost to promise that he would wait for me.
I entered my friends house, It seemed strangely narrow and to the point, I crossed one hallway and found myself in his bedroom, he immediately starting talking about something irrelevant as soon as he saw me, I interupted him to tell him about the pedophile walking around outside, he said he wasn't surprised, but he did agree that we needed to get out sneakily before he found us. We waited for a while hoping that he left. We snuck out of the backdoor of the apartment and somehow entered a car, Idrissa must've been driving, It came to me that he was most likely going to drive me home, We drove down the street and passed by a few conspicuous cop cars, I expected us to be pulled over for underage driving but we got passed them easily we missed the turn pasing by my apartment and kept going until we reached a dark and uninhabitable road the dark sky dimmed to pitch black and I saw nothing but the shadows of trees. "Were Going the wrong way" I informed him. He shrugged and didnt say a word we kept driving towards the dark until he realized we should have turned back hours ago. So we do. As we drive back the scenery changes into a cave complex.

We stopped for a rest and talked about our recent activities, and got back in the car soon after. We drove in circles and were greeted by more changing scenery. At this point I had already lost track of the idea of a pedophile chasing after us. The Rest of my adventures that night are iffy, but I do remember that I gained lucidity later on.


I had acustomed myselff prior to wake up at 5:00am this could have been the reason why my awareness levels rose to attain lucidity
I attained lucidity Inside of a mall. It was abundant with DC, I tried out a dream stabilization tech I had picked up previously from a Dv Forum and exposed all of my senses into the dream I touched all of my surroundings and was surprised to find that everything, every sight and every touch was very realistic. I hadnt thought of appreciating my surroundings, So when we got back in the car the sky quickly turned blue and the clouds never seemed so white. The Golden Gate Bridge appeared out of nowhere and stretched across the endless road. We Drove until we reached a sign that read "Welcome To Manhattan" we were greeted by gleaming crystaline buildings, and a shiny marble bridge over looking the Ocean, the sky was sewn into the water and seemed never ending. I saw old people walking around holding hands with kids, this reminded me of the pedophile we had been running from all this time. I turned around and saw him smile at me, he tied us up and brought us into his house. He was going to force us to enter his nightmare, but I didnt feel like cooperating so I left the house and walked into the abyss, I woke up soon afterwards.

I have been getting interrupted sleep the past several nights. I casually decided I could use this to enter REM instantly upon closing my eyes. I did this once recently while stressed out (Night Hike on a Freeway). This might be the first dream I ever remembered in which I was aware of being asleep prior to the dreaming beginning.

I saw an image emerging from the blackness. It looked almost like a small flower shaped hole in the dark. I could see a well light sepia tone scene emerging on the other side of it. -I became so excited at viewing a dream form from blackness that I woke up.

I laid still. I was determined to re-enter the dream. I have never re-entered a dream to my recollection. This may not have been the same dream, but the vibe was similar.

I was in the blackness, awake. A fully detailed dream location appeared. I was standing in the middle of the street looking at an old friends house I walk past on a regular basis. I lost lucidity for a moment. Then, as I watched, all these animals started to emerge from around the property. Raccoon's, cats, and then an adorable looking squirrel came hopping in my general direction. "This is a dream!" I said as soon as I saw it. (This moment is almost identical to: Super Lucid Blackbird Flying) I was thrilled. I turned around to take in the whole scene.

When I looked to my left, there charging happily towards me were four large shaggy dogs: Black, White, Burgundy, and Golden. I was so shocked by the closeness - I instantly woke up. (*)

Again I was laying in bed. I didn't move a muscle. This was not a feat of willpower, I was super tired. But internally determined to keep the dreams rolling.

I was in the blackness awake again. I saw a distorted face emerging a few inches in front of me. All at once, a mirror appeared and I was looking into it at close range. This sounds scary, but I was lucid. I started making various expression in the mirror. I looked more handsome than in real life. My skin was perfect and my flaws were gone.

