task of the month

10pm screens off, took melotonin, dreamleaf supplement, and about one tablespoon of raw honey and MCT oil.
10:30pm in bed, meditation, dream yoga visualization practice, mantra: breathing in, I remember my dreams, breathing out, Lucid Dream TONIGHT.
3:30am WBTB, only long enough to take galantamine, second DreamLeaf pill, and go back to sleep

My first memorable dream, I was at a friend's house, and he had told me he had broken up with his girlfriend two days prior, and we started fooling around a little, but his roommate woke up and heard us and shamed him for hooking up with me so soon after his breakup. He left, saying he should stay with a friend since this was a bad idea, and I kept trying to assure everyone that it was okay, this is only a dream! But I wasn't entirely sure, so I started trying to check to make sure, at which point I fell head first off the bed into an almost black area where all I could see was the floor, and I was alone. The patterns on the wood floor were moving, and I bounced around strangely, and even though I was alone at this point I said SEE, this IS a dream! But with nothing around me, and several failed attempts to summon a portal midair, I tried to phase my hand through the floor.

This is the first time I've successfully manipulated a LD! I put my hand to the floor, thought about how it would feel to phase through it, and blamo! I pushed the rest of my body through, looking for a wilderness dreamscape to forage for food in (task of the month!). I get to another empty, warehouse like area, and my sister Anna is there, pointing to a structure that I climbed, leading to an outdoor area. There was woods and grass but also a bar with several bowls of berries and other foods; I open a jar at the far right of the table, and although there are gnats flying around it, I pick a large chocolate chip cookie from the jar, and begin to eat it. Delicious. I wake up.

I don't move, and allow myself to fall back asleep. I reenter the dream world. I'm in an area with several shops, it's raining. I know I'm in a dream, and I'm walking around (rather awkwardly) looking for a door or other portal. A little girl is following me. I hold out my arms and feel the raindrops hit my skin, my arms are red. I rub my hands together for stability. I find a shop with large windows, press my hand against it, then through it, and then step through. In this room are several tables with members of my family, and on the wall is a picture from my sister Tina's wedding. I feel deep love. I look back to the window, and see my reflection. For the first time, I'm able to change my appearance in front of a mirror. I guess I was hoping to go to the Land of Oz, so I try to make myself look like Dorothy. It doesn't exactly work, and I revert back to my normal reflection. Good effort. As I begin to walk through the window to look for Oz, my cat jumps on my bed and wakes me up.

When I finally get back to sleep, after writing down notes to remember the previous 3 dreams, I'm somewhere with bad guys, and they're looking for me. I'm able to use telekinesis to throw them around, but from behind a wall, so I don't actually see this but rather experience it as a puppeteer would. I wake up when one of them finds me.

I've never had MULTIPLE LD's in one night, or managed to do a DEILD. Very happy with my progress!
Side note: does anyone else dream about writing in their DJ and wake up to realize they didn't jot down any notes? This keeps happening to me. I also seem to remember hearing sounds as if someone was on my roof, thinking it was real, then realizing it was just HH and that this was the in between dream state.

Created Monday 11 May 2020

Finally got around to doing a proper WBTB. And some results to show for it. Too bad there's a bunch of non-LD content missing...

Scrap Group 1
Repeated dreams with similar themes. Each time, I wanted some specific thing, then didn't moments later.

Dream 1 - Deadbrush Forage

Various forgotten events before this point. The visuals were slightly blurred. I was in field of very tall grass and wild overgrowth, a cloudy brown twilight sky above. Although abundant, the plantlife was terribly dehydrated, and in many cases, long dead.

After a minute of looking around, I (somehow) got aware. I tried summoning and eating a Marloss Berry, either by imagining it, or by reaching behind me, both to no effect. So, I moved on to a TOTM, the foraging one coming to mind. I sorted through the grass, but I hardly found anything, just chaff. Next, I picked some flowers, daisies, I think. Wasn't sure whether their heads and stems were edible. So, I pulled the roots in hopes of finding a starchy vegetable. A few did indeed seem to have some growths on them. Eventually, I dug out what seemed a lumpy, violet potato. It was quite large, just a few inches bigger than my outstretched hand. Well, that works for me.

I then looked towards thickets, when I noticed a large, bright purple, radish-shaped fruit growing on a branch. It looked shriveled, but probably still edible. I picked that as well.

Seemed like a good enough forage for the moment. On to sampling. But before that, there was the matter of cleaning; both products were plainly dirty. I didn't have any water in hand, let alone finding clean water in dried brushland. Nothing a Prestidigitation spell couldn't fix. With a gesture, the food was instantly rid of dirt.

Finally, chow time. I bit into the wrinkled fruit. It tasted much more bitter than expected. It retained a hint of flowery fragrance, but that really didn't improve the flavor. I was about to take another bite, but noticing a bug crawling out of a small hole made me think otherwise.

I was gonna eat the potato, but the dream collapsed too soon for me to do such.

Scrap Group 2
Unconscious transition during a Dreamwalking WILD attempt. I was in an unlit apartment building. Ruined constructions and furnishings made it apparent this place was abandoned. To the left was a stairway made from tiles. I starting climbing up, during which I noticed it had a very familiar arrangement. It then occurred to me this followed the same exact path I take during Dreamwalking, triggering awareness. But soon, something distracted me, something I thought dangerous. I ran back downstairs, only to forget why I got there, and climbed back up. Repeat again of temporary awareness, climbing up, evading a hazard, running downstairs, then loop. There were other things I did during brief moments of lucidity, but I can't recall.

Created Friday 20 March 2020

Been so long since I actually wrote up any dreams on the actual site. Guess now as is good as time as any. But anyway, I have much to write about today. Feels quite relieving, if I'm honest. Recall could be a bit better, but hey, it's still a far sight than what I've been getting these last two weeks or so...

