non-lucid

Morning of July 25, 2017. Tuesday.



I am in an unfamiliar room, though of which may be implied to be of our present home on W Street. There is a miniature two-storey mansion near one wall. Its appearance is unfamiliar. Still, I recognize this dollhouse as a known possession by way of a fictional backstory. It is big for a dollhouse, coming up to about the height of my waist when I am standing, though my viewpoint relevant to its size changes, especially in the last scene of my dream.

I study it for seemingly a long time. I sense the presence of my family but I mainly focus on the rooms of this intriguing miniature house. I also study the outside of it, noting every detail.

The main scene involves looking more closely at the back of the dollhouse as I turn it around, into the rooms on the second floor. There are three windows on the second floor of about the same size. I reach in through a window to turn a light on. The lights in all three rooms come on when I do this. I clearly feel (though cannot see from my position) the miniature light switch as a small bump that I push in the opposite orientation. It seems to be near the top of a flight of stairs.

Eventually, I am aware of an unfamiliar black male to my left. Curiously, I do not see this stranger as an imposer in our home. He seems cheerful. I do not learn his name (or recall it if it was given). He talks a lot, but I cannot discern most of what he is saying. It borders on gibberish, but I do eventually understand some phrases. I know some of it relates to Leonard Bernstein and a certain supposedly rare record album of his.

Looking through the middle window of the dollhouse, I see a small wooden box on the right, its shorter end adjacent to the window. Upon looking closer, I experience joy upon seeing what appear to be a number of copies of “Science Fiction Adventures” arranged vertically and facing the window. (Science Fiction Adventures was an American digest-size science fiction magazine, published from 1952 to 1954 by Science Fiction Publications.) Curiously, they seem to be of normal size (even though this would not be possible to resolve with a conscious viewpoint).

I see the rare record of Leonard Bernstein that the male was talking about. It is in a room on the first floor in the back of the dollhouse, seen through the middle window. Even though it is miniature, it seems it will be of normal size when I give it to him. At this point though, it seems to be (or change into) a thick paperback book. However, he tells me to keep it, as I start to consider that he may be homeless and have no place to keep it or to read or “listen” to it. After trying to get him to accept my gift, he still seems cheerful but declines.

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• While an aquarium (not a feature of this dream but included here for contrast) is a real-time downsized model of the unconscious mind while sleeping, a dollhouse is a real-time downsized model of the conscious mind while sleeping. This is validated by my dream self turning on the three lights (with one switch) in the back of the dollhouse, which symbolizes activating the parietal lobe (somatic sensory association area). This is additionally validated by my augmented sense of touch upon feeling the miniature light switch at this point. Somatic senses are sometimes referred to as somesthetic senses, with the understanding that somesthesis includes the sense of touch, proprioception (sense of position and movement), and (depending on usage) haptic perception. The main difference between a dollhouse and an aquarium is that an aquarium is related more to induction, although typically, less water in an aquarium over time is a transmutation into waking symbolism.
• The supposedly rare Leonard Bernstein record was on the first floor in back of the dollhouse, which would be analogous to the occipital lobe; visual cortex. (PGO waves are a feature of human REM sleep.)
• Additionally, the “Science Fiction Adventures” magazines symbolizes imagination as potentially sourced from within the mind model (as critical thinking skills are only extant when awake).
• This dream’s personified preconscious (the presumably homeless black male) follows the lifelong established rules of this dreaming component. There is no conflict as I have already activated the waking symbolism by turning on the lights (which symbolizes increasing neural activity in real time in the last stage of the waking transition, which also makes my dream more vivid).
• As the lights in the front of the dollhouse on the left of the first floor are not on in most scenes, this may be analogous of the preconscious seemingly speaking gibberish for the most part. (Language processing has been linked to Broca’s area.)
• The miniature light switch is near the top of the stairs (from the first floor); “the top of the stairs” being analogous to the emergent consciousness (a precursor to waking up), as in hundreds of other dreams I have decoded since childhood. (Scott suggests that consciousness “emerges” at the top of a hierarchically ordered nervous system. Scott compares the hierarchy of the nervous system to a flight of stairs or the rungs of a ladder. “Altered Egos: How the Brain Creates the Self”, page 126, sourced from “Stairway to the Mind” by Alwyn Scott.)
• I might assume that the Leonard Bernstein record (though which may be a book in the last scene) is a facet of the transpersonal interconsciousness. The soundwave of a musical recording might be analogous to brainwaves. (By analogy, Leonard Bernstein is a conductor. Different neural activities will produce different brainwave patterns)
• Here is an unexplainable surprise: The personified preconscious in this dream turned out to be of a precognitive thread (This is often the case, but I do not always include it in an online dream journal entry). This “same” black homeless male was across the street from our house later in the day after my dream. (Neither Zsuzsanna nor I approached him.) This is a very rare occurrence and I had never seen him before.

