non-lucid

A VERY interesting thing happened last night!!!

I took a nap around 9pm last night, but I was unable to remember what my dream had been about. However, I fell asleep with a song from Harry Potter on repeat. When I went to bed for the night, I left the song on repeat again... and had a dream where I was showing my cousin my dream from the nap! The nap memory I was showing my cousin was slightly altered from how the real dream had gone, but it's pretty cool how music helped me remember my dream!

Anyway, dreams!

Nap: I was browsing the computer when I received a message. I didn't know who it was, but, for some reason, I thought it was a potential girlfriend. Then, I found out it was my cousin.

First dream: I was showing my nap to my cousin. I didn't show her the part where I thought she could've been a girlfriend of mine, but I showed her that I had received her message in a dream.

Second dream: I had met a friend of mine and we were in a car together, snuggling. Then, we realised we were in danger and that we had to move. I jumped to the driver's seat, but then I remembered that she's Scottish, so the seat would be on the "wrong" side for me. I told her I couldn't drive the car, so I moved from the seat and she drove it.

Third dream: I was also driving in this dream, but I was with my ex. She was being a bitch and I told her that I had NOT gotten back together with her to go through the same shit as before. She was like "tough luck, this is who I am", so I broke up with her, stopped the car and told her to leave. Oh, yeah, that felt sooo good!

Fourth dream: there was a family party going on. I was hanging out with my cousin, but then he had to leave. I decided to go upstairs, and then I was in what looked like a hotel corridor. It was raining and the corridor was flooding. Somehow, that was normal to me. I went to the hotel room that was my house and found out that there was water coming out of the wall and wetting all of our stuff. I called my dad and he was like "yeah, that's going to be problematic... we should start cleaning this up before your mother sees it, she won't like this". Understatement of the century, dad...

02.01.2014

To Be A Wolf (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am sitting in the floor beside my roommate's bed. We have both performed some sort of ritual to transform ourselves into otherworldly creatures. Alex is about to become some sort of undead dark lord, while I am going to be a werewolf. We know that the process will be very painful, but we are prepared.

Her transformation begins first. She clutches her arm and screams in agony as a green-gray bruise-like sheen begins to overtake her skin. I sit in the floor and awkwardly watch, knowing that people in the hallway are going to think she's being murdered. After a few minutes, her screams stop and the transformation is complete. "Look!" she says excitedly. "I've completely transformed."

She notices that my canine teeth are beginning to protrude much farther than normal. "Oh, your transformation is starting now, too." I go to the mirror and watch in fascination as my teeth grow sharper and more wolf-like. However, my interest is cut short when the pain in my gut begins. It feels like someone is grabbing my organs and squeezing hard. I fall to the floor, convulsing, shrieking with each stab of pain in my stomach. After what feels like an eternity, the pain fades and I black out.

*time lapse*

A month has passed. It is the full moon once more, and I am excited to experience being the Wolf for the first time, since I was unconscious for the duration of the last full moon. It will be much easier for me the second time around, I know. The only problem is, people know a werewolf is living nearby and they have formed a mob to kill it. I will have to be extremely careful not to get caught.

Unfortunately for me, it is summer, which means that the moon's power hits me early in the evening. I'm attending an outdoor dinner party with my mother when the feeling begins. I know I will turn soon. "I'm going to step out in the woods for a minute," I tell my mother. She doesn't know that I'm the werewolf everyone is concerned about.

"I'll go with you," she says.

"No. I'm going alone." I tell her firmly.

"Then you're not going at all!" she snaps.

I'm beginning to grow angry and a bit desperate. "I'm 20 years old. You can't run my life anymore!" I storm out into the woods before she can stop me. I take my wolf form almost as soon as I'm out of sight from the party. It feels wonderful! A sense of power and freedom so powerful is coursing through my veins, that I throw my head back and howl. The sound echoes eerily through the forest, sounding more dangerous than any wolf. Damn. I'd forgotten about the mob.

Someone comes crashing through the woods towards me--- it was my mother. She has a shotgun, pointed directly at me. I desperately try to signal for her to not shoot, but she can't understand me! It is too late. She fires the gun.

The bullet pierces through my stomach, knocking me to the ground. I'm too weak to feel the pain. As I begin to involuntarily shift back to my human form, my mother's look of realization and scream of horror at what she's done are the last things I experience before everything goes black.

