non-lucid

The dog woke me up and needed attention so i couldn't write my journal quickly, no surprise I have forgotten a lot already.

1) I had to move a car to a carpark for some reason, I then went back out into the street and found another car parked across the road and had to move that one to the same carpark. I told someone to tell the owner if they wanted it back it was in the carpark. Some vague memory of sitting just outside the carpark eating a cake, and having to return to a ?hotel next door.

2) Really odd dream about cuttung a large piece of board and explaining how I made the cut line straight, then putting the pieces of board outside in a garage.

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1) I am duty doctor and on a home visit. I visit a woman at home, she mentions her son is a bit depressed so I speak to him, then I am told I need to see the daughter as well - she is getting dressed in her bedroom so I have to sit and wait for her. She comes out in a dressing gown and I have to examine her, I accidentally touch her breast whilst examining her and she tells that I shouldn't have done that and I get worried in case she complains about me.
I go outside to my car and realise I have already spent several hours doing this one visit and I need to get back to surgery. I put my bag in the back of a car, talk to someone, then go to my car and realise I put my bag in the back of someone else's car. I walk around trying to find which car I put my bag in but disturb a couple in a car by accident.
For some reason I have to go back in the house. I am sat down and lots of people I recognise keep walking into the room, and I presume they all live at this house. Then I am given a piece of cake and I say 'you certainly look after me here' but I'm actually starting to get very worried that I should be back at the surgery.

2) In surgery. I'm looking around for a special type of envelope. I come back to the filing area and someone has installed lots of expensive new filing cabinets and I wonder why since we are under such financial pressure when the old ones were perfectly good.

25-Jan-2017 - ND#1: Bad news (->DILD) + ND#2: Pizza with colleagues (->DILD) +fragm

Two NDs where I understand I am dreaming but no recall after that point. Meh...

ND#1:
At train station, with my wife. She tells me that a colleague S died because of bad weather in the M. area
I immediately despair, take my hands to my face.
I suddenly realize this is not very realistic, and realize I must be dreaming

ND#2:
I am at the pizzeria with many colleagues, a long table outside.
It seems it's very late, everyone has finished eating their pizza, while I still have to order mine (!)
Someone has in their dish a pizza composed of clean slices from many different pizzas, I eat that one to avoide the wait (!!)
We go to pay the bill and find out that M has already managed, I hit a high five with the waiters there (!), then when moving on I tell the colleagues M shouldn't have done that
We walk through several city streets, we split - based on where we parked, I guess - I remain with M and V.
When we get to the area where I had parked my car, I am not able to find it.
I somehow expected that to happen, and decide that if I will not find my car, that's definitely a dream.
I walk the street in both directions, I see many cars but no sign of mine, I know it's a dream.

ND#3: (fragment)
Connects to a product I priced yesterday IWL
In the dream I notice they have used that price for higher quantities than initially advised, I am kinda worried by that (?)

Wake up 4:30, WBTB, attempt WILD, but I drift to sleep

Nights 5 and 6 earned me zero points. No dream recall; no anything.

On one of these days (can't remember which), I experienced a very short WILD during a nap. It lasted about 3 minutes. During the dream, I tried to achieve my second competition goal of figure drawing (practicing a real life skill). While I was able to make a sketchbook appear, it was harder to make a model show up, and I tried to start sketching but I think I woke myself up. At any rate. I'm not going to count it this time, because I know that I can do better than that. I don't think it quite counts since I didn't really finish practicing the skill, like I didn't even finish a gesture drawing or anything.

Night 7:
Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 1: This was from my hypnagogic imagery. It's always hard for me to wake up during those and write them down, because my body is in the process of falling asleep and doesn't want to stop! However, in this one, I was walking to a castle, with Tess.

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 2: I was visiting an aquarium at a college. I believe it was either a) one I had previously visited IRL, or b) one that I thought I had visited IRL in the dream, but hadn't actually done so. There was a whale, and I can't read the rest of my notes. -_-

Non-Lucid Fragment 3: I was at a different version of my grandma's house, and a former uncle of mine was there. He either farted or fainted -- it's hard to read my handwriting dang it xD I think it was actually farted. And he was putting away some stuff in storage. The dream faded to a store/shop of some sort.

Night 8:
Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 4: There was a Pokemon, a spider and something else that I wanted but that also creeped me out. Someone or something got lured into a corner.

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 5: Theme park, roller coaster, talking with others at the stheme park.

