non-lucid

SO LET'S SEE

first of all somethin' weird happened last night, I was drifting off to sleep and I suppose just sort of observing my thoughts (which is a concept I never really understood before but it seems to make sense in this context), and I started continuously knowing when my thoughts had shifted from IWL things that made sense to stories that seemed to be made up off the top of my head. I was just sort of ... listening to my own thoughts, and at some point that I couldn't quite pin down, they would start to get pretty crazy. And for some reason, rather than simply accepting this new development as "factual" (like most of my mind seemed to be doing), I would snap out of it and go "wait that's crazy". Hmm...

It was like part of my mind was the watcher, and the other part was simply dozing, and the dozing part would start to get invested in a story; I would catch myself thinking about something crazy, like maybe an IWL person who doesn't exist, or a story I once heard that I never actually heard, or a game I never played, but my dozing mind would treat it like something I was wholly familiar with, like an old friend. And I think what triggered the sudden realization that it was made-up was when I would think back for an instant, naturally expecting the memories to be a part of my recent past, my waking life, and that's when I would have this chill of "wait that was all just made up." And that happened like, three times in a row, and every time the chill was the exact same. So strange~

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Now for the dreams. Don't remember too much, I know for a fact there were two separate dreams but since I can no longer remember what happened in which dream, I'm just putting 'em under one header.

Dream - lel my recall is so derpy lately gg
I guess rather than chronological order, I'll arrange this in the order of what I remember best. SO THEN...

Strongest memory would be the part where I was on a dark, fiery battlefield, lots of blackened earth, troops marching forward towards the enemy army or towards destruction or towards whatever waited over there. I was one of 'em, but I was a special snowflake; not exactly "just another soldier". I didn't really have a place in the dream, a prearranged role, no backstory. It was just me chillin' with everyone else, marching forward with everybody else.

AND USING ELEMENTAL CONTROL WHAAAAAT.

I wouldn't really call myself lucid but some part of my mind was naturally invested in the idea of controlling elements around me. And it wasn't really a feeling of "maybe if I do this I will be able to possibly get the elements to obey me", it was more like "hum-de-dum just gonna grab some fire from over there hm that's not very much oh well." Like, I had the confidence I needed, and there wasn't as strong a focus on "breaking the dream" or trying to use my expectations or anything like that. Quite natural.

So let's see I was walking forward and I think I tried to snatch a bit of fire from a fellow soldier's torch (think he was standing by the roadside), but I only ended up with a tiny flicker of flame. It survived for a brief moment, curled up in a ball of air that was cupped in my palm (I mean it was invisible air but I could feel something between the fire and my palm, holding it there). I think the reason I controlled it like that was because in general, when I imagine trying to control fire, I end up concerned that I'll lose control and get horribly burns and stuff like that. And my dreaming, non-lucid mind is apparently the part that likes to inventively come up with little solutions to those problems~ and new ideas for dream powers~ (as in, the psychic poke technique) aaah I love my brain :D

SO ANYWAY next I came to a surprisingly-untouched stream, clear water coursing through a channel in the black ground. I manipulated it a bit, lifting some of it out of the stream in a nice sort of curling trail, but I think my conclusion was that there was nothing I could really do with it, and also it felt sort of ... unsatisfying. Maybe it's just that water physics are so hard to render that I end up with a sort of approximation of water and it's not much fun manipulating an approximation? Who knows.

The third and last elemental control thing I tried was simply that I was still marching, when I noticed something burning coming up on my left. The start of a little wildfire, perhaps, and close enough on my left side that, as I walked past, I got a bit concerned that it might spread to me. So I waved my hand down at it, palm down, in a sort of calming gesture, and the fire almost completely extinguished. Really, given the size of it, it was sort of unexpected that the whole thing would be put out, but I got the feeling that it was easier to simply put a fire out than to try to control it. Fire is wild, but fragile, in my mind.

That was about the extent of that segment.

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One of the only other things I remember is a brief bit where I was in a dark, rather small room with my parents (think there was a well-lit hallway outside it though), and then my shoe caught on fire. Or something like that happened. I was understandably upset, but my parents did nothing while I put it out myself (for a brief moment, the fire seemed borderline out of control, but it didn't hurt anything except my shoe). Afterwards, I examined the fire damage done to the rubber parts of my shoe with some disgust, irritated that my parents didn't care what happened to the shoes I've had for years and years. GEEZ.

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UGH I keep getting such tantalizing flashes of how the rest of the dream went. But maybe the concepts just don't translate well to the waking world...

The only thing I really remember is that I was packing up to move, and going down to the basement to retrieve some stuff, and then there was something about a game or story. Impossible to retrieve now.