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Date of Dream: FRI 14 JUL - 2017



Dream No. 153 - I Want To Go Out With Mum

I remember starting off the dream at some arcade place at Knox City Shopping Centre, I forgot what specifically happened though. The dream made it so dad, my brother, Tito from SML, and I were going into the cinemas but then I never had the intention of going. So the dream split us in half, dad and my brother went in and Tito and I didn't... Instead, Tito walked off somewhere, never to be seen again.

After I was done in the bathrooms, I wanted to try and find my mum. When I did find her, she was in a normal mood but then her face was absolutely red. I said to her that I really wanted to go out with her but then she said she wasn't in the mood. I don't remember if anything else happened in this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

-1-A portal opened up next to me with a woman on the other side. The environment on that side was covered in snow. It appeared at first to take place in the Middle Ages, however I had thought that it could prove wrong later. She said,
“Can’t you hear the fireworks? They’ve been incredibly noisy.” I said,
“No, they haven’t been heard in this dimension.” After a little more dialogue, I entered her world, and she said,
“You’re in another dimension.”
Me: “Yeah, I got that from the portal opening.” I can’t remember exactly what she said, but later, she said something about “fruitlick beef” or something. In the dream, I was then suddenly eating at a table with her. There were people all around at other tables eating food. I got out a notebook so I could write down all the wacky food I may come across in that universe.

-2-A game where you were this blue thing that had that had the shape of a portion of a sphere, and you had to ground-pound your spot to keep every one of the other things out. You would have to repeatedly pound to kill all the remaining enemies. In this dream, I had a false awakening, where I was irritated because my lamp had failed to turn on so that I could write down a bunch of stuff in this dream journal.

Key:
Side Notes (Side Notes)
Title
Dream
Lucid

"Welcome to Hell"

I was at school on the sidewalk, there was a bus in front of us.
I believe I went on it for a short while but got off. It looks like a death trap, Lexi got on, I could've warned her.
A guy gets on and he has a stereotypical surfer voice and says "Wow! Cool!"
The Bus Driver then closes the door, the bus starts to float in midair and he says "Welcome to hell." (?)
The Bus starts to squish itself and it's inhabitants. There's nothing left, it went into nothingness.
I think 'Father...' (I guess in my dream the bus driver was my father.)
Later in the dream, i'm standing at the end of the side walk. I can catch my bus, it is okay.
'Not my bus, Not my bus' I think. I wave to a bus.
All of the buses passed, a blonde haired lady appears (looks like Mrs.R) tells me "Your bus was in the back with
the handicapped buses."
She helps me find my bus, we end up by stairs by a place that looks like the Lower Gymnasium at my school.
There is this Black Kid who is exactly my height, he's naked.
I ask "How old are you?"
He tells me he is 9 and a half.

Fragment

The Fire Nation is in the dream and there was a Giant Dude. (?)
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Those were the only dreams I could remember from last night, it's crazy how 90% of my dreams are about School yet I can't recognize that as a dream sign. I think I had a False Awakening last night so i'll put that down in the Global Category.
July 24th, 2017

Morning of July 24, 2017. Monday.



I am firstly not very aware of my dream’s environment (and I do not become lucid at any point). I eventually become aware of being on the outer limits of a dense forest encompassing a small lake or wide stream, seemingly late at night. I am not aware of anyone else in the region yet. I walk around in the semidarkness, uncertain of where I am, though there is no sense of danger. My dream’s setting seems loosely modeled after Mink Slough, where my brother-in-law Bob and I used to fish up until 1990, though never at night.

After a short time, I see a strange event. A car goes flying over the trees away from my viewpoint but eventually falls in another area of the forest.

I enter the forest with uncertainty as to what is going on, but without wariness. I get the impression of my brother-in-law Bob having tossed his car over the trees to get attention, as it seems he was somehow injured while fishing and the flare gun was either too far away for him to reach or he was out of flares.

I find him lying on a blanket on the ground. It appears as if he has been bleeding a lot. It also seems that he may have gotten fish hooks stuck in a few parts of his body, though this detail is not fully discernible.