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 6: I was making love to an older (middle-aged?) woman. She was very pretty, and it was all in all a very pleasant experience, but I remember wishing that she could somehow be Tess, my tulpa, so I wouldn't feel so guilty about what I was doing.

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 7: This one may gross you out. Just a fair warning haha. I fell in love with a lizard that was sticky and slimy. I need to stop spending so much time on DeviantART. It is dirtying up my subconscious mind. xD

Non-Lucid Dream Fragment 8: A group of shiny people were running away from something. Metallic shiny, I think? But I was "pinned down and safe." Nope, no idea what that meant. It made sense to me at the time of writing, obviously. Again, too much time on DeviantART. \o/

Night 8:

Non-Lucid Full Dream: I was still a missionary (did it a few years back). It was our day off, and I was on the computer...watching a live dog??? Ah, I still can't read that line! Another missionary was online chatting (face to face!) with Adam Young from Owl City, and I started chatting too! Adam looked a lot younger, though, and he had a security guard with him. For whatever reason, he was in a rush, so he couldn't chat for long. But he was also very kind, as I'd expect him to be.

Night 9: Got nothing. I could've at least written down some hypnagogic stuff, but I was too exhausted. It's been a difficult start to the new semester, and I haven't been sleeping enough.

Total: 1 WILD, 8 non-lucid fragments, 1 full non-lucid.

24/1/17
Dream 1: I was getting something 3d printed for university, however it keeps on coming out badly so the teacher makes it himself for me.

Dream 2: I was on a train with a friend, arrive at a party and play poker with some people.

Dream 3: I was watching a basketball game, kevin durant makes a ridiculous shot from way outside the 3 point line.

Dream 4: I was discussing with someone whether a person is worse if they do an evil act or let the thought of doing an evil act consume them.

I was apparently at some sort of store where somebody was planning to steal a tiny miniature sports car about the size of a skateboard. They were going to cause a distraction and then steal it. But somehow, the distraction was caused but I ended up stealing it. I went out the back way, sat on the car and sped off and drove for a few blocks, pretty fast, low to the ground. Then I turned it around and drove back. When I returned to the store I tossed it to a friend who was there. I believe he took a ride on it too. I did not get in trouble.


There was a mob meeting that I attended. We all wore different sorts of masks. Somebody was trying to say that I had done something bad like ratted on somebody and I was saying that I had not.

Left it too late to remember most dreams from last night.

1) Driving along a snow covered road. Dodging bullets flying at the car.

2) Inside a house, with a few friends. All wearing thick coats and ruck sacks, we were off exploring walking down corridors, can't remember much else.

D1 - Driving around looking for somewhere to park car, but with no place to go.

D2 - In my parents garden at night, again.

I am in an office, speaking to a woman named Esmeralda. She is an extremely sexy woman who resembles Olivia Munn. Our conversation is centered on the planning of some unknown function. My brother suddenly manifests in the office, dressed in a suit. We begin fighting for reasons I cannot recall. The fighting escalates to the point where my brother removes his shoes and throws them at me. I duck down as they hit the wall. We punch and kick each other in blind fury. I use loud profanity and order him to get out of the office. Esmeralda calmly watches this from her desk. My brother leaves and goes upstairs (there is a hotel above the office). As he leaves, another lady enters the office. Her name is Maria. She is the office "project manager", and she is also very attractive. I go outside to make sure my brother is gone from the premises. I am still out of breath from all the punching and kicking and it feels like my face is bleeding.

As I wander outside, I see a concrete hexagonal chute and decide to look inside it for my brother. But I get stuck when I turn around and try to exit it, and I can't return to the office. I see a fat woman pass by, heading towards to office door. I call to her from inside the chute for assistance. She pauses and looks stupidly at me. I tell her to go inside and get Esmeralda. She runs in the building, but soon comes back to tell me Esmeralda is gone. She then begins to flirt with me by crossing her legs and twirling her hair and smiling. I ask her to please go try to find someone -- I am stuck. She sticks her head in the door and calls for Maria. I tell her, "No! We need to find Esmeralda!" Recall fades. Dreamt 1/14/2017

23-01-2017
The lonely path

It was evening, dark and cold. I left my house and wandered far away to mountains. There were two paths leading through them - the easy and ordinary, and much more dangerous and remote "The lonely path". I instantly chosen the second and started walking up the path. Suddenly I found myself back at a valley close to mountains, in place where one path split in two (the ordinary and lonely). I chosen lonely path again. Then I found myself back at my house, thinking "Each time, despite different circumstances, it leads to the same decision and outcome. Each time creating a separate universe." I ran to the road and saw a few cars passing by. I made a decision just before reaching the road - I'll chose the lonely path.

