non-lucid

Created Tuesday 15 May 2018

Just a a dream today. I did get several near-LD transitions, but dropped the ball each time...

Dream 1 - Dog and Paper Ploy

Scene 1 - Diligence and Fatigue
The visuals were slightly blurred. I was in a highschool classroom as a student, a science course, I believe. While the lessons were being set up, the others diligently finished up homework from their other classes. Figured this was expected of every students there. I woulda done the same, but felt too fatigued to get anything done. Unknown transition.

Scene 2 - Dog Rick
Similar visuals. Spectator mode. I was watching Rick and Morty. The title characters were at their home's lounge. Only, Rick had turned himself into a small dog, just for the heck of it. His grandson was upset, certain this was just a ploy from Rick to avoid certain responsibilities again. Through some mishap, Morty fell on his head, and went unconscious. Rick desperately looked for a way to his lab/garage, but his current form kept him from going there. Somehow, he made it outside. Dog Rick called out for help, but (for whatever reason) Morty was the only person that could understand him. Just then, a large, vicious dog jumped in, and chased after him. Warp

Scene 3 - Paper-Thin Disguise
The visuals were clearer. I was at my old job at the gas station. But now, I had the form of a small piece of paper, a receipt, maybe. Although I could speak freely, I otherwise had limited mobility. Through unknown, incredible means, I'd previously set up a disguise, a mannequin, which I controlled through a system of pulleys. This ruse allowed me to at least man the registers without suspicion.

One unfortunate breeze was all it took to put in an end to all of that. I was now on the floor, almost completely helpless. Soon, a few former co-workers passed by, of whom I could identify Chloe, Edie, and Saul. Despite the predicament, I initially thought it too embarrassing to call out for help, unreasonably presuming they'd mock me for my state. Eventually, I did do just that, if reluctantly. Edie was the first to notice, and as should've been expected, she was quite shocked. I asked her to place me back onto that mannequin machine I'd set up. She was far more concerned about my safety, but after some convincing, she complied.

Later on, I got a call from the fire department. The man on the other line had numerous questions about the security system in the building. This made me quite suspicious. I claimed most of his queries involved access to the office, which I didn't have at the moment, but that didn't seem to concern him. In an instant, Brigid, my former boss in that place, showed up to buy something. Given her bewildered look, she seemed to have seen past my disguise. Whatever the case, I handed the phone over to her, let her deal with that.

Woke up soon after.

I'm following dunkey around in some sort of imagination. We're on the coast of what he says is Wisconsin. It seems old and dusty. There's an old shack up on a hill overlooking blue water and forest coastlines in the distance. In the building I'm with someone trying to figure out a password. He asks the owner over text if there's a password for searching and he gives him that which then works for the password to get into the computer. Dunkey eventually gets into his Facebook to which it shows 11,111 notifications. He's laughing and says "is that a good thing" sarcastically. We're also in an RV thing at some point. It seems like there's a driver and then three of us in the back. Everyone wants to masturbate but the logistics aren't working out, I think someone went in the back room but then the other guy and I just sat there on our phones.

There was a dream about the CPA that was stressful. I was talking with people around me who all said that they had already taken and pass all of the CPA tests. I got stressed and felt behind so I went and sat down to start studying. There was a smiling guy on the screen that was saying that he was going to teach us how to pass. I was writing notes but I could see my mom walking around near me wondering what I was doing.

The dream scene is at JMU's showker building. I'm sitting in an accounting class that is taking forever. The class finally ends and I leave but then come back to grab a mountain dew bottle. Turns out there's several and I'm knocking some down as the professor is talking to another person. We leave and someone tells me we still have one more class and I'm so sad because I'm very tired. It's some sort of english class. We walk downstairs and in the hallway is a bunch of people carrying krispy kreme donuts. I ask Zac e for one and he tells me I can take one so I do and then say "Zac you're the best" but in a very weird way. I walked away thinking maybe it didn't sound very genuine. I go into a classroom and my classmates from UVA are there with me. I'm looking for a seat and then find one next to Korri but then Sydney takes my spot. I'm not too mad but I remember my spot was now going to be very far away. I walk outside into the hallway and into a bathroom. There are three older women talking and they see me. They ask why I'm wearing a rainbow bandana. I take a look in the mirror and I realize I'm wearing my colorful bandana so I look to one of the women and say "It's like a festival thing." I notice the bandana is really messed up and I attempt to fix it but it doesn't work so I take it off. I see in the mirror my shirt is checkered red and black while my hair is pretty messed up. I try to fix my hair on my way back to the classroom.

I walk back in and Korri says that I can sit with her now. The classroom had stairs that went down into a locker area. I'm not with a bunch of dudes like a football team going to take showers, but there's also girls down there with us. Guys are making funny jokes around me. This one dude was beat boxing in a deep voice. I transfer my clothes from one locker into another closer to a shower. The shower is a weird metal contraption that opens up and sprays down onto four different people. Before that only 2 people at a time were taking showers so I was pretty surprised by this and said out loud that more people could be taking showers. I look around and it looks like most of the guys are gone and now the girls have come to shower. Bahar was down there but I was looking away. The guy doing the beat boxing looks at the girls and says something that was supposed to be funny but was just creepy. I look away cringing.

I'm on a hill with a teammate in a fortnite style situation. There are several teams running around shooting rockets at each other.

I'm floating around in first person vision on this landscape with a forest in the background and other things in the distance. The vision is turning as I'm flexing a body part in my body but I don't have a lot of control. Someone is asking Terence McKenna a question about an organization asking for him to build them a "Franken-Cannon." He also talks about some other important thing before but I can't remember what it was. I thought I was going to go lucid but never really became fully aware.

