non-lucid

In a hostel-type place with a maze of narrow hallways: one led to the beach but I kept going to another then a third exit. Stormy weather and I was outside. N. came to see me which made me very happy. Had a nice chat. She had left my stuff scattered on the street and I went to pick it up. She appreciated it. Saw some food stands (reminded me of a wide Siberian street, few cars) but most of the sweet potatoes were gone. I figured the rats had gotten to the food. Some of my stuff, including my bicycle, was there. Saw some other red and black seats and briefly wondered whether somebody didn't steal mine.

DREAM #1: I'm sitting in the passenger seat in my stepdad's blue Ford pickup and my mom is in the driver's seat. We are speeding near an iceberg with a few penguins sitting on top and there's a moat of freezing blue water around it. "Hang 11! Hang 11!" yells my mother, whatever that means. I realize the gas and break are under my feet but the steering wheel is on my side. Before I can hit the brake, my mom swerves the car and we keep racing down the icy road, wherever we are. Later in that dream, I remember sitting in a small wooden boat on a lake at sunset. An eccentric man with a full head of bushy hair gracefully rows by me with a cooking spoon.

DREAM #2: A women in her late 40's with long blond hair and ugly teeth is repelling down a building and she's wearing a white dress that's sliding down. Confused? Me too. Later in the dream, I'm walking my dog. It definitely looks like fall. In a pile of sand, I write, why did you reveal my body to everyone? or something like that.

DREAM #3: A man with blue eyes and thinning hair is in a bubble bath, singing a disgusting song and is being crazy. I then realize I'm dreaming, and get out of bed. I'm still wearing the same shorts and tanktop from when I was asleep, and everything looks very real. I walk downstairs where my Mom is making coffee, and I do a reality check, the pinch nose one. I can't breathe though, so I think I'm awake, and then I actually wake up. Is this my first false awakening?

06.09.2010

Looking for Gladiators... at the wrong age!! (MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


Not a bad night. A long fragment, a medium long dream and a long lucid dream.

Third:

While falling asleep I told to myself that it has been four days with no lucid, so I had to lucid dream. I started to visualize until I fell asleep.

I was working in a big store. It was like in a Target, at the groceries section. I was working around and when ahead to a aisle where help was needed. I suggested to stock the chocolate brownies together, so people could buy more. They did and they liked how it looked. I exited the store and it was day. I called my wife and then, I went back in.

I worked for a while until I went back to the aisle were I helped before. The manager from an old job I had (Olive Oil store) was around. She said to the co-workers that I had an awesome idea stocking the brownies all together. She told that it looked great and the customers would be happy. I knew she was trying to make me happy, as I recalled I quit the Olive Oil store due terrible management (plus the opportunity I got in my business) She announced she was going to smoke. A few seconds later, I followed her. I wanted to talk with her.

I exited Target, but instead of leaving, I was in another room. This was an empty room with white walls and a pale light. I exited this room as well and I reached outside. It was night now. I did not see the manager so I decided to walk out a little bit and enjoy a 5 minutes break. I looked at my hands for no reason like I would do in waking. However, I told to my self I was not dreaming. I did not notice anything odd in my hands. A few seconds later, I told to myself that I was self-employed and I did not work for Target, so I had to be dreaming. I looked at my hands and the looked blurry. The dream quality was very low. I was experiencing double conscious, feeling my dream body and my physical body. I started to fly to stablize the dream. I could see a little light coming from the top of my eyes. I tried to look for that light, however, I remember that I could see the same light I see while I am in bed and my blackness glasses are not right in front of my eyes. I recalled that I when I wrote my last night, the sun was rising, so now it had to be around 7. I pushed that "darkness" down to the height of me eyes. I only saw darkness again. A few seconds later, I was able to see properly.

I stopped to fly and landed in the street. I recalled I wanted to find Gladiators, so I started looking around. I saw an old house and entered it hoping I would find something. Inside, I saw a not so tidy living room. There were three female characters, about 14 years old each of them. They were watching TV, but they ignored me. The TV was old, but it was working. I walked around the house hopping I would find something. I went into the kitchen and a room, but found nothing.

I found a very old school remote control. This remote was old school looking, but it had a small analog screen were I could see the numbers I was pressing. The screen was green. I tried to press a year where I wanted to travel, but this remote did not have a button that said "BC" so I could not travel to the proper year, so I threw it away.

I saw a pool and jumped into it. The pool was super deep, but I was not worried, I knew I could breath. I checked my hands to remind me I was dreaming. I had a 6th small finger. I started to dive into the pool and it was gigantic. The scenery of the pool was like a Mario Bros underwater stage







I started to swim and I saw a huge whirl pool in the middle. I thought that it could be a good way to travel. I went into it and when I was getting close, a voice adviced me I could die. I ignored the warning because I knew I was dreaming. I spinned because the dream was turning blurry. I got sucked by the whirl pool and I saw how I was entering the crust of the earth. Suddenly, I was at the opposite site of the world, still inside the whirl pool. I got out of they and went to the surface. I arrived in a beach and I saw a very old castle up in the hill.