Hello, welcome to my personal Dream Journal. I will try to recall my dreams as well as I can here. After having a dry spell of not being able to remember any of my dreams over the past couple of days I tried the method of writing out a waking day journal which was suggested by MasterMind in THS thread. I will also report my sleeping hours, my alarm hours, and the times I naturally wake up in between. I aim to get 8 hours sleep a day, but I usually end up with 9 or 10. I have been recording dreams on and off in my phone, but my recall efforts were so good this morning that I found it was taking a long time to write this stuff up on my iPhone's notepad app like I usually do, so here I will keep my journal from now on. I will use italic red to signal things that really exist, or to comment outside of the dream.

Also, I tend to go out with friends and stay in town a lot sleeping on couches and not getting much sleep for a few consecutive days. This is something I am not willing to give up, so it naturally interferes with my efforts to lucid dream. All journals here will be done when I am at home, or when I am in a comfortable state when I'm out and about.

Got into bed at 1:30am
Lay on my back and relaxed for a good while and did some slow breathing techniques, then after becoming relaxed decided to go onto my side to sleep. I always sleep on my side, I cannot think of a single time I have been able to fall asleep on my back except for when I was extremely tired one day and had a midday nap, having what I can only think of as the spark that got me interested in Lucid Dreaming. (I'd been lying on my bed, absolutely knackered, and I closed my eyes because it felt really nice, but I wasn't trying to go asleep, just enjoy being comfortable for a few moments. Then all of a sudden I felt a euphoric feeling overcome me and I could see my room spinning around me vividly, this lasted about 5 seconds and then I panicked not understanding what was going on at all thinking I was really awake, and I opened my eyes and suddenly found I was still and not spinning at all. I was left feeling very confused and excited, in a very WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED mood).

Alarm was set for 8:00am
Fell asleep around 2:00am
Woke up naturally at 7:50am
Time asleep: Roughly 6 hours

Dream 1
I was in a room with 3 of my good friends [Jay, Lloyd and Ash], and for some reason we got onto the topic of discussing who could beat the others physically in a fight. They were arguing between themselves when I interrupted and said I could beat them all up. They laughed it off and my friend Jay got my in a headlock.

Dream 2
I was at a music venue, sort of half behind the stage but mostly on the side of it. Someone was playing to a crowd but the main focus of the dream was my friend Charlie who was standing in a smart white shirt and suit pants with a tie to the side of the stage. After the musician finished, Charlie announced that he had written a Superman story and that it was being published to comic. Everyone was excited and cheered. Then Lloyd shouted something from the crowd to me about me laughing my ass off, at which point the focus was on me, and I was laughing my ass off. I don't remember why.

Dream 3
I felt like I was watching a documentary play out. It was about the people of the old city "Nyag". It was an old abandoned Asian town that felt like it had once been heavily militarized, but now empty of people. Two people were holding a chicken down and discussing an old method of stunning it so it could be prepared for death and cooking. The focus sort of went on to this old machinery that was a swinging motor with a stunning rod attached, but this dream faded off here.

Back to sleep at 8:00am
Woke up at 11:40
Time since last awakening: Roughly 3 and a half hours

Dream 4
There was a knowing in my head that I had to attend a local music awards ceremony because I was receiving an award (albeit, a low ranking award). I showed up outside the building and my friend Lloyd came outside to meet with me, he gave me a bear hug and we went inside. The guy at the entrance desk asked me for my ticket, and I told him I was receiving an award, he proceeded to give me a ticket. Then me and Lloyd walked inside to a bar on the right hand side, and he left me there on my own. I can remember trying to see a television above the bar but a man sitting in front of me was blocking the view with his head.Then my cousin James showed up, and he had two drinks in his hand, vodka and lemonade it looked like, but I didn't find out. We walked on through to the awards hall and the same man who was on the entrance desk was here, I passed him my ticket and James passed him his, and one of us said "Thank you Mr Wallace". (I have no idea what this is a reference to). Then we went inside where I split up with my cousin and sat at a table with a bunch of fancily dressed people who I didn't know. I can remember not really enjoying their company, they seemed like snobs but I don't have any recollection of what they were doing. I must have been drunk or clumsy in the dream because my phone, passport and other things were scattered on the floor, but I picked up my things and headed over to my cousins table across the room. There was a sense that I had left the snobby people for the much more comfortable friends and family table, I felt much more at home there. I never ended up receiving my award but I remember the friend I had beaten by 1 vote had made me aware of my close win. The dream ended with discussions (that I can't recall) at table with my cousin and friends.