Pig farm
Lol so this one was really interesting. No clue where it came from.

So I'm something like an intern on a pig farm. The farm is small, privately owned. Something like a micro farm (like beer micro brewery). I'm suppose to learn how to do everything around the farm. So I'm following the old owner. Guy doesn't say much, so I have to keep asking him question. Even then he doesn't tell me much, and I don't even know what questions to ask, since this topic is so new to me.

We start to gather items into a container. I think it will be the food for the pigs. There is some dry stuff, like ground up grains. Then he cuts a piece off of a slab, which is laying on a pile of slabs looking like 3 feet long polished semi precious stones called agate. Blueish greenish in color, oval, with a ring of unpolished stone. I wasn't really sure what we are doing and I was a bit uncomfortable.

Then we were taking it to the pigs. I'm walking by this large room made of wood, looking like an old barn. But it was modern. Pigs were standing in their own enclosures. I noticed they can't really move around, just stand there. But I also saw all the nice people taking care of them, much better than at other farms. It was a mixed feeling.

The owner is taking the food on some golf cart type of a vehicle. I'm not sure if he wants me to sit next to him, so I'm just following the cart. He gets into an industrial size elevator, and some other people get in as well. As I'm getting close, the doors close and I'm left behind.

But somehow I'm on the elevator. It has an open side and I can see outside. It's very nice.

At the end of the day, many members of the family gather and they are telling me that I didn't do too well. I'm like if you wanted me to learn, you should have been telling me stuff. There was also a room where kids were holding tiny pigglets and were petting them and playing with them. That was so cute.

Future Chicago
I'm on an elevated train. Looking outside at the city. A woman who is escorting me is telling me about it. I ask for the name, and she says it's Chicago. She points out some buildings and structures from the "Old Chicago", (like that fountain from Married with Children show and one tall building I recognize as well). But they seem small compared with lots of other new buildings. I know I'm in future.

I got off the computer around 7 and stopped taking in any media. That's kinda my policy now since I need processing time. I think I was asleep by my goal time of 9.

Okay so dream one not much was recalled. I recalled driving through a crowd of people to get to a mall. I had my windows wide open because I thought I knew the people. When i realised I didn't know them, I quickly shut my windows, afraid of smoke.

I came accross some friends sitting against a wall. P S and J R and some others. But I don't remember what we did or said.

There was another part to that dream I initially recalled but then fell asleep!

I dreamed again and woke from them. This time it was a little clearer but still groggy. I remembered something with being at a food store. Something about needing to use the bathroom.

I was at my Nana's. She cooked for us. I was trying to do something on my phone. There were alot of alerts on my recovery forum. I was telling someone that if they use machines for exercises, make sure their back isn't held in place, so they can adjust the angle. Trying to explain that.

There was a bully at my Nana's. He was talking about something abusively or just something that felt wrong to me, at Nana's table, with another friend. I called him out on it. He was a big guy. He tried to invalidate me. I continued writing my thing, beginning to fume.

Then 6 of us were going to give talks about a recovery topic.

My turn was last. A glass was rolling around on the floor. I was afraid the bully guy was going to say, "Just skip his turn! Let's get out of here!" I saw him more and more as a sick and wounded person, and that's where his bullying came from. Not really an evil person but acting quite hurtfully towards me, in his diseased thinking and defense mechanisms. Out of touch with true feelings.

So before he could speak, I said that it's my turn, and I don't want him to cut me off. He kind of laughed, tauntingly. I felt it was hard to speak. My voice was so quiet. The guy at the front of the room was wearing a dark black or grey shirt with yellow pumpkin carving moon design things semicircley things on it. He said, "Wrap it up" or "Hurry it up." This is always a huge trigger for me - Being told to not talk as much or something. Being oppressed, rushed, or made to feel unimportant. Not given the chance to be fully heard.

I had already been thinking of saying it in 5 sentences though since I genuinely wanted to go, too. My first sentence was, "I was born with trauma." Then I woke up. Oh, it had just been a dream.

I woke up, recalled and recorded that one. Then laid down to get back to zleep.

Falling asleep didn't seem like it was gonna happen. My legs were fidgety. But luckily, it happened. I'm glad I didn't give up because I had alot of wakefulness within my dream.

I thought I'd try just typing this instead of voice recording. Okay so initially I had a dream which was kind of underwater. It was like Sponge Bob, Mr. Krabs, Patrick, and other characters in some fight or something. It's kinda vague to me now because as you will see, the dream chain went on quite a while.

Okay so then the next thing was that I was going through a bin. It had a Pokemon crystal cartridge, but with no label. Then I was in a class room, talking to a dream figure.

She said that she didn't like classes. I remember the teacher was up front of the class and there were other kids there. I told her grades weren't such a big deal. Hey eyes opened wide at the revelation. I liked talking to her and felt I was being helpful. Not telling her to go live recklessly but just to have some balance in her life and let go of all the pressure and perfectionism.

Then everyone disappeared! I think I became lucid somewhere in there. Forgot exactly how. It must have just dawned on me.

Then I walked around and came accross a heavier set guy near a bus. He reminded me of someone I'd seen before, but now, I'm not sure who. I decided to talk to him.

"How are you?" I asked. "So, so," he replied. The words stuck with me. I don't remember the rest of the conversation, but it was pretty interesting.

Next there was a bus driver. We were near a yellow bus. There was something with maybe the bus driver being mean. I'm not quite sure.

I think there was a whole scene with non-human beings of some sort. but it got to be such a long dream chain that the details must have just faded.