Spoiler for Lotsa Spaghetti...er, words:

Scrap Group 1
In a mall. Jacob was there as well. Neon lights brightened the shop entrances and decorated much of the interior. Along our route, I mention trying to find a supposed buffet we went to before, though Jaboc was reluctant to eat so much. I got aware around that point. Even so, I opt to find the buffet, looking for over a minute until the dream fades.

Two short, uh, NSFW LDs.

Dream 1 - Ephermeral Eats, Still Construct

The visuals were a bit dim and blurred. I was in the lounge at home.

Things were notably different. Much of the furniture was missing, and the sofa there was brown, smaller, and generally unfamiliar. There was also a short, long wooden table. A spread of fried foods was set atop. I sat down, and tried a fried pastry of some sort. However, the food vanished as soon as I bit into it.

I then attempted to conjure TPD. She soon appeared in view, though flickered in and out of sight. It took a bit of concentration before she manifested entirely. The construct fell on the couch, her head across my lap. Rather than flaming hair, she possessed a crown as black as her cold exterior. TPD didn't say anything, just staring at me, waiting for input. I couldn't think of much else than repeat my previous dreams, and some yammering on future dream goals.

I went on for minutes before the dream faded. DEILD transition.

Dream 2 - Crisp Iceburg Lettuce

The visuals were bright, but stil blurred. I was in a white void. Soon, an SUV pulled up beside me. I opened the back door to find a bunch of groceries. Thinking of the TOTMs, I sift through the bags, until I find a head of lettuce (iceburg lettuce, if I'm correct). It was deceptively cold to keep in hand, freezing, in fact. I wasted no time chowing down. Although cold, it was actually really easy to bite into. Crisp, yet quite moist. Of taste, it was faintly earthy, not too bitter, more like drinking cucumber water rather than biting into a raw vegetable. It was really easy to go down, so much so that I at it all in three bites.

The dream faded shortly after. DEILD transition.

Dream 3 - Quick FPS Indulgence

The visuals were a bit blurred. I was running around in some kind of futuristic industrial site, blinking panels and exposed pipes lining chrome-covered surfaces. I also noticed both my donning a suit of power armor and a wielding a laser rifle.

Not long into this, I found myself under fire. A wild gunfight was taking place. Half a dozen or so other figures were zooming around, each armed and armored similar to myself. Figured this was a FPS scenario of some sort. No sense not indulging. I was rather incautious: where others took over, I merely struck out in the open, firing away at random. I acknowledged how improbably lucky I was not to get shot once.

This went on for a few minutes. Think I managed two kills (the other guys were quite hardy) before the dream collapsed. DEILD transition.

Dream 4 - Sky Hill Skiing

The visuals started almost pitch black. DEILD transition in bed. I roll to the side, and fell into a white void. I tried flying around, only to slide atop an unknown surface.

Soon, I found myself skiing down a snowy slope. I descended for over 1000ft, when the hill suddenly crested up at the edge. Somehow, I was launched straight to the clouds. I spun around, and even did some side-flips and back-flips for good measure. Then, from out of nowhere, I randomly acquired a laser pistol. I shrugged, and fired at the clouds surrounding me.

Things got really hazy. Don't recall how this dream ended. Tried DEILDing when I woke up, but I lost consciousness.


Scrap Group 2
At home. I was watching Jacob play some indie-developed game. It seemed to use graphics from various different sources, including the Demon roguelike. Yet somehow, the game could also create new graphics with assets that was fed to it on the spot, a feature I acknowledged at the time. It otherwise played as a ho-hum platformer RPG. Anyway, from the aforementioned roguelike, I noticed Reprobus was on screen. This got me to ramble on about the boss battle with him and Mordecai. DEILD after I woke up.

Dream 5 - Death to Reprobus

The visuals were a bit blurred and dim. I was walking down a dark hallway. Soon, the passage opened up into a rectangular stadium made of earth and stone. Despite its ancient type of construction, it looked impressively well maintained. Regardless, the site was abandoned.

I immediately recalled that frustrating Reprobus boss fight, my hatred towards the character, and furthermore, my disdain of the mythological figure that inspired him. And so, I conjured a being in his likeness. Unexpectedly, it'd appeared like some live-action furry, which only served to further fuel my ire further. It was around then that I noticed my having a hulking musculature, and my wielding an huge axe.

Obviously, I attacked, charging at the figure. In one swing, I chopped the creature in half through the hip. But I wouldn't stop there. I created many other clones of Reprobus, each making goading postures more obnoxious than the last. The nearest one had the displeasure of having his head lopped off. Before his body fell, I grabbed it, leaped several stories upwards, then chucked it into the dirt, whereupon it exploded into a gory mess. Similar carnage followed with each subsequent copies. My only disappointment was that none of these reprobates seemed to fight back.

Don't recall how this ended. I tried DEILDing again, but lost awareness once more.

Dream 6 - The Littlest Home Invader

The visuals were dim. I was at the front seat of a vehicle, which itself was parked near a small house isolated from civilization, starless night sky above. Cast-iron gates surrounded much of the structure plus its yard.

There was a pre-adolescent girl in the vehicle, light skinned, wavy brown hair, eyes very wide. In fact, she looked quite similar to my cousin Cassandra in her youth. Soon, the girl speaks about the denizens of the nearby house, none of it all too pleasant. She mentions how the people there became wealthy due to predatory lending schemes. Among their victims was the girl's own family. As part of payment, the girl had to give up something of hers, something that she highly regarded. Our reason for being there was plainly apparent: she planned to steal the item back.