(*PRECOGNITIVE*) When I woke up, I needed to pass that same house. I was planning to make it a good "reality check point." As I arrived I smiled. Looked at the house, then, I looked across the street. -My jaw dropped. Right there, about 25-35-ft ahead of where I saw them: Three medium sized dogs, black, white, golden - being walked by a 30-something woman wearing a hat.

The burgundy colored dog was missing. The real dogs were medium sized not large. I don't recall ever seeing this group of dogs before, although it's possible. I usually do pay attention to the friendly animals I cross paths with in my neighborhood.

In my first dream journal there was a tiny percentage of dreams that weren't quite precognitive, more like educated guesses Dream: 037 & Dream: 067. This 4-dogs dream is the first dream I'm aware of featuring:

1) So many different dogs together I don't know.
2) About 75% accurate and did occur asap almost at the exact location as in the dream.

I learned over the years that dreams produce: abstractions of people, mind tricks, fake conversations, illusions, distortions, false memories, etc. I never gave precognitive dreams much serious thought.


Supplements (before bed): 500mg of B5, and 200mg B6. First time trying this combination. I usually take one or the other. Generally, I've found these vitamins help with recall, but cause more shallow dreaming. This dream is consistent in general with past experiences without taking supplements.

First dream started somewhere + it was lucid, its really fragmented and i mostly remember only the second.

Second dream was FA where i failed to notice that it was FA and while i thought that it would be so fun if this was a dream still no LD occured.
Somewhere later in that dream there was this bus driver that turned around before i was supposed to jump of the bus and threw everyone out.
I had seen one of my old friends in the bus but i wasn´t able to talk to her coz i had heated conversation with the bus driver.
There was also some dreams around some kind of summer camp and i had some kind of secret porn collection that i successfully hid from everyone around me.

I remember starting out in a house and my dad and his girlfriend decide to go on a trip. The dream scene changes into a space theme where I am in a space ship just flying around. Their was this huge spaceship that was just floating around. Everything after that just kinda gets foggy

I don't know why, but near the end of the dream I remember the scene changing into a Law and Order SVU show where two detectives are investigating a rape and murder in some town. They look at the television and see the suspect smiling with blood on his face and also with red eyes. It was weird because the TV screen started flickering red and showed random people each smiling looking creepier than the last. Another strange thing, was that they were standing in front of a wheat field in the middle of the day.

This was pretty much all I remember. :/

Yeah this is a WIERD one, at which i was in love with the girl in the dream but I've never met her in my entire life it's almost as if it's a memory from another life, the intensity of emotion i felt within this dream was extreme.

It started off I was on some farmland which I apparently owned in Britain (the date within the dream was much like the iron age)
The Americans came over sea's in ships to attack us (no idea, really i have no hate for America, just the dream )
Eventually we managed to start to chase them from our land in a battle, I was running down a lonnngg grey road which on either side had crops, i was following a squad of soldiers (at the time holding swords) with big black hats laced with silver around the edges, they were in blue military uniforms with a brown strap holding their sheath on and big brown boots.

The dream then cuts to me saving this female from drowning, this girl is someone who in the dream i am crazily in love with, long brown hair and brown eyes, wearing a white dress. I then cut to seeing her in a small wooden boat which was sinking. the ship i was on i got to sail towards this small wooden boat, i jumped into the water and swam towards the boat got in and held her in my arms and we both burst into tears, it was raining heavily but there was no sky.
I then cried and kept kissing her and the boat was tipping side to side and i could feel the water swilling around me and the boat getting closer with the captain saying our names (her name began with A i think it was Amilia, i dont remember my name in the dream and our last name began with P i think it was pennington or something.)

I then woke up.

Zombies

It started off looking like a left 4 dead dream. I was playing with three computers as teammates, and as such they were expendable. We were in a five story building, in a stairwell that very nearby had a ladder shaft that did not have visual access to the stairwell. We climbed up the stairs and upon reaching the top, were beset by a horde of zombies. When the dust settled, all three of my computer allies were dead and I was left alone. I started to go down the stairs and came face to face with the tank. He had about half health left, so I deducted that one or two of my teammates must have died fighting him and now he was apparently stuck in this stairwell, having decided not to come charging after the rest of us. I quietly backed up the stairs and he didn't see me. I decided that I could escape if I went down the ladder that was beside the stairwell.
There is either a memory gap or the dream shifts to me attempting to do laundry.