I flew to the castle and enter it. It was huge. I saw inside the castle a car repair shop. I wondered how come there was a car repair shop instead of the gladiators I was expecting to see. At the end of the car repair shop, within the castle, I saw a balcony. I hopped they would be there. I saw huge machinery, but not gladiators. I saw a small round entrance that went underground. I flew towards it and enter it.

It was a long tunnel. It was a little bigger than me. The imaginary was very stale, so I kept thinking in the dream and moving my eyes to avoid awakening. After a while, I reached the end. I was inside a somehow dark place. It looked like a factory. The walls were gray and dirty, and there was machinery noise. I saw a few DC working around and asked them, "Where are the gladiators?" They ignored me. I remember reading about dumb DC that ingore you. I screamed a couple of times until one said, "You must get out of here and go to the mall you will find at the end of the round." The place were I was supposed to exit, had no door. I pushed the wall and it broke, so I was able to exit.

My dream suddenly started to vanish, I knew I was going to wake up and though I was so close. While I was still in the dream, I remembered that if I would met the gladiators, it would not be valid. I had to be at the roman age, and I was definitely at the modern age, so I did not care in trying to recover the dream until I woke up.

Missed Dream Signs:
- None.

Noticed Dream Signs:
- I was working at target.

Reality Check Performed:
- Hand Check (failed. Turned lucid)

06.09.2010

Odd Donkey Kong game. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Not a bad night. A long fragment, a medium long dream and a long lucid dream.

Second:

I was playing a odd Donkey Kong video game and I beat the final boss. For some reason, I had to beat the final boss again, so I did remaining untouched. I saw the credits flashing very fast.

I saw a menu with like five different options to beat again the final boss. One was grabbing all the coins that popped out, other one you had to have a perfect game and one was arcade mode. I chose arcade mode.

The game now looked like the very first Donkey Kong game, but a little 3D. I almost got all the way up, however, the game went to fast when I was almost going to make it that I crushed in the wall and died. I attempted a few times, but died.

I was at home and for some reason, I had to find my cats, so I did. I found also two different cats in addition. I knew I had to go outside to find more. I saw a door by the wall, it was the first time I saw that door. I could not reached but a smal step appeared from nowhere. I was told that the step only spawned to people with good work ethics.

I stepped and opened the door. There was a black cat. It was very big and looked like a dog, but it was a cat. The cat licked me and it felt like a dog's tongue, but the face of this animal was a cat's face.

I saw a garden. It was date and the grass was tall. I saw a white puppy and a white cat, playing. I saw a few unknown DC playing with the animals. I knew I had to make the cats play together to accomplish something. I woke up.

Missed Dream Signs:
- I was playing a video game (I never play them now)
- I was in an odd house.
- A step spawned from nowhere.
- The dog-cat animal i saw.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Head for a ToTY.

Got a couple of longer fragments tonight, mostly owing to the fact that every time I woke up during the night I was too heavily fatigued to get out of bed to write some notes. I was able to prepare myself to preserve some general memories of them though, so here goes.

I was one of four famous/elite assassins/bounty hunters that included myself, my brother, a third random guy whom I don't recognize from real life, and Mandy. We all had, at least, some kind of rifle that had four ammo types: a bullet that would kill, a bullet/dart that would instantly knock someone out, a bullet/dart that would slowly knock someone out, and a dart that would shoot out a laser beam to help reveal someone's position. We were all together in a semi tractor-trailer going down a highway in some sort of desert canyon when third guy said something that seriously pissed my brother off, so he stopped the truck, jumped out, got on a motorcycle (!?), and fled backwards the way we came. I quickly jumped out and ran after him, hoping to keep him safe from my brother's wrath. I followed third guy back aways to a shack near a gas station off the highway. I told third guy to get down and hide. I saw my brother following out the window, so I readied my rifle and shot him with the laser-beam dart as he was approaching. I checked myself to see what other weapons I had on me; I had a revolver with only one bullet in the chamber so I set that down and then found another handgun with a full magazine. There was an old woman who had slowly been approaching the shack to see what was going on, as she got close to the door so did my brother. Instead of charge in or wait outside, my brother held his shotgun up to the old woman's head and demanded that we come out or he'd kill the old woman. From around the corner to the door I could see the barrel of his shotgun held up to the woman's head. From there I was able to extrapolate his position, so I aimed where his feet would be and fired two shots. I heard him cry out and fall down, so I quickly came out the door and pointed my gun at him to keep him from getting back up. I convinced him to give up trying to kill third guy, so we brought him in and sat him down. Some time shortly after, Mandy came in, carrying a long case she used to store her custom rifle, and told us that she was retiring, so we held a small retirement party. During the mini-party, I recalled one mission where we were all holed up in a shack like this one, fighting off dozens of enemies that were attacking us.

Second sequence was even stranger: through some freak of nature British law, I and one other American tourist were somehow appointed to two of four vacant seats in the British parliament. The other guy and I were seated at a group of desks with a bunch of old men who were all bickering over how to fill the remaining two empty eats. Across the room were a few rows of seats for observers. American guy and I were talking about random stuff while the old guys argued. At some point I joked that they should just grab a few more tourists to fill the seats, but they apparently thought I was serious and immediately held a vote to do so, but it was too split to pass. Afterwards, I called my wife, trying to figure out how we were going to make arrangements to move to the UK. I was talking to her as I was walking down a sidewalk, observing the traffic; I joked about how getting used to driving on the other side of the street was going to kill me.