It seems I had knowledge on security details about the dwelling. I identified the safest access point was in one of the gates to the backyard, the one closest to the main entrance. Unlike the other doors, which would trigger an alarm when unauthorized figures touched it, that gate would only sound an alarm if it were tampered with unsuccessfully. However, I warned her that only a skilled locksmith would be able to pull off such a task, not to mention that she'd somehow have to sneak past world class private security keeping an eye on the place. The girl looked terrified, yet I knew from the look of her eye that she wasn't going to back down.

Timeskip. Things appear from her viewpoint. The girl sneaks towards the designated gate. She tries picking the lock, but it was quite obvious she had no idea how to do that. Cue the alarms. Fittingly, the Tanker Alert Theme from Metal Gear Solid 2 sounded in the background, and continued throughout the rest of the dream. In any case, the girl flees into the thickets within the nearby forest.

Timeskip again. Spectator mode. The girl could now be seen hurrying through the streets of an industrial urban area. She looked to be at the point of collapsing. Using what little strength she had left, she climbed over a chain link fence into a dark alleyway. The girl then ducks down under a nearby stairway. Seconds later, another figure surveys the area. A security personnel. This was a hard-faced 40 year old woman, light skinned, athletically built, hair tied beneath a cap. The guard searched thoroughly around the site for well over three minutes. It seemed she was about to go elsewhere, when suddenly, she spots the girl.

The suspense wakes me up.

Go into ‘Nana’s house’, call for her but she seems to not be there, it’s dark, (it’s basically Kandy crescent house, but not fully,) I go around looking for something, but weird things start happening: in the dim light I can just see a chest of drawers come sliding down the hallway, and either it bumps into me or I kick it; I kick it and the drawers fly out. I call out “who’s there?”, “Nana?” and “stop it!” Soon I start to walk down hallway to leave, and more things happen, things just fly around, I might scream, I hear noises, and I might shout at them. I think I still ask about Nana; do I ask if she’s here, if she’s ok? I know I need to leave this house. Outside, I’m flying, and it soon occurs to me that I’m dreaming. I’m aware of this for a few seconds before I decide to actually stop what I’m doing and do what I want to do. Then I’m like, ok, be lucid, I’m lucid, and then I go down on the ground and I think of eating lettuce, a basic task of the month. I basically am on a mission now, I expect a fridge is where I’ll find lettuce so I find a house, actually I think I go back into the same house, but I am hoping it will look different to before, and it does. I go to the kitchen, open the fridge, on my way to there I'm sort of rushing, thinking I want to get it done fast before I lose focus and forget or wake up, but then the rushing means I’m not even experiencing everything I’m doing, so I force myself to slow down, and think about what I’m feeling and seeing as I open the fridge, hoping to kind of move at the same speed as my body, not letting it get ahead of me. I seem to remember seeing carrots, but don’t think I do anything with them. I decide to open a tub of margarine and scrape some up in my fingers, hoping I can smell and taste it strongly and be anchored more in the dream. I sniff it but can’t smell it, it barely has a scent. I give up, must somehow get the butter off my hands (I don’t remember, perhaps I just forget it’s there), and then look to find some lettuce; on the bottom shelf, on the left, see a lettuce, or a third of one, the bottom third, but it’s a lettuce nonetheless, I’m sure, not cabbage, and I pick it up and take a bite - suddenly outside again? - and I’m feeling pretty amazed and on top of the world because I just for the first time ever completed a task in the correct month and it feels good. I take another bite or two of the lettuce. It’s quite thin leaves, or the first was, but it still feels ok, not like rubbery or old. I don’t focus very much on the taste or texture. Then there’s something about Mum, and Adam? I think of other goals, there’s a person here and I try to think of a lucid goal involving them (though there might not really be any)? Expect I soon lose lucidity.
At like a little beach or lake, with my mother (maybe Jenn Husser from Claws) and others, I start to notice and get suspicious about part of the water, basically the part of the beach/shore next to a building the others are standing nearer to, so from where they are they can’t so much see it, but a few dogs are standing on the shore, maybe first just a couple and they’re barking, and also another person - Polly? nah maybe not - says something about it. I’m getting ahead of myself - I think first, I’m suspicious, but can’t prove anything to myself, and finally the other person points things out, points out the bones which confirm my suspicion that my mother/Jenn (if that’s who it is) killed her sister and this is where.
Ask Polly about other woman’s, my mother’s, sister, who died, if she knows anything about it; remember as I'm about to ask that it was Polly's sister who died; ask anyway, hoping I might still be right about that. Polly’s face changes a bit like she’s thinking about it and worried and then she quietly says ‘yes’, tells me about it? Or her telling me yes is enough for me. Then I go into the room, upstairs (?), and Polly comes too, and are we packing? Preparing to leave?

Spontaneously got lucid when I was walking down a corridor with a dark carpet (can't remember what happened before). From the distance a well-known person from my field of work was talking to me, offering a closer collaboration on one project. As I got closer I came into a large, strange room like a foyer but all surfaces were glossy white with only some brightly green accents. My colleague was standing there, looking different than in reality. I thanked her for the offer and agreed on her plan, then I walked on towards the entrance.
I went down some white stairs and thought of trying to meditate in the dream, with the TOTM in mind. So I sat down cross-legged but I hadn't considered the slippery, tilted floor that made me slither towards the doors. I moved a little to the side and tried again, simply sitting down and focusing on my breath. As soon as I did so, things got intense fast. My surroundings dissolved almost immediately and I started spinning in all directions through space and time. Next I focused onto my feelings, and all I felt was a strong sense of certainty.
Then I was back in bed, seemingly awake as everything was far too real. Of course I was still dreaming.