What I remember next! Is waking up to dream journal. But in a false awakening! The light was on bright in my room. I was sitting at the edge of my bed and leaning on a light goldenrod brown colored table.

There was pop music playing, of a female singer. Playing loudly. I started to wonder how to turn that off. Then I realized that was my dream sign! So this might be a dream. I proceeded a bit cautiously, not being sure. I also noticed although I was sitting up to write, my voice recorder was also out.

I don't know if I tried a finger palm test then but I remember jumping up to fly. When I stayed in the air a bit extra longer, I got the sense it must be a dream.

I think that I had 3 more dream chains after this one but when I tried to recall it, I couldn't quite tell. So I will just do my best here.

I think the next part of the dream chain was the same dream. I flew downstairs and found lots of food. Ah it is so painful not knowing what I missed. I have this inner feeling there was something else cool but I just couldn't recall it. Just on the tip of my tongue, teasing me.

After flying around a little in the living room, I realized the dream was pretty stable. So I decided to go to the fridge. Then I realized there was food all around. Maybe it just appeared. Pretzels, white frosting dip in a tall tube, some sandwich things I think, and then a yellow-crust pie with purple filling appeared. The crust was really flaky.

Eating dream food is a really expansive feeling for me because I have food allergies in waking life. So I can hardly eat anything. So eating a big variety of dream food is akin to traveling the universe for me. The feeling of just being able to eat whatever I want, whenever I want, is something I can have only in a dream.

So I enjoyed the foods. I remember the pretzel was soft. I was like, "Why did Dad leave these all here?" More of a waking life thought. Then I thought of something sweeter and the pie appeared. And I dipped the pretzel generously in a big tube of white frosting. It definitely tasted sweet. I forgot the exact order of the earlier dream foods.

Maybe I rubbed my hands to stay stable around here. I know I did it at one point. Another thing was I went to drink water. I figured taking a drink of water in the dream would make me more stable because of hydration? I don't know but it made sense to me then. So I picked up a big poland spring thing. One of the ones that is like a 3 gallon water dispenser, the big plastic one. And drank from that.

I think I woke up briefly, thought about it, and popped back into it. At this point I saw the food again and wanted to be really sure it was a dream. I think a podcast or radio thing with a woman's voice was also playing.

Oh yeah I forgot. When I was floating before I tried a front flip but it didn't work.

My finger palm tests this time were very interesting. They made a kind of stringy bubble appear on the other side of my hand. I did it 4 times, just enjoying the sensation. I also attributed some dream stability to it. When I was sure, I went for more dream food.

Once I was satisfied with that, I decided to move on. Also I heard something coming, down the stairs! I became a little wary and went to the wall behind the stairs. I saw its back and it was a grey lego K'Nex creature.

I felt afraid of it. Like I had been dreaming so long that it was here to destroy me! So once it passed through the kitchen a bit (moving slowly) I went for the front door to escape.

It seemed to notice me and begin to turn around. Before I could make it to the front door. So I ran the other way to the back of the house where the kitchen door would be. However, I was surprised to find a glass door going outside to the back yard... In the middle, where the bathroom would have been!

I ran for that, hoping to jump and phase through it, saving time. Then I started to doubt myself. I wondered if the door just wouldn't open. So it was very expectational.

The door did open though, and I got out. I remember the door handles were interesting. The looked complex, designed to lock me in. As soon as I got a little bit out of there, I popped back into my bed, once more.

I feel I am missing a whole entire segment from my memory. This is what happens to some of my REM Rebound dreams when I have had insomnia. Really long dream, sometimes very lucid, but too long to remember it! And too groggy or rusty from being low on sleep and out of practice recalling longer dreams. So I guess for me regular sleep patterns would be ideal and give a higher percentage recall.

Then I laid in bed and the ringing got to be very intense. It almost scared me. More ringing than usual. At first I just laid there, seeing if I'd pop into a dream on my own. But then I decided to get up. I knew it wasn't my physical body moving, but a "dream" or "astral" body.

I stood up on my bed, still only experiencing self-proprieception, but having no sight. Like I could feel my limbs moving and my direction and all that but no sight except black. I put my arms up overhead and jumped toward my ceiling. As I jumped, I thought something like, "I want to go to a pleasant place" but those weren't the exact words. I don't remember the exact words but they felt just right.

I remember thinking that I'd like to go to a really nice expansive place. Or some place where I could face an issue, but where I'd have the strength to face it, and the support, too. Not just a place where I'd be totally steam rolled.

Well I appeared in space, surrounded by square screens or photographs. I flew around and looked at each one hanging there in space. I tried pulling some things out of the photos into 3 dimensional. In one case I got to eat salmon locks.

I just got a HUGE influx of the memory I lost. Something canine. Unfortunately it faded afterwards. Just on the tip of my tongue again.

Okay so I woke up after a little more exploration of the photographs. This time I was clearly in my physical bed, no false awakening or anything like that. I thought the dreams through.

As usual, and I will note this 100,000 times, during the dream, I felt so sure that I'd just remember it all with the utmost ease and detail. But once I woke up I realized... Oh, yeah. Uh. Wait, what just happened? So, that's just that.

I'm glad to have had such a lengthy dream. I wanted to type it right after I recalled it, instead of voice recording, then waiting to type it that day, which could be redundant. It was weird because after I recalled it, I was like, jammed up about what recording method to use. But theres a little urgency like, well, gotta try something before the memory fades.

Okay, back to sleep... Its only 5:52 A M so I should be able to sleep again.

I didn't get back to sleep. Sometimes I feel like I should be able to but don’t.