02.01.2014

To Be The Prey (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My brother and I are standing in our back yard when we notice a chicken and a rooster down the hill. "Let's chase them!" I say excitedly. He agrees, so we take off after the birds. Using what little flying ability they have, the birds easily flutter out of our reach. Suddenly becoming lucid, I fly off after them. Flying, it's much easier to keep up with the chickens, but we still manage to lose them after a while. I also lose lucidity.

My mother has read a task in her scouting handbook that requires the participant to mark their favorite pages in a book and then leave the book outside to show the dogs. I think this is completely stupid and want no part in it. However, my mother is trying to make me complete this task. She is SO annoying that I finally concede, but when I walk outside with the book it occurs to me that the dogs will just chew it up rather than try to read the pages I've marked.

Irritated, I walk to the back of the yard where my dad and brother are sitting. I'm complaining to them about how irritating my mom is being when suddenly coyotes begin howling nearby. The dogs go crazy, and I decide to stir them up even more by howling along with the coyotes.

However, just before I start howling I notice that the "coyotes" are walking directly into our yard. "Woah, are you sure those are coyotes?" I ask my dad. They look more like large wolves.

There are two of them, and they both lay eyes on me at the same moment. They drop to a hunting crouch, growling furiously and stalking closer to me. One of them lunges. I manage to jump at the same instant, kicking the beast so hard in the head that he falls limp to the ground. My timing isn't so great with the other one. He barrels into me, knocking me over. However, I still have my grip on the book, which happens to be a pretty heavy hard back. I begin beating the wolf over the head with my book. It is a long a bloody process with such a terrible weapon, but I somehow manage to beat him to death. My book is now sticky with his blood.

I am irrationally furious that my book has been ruined despite not following through with my mom's asinine task, so I stomp off toward the hill to bury it. But as I approach the edge of the forest, I am at first horrified to see more wolves. However, it seems they are impressed with my fighting skills. They have come to make me an honorary member of their Pack.

The biggest, toughest wolf does not agree with this decision. He attacks me without warning, intending to kill me. His attack knocks me off balance, but I use the momentum to roll on top of him. There are no real weapons nearby. I somehow manage to get a hold of a deer's leg bone, which I promptly shove into the wolf's mouth when he tries to bite me. I shove the bone deep into his throat until he chokes to death. Upon dying, he finally accepts me as an equal.

Red is for Non Lucid.
Green is for lucid.
Purple is for my speech.
Blue is for male speech.
Pink is for female speech.
Black is for side notes, that are not a part of the dream.

I ended up going to a place last night that i haven't traveled to since i was younger. It's a large open space, only accessible through a secret path after following the train tracks for a while. The space is just very large, wide open nature area. Although, it has different sections. Like, there is a rock section, that looks similar to a desert / grand canyon. There is a large open fields part, and a part of trees and the forest. I didn't actually explore it at this time around like i have in past dreams, as the dream itself was very short. It's just very odd that almost all of my dreams have continuity, from dreams i had even when i was kid.


I was sitting in my room with my cousin, who is just a bit younger than me. We where both really bored, and where tired of playing of video games. Suddenly, i had an idea. Why not visit that old place i used to go to? It could be a blast if i brought my cousin with me...too bad his parents are super over-protective, i probably won't be able to take him. I tell him about it and he does want to go, so we end up going outside to ask my parents. (since he was staying over my house). They said they couldn't agree to it because they knew his parents wouldn't agree to it. My cousin then just kind of shrugs and goes off to do something on his own. I figured since i have some alone time anyways, that i still want to check that place out. I 'remembered' not having been there in so long, and was extremely excited to go revisit it. I started off in the direction of the train tracks.
...after walking the tracks for some time, i spotted the hidden path in the woods. I remember pushing my way through the path, like an excited child once more. When i reached the opening i was hit with all the familiar feelings and joys of the past times (dreams) i had had here. I stepped forward, into my nature paradise....

and then i woke up. :s In my dreams i have memories of past dreams, like as if my dreaming life is a separate continuous life that runs parallel to my waking one. In a way it does make sense...but for non lucid esoteric dreams to have a continuity along the lines of a lucid dream? I just find it kind of strange...

Today i dreamt i was in my apartment corridor, i decided to go upstairs for some unknown reason.
i started to see some posters while i was walking up the stairs. the more i went up
the bigger the posters were, so i went to the last floor, and there was a gigantic wall and a gigantic
poster as well.