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9/2/2020
Went to bed at 3AMish.
Woke up at 10:50 with soooo much recall. It felt like I had been dreaming for 45 mins to an hour with a ton of dream changes.
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Dream 1:(in room, climb out window, community, sex)
I was in my room after a FA. I wanted to find an attractive woman to have sex with. So I looked out my window, there was a ton of snow, then I decided to go out my front door. When I opened the door of my room, it was my room again on the other side. So I said fuck it, I'm jumping out the window. I went through the window and there were a ton of people outside. While looking and walking around, the dream was destabilizing. To restabilize, I remembered the TOTM task(2. Touch the ground. What is it? Grass, asphalt?). I touched and looked intensely at the ground. It felt hard and rough like bumpy asphalt. It looked like a combination of red, grey and a tiny bit of white in the bottom of the ridges. It's depth and colours were totally psychedelic, they were slightly moving and distinctly reminded me of how things looked on psychedelics. Like I was on mushrooms with less distortion. After stabilizing, I walked down the street and found some ladies next door who could be a partner to me. I convinced one to come over and we went to my room. We were getting ready to have sex, she had her pants off and I almost had all my clothes off. When I finally did it destabilized and she disappeared. I figured out how to bring her back, I did something that made sense in the dream world and then I saw she was in the bathroom, I just had to wait for her to get out. She came back out and we were gonna get to it when my light which can change colors started going on a random loop of colors and brightness. I tried to go to my app on my phone to change it back but I knew I couldnt get to it because technology never works properly in dreams. After trying to change the lights she was gone again. I was very aroused and like humped the air and it almost felt just as good.... I barely remember anything after that.

Dream 2:(work, chase, fingering)
this began at work. I knew it was a dream right away and decided to leave and try to find someone to have sex with(again... I need to stop wasting my time with this lol). I went outside, it was super snowy and I walked around a bit looking for someone. Eventually I found this pretty asian lady and we started getting chased. I told her to jump into this car with me. We jumped in the front seats then went into the back. 1 or 2 others got in the front and started driving to my house. I started to rub her vagina through her pants in the back and she seemed to really like it, I could feel the contractions of her body through her pants. I dont remember much after that.

Dream 3:(FA with Ezra, fly, models of the city)
I woke up in my room with my friend Ezra and his girlfriend. I asked if they were there this whole time(This was after multiple dreams and FAs.). They said yeah, they were kind of guiding me and helping me while in the dream world through talking to me. I still knew I was dreaming but Ezra wanted to tell me it was real life now. I was backing up from him and looking for signs that it was a dream. I was looking all around my room and finally looked at my shelf! I had only 1 shelf and it was really bare when I know I have lots more things on my shelf. I leaped through my window to outside. I ran down my street and attempted to fly by jumping a few times. I couldn't. I decided I would find a cape to let me fly! I was looking around thinking where I could find a cape. I told myself that when I went on the other side of this car next to me, there would be a backpack which contained a cape. I tried that and it didnt work the first time but I tried it again and I found a backpack. At this point I have a vague memory of possibly another person maybe trying to take the backpack. I threw on the cape and I flew! I flew so high and so far, everything underneath me was unrecognizable. I flew back closer to home and wanted to look at my city from the sky. When I was closer everything looked like models(like google earth or something), but I really felt like I was flying high up in the air. At one point one of the models was a model for a cruise ship that I had been on recently. It was exactly like the toy model of the ship they sold on board.

Dream 4:(double closing, run home matt+ Darwents mom)
I was at work, closing the store for the night. I was then also asked to close another store by my old coworker Nina who now manages the other store. To do both jobs, we had a teleportation system between the two stores! It was really cool. After a lot of work stuff and me thinking how much more easy and simple her store is to run and manage because of the sales volume, we closed up finally. It was raining. For someone reason The Darwents' mom was there and we were deciding to run home together. I suggested we call an uber but she didnt want to. So we decided to start but I think we went back. Then I was deciding to run home with Matthieu.

Dream 5:(meditating, rooms with teachers)
I was at a spiritual teaching center. There were multiple rooms for teachers to teach smaller groups. I was looking around for a while and after looking through multiple rooms, I found one that was empty and I went in. I remembered I wanted to meditate in a dream and so I sat down with my back on a big wooden counter. I payed attention to my breath, some sounds around me and some body sensations. It didn't last long and I dont remember anything else.

Dream 6:(Jumping thru recycling)
I was outside and looking for a way to get somewhere else. I ended up jumping thru a big recycling bin and fell into something like a void. I was fully conscious but my vision was filled with what looked exactly like hypnagogic imagery Just blobs of pale color all morphing around.

After some weird non-lucid dream I found myself lying in bed with the radio playing in the kitchen. That was kinda suspicious as I don't have a radio in the kitchen. So I figured this must be a dream and got up. The room was only dimly lit and the dream started collapsing but I remembered to stabilize by interacting with my surroundings. I touched everything close by (floor, walls, a blanket, a suitcase) which felt utterly realistic and listened to the radio (there were commercials). Thinking that jumping out of the window on the third floor would probably still wake me up I decided to leave through the door. I went there, still touching the walls on the way. As I've done this before I wanted to pass through the door without opnening it but both my body and the door appeared to be too solid. I was determined to make this work, so I went back a few steps and focused intently on the door. By doing so, everything became much clearer and my lucidity increased, too. Then I jumped through the door though I got stuck a bit and had to fight my way through. On the other side I got into the staircase.
Walking down the stairs I remembered the TOTM, stopped and imagined a rope before me. As soon as I grabbed it, it appeared before my eyes. It was just a thin string but that didn't bother me and I started climbing up (forgot that it shall pull me somewhere). It was well fastened so I got quickly up to the roof. Suddenly the rope loosened and I fell back down onto the stairs. I pulled on the string; it got longer and longer until the thin part changed to a thick rope. Then it was stable again and I started climbing up once more. I got to the roof which was dome-shaped. Somehow I thought the rope would just reach higher into the sky. But when I climbed outside through an open window in the dome I saw that it was stretched in this height across the landscape, all the way I could see until the horizon.
I grabbed the rope again and climbed along into the distance. Soon I got to a meadow in front of a forest. Looking down I realized it was crowded with small living creatures. Of each kind there was a couple so I was reminded of Noah's ark (btw I'm not religious). When I looked even closer I realized that these were some strange creatures. There were two oversized brightly yellow ducks, a pair of raccoons with christmas caps and a couple of garden gnomes amongst many others. All of these were clearly alive. Over this astonishing sight I forgot about the rope, sank down to the meadow and felt the dream fading.

