non-lucid

Morning of February 22, 2016. Monday.

Reading time: 5 min 42 sec. Readability score: 66.



My family and I are leaving our home on Stadcor Street due to an understanding that Daniel (Zsuzsanna’s younger half-brother on her mother’s side) is ill and could make us sick. (This is illogical because he is not around or likely to visit.) I carry a big suitcase as we all leave our house. We walk toward the city of Brisbane, but I have the idea we will be walking to America to avoid getting the illness.

Eventually, we are sitting at a bus stop in an unfamiliar area with other people after I get tired of walking. (There are at least two bus shelters oriented end to end.) I am uncertain when the bus will arrive or if it will take us to our destination (closer to America, reachable by a short bridge from Australia as they are next to each other in my dream). I begin to realize that I have a car we can use that should be appearing soon. I think it is the fancy white car across the street. As I go to it, I look at the back to notice my first name written clearly above the license plate. That may be evidence it is my car though I consider it may belong to someone else. The door on the front left side is open, and we all get in, though I am the only one that sits in front. I assume the car has three rows of seats, as otherwise, all of us would not be able to fit. There is a periscope as well as an automatic pilot. I quickly drive off while vaguely thinking that it still might be someone else’s car but this is not a concern.

I safely and effortlessly drive through buildings, solid walls, and over water. I stop at a rocky cliff overlooking the ocean. I look over the cliff to see a few men wandering about on the rocks about ten feet below. Now there is an unknown homeless male with us, and I offer him food. (He has not eaten for a few days and has been wandering in the region.) I pick up a suitcase to use infra-control as a potential to create food in it, but upon opening it, there are only my family’s folded clothes inside, I then open a rucksack and reach in expectantly and see I am holding a baguette. He is cheerfully thankful, as it is his favorite food. I reach in and produce a second one, which I also give him.

I think about how the southeast section of America nearly touches the northwest section of Australia. It is like I see the Strait of Juan De Fuca (northwest above Washington state in reality) in the northwest corner of Australia, and that links to Charleston, North Carolina. Part of it could be confusing the Victoria above Washington state with the Victoria in Australia. It is not only an error of country location. I think we are still in Brisbane (the opposite side of Australia than my dream’s implication). (However, if you rotate Australia around to line up with the USA, the two Victorias are in the same area, though one is a city and one is a state.)

We are now at a Brisbane train station. It seems to be nighttime. There is a Russian wolfhound (Borzoi) lying on one of the benches. It possesses the soul of an unknown man’s ex-girlfriend. He hired a cult leader (present near a waiting train) to transform her with magic. I talk to the dog. She acts as if I am ridiculous in talking to her and makes a sarcastic remark about people who talk to dogs. There is an ambiguous awareness that I am in a bus station and the dog is a greyhound (as a Greyhound is a kind of bus). The increasing ambiguity, along with the dog’s sarcastic attitude, annoys me. I decide to help her even though she seems resigned to her fate.

I tell the young male cult leader that I will change the dog back, but he believes he is the only one with magical powers. I say, “…and now a golden candle, taller than me, appears here,” and it happens. A golden candle taller than I appears before me in a giant brass candle holder. He is amazed and stunned. It gets smaller until it is of standard size. I place it atop a small, round, wooden table that belongs to be the cult leader (even though it is a public area). Some blue, jellylike wax overflows from the giant candle holder. I apologize to him in case any of it falls out to damage the tabletop, though this does not occur. From here, looking at the mixed colors brings me into an abstract state, and I slowly wake.

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Dream errors other than known infra-control: We have not lived on Stadcor Street for years. One cannot walk to America from Australia, and they are not next to each other. I could not carry a big heavy suitcase very far in waking life. Maps (as well as location orientation) are hardly ever realistic or correct in dreams. I do not question blue wax coming from a yellow candle. I do not recognize a talking dog or magical abilities as strange.

Dream opposites: Walking south to Brisbane would imply walking in the opposite direction of where America would be, though this distorts in conflicting ways later. One of the reasons for our move to Bundaberg was concern over an illness more likely to be present in Brisbane (SARS), opposite inference to my dream’s scenario.

Dream accuracies: My infra-self is similar to my current conscious self in marriage and family status (as well as living in Australia).