Date of Dream: TUE 15 MAY - 2018



Dream No. 332 - Pottery Is Fun

I don't remember much about this dream. From where I can remember, I was at this massive $2 shop with my mum and dad. We were looking at something to do for arts and crafts when we came across these already made pots. What came with them were all these different coloured glaze paints that you would decorate the pot with in your own time. At first, tubes of glaze paint seemed expensive, about five dollars each but then my mum found out that she was misreading the price and that it was actually thirty cents each.

I have forgotten a lot about the next scene. All I can remember is that my mum and I were talking about what to get Reece and his twin brother Bryce for their birthday. That's all I can remember for this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Re-stabilize in-dream performance from Dreamy WB; she hasn't been appearing lately (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? No)
- Investigate where my SML postage has gone (Achieved? No)
- Reach the Gyeongbokgung Palace (Achieved? No)



Dream 332: Results (Competition #3)
Competition Night: 14
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 7.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- 7-Day Recall Chain (7.0)

+ Previous Total: 90.0
Total Accumulated Points: 97.5

5/9/18
I was in Oklahoma for some reason. On a familiar body of water, there were huge sieves with plants on them. At a higher elevation, sprinklers were suspended from towers to water those plants. After entering the house across the bridge, which turned out to be my old house, I found BotW on the TV and a non-existent president. There was an explosion, so we went into the kitchen, Later, there were slides outside. Sliding down one was a light blue translucent object that was represented by "UO₂", and an object with rotary blades represented by "UEO₃". Earlier in the scene, we passed by several farms and one Cola stand. 2 people manned the stand, and nobody else was around. The weather was sunny and clear. During the sprinkler scene, I turned on Google Earth's clouds layer, which revealed a few broken cumulus clouds.

5/10/18
-F-Something about Planetshot.

5/11/18 (L)x3
-(L)-I became lucid and lost it after 10 seconds.
-(L)-Later, I became slightly lucid for 5-10 seconds.
-(L)-Later, I became lucid once again and remembered a tiny amount of stabilization.
-There was a thing where lots of characters were in a place surrounded by very rough ground. Teleporting was involved. There was a crossover episode between MLP and Avatar.
-Time traveled in a delorean. I tried to stop my past self from doing that.

5/12/18
-1-Twilight Sparkle and I tried to enter a settlement of sorts. I was a changeling. Chryssi showed up too. When we tried to approach the changeling settlement, we got flung back by a force. The closest stable area was a plain of mostly rock. The scene was a little foggy and somewhat dark, with incorrectly bright lighting. [FA] I woke up in my old house and ate ice cream.
-2-Took a music class at my college and missed a storm cell.

5/13/18 (L)
-1-I explored a building at college. The layout was completely different, and I didn't catch the fact that the interior style was very similar to one I had seen in a past dream.
-[FA]-Woke up and caught the FA. I calmly moved around in my dream bed for several seconds before a real-world lightning flash woke me up for real, eyes still closed. That was just a little bit frustrating.

5/14/18
Spending a day in this particular desert world would be like spending a week in the prime world. (time differential) Twilight Sparkle entered the desert world looking for something. Trump was looking for an object in it. Later, Twilight found what she was looking for, and it turned out to be Spike and Discord. Also, it was all an unrated fanfic that appeared in a feed on Fimfiction.
[New Scene]
There was a scene at a building in a temperate area.

5/15/18
I had some dream control over the ceiling of a place covered in snow. Also, there was a villain going around changing history, but leaving metaphorical bread crumbs for me to follow.

5/16/18
-F-Something about getting maximum score on a something.

5/17/18 (L)x6
3 WILDs, 3 DILDs. Unfortunately, due to poor recall in exam week, I don't remember much of them. There was stuff about snow, driving, a gamecube, and weird people in black suits. The first 3 LDs were the WILDs, and the following 3 were DILDs. In the final LD, I did an RC while driving a car, and when lucidity was confirmed, I immediately spun outside of it. I performed some basic stabilization (somewhat poorly) and remained lucid for close to a minute before getting distracted.

Lucid Time: 46-79 sec + 90-145 sec

The dream scene was in this massive building that served as a school but it also seemed like it was a getaway or vacation place for a group of students. One part of the dream was held in this auditorium where a teacher was lecturing and we were taking notes. The class ended and we walked down some stairs and through rooms. I went into a room that was like a study space with bookshelves but was a hangout spot too. In my head I remember that I had bought this space from the school for 300 or 400 dollars. The dream goes to other spots in the building. Back to the auditorium at some point but this time it's fairly empty except for a few people sitting in the back. I walked out of my place and saw a pool there. Someone was close by so I told them about the space that I bought.

The other part of the dream was still near this giant building but in another section that had a giant ballroom with stairs that led outside to a beach area. It seemed to be nighttime and a lot of people were drinking. I was going between the ballroom and outside. I remember shelby and zoe were there. I had gone and talked to shelby a little bit about something. I went back to my space and then came back down to the ballroom. There were a lot of kids underage drinking on this trip. Abby b and someone else came up to me and said they had come very late to the party.

I got lucid briefly. There was something with "7X" Goku. (Giant shoulder pads) I was on a merry go round thing holding on with only my hands. I fought someone and pinned them to the ground and took their gun. I forgot a really interesting part but just remember getting lucid from some objects that were a dream sign.

Date of Dream: MON 14 MAY - 2018



Dream No. 331 - My Custom KFC Menu

I don't remember much about this dream. From where I can remember, I was at a KFC store along with my mum and one of her friends. I went up to the counter to order something and the lady asked me what I wanted. I ask if I could customise the menu and she said yes. I then told her I wanted two drumsticks and two thigh piece.

