non-lucid

All I could remember from my dream last night was that I was in a blank, white room. I was wearing a blue shirt, and my dark grey pajama pants. I remember seeing my mom in this white room also. She was wearing a black v neck shirt, black shorts, and sandals. I don't remember seeing my sister in the dream but I know she had to do something with the dream. I recall trying to have a conversation with my mom but I can't remember what we were talking about. Then I woke up.

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Ok, so last night I had 3 non lucid dreams. Although non lucid, they were all pretty vivid. I think they might have been connected together. I'll give an explanation of what happened in all 3 dreams but since they were all so vivd I'll just give a short summary instead of explaining with a lot of detail.

Dream 1: I was at school walking with my friend. Everything was normal except for the fact that he was wearing pearls around his neck. I asked if I could have one and he said yes and broke one off for me. I took the pearl, put it in my pocket, and then told him it was for my collection of gems (I don't actually have a collection of gems). and then I woke up at around 1:00 in the morning. I wrote down the dream in my dream journal then fell back asleep.

Dream 2: This one was a false awakening. I woke up on the couch in the family room of my house (note: theres a tv in the family room) It was night time and the lights were off. The only light in the room was from the tv which was playing some show on disney channel. The show was about some family, but one of the kids in the family splayed out a bunch of different colored diamonds onto a table. There were a few green diamonds, a few red diamonds, and a few purple diamonds, and all pretty small. After watching a bit of this show on disney channel, I then actually woke up in my bed at around 4:00 in the morning. I actually got up, went to the bathroom to pee, and did a reality check and I found out I was actually awake this time. So I wrote the dream down in my dream journal, and went back to bed.

Dream 3: I was some where in my neighborhood with my friends (the one with the pearl necklace from the first dream was there, but wasn't wearing the pearl necklace). We were just talking at first until we saw a swarm of bees and we all ran back to my house. I was the slowest one out of all of us because it felt like something was weighing me down. Here's the interesting part though. While running, I went into my pocket and pulled out all the different colored diamonds I saw on tv in the second dream, and the pearl my friend gave to me in my first dream. We got into my house and I went to my room, and remember how in the first dream I said the pearl was for my "collection of gems"? Well I had a bunch of different gems splayed out all over my floor, organized by color and I put the pearl with all the white colored gems, and I put the diamonds I saw on tv in their respective group of gems (i put the purple diamonds with all the purple gems, the green diamonds with the green gems, and the red diamonds with the red gems.)

I'm in a bedroom inside a tower block. The windows are huge, as if the whole outer wall is made of glass. There's an animal outside on the ledge. I think it's a dog, but it could be a deer. It banged itself against the window pane. I make some forceful action with my arm and then the animal suddenly jumps off the ledge in fright. I'm extremely remorseful and feel terrible that I caused the animal to fall to its death.

Still in the apartment, I'm aware of a man who wishes to do me harm. He isn't present, however. He reminds me of Ramsay Bolton from Game of Thrones. I'm worried he will show up at the apartment but he never does. I don't know why he wants to harm me.

Then, I'm no longer here. I seem to be in some kind of party or bar. I see Danny H. He's dressed up in a white shirt and beige waistcoat rather than his usual black hoody. He seems happy to see me. I also see Danny R. (Why so many Dannys?) I see myself with people in third person view. I seem to be very drunk and my speech slurred. My dream self doesn't at all look like my real self and I get the impression my dream self is Polish. I start slurring some words, possibly 'fuck the police', but it sounds ridiculous, and more like 'ruck a piece'. I then see big square-sized photographs. I think they may be vinyl record covers. They are pictures of myself standing next to people, possibly those from the party.

I was in some competition. It started with teams & then it got down to 2 people. There were food competitions where logic was so out of the window & abstract. It was hard to understand let alone explain.

No lucids lately & I just don't get it. Which is surprising because I saw the documentary "The Nightmare" on Netflix about sleep paralysis & my husband got a glimpse of the kinds of things that I have endured do to sleep paralysis. For me I believe there is something in our bodies to keep us from acting out our dreams but there are definitely other entities present around us all of the time. I would highly recommend this documentary.

I just woke up so sad.

