non-lucid

Dream 1:

I was with a guy who was a worgen or werewolf. I think I had a romantic relationship with him. A bunch of stuff happened, but I only remember the end. There was another worgen that was meaner and stronger and our enemy. He came upon us while we were in some sort of shop by the sea. They started fighting. There was another worgen that I was friends with. But somehow he was turned into a red frog. I was holding him with one of my hands (in retrospect he was a lot like a rubber chicken...but red...and a frog.) I was extremely worried about my romantic worgen friend. I wanted to help protect him. But somebody else talked me out of it telling me that my friend wouldn't want me in harm's way, that there was nothing I could do to help. That this bad worgen was very very strong and that if he killed my friend that he wold kill me next. I was told to get away as fast as I could. But since this worgen was an excellent tracker I was to get in a rowboat and row out as far as I could from shore and stay out to sea at least three days. I ran and started putting supplies into a rowboat. I worried that I wouldn't have enough supplies for three days, but I started rowing out to sea anyway.


Dream 2:

I went to visit my mom. While I was there she gave me a letter. The letter said that I was chosen to be a chairperson for this lady that was in this political party and was going to run for president. I vaguely remembered watching this lady about 6 months ago. I had liked some of the things she had said, so I had filled out some papers. I was stressed now to have been chosen chairperson. I really didn't know anything about her campaign. I then realized that there was a large convention that evening for this lady politician and that I was supposed to give the opening speech. I started driving there, horribly stressed about what I could possibly say.

I was sitting at one ond of a long chippendale type table, i had a plate infront of my and it looked as if i had just eaten, even though i was famished in this dream....my dad was at the other end of the table, he had a foot long 2 x 4 in his hand that had a small cude of wood on the top and he was trying to knock it off with a fork, he knocked it off and got up and came over and sat next to me and he suddenly had another 2x4 with cube of wood on it in his hand, he said, i'll knock it off if you''ll cup forward" um..okj whatever, he handed me the 2x4 and i cupped my hands aroudn the cube on top, he started hitting it with the fork and after 3 or 4 swings, the fork flew out if his hand backwards and landed in a hall through a door in the back of the dining area we were in.....he grinned and laughed and shrugged, i got up and went into the hallway and as soon as i walked through the doorway i fell to the ground and started crawling towards the fork, then a lady walked passed me and i started picking up lint and fuzz and small pieces of string suddenly strewn allover the hallway, and the more i picked up the more sad and depressed i got..then i woke up.....this was a WBTB dream..i woke up stayed awake for about 15 mins and went back to sleep, the previous dream, about the raccoon was right before i woke up....

I was walking around in my backyard, when i came across a raccoon being attacked by a baby skunk......i shooed the skunk away and picked upthe raccoon and allof a suden i was walking down a street, a street ive seen in my dreams before many times..dont know where it is though...i examine the raccoon briefly, there are no wounds, i turn left and walkdown a short alley, then turn right into an open area between buildings, ive been here before as well, theres a vets office at the far end of this plaza type place, i examine the raccoon again and now it has a gash on one side of its body, theres a napkin dispenser hanging onthe wall next to me so i graba couple and apply pressure to the wound, i start walking towards the door in the back wall, which leads to a hallway, strange thing is i had a key to this door for some reason, i walk to the end of this hallway and take a left, the vets office is at the end of this hallway, but as it is in every other dream ive seenit in, its closed....theres a square of light on the floor under the onyl window there, even though its nighttime, so i lay the raccoon down in the square of light, andit curls up liekits going to go to sleep, i say to myself, the vet will be here soon and will find him..i start walking out and fins theres a door in the middle of the hallway between the outside door and where i left the raccoon, its always there on the way out, but never there on the way in......i oen the door and go through and i realize the baby skunk was following me.....i go through the outside door and trap the baby skunk in the hallway, after the door closes, i panick a bit thinking i left my keys inside, they wer in my back pocket thankfully, i walk out of the alley and its now early morning, sun just coming up....i walk past a circle K, in reality a convenience store, in this dream, a tire store..i dont think its at all strange...as i head down the street i'm getting in a better and better mood, huge smile on my face, strutting down the street etc...i see a covered bus stop in the distance and i start dancing to and singing "du hast" by Rammstein....i havent thought about that song in years, nor wa i ever a fan of that song, but it popped in my head for some reason....then i woke up......