Subliminal, liminal, and lucid creation and control of dream content: The summoning of the car with my name on the back is common subliminal control of the dream state, having nothing to do with real life. I have often deliberately done this in both lucid and non-lucid dreams. A car represents maintaining the illusory physicality of the dream state. Driving through buildings, walls, and over water (of which I also do with my illusory dream body without a car) is infra-control, unrelated to real life. I often use infra-control or control when lucid to create and control dream factors. The appearance of clothes is a typical infra-sign I am dreaming (as I do not wear clothes in bed while sleeping). My effort worked on the second attempt, which is common.

General concepts: It is usually harder for me to walk in both non-lucid and lucid dreams than to fly (though I usually end up flying whenever I had been walking for a time). With the highest level of lucidity, walking is more thrilling than flying, as the realism of physicality is more defined and accurate. Since early childhood, I have used reading to attain more of a focus on the dream state (though sometimes the writing changes or becomes nonsensical), especially in reading my name somewhere as here. I use yellow and creating and lighting candles (in both lucidity and non-lucidity) to clarify my conscious self identity in the dream state. The homeless man was a preconscious witness to my mode of awareness while the cult leader was this dream’s preconscious avatar. It all comes down to whether the processes of my reticular formation (RAS) have more or less control as my emerging consciousness (the dog in this case) in the waking transition. A dog usually represents how much control I have in the dream state. Animals becoming people is a common waking status, or in fact, anything going from unlikely (such as a talking dog) to resolved.

Prescience (updated same day): When I went outside tonight, I found a rucksack of the same colors and size as the one from my dream, lying just outside our house near the curb, that someone could only have dropped tonight. I felt what could have been a baguette through the canvas, but it turned out to be a tall empty water bottle. Zsuzsanna first thought a hookah was sticking out from it, and so did I for a second, until I realized it was a large hydration pack (the kind with a long transparent hose). Looking inside, I discovered it belonged to a Swedish male named Axel. The only other contents were documents, most related to applying for a tax file number. He may have lost it from his bicycle, or maybe someone stole it from him and tossed it.

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I close my eyes then start moving lucidly around my surrounding then I fall to my knees holding my stomach then grip the ground bashing the floor I scream I start to fall from the heavens then I wake up in lucidity murdering every virtual opponent I start crying as my tears start to fall I start transforming god starts worshipping me trying to banish me out of heaven until I see her again then I start moving slowly I bend down on one knee then lounge forward screaming I wake up laying in bed in darkness I close my eyes tighter my eye lids start to fall then I'm flying in the heavens looking at a vast eternity I see puppets and angels getting murder In my sight the there jus subconscious being I don't know if they really have a consciousness then I wake standing in mid air falling from my chest start bleeding then I'm falling in the ocean as I get buried under water in the ocean I wake up I close my eyes tighter then I'm in a seem less adventure where I'm in a burning forest where I stand in the wake of others persecuting me until I sleep again

Date of Dream: MON 20 AUG - 2018



Dream No. 402 - Wannabe Weight Watchers

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was in some unknown area and a girl fro high school, JS was speaking to me. In real life, she didn’t talk much and rather had a hard time communicating. In the dream though, I was surprised when she spoke in extremely fluent English, in an Aussie accent and sounded like the smartest girl on the planet. I forgot exactly what she said though.

The scene didn’t change but rather the area morphed into the dining room of my old house. So JS must have been talking to me in a really distorted version of the dining room. Eventually, there was mention that RK was about to leave when I didn’t even know he was at my house in the first place. JS wasn’t in the dream anymore. Now I walked RK to the front door and saw him out of the house.

I am then in an unknown area and there is also my mum as well as a lady from a food blog I follow online. My mum is verbally attacking me based on my weight (just like she would in real life although I don’t look anywhere near fat). I end up walking away from my mum but as soon as I sat down, the other lady came to me and was pressing down on my extremely enlarged thighs in this dream to further attack me on my weight and as she would press down on them, they would become very tingly and then numb.

Now the scene is at this park near the local primary school to my house and my mum and the lady are standing and staring ominously at me. I had just about had enough of the constant bullying and so I recommended that my mum and I face each other in an RPG style battle. My mum agreed and so the lady left so my mum and I could have a full battleground.