In my dream, I was working at an editing place similar to mine. I had been assigned to edit a video my family was doing and Papa was the producer. It was a dream so I didn't really care about the video. After being assigned it I instead headed out into nature and watched the cycle of life as a momma predator and cubs were in the jungle. The momma was killed, and the cubs roamed around until foxes ate them. At one point while filming them, a gorilla came sprinting from behind a tree trying to kill us for proximity. Suddenly I was in the world's largest warehouse. Our filming team was checking it out, 200 foot ceilings and rows of items going all the way up, the place had no end. We were filming in there when the lights went off and we were attacked by gorillas again. Simon got extremely mad because we didn't warn him as a prank, and he turned into a gorilla and went after me. I somehow dropped all of my money in the chase, and it went into a pit in the factory. I lost $2 million. I went in to work to do some stuff and begin earning it all back. The guys at work sat me down, and as gently as they could said my grandfather disliked the video I made and that I could not come back in tomorrow. I was floored. I had just lost all my money and now I was fired for being a shit editor. I flew away, jumping around the warehouse fucking shit up and crying. I left into the night, and found a random party. I tried to join but was too sad. The next day I went back in to work and strolled right into the office. The guys were there and they were surprised to see me. They were interviewing a new kid. I told him I was sacked and he was replacing me, and that before I go I have to know exactly everything I did wrong and how I can improve. They told me some stupid rambling explanation that made no sense and was just purely insulting. I left even more pissed. There was a group of nice girls nearby that I tried to party with, but one of them was an editor as well and knew that I was shit and fired and kept trying to make me feel better. It was so humiliating. They stopped at an apartment block for a massive Jam, we were on a block where every single building had a party on every single floor and people were dancing in the streets. I just simply continued walking in my leather jacket at night, and strolled into the darkness. There was a building that had a tunnel through it for the sidewalk, and it was lit up internally with a beautiful white glow that played off the puddles around it, it made for a beautiful shot and I noticed it and thought I should use it as a film location.

In the last moment of the dream, a girl from the group ran up to stop me from leaving. She tripped and spilled chocolate milk all over me. I got even more upset. I basically teleported back to work where I could shower, and emerged to see the guys confused and worried why I was still there. I said "Didn't you know? You didn't just fire me and fail to teach me what I did wrong, but yesterday all of my money was stolen by a gorilla. My life is over." They asked me what I would do now, and I said eat 6 bags of mushrooms and commit suicide.

Then my alarm went off.

I think I'll go back to sleep and try to start the day on a better note.

Dream Signs
Girls
Beautiful Views
Flying
Animals
Editing

It was a cold, overcast day. First I saw an entrance to my house, then I was in my kitchen. All my family has gathered there. Everything felt really big and going really quickly, I was small.

D:1 My aunt Jill & I are kids again. She's only a couple of weeks older than me. We are in what looks like my childhood bedroom but it's hers & it has another window in it. We are covering the windows & hiding from people but I don't know who. Non-lucid.

D:2 There are lots of people & I'm walking through a college. Mike is with me. We walk into an auditorium. I can't shake the feeling that this is some kind of set up. We start walking into a classroom but it's like the ones with hard wood seats & the rows are like a theater. The professor is walking slowly down to the front from all of the way in the back. He never quite reaches the first couple of rows. Katie, my grandkids aunt is in the front row. She's a little younger than me. Mike looks at her her & leans down towards her & she is looking at him different. I feel someone lean forward from the second row to tap me on the arm & it's Christian. He is my oldest friend & I trust him with my life. I look back & Katie is pulling Mike to him & they start kissing. Christian grabs my arm & looks straight at me & tells me that everything will be okay. Then I woke up. Non-lucid.

Explanation of details: I was just talking about Jill & my old bedroom. I was also just talking about Katie & Christian. Yesterday we went swimming & when we were walking up the steps I could see that there were a lot of people kissing in the lazy river. I've been looking up people I went to school with lately so that probably explains the class. Or it could be that I deleted a picture of a rented book I had taken. It was the one I returned to the college when Lisa died.

Side Notes- Too burnt to go swimming again today so maybe I'll take a nap & try to get a lucid.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple

Basically average life in a different town. Driving around, getting pizza, hitting the movies, not much special. I got the name of the girl at the movies, "Mia."