First dream:

I'm at a place I've never been to before. It looks like a kindergarden, outside where the children play. I'm with a guy I've never met before, and he is some sort of magician. There is a large crowd, and he is going to perform some trick. He pulls out a big sword, and says that he can swing the sword at his wrist, but the hand wont fall off. So he puts his hand up against a wall, and swings the sword, and the hand stays attached to his arm, but I am apparently the only one noticing that it is attached to his arm with tape. The crowd is clapping.

Second dream:

I'm at a hotel with two friends. We want to watch a show on TV, but we can't find a TV anywhere, untill we find a big room filled with people, having some sort of party. There's a TV in the room, and we watch the show on it through a window from outside.

Third dream:

I'm at my parents house, and I get a SMS from one of my friends. He asks me if I want to come to his house and have a party. He says he'll come get me in his car, and that i'll be home before 4 o'clock in the morning.

Was at my gmas house. It was in a new location. It was in the woods, surrounded by trees, overlooking a lake. She told me that her other house was around the lake. I started walking around it,pushing through trees and I could see some men on the other side. I decided to go back. I fell into the water and was drifting along. My sister was suddenly much older and drifting with me. I stopped at a sand bar but she kept going. I started to live at the sand bar. My sister came to visit and was upset that I didn't keep going with her. I sat on the edge of the sand bar and looked out feeling shame. Hailey left. Allen then came. Be told me he was taking me home. I packed my belongings. We fit all of my stuff in an inflatable pool that floated on the water. I put many boxes of clothes and toiletries in it. Then he strapped a life vest on me. Then he attached a big floating tube to the front of the pool thing. We were to sit on the tube and drift home. We did for a while. Allen saw the land we needed to get to and jumped off. I could hear him talking to Michael. I fell off the raft. I was trying to get back on and steer it but was struggling.


Black eye peas were at my apartment. We were all hanging out. The weird tall one with black hair was missing and fergy and will I am were talking crap about him. I began to discuss with them the various wonders of lucid dreaming. I talked about it for what seemed to be an hour and they were super interested. I then realized I should do a reality check. Was going to do a nose check when my dog jumped on me and woke me up. F'ING DOG.

My mom and allen were meeting for eachother first time. Allen and I had come back from a trip. My car was at my moms house and for some reason that my moms house was falling apart and covered in mold. I was embarrassed and didn't want allen to see. My mom and Allen were both pushing for him to go to her house. I began getting irritated and coming up with lies why he couldn't come over.

*memory break*

There were giant gods coming out of the sea. It was just like in tha perch jackson movie. They were walking into a huge city like new york. There were evil scientists running around. My point of view switched from 1st person to 3rd. I was floating, watching the madness go down. One of the gods were forming a huge wall, taller then the buildings, of sea water. Then the wall went rushing over the scientist. I gasped for breath even though I was unaffected. I have this tendancy in waking life too when I see a lot of water for its my biggest fear.

*memory laps*


Me, allen, and leo all were in highschool together. There was a huge assembly and people were walking in. We had to sit on the floor of the auditorium like elementary school kids do. I was asked to scoot over. The 3 of us were making fun of the fat nervous people on stage. I had to move slightly away from them. Allen didn't seem to even notice. Then leo chose to scoot forward to get a better view. I could see that allen was really upset that leo wasn't sitting directly next to him. I felt jealous that allen wanted to sit with leo more then me.