Dream 5
Me and some friends were raiding some building in what appeared to be a First Person Shooter. I was in the upstairs part of the building defending against these ghillie suited up enemies that were swarming down from higher ground, the walls of this building seemed to have been bombed or knocked down, and it was all overgrown with vegetation. After I took out a lot of enemies I noticed one guy jump down the balcony and I jumped over with him in an effort to save a friend he was attacking. He bought down two pickaxes on a friend from above and i did the same to him in sync, but he didn't take any pain from my actions. Then it felt as though he was the last of the enemies and my friends grabbed him and held him down. There were 4 "good guys" now, me and 3 friends. Just as they went to take this last enemies life he threw a molotov cocktail and in a panic we all jumped into different areas to avoid it. It landed in the exact room me and a friend decided to jump into, fortunately it missed me completely but my friends legs were badly burnt. Then there were loud police sirens and suddenly the building became a modified version of my old house, and it was quickly going up in flames. Sirens started sounding louder and then we all knew the police would be here soon and we had to get out and flee the area. The friend with the burned legs couldn't escape and the other two didn't want to help, they left without him. I couldn't leave him behind so I picked him up and dragged him into the back garden, then I placed him on a chair and carried the chair across the garden (dat logic). We seen our two friends in the distance and they looked at us for a moment and then fled. I climbed a fence to the next garden and lifted the chair my burnt friend was seated on over to the other side, and repeated this into another garden. But this was fatiguing me greatly and there didn't seem a way for us to both escape. He looked at me thoughtfully and made me know that I had done enough, that I could leave and he was thankful for his life. Then I started super jumping over many gardens and came onto a road that was 20 or 30 meters away from my house. The sirens were louder than ever now and I knew I had to get out of here. Behind my row of houses there is really another row, and behind this row there is a place we really call "the backies", a grass area with a fishing lake that leads onto farms. I started heading for an entrance I knew about, and passed my cousin James' house (his house is on this row behind my row of houses behind my old home in real life). My cousin Sarah was playing in front of their house with some friends, she called me over as I passed and told me to look at what she was doing, which was jumping into the air and then crossing her legs and landing on the grass. I told her to stop because she might hurt herself, then kept on walking. An old friend Andrea appeared a few meters on and asked about what my cousin Sarah was doing, I explained the full lotus position and how it can hurt people who aren't flexible enough. Then I continued down the road, the sirens reminding me that I needed to escape. Looking for the entrance to the backies I found myself in a dead end, and had to hide behind a jeep to avoid a police car that pulled into the area.

Looking for the entrance led me back onto the row of houses my home was on, and there was a body of water separating the rows behind now, but I could see where I wanted to get to. It was as if the row of houses at the back weere now on a piece of land that was floating on the water. I went back the way I came and passed a friend called JohnDonaldson, he waved and said hi then disappeared. Then I found myself on this floating land area. This was nothing like the backies though, all of a sudden the place didn't resemble my old streets, it was like a little garden utopia that was floating on water. As I walked over this beautiful padded green vegetation with two strangers I found myself in a garden party and girl shouted over for us to stop walking on her carpets that she had just had laid down, these carpets were beautiful vegetation though. I suggested she put up a wooden sign to tell people to stay off the grass.

Then as I walked through the hordes of people I found myself walking into a building that was a space adventure center for kids. There was now a woman ushering me about, and I sensed that my goal was to escape and I was getting distracted, so I tried to leave, she then pushed me into a small room with two men and the door closed behind us, one of the men was a security man. I started panicking thinking I had been caught, but they told me not to worry. A door on the other side of the room then opened and we walked into a huge stadium sized half dome which was a cinema. We were on the back row which was the highest, and we were in the middle. It descended down in rounded rows to the bottom. The security guy was 10-15 rows in front of us and I started thinking about how I could escape whilst looking over all these people seated in the room. Two kids to my right started laughing at me and then I spotted a fire exit right on the bottom left, I immediately started jumping rows to get to it and took chase from several security men. I made it to the exit and came out into the streets of Liverpool City Centre, then there was some focus on the security guy who said he was unhappy I got away, he said he was using me to test out an alien device, so it turns out he had nothing to do with the police danger.

The dream ended with me contemplating how water tap systems might work (I have no idea why) and I seen 5 holes on top of one another, with the hole at the top being the smallest and the rest of the holes getting progressively bigger, and then a device that switched its connection to each of the holes according to the pressure being demanded, different size holes for different water flow. Then I thought this is system was overcomplicated, and imagined a lens shutter type eye which could collapse on itself and open to dictate how much water flows through.

Total time slept: 9 - 9 and a half hours
Total alarms used: 1
Total awakenings from alarms: 0
Natural awakenings: 1
Method used to log down dreams between awakenings: Quick tag method, with some small detail added.