Created Saturday 22 June 2019

Quite a morning. Lots of things to note today.

Spoiler for spoilered for austerity:

Dream 1 - Quantum Excursion

Scene 1 - Arms of the Void
Virtually no visuals at all. Several WILD/DEILD transition in bed. First few were rather unstable. In later runs, I swung up, down, and through the bed, as if on a tether, until I fell straight to the void. Brief transitions occurred, one in a hospital, and another with family.

In a later transition back in bed, I made efforts to summon my guide, E. I eventually felt four arms wrap around me from underneath, which then dragged me back into the void. Warp.

Scene 2 - Freeze The Sun!
The visuals started dim and blurred, but somewhat clarified over time. I was looking out a window in an unknown apartment suite. Outside stood tremendous urban houses tall enough to reach an overcast sky. Remembering the TOTMs, I flew outside, and looked around for the sun. I continued miles away to a forested area, where the sky was finally clear and blue enough to see what I wanted.

Several attempts were made in trying to freeze it, first by just thinking it, then by trying to charge up and shoot a freeze ray at it, with no luck. And then, in my last go at the latter, I unexpectedly fired a brilliant, snowflake-shaped projectile the size of a large medicine ball. The missile steadily made its way towards the sun. All of a sudden, a bunch of strange creatures floated in view. These appeared what could be best described as giant piscine animals, trunks in place of mouths, and bright orange and blue carapaces covering much of their bodies. Whether intentional or not, over a dozen of them got into the line of fire. Fortunately, the projectile phased right through them. It then continued along into the horizon, whereupon the sun was struck instantly.

Blinding light covers my eyes. The chill of frost follows suit. When I come to, I see that the sun has, rather comically, been encased in a thin cube of ice. In fact, it now appeared like a glowing snowball, its piercing light bright enough to illuminate the land. Furthermore, the surrounding wilderness had been covered by soft snow.

I fly around some more, eventually arriving at an arborous hill. Deer were running around below. Contrasting the environment, these animals appeared blocky and pixellated, similar to mobs in voxel games like Minecraft. Annoyed at their presence, I fired golden energy orbs at these critters. Explosions launched all those deers out of view, leaving a smoking crater in their stead.

The dream collapsed shortly after. DEILD transition.

Scene 3 - Diving into The Quantum Realm
Started practically blind again. Another transition in bed. I dive through the void. Eventually, I get the idea to go to the "Quantum Realm" (as depicted in the Marvel Cinematic Universe). I spring up an AR HUD to track (poorly defined) energy readings, of which appeared as several meters and gauges in my left. Next, I shrunk myself, and continued to do so for much longer than I ever did.

Eventually, faint light could be seen in the distance, steadily expanding and becoming brighter until I was within it. Surrounding me was a twilight world flowing with cosmic dust, brilliant sparks, and fluid, splaying iridescence. I would've stayed much more than just a minute to appreciate this view, had I not noticed a green leech-like creature lumbering towards me. It was initially of a manageable size. But, since I was still unwittingly shrinking, it was eventually so large as to become the only thing I could see. The beast opened its terrible maw, sharp teeth running down through its gullet, and sucked me inside. Had I not willfully shrunk further, I would've been grounded up into mincemeat.

Now, I was small enough to see individual particles. All of these were bouncing around like billiard balls on crack, and conveniently were of likewise contrasting colors to distinguish them. Occasional electrical currents (or, better put, something visibly like it) kept them bound to each other.

Specious reasoning related to photons, quantum entanglement, and quantum tunneling, allowed me to justify warping elsewhere. I visualized a location. The background faded, and faint images came and went. Besides that, nothing else seemed to happen. Unwitting warp.

Scene 4 - Living Parade Floats
The visuals were blurred. Initially, all I could see was a clear blue sky. Then, various figures appeared, only they all looked like caricatures of actual people. Perspective warped each to either be bigger or smaller than they first seemed.

I zoomed back, to find a parade was ongoing in city streets. It seems the largest, most misshapen of the "people" were actually vehicle-mounted parade floats. And yet, said floats were also individuals all their own. One of such, depicting a grumpy blonde woman, scooped out someone from the audience, and swallowed them whole. No one seemed to care at all.

Several familiar figures were on said blonde-float. One of these was Frylock from Aqua Teen Hunger Force. But, when he spoke, he sounded like Master Shake, and indeed, made inane ramblings similar to the same character. I remembered the crying task, and thought to do so by making trouble. I yelled out to the float-lady, screaming "That guy stole your wallet!", all while pointing at 'Frylock'. The float glares at him, then seizes him in her grip. 'Frylock' breaks down to sobs, and pleads for his life.

Things destabilize. I focus on the environment to correct this. Just then, Master Shake (as himself) runs towards me, clearly upset.

"Why would you do that?!", he grumbled.

I smiled nervously. "Sorry about that", I responded. "I was just trying to-"

"I was gonna give it back!" Guess he somehow took her wallet after all.

Things deteriorated. DEILD back in seconds.