*memory laps*

Me and allen are in bed. We have four dogs, all identical to our pug baron. All of them are named baron. I told allen we need to give them separate names because its to confusin for them. He doesn't see my point and disagrees but eventually he caves in and says yes. Then were walking outside and the pugs are in a grocery cart. We are pushing them into petco. Its late at night all of a sudden. I try to pick out collars for each dog but allen hates all my choices

I was at school, on some tennis courts with some friends and other people, just random DCs. A teacher came and started shouting at us and was giving everyone detention. But I managed to talk my way out of it. I climbed up a ladder to some more tennis courts. The school wasn't how it should've been. I became somewhat lucid, but not fully. I walked out of the courts while looking at people I know. I needed to go wash my hands, but everywhere I could was being renovated for some reason, and my friend Hugh complained about it. I felt the need to find the girl from my other dreams. It was like I knew she was there, but not at my current location, so of course, I tried to find her. Then I can't remember anything else that's not disjointed and feel like hitting a wall in my own mind.

I was outside a castle it seemed. There were some hostile animals that I easily overpowered. I went into the castle. It seemed to be a LoZ style dungeon, and that's all I remember about it. I got up to the boss and... It was an administrator from a game I used to play! It was John Shedletsky, AKA Telamon from Roblox! What a strange antagonist. He was planning to rid the world of said game, and I defeated him just in time to save it. I was walking around, and nobody in the game had noticed my huge achievement! What a bunch of jerks. I then realized why I had quit the game.

The dream changed.

I was in front of a crashed spaceship. For some reason, I knew that there were people alive in it. I opened it up, and a few people came out. They were very cranky, and they started getting violent. Some voice told me to cool them off, and I pushed them into a vat of very cold water. Apparently, their radioactivity was making them hot and cranky, and a vat of cold water fixed it. Strange. I was then in the spaceship for some reason, and we were drifting towards the sun. I then had in my possession, a parachute-like object. With said object, we had enough weight to drift downwards. I had saved the day again.

The dream changed.

I was an older teenager, and the time frame seemed to be in the late 50's. I had a modern car, and it was very nice. I had shown up in an auditorium with it. There was a large group of people, mostly girls in the middle of the auditorium. Some square had a nice car too. He seemed to think his was better than mine, so he revved his engine. It sounded nice... until I revved my engine. It was VERY loud. The girls squealed. The man, enraged by the fact that my car was better than his, took off- I saw that as a challenge to a race. I had to go around the group of people, who were loving every minute of this. I eventually got outside, and got ahead of the man. For some reason, My car needed Helium to go faster. And even stranger, I thought that I had to pull my pants down to my ankles and have my ass hang out of the seat to get more. While hanging onto the steering wheel, I wondered how the car was going with no feet on the pedal. I ignored this illogical finding. I won the race with the helium I had "gathered" and when the opposing driver got out, it turned out to be a girl. She said if I wanted anything for winning the race, and I said her pants. She took them off and gave them to me. I put them on. She then teased me for wearing a girl's pants, and I was reluctant to tell her why I had asked her for them. I told her, and she laughed, I took her pants off, to have my pants right underneath hers... She put her pants back on, and taught me what I could do to avoid another trouser-less race. For whatever reason, I wasn't attracted to her without her pants on. Although, I didn't pay attention to her legs when I was talking to her. I seemed polite. The dream ended when I found out how I could change my car so that I could keep my pants on for a whole race.

This has to be one of my strangest dreams.

I only remember a fragment now.

I was in a house on the second story, there was this wrap-around balcony and in the yard below there were was a small pond with little jellyfish. There were a couple hovering in the air, one was really big and it was at my level. I was with someone, I believe it was a man, but I turned around to run back to the door and the jellyfish started chasing me.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Had a whole bunch of dreams last night, I blame myself for sleeping to 14.30. No lucid though. Can't be bothered to write a title for them all again.