About five unfamiliar males of about forty years of age emerge from my dream self’s body to offer aid as I remain more at a distance. They approach him. Bob seems somewhat cheerful, but cannot get up. My dream fades from this point as I reason the other males will give him medical attention as well as call an ambulance.

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• Induction form is water induction (most common form as water symbolizes the real-time dynamics of sleeping).
• Dream state symbolism as entering a forest (subliminal reinduction, as it occurs after the implied but precursory waking symbolism of the car in flight).
• Subliminal reinduction resets dream state, no additional waking symbolism, dream is truncated, no emergent consciousness event.
• Biologically premonitory waking symbolism present as an atypical event, partly initiated by subliminal awareness of having more blankets on my body while sleeping.
• Car (symbol of sleeping physical body in this case as it is without a driver) thrown over the forest (very common personal symbol of being in the dream state) as a subliminal annoyance of blanket weight (though it is too cool presently to sleep without them).
• Ambiguous failed flight waking symbolism is present (Bob throwing his car over the trees as analogous to a flare gun and a flare gun would be a potential waking prompt).
• Atypical personified preconscious as uncompleted emergent consciousness precursor, bleeding and lying down in need of aid (rare, though Bob usually appears in this form now).
• Dream state indicator of preconscious lying on ground (analogous to lying in bed) requiring aid (needing to leave the dream state; to coalesce back into whole consciousness).

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Detached threads:

• 1) A human being cannot throw a car through the air, let alone over trees or while bleeding and lying injured on the ground.
• 2) I have not seen Bob in real life since February of 1994 and I am unaware of his present health status (possible precognitive thread present).
• 3) Other dream characters (all unfamiliar males) emerge from my dream self’s body upon me seeing Bob on the ground. Bob does not “return” to my dream self’s body or coalesce in this case that I recall.

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I had a headache so I decided to take a nap and ended up with a lucid dream.

I was waiting to enter the dream when I feel myself transition to the inside of a invisible car. The setting is kind of faded as well but I can tell its the path to the beach. As im thinking of what might happen next I hear a call for help and I am pulled to the the edge of the beach water.Someone not visible pulls a pair of keys that appeared in my hand to try and get me inside but I pulled away. I called for Dawn next and appeared inside a white setting with nothing but us present. Except Dawn wasn't visible. I asked Dawn if I could relax in the dream next to him but I end up being pulled into another setting where I can see small houses below the passing clouds. "Ok...I dont want to go any higher"I said. The dream shifted again after that but I had a false awakening.
I got up to see my family and brother's friend in the living room table. He had brought a huge chocolate cake to share with everyone. I felt excited to have a piece after my mom asked me if I wanted some but I was too shy to thank him and looked to his unsure face, not knowing what to say. "....Is it someones birthday?" Is what came out of my mouth instead as I moved a cardboard happy birthday banner for what seemed like a little girl's party. Woke up after that.

I was younger and at a big park chatting with my mom and brother.As we chatted a average man wearing a white t shirt and short pants approached us and asked us what we thought about life. We chuckled and I responded with that it was good but brought his attention more to my younger brother. As we talked he took his white phone and began filming us than said his goodbye and left. The scene than changed to a house where I was looking at my phone. "Imagine he uploaded the video with us at the park?"I said to my mom. After curiously looking around I found his video and was like "oh shoot. I found it". When I played it I saw the part where he talked to us and i noticed I mentioned something dum about a pollo. I felt embarrassed so I skipped to where he was walking up to a man at the park and sat down to play the guitar with him. He than got up and began talking about how the world around us is filled with life, spirit. I than paused the video to see 3 likes and 8 dislikes. "Why so many dislikes? Hes so nice and peaceful". I than looked to the comments and saw negative things about him being dum and that the people in the video were retarded.Turning it off my other brother asked to see the video but I said no cause I said some embarrassing things

The Lucid Test
Inside an unfamiliar house I was told by mom to go out and buy milk. I was going to but it was night and storming. Not to mention there was a large tree branch on the living room table. "Where did that branch even come from?"I asked. "Where all branches come from. Outside" My mom responded. I than shrugged it off and decided to avoid my doom by not going outside.

I become lucid at a point in the dream where i see my cousin who I haven't seen in a long time. As she stares at a screen with her sister the dream setting changes and I come across my dream guide who appears out of no where. He tells me something than unleashes a dc for me to find. I feel something behind me than run fast to test my dream control. I entered a city as I ran than met up with my dream guide again who unleashed a group of angry boys at me. Using ninja moves with shurikens and exploding kunai I manage to make them run away but end up with a bloody dream guide. I hug him and apologize but he says its okay and than I become distracted.