EDIT - I almost forgot the best part. I also had a strange experience at some point that didn't feel like a dream, but more of an awareness whilst in a sleeping state. I felt like I was playing music and moving my hands to make the music, the feeling of moving my fingers wasn't present but it felt like this feeling had been replaced, and when I tried to move my hands or fingers it felt like music would play, and I felt like I was in a perfect state of harmony and rhythm whilst playing. I can't remember the sounds, only the experience. This is one of the most surreal things I have ever felt, I can't explain it too well. I hope it happens again!

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WELL, that wasn't very exciting, I have definitely had more exciting dreams in the past. But I enjoyed recalling some vivid dreams for a change and I'm sure it will become much more easy to use reality checks if this vividness stays. I'm sure once I get control of my dreams things will become much more interesting. Cannot wait until I can log my first proper lucid dream that lasts more than 10 seconds!

I'm in a big ship, there is a storm. I feel dizzy, can't stand, but for some reasons I need to find some attendants.
I reach a open space, I feel better, but the danger is not off and finally I see a guy, fighting to keep the control of the big ship.
He tells me to push a button every time he tells me to do it.
I feel like vomit, too much rolling, but I obbey.
I don't know how many times I push the button, but every time I do, I feel proud as I push it BETTER than before (ahahahah... as if pushing a button was sooo hard.. such a thing!!! ).
The storm seems to be almost over but the guy keeps to give me the order.
As I'm waiting for it, I focus on my life, but when I'm there to keep a crucial decision, the guys says loud the order and I come back to the initial situation... and so for a lot of times... starting again and again, not from the point I left, but from the beginning!!! I feel like I'm thinking very slowly, as my thoughts were so heavy and I can't process them fastly as I wanted to.
Finally the guy says it is over and we can go for a coffee.

Of course the smell of the coffee woke me up!
Lately I started to watch at my hands, for the reality checks. It seems does not work, as I pushed that button thousand times in the dream, but NOT ONCE I watched at my hands!!!

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I'm a spoiled rich girl, going out for a classical music show and cake in a tea room, with my BF and two girl friends. We live in the elite safe zone, but on this particular night we're attacked in a dark alley by what I call a demon and they are killed. No one believes me, I'm declared guilty and expelled to the freaks and mutants zone. Of course, when I get there, I'm totally ostracized, because I don't fit in.
People there start bullying me, I have to fight to defend myself, but it turns out I'm quite a good fighter and I conquer their respect. I make some friends, but soon after I am coming out of a building, to a garden area, it's twilight and foggy and I sense a dark presence. I shiver, but I have to go. I am attacked near the greenhouse by a monster. He has the size and body of a man, but his head is of a cat and his grin is of a devil and all his body is covered or made of black vinyl. After his firsta attack failed, he emanates another entity, also a cat like demon in black vinyl, but with a feline body. I feel I'm in deep shit, but some of my mutant friends come into scene and help me escape.
I am cast out from even the freaks-mutant zone, because they consider me dangerous, since I have this demon after me. They don't know what it is, but they know legends about it and just how nasty it is and they want me and it far away from them.
(...)
I wander alone, until I find a lady who shows me a very old and big book. It contains a picture, complex and surreal, like a Bosch painting. I am mesmerized by it and try to dechipher its images, but the lady tells me the real secret is explained in the hidden images that compose the visible image. She puts the drawing under a potent magnifier and shows me that it is made of 1500 smaller drawings, side by side, each of which are incredibly detailed and pertaining to some mithology I am not aware of. She shows me this one particular drawing of a male figure, half man, half wolf and cat, with white fur, standing towards us, embracing a half naked, ginger haired, beautiful lady, with her back to us, but her head turned to us. The lady starts telling me about these female warriors who have these mythical half-beast warriors as their protectors and guardians. And there's also the evil counterparts who seek to kill them. If the black vinyl beast is after me, I must find my protector to help me.
Then, out of nowhere, a guy that looks like Charles Xavier appears offering me a ride in his car to their nearby secret airport where we can get on to their private jet and go to Mexico. I don't know why Mexico, but they say there's no time to explain, those who are seeking me have picked up my trail and will soon arrive. In Mexico I will be safer and apparently there will be someone who can provide more clues.

23:00 peppermint + some weird new herbal tea. Supposed to be good for the heart. Hah wired me awake with heart-pounding-strain instead I think. Or all the dark chocolate before bed perhaps.

23:52 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-04-02

Takes a while to get to sleep, 45 minutes at least.