03.15: Sleep

07.40: Dreams and Fragments
*I'm in a bus with Monica. I eat a piece of chocolate and it gets all over my fingers. A man on the seat behind me is about to throw away some paper and I take it from him and wipe my fingers clean. A couple of people in the front of the bus starts talking about nature candy, and I have to join in. "Macademia nuts are great" I tell them. "No way, they've been rated as the most disgusting nuts there is" one guy tells me.

*I'm outside of my apartment. My friend Jonas is there with me and we're just about to leave. "Hold on Matte, what about your Xbox controller? It'll get stolen for sure" he says and points on it on the ground. I pick it up and head up the apartment. The dream skips and I'm once again back up in the apartment. "Our computer table, it's down by the entrance" she says. I go down to get it. I carry the heavy thing up the stairs and wonder what would happen if I would fall. I can hear my neighbours having a party.

*I'm with my dad and my two brothers. We're going through a nice looking neighbourhood, with sandstone tiles everywhere. I ask my dad if it's expensive to live around here, he says it's not that bad. We arrive at a lake, and I bring out my fishing rod. The line gets tangled and my brother starts pulling it. I pull the other way and soon we're fighting over whose fault it is.

*I'm trying to paint a girl on a canvas, but I can't do it properly. The colours mix and soon they're like water.

07.40: WBTB 20 minutes

13.00: Dreams and Fragments
*I'm in a supermarket, waiting for my break to start. I'm looking through one of the newspapers and I find several pages with half naked girls. I find the ones with a bit of meat on them very sexy and I tell my coworkers. One of them, a girl, laughs and agrees it's hot when the girl has a bit of waist. I leave the table and head to the back of the store, our break has started and I intend to buy some sandwiches and perhaps some cheese. I see a very tasty looking yoghurt and grab it. I forget the sandwiches I realise as I'm heading back, and walk up to the nearest shelf.

I'm left behind, but I don't care. I find some toast bread. I can't on the other hand, find cheese or ham. The packages are too big, got a weird label or just don't look good. When I finally find some in the back in some store room, it's got white mold on it. I check the date and it says it was packaged back in the year 2000. I leave it lying there on the shelf, and after several minutes of searching I head out from the refrigerated area. I grab a tube of kaviar and walk towards the cashiers.

A guy working there comes up to me. His face is full of scars and new cuts. "You know that room is disgusting" I tell him. He laughs. "Oh yeah, we are going to take care of that, don't buy anything from it though" he tells me and picks up a walkie talkie. He says something, then kicks a speaker standing on the floor. I leave him and go toward the staff lunch room. Once I'm in, I check the time. It's almost time for me to go back to work. I'm dead tired though and I lie down on the couch. Björn is right next to me. "You forgot to take back the key" he tells me and hands me a key to a machine. "Thanks..."

*I take a seat on a train, the rest of my posse continues on, but I can't be bothered. I look around me. The seats on the other side are half occupied. I wonder why no one wants to sit next to a black guy. He looks at me. "What do you want?" he asks me. "Do you want to die?!" he starts doing threatening motions with his hands. I look at him for a second then away. When the train stops, the guy gets up and hits me in the face. I fall to the ground and feels a gun being pressed against the back of my head.

The dream skips. I get a flash of my friend Jonas showing how to disarm someone, breaking the guy's arm. Anyways. I've got a bloody nose when my group of "friends" show up. They all laugh at me and wonder why I decided to sit down here. I get up and head for the doors. My friend G exits the train but I stay on. He shouts something to me just as the doors close. I do some pull ups on the holding bars above.

A hatch on the roof opens up a bit and everyone wants me to get up on the roof of the train. "No way, you do it!" I tell another guy. I find another hatch, on the side of it and I stick my head out. It's awesome! Bushes come rushing towards me but I know I won't get hit. I spot the train driver, he's smoking a joint.