24-01-2017
The prom

It was my prom made second time, as most of people wanted to repeat it. I was hesitant, but did appeared there. I was bored and wanted to leave. Everyone gathered outside the local - it was a busy city street. Everyone was talking about other participants of the party. Someone even called me bumptious.

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Penny Arcade
I'm reading a Penny Arcade strip showing a video game character wandering into and through a dry, desolate land. The guy controlling the character (not sure if it's Gabe or Tycho) is constantly sneaking, rolling, dodgeing, etc, and is very proud of himself. The other guy is mocking him for it, since there's no-one to hide or run from, and special moves consume more water than usual. In the final panel, the character has died of dehydration, the mocker is even more smug, and the player is trying to make excuses that it was worth it anyway.


Collaring a bird
I'm outside with my wife. She sees large bird up in tree and decides to put a tracking collar on it. Now I'm up on our deck, and somehow I bring the tree down (it was already looking kind of dry and in poor health) without disturbing the bird. My wife is impressed. The way the tree's fallen, the top of the tree (and the bird) are on the other side of a fence. She tries to approach the bird, but it keeps backing away. It's an odd-looking bird - very large, with a long neck. I think it may be a vulture, but I'm not sure. Eventually she gives up and gives me collar, suggesting that I grab a couple of kids and get them to help by cornering it. Unfortunately, it's still early in the day, so they haven't gotten up yet. I get them up, but then I have a better idea: instead of trying to corner it (which probably won't work, since it could fly away), I decide to try to bride it instead. Now I'm holding a Toaster Strudel (wow, it's probably been a couple of decades since I've had one of those), but my wife quite firmly says that I shouldn't do that. I don't want it to go to waste, so I eat it, and it tastes really good. Now I'm back outside with the bird. I try to approach it even more slowly than my wife did, but it doesn't matter: it still backs away from me.

Dreamed that I was preparing to go to some kind of cookout/horse race. I got out the pans for the cookout and they had not been cleaned since their last use when fish was cooked. They were dripping grease and were pretty gross. I was going to ride a motorcycle to the cookout but I had to do some maintenance on it like change the oil. My father was watching and he tried to step in when I spilled some oil but I told him I could do it myself. There was also a part where I was shopping for horse supplies. It seemed like I was planning to ride a horse in the race. Once I got to the race, I was not riding in it. Lots of people were having accidents and falling off their horses because someone had laid the track out in a circle instead of the usual oblong shape.

Also, had a dream where I was getting ready to go to a costume party. I was planning to dress up as Frankenfurter from The Rocky Horror Picture Show. I was trying to do a google search on my phone to find a picture of him but I kept mistyping his name. This “trouble using technology” has been a running theme in my dreams and I would like to transform it into a lucidity trigger if possible. I was also having a very hard time deciding what to wear. I had the white face paint on and I kept trying on different shirts, being careful not to mess up the face paint. There were other people around doing their own thing. At one point I asked someone for help removing a shirt. The whole dream had a vibe of frustration.

Standardized test
I'm with my parents, sitting at a table in a huge room, waiting to take the 9th grade end-of-year standardized test (even though I'm an adult). Earlier, I saw some of my other friends (including PS), though I don't see them now. I need the test results for something I'm applying for, though I think it's pretty silly. I'm fairly confident in my abilities - after all, I'm a college graduate, so 9th grade stuff should be easy - but what if there's something taught in 9th grade that I've forgotten because it's completely useless? As I'm waiting to be called back to the test, waiters come around to the tables. Some of them are carrying plates and silverware while others are carrying the food, some kind of shrimp/something/something combo. It actually looks pretty tasty, and I look forward to trying it.

I happen to turn around and am surprised to see that the entire room is empty except for us and the table in the corner next to us (the only table I can actually see without turning around). People start filing back in, and I realize I missed the call to use the bathroom before the test starts. I realize my bladder is already uncomfortably full, but it's too late now. I reason that, unlike these kids, I'm an adult, so I can deal with it!

I'm still in the large room, and I'm now looking at a form covering basic information. It asks me some questions about my environment, talks about requirements for getting things initialed, then says I need to initial my neighbor's form and get my own form initialed by my neighbor. I add an asterisk near the top of my page, then trade initials with a girl sitting next to me.