While standing in the grassed area of the park, I explained to my mum the rules about an RPG battle. I said to her that we would each be assigned a certain number of points as health and we would take turns attacking each other to make this number go down. If our points reached 0, we would pass out. I then mentioned that we each had a couple of special attacks but I forgot what they were, I think one of mine was called “--------- Sweeper”. Before we could start the battle, the dream ended.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- In case of extended absences with Dreamy WB, train Murray on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 402: Results (Competition #6)
Competition Night: 19
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 1.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 93.5
Total Accumulated Points: 94.5

Date of Dream: SUN 19 AUG - 2018



Dream No. 401 - Separated Sections

Dream 401 A - British Students
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was in my court and there were all these white vans parked at the side of the road just outside my house; there was also a van parked in the driveway. The next scene is slightly blurry to me. These guys have come to perform some sort of trade but I was somewhat suspicious of them. Inside the house, some of the men were interacting with my mum but I forgot what exactly happened.

I was then at Brandon Park Shopping Centre in the area close to the food court and I was talking with a bunch of people. Apparently it was a small group of students, all girls, and a couple of teachers who had come from a school in the UK, I remember calling them British students in this dream. I forgot what was spoken about specifically but I remember we covered a lot of different topics. After talking for a while, I woke up.

Dream 401 B - Super Smash Bros Team Tournament
When I fell back asleep, it felt like it was a continuation from the dream I had woken up from. One recurring aspect was the exact same group of British students and their teachers. I forgot what happened at the start of the dream. Were now in a large room which felt to me like the inside of a modern church but the room could be used for many purposes. In this case, there was a Super Smash Bros tournament taking place, seemingly being facilitated by me.

Since the British students weren’t very familiar with the environment, I thought I originally wasn’t going to include them but then I thought that this would be a memorable experience for their excursion and so I did include them within the two teams. The first team that the dream camera showed was the team that I wasn’t in. There were two of the British girls in this team as well as all these other girls but these other girls were cartoonified to look like characters from the Total Drama Island TV show.

As the facilitator, I was trying to include the British girls as much as possible and even gave them a pep talk on a few things. I said to the group of girls that even though two of them weren’t in my team, to just enjoy the experience and make the most out of them. I then reassured the girls that most of them were actually in my team. The dream camera then zoomed in to show who was in my team. Although the characters were distorted, there were a lot of familiar faces; I classified them as “friends from past and present dreams”. They all looked familiar but I can’t recall anymore who they exactly were. Only one character I can recall had a close resemblance to 9-Volt from WarioWare.

I was giving a further spiel to the British students about the tournament but I forgot what about specifically. I then turned my head away from the team and yelled out to nowhere in the room in particular, “Murray! Can you come and carry me onto the stage?!”. Then I am walking towards the back of the room to meet a human version of Murray that approaches me. He was wearing a plain blue business shirt and jeans and he has short brown spiky hair and thick black frame glasses. He picked me up effortlessly and marched me to the front of the room, placing me on the risen area.

Once he puts me down, I turn my head back to my team who are still on the lower area, focusing my attention on the British girls to say something to them. I said, “I won’t be asking him again, you see, eventually in life, you’ll be carrying yourself”. The dream ended there.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- In case of extended absences with Dreamy WB, train Murray on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 401: Results (Competition #6)

401 A
Competition Night: 18
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

401 B
Competition Night: 18
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Murray
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 5.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Summon A Dream Guide (1.0)
- 3-Day Recall Chain (3.0)

+ Previous Total: 88.0
Total Accumulated Points: 93.5



This was a really interesting concept at the end of the dream when I was talking to the British girls about how I was going to enter onto the stage. I had a thought during the time of the dream and that the dream guide bringing me onto the stage is like the parent supporting the child financially, legally, etc. And then when I said, "next time, he's not going to bring me on"; that felt like I was mentioning a symbolism of adulthood, where you'd have more responsibilities and your parents would be less involved... Interesting concept.

Date of Dream: SAT 18 AUG - 2018



Dream No. 400 - Baby Big-Head

I don’t remember much of this dream. In the first scene, there was someone carrying this Asian baby and he had a gigantic head, bigger than any baby I have seen in the real world. In the second, I was freaked out as I was riding some weird UV lit elevator along with the Incredibles. That’s all I can remember for this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- In case of extended absences with Dreamy WB, train Murray on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 400: Results (Competition #6)
Competition Night: 17
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 0.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 87.5
Total Accumulated Points: 88.0

Date of Dream: FRI 17 AUG - 2018



Dream No. 399 - Separated Sections

Dream 399 A - Nightmarish Coopers
I can’t remember much of this dream. From what I can remember, I was interacting with Sly, Bentley and Murray but they were not themselves. It seems as if though they were robotic versions and their eyes were glowing a really bright red, almost like a laser pointer with a really wide diameter. Sly and Bentley were bad but when it got to Murray, he was absolutely horrible.