The dream skips. I'm riding a small, old, toy car, next to the train. Some guy is on it with me and I look down on the ground. I spot several crystals in different colours. All of a sudden we crash into the water and we get off. I pick the car up, a wheel has come off. "We've got a ATV" I tell the guy, lying. I spot a tiny dragon next to a house. "Oh that's probably the fairy" he tells me.

14.30: Dreams and Fragments
*I'm in school. Two coworkers are there, and we've all done a test. I only got 20 out of 30 on it but my two coworkers got full score. I'm jealous. The teacher is my old Swedish teacher and I ask him several questions about Swedish. I intend to get a good score on the big test coming up. He locks the door and I realise I've forgotten my pillow inside. He unlocks it and throws it to me. I look at the ground, a couple of insects are struggling with some sticks. All of a sudden they start to burn. A little girl arrives and tells me they're celebrating some special day. "Look around you, most houses have lit a fire of gas" she tells me. I look around at the apartments and can tell an open flame is burning in most of them.

*I wake up at a friends house. The family is gone, but will probably arrive home soon. I turn on the TV and it's porn. I change the channel, once again porn. This goes on for a very long time. I can't change to a proper channel, or the remote won't work properly. I can't even turn down the sound, and the moaning is quite loud. I get up and decide to put on a DVD or something instead, but I'm so dizzy! It's crazy how tired and dizzy I am. I accidentaly break the DVD and holds a disc in my hand when the parents of the house comes home. They've only met me once before. "Hi" I say and head out the door. I need to go to the bathroom, but it's locked. I wait outside, petting a black cat. It becomes pissed off. My coworker Christian is there, and asks me about some movie.

*I'm with my family and relatives at some lake. Two guys are trying out a life raft. I drop my phone in the water, and the screen goes yellow.

14.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 11 hours

Supplements: 1 x Lucid Dreamer at WBTB

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I had two following dreams, First was normal dream, there was a long one behind it, but don't remember it at all, second started normal, turned into lucid



Followed by a dream which was long but i don't remember it, (Was in a country i used to live in, kids were running around, and playing soccer, next part i was around the hospital, near the ER entrance, that's the most i remember),

First one: I was with my mom, in a newly open (i think) Hypermarket, Three or four floors i think, kept shopping around, I shoplifted? some stuff, then i took out a DVD from my pocket, which i shoplifted too and decided to buy it because would be less suspicious and because i realized there were security cams, and i suspected that they got me. anyways, don't actually remember this point, but i were with my cousins in the market's elevator, it was a normal one and then turned into a tiny room, i kept shouting, no one heard, then idk how i teleported out to a weird extremely tiny island with only one palm tree and a sled attached to wolves?, and i thought they were the Minecraft wolves, and again teleported out of it , in the top of a huge slide, above the hypermarket. and went to get help, (again, don't remember this point much), then i ditched the shoplifted stuff, don't remember anything after this point....

Second:
Non-lucid part:
I think i was in the ocean, pirates picked me up i think?, (not sure how the dream started), then i were escaping inside the ship, and i hid under the stairs, all the ship were looking for me, a young pirate went looking at the stairs, but he found me because i made noises and startled him, and told him "Please, no!', he had a bamboo stick which he used as a cane, and he told me he will hide me, and (Eww >.>), he told me to put my legs in his pants/robe, and he will put my upper part of my body in a box and cover it, then he walked around, then idk what happened, and he went to the captain of the ship, and told him he got a present for (one of the strongest pirates which i guessed that was the captain's son), and he was in the locker room?, then i got out from it, and he didn't notice me, and i froze, he kept saying to the young pirate to hand him the present, and i ran out while he didn't notice me, and went to the door of the ship?, which turned out to be my apartment's door, and i kept running down the stairs, and jumping to skip a few steps, then jumped the last steps of the stairs,

Lucid part: jumped the remaining of the steps, i was at the ground floor room of inside of my building, then it BAM, hit me that i was LDing, and this time i kept spinning around to avoid awakening, and i saw myself in one of the mirrors, so i went outside to spin because i hate mirrors in dreams.