In the next scene, I was at the park across the road from my old house. As I was on the swings, my statistics teacher came up to me and asked me a question about the upcoming statistics exams. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Re-stabilize in-dream performance from Dreamy WB; she hasn't been appearing lately (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? No)
- Investigate where my SML postage has gone (Achieved? No)
- Reach the Gyeongbokgung Palace (Achieved? No)



Dream 331: Results (Competition #3)
Competition Night: 13
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 0.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 89.5
Total Accumulated Points: 90.0

Morning of May 14, 2018. Monday.



In my dream, a rare event with a (fictitious) computer game is rendered. (There is no waking life source for any of the imagery or content and I have not played any sort of computer game in real life for months.) The setting is unknown, though it is implied to be our present home. As my dream self is not my conscious self, my dream self ignores the fictitious environment as not being our real home as is most often the case, and accepts it as our home. Still, there is always the potential for liminal dream control (dream control without lucidity or even recall of what a dream is).

The main goal of the game has something to do with touching objects to the television screen to make parts of the image disappear (a clever play on synaptic gating while in the dream state). The television is larger than our real one. The image is that of what is apparently an unrealistic (cartoon) dragon. There is not much else, that is, no presence of a defined background or setting.

Before RAS mediation kicks in, I play one game level while sitting on a couch a few feet from the large television. I have some sort of patch that was utilized in the code, of which allows the objects needed to materialize automatically in the container on my lap, supposedly without going through other levels or meeting certain challenges of the game. These objects look like dinosaur and dragon limbs and so on, and again, the correct pieces must be touched to the television screen to make the correlating image on the screen disappear (which realistically, is ridiculously easy, though again, their materialization is based upon other challenges when not using the cheat patch). I successfully do this in the first instance of the game.

RAS mediation kicks in, and a form of RAS personification, an unknown young male, is rendered to my right, also sitting on the couch. I talk to him about the patch that makes the game quicker to play and win. However, I forget to press F2 to activate the patch and this results in an error. The objects that materialize in the container on my lap are more random. One of them is some sort of brush with a short handle, somewhat like a miniature stiff paintbrush. I get up and use it on the television screen, but it scratches the screen near the top and does not make any part of the image disappear. I notice a few long diagonal scratches and I am annoyed, as this has ruined part of the screen. I tell the unknown male that I had forgotten to press F2, and that random objects had appeared in the container as a result.

I go off to inform Zsuzsanna of this, and looking back, see that the scratches are only visible at certain angles, but they will probably still cause picture distortion. I look again when coming back into the room and see small equidistant rectangular “windows” in the screen on the upper right, as if parts of the screen had been deliberately cut out. I know that I had not caused this damage and I am puzzled. My brother-in-law Bob (not seen since 1994, when I left America) walks about randomly. I also notice a number of other people but I do not feel imposed upon in this case. My dream fades.

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Well, the imagery of the cartoon orange dragon, I just saw at the very top of the newsfeed on Facebook after writing this (as most of my dreams contain imagery, at one point or another, of something I see a short time later in real life - I do not consider this unusual, only something that people cannot explain, though many just deny it due to it being beyond their understanding and apparent experience). Thus, the “no waking life source” I wrote above instead turned out to have the usual prescience, which was a drawing (of a dragon) another dream journalist had posted on Facebook, additionally oriented as in my dream (facing left). I did not use that picture for this entry, as I did not ask them. (It had been posted 14 hours ago at this time, but this is the first time I had seen it.) Instead, I used a similar image as from my dream.

The rest of my dream is typical autosymbolism for the dream state and waking transition. The small seemingly cutout sections of the television screen represent our four clerestory windows in real life, a literal factor of real life integrating into the otherwise fictitious dream setting. A window, as well as a television screen, is an autosymbolic function that serves as a liminal space divider, the barrier between the transient fictitious dream self and the conscious self identity in waking life. (Liminal space dividers are rendered to prevent the development of false memories as the result of the dream state, especially as most dream content comes from the transpersonal levels of the preconscious and interconsciousness, not the unconscious of which is far more accessible in waking life anyway). As a dragon often has wings, this is the usual vestibular system correlation.

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Overwatch twitch streamer
4/29/2018
In this dream I was a m2f2m transgender overwatch twitch streamer. Wow, what a combo. I was getting ~20 viewers on average. I was using a facecam and made the mistake of mentioning my real name to the audience. The viewers then searched my past and found some racy photos and private info about me that I didn't want to get out to the public. Turns out I transitioned to female- voice, breasts, and all- and took naughty pictures before getting off treatment and going back to being male. The chat started asking questions and teasing me for my life choices. I had a dream memory of wanting to be a government employee. I was called in for an interview not knowing what specific job I had wanted. They offered me various jobs, and I agreed to an office job. They started the interview for it and I just absolutely bombed the interview. I feared more private info would get out and I panicked. I left a competitive game I was in and immediately felt my heart skip a beat. The entire chat was spamming MonkaS and Pogchamp. I quickly rejoined the game, but was afraid of getting punished by blizzard, the maker of the game overwatch.
For the record I am and have always been a straight male with no desire to become female in waking life.