Whew, the power went off at least twice last night! Scared the pea soup out of me at 1 A.M., but I did get to write down a dream.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

06.09.2010

Generator (Non-lucid)

The Axis Powers Hetalia characters had different names. I was coming up with scenarios for them.

Note: For the past week I've been working on a writing scenario generator.

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Stalking the Floor (Non-lucid)

Riley was walking slowly, crouched along the floor beside my bed.

In real life, I looked over the side of my bed and made a noise to get her attention - but she wasn't there.

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Two Rings (Non-lucid)

A bad guy was after these three tiny flying people for the two rings they had - one with a white diamond and one with two birthstones in it. The little people were young.

The oldest one (a boy) was captured but managed to get away, bad guy following behind. While distracting him, the little person dropped the rings in two separate places along the road. The bad guy almost caught him with the second one, but the little person distracted him again.

~ He went to a building that the other two (think one was a girl) were in. He had the diamond ring and tapped some morse code out to get their attention. They flew over and talked to him.

- There was swimming in the beginning I think, in really murky water. 'I' was worried about how I'd keep track of the other two, but then someone grabbed 'me', I think.

- In the end, the bad guy was dragged off by the police(?) for something else. Disturbing the peace?

- To fly, the little guy kept having to get a running start to get going.

My challenge proved completely false It told me if I wanted to LD, I needed to do a MILD, with WBTB and also it would last 15 minutes. I did do that but nothing happened Which doesnt mean il stop, because I like doing the challenges

Dream 1: I am with another person camping in my room. Now the whole plotline revolves around bears

First, a black bear comes in the room and tries to get in the bed. I try my best to avoid it but it is huge and intimidating. It slowly chases me around until it gives up and walks out of the room. I am relieved, but a tiny bear now comes in. Probably the other ones baby I think. We play around a little until the mother pops up to the door. I give her back her baby and ask her (in french): Ca fait qu'on est quitte? To which it answers: No hard feelings. Kind of a missed Dreamsign here And I even thought to myself: Weird, this bear talks.
But then, my uncle comes in. He tells me the two reasons why I look stupid right now. First, he already came in twice and stole trophies from my table. And also because I try to defend myself with a little stick after "he spent countless hours training on a cussion". I try to make sense with him, but the other guy in my room jumps to action, grabs my stick and starts beating his face with it. Good initiative I try to help by punching his back furiously but also look at his teeth and think: Those arent that big, why are we so scared?

Dream 2:Yet another dream about the two girls from the academy. This time, Mme Marsolais makes teams for a project in science and tells us: If you cant work with someone...(pause) you will have to do it anyway. I freak out.

Dream 3:My mother watches the news and Alain Robert almost killed himself. I talk to her about how its a coincidence we watched the documentary about him last night.

Other ones I forgot

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING


23:30 GMT – Sleep

Mystical experience
I think I fell asleep thinking about trying to have an O.B.E. I was lying on my back but think I fell asleep and got caught up between dream and waking state, I was sleeping, don’t remember being on any dream, I guess I didn’t feel any of the O.B.E. triggers so I just kind of entered this meditation state, focusing on my breathing. I was asleep but I could also feel my body and hear the external sounds. I wasn’t really fully lucid, but naturally I focused on body awareness. I felt an extreme discomfort and focused on that. I felt it multiplying. I can’t really explain what it was exactly that was multiplying, it just became multiple.

2:30 GMT

Visit to Jewish neighbourhood
I’m in a Jewish neighbourhood in the middle-east. I’m foreigner and I am escorting a small group of tourists. They are jewish-portuguese. Among them is a young boy who sees this young girl in the middle of all these bearded men from this neighbourhood and asks her something in her language but with a very bad pronunciation. She also speaks Portuguese, as she is Portuguese descendant and replies in his language, to which he replies happily. But the family of the boy scolds him and insists he must train his Hebrew.

Occupied land
I am part of a group of observers on what seems to be Palestine. We are keeping an eye on the occupying army, seeing if they don’t commit abuses of human rights. On that day we follow closely two cases that could have ended badly. First, some kids entered a military off-limits area and they barely escaped being shot by militaries chasing them on a truck. Later, a couple with a small young girl are trying to evade from this occupied area and they pass over a concrete wall, when they are spotted by an helicopter right when they are about to break free. Luckily they find some big sewage pipes, leading underground and manage to escape. Nobody else knows about them anymore.
At night I’m in a terrace, looking at the cityscape and the stars, hoping for the end of this violence and persecution.

Mystical ceremony
I then see in the sky and orb of light. I try to figure out what it is and decide I have to follow wherever it is going. I find myself entering a swamp on the outskirts of the city. As I go through the bushes, I find this open area and I see a gathering of enlightened beings and a few gurus. My main guru is taking part of some kind of wedding ceremony with his own mother. I have no idea why. Then another guru sees my enquiring look explains to me that it is only symbolic. That she has some important transmission to pass on to him, from a female tradition and to receive it, he has to symbolically marry her first.
There’s some other students of these gurus around and I hear one asking this one guru if it’s true that they can enter our minds as they want. He responds in a joking way, saying “Of course, we're like the boogy man and we will haunt your dreams. So beware.”