01:15 wife shocks me awake coming late to bed. She gets mad that I'm mad that she woke me up. Her getting mad makes me mad and I don't sleep for 2-3 more hours while she snores away.

02:55 still awake up to kitchen for milk, shaking my head at the night's scenario

03? on the computer. Wife wakes for bathroom and asks me to get up at 07:30 for breakfast duty. I'm pissed. Go to bed and manage to sleep somehow using my relaxation technique.

07:30 alarm. I was tightly asleep.

+ vague memory of long dreams with lots of activity of lots of people in/around a house. Definitely the sense of long continuous memory of the action. High school friends? Food?

08:07 BTB
08:30? sleep

several wakings, only record at final waking

12:16

+ in ocean with wife lose sight of her I look around back to the beach and into the water again then see her big waves are coming I see her in the water we're close to the wall I go over to get her so she won't be smacked into the wall from the waves, I notice the wave has pulled back and stopped leaving the dry ground around us, I think oh that's nice that the wave has paused, we exit the surf.

+ dictators running camps for kids. Walking high on a hill overlooking the beach I notice holes in the ground with corpses of people buried vertically alive. In some cases the bloody bodies are there, in some cases not, I'm kicking the dirt in to fill up the holes. I see one hole with a torture chamber iron-maiden wire cage I see the place for the head at first I think there are spikes in there but look closer and don't see them but you can't move your head in that thing.

There's a procession walk, going up a hill, they say "follow the red point path" that's the path of our walk. In the distance I see a guy do something that the path up the hill is cleared of dirt it shoots to the left and the right of the path leaving it clean, and a red spot appears at the top. I see him do this twice.

A voice says "if anybody has kept a log of camp we'll want to review them" I think I've kept a log but I don't want them to see it. I see what I think is a large memorial stone. I take a picture of it as proof. KS walks by she was selected to be married to a camper who did a good job, I think she's a virgin as she walks by but as she returns she will already have been married.

+ in a big rich house. A bunch of workmen come into the house through a hole in the ground of a back room. They're workmen for the mob. I'm annoyed by them. A bunch of mafia leaders are there and I'm complaining about the workmen they indicate that only mob members matter, they look up in the rulebooks to see if I can join it takes a large donation and I have to be sure I want to live that sort of lifestyle I'm pretty sure I do not want to so I'll just have to put up with the workmen. Later on I see a grate with screws has been placed over the hole.

There's a fight down below in the hole. I'm present with others, me and my (evil mafia monster partner?) are the only ones who make it out alive. I'm walking down a row of people the evil guys are looking for someone who made a sound to kill them, people are standing close to one another in pairs, bodies and faces pressed up agianst one another, I think I see myself 3rd person at one point. I see everybody close up.

+ in an ice cream shop. The main counter is busy I go around to the left to place my order. I place my order with the clerk for two different flavors, they don't have one of them I see "Oh this isn't Baskin Robbins?" There were super fruity flavors. I walk back around to the right main long counter. I see a pumpkin pie flavored one and indicate that for my second flavor, some DC says he knew I would chose that one and sort of snorts, I'm annoyed by his condescension. I see the clerk serving it up, there is a meter long high chocolate cake bottom to the ice cream that gets served out of a long tube and the whole thing becomes compacted down to fit into your cup. I think they bake the cakes especially this way so that they can be compacted. The clerk spills a part of my cake on the counter and scoops it up and back in to my serving I think that's gross because people's fingers are all over the edge of the counter, it's going to be full of germs, but I don't say anything.

(IWL I got lunch at a place where they put the trays of orders being prepared right out on the sales counter right directly where people stand and can breath/sneeze into the food. I saw a very colorful donut/coffee place after lunch).

In my dream I figured out that I could become a government employee. A coworker helped me figure this out. She told me that to become a govie, I had to count all I had ever done in my career: the number of web pages, the number of fields, the number of publications, the number of tests performed, etc.. I had thought I count not do that until years from now, but she said that as long as my numbers were high enough that's what mattered. My boss helped me prepare. Would I have to accept a lower wage? Yes. Would I need to leave my current position? Probably.