Mascot job and minecraft drop.
Took a job at a school being a mascot. I was not the only mascot, there seemed to be about 20 of them in total. $10 an hour, not bad. I thought I had another job lined up to start in a week, but it turns out that one fell through. I still had a dress from when I was female from before the previous dream? I didn't use it. Visited grandparents later in the dream, but forgot details.
Another dream involved going through a 20x20 hole in a minecraft world. It was part of a mountain and the entrance shrunk before opening up to a large area. I recall looking at all the beautiful scenery that showed up from the other side of this hole, and as I was walking along a cliff, someone walking with me pushed a friend of mine down the cliff. It was a very very long fall, and at the bottom was a huge pond. The pond was completely surrounded by the mountains in a circle, so I worried both for the friend surviving the fall and how they'd get back out. The person who pushed the friend down there assured me the friend would be fine, but I wasn't convinced.

5/2/2018
Another dream of me committing a crime..Must be an internal fear. I was super exited to see the POTUS AND FLOTUS in the dream. I had a mini camera. It was a stick, taller than wide, but it was small. Just big enough to peak over my hand as I clinched my fist. I took a picture of the POTUS AND FLOTUS, but was charged a crime for this. I guess it had something to do with unauthorized photography or concealed camera or something lol.
I had a choice of paying a fine or getting a small jail sentence. I was in the Overwatch League, either in contenders or open division. I was not a pro though, it was like I won a contest or something. Very awkward for me, because there was a warrant out for the crime I had committed. I guess they didn't know who did the illegal act, but they announced what the charges were? I shared with my teammates that I was the one who did the crime and that got me kicked off the team. My Asian dad(Turns out I was Asian in the dream!) tried to get me into the Shanghai Dragons. He bribed the team $5000 to let me on their team.

A few hours later I recorded these two dreams.
Visiting brother
I was visiting my brother. He was super depressed and lonely. He lived alone and was very sickly. I was visiting with a few family members. We visited to try to support and encourage him, but he was very defensive on everything we said and did. He did not want out help and he rejected us. He offered me a soda. I went to grab a glass from the cabinet and found there were no clean glasses. In fact, there was no clean dishes at all. Many were piled in the sink and scattered around the counter and floor. I then saw that the trash was way overflowing as well. I was going to clean a dish and my brother like freaked out. He didn't want me touching his stuff. He expressed that he had no clean laundry and had not taken a shower in a long time either. I pleaded with my brother to please let me do the dishes or help around the house in some way, but he drove me and my family out of the house. I left in tears realizing I may never see my brother alive again due to how sick he was and how sad his life had become. (My brother is in a bad place iwl, but he is nowhere near that depraved.)

Invictus.
I dunno what caused me to realize I was dreaming, but I looked around me and saw I was in a dark house, with little lighting. To confirm the dream and ground myself I did the nose plug RC to great success. I could breath clearly through my plugged nose. This was a strange occurrence to me, because in the past when I do that RC I could breathe indeed, but it'd usually be as if I was congested or could only barely breathe. I then remembered to check if I could plug my nose and breath through it without using my fingers, but doing so only caused me to stop breathing. I looked at my hands for a second to try to increase the dream's clarity, but it either didn't work or I rushed through it. I then tried remembering my dream goals. I thought for a second, but couldn't figure it out. I then announced that around the next corner would be someone that could interpret my dream goal. I walked around the corner and indeed someone was there!

...It was my sleeping brother. I woke him up and told him he was dreaming, and a part of my dream. I explained that he would be the one to tell me what I was supposed to do in this dream. He just mumbled a few words about invictered, invict...something. He then fell back asleep. Figures. I leave this room and walk down a hallway and see a lit room at the end. I go to the end and I see my dad. I figure he must know what it is I wanted to do now. I say that I want to spawn something, and then try to share with him the word my brother tried to say. My dad clarified the word was Invictus. Invictus is what I am to spawn in this dream. Got it. (For the record, this was never one of my dream goals. I didn't know what Invictus was at the time let alone did I want to spawn such a thing.) Invictus is supposed to be some sort of alien invader that would be reaching earth soon. I walk through the hallway and open the front door and say to the sky "Invictus will invade in ten seconds." I then start counting down from 10, while searching the house for a weapon. I can't find one within the 10 seconds I had, so I just got outside and continue the dream plot. I then say "Invictus will invade now." As I had already counted down from 10 without anything happening. I was in a random neighborhood at dusk. The sun was going down and I could only see well due to street lights. As I look for Invictus I hear and see an aircraft flying overhead. A few soldiers then spotted me from a distance and mistook me for one of the alien invaders and shot at me. I surrendered and shouted "I'm innocent!" Then then came closer and put the arms around me and started walking me through the street. I then see 2 Velociraptors run past me as I realize things are getting real now. Some soldiers shoot at the dinosaurs with no success. I then see a dragon on the sidewalk on my right!

It was a very long yellow and black chinese dragon. The soldiers shot at it too until we got closer and found it was just a kids ride you'd see at a grocery store...Now 8 or so more Velociraptors passed by on the left with a leader dinosaur guiding them. I was about to look closer at the larger dinosaur but I got distracted by a crowd of people chanting to my right. They were shouting what seemed to be political slogans. I thought it very odd until I could hear just what they were saying. They had signs that read Trump 2020 and were saying things like "SUPPORT TRUMP"(To parody the slogan 'Abort Trump') and "All Lives Matter"(Opposed to only black lives matter). They spotted someone who disagreed with what they were saying and the one in charge of the march responded that they should all go and hug the person who disagrees with them.

A scary elephant came into my room.
I was scared and felt alot of doom.
I knelt by my bed and asked for help.
It was not sleep paralysis so I could yelp.
The scary elephant whispered "roger that".
I woke up in my bed laying flat.
It turned out it had just been REM sleep.
And now I had a new dream memory to keep.