His metal parts were squeaking really badly and his mouth was constantly opening and closing as if he wanted to eat me. I was absolutely terrified but it wasn’t enough to force me to wake up… In fact, I forgot what else I did in that scene. I woke up because I had to go to the bathroom.

Dream 399 B - Front Balcony Attack
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was on my front balcony and I was tapped into the WiFi on my phone. I was on Facebook and there were so many pictures of WB on there that don’t even exist in real life. I then posted something myself and when I checked back on it again, LB had left a comment but it was a long one and it was strange, because she doesn’t have decent communication standards with me in real life, in fact she says almost nothing and is rather very shy.

Once I switch the internet off and am looking up from my phone, my mum peers through the window of one of the rooms and then comes to the door, looking straight-faced but at the same time, angry. Then my dad comes and he takes it an inch further, actually coming out onto the balcony, looking really angry and wanting to physically attack me!

This time, I knew what to do and started calling out for Dreamy WB, there was no immediate response though. Rather, my dad is still being violent and I’m desperately trying to be heard by those that are responsible for placing Dreamy WB upon me. I notice that in this dream, my calls got quicker but still, nothing was happening. Eventually though, these black birds come swooping out of the sky and past the house; they don’t affect my dad though and so I wasn’t sure whether that was Dreamy WB’s doing or not.

The dream eventually moves on to another scene where I am on some unknown farm property but the sky is grey and the grass is very green, like it had been rained on a lot. There is a stranger man there that I was talking to and I was actually recapping what happened in the previous scene. At the barn nearby, I demonstrated to him what happened.

I was then on the grass again and was trying to think up a title for the dream. The dream falsely numbered it though as Dream No. 386. The man came next to me and tried to help me think up an ideal title. There was talk by the man, a suggestion of something including “Leading On A Wild Goose Chase”. After that, the dream ended and I woke up.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Dreamy WB or Murray go to console an upset dream character (Achieved? CANCELLED)
- In case of extended absences with Dreamy WB, train Murray on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 399: Results (Competition #6)

399 A
Competition Night: 16
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

399 B
Competition Night: 16
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 1.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 86.0
Total Accumulated Points: 87.5

Date of Dream: WED 15 AUG - 2018



Dream No. 398 - This Is Not Familiar School

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was in a completely unknown area that once again, was all smoky and looked all war-torn. There were all these mini figurines of Luigi doing something but I forgot what exactly; it was something that put them in danger though. Just like the stack form in Mario and Luigi dream team, the Luigi figures had toppled over and were crying out in distress. I managed to rescue them.

I then looked up and saw some yellowish writing in the sky that I could utilise Dreamy WB as a lifeline three times in this dream. I was still concerned for the safety of all the little Luigi figures and so I called Dreamy WB for help. There was then some invisible activity taking place but I forgot what it was.

In the next scene, I was once again in an unknown area but it wasn’t the same place. It was now some sort of underground car park and something was happening in there. This time though, I hesitated to call for Dreamy WB as I knew that this was my second time. If I went ahead, I would only have one more time to call her after that. I did end up calling for her in the car park but I forgot what happened.

I am then at my house and a maths class is taking place there, with Ms Le. being the teacher. The class was talking place in the two bedrooms at the back of the house. When I reached the two bedrooms, Ms Le. told me that I come very late. At first she wasn’t happy but then after a while, we were in the bedroom with no one else in it and she gave me special task to do.

There was then this weird yellow sheet being given to everyone which was apparently a homeroom task and the title was something like “Preparing you for TAFE”. As I was doing the worksheet, I thought they were the weirdest and dumbest questions I had ever answered. That’s all I can remember for this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Dreamy WB or Murray go to console an upset dream character (Achieved? No)
- In case of extended absences with Dreamy WB, train Murray on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 398: Results (Competition #6)
Competition Night: 14
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 3.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Help Someone In Need: Luigi (1.0)
- Summon A Dream Guide (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 83.0
Total Accumulated Points: 86.0

Date of Dream: TUE 14 AUG - 2018



Dream No. 397 - Too Much Homework

I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was enrolled back in high school but it wasn’t the high school that I attended in real life. This one seemed like a much more prestigious and elite school. The scene went straight to after school and I had received more homework than I have ever come across in one week of my waking life. When I got home, my dad was constantly yelling at me to do it, even though I was already taking the books out of my school bag.