My grandma, older brother and mom are next to me looking at a machine that is a cooking timer and another smaller device that looks like a can opener. They don't believe I know how to make it work and my brother is struggling so I turn the switch and the machine begins ticking. They thank me and than the dream ends

I've been very inactive here in the forums, but I still had some LDs (not in my DJ here) a few weeks ago. I lost my motivation after those LDs and haven't been recalling that many dreams lately. Like, still atleast one per day, but not as clearly as usually. But I'm getting my motivation back. But I'm getting my motivation back slowly. Here's my dream from last night anyway:

I'm not any character in the dream. I'm just watching it like it's a movie. There are two young boys (like 10 years old or younger). The other has blond hair and is very kind but seemed to be a little weird and weak and easy to bully on. He had a white shirt. The other has brown hair and seems more of an extrovert and stuff unlike the other, but is still propably not the most popular boy in the school. He has a white T-shirt. The boys are friends. They are somewhere near my IRL house. There are lots of detached houses there. Outside one house there's a girl and her mother. The girl is the boys's classmate and has a braided blond hair and a simple white dress. The mother is really obese and seems evil. She also has a purple T-shirt. Then there's some part of the dream where the boys deal with some code name or something. It was "LunNiMax". Really weird, but turns out it's related to the girl's name. Her first names where Ninni and Max apparently, but her surname is unknown. Then the boys find out Ninni has been murdered. The boys want to find out who did it. The dream ended very soon after that, but I felt like the blond boy might become the next victim.

I tried to put more detailing to this than usually, so that's why the text seemed quite long for a short dream that wasn't even remembered properly. I found the dream interesting and after woking up I kept thinking about it and what could have happened next, what where the murderer's motives, how did the girl and the blond haired boy die, did the boy even die afterall, etc.

Morning of July 23, 2017. Sunday.

Dream #: 18,479-02. Reading time (optimized): 1 min 30 sec.



I am traveling with Leonard, a pinhead I knew who also lived in the King Street boarding house. He seems younger in my dream than when I knew him in real life, only about twenty years old. (My dream self seems only about twenty as well, which is not logical as he was about twenty years older than me in waking life).

We enter a big unfamiliar boarding house in an unknown location where we may be going to stay. The layout seems more like a public restaurant with at least three sections, but without much furniture. An unfamiliar chubby male of about fifty recognizes Leonard, but he does not know me.

He tells me I will need a Louisiana driver’s license, using the term “for this state” (that may be an instinctual association with being in the dream state). I am unsure why. I think we must be in Louisiana even though I do not think I will be driving. I know I do not have one. However, instinctual dream control becomes a factor. I know if I focus on having a driver’s license, it will appear in my wallet. I pretend I have one, and it exists as I open my wallet. The unknown male confirms it, and I can stay in the building.

Curiously, I end up driving a life-size version of a Hot Wheels Bubble Car of the same kind I had in my youth. It seems to be because the unknown male wanted me to. I may be a test driver. The top, which is like a light plastic dome, does not fully close due to it being partly held up by my height (apparently designed for someone shorter). It is not problematic, but its weight is slightly annoying. Still, I enjoy driving around with no mishaps. The internal orientation seems to correlate somewhat with a Formula One car. Later, I am driving a second car (undetermined) at the request of the unknown male.

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The situation where I am driving the first car seems to be an instinctual awareness of having a heavy blanket over me while sleeping, though I am not uncomfortable. Cars in dreams, especially driving one, stems from imaginary kinaesthesia and the illusory dynamics of physicality while sleeping.

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July 22nd 1:00am-8:00am
Set at my current home, I believe..honestly I can't quite remember the first half. But for some reason we were low on money and weren't allowed to buy food from other places. I think it was also something to do with we couldn't drive the car out anymore, the person that told us this said to just buy from locals. But we don't have local stores or they carry bad food. So as mom and I are sitting in the diesel in a parking lot, a lady comes up and says she will help with money and food problems. She takes us to a store and we buy stuff, I forgot the terms of her agreement but afterwards we went to a room. In this room some people came through a portal and we started talking about stuff, I think it was about the new rules of people not being able to get food from other places. We also had these weird lights that were dim because the bulb didn't work. But when you take the bulb out, the light was much brighter. Anyway that was pretty much what I remembered, the room had tan walls and a portal in the left corner near the door entrance.