Dream One- I am at work, and we hear a loud sound. Everyone in the plant rushes to look out the front door. One of the skirt ladies's car has been struck by lightening and is on fore. Our Jeep is parked nearby so I run out and move it so that the fire can't spread. My boyfriend climbs in and we just leave work all together, we go to a doctor's office where our pregnant friend is having an ultrasound. Our pregnant friend grows a penis and we make futanari jokes.

Dream Two- My boyfriend and I are at the mall trying to find a new spot that we are supposed to meet my mom at. He is lost, as usual, but I am pretty sure I know exactly where to go. There is some construction in the middle of the mall, a new store I guess, so we have to go around that. We also see Christmas stuff set up for a pictures with Santa kind of thing the mall is going to be holding. We find my mom in a Cafeteria type area with a stage on one end. There is a lady giving a "motivational" speech on the stage. She's going on about how we create our own destiny by choosing the right path. Something is said about attracting a man with positive energies, and my mom acts all over the top about how she needs that. The whole speech though makes me think I had dreamed about something similar. I take out my phone and start searching my dream journal and dream notes looking for it, but I can't find it. The speech is over, and my boyfriend is ready to go home, so he kind of rushes me saying it doesn't matter, we can find it another time but we need to go.

Dream Three- I dream that I am staying at a strange apartment with one of my coworkers. Her husband and my boyfriend are on a company trip together, so we are waiting for them to come home together. I don't remember much about this dream, just a scene where she is laying on the couch talking about how her husband texted her that they were having a lot of fun. I also remember being in a kitchen and getting a call from my boyfriend that they were on their way home, and to wait for them at the apartment b/c they were going to go straight to that apartment and not stop by work on the way home.

4/6/16
Dream 1: I was part of a space training program, in competition with my mum I think. We had to try and both land a space craft and then search through it to find bits and pieces. We then headed back to the command centre and watched our performance on the big TV's.

Dream 2: I was watching tv at my grandparents house.

Fragment: Something about being frozen solid.

Dream 3: I was at a giant theme park place with a few friends. We went on a cruise down a river, looking out across all of the different rides, then went to a giant shopping complex. Everyone there, including us, was dressed up in costumes, mostly of superheroes. We went into a book store and starting searching for books about ancient Greek mythology, but I think we got kicked out. We tried to sneak back in to get the book, but our plan was foiled. We then went out to a basketball court I think and started playing with some people.

3/6/16
Dream 1: I was reaching down to replace something with something else, there was something about a group of French people living in England.

Dream 2: I was waking down the street with two other people, I'm not sure who they were but I think one of them was a girl I was interested in.

First dream

For several days, I was driving by car to school. Once when I came back home, there was an utter mess inside. My family has visitors and everyone was preparing for brother's wedding. I saw that my pal looked like a known actor and wanted to make a photo with him, but I had to find something first. I took out a police officer suit and gave him. Mother wanted to make us a photo with a palm of her hand. Next day I was driving to school on a bike.

Second dream

It was a dark, rainy night. I was a vampire lord on a huge and wealthy, though a little rundown castle. I saw myself from third perspective - I had dark gray arms length hair, slightly gray skin and red eyes. I was wearing a purple-red nobleman suit. I was sitting in my study, when I sensed visitors. To remove suspicion I made a hotel in my castle. I went down a spiral staircase and saw a young couple. A man was taking their luggage while woman went to book a room. Then she told her partner to take luggage to their room.

I waited until he goes away and ran up to her. She was a tall blonde woman, wearing casual clothes. I could see from first person as it surely wasn't original part of dream plot. I caught her by arms, she tried to free herself. "Do you love him?" I asked and she said that yes. "Would you like to surprise him? I know a shortcut through this castle!" She agreed and I took her to another part of the castle, going through wealthy furnished chambers and dark corridors. I took her to a tower and opened a wardrobe, saying that it has power to bring her to her room.

She walked merrily inside. Darkness in the wardrobe was truly ominous, I laughed maniacally - flames shot from the wardrobe and demonic screams could be heard. After a while I said to myself "Just kidding..." She safely ended in her room. Going back through dark corridors I thought that they need more light. With my thoughts I invoked light. Each invocation sounded like I was burning up a torch. I tired to light a torch by shooting fire from my hands, which I did successfully.