Dream elements:

-inside my building corridor
-posters


Technique used: WBTB

hours slept: 5 hours

I was reading in english class. The text on the pages of the book was very vivid, and I could easily make out the characters. The book we were reading was something like "Diary of a Wimpy Kid" in that it had cartoons drawn in it by the narrator, and the book was about going through school, but the book was written about my life.

1. [Non-Lucid] [Sexy]
I'm sitting next to Tiffany (old girlfriend), were watching a movie together, I'm hoping something may happen between us. She turns and kisses me on the cheek (I let out a shiver all the way through my body), she kisses me again (another shiver, this is an ongoing thing throughout the dream), She then puts her arm around me...then I kiss her on the lips...then we got intimate caressing each other, kissing each other...then I thought about sex, I think I asked her but then I was like "Its illegal in Disneyland to have sex" (JACK NO, FUCK, YOU IDIOT ) and so this is as far as we took it.

Now I'm talking to my friend about what happened and I said "Its finally happened after all these years " then I mention to him to net tell anyone about this.

Possible Dream Signs:
Tiffany, Disneyland



2.

My dad is moving house.

I'm walking alone through the Midway at Circus Circus. It's night and there aren't as many people as I expected, which is a complete relief to me. Someone comes up behind me and grabs my shoulder, spinning me around to face them. It's a really beautiful girl. She's blond with blue eyes and she smiles brightly at me, telling me how glad she is that she found me. I feel really happy to see her as well and we hug each other tightly for a long moment. She releases me and takes my hand in hers, dragging me into some random direction. I don't really pay attention to where we are going because I trust her and I'm just happy to be close to her. I hold on tighter to her hand and she leads me to a part of the Midway that I've never seen, which I find odd because I basically know that place inside and out by now. We stop at two dark entrances that are hidden in a corner. One leads to a Peter Pan ride just like the one at Disneyland, and the other is something else but I can't really tell what it is. She really wants to go into both rooms but I get a really bad feeling and I grab her arm and try to pull her away from them. She looks at me and tells me that I have to choose one, but I become terrified and almost start crying. She lets up and allows me to drag her away from there. I lead her away, walking quickly.

My forehead is pressed against another person's forehead. The person is holding my face in his hands and we are both a bit panicked. He keeps mumbling that we have to remember, we can't forget.

I'm on this rock mountain island. It's a medieval times castle and kingdom. I'm in the royalty part of the castle, I walk up to the child's table. The kings son and daughter are sitting. The boy tells me he is stevie nicks new incarnation. I try to ask him why he was, but he looks as though we are being listened to and this we can't speak of. I look forward to the adults feasting at the other table, there are see through pink cloths hanging down this room, I see stevie nicks dining with the king and queen, stevie nicks turns to me and gives me a fearful look, then suddenly I'm out side the castle, on the dark rocks, all the people of the kingdom are out here they begin to riot because they've realized something, then the king storms out with his men and orders them to get the hose and shoot us with the "water". They do and I dodge it, the water coming out is foggy white, I instantly know it is water that is very very highly concentrated with fluoride. When the people are drenched with it they severely slow down and calm down and have no motivation. They aim it at me, but then I climb the rock wall and go around it which is cliff over black sea. They try to aim it but I keep climbing around to avoid it. I climb around the whole rock wall to the other side of the kingdom, I almost fall into the black sea a few times and I almost keep losing my footing and grip. Then I hop over this brick wall, and see all the towns people all zombie like.

Me and friend 1 are walking about this mall i think it is. We are eating at this buffet until friend 2 and his girlfriend get here. We are in line and the food ladies say today is special, the menu is all candy. So I fill my plate up with all this mexican candy. Then we stand to the side and eat it, then get back in line and get more candy, then we see friend 2 and his girlfriend and walk over to the neon wall they are at. The girl comes out the bathroom, and then friend 2 comes out the bathroom, and we sit down at this low ass table to eat our candy together, and then friend 2's girlfriend apologizes for them being late, she says that friend 2 was in the hospital because his penis could shoot sperm. Me and friend 1 get bug eyed, and then friend 2 gets up all pissed and stomps off because he didn't want people to know. We're really surprised he got so mad, that wasn't his personality. His girlfriend runs off after him and we decide it best we stay away because he is embarrassed.