Key:
Side Notes (Side Notes)
Title
Dream
Lucid

Battle on the Roof

I was at some party, Negan was there. We were on a roof.
I made an idea, I grabbed the glass that was protecting everyone from falling down to the hard ground.
Someone else did the same, I said whoever is knocked off loses (and dies). I held the glass as a shield and a stick
as a weapon. Negan is amused.
Later, a girl is pushed off by someone, the someone has her back exposed so I hit her with my stick, the stick breaks.
I sense someone behind me, I duck. The girl with a fire weapon (?) tripped over me and knocked the someone off.
She was holding on the edge, I say "Sorry" and knock her off.
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Hey guys it's been awhile, alot of my dreams have been...weird lately and I didn't want to share them. I'm happy that I got a dream that had Negan, he's my favorite character on the Walking Dead. I had another dream today but I'm not sharing it.
July 22nd, 2017

So in real life I'll be moving to Idaho for college. The second dream was about what I've been doing; clearing out my house and getting ready to move.

First dream I had was a really weird one where I was living in a gated community and there was some weird mystery going on with my female neighbor, a D.C. not someone I actually know, and it was something about her going missing but still being there and me skipping around time. I remember feeling like I was uncovering a scheme against me, it was really complicated. I then woke up and went back to sleep, this time having a more straightforward dream.

In the dream two of my friends are hanging out with me at my house. It somewhat felt like it was connected to the previous dream because I remember thinking about the previous dream as if it had actually happened. I then leave my house with one of my friends and realize that I can't leave my other friend in my house because he can't lock the door when he leaves and I don't have a spare key to give him. I then go back to the house and find him in my room playing a computer game, maybe Overwatch, while listening to "Danger Zone" and watching an episode of Doctor Who. We talk briefly about all the packing I had to do and I look out my window and see my dad is home and selling things from the garage. I go outside and see he isn't giving away bikes with electric motors and a pick axe, and I'm wondering why he's giving it away. The dream ends with me riding one of the bikes uphill.

I've had some decent dream recall these past few days; I just haven't had time to log on here. There was one dream where I got close to being lucid, but wasn't quite there.

Despite this, I've still been really off my groove lately. As in, since high school, which was a long time ago. -_- I used to LD a lot more often. I need to be restored to my full lucid dreaming glory, and get even better than I was back then.

I only have one dream recalled from last night, and I can't read my writing from my paper journal very well. I need to invest in a better flashlight, I think, and actually sit up to write. I was in a "horror hotel" of some sort. My brother was there, and he was doing something that starts with an R. I can't read my half-asleep handwriting. T_T

Success!! I was able to recall not one, but two dreams, although the first one's a fragment.

Dream 1 (fragment)
I am walking down a hallway. and I see someone. But before I can tell who they are, my alarm goes off.

Dream 2:
I'm in a.... Duel? It's a YuGiOh duel. I ply my cards for a while, but as soon as i try to go lucid, the dream ends and I wake up, and my heart's pounding, from excitement or other emotions I can't tell.

Both of the dreams were surprisingly vivid. Also, I think these were triggered by video games, because the last game I was playing before I went to bed was YuGiOh GX tag force, and both of these dreams matched it. So could this be a dream trigger for me?

At least my recall's improving.

Frag

I was in some park on a hill. Bjork was off in the distance singing and walking towards me with a cameraman behind her. She kept looking at me and smiling. I was wondering how she knew me and why she was walking towards me. she had hair down to her chin.

Money confusion.

I was getting a ride with C who lives with my aunt. My cousins girlfriend was outside the window and handed me a large envelope filled with cash to give to my aunt for a car payment or something. C offered to take it for me but my cousin's GF said that I should take it instead indicating that C might pocket it for herself. I agreed to take it instead.

C grumbled and let me out of the vehicle. I seemed only to be a block away from my house and started walking. I noticed K from work standing on a lawn and staring at me. "Are you stalking me?" I asked her. She said nothing for a long moment and said, "yes," jokingly? she started walking with me. I was saying, "nothing really to see here... After work I go home here and do basically nothing." I went in and forget what happened after.

stay safe

I was in my inner world house. Asuka and data were around. I thought there was going to be and earthquake. I saw some knick knacks on a corner shelf wobbling. I went into a door way and held on to it. Asuka asked me what I was doing. I said apparently this is the safest place to be in an earthquake. everything wobbled for a bit and then stopped.