I finally got to castles courtyard. Again I saw from third perspective. I looked at the sky and screamed, raising my hands a little. I summoned a thunderstorm, thunders stroke as I screamed. In the rain I ran towards main entrance and hid under cloaks hanging on the wall. I was crying, a butler came to say that I must go to my chamber. On the way I met another vampire and my mood got better. Together we entered my chamber, where vampire hunters were waiting for me. Together we unleashed our horrible powers against them, avoiding their holy magic. They got disintegrated, but my companion got destroyed in the end.

Dream one- I can't get my kids to sleep tonight, and I'm getting really frustrated and tired. the medicine I am on for my chest pain makes me feel like I'm going to fall asleep standing up, and they just won't sleep. My son asks for water, he's drank the first round I gave him already and just can't sleep without more water. I grudgingly get up and walk into the kitchen to refill his water bottle. My mom is standing in the kitchen with my former step brother, getting water from the fridge as I came in to do. I set the bottle down, really agitated that she's over so late and unannounced when I am already struggling to get the kids to bed as it is. "What the hell are you doing here?" I grumble. She replies, "I was in the neighborhood, and Dylan was thirsty, so I let myself in to get him a drink. I didn't think you'd mind!" I start to bring my hands up to my head in an expression of frustration and anger, then stop. My hands look weird, and she doesn't have a key to my house. I realize it's a dream, and try counting my fingers. I have five on the right hand, but seven on the left, and one of those seven is huge and misshapen. I shake my head, relieved, and tell her, "Never mind, this is just a dream. You can do what ever the fuck you want, I'm out of here." then I run through the kitchen and into the living room where I jump through the window. The window never seems to change, but I am able to pass right through it as if it doesn't exist. Part of me is still really unsure though. I know this is a dream, logically it can't be real, but my god it feels so real. usually my lucids still have a sort of muted dreamy quality to them. There may be one or two senses that I am focusing on, but all my others are normally quiet. Not this time, this time I smell the dirt and the grass, I see everything as real as life, I can feel the breeze and hear distant stormy noises, I can even feel my full weight of my feet on the ground below me. I think I'm going to try to force the unreal feeling by flying, but I can't get my feet to stay off the ground because I am struggling so much with how real it all feels. I notice the neighbors across the street have a trampoline in their front yard, and decide to try using that to launch myself into the air to fly. I run over and climb on, just to be completely blown away again by how much I can FEEL in the dream. I'm not just feeling the trampoline under my feet, I can feel the weave of the cloth moving below my feet, my hair moving around my face as I jump, and even the whole electric fear falling feeling in my arms and chest b/c I hate free falls. I try jumping higher and higher, noticing there's a trampoline in their back yard as well. I think maybe I can jump from one to the other and then take off in flight from the second trampoline since I can't get myself in the air on the first one. I jump to the second trampoline, and still can't get skyward. I decide to jump off the trampoline, the ground impact not hurting will surely break the whole "this is too real to be a dream" feeling, I land on the ground, feet first, with the impact throwing me slightly off balance so I end up on my hands and feet rather awkwardly and painfully. That totally didn't work as planned. I realize I have wasted a lot of dream time trying to force control of the dream, and I want to use my lucids to search for Kurasawa as much as possible, so I give up on control. I look for someone to ask about him, to find a direction to go. The neighbor has come out of her house, she's a middle aged black lady in the dream but I have never actually seen these neighbors in the whole year I have lived here. I walk towards her, and she stops as if a bit confused as to who I am and why I am in her yard jumping on her trampolines. I try to create a picture of Kurasawa to show her, but as hard as I try the square "picture" I am trying to draw into existence won't show up. I remind myself that I don't need to be able to see it, I just have to convince my brain that SHE can see it, and hold the air as if I am holding the picture. This works, and the lady stops, clearly in recognition, then takes an involuntary step backwards. "Hey, I'm sorry to bother you, but I am looking for someone. Have you seen this guy? and can you tell me what direction I can find him in?" She shakes her head, and takes a couple of steps back as I take a couple of steps towards her. She ducks under her clothes line, and starts retreating to her back porch. I follow her, imploring her, "I know you've seen him. I can tell you recognize the picture. Please tell me where I can find him!" She continues to shake her head, climbs the steps of her porch, then turns back to me. She takes a deep breath, then points behind her house, deeper into the neighborhood and up a hill (In the real neighborhood, the hill goes down not up like in the dream). I can't remember her exact words now, but they were something like, "He's up there, where she keeps all the ones she uses to control people. I can't help you." I start to ask her who "she" is, but the lady hurries inside her house as if she's afraid to be outside any longer. I walk up onto the porch as if to follow her, wondering on my way up the steps who "she" might be. Is "She" one of the goddesses I have dreamed about in the last year? Could she be the goddess Bridge that I have found myself calling my patron in dreams? Is she my own sub conscience? Why is she holding onto him? Is she trying to control me with him? On the porch I look out over the neighborhood and up the hill in the direction the lady had pointed. I can see lots of houses of the neighborhood, even some of the modular homes in the subdivision they built adjacent to ours. I notice the corner of a house tucked in behind those modular homes, and it just sticks out to me as important. It just FEELS like Kurasawa is there. I zoom my vision in on the corner, and it's as if I am not only looking through binoculars, but also pushing the houses between me and it aside to see the full house in better detail. At that moment, the overcast sky comes to life in a stormy rage. Thunder growls, lightning crackles, and the wind whips all around me as the sky gets darker and darker until all I see is black. Thunder claps, and instead of lightening lighting up the area, my vision flashes with clips of newspaper too fast for me to read. I realize that I am losing control, possibly even the whole dream it's self. I can actually remember in the dream that there were thunder storms called for, and I am sure this is the storm arriving in the waking reality and bleeding over into the dream reality. I try to cover my ears to block it out, too panicked to realize that dream hands can't block out waking life sounds. I fall, spinning, through the blackness and wake up.