Scene 5 - More Quantum Stuff
Started almost blind once more. Transition in bed. I fell into the void. Yet again, I warped into the "Quantum Realm", only this time, things modulate much quicker. Like before, I try teleporting somehwere specific. I end up warping almost seamlessly.

Now, I find myself as a shrunken figure in an unknown home, the walls white and floors wood. A mouse hole was carved (from my perspective) a few dozen meters away. I hurry to hide there, just in case the residents weren't the friendly type. Things start slowing down, much like a poorly streamed video. Concurrently, I felt myself in bed. Only stayed a few more seconds before I woke up.

Dream 2 - Brave Rush, Reckless Rush

Scene 1 - Generic Terrorist Hideout
The visuals were a bit blurred I was sneaking through a rather wide alleyway gated by a chain-link fence. Some prodding around revealed a hidden pathway of concrete and steel-grated, generators humming from out of reach.

Just then, cellar doors opened up at the end of the hallway. Reactively, I activated a cloaking watch, vanishing from view. Out stepped two of the most generic looking Middle Easter terrorists ever convened: heavily armed, tanned-skinned men in baggy clothes, dark hoods concealing their faces. I "remembered" I was infiltrating a budding terrorist stronghold in the US, Indeed, they'd blurted out how they'd a sizable munition cache, and how they were using a nearby Mosque as a front for their operations. The two pass by me none-the-wiser. That's was my cue to uncloak myself (to have my hands free, i guess?), pull out a combat rifle, and gun the terrorists down.

I hurry out back to the alleyway, only to find enemies were already waiting for me. They had me dead to rights. But then, a grenade explosion took them all out. I now "recalled" a partner of mine, a dude in combat gear and balaclava, had guarded the entrance. Good save!

Too soon to celebrate, though. The place was once again swarmed. We managed to take a few more down, but it wasn't enough. Before long, we were overwhelmed.

I rewound time just as I was about to die. Now, I had my partner wield a bazooka as back-up. However, this also proved ineffective. Similar results occurred when I had him mount two machine-guns on-site. Frustrated, I opted to skip any stealth, have us both wield rocket launchers, and blow the whole place up. We then cloaked ourselves, and ambushed survivors that crawled out. Success!

Unknown transition.

Scene 2 - The Dangers of a Dark Age Rush
Similar visuals as above. I was playing a competitive game of Age of Empires 2. My brother Hubert was nearby, as were Uncle Amos and his wife Matilda. I make a Dark Age rush (specifically, the "douche" strategy) against the nearest opponent, an Aztec player. It took a bit of time to set up. Still, the player was completely unprepared for it, and gave up promptly.

But, this proved folly. Another enemy all but claimed my old site. Furthermore, the player teched up all the way to Castle Age even before I had the resources to go Feudal Age. All it took was a force of a single knight and a handful of men-at-arms to wipe my civilization out. I blurted out to the others the details of my gambit, though they didn't seem all that concerned.

Unknown transition.

Scene 3 - "Kicking Ass For Justice, and For Liberty!"
Similar visuals as above. I was once again in that aforementioned alleyway. Like before, I was raiding a terrorist ring, only this time, with a bigger group, of which included Hubert. We simply barged inside, and fired at anything that moved. Furthermore, during the onslaught, the lot of us chanted the main theme from Broforce. All-in-all, the enemy was completely dominated.

I woke up soon after.

I did SSILD to get a lucid dream after a WBTB. This time, the efficacy of the technique dawned on me. It isn't about the cycles or how long you do them, it is about the mere act of paying attention. It's about the mental act of bring background noises, sensations and objects to the foreground of awareness; noticing subtle things like: how one's cloths touch the skin, how tense or relaxes muscles are, the sound of the fan, the chirping of the birds and crickets, the weird shapes in the darkness of vision.

The mere act of paying very close attention stimulates the mind to the extent that the next time I fall asleep, I can't help but notice I am dreaming. Of course, I've only done this one time so more trials are needed. This hypothesis seems very plausible and could explain why techniques I've invented in the past have worked - staring through the eyes, mindfulness meditation, SSILD, listening to the white noise in the ears; they all require me to pay attention during my WBTB period.

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The dream featured me walking down my street and trying to stabilize the dream. I call out repeated for Gray to appear; the dream character I have chosen to act as a goal for dream control. No matter how many times I call out, she doesn't appear. I attempt to walk to the park around my home and make it far enough until I find myself in a hallway; the end of it being a bookshelf. I close my eyes in the dream and imagine myself having the ability to walk through solid objects. I phase through the shelf and find myself on the other side in a room.

I find Gray sitting on a park bench inside this room. We greet each other and the dream ends.

22 Apr 2019

I appear in a dream scene which is just building around me. My awareness is high and as if I am really ready for this. (I have been thinking about having an ld but not much other induction that night, although I did check the task of month in order to have a purpose in case a lucid happens).

As I look around the shaky environment, I recall the Red & Black clothes task for this month. There is a female DC with whatever original clothes she was wearing. I change them to red, then to black. One's a T-shirt with something in white written on it, the other more like a robe. I realize I can't recall whether we had to change from red to black or vise versa, so I change the color of her clothes multiple times just to be on the safe side. I make a note that this color change wasn't as difficult as I had for some reason expected.

End of memory

Created Monday 11 March 2019

Got something worth sharing, finally. Pity I lost some things between a DEILD attempt and the second LD, though I'll not complain too much.

Spoiler for It's quite a bit:

Dream 1 - Raging Mare

The visuals were dim and a bit blurred. I was in the master bedroom at night. Almost immediately, I realized I was riding a brown light horse, if not a pony. The creature's belly was swollen, no doubt because it was pregnant. Upon my noticing as much, she began huffing, and stamping around in frustration. I feared she was giving birth then and there. I knew I had to get down, but dreaded getting walloped in turn.