Trivial

I had had my clothes in the laundry and they were washed but my sister had things in the dryer that were still wet. I asked her if I could use the dryer before I had to go to work. She said she needed to. I went back to the laundry machine and poured some of the liquid detergent onto a rag. The machine was full of clean water. I repeatedly filled the lid of the detergent with water and squeezed some of the detergent from the rag into the lid, making a more diluted detergent than what had been in the bottle. I poured many of these cups into the washing machine, but then as the water level was higher than it was set to, the washing machine emptied some of the water. I noticed the water getting clearer, then realized that because the detergent was denser it was sinking to the bottom, and had been draining out as I put more and more water in. I then put my hand in the water to raise the water level, so some would drain out. As I removed my hand I poured more in so that the water level would stay constant. After finishing that, I realized that I had already washed this load of laundry, said d'oh sadly and moved on.
I moved out to a large hall where my sister, her friend and an older man I didn't recognize were talking. I began telling them how stupid I had been but in the middle the older man started to leave and the other two were talking, so I walked with the old man until I finished telling him, afterwards he chuckled and then I returned to the other two, who were now talking about a bi-weekly auction. I don't remember what the auction was about but they went on about it for a while before the dream shifted again.

Vibes

Leela was sitting in a chair while the other man, her co-worker, sat across from her. He got up and started to talk. He said “do you ever lay on the ground and think about the void?” he lay down on the floor staring up at the roof. Leela went to lay down beside him and looked up at the roof. Her eyes were open but the roof became a cartoon white with black clouds on it. The clouds swirled around and were manipulatable. I do not like to think of darkness, and my paranoia of her coworker kept her from focusing on the black clouds and instead tried to make the void white. She tried to force the clouds out of the vision but they were not fully under her control. She was able to wave them aside, compress them in the center or clear an area, but they were always on the edges still. She controlled them by imagining border lines and using them to wipe the clouds away. The clouds deformed as if they were a gelatin. After a while of trying to clear the clouds, she finally gave up and said “I see a void of white with black clouds.” and he responded, “It's normal to see white with black clouds when thats whats in the sky.” Then she looked at him and saw a wave ripple across an area of him. “Vibes,” she said as she pointed. They then started moving around, experimenting with these vibes. She brushed her hair with her foot, but it was a smooth motion that seemed normal, not awkward. There was an extremely relaxed feeling and after a time of moving around in a manner, a lot of which was Leela playing with her cartoon purple hair, he said, “You're really beautiful, you know that?” They could see a small vibration form in her neck and ripple out through her. After a short time of more vibrations, instantly everything went black and a black man (not black skinned, but black in mood, personality, clothing and hair) filled the view and yelled, “I'll kill you while you sleep” in a voice like the two faced guy from the commercial for sanctuary when he says “watch your back.” I woke instantly, terrified.

In retrospect the entire “vibes” part of the dream dream had a very similar feeling to when I was doing mushrooms the second time and at a particular time was in a state where I felt connected to my four friends in the room. I would average out their heights so if one of them was laying down on my left, and one was sitting up on my right, I would be leaning downwards to my left. If one of them was sitting forward but the other three were leaning back against the wall I would be nearly against the wall but a bit forward. There was a period where it felt like I was in a trance and just allowed my body to twirl and move. At one point I felt like I had only something like a ball socket joint connecting me at the center, and my upper portion did a full 360 degree spin, forwards, not in a circular twirling motion