I am then walking around the house and when I look into my study room, I see a disturbing sight; my dad is flicking through all of my private diaries! At first, I was speechless from shock but eventually, I conjured up the courage to say to him, “How would you feel if I did that with all your work files?”. My dad acted nonchalant about it and tell me he wouldn’t care one bit.

Then I went into my driveway, still revved up from the discovery that my dad was reading the diaries. I thought to myself, “If nothing else will pry him off, then Dreamy WB will… And she’ll teach him a good lesson to”. So now I was repeatedly calling for Dreamy WB but there was no response for a while. It’s only as the dream is fading out and I’m in the process of waking up that she appears.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Dreamy WB or Murray go to console an upset dream character (Achieved? No)
- In case of extended absences with Dreamy WB, train Murray on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 397: Results (Competition #6)
Competition Night: 13
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 4.0
Calculation Details:
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- 3-Day Recall Chain (3.0)

+ Previous Total: 79.0
Total Accumulated Points: 83.0

Date of Dream: MON 13 AUG - 2018



Dream No. 396 - Separated Sections

Dream 396 A - Gems In Zephyr
I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I do remember, I was in this world claiming to be Zephyr from Spyro 2, it also actually had matching music playing in these scenes. The terrain though did not match the exact elevation as in the game. So I was actually walking around myself and collecting gems, just as Spyro would. The gems were also in the same colours as in the real life game.

Close to the end of the level, a projection of the “Atlas” opened and showed that I had 600/600 gems… They weren’t all collected though, I could still see some left when I got out of the atlas. Apparently I only needed to collect 600 to complete the level but the others were just for collecting pleasure. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 396 B - A Job That I Actually Enjoy
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was in this area that was claiming to be a large canteen the Caribbean Gardens and Markets. While I was standing there, a sub-scene projection was played and it was another Spyro environment; this time it was Sheila’s Alp from Spyro 3. Sheila the kangaroo was jumping around and collecting all the gems in the area. Although not perfect, the area did have a close formatting resemblance to the game in real life.

The dream then went back to where I was and apparently I was doing part-time volunteer work at this food place. I was then behind the counter, along with Dreamy WB who was wearing an all-black outfit with a black apron on-top, only her jeans were a dark navy blue and her hair was out in an asymmetrical afro. She was demonstrating and teaching me how to wait food to the customers from the counter.

My mum then came in and pressured me that it was time to leave. I tried asking my mum if I could stay a bit longer… She reluctantly said okay but only after a few minutes, started pressuring me again. I was conflicted between doing the waiting with Dreamy WB but also having to be dragged out by my mum. Eventually though, I complied and droopily followed my mum out of the food shop. That’s all I can remember for this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Dreamy WB or Murray go to console an upset dream character (Achieved? No)
- In case of extended absences with Dreamy WB, train Murray on how to provide in-dream discipline to unruly parents (Achieved? No)

Challenges
- Start the dream off with Dreamy WB already present (Achieved? No)



Dream 396: Results (Competition #6)

396 A
Competition Night: 12
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

396 B
Competition Night: 12
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 2.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)
- Dream Guide Automatically Present (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 77.0
Total Accumulated Points: 79.0

Morning of August 20, 2018. Monday.

Reading time: 53 sec. Readability score: 74.



I am closer to the liminal space of the waking process, but there are no threads of lucidity. My clueless infra-self is in bed at our present address.

Threads of my conscious self do not make much effort to create detail. I see only an expanse of floorboards, implying a much larger area beyond our bed than exists in reality.

Vague ideas about dogs and how they represent control of the dream state occur. (Again, I am not lucid, so this is infra-control.) A black dog’s head pushes up through the floorboards and moves left to right almost as if it is swimming like a person (as the other floorboards make way for it). I only ever see its front half. After a time, it becomes an unfamiliar man, seen from the chest up, who begins reading cheerful poetry from a small book he is holding.

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In real life, neighbors’ dogs sometimes used to run under our house and bump their heads against the bottoms of the floorboards (though now we have a fence across all areas). One of our cats was making noise under the house recently as well. The concept of reading (though usually regarding me trying to read) is an attempt to achieve more awareness while in the dream state. It is something I have practiced since early childhood.