4:00 GMT

Fairy and deity
Me and Riverstone are by some lake, looks shallow, safe and pleasant, but we don’t dive until some guy appears – like a forest guard – and tells us is totally fine to go inside the water. The lake is actually composed of 4 lakes, connected with each other and with an island in their centre. I just wet my feet, feeling the water is warm and cozy but then I see a chameleon and it gets my attention. He is red but turning yellow as he approaches me. Then I find him amidst a bed of white flowers and he turns completely white. Then he actually transforms into a butterfly-like fairy, all white with little white orbs around it. As this fairy sits on a flower, a beautiful exotic lady, with dark skin (not black, but very tanned) – a deity? - comes hovering and blesses this fairy. I kind of receive her name on my mind but recall it very badly – something like Aedis Abba ???


5:30 GMT

Mystical insight
Something about reincarnation and non-linear timeline. In the dream it was so clear and obvious but I couldn’t make sense of it to write it down.

Wedding on an island and alien invasion
I’m on an isolated island on some facilities carrying on some secret projects. Due to some failure, there’s an alien or whatever on the loose, that we failed to contain and it will start mayhem out there. Fortunately we’re on an island where nobody lives and we hope to contain it before it finds a way to go to mainland. I’m on a boat around the island and I cross another boat with a colleague of mine, also doing his round. Then I find there’s a bunch of people who entered the island illegally. I go check what is going on – it’s a bunch of rich kids who came on a private jet. A couple is marrying and they wanted to do something original, so they had this fucking great idea of sneaking secretly into this island without permission. I wondered how they manage to come without being seen, but since everybody is looking for the alien/monster, nobody was paying attention to that detail.
Apparently they were already detected and a jeep with armed men are coming in their direction to evacuate them, but they see it and just run to the plane, managing to fly before being caught. Let’s just hope the “being” is not already with them!
Then I go back to the facilities and I meet Ugly Betty with a boyfriend who came to say that the “being” escaped and the invasion started. Then she starts preparing her weapons, which apparently were slates with loving words on it??? (very effective, for sure...)


Wounded dog on the road
I’m on a car with my mom, who’s driving. We’re on a long road crossing vast planes, but we see a dog lying down in the middle of the road. We think he’s dead so my mom just moves around him, but I have decided not to ignore the animals and people who are potentially in need of help and not necessarily already dead. So I ask her to stop and I walk back to check on the dog. He is bleeding but he moves his head slightly. I feel such despair. I want to carry it to the car, but he is bigger than he looked and I’m afraid of hurting him even more. So, I’m deciding how to carry him, when I wake up.

6:20 GMT

Lucid in a Polish village
I’m going out of a house, apparently trying to escape from being seen by some lady. I pass by these two guys sitting on a tractor. The youngest guy looks at me long and deeply and I find it strange. He seems so real! Then I get lucid. I think maybe this guy is not a DC but actually a dreamer and he also sensed that I was a dreamer. But I don’t go ask him, because meanwhile I kept moving and I left him behind. I realize I’m in this eastern-Europe like village. The roads are in stone, buildings are small and beautifully painted, 18th or 19th century like.
But I look around at other people trying to find some other dreamers, trying to find a very distinctive mark that someone is not a DC. Just for fun I go around asking people how they are enjoying this dream. They couldn’t care less. But then from my left appears Andrzej, this polish guy I know. He looks damn real. I can’t say what it is, but I feel it. Maybe he is also a dreamer. Anyway, what is he doing here? I guess we’re maybe in Poland and that’s why he’s there.
I ask him if he knows he is dreaming but he doesn’t react to the question, just asks me something else. I keep insisting and finally get his attention. I stop in front of a shop window and melt the glass, then a wall. He starts believing me and funny enough, some other person who was inside this shop gets amazed and apparently also goes lucid. But I didn’t know the person and she just disappeared, probably to explore her own lucid dream.
My friend is lucid for what seems to be his first time. He is so excited that he starts becoming really focused on really small details, like reading a poster that is on some street light post, amazed with the detail. I have to snap him out of this fascination and tell him, details are good, but don’t focus too much on only one or you will lose lucidity fast. I drag him to the wall again and tell him to try dissolve it. I don’t know why I was so pushy on this, but I guess I wanted to keep him busy to prolong his state.
He tries punching it and gets hurt. I tell him it’s not about brute force, that he has to imagine the wall is made of soft material that dissolves with touch. After trying a little bit he manages to leave a hand print on it, which is a good start. At this point is totally exhilarating and I tell “You know, there’s a bunch of people who do this often, and we organize groups and plan dream adventures together. Maybe if you could develop this capacity from now on you could join me, be one of my dream pals.”
As we walk, we end up on some dark alley and I feel some bad vibes there and decide we should go somewhere else. But a few ugly looking guys are already enclosing us and I decide our only escape is lifting up, flying. But my friend is not yet skilled on that area. I decide to try to carry him but when I grab him he transforms into a glass of juice and everything starts becoming absurd. I did fly up and saw this kind of terrace with an entry door to some house only accessible by the air. It is a tiny place and I find inside a very needed black family, with lots of kids. They sleep all in one division. I feel a protective instinct towards them and go check if the kids are sleeping well. I cuddle them and they are now little back kittens. I wake up.