Dream Two- I am on some sort of beach trip with many of the coworkers I interact with the most. The whole dream is very confusing because it jumps back and forth in time. One of the girls I work with has a new white car that is super fancy and all kinds of expensive. She is very proud and protective of it. We've got a really rickety house that we've all rented with many rooms. Every family has their own room. My boyfriend and kids are playing video games, but I want to explore the area. I go outside and find a forest oddly nearby. The forest looks almost dead and abandoned, but as I walk through it I hear my boss telling us about it as we unpack in the shack (like a memory I guess) and then I watch as he talks about the legend of faeries and elves bringing the forest to life, the forest in fact does come to life. I can even see the little fairies flitting around making it glow and grow. I twirl and dance through the forest like a cheesy movie scene just enjoying the magic of it. Then I am walking into a little beach shop with my kids, boyfriend, and boss. I need to pee, so I find the bathroom. As I am pulling up my drawers a lady and her handicapped daughter literally break the lock on the door to get in. Realizing the girl's disability though, I try to be as understanding as possible and just jerk my pants apologizing that I must be taking too long. The lady grunts to me that they just couldn't wait anymore because her daughter is special, then starts to use the restroom right in front of me. I stumble around looking for a sink to wash my hands, and when I can't find one the woman calls me an idiot for not realizing there just isn't one and getting out of her way. The daughter is grimmacing at her mom's rude behavior though, and keeps giving me apologetic looks. I bow to the daughter slightly and tell her I am sorry to have caused her any trouble, and that I think she is far more special in a far better way than her mother could ever understand. She seems to get that I am telling her that she is a way sweeter, better mannered person than her mother, and nods. I am grateful that she gets I am bad with words, but think highly of her for putting up with such a mother. I scramble out of the bathroom and my exhusband is in the shop. He starts fussing and yelling at me for who even knows what, I can't remember. My boss comes over and tries to get in the middle to defend me and my character, and I feel awful about it. I run outside and hop in my coworker's brand new fancy smancy car. My exhusband follows me, climbs in the car, and starts berating me again, this time getting so angry he's flinging his arms and fists animatedly around the car hitting the windows and dash and seats (he's not a violent person, so in the dream it didn't seem dangerous even though it sounds like it was lol) I show him out of the car as hard as I can, and tell him to get lost. He storms off after slamming the door, and I realize the car is in shambles around me. He's busted the seats open and dented both interior and exterior. I start crying again as my coworker comes out freaking out over her car. She cries too. At some point we start laughing about how funny it is to see the car looking so bad if you aren't attached to the situation. Then, I wake up.

I woke up from a non-lucid but my recall sucked from lack of sleep.