Date: 4/2/2014 (Wed)
Total sleep: 7 hrs
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization, Reviewing Dream Journal
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization, Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 PM
Dream 1 Title: (Fragment) Lost in Space
Dream 1: I am Will Robinson from the 1960’s TV show Lost In Space. I am with Dr. Smith and we are on an alien planet. The environment looks like a desert with a lot of rocks, sand and cactus type plants.
Dream 2 Title: (Fragment) Crushed by a log
Dream 2: I am in the yard or the mother of my childhood friends, except the yard is a large area of forest. I am standing on a well worn trail. I can see large areas of lichen covered shale sticking out of the ground. There are large oak and pine trees all around, mix with much younger trees. I am with my sister and her husband. We are there to clean up after a large storm. I look around and don’t notice any damage. Then I look up and see a huge log, the size of a tree truck and sharply broken off at both ends as if it was snapped off by a tornado, stuck high up among the branches of several trees. I look around high up among the other trees and see similar logs all around. Then I notice one of them is stuck in some branched and some cables. I realize those cables are electrical cables for my friend’s Mother’s house. I know we have to remove that log first. I walk toward it, and stand beneath it. I wonder how we are going to get it down. I turn back to my brother in-law and he has a piece of cable in his hand. He pulls on it, hard. I look up and the log comes loose and falls right on top of me. I wake up.
Dream 3 Title: (Fragment) Whirligig
Dream 3: I am standing in the driveway of my parent’s house. It looks like it did many years ago before they added on a garage. I am with two women. We are playing some game. I have a whirligig, but propellers are made from large feathers (remind me of feathers from an eagle) and they are tied to a stick. There is a wooden kitchen chair in the drive way. I stand on the chair and hold the whirligig up over my head. Then I see huge dark storm clouds on the horizon, and they are rushing toward us at incredible speed. I see a wall of heavy rain rushing toward us. I yell to the women to get into the house. I jump off the chair and start running for the door. I wake up.
Dream 4 Title: (Fragment) Ricky Gervais is cheating on his wife
Dream 4: I am in my home. Actor Ricky Gervais is there. He has asked us to babysit his two children (young boy and girl). He leaves. The children end up making a tent out of blankets in the bathroom. They have made a big mess and I need to clean it up. I sneak into the bathroom, duck into the tent and start picking up trash (candy wrappers, empty juice pouches, etc). I put it all into an overflowing waste basket and go out to the kitchen. But, it is no longer my kitchen, it is now a patio with a bar. My wife is serving drinks to several women. I see a woman who I know to be Ricky’s wife. I put down the waste basket and start walking toward her. I know that Ricky left the kids with us so he go off with his mistress. I need to tell his wife that her husband is cheating. Ricky’s wife (I don’t know her name) starts walking toward me. I am nervous because I don’t know how she will react. She is a woman in her 50’s with a bit of extra weight on her. She has shoulder length brown hair and a nice smile. She comes up to me and we meet with a friendly embrace. I look into her eyes and say “I need to tell you something.” She replies, “I know darling.” We begin to walk back to the house so we can talk in private. The light from my alarm clock wakes me up.
Awake:: 4:50 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 3; D2 = 4; D3 = 5; D4 = 6
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 2; D2 = 3; D3 = 3; D4 = 4
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 1 min; D2 = 3 min; D3 = 2 min; D4 = 4 min
Emotions: Annoyance, fear, happiness, concern, nervous
Dream Signs: I am in a TV show, huge logs up in trees, almost killed, sudden huge storm coming on too fast, celebrity, children sleeping in the bathroom, my kitchen is a padio
Notes: No supplements last night. I read through my dream journal before bed. I did some meditative visualization and mantras before falling asleep. When I awoke from each dream I lay there recalling and then stated my mantras before falling back to sleep. Overall I had decent recall but I just don’t get enough sleep during my work week.
Text Search Experiment: I continue to be aware and read as much text as I can during the day. So far I am not having any success with transitioning this habit to my dreams.

Hello

I had some dreams today again. It's the second day i use B6, and i also got a Lucid this night!

First normal dream:

It was somewhere near a river. It looked like a desert but people lived here. There were 2 mans that was the headcharacter in this dream. They didn't believe in God. ( I do) And i did miracles in the dream to show that God exist or whatever, and the first man believed. But the other saw what i did and was sad O.o

Second dream:

There were 2 girls. They searched for another missing girl in some kind of sewer. I did a miracle there aswell and the missing girl appeared. One of the girls got superpowers for some reason..

Third dream:

Was somewhere above the sewer that the girl was in. This was a lab or something similar, and there were people inside that was blocking the main doors from people trying to get in. They tried to hide something and i was there aswell, when the "bad guys" successfully entered it got a nightmare, and i ran. At this moment i got lucid! And the guys disappeared. I was lucid for some seconds, i tried to find the guys lol.

4/1/14

Last night, bed at 10 - 4:50am

Remembered at 4:50am

1.
I'm in a house on the slope of a green hill. Suburban environment. 2 story house, old wood, big windows. I'm calling someone on the phone. Talking about the storm thats coming from czech republic. I walk out on the patio and see very dark storm clouds from 2 directions. People on the phone are saying they are gonna be delayed because of that.