7:30 GMT – Wake up

But it was at the beach and there were giant waves and I almost got knocked over by some of them. Their sizes were really unpredictable (there would be tiny waves, and then suddenly really big ones), but they flowed smoothly (the water wasn't really choppy).

Date: Sept.6
Time: 9:00am

Description: I used a couple of alarms to wake me out of my dreams, they worked. I mentioned lucid dreaming and talked about it, but it never crossed my mind that I was dreaming at that instance.

Dream 1: Okay so I am trying to find out a way to get an Xbox360 slim, I have a Wii, and some games. So I thought I could sell them. At some point in my dream I asked my parents if I should. I also had a super Nintendo to. They said something along the lines of the console being to big. So I end up at family video, but it isn't actually family video, it's looks more like block buster. I go to the desk, and the clerks ask me if I want a shirt. I say yea, I could always use more shirts. So I take it. It's like a plain tan shirt. They tell me about this premiere of a couple of big movies, that is happening somewhere, that I should go. That the actors will be acting one of the scenes. So I go, and now at a desk waiting for new clothes to put on. There a quite a few people here, so I end up in a script, were all I have to do is take a photo. I do it, and the picture, is of our backs, we retake the photo. So I end up meeting some celebrity, I think it is Lindsey Lohan. I talk to her a bit, then I mention something about dreams. She says "WAIT!!!, You have those to??!!!" all excited. I say yea, like I have full control over some dreams, they are called lucid dreams. I should of went lucid but I didn't. She says she visits other realms in her dreams. So we talk for a bit, until I am getting my old clothes back, trying to take advantage of her, I say does anyone know where I can get an Xbox360? They say no, but Lohan says something about me writing something. That I will get an Xbox360. So I receive a paper, with some info on it, and what looks like a political cartoon. I couldn't actually see the cartoon, or read the words clearly. I am now back in my living room trying to do it.


Dream Fragment: We are in this room with multiple beds, people are getting shot. Someone is jumping up and down on a bed, and another person is laying down in his bed, he gets up with a shotgun in hand and starts to kill everyone in the room. I don't recall ever being there.


Dream Fragment: We are outside, at some point I am talking with my friend Kody about Fallout: New Vegas, he already has the game for the Xbox 360, I wonder why because he had a PS3, that makes me want the game even more.


Dream 2: We are inside my house, there is this dog. Not my dog, but another dog. I think I could almost compare him to Alf. Anyway at some point he is reading a book and says something about some danger, my dream skips to my brother Josh about to jaywalk, he almost gets hit by some car, and instead we are taking off the ground and are flying around the city. I ask the dog if he can see the future, he said sometimes. He says there is a certain room, that looks like the control room from Dreamscape, is easiest to see into the future, so I say sleep in my room. Then when I fall asleep, he tries to have sex with me! I say no and pushing him back, he turns into an anthropomorphic human/animal. I tell him to resist his primal urges. That ends and now we are upstairs. The dream ends.

Dream Fragment: I see my nephew outside, talking to people younger than him as usual. I am in my living room, so I start to make some food, and him and his friends start to come into my house, I say no and tell them to leave. He does, and my mom comes into the dream and I tell her about how he gets everything for less, when I work and don't get everything he does. The dream is foggy, and I remember going outside, and doing something, but I don't know what. I just know in real life, I have more things, so I don't know what the dream meant haha.

I had these dreams a couple of weeks ago. This happened in the same night and was definitely one of the top three dreaming sessions I've ever had. I've had around 15 lucid dreams this year, but no false awakening. This time I got one!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING SLEEP PARALYSIS

LD1:I'm in a big house with some other people, the walls are covered with doors of glass and for some reason I'm in a fight. A girl enters the room and she attacks me instantly. I reach out with my hand towards her and makes it into a fist. As if by some invisible force, she almost gets crushed. Her eyes widen with shock and fear. I fling my hand to the side and she flies through the room with incredible speed. I pull her back infront of me and she slides in under a table. She gets smacked up and down all the way to the roof and back down again as I do an up- and down motion with my whole arm. I laugh evily at the ammount of power I finally have with telekinesis. Two other people comes rushing in the room and I make all three in the room face eachother in a tight bunch. I make a chain wrap itself around them all and I laugh some more as I watch them struggle in vain.

LD2:I'm on top of a large mountain with some guys. We're doing some kind of "Jackass" show and I light a ball of hay on fire and throw it at one guy. He panics and everybody laughs. Suddenly the fire spreads and I notice that the whole mountain is made out of hay. Within a few seconds the entire place is on fire and we run for our lives. I run through some woods and end up at my old house which I used to live in when I was a kid. There, next to a car, is my family. "Wait a second... This is a dream" I say to myself. I try to convince my family that this all is a dream and they don't have to fear the fire. They refuse to listen to me so I give up and walk away. I enter a plowed field and while standing there in the mud, I try to think of something to do. I can't really think of something as I remember how I had dominated with telekinesis in my last dream. I decide just to fly some and it feels awesome as usual.