(doo doo chh, doo doo doo chh)

In another dream I found some flowerbeds.
But instead of dirt, there were reptile heads.
I could see they had a lot of thirst.
And if they got thirsty that would be the worst!
So I flew to Wal Mart in 5 minutes flat.
Got a gallon of water and gave them that.
I was just glad that they were alive.
Those reptiples almost did not survvei.

(doo doo chh, doo doo doo chh)

I got lucid in another part and saw myself flying.
Surprised to get lucid cause I wasn't even trying.
It was a clone of my physical appearance.
I tried to stabilize and give the dream some clearness.
Because I had been dreaming a while,
I thought I'd take a more conservative style.
I asked my clone, "Want to recall what we dreamt today?"
But my clone wasn't interested and flew away!!!

(doo doo chss, doo doo doo chss)

And before I end this conversation,
I also want to mention my false awake-nin'
I found I had a golden retreiver dog!
I pet him and then went to find my dream log.
This was after I tried to astro-project...
And I did neglect- to have reality-checked!
My land line rang and played a pop song.
But I was in my dreaming mind and nothing seemed "wrong"!!!

(doodely doo doo ch ch ch ch)

My last verse will be about this class,
I heard while I was cleaning a thing made, of green glass-
The teacher said, "What if, when you were a kid,
Everyone showed you love, no matter what you said or did?"
The rest of the class cheered with enthusiasm.
The other dream details must have fell in a chasm.
Those wise words will stick with me.
I remember the dream also had a tree.

(the end!)

Very long and detailed dream. Didn't write it down when I woke up from it at night, just retold it to myself with words.

I'm something like a guest in this huge house. I'm walking through it, trying to get someplace. I meet a house owner half way through and I tell him jokingly, that everytime I walk through, I see rooms I have never seen before. And I see new rooms even on the way back. It's a maze. Finding all kinds of rooms. All very nice, clean, very nicely furnished and decorated, all different. When I was talking to the owner, he was about to walk into his room. It had a huge, very nice wooden door of darker color. Old looking, like on a castle. It opened not at the edge, but swung open in the middle, like a secret door. But it was only made to look like that. Small part of the wall right next to it was glass. Super modern classy, l was impressed. He closed the door a bit while talking to me, so I don't see inside. I recognized him as this gorgeous actor.

It was time to leave and my partner and I went out to valet underground garage. It was for secret agents. They showed us an old looking box car, like UPS truck. Asked us if we want that as a getaway car. We said nope. So they got us this super sleek ride. I think it was yellow and it had two seats like in a fighter jet. He sat in the back and told me to sit in the front, I'll be steering, he will be pushing the pedals. Boy, it took me forever to squeeze into that tiny seat. But I did it and I was wondering if there will be steering sticks or a wheel.

Pretty good feeling from this dream, especially from the house. And the end was surprising.

Thank you, subC!

Date of Dream: SUN 13 MAY - 2018



Dream No. 330 - Separated Sections

Dream 330 A - Road Rules In America
I don't remember how the dream started. From where I can remember, I was roaming around the streets of America but I didn't know what state or city I was in. I was at a strip of shops, talking to some random American people. I forgot what I said to them specifically but I know I was trying to find my way around and get familiar with my surroundings. I also did a small amount of shopping but I forgot what I bought.

I was then in some outside car-park, about to get into my black rental car which resembled the model of car that Dreamy WB usually drives; but first, I needed to know how to drive on the streets of America. Logan appeared nearby in his yellow Jeffy t-shirt and some plain jeans and offered to come with me. Although it was America, the driver still sat on the right side and Logan, as the passenger, sat to the left of me.

On the roads now, he instructed me about what to do. I got the hint that I was supposed to drive on the right side of the road but then there were all these cars parked within the lane. When there was a gap of no cars, I attempted to do the right side driving. When I finally got to the right side of the road, I felt very uncomfortable driving and the car was very wobbly, going from side to side... Despite what the rules were Logan encouraged me and said it was okay to drive on the left side of the road.

There was now sub-scene playing in the dream as well. Law enforcement was talking to me and it was about arrangements in case I did something wrong during my time in America, seeing as though I didn't have much money on me. They said that if I get fined, that I can elect my next of kin to pay it for me. Focusing back on the main scene, I was now driving on the left side of the road and although I knew it was wrong, I felt comfortable without any complex driving manoeuvres.

The scene than changed completely and I was back at my house in Australia. I heard that my dad had received a penalty payment of $22,000 and I knew that this was because they caught me driving on the wrong side of the road in America. I was shocked and I said to my dad, “Dad, I don't want you paying penalties that you don't deserve. Go and tell them that Logan was the one that caused me to break the law”. I was low-key hoping that the $22,000 fine would be passed onto Logan due to false instruction and that fact that I knew what his general behaviour was like. Despite what I said, my dad insisted that he pay the penalty himself. The dream ended there.

Dream 330 B - New Installation Worries
I don't remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was at my current house but I forgot what I was doing specifically. My brother was supposedly installing new lights and other features into the family bathroom and I was supposed to go in there by myself and test all of them out. I was okay testing out all the lights but I wasn't ready to test out the bathroom fan yet, I anticipated it was going to be very loud and so I was scared of doing so.

I figured I would go and seek Dreamy WB to help me out. For a while though, I was just standing around and hesitating when I thought to myself, “Hmm, Dreamy WB has actually helped me with this kind of stuff before”. I then went out of the bathroom and started looking for her. I forgot what I did in the next part of the scene.