2.
I'm at some gathering with hundreds of people. Many are standing outside in small groups, eating, drinking and talking. I look up at the sky and I see hundreds of airplanes. All leaving a trail. They fly in formations. I can clearly see different types of planes. All military, flying very high.
I tell the others to look. It's russian military excercise.

I walk inside and look for some familiar people. I want to tell them too. It's quite a spectacle. But they are preocupied. And, they are crappy people from my past.

I love seeing those airplane formations. This is not the first time I dreamt about it. I also think, that I have seen it on TV yesterday and I was thinking if I'm gonna dream about that. But now I'm not sure if I seen it IWL, or just dreamt about seeing it on TV.

3/31/14

Last night bed around 11 - 8am

Remembered at 6:22 am

1.
I'm flying outside with another girl. I have a feeling she is a former classmate. We fly into a department store. Walking down the isles, looking at hanging clothes. I think I could use some new sketchers, so I walk to the shoes.

I know it's not right to take stuff, but I feel like there is something going on, that's allowing us to do so. No idea what it is though. My friend changes her mind at the last moment. Cops are there and she is talking to them.


2.
My aunt comes to my moms place with my uncle. I'm quickly putting some dishes away to clean up. Mom is upset, that they didn't give her heads up.

3.
I'm at work. Stacking produce from a u-boat.

Morning - I had a vague memory, BUT I remember parts of it.

I was an observer in this dream. I could see 2 space gunships heavily engaged in a battle. Mostly lopsided tho. The 1st ship was flanking around the 2nd ship which was stationary due to propulsion being compromised. As an observer I was also intercepting intercoms from the failing ship. The airwaves crackled with static and was flooded with panicked voices. Someone cut the chatter and silenced the coms to prioritize his message (or was it because I wanted to know what the heck was going on? or did I already know?). "We're being attacked by our own AI that has run rampant," is more or less what I remembered being said. Thats when I woke up.

Side note - "AI rampancy" is a phrase that I heard often mentioned in the Halo novels which I have been listening to via audiobooks recently.

Surprisingly the Halo Novels are pretty good. Suffice is to say, the Halo Novels are not at all what one could guess with a gander at the, deceptively shallow, run-n-gun, Halo Games.

I was in a quiet city that was made of white stone. The city was on the coast and it looked European. It was like I was playing counter strike and I was rescuing hostages as a terrorist. I was killing the CTs and then my pistol ran out of ammo so I tried knifing them but then I died. I was then in an apartment playing TTT and after playing for a while, I died again.
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I remember riding my motorcycle down NM47 in my other dream
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In my other dream, I was at a huge party and there were tons of people. We moved the party inside and then Desirae got mad cus the thought I was gonna cheat on her and she walked off. I was then in the tower with C. Williams and some other person. We were sleeping and suddenly we hear someone coming up the stairs. I try to get my boots on in a hurry and then Lt. C. Martinez shows up. He notices that I didn't have my boots on but doesn't care. He says if anyone works the kitchen for them not to fall asleep. He looked tired and so I told him to go to sleep and that I'd watch his back. I then went to the parking lot and got in my car. I put the keys in the ignition and the car turned on so I took the keys out and the car started moving. I pressed the breaks but they weren't working and the car started going in an oval and would get bigger in circumference. I grabbed the radio and called Williams and told him to help me out. He started running to the tower and I told him no, to turn around. The car ran down part of a trailer and then I snapped to use my emergency brake. The car came to a stop and a lot of people gathered around. Benito was there and he was disappointed, saying something about money. I was then back at the party and it got crazy and fires started and everything. We started shutting it down and I had no way of getting home because Desirae was mad and had left. I found Dorina and showed her the party. A police helicopter was hovering and shinning his light into the room of the building, which was pretty high up. I asked Dorina what that meant and she said that I had made it all the way through. I felt happy and music started playing. The sun started rising and sunlight was starting to shine in the room. The dream ended then.

At the zoo
I arrive at the zoo with my kids and some of their friends. I see a sign on the wall talking about a new acquisition, a tiger of some sort, and how important it is to maintain eye contact with the tiger so that it stays interested in you and doesn't retreat to the back of its habitat. I start to read it to the kids, but they're all excited and not paying any attention to me. I turn to them, calling for their attention and explaining that this is important, then turn back to read the sign. I look to where the sign was, but it's not there any more. I'm really confused. Looking around and back, the wall has somehow flipped around to expose the sign, and I realize it must have flipped back before. The wall plank looks very irregular as if it wasn't designed to be pulled out and flipped around. I read the sign to the kids.