LD3:I'm at a big lake with my dad and my youngest brother. I instantly know it's a dream and I convince my dad that it is. "Look, I can shoot pinecones" I say and pick one up. With it in my hand I hold it up towards the sky and it shoots up and out of sight. Ten seconds later it falls down just next to us. My dad wants to try it out and my brother too. They aren't as good as me at it but they do alright. I decide to take a swim in the big lake and as I dive off the cliff I can hear my brother yell something behind me. It sounds as if he doesn't want me to do it. I plunge into the water and it's as if I'm being propelled by an invisible force. I decide to try to fly out of it and makes a jump, just like a dolphin before on my second try, I am soaring through the air. A couple of seconds later I start to feel my body.

FA1:I wake up and I'm sure I've overslept. The neighbours are playing real loud music and I get pissed off. I wake up for real and realise I've had my very first "False Awakening"

This was the first time I could use telekinesis properly. And I've had two lucid dreams since then, in which both I could use it without any problems.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I joined the Serial Dream RPG challenge and I think this night I started engaging in it. Some lady introduced me to the game and I started working on the look of my character, although officially it hadn't start yet


NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING



22:50 GMT – Sleep

0:00 GMT
No dreams recalled

1:10 GMT

Discussion with dad
I’m at my mom’s house with her and my dad. My dad enquires me about these “things” I am involved in (namely Buddhism, spiritual practices and dream-stuff). As he is enquiring me about this, I am on the laptop just finalizing this thing on the DV forum or something like that and I start responding him by exemplifying what I was just dealing with on that moment.
He is a hardcore atheist, materialist, for whom nothing like shared dreams or reality being product of the mind is acceptable. He therefore becomes more and more stressed as I go explaining all this. My mom understands more or less what I’m saying and as usual, she is eager to learn, so she is quiet in the background. My father gets up and starts moving around a bit angry. He says I am completely off tracks and lost my reason. I try to show him that’s not the case, it is merely him who is narrow-minded. But he gets really pissed. He asks me if I trust more these “people” (I guess my fellow dreamers, my Buddhist sangha, my gurus?) than I trust his judgement. And I clearly say a resounding yes! That no matter how much that hurts him, I would more readily follow any advice from my gurus than from him, whose judgement I always had very little trust. He goes ballistic! He starts shouting and my mom now wants to intervene but I tell her not to. I tell him that I am an adult independent woman and he no longer controls me or decides for me what’s best.
My dad leaves the room, then opens the front door, but sits outside in the stairs, groaning about it. My mom then laughs and makes really nervous mockery about his reaction. She always gets upset with this frequent clash between me and dad. But I was expecting this exact reaction and I know this is a dream and therefore I was not afraid to push him to his limits – I am planting the seed. With time he will see, understand and accept that I make my own choices.

4:00 GMT

Hovercraft ride
I’m with some group of people, like we’re on an adventure and we’re by the side of a road waiting for transportation. Two vans arrive and we divide in two groups. The van I go to, then transforms into a hovercraft. The lady driver seems to be a bit crazy and as soon as she starts driving, she steps on the gas. We go through dangerous roads through mountains, on top of cliffs and we are a bit scared with her driving – on one point, we almost fell off the road – so we tell her to go slower or she we’ll damage the hovercraft as the road is quite bad. That’s the only argument that works to convince her.

Surreal bathroom landscape
Later I’m in a tall building, like a skyscraper. At this point for some reason I am entering a bathroom expecting to find someone there and I find these two black ladies, mother and young daughter, in the bathtub, very relaxed. The floor is wet. So wet, that actually it looks like a lake. I climb onto a sofa that is on the left side of the room and as I sit there, I am actually like on the edge of a lake. I see aquatic plants and I see an animal approaching. It is a bison! He is coming out of the water and the only way to do so is by also climbing to the sofa. I find this just too damn weird, the bison is huge and will for sure crush me, so I decide to leave this room and wait for whatever is supposed to happen to come to me instead.


Skyscraper fall survivors
I am now on a room with bookshelves and there’s a window where I can see the outside. We’re on some high floor and I see another building in front, as well as a viaduct a bit to the left side. Then an earthquake strikes and this building we are in, starts bending forward, like a tree. It hits the building in front and lies suspended diagonally. Before the whole thing collapses I manage to get out through the window and others (still the same group since the beginning of the adventure?) follow me. We end up on a kind of platform, which I think is part of the collapsed viaduct that was nearby. A bunch of people gathers here, looking around seeing the destruction. This black girl that was on the bathtub is exploring a bit more and her mother calls her back, because she is doing some acrobatic stunts in some other suspended platform, on a level below us. It looks very unstable but she insists in looking for survivors or something. She then returns and all together we find some way down to the ground level.

Ice-creams on underground city
After walking some time under the debris, we find an entrance to an underground part of the city and this seems to be intact and fully running. There are some guards at the door, but they allow us in. This underground place is like a city within the city, it looks like a giant mall, with cafés, shops, galleries and even hotels. I am sitting on a café table, crying. Two ladies from the group appear again by my side and order ice-creams. I feel disoriented, how can they be so cool, eating ice-creams. I decide to get up and leave but they just give me an order to go get an orange ice-cream for myself. And I go and when I am trying to pay, the cashier asks me if my money is new and good. I don’t know why he asks me that but I look in my wallet and I have lots of foreign money and some chips with insignias on it, I have no clue what they are. The ice cream is only 20 cts, which I manage to pay and ask it to be delivered at table two.