Soon, my brother Radomir arrived, placing himself right in front of the horse. I urged him to yank me out, warning he do so in the horse's view so as to not startle it too much. Before I could get down, the horse swung her back high. I reactively held on to its neck, keeping myself from flying into a wall or any other obstacle, before pushing myself away from it. I then laid flat on the floor, hoping this would keep the animal's attention elsewhere. Instead, this drove the horse completely bonkers. She circled belligerently around me, neighing violently as she did. Just what kind of trouble did I get myself into?

The dream faded shortly afterwards.

Dream 2 - Illegal Magic Critique

The visuals were a bit blurred. I was going through a series of hallways in an apartment building, the walls plain white. Radomir was with me. Between our walk, we showed off some magic powers to each other. This manifested as ethereal golden runes over our palms. The runes circled vertically around in the air, spinning in wider arcs, before vanishing from view.

Later, we somehow stumbled into a courtroom. A trial was well underway. The defendant, an elderly black lady, was being charged for using magic powers without permission. Since there was no precedent, the ruling of this trial had important consequences for magic-users in society, and was thus highly publicized.

Anyway, the old lady was herself well renowned for her talents, and I respected her abilities greatly. Ignoring court etiquette, my brother and I approached her, so that she may critique our skills. I tried displaying my powers, but only managed to literately blow smoke from my hands (which, I should note, was blistering hot). . The lady chuckled at my struggle. She advised something about not getting too worked up.

Don't recall how this ended.

Scrap Group 1
Watching an Avengers movie on an old CRT screen. Radomir and my nephew Amir were there as well. Cap and a few others enter a small lab, the place untidy, if not ruined. They confront an old man, pressuring him not to go through with some plan. The old man snarls his intent of getting revenge against Thanos at any cost. He then points to a large, broken capsule on the floor. Lying inside was Natasha, now dead. I questioned whether this took place before or after Endgame, and perhaps if it occurred between Age of Ultron and Infinity War.

Something about Adventure Time.

Dream where I rated, reviewed, and scored my dreams today, all as part of some game.


Dream 3 - Tense Skyscraper Hospital

Scene 1 - Tension and Alley Snacks
The visuals were a bit blurred. I was in the upper floor of a skyscraper. This place contained office rooms for well-to-do doctors. Indeed, a screen repeated advertisements for one of such physicians, a tall, balding, light skinned man with white hair and glasses. He was said to be both a renowned medical doctor and veterinarian. The doctor made note of his procedures having high success rate, and their exorbitant costs ($100k at minimum).

Skip ahead [omission/unknown timeskip] to outside. I found myself in a long, shoddy alleyway otherwise busy with activity. It seemed a group of vendors were selling wares, illegally no doubt, though neither appeared the shady type. Among the items there were a variety of cakes, pre-sliced (yellow, white, and I believe cornmeal cakes), as well as small packets of golden raisins. I sampled a small piece of cake, and took raisins along with me (don't think I actually bought it, though I didn't steal it either). Soon, I spotted my brother Benedict around. I offered him some of the food I had, but he declined for reasons that weren't clear even at the time. Warp.

Scene 2 - Thin Mustache Fall
Similar visuals. I was in the medical offices once again. Mom, my sister Rebecca, and my niece Suzy were seated on pink leather EZ chairs in a waiting area. I overheard Rebecca complaining about how her daughter being given nothing but pizza for dinner by her dad for the past few days. [Omission] I left eventually.

Around then, I observed myself on a mirror. It seemed my mustache had somehow vanished, yet my beard remained intact. I did a double take, to find it'd been restored, if a bit thin.

Various unknown occurrences. Unknown timeskip again. I was looking out the glass walls, observing the blue sky behind nearby adjacent buildings, as well as the city streets below. Suddenly, I realized the dream. I phased through the walls, and jumped out. Before I hit pavement, I quickly swerved vertically, and launched myself skyward.

Soon, I found myself flying over a bare grass field under a bright, sun-glared blue sky. I enjoyed the view for but a minute, before my eyes began shutting themselves without input. Having dealt with this before, I first rubbed my hands, then used said hands to force my eyes opened. My view widened again, but everything was now blurry and indiscernible. As suc, I opted to prepare a DEILD. As soon woke up, as expected. But, I drifted off much sooner than I realized...

Scrap Group 2
Watching gameplay of the original Guilty Gear. Zato-One was being used. Not sure who his opponent was, though they fought in dark, starless city streets not fitting any stages from the series. Zato used Invite Hell for wake-up pressure. When the opponent was cornered, he managed a good hit, which he converted into an air loop (perhaps an infinite) involving Rise and Fall.


Dream 4 - Airplane Mode

The visuals were dim. I was wandering around in a poor, lightless suburban neighborhood during the dead of night. Old pick-up trucks and SUVs were parked on the roads. Soon, I heard music sounding, discerning it as a song from Dyna Brothers. This tune brought instant awareness.

Recalling the TOTMs, I began reshaping my arms. I first changed my forearms into helicopter propellers on metal poles. Raising them above my head, I spun the blades. When it first started, this felt as if my wrists were spinning full circle, though I lost sensation once they spun too quickly to see. Soon after, I was able to hover in place a few feet above the ground.

But, before I went far, I'd recalled I needed wings, not rotors. And so, after landing, I changed my arms into the wings of fighter jets, the thrusters themselves where my armpits would be. I ran as fast as I could. That is to say, not fast at all, given how clumsy these rigid wings were. It felt as if I'd large kites tied on my arms, which themselves were bound on makeshift, heavy wooden splints. Anyway, I activated the thrusters through will alone. It felt as if blasts of compressed air were shooting behind me. Steadily, my feet got off the ground.