Now we're walking through a very open area. It's arranged kind of like an amphitheater, concentric half-rings descending to a central point, except that it's very, very shallow. The whole area is decorated in a very eastern style, and people with flowing colorful clothes are walking around. It's a bright, beautiful day. As we're walking down the giant steps I end up giving my eldest daughter a hug and holding her close for a moment. In the dream, she's fully grown, a young adult; but I tell her I'm glad she's smaller than me and will always be my little girl.


Old presents
I'm in a fairly small room. Somehow this is game related, but I'm present in the room. There's a counter with some kind of person (an elf, maybe?) handing out things that need to be delivered. We talk about some kind of special. Now we're talking about the special, but it seems time has passed and it's no longer valid; it was some sort of seasonal thing and it's expired. On the wall, I see a list of expired seasonal specials. I notice the table in front of him has some kind of cloth over a pile of stuff. The table is shaped like a fish tank: it's long and thin and doesn't have a lid. Pulling the cloth aside, I see wrapped presents underneath, and I know they're for members of my family. It's way past Christmas now, so I feel bad they'll be getting them so late, but I know they always love to open presents. I pull them out (somehow having to reach around or under things) and look at each one. They're all between four to six inches on a side.

Now I'm at home, giving the presents to my kids; except now the presents are from our pastor. My oldest daughter gets a coconut. It looks pretty, but upon opening it we find it's aged poorly, with dry brown stuff (like the gills of a mushroom) inside. My son got a pumpkin, but the top near the stem looks gooey. My second daughter got some trinkets that are just fine. We're standing around a tall flight of stairs as we're looking at them.

Fragments
As much as ???? likes the NFL, he doesn't like how they have a history of not following their own rules.

Something about a hallway in a dorm.

Hey nice I made it to April neat

uhhh hm let's see I'm not super happy about last night's dream because it was so dark but I guess I'm putting it down anyway. the nice thing was that although it had some disturbing content and I didn't know it was a dream, my mental state was still pretty ambivalent about the whole thing.

Spoiler for icky horror things:

Dream - YT Let's Play + Wicker Man, I guess?
aiight so the main setting of this dream was that I was watching a horror let's play on YouTube, so practically the whole thing was third person. The main character was this incredibly unfortunate little boy and the bad guys/monsters were a bunch of women on an island (so like The Wicker Man, pretty much).

Uh man I don't even remember that much except all the terrible stuff that happened. I suppose the sequence of events was something liiike...

(1) The horror game's entire premise abruptly devolves into "let's watch this boy get sort of ritualistically tortured by crazy people". I remember he was in some odd dark torchlit room with some powerful male guy leading the whole ritual and a bunch of female subordinates carrying out other stuff. I don't quiiiite remember what happened except for the part where the kid, already injured in some way, was standing there looking up at the (very tall and shadowy) male leader guy in horror, and then looked down to see that his left foot had been cut off in the middle of his shin, so quickly that by the time he looked down it was already gone. And he was just standing on one leg. Or something. And that was pretty much just the latest in a long list of things that had already happened but those have slipped my memory OH WELL 8)

(2) Dreamed my (old) cat Mitsie was in the horror game engaging in typical Mitsie shenanigans: that is, doing the thing that you don't want her to do, and running away when you try to get her to stop. In this case, she'd found that chewing on some kinda poisonous gel capsule gave her a nice high, but it was probably also killing her. Some girl who wasn't me (but who I think I was controlling) kept trying to stop her, and had to chase her around because Mitsie was pretty adamant about this course of action.

(3) Back to the kid again. It had now been firmly established that he was at the mercy of the Wicker Man-esque ladies, trapped on the island, and basically totally screwed. It was also apparent that whatever they'd been doing to him wouldn't or couldn't kill him. He may have had advanced healing powers which is basically a must if you're going to vacation to that island, apparently.

Uhhh *thousand yard stare* right yes so then the last bit I think I can remember was that two women were torturing him again, saying that there were two things in his chest that they were going to remove, and their surgery tool of choice was a file. They were going to cut two squares in his chest/stomach just by rubbing the file against his skin until it cut through, which would make one line, and they'd need like eight of those *waxes mathematical*. Even though it was third person I could sort of feel it as they started. So uh. Hm. Yeah that's about as much time as Imma dedicate to recording this.

was in a houge and each room was different in color it was pretty fucking trppy. there was like this major horor asepct to the house and every group was trying to knock eachother out.

ok so essentially there were like 6 groups and all the groups would get labeled different numbers and so fourth.if you were a low number you didnt have to go into the dark room if you were a higher number you had to walk about the house and do a bunch of scary stuff

another part of my dream was driving along these beautiful beaches with my grandma