Outside it was sunset, i tried the Clarity method i included in my first post, then the magic spell method, then i wanted to fly, so i went to fly to a top of a building, and i jumped, and made a superman style pose, and waved my left hand to fly faster, and at the top of the building there were a bus, with some people inside it, they kept asking for help, and there was this Hot babe, at one of the windows, so i told her that i want to tell her something,

Lesson learned:[/B] Don't close your eyes in a LD to enjoy the moment, i used a method to wake up from nightmares that i would shut my eyes hard and then open, and i'll wake up.

I woke up and remember dream 1 & 2 but then forgot 2 and remember 3 but then remember 2 again and forgot 3.

My god...

fragment 1:

Me and my servant was walking up to a book case which I open to show a hidden doorway. I told him not to touch any of the books as it could be deadly.

fragment 2:

I was locking up my bike outside of my house and I was looking for a way to do it. I really wanted to ride it around but it was getting late.

fragment 3:

No freaking clue...

so i had whole of my sleep all the time dream at work idk ...

then i hadto go to school it was like 5:55 the time
and i went outsidefro mschool and i saw 1 guy
he was smoking weed
and he gave me
i smoked smoked
then he tells me u know how to smoke huh
lol
then i said should i tell to a friend to smoke
and i said my self no..
and gave more 3-4 hits and woke up .;D

i am at my father's brothers house (none of this is waking life true). we come here twice a year, once for christmas and once for a birthday.

its night time. i am inside with my two cousins and my half sister casey (fathers daughter). casey is an artist in this dream and is creating a 3D painted character on cardboard.

i do the same. everyone jokes about how ugly mine is, but casey and I know it is pretty good technical skills.

we go outside but casey stays inside. there are neighborhood kids out here doing something. we run around hills even tho we cannot see much.

suddenly, all three (me and two cousins) of our ankles get clamped with a metal chain to lock us onto the hill. we are prisoners of the neighborhood kids.

they come over and have this strange device. they ask each of us to find something to counter the spinning saw inside the device. if we don't counter it, it will saw thru our ankles.

we all somehow manage to find things to counter it. we put metal things in front of the saw so it goes thru that instead of our skin. i find a pair of scissors. there is plastic around the metal part but i say "dont worry i got this", which i do.

casey comes out and rescues us and shoos everyone off. i get in the car with her and my dad and we leave.

i realize that the entire dream is actually a short story in a magazine. i continue reading.

we drive to a big store. we get out and i never see my dad for the rest of the dream.

inside the store i meet up with a few other friends. at the store, there is a big prize counter in the center. everyone has a certain number of points, points = money to spend on the junk inside the counter. a few carnie people are running it.

i tell my mom to get me more paint with some of my points, and she gets me a set with the same color scheme as the one i used to make the character in the beginning of the dream. i ask for a refund and the carnie says no.

i ask my mom how many points i have left and she refuses to tell me. i dont want any of the junk here so i walk away.

i jump onto a cart loaded with soda cans. casey is pushing it and my friends are in it with me. we open all the soda at the same time and are propelled like by a rocket of de-pressurized soda thru the whole store.

casey and i leave with someone else. there is another group of stores across the parking lot.

while walking, i tell casey my idea: "i want to make a belt that begins at your shoe and comes up to yr pants vertically, on both legs and one small one in the middle." "that will make you look like you have a bulge" she says.

my feet are burning on the tar and i realize i have no shoes or socks on. i skip into the store and lose casey.

i want to find socks and the back door that i enter leads to the sock section. i find a pair i like and take them, but realize theres a worker here. she is with my friend chase.

chase is trying to buy a bra. he is claiming to want a sex change (he always makes ridiculous claims in waking life). i tell him to buy heather's size, 36 C. he puts it on his body and looks at himself in the mirror.

he is embarrassed because he still likes being a boy.