Now I'm in another room sitting at a long table and starting the real test. The first questions have to do with my "disobedience" in not going with the rest of the large group to the bathrooms. I try to defend myself by saying that I didn't see or hear anyone saying to go. One lady takes a hard line, but another defends me. Now I'm onto another section of the test. Each question has a whole list of possible answers, and I have to check any or all of them which I believe are correct. The first question asks about "Christians killed." The possible answers are all pretty bizarre; some are names, some are numbers. I ask a proctor for clarification but don't get anything useful. I end up choosing ones that sound right (I remember checking 170,000 among others). Now I'm onto some simple math questions, which I breeze through. I laugh at the question about calculating the CIT of an angle (dream-me thought that CIT was just another trig operation ...). After finishing all of the questions, I take a quick look over them, to make sure everything looks right, then turn it in.

Now I'm walking with a male proctor. We enter the aviation museum / base, walk past the gift shop, and go through a guarded door. The guard lets me pass without question since I'm with the proctor. Now I'm sitting down looking at the test results (my parents are there too). Each page of the test flashes up quickly on a screen, and it's hard to see what's right, what's wrong, and what my score is. As best as I can tell, I get the first two pages (basic questions and Christian deaths) wrong, but everything else is correct. At one point, a lady stops the presentation to go into detail about a page asking about a stone with a fish on top of it. Once it's all over, it displays my final score of 100%, which I find odd since I got at least two questions wrong. Oh well.


Space game
I'm playing a game (looks like Astroneer) in which I'm controlling a guy in a space suit running around on a barren planet. The gravity is very low, and he's able to jump a long way. Eventually, I come across a HUGE building. Getting closer, I can see that it's in extreme disrepair. It almost looks "shattered," and I expect that the slightest touch will probably bring the whole thing crashing down. Looking through some windows, I see what I believe is a glowing portal. I can probably use it to travel to another planet - if I can get to it without collapsing the whole place. Even if I can use it, it would probably destroy the building in the process, so it would be a one-way trip. Now three other people are near me, and we're talking about the game. I love games like this which have a shared, procedurally generated, semi-private persistent world. As we're talking about the almost-destroyed building, one of the players mentions that equipping a pair of <things> on my backpack and harvesting the terrain will occasionally fling me to a nearby planet. I don't like relying on randomness, but it seems to be my best option, so I decide to give it a shot.

Now I'm looking at a map of the solar system. The planet I'm on is colored white while unexplored planets are gray. White arrows point from my planet to others which are currently reachable. I start jumping around, going from planet to planet. I can't control where I go - I follow one of the arrows at random - but I hope that I'll be able to explore the whole system before too long, or to find a more reliable method of transport. I happen across a function which simulates where a space ship would take me - I can move around a straight line, and it highlights all the planets it's above - and I realize that there must be a way to build a spaceship (otherwise why would this function exist?).


Hoarder cleanup
I'm working outside my house. There are piles of old, broken stuff everywhere - it seems the previous owner was a hoarder. I've got other people working with me, and so far we've managed to pile things up well enough to make paths between the piles. We're working near a tall fence with a closed gate, and the lighting is poor.


Travel schedule
I'm trying to make a travel schedule for going to England. I think the trip will probably be nine days, since we'll probably be gone for two weekends plus the days in-between (it seems a shame to "waste" "free" vacation days over the weekend). As I think more about it, I realize that's probably not realistic; instead, we'll probably be flying out on a Saturday morning and returning the following Saturday evening so we have all day Sunday to recover before having to go back to work on Monday.


Controller configuration
I'm watching a couple of people flying characters over a kind of park area (trees overhead, walkways and fountains). One of them is using my Steam Controller, and he's complaining that I did a poor job setting it up for this game, since some of the controls aren't mapped. He ends up opening a gate by the expedient of sending his character ramming into it. Next to him, another guy is playing with a traditional controller. Supposedly he's doing better, but he's pushing buttons and moving hand positions faster than I can follow. The clicking of his controller buttons sounds like machine gun fire.


Dangerous swim
I'm moving through a place with many fairly narrow (20-30 feet) strips of water, then land, then water, then land. I've just started swimming through some water, and somehow I know there's a shark down below me. I hope that he stays deep and doesn't come up near the surface. As I look down, I see a red "x-ray" outline of a fisherman. At first, I think he must be in the next body of water, but I quickly realize the angle is wrong for that; he must be down under me somewhere. Now I'm on land, well past where I was before, and I approach a huge hole in the ground. I realize the fisherman is down there somewhere and start to look for a safe way down.


Fragments:
A mountain road

Mixed-up clothing