I came back to the bathroom and although there wasn't a physical version of Dreamy WB there; I saw a picture of her stuck onto the bathroom wall just above the tile tessellation. I walked close by and as I gazed at the picture, I felt relaxed and there was no sense of stress anymore. The picture was extremely colourful with Dreamy WB wearing her Oktoberfest outfit and in the background were hints of rubies on the left and sapphires on the right; her outfit was red. At one point I could hear my mum walking around nearby and so I was scared that she would detect a sense of Dreamy WB... Luckily, that didn't happen. I then got to finishing trying out all the newly installed features of the bathroom.

There was a scene in the middle of the dream where I was TAFE but the building looked nothing like in real life. GA was taking us for a subject but I have forgotten what the subject was. There was some random book lying around on a table and when I went to pick it up; it had a picture of Sly, Bentley and Murray on the front cover from Sly 2. Although there was nothing really important about the book. I somehow felt that Murray was present but I didn't know where he was; and the dream changed scenes again.

The next part of the dream took place at my primary school. I barely remember anything about this scene. All I can remember is that the layout of the school was the same as in real life but the designs of the classrooms were somewhat distorted. The bell had gone at 3:30 PM and so I went to look for the real WB but I forgot what I wanted her for. I got to the King Arthur Drive exit and I realised that her bus had already left. I then heard that my mum had changed to waiting for me at Galahad Crescent, so I had to run to the other end of the school; that's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Re-stabilize in-dream performance from Dreamy WB; she hasn't been appearing lately (Achieved? Partially)
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? No)
- Investigate where my SML postage has gone (Achieved? No)
- Reach the Gyeongbokgung Palace (Achieved? No)



Dream 330: Results (Competition #3)

330 A
Competition Night: 12
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Logan (?)
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

330 B
Competition Night: 12
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 8.0
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (1.0)
- Ask for advice-NL: How to drive? (1.0)
- Non-Lucid Fragment (1.0)
- 5-Day Recall Chain (5.0)

+ Previous Total: 81.5
Total Accumulated Points: 89.5



The reason that the Dreamy WB task is partially achieved is because she did provide assistance within the dream but the task will only be fully achieved when she physically appears in a human or satisfactory half-human form.

Morning of May 13, 2018. Sunday.



I find myself in an unfamiliar park at night. Zsuzsanna is present but is only about eighteen years old. My conscious self identity is not extant, though I want to be with Zsuzsanna, though it is implied we have not yet spent time together. Her father is present at one point. There is a cheerful atmosphere. A number of strange events take place with the typical timeline distortions and setting alterations. Part of the park has a cemetery, as has sometimes been the case in dreams since childhood.

At one point, Zsuzsanna is standing near me and something invisible pushes her from her right. I wave my hand to make it visible and it is a tyrannosaurus of a somewhat yellowish color. It is not rendered very realistically and I wave it off.

In one scene, I wave my hands in front of a small audience. The expectation is to cause trees to uproot and to float in the air as well as headstones being lifted from the ground to float in the air. It does not happen right away, which puzzles me (even though I am not lucid), but there is some eventual movement.

In one of the last vivid scenes, I want to be with Zsuzsanna but I am puzzled by having barnacles growing from my left shoulder and upper left arm. I realize that this is not a serious medical condition, but I think it might make me undesirable. The barnacles jut out to about two inches.

In the last sequence, Zsuzsanna is standing near me and about six people, mostly in white with numbers on their tank tops, run toward us, though we are not directly in their path, so they run past us. Soon after this, what I first consider is a wheel rolls toward us. I turn to look behind me as it rolls down the path. It turns to the right and seems to jump and then rolls a short distance into a field before stopping. The scene shifts to where I am on the Barolin Street house’s porch without realizing I had lived here once or remembering that a porch has been common autosymbolism for the waking space of a dream since early childhood.

An unknown male of about twenty is present on the porch (the preconscious). He has a backpack and had been in the marathon. He is also a skydiver. Apparently, the “wheel” that rolled and jumped was his parachute wrapped up in the circular shape and it somehow got away from him. I cheerfully tell him of how it seemed to somehow jump on its own from the side of the road, implying that it might indicate a supernatural “I am” held by the parachute itself, as if it possessed consciousness.

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Working at decoding in reverse, the last scene is the very common (once per sleep cycle for over fifty years) vestibular system correlation autosymbolism and personification of the vestibular system factor by way of the preconscious. (This always represents a subliminal anticipation of the return to consciousness due to the nature of the falling start, which is solely biological.)

The barnacle scene is from “Barnacle Bill the Sailor”, a rather ribald song my father used to perform fairly often in public. Still, the lines I laughed at the most as a child were “I’ll come down and let you in,” (sang three times in a falsetto voice), said the fair young maiden. “Well, hurry before I bust the door,” says Barnacle Bill the Sailor. Therefore, I suppose there is a very subtle liminal awareness of doorway autosymbolism as well as the autosymbolic nature of using a staircase (for changing the level of awareness in a dream). Still, there are usually transpersonal influences in levels of unconsciousness closer to waking. In this case, Zsuzsanna had been looking at a pirate outfit for a small teddy bear (which additionally is a dream state indicator), which I had not known about, so there are always intriguing external correlations and synchronicity.

The tyrannosaurus scene is a throwback to childhood dreams where I had liminal dream control and created chase scenes without my dream self fully perceiving the source of the dream events by way of the preconscious (which is how dreams are mainly rendered, not by way of the unconscious, which the dream self does not have viable access to, or so-called subconscious, as the dream self is the subconscious personified, and without much intelligence or memory unless lucid).

The cemetery is often perceived as the factor of the conscious self not being extant in the dream state, the same aspect that creates certain types of ghost autosymbolism.

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