In the first dream, a bunch of stuff happened (dont remember this part at all) and it ended with me on a train looking around. I saw a girl I thought was beautiful and as the train was leaving for somewhere new, It was prophecized that we would fall in love. The first dream ends here.
The second dream starts and i can remember myself running beside a large concrete building with lots of large windows, underneath a concrete overhang with cylindical pillars to my right supporting the overhang. I was chasing someone that looked very familiar. Someone that looked exactly like me. I threw glass bottles forward at the person but they looked back and dodged them, I looked back to see another person chasing me, and it also looked like me. The person was also throwing bottles at me but i was able to dodge their bottles also ... i threw a bottle back at that person and hit them in the back of the head ... they had been looking back ... suddenly i was hit in the back of the head with a bottle (the bottles shattered on impact, not cutting simply dazing for a second) but I kept running... i looked forward again to see the person infront of me throwing bottles at me, and suddenly i realized the people behind and ahead of me didnt just look like me, they were me ... and when i threw bottles at him, the bottles came from the me that i was chasing and hit me in the back of the head. After figuring this out, this part of the dream faded away.
I was in a dim T shaped underpass, with stairs upwards being the center branch and the left and right being large doorways leaving the area. The top of the T shape had a ledge going inwards for two feet at a height of around 4 feet. Everything was made of concrete, and there were no doors in the doorways. I was standing there talking with the girl. I set my backpack down on the ledge and we walked a short distance away from the bag along the ledge. I felt that by leaving the bag there and walking away with her, i was putting a lot of trust in her. Suddenly she started kissing me, and we were making out. After a short period of time, i opened my eyes and looked at my bag to see someone standing there, my bag gone.
The man saw me looking at him, hesitated for a second then ran towards the stairs upwards. I set her down gently and ran after the man, and as i approached the stairs i saw her looking after me with a sad look on her face. I reached the man and grabbed him by the backpack and pulled him backwards ... i realized he did not have my bag and that one of the two other men that were suddenly infront of him must have it ... i realized then that i had made a mistake, and i would have been happier not chasing after my bag, but i had to prove something to her. I also knew suddenly when the man behind me grabbed at my arms that I should have allowed myself to hurt him instead of simply pulling him backwards to prevent him from helping his other two friends, as i was outnumbered 3 to 1 now. I felt a bag go over my head and i could barely struggle as i felt a second, larger bag go over my entire body. I woke up and the second dream ended.
The third dream.
I woke up inside of one of the other unknown three men's house, but wasn't bounded. He was talking to me and as we talked i felt we became friends. After a longer period of time of talking, he asked me to trust him on something (he wasnt asking me for anything I dont think, but im not sure), and I thought to myself, this is not someone i should trust, but he seems like a good person, so I will. I remember saying peace brother, and tapping his fist with mine, then joking that I probably couldn't have done that any “whiter,”to which he responded with a freindly laugh and said it was pretty bad but he'd seen worse. The next thing I knew, I was being bounded again, feeling like i was in serious trouble, but then the man who had been standing where my bag was opened up a box that had a gift i had intended to give the girl, and it was a pair of shoes so nice that they, combined with my earlier trust, caused the men to release me.

The next thing i knew, the men and i and some other people were at a place that looked like team fortress 2 (rectangular arena style areas, with entrance points on either end, somewhat cartoony terrain), and our mission was to get through a series of these arenas, with different challenges along the way. I remember being searched before entering some of the arenas, somewhat worried that they would find the pot that I had on me, but no one did, and i soon forgot about the drugs and it was like they were no longer on me. At one point I realized the girl that i had been prophecized to fall in love with was also running the gauntlet, and after some period of time i remember her saying “I just want to get this over with and have a baby,” to which i had mixed feelings about. I didnt feel like I knew her well enough but i was happy that she felt that way about me. I was going to decide to agree with her, but remembered something, and decided to say instead that I wanted to but i dont know her well enough yet, but was willing to get there in time. I never actually responded to her before I woke up.

Note: I am starting a two month experiment based in Mortal Mist with a couple of other users, KayTea and mentalenforcer, to make a MILD attempt at least once per night for two months straight. It seemed like this would help keep KayTea motivated, and I also think I need to get more consistent lucids and recall. I used to have a lucid most every night, sometimes more, and good recall. My numbers have crashed lately, so I hope this will get me back on the right track again. This is night one. I had one lucid, though the lucid is not the one I was aiming for in my MILD. I had the dream I was aiming for in my MILD, but it wasn't lucid… well, I guess that's sort of success…

Party Crashing
I am at what looks like an office party, I am not very pleased because I have been forced to give up on looking for a game design job for the time being and I am working at a hospital data center again. This party isn't for the data center staff, it seems the hospital never really shows their appreciation for us, rather it's for the nurses. I won't argue that the nurses are important and to be appreciated, but why do us data center computer operators always get ignored? I feel entitled to some of the celebration. They have lots of cake, it looks delicious. They won't notice if a little of it is missing… so I take a piece. The icing is the best I have ever tasted short of my mother's homemade frosting!