I wasn't really elevating too quickly, barely making it above 12 ft. within thirty seconds time. Impatient, I instantly changed myself into a human-sized fighter jet proper. I zoomed around the area, looking for something to asplode with extreme prejudice. But, besides houses and cars, there wasn't anything of interest. I flew around for two minutes before giving up the search.

Lost awareness. Don't recall how this ended, save for still having the tune in my mind by the time I woke up.

I become lucid walking down my driveway. I fly a little bit to the bottom, then remember that I wanted to do the TOTM: "Ask a DC where he or she is from."
I'm at the bottom of the driveway now, and I think that I could go to the house to the left that I had visited recently in a dream.
I walk to the house and knock on the door. I can see that the family is all sitting at a table and eating dinner together. (I think there are less kids than last time, but still a lot.) The whole area of the house here is like a screen-in porch, so I can see everything easily. The mother comes to the door, and she is less happy to see me than usual. I apologize for interrupting dinner and tell her I'll leave in a moment, but I was just wondering if she could tell me where they were from.
She says, "A dinosaur."
Her husband speaks up from behind her and says something about a pterodactyl. I thank them and leave. I want to do the Advanced TOTM, "Walk on the ceiling," so I decide to go to the houses past the cul-de-sac and do that, but I wake up.

So this was a dream where I had Control of Letters As input For Hyper potential

I was home and suddenly I hear my dad calling. I know this can't be because irl he just left for work. I realize this is a dream. I go to him and he just wants me to help my mom hang the laundry. Afterwards, I spot him sitting in a couch and ask him where he's from. "May, July 13, 11", he says. I say that he isn't my that because he shouldn't be here and that answer is ridiculous. Turns out it was Bowser in disguise. After some weird stuff I don't really remember I decide that I want to fly, using a broom, like one of the previous TotM. I am slightly successful and I wake up.

I dozed off in a chair in the living room this morning and my grandma was talking to my daughter in another chair. I think her voice kept me aware as I drifted off, and I was able to slowly get up out of my body.
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I stand up and look at my grandma and daughter and think of the totm to ask where someone is from. I almost ask one of them but decide to move on. I walk very slowly towards the door. The air feels thick and filled with static electricity. I get sucked back into my physical body a few times before eventually making it to the glass door. My grandma squishes in front of me and opens it for me. I move awkwardly out into the sunlight.

The landscape is enormous and clear of trees, allowing me a breathtaking view of rolling hills. There is a short tower or two that remind me of fire-watch towers. I walk out a little more and look around. I see my grandpa walking towards the end of the house wearing a really big bright red cowboy hat, the rest of his outfit morphing rapidly. I use intent, expectation and belief to will myself to zoom towards him, but he disappears around the edge before I can get there. I turn the corner and look where he has gone, now flying.

It looks like the back of a stock yard. Bare dusty dirt flanks wooden plank walls and random sections of metal corral fence are standing around in various configurations. I see the entity, no longer my grandpa, disappear around a pile of equipment. I zoom down there. The person keeps morphing and running away as I follow them around trying to catch up. They change into a fantasy-style warrior woman with a long curved sword and she stops to practice her swordsmanship, doing a series of complicated moves. I am able to catch up to her and she lunges at me from the inside of a large corral.

She tries to stab me with a long spear and I grab hold of it. She then tries to slash at me with her sidearm which is a short sword and I grab her wrist. She gets a desperate, fearful look on her face. I tell her to calm down and that I only want to ask her a nice simple question. My voice has no sound, like the rest of the dream so far. I can still vaguely hear my grandma's and daughter's voices in the waking world. I trust that the woman can hear me anyway and that it's just me who has a disconnect from the sound of the dream.

The woman calms down enough to look me in the face and I ask her where she is from. She yells something silently and I try to watch her lips and discern what she is saying. It looks like maybe she is saying "España!!" But I can't be sure. It didn't feel like a solid enough answer to me.

I get distracted for a bit and end up back in my waking body. I WILD back out and exit to the front porch in much the same way as before. This time my grandpa is there with about four other men. Two of them are yelling at each other, which I can't hear, and grabbing each other, almost throwing punches. I approach one of them and try to ask where he's from but he's too distracted by his fight.

I follow the group about a hundred yards out onto the grass where we encounter some brown elephant-sized cow-like creatures which are standing around placidly. I approach a large beefy man with two heads. His eyes are bright orange-red and his heads slowly merge back into one. His faces, now his face, look very much like John Goodman, and he has shoulder length messy light-brown hair and an outfit of tattered olive green cloth. I ask where he's from and he yells an incoherent silent answer, so I ask him to write it down. I offer him a pen which has manifested immediately and a notepad that was harder to conjure and keeps trying to become my phone.

He runs screaming into the soft side of one of the animals and I follow him, still holding pen & pad and trying to regain his attention. He is now very different in appearance. He's still beefy, but his face no longer resembles John Goodman, he looks clean, has short, slick black hair and wears a full pin-striped suit with a matching fedora. He turns to me roughly and takes the pen & pad. He starts by making dots and scribbles, using exaggerated movements. He keeps going and I eventually just take the pad back. As I look at it the words change extremely quickly. I blink my eyes and focus until I can see that they say "tu errryyghrregh". I immediately return to my body and struggle to wake up fully, almost making a false journal on my phone before succeeding.
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This silent dream state is new to me. I've never had that happen where I'm fully in a dream except for my hearing, which is still attuned to the waking world. After waking, my grandma said something to me that confirmed that what I had heard her say while I was in the dream was actually said in the waking world. Crazy.. Also I'm really pumped at how well I was able to exit my body. It's been a long time, so I'm glad my previous years of experience still held up. Confidence is key.