Rules of the game and entering my character
Then there’s a gap, but a lady (one of the previous ladies?) is now explaining me “the game”. She shows me a large text, like a roll of parchment she starts unfolding in front of my eyes. It’s an introduction and rules of the game. But it is so dense, so long, that I just give up after a few paragraphs and lose my interest. I continued looking at it, but at a certain point I was no longer reading it.
Then there’s another gap, but I remember starting walking through these large hallways – where everything is luxurious, like an underground avenue with hotels on both sides and fancy restaurants and art galleries. I feel I have a new different look, so I stop by a large mirror on the wall to look at myself and I look weird but cool at the same time, with long black hair, dark sunglasses and an avant-garde red dress with a stylish hood over my head. I feel I look awesome but maybe a bit too much Lady Gaga for my taste. Everybody is looking at me and I feel I need to tone down a little. I take the hood and the glasses. And adjust the dress – it actually becomes sexier, with a cleavage and tighter. Then I think I look more like what I should look like and keep going. I find this exit doors to the outside and end up in a square with a fountain. I remember lots of people moving around, coming in an out of the underground city, the outside being a bit grey, then... I don’t recall the rest of the dream.


7:30 GMT – Wake up

Good morning!

My dreams are finally starting to get a bit more fun. That means no extreme anxiety. But who knows? I might get some tonight hah! Anyways I had a few dreams tonight, no LD's tho. But they will come! Here's what I dreamt.

*I'm at the beach with my family, suddenly a wasp appear and tries to sting me. I start running for my life but it follows me to the end of a road where it is joined by a pack of its friends. I pull my shirt over my head and tries to shut it tight. I still get stung several times in the butt and it hurts like hell! I start running back towards the beach and when I reach it, they are finally gone. I lay down on the beach and pull down my pants just under the butt and show my family the warwounds. "It's not that bad actually" my sister says. I try to take a look at it but can't see much. "Really? It hurts like hell tho" I watch a grasshopper land next to my moms face.

**I'm at my friend G's house. I'm watching TV in the living room and an old gamerfriend from UK (Kyndig) is sitting in the chair next to me, shuffling his Magic the Gathing cards. "Want me to go get my deck at home, so we can have a fair fight?" I ask. He just shakes his head. Suddenly I can hear my phone ringing. I answer it and can hear it's grandpa on the other end. "Hi Matteh, I was just wondering... well... if I could... you know..." I recall that I have borrowed a TV from him and I understand that he wants it back. "Oh, don't worry grandpa! If you want it back, you can have it" I say and my mother starts freaking out. I hang up and find her in another room, pouring water on an electrical socket. "We're gonna short-circuit this place, it will make a funny noise!" She says and I get mad at her, but decides to take a piss instead. I can't really aim at the toilet seat and it gets everywhere.

***I'm with a bunch of cops and we arrest two dudes in the street. They keep screaming: "We're police! We're police!" I take away their gun and after a minute or so, talk to one of them. He's drooling like a baby and I tell him to stop drooling because it will make him get a cold. "And don't prevent those shivers! That's the body's way of trying to stay warm" I tell him and put him and his friend in the back of a truck. Suddenly we're at a big pool and everyone jumps in. "Come on Matteh, join us!" They all yell, but I'm not really in a mood for it. I can feel a tooth coming off in my mouth and I take it out. "Damn that sucks" I think for myself and put it back in there. Suddenly I see a big hot tub with a girl in it. I jump in and she is smoking hot! I can see instructions on the side of the tub and the girl in the tub, is the girl in the pictures! I state it to her but she really doesn't care about me. Suddenly another girl shows up and they start messing around. After thirty seconds or so one of them turns to me and just as I grab her, I wake up!

Amount of sleep: 9½ hours

Well that's it! I will try to write down a lucid dream I had, but that will be later on. I'm gonna make my own "List of Goals first"

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

So, I'm at an impasse. I've been faithfully DJing, as you can see, for the last 50 days. Nearly two months, now. My ability to recall dreams is much better than it has ever been before. I can say that I have progressed that much, at least. Lately my DJ activity has dipped (in terms of # of dreams per night) but mostly because I've been too lazy/tired to write them down during whenever I wake up. I feel like if I were to read over my entire DJ I'd see that I'm way too scatterbrained in terms of my efforts and attempts at induction techniques. The only thing I've done consistently is DJ and RC during the day. I think it's time for me to quit messing around and finally pick a technique to work on.

So I've strained all of the excess techniques and left my two favorites: The CAN WILD technique, developed on this forum, and the MILD technique by the big man himself, LaBerge.

Pros of CANWILD:
-LD at will, essentially.
-Seems like it'd get concrete results quicker.

Cons of CANWILD:
-Sleep Paralysis. I don't like the idea of the hallucinations. Though my fear of SP may create a self defeating mindset. If I quit fearing it and just rolled with it I may be OK.

Pros of MILD:
-No sleep paralysis.
-Seems more organic.

Cons of MILD:
-A bit harder to actually do consistently with all of the steps through the day that are required.

Suggestions?

And my fragment from last night:

I dreamt about this remnant that had been passed down a million different times abs touched a bunch of different times. Each time it got touched the person touching it imparted some sort of detail upon it.