I have a cart full to the brim with groceries. I'm standing in front of one of the front entrances to GTA V prison. I know my people are coming after me, so I barricaded the entire entrance with the groceries and with the shopping cart. Some how I have enough and it's completely blocked, but there is a way around and I put it out my head so That they won't think of it. I walk over to the left and decide now is the time for a shower. I get undressed and turn on this random ass shower and take a quick shower. When I'm done I get out and get dressed, and I come to check on the barrier and see my half sister pulling it down and jacking the groceries. I yell at her and she acts like she didn't know it was a bad thing to do. I feel she works with them.

January 31, 2014

review: friend Q rampages the streets with a construction truck, nightmare

Construction Truck Rampage
I'm waiting on top of the hill for the light to turn green. The street dead-ends here so I have to turn either left or right and I definitely need to turn left.

This light is taking forever! As I wait, I watch a construction truck harass a man outside of his own home. The con. truck destroys his yard and nearly kills the man. What the hell is going on?

The con. truck leaves, going in the direction I need to go. Finally, the light turns green. I drive and make my turn. A gust of wind pushes my car, and just about everyone else on the street, backwards. It came from that same con. truck ahead. Crap! I should turn back!

He smashes up the cars that got too close! This guy is insane! Suddenly he jumps out of his con. truck and races towards me. I recognize his face as my friend Q. But here, he was no friend! Just some mad man!

The crowd is terrified of him, and runs!

My car disappears and I run down an alley, hoping I can hide from him. But he waits for me, pacing back and forth for me to come out. What do I do? As I run out the other end I dial up 911 on my cell phone. They take FOREVER to answer! The responder explains that she's the ONLY employee there. What? Are they cancelling 911?

I explain to her there's a mad man chasing me in a const. truck on evers and some other street I can't remember. "HURRY!" I hang up and run! Q continues to chase me in his con. truck, mauling everything along the way.

I run into a crowded mall, there's no way he can find me here! And there's no way he can maul down this mall!

I look behind me and there he is, psychotic eyes! Help me! I run from room to room to room to room. Eventually I crash a party being held at some fancy restaurant. I tell the server, "help! get the cops!" I call 911 again!

I hang out in the restaurant for awhile until it felt safe again. I didn't see him and hoped it meant officers were doing their job. Later I go to the supermarket and see him there. I quickly hide between isles 70 and 80 to get away from him. I woke up shortly after.

January, 2014

review: me and sis create an intense pool

Creating a Pool
Me and sis were digging up a giant ditch and gossiping about how awesome this pool is going to be. Creating a pool by scratch in a dream is easy, things just happen as you talk about it.

In moments the muddy ditch was filled with stone and mortar. I start working on the floor, it has a giant crack! The water is just going to seep through and under it. But moments later the pool is filled with water anyways.

I swim in my pool, enjoying the fruit of my hard work. I double check the the filters, are they running okay? Sis on the other hand was double checking the whirlpool mechanism.

At first the waves were subtle. But then the waves became so intense I was hanging onto the ledge for my life! "TURN OFF THE WHIRLPOOL!". Sis turns it off and the pool slowly calms down. Men interrupt us and I woke up shortly after.

Journal Entry non-lucid #23 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I argued with my dad before I went to sleep. I then broke one of my vows while talking to him, I made a vow to myself not to talk to them about LD or anything relating to it because they are negative and I don't like it. My dad told me that dreams are worthless. I left after he said that because I didn't want to hear it. I don't know how much importance my subconscious puts on my parents' words. When I stopped talking to them about LD, my LD went up. As I did yesterday and talked to them I don't even remember what dreams I had. The negative energy they gave me made it very hard to meditate as well. I hope tonight I can have a LD or even remember my dreams because me and mom had a conversation that made me sad.

Dream fragment 1, time is not important because I couldn't remember anything through out the night."": I remember I was driving a car and I had to steal something.

January, 2014

review: short, abstract adventure dream

Weird Link Adventure
As Link, I was drawn to adventure outside and disregard the castle. It wasn't long before I encountered the bad guy. The bad guy was formless, a shadow, a voice that would mock me.

It was night and I decided to follow the voice of the bad guy, why? I don't know. But the bad guy promised it had something important to show me. Am I trusting the voice of the bad guy now?

The voice led me to perils, cliffs and ledges I had to jump. To help me, the voice transforms into a wolf. And then a wolf with wings. The voice explains "This is your true power Link!"

It was awesome being a flying wolf! There was one last thing I needed to do, I needed to meet this voice. Which introduced herself as "Impa".

Impa is living in a forbidden tree, floating above the clouds, insight of the castle. I fly to that tree and meet Impa. I woke up shortly after.