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Aug 21 2018

I went to sleep around 11:45 or 12. As I was falling asleep, I performed the Progressive Relaxation technique mentioned in LaBerge's ETWOLD. During the relaxation, I continuously repeated to myself that whenever I saw either of my parents or my fiance, I would do an RC and question whether I was dreaming or not (one of them almost always show up at some point).* I enforced this by looking over at my fiance and doing reality checks. (I've always been aware that they are dream signs but this is the first time I've tried to use them to trigger RCs).

I eventually dozed off and had a few NLs that I can't remember now. I should have written them down when I woke up at 4:15 as I could still remember fragments then, but I was in shock when I awoke. My entire body was numb! I've never actually experienced waking up into SP and/or REM Atonia, only trying to induce it on myself, which never really worked.

It was amazing! I was completely calm and relaxed. Even as my dog was rearranging himself next to me and putting his paws in my side, it didn't phase me or make me any more awake. It was a state of disconnection with my body, all except gentle, almost imperceptible vibrations.

I've been reading up about visualization and imagining all 5 senses after reading arby's VILD and visualization posts. During the day yesterday, I was practicing moving my "dream arm" while my real arm remained still, and also noting how my entire body felt while walking, standing, leaning on something, sitting, etc. So naturally when I found myself in this state I did the same. The sensations were remarkably accurate! I could visualize myself standing in another room and feel all the sensations of my body being there. This alone was amazing.

I also tried to use this state and convert it into a WILD** or SSILD-then-fall-asleep, but oddly I couldn't get "relaxed enough" to fall back asleep -- my breathing was very shallow and I had to strain to take deep breaths, which pulled me out of the state momentarily (although I returned quickly each time). So I sat in this state for probably an hour or two and just enjoyed it. Eventually I fell asleep into an FA that I couldn't catch and convert (those pesky buggers!) and another NL that I do remember.

The strange thing about my NL was that it was as if my brain was actively fighting me -- now that I had identified my parents and fiance as dream signs and was using them for MILD and RCs, it removed them from all my dreams and placed in people from work that never pop up in my dreams! Strange.

Overall a weird but positive experience!

*Does this count as MILD? I'm trying to figure out how exactly to differentiate MILD from other similar techniques and it seems kind of vague. Is it just setting your intentions and/or having a mantra as you go to sleep?

**edit: Looking back in my DJ, I actually did almost WILD two or three times but got pulled back each time, back into the state. I think it helped me to identify what the feeling is like though, as it was closer than I've ever been before!

72/ Babysitting in a haunted house. Finally saw the ghost's reflection in a mirror, a little kid shadow running down the hall.

73/ In school. Ewan McGregor was our teacher, though dressed in a nerdy disguise.

74/ A sideways storm swept over the area. Clouds were greenish. I was fascinated by it while everyone else (the smarter ones) were afraid and ran for cover.

75/ Motorbiking on a mountain road. It was all snow and sunshine, rainbows reflected off the snow. Was enveloped into the colors of a rainbow and felt at peace. Never wanted to leave.

Non-dream stuff - this has been the pattern for the last few days. I woke up at 8:30 but somehow fell asleep again despite not wanting to, waking up two hours later. Been having long non-lucid dreams on the first waking but usually forget too many details by the second waking.

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Dream part 1:
I was playing a game like the new Monster Hunter, I even remember thinking "this game is too similar to Monster Hunter, feels a bit like a rip-off". It was day time but dim. I was playing a male hunter, walking around some marshland and there was an old ruin/structure, and there was an inscription on top. For some reason I changed character to a female hunter, and then used the grappling hook to get on top of the old structure. I was a bit clumsy about it but I stood close to the inscription and read it.

I can't remember what it said, but it was 3 sentences and was cryptic.

Details are missing here between the next part.

Dream part 2:
I remember I was hunting a large creature in the marshland with other hunters but then at some point there is a transition and I become a giant creature myself. I seem to remember the form I took was of a female reptilian biped, with creamy/dirty white scales. I then went around the world and met other creatures and either changed the type I was or simply got bigger.

Eventually I remember seeing a (in the dream context) god-like creature, which was so big it's difficult to describe with words; only the foot was under the clouds and even though I was a giant too my size was only of this creature's toes.

I climbed up the furry leg, which I seem to remember being brown or orange fur, getting past the clouds and seeing the sun; it had a skirt and I came to the conclusion it was female and kept climbing up her leg until eventually I reached her shoulder.