i forget about the socks and walk thru the store. i see casey on a small red pedal powered truck for a child. it says "looking for a friend". i run up to her and she laughs and pedals away. i see another red truck with someone in it. i realize the game is to find eachother in the store.

time warp. i hear casey saying, about the store i was just in: "we had three hard workers on duty today. thats the equivalent of 1000 pairs of sunglasses and 500 windows. how did we let this happen?" she was referring to a theft in the store.

i leave wherever i am at this point and end up in the original store. i see holden, my brother.

we talk about surfing and how i would really like to try it. he says he'd like to go on a trip to the west coast.

my dream turns into a long strip of pavement surrounded by 50 foot waves on both sides. most cars get taken by the waves before they can reach safety on the other side.

my sight follows a woman in a car like a tv show camera would. she is talking by herself, to the camera that is my consciousness.

she tells about how gay people come here to find their auras. someone/something asks what that is and she disregards. she parks her car and gets out.

this is a very brave act since the point of the area is to go as fast as you can to safety. to find the yr aura, you must park and risk yr life.

she steps onto a median which runs thru the whole road for about 200 feet. there are steps into a little pool on it.

she walks up the steps and says this is where the aura can be found.

i wake up.

Well the title says it all,so let's get to it.

Dream Journal Entry #3

A normal dream

I was passing through levels. They all looked like "normal" labyrinths,but they all had a gimmick. For example,polar bears,ones that had water that pushed you back. It was fresh and cold "dream water." There was also a level that was flipped vertically and had water. I had had failed a jump in that level once. However, I was not discouraged at all. To be perfectly honest, I can't remember more than those three gimmicks. Though I am positive I did 11 levels. My mother was with me and always went ahead in the levels,showing me how to complete them. At the end of each level I touched a black box on the wall and I would teleport to the next level.
Now here is an odd thing: At the end of each level I always saw Natalie Portman. She was always in my way at the end and there was no way to go around her. We talked every time we met. She was always restrained by her ankles and wrists. Even though she couldn't move,she always met me at the end of a level. My mother was never there with Natalie. Our first conversation at the first level went a little like this:

(I stop and see her strapped to the floor with her head towards me)

Me: Hehe,hey.

(She stares intensely with her upside down face)

Me: Um...will you do anything if I pass?

Natalie: I'll punch you

Me:He...okay...

I actually don't remember what happened when I passed.
I don't remember what level these two conversations were on:

(I see her with her feet towards me this time)

Me: Hey! (I give a small smile)

Natalie: I will kick you.

Me: Oh come one! Why do you do this?

(Her face looks slightly sad)

N: Because I have to.

(I pass while she kicks me,but it kind of tickles instead of hurts)

(Another level, I see her in the same position as before)

Me: Hello again.

Natalie: I'll strangle you...so be careful.

Me: You don't want to.

N: No.

Me: Is there any way I can free you?

N: No.

(I pass,but this time I resist by holding her hands away from my throat)

And here is the "conversation" at the last level:

(I don't know what happens at the end but I hope it's good. I find her in the same position again)

Me: You're beautiful.

(Silence for a while, so I decide to pass carefully. She does nothing except try her best to look away from me. I look back with my hand near the black box)

Me: I am so sorry, I wish you could come with.

(I feel like crying as I touch the black box)

I was teleported on a horse that Natalie was riding. She wore a nice white dress. We were in some kind of a paradise. The sun was setting. I felt a great joy. And then she said it. I don't know what made me disregard it. And it makes me so mad that I did not agree. It was a golden moment.
She said,"Face it, you are dreaming."

Entry date: 25th of July,2011


Well that was a pretty nice piece of drama. I'm surprised that I would dream about something like that.
I am actually pretty upset that I ignored what she said. But at the same time it encourages me since I was so close.
And I can only get closer from here. I have been pretty damn lazy with the lucid dreaming deal.
I had great self-pity until I realized I need to man up if I want it done.