I eat the cake, taking time to enjoy every bite. I want more… I take more… and then some more. They are bound to notice the change now. Sure enough, they notice me there eating cake and they know I'm not supposed to be there. One of the nurses asks if I'm not from the data center, I don't want to lie, so I say yes. She says it's nice to meet me, help myself to cake if I want it. I think she might be being sarcastic, but her smile is genuine. No one minds that I'm here, so I help myself to another piece of cake. If I have to work here, I'll do it on a sugar high!

Moving Day
I am with my mother and we are looking through our new house, which is nothing short of a mansion. This house is already ours, the only thing we are doing now is looking through the place and figuring out where we are going to put our stuff. We'll need more stuff to fill a house this big! Right now the seller's stuff is still in there, but it is in the process of being moved out. Movers are coming in and going out with loads of stuff. I leave on my own and explore areas that the movers haven't come to yet. There are so many rooms, I am planning on where I'm going to put all of my crap. I must have more crap than I do in waking life. My mother is telling me not to take up too much space with my stuff. I wonder why since there is so much room. There is much more room than we need… why are we moving into a place so big? We wouldn't be moving into a house like this! This triggers a RC and I find I am dreaming.

Yay! I start by flying, I head up a wide flight of stairs to the upper level of the mansion. It is the third floor, and I see there are many windows up there to take advantage of natural lighting. I want to go outside and fly. I take a chair and try to smash a window… strong window… I hit it harder and it breaks, I clear the shards out and then leave through the window. It's time to complete a task. What do I want to do? I remember working on a video game a friend and I are making, so I decide to dream about that. I look to find a place I can use to start development of the area without starting from nothing. I am still looking for that when I wake. Damn.

Eternal Dream
I am in what looks like either a small town or maybe an area on the outskirts of a larger city. It is a pleasant area, quiet with a lot of nice shops along the streets. There is a larger shopping center at the main intersection with a store that reminds me of Walgreens, and a grocery store, an arts and crafts store like Michael's, and a bank, but everything else is a bunch of smaller shops.

As I explore the place I make note of the shops. The antique shop on the corner across the street from the shopping center is exactly how I'd pictured it. Other shops along the streets include a jewelry store, a boutique that seems to sell some unusual clothing and souvenir type items, a book store that has both new and used books for sale, a martial arts dojo / exercise gym,

a community college type place, a gun shop, and a place that announces it sells everything Renissance. There seems to be most anything anyone could want, and some things I wouldn't have thought of. Cool. I am making an effort to remember this for when I get home, I can model this stuff. I wish I had a camera or something with me to remember the place better. I continue exploring, heading towards what looks like the main city. But I can't go any farther… there is a massive sinkhole? The crevice is so deep and there is boiling lava in the bottom of it… um… wtf? I head in the other direction. I find a residential area and then another sinkhole / crevice, more lava. I wander back into the area I started in. Something is odd about the gym. The exercise machines which have always looked a bit like torture devices in their design are actually torture devices.

The people working out aren't working out, they're being tortured… burned… crushed… flayed… having their bodies forced into unnatural positions… the people I had thought were personal trainers are the torturers and they are taking pleasure in every cry of pain and plea for mercy… this isn't right… I go to look for a way out of town again, and I find a small bridge over one of the crevices. It is narrow and perilous. I try it anyway. As I cross over I am attacked by fire demons or elementals or something like that, and I wake up in bed. I get up, I have my own place, but that doesn't seem odd to me. I go into the kitchen and get a drink. It's time to get up. I want to go look at the book store and see what I can find out about creepy dreams like the one I just had.