Notes: After successfully recalling a couple of nonsensical non-lucid dreams last night, I had a positive outlook for remembering more dreams this night… and I did! A few weird non-lucids, a couple of lucids… compared to my recall of late, my recall last night was downright epic! I am sooooo happy I seem to have broken my dry spell! On a side note, when I was about to go to bed, I checked my kitties' food dish to be sure they had food for the night. I found they did… but it was covered with ants! I was very annoyed at that, since I had to stay up long enough to clean up the ants before I could go to bed, and I think that influenced a couple of my unpleasant non-lucid dreams. I had some good recall last night, but when I fell asleep, I was not successful in slipping into my WILD…

FA - I rolled over in bed, not realizing that I was in a dream, and I felt I had a lot of itches all over my body. I tried to scratch a couple places, I didn't want to have to get up and wake myself up… I remembered cleaning up ants from my cats' food dish before bed, and I thought how strange it is that after seeing ants I often get the sensation that there are ants crawling on me even if there are not. Scratching wasn't working… and I thought I felt something. I reached for my lamp to turn on the light and see if there might be a few ants in my bed, which was really going to piss me off since now I would have to change my bed in the middle of night… The light came on and revealed that my bed, and I, was covered with ants! Hundreds of them, no, thousands of them! My first response was to get up, and try to brush them off, it wasn't working, I went to call for my mom to help and I got a mouth full of ants, I spat them out and finally did call out for my mom… and that woke me up.

FA - Wow… that had been a disturbing dream… I was still feeling the ants on me from my dream, crawling all over me. I sat up and turned on the lamp by my bed… no ants, thankfully. I sat there and thought about the dream I had just had, I heard something on the floor beside my bed. It sounded weird, but I figured it was most likely one of my cats down there doing something, most likely getting into something that she shouldn't be. I looked down to see which cat it was and stop the cat from doing something she shouldn't be… what I saw was the bloody carcass of a cat that was teeming with ants! The bloody cat moved, looking up at me and giving off a pained meow, as I was paralyzed by the sickening horror of what was happening to my poor kitty… A scream welled up in my throat and burst out, which woke me up.

FA - That was too much… I had to go check on my kitties! My poor kitties! I sat up quickly in bed, disturbing and chasing my one cat, Midna from the room. I saw a dark form of her as she ran from the room, well, at least she was ok, but I wanted to see my other two cats before I could go back to sleep. I left my room and went into my game room, my black cat, Shadow, met me at the door with a meow. I scooped her into my arms and cuddled her for a bit, then I left that room, looking to find Princess, my fluffy white cat. She wasn't in the living room or the kitchen, she was most likely in my mom's room sleeping with my mom… I didn't want to disturb my mother, but I couldn't go back to sleep without seeing that Princess was ok… I carefully opened the door to my mother's room, allowing just a small amount of light in, since Princess is white I would see her easily… I saw that the bed was moving, the whole bed was moving, it was nothing but a mound of ants! Ants! Why so many fucking ants?! Just like in my dream… wait… dream… I did a nose pinch RC and found out I was dreaming… just a dream… whew.

So I set the mound of ants on fire and burned them away without touching my mom or the two dogs and one cat on the bed… my mom looked over at me and sleepily asked me to turn up the air conditioner, she was hot. I said sure, then closed the door and moved away. Hmmm… enough playing with DC ants, my DC mom, DC dogs, and DC cats. What was my first goal? I remembered that my first goal was to go meet up with MoSh, we had wanted to see if Asuka knows anything about the enemies who most recently attacked her, to see if there was any connection between the attacks that happened earlier and the most recent attack, it seems like there are too many attacks for it to be random. So I opened a portal to MoSh's inner world and went through…

On the other side of the portal I found I was outside of MoSh's house in his inner world, MoSh was outside in his yard with a large black dog, I headed towards him and the dog. As I approached MoSh, however, the dog disappeared, MoSh looked a bit disappointed, though he didn't look like he was upset at me. I was hoping I hadn't interrupted anything important. MoSh said he was glad I was there, he gave me a big hug, I was a bit surprised, but I hugged him back and we went into the house. Asuka was inside the house, and we went into the living room, and there was a comfortable place to talk. MoSh wanted to know if Asuka knew the people who came after her the most recent time, she said no, she didn't know them, in fact, she didn't know any of the people who had come after her the first time they had done it… except those who had stolen her flame… and of course if they were trying it for a second or third time, of course she had recognized them. I asked her why, since she has been training with Vegeta and Tuvok, why she hadn't been doing more to defend herself… she said she thought I already knew that, she didn't want to lose control. I said I thought Tuvok and Vegeta had been helping her with that. She seemed a bit irritated about me asking that… She said she wasn't certain she could keep control.

Asuka added that someone had been trying to nab her off of Voyager one of the times she was there with Tuvok… but Q had interfered with that. I asked if Q had said who the asshole was. She said the guy had been hired by someone, but he hadn't known anything about whoever had hired him, just that he was going to get paid well and he was supposed to infiltrate Voyager to get someone. Great… more mysterious enemies. I was thinking it might still be a good idea to open a portal and try to track down and see if there might be any commonality that connects the various assholes who have gone after Asuka. I was about to say something about that and open a portal when everything faded and I woke.