I can't remember what happened next other than I had a brief discussion with her; her father had made her upset for some reason.

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Notes:

• This is the very rare dream type I typically enjoy quite a lot even if it's non-lucid. Unfortunately I did not think to RC at any point, despite the "massive" cues.
• The last dream I had of a similar sort was a couple of years ago, but it wasn't half as detailed nor was it of the same scale.
• I think I'm still doing poorly in regards to setting intentions about dreaming lately.
• The "goddess" creature reminds me now of a character I've seen an artist portray, so I'm thinking that's where her visual appearance stemmed from.
• From the first part to the second part, the feeling of being in a game was gradually reduced, until it felt more "real", especially with the climbing. Maybe because of the physical "effort"?

Morning of August 21, 2018. Tuesday.

Reading time: 2 min 22 sec. Readability score: 65.



I am with Zsuzsanna and our family but living on Loomis Street (where they have never been in reality, and yet my dream self does not detect the setting as incorrect). My brother-in-law Bob is sitting in his armchair. My mother-in-law is present, and Zsuzsanna is annoyed by her and goes into the bathroom. However, it is the Barolin Street house’s bathroom. We are all standing in here against a different wall. Zsuzsanna is the closest to the door. I tell my mother-in-law that she is the same as ten years ago even though she is not aggressive. (It has been over twenty years. We have not seen her much in reality.)

Distracted, I decide to go to the park. The house is again the Loomis Street house before I leave. I walk north to where no park exists in reality. In my dream, it is a large area. I am eating pieces of bread. (My throat is drier than usual as I sleep.) I become aware of wanting to fly (common liminal perception of vestibular system correlation). I look up to a structure that I want to fly up onto (before flying elsewhere), but I notice that a man and woman are seated there on a bench.

An unknown male walks to my left. While talking to me, the man soon takes his real left leg off as if it was detachable. He throws it several feet ahead. He asks me how he did, as apparently, he is practicing for an Olympic event.

“There was a lot of evenness in your throw,” I reply, not knowing what else to say. He then retrieves it and deliberately throws it onto the left shoulder of an unfamiliar woman sitting at a picnic table (about twelve feet away) with others. That act seemed more like a cheerful prank.

The woman seems only slightly annoyed. I do not know if they know each other.

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I am ready to fly, but there is a subliminal awareness that the physical body in the dream state is not real. That idea projects into another dream character as throwing the leg of their illusory body (left side is usually dream-oriented while the right is directed more toward waking perception as I sleep on my left side), implying that walking is pointless in the dream state.

The earlier scene seemed preparatory for RAS (in an apparent need to wake and use the bathroom as Zsuzsanna was to the right of the door from inside the room), as both my brother-in-law and mother-in-law have annoyed me in the past (emotional trigger to cause waking). From there, I liminally created the porch buffer to vivify my dream on the way to vestibular system correlation (flight in this case), which transformed atypically.

It is typical for my dreams to mix up settings, never in the same way more than once even in tens of thousands of them, and the endless variation has fascinated me since childhood. Ultimately, this is to prevent my non-lucid dream self (infra-self) from subliminally perceiving my dream setting as a real location. That is also why many events and ideas are incorrect or the opposite as I would have them in waking life other than when biological, literal, or prescient (which reveals one of the many problems with so-called interpretation), or reactive representation of the processes in REM sleep. It fascinates me when people claim that their dream correctly rendered where they lived or have lived, as I have never experienced this in my life even in lucid dreams.

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Ice Cream collector?

I ran around doing my job, which was fixing birthday parties and it was a lot! But at the same time I needed to collect as many kinds of ice cream as possible to make the best parties. When I wasn’t running around preparing, I went to see my baby I had. A friend asked me if it wasn’t a lot of work with a baby and I said: “Nooo, not at all.” And just tucked in a bottle in the baby’s mouth. I also took the baby to my mother and told her to babysit my child, which she gladly did. I felt so stressed during the dream like I wouldn’t have the time to do all the things that I really needed to do. Later I found my phone laying in the baby’s carriage and had a look at it. Instead of showing the picture of the locked screen it showed me so many pictures it possible could in a few seconds. The time was also going faster as the pictures changed. All of the pictures were of a guy. A thought I had was that the time suddenly stopped at the time my alarm should go off. And so I realised it was a dream.



Note: My alarm went off so I woke up tho… not sure if the dream was finished or not?