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I was standing in the end of a hallway. I was semi-lucid. Everything was sort of pencil-drawn, like an animation. In fact, I think the dream was an animation that I had made for a class. In the animation, the main character was me, and I was reaching for the door at the end of the hallway.

This almost had an animatic vibe to it. It was from first person, and it was jumpy, as if a frame had only been animated every quarter second. But as soon as I reached for the door and opened it, it swung open and things became very realistic. I was not the character that was in said animation.

The door opened to an area high in the sky. Cold winds blew violently in both directions. I then got sucked out and started falling from the upper atmosphere. I looked back to where the door was. It blew closed and shut. It then rotated onto an angle so that it was parallel to me and vanished in a trick of the light.

I recognized this moment. This was from a daydream, and lucidity hit me. I went back to third person and saw myself orient into the dream flying position. I flew down lower, through the cloud deck and saw that I was above a good sized town. I pulled up gradually, brining myself low over the town’s central street.

There was a large arch-like building that I flew through.

I pulled back up and flew past mountains built on clouds. There were towns and cities built up on these mountains too. I remember observing a rich variety of both fantasy and futuristically styled buildings. None of them were notably large.

I continued flying in the same direction. The area with the floating islands ended in exchange for a mountainous tropical area, with a large city akin to macchu picchu. It seemed to be abandoned. As I flew past it, and a large waterfall, I remarked that I must have done something good to deserve a dream like this. (Karma.) I continued flying in that same direction. (That I assumed was northward.)

As I flew for awhile, I passed many towns, lakes, and mountains. I noticed that I transitioned from a temperate climate to an almost arctic one. I seemed to be flying lower and slower than usual. I couldn’t get myself to go higher or faster, despite my best efforts.

I eventually ended up landing on the coast, near what was supposed to be a Middle School. The building looked like something from fallout. Like a 1950’s styled diner, only it was decrepit and obviously long abandoned. I remember finding two things outside of it that were of significance. A lunchbox and a bottlecap/pin type button. The lunchbox was rusted and had a rocket ship on it, and the pin was red with yellow graphics and text on it.

I decided to summon Manei.

“Manei, Kuansen Axio Sosumble”

She manifested out of the abandoned middle school and started telling me a story about it. It had something to do with the metal lunchbox and a pin, But I lost the dream and woke up.

January 13, 2016

I had a dream that I really wish didn't need a reason to exist.

I had a dream that me and this guy that I used to see almost every weekend went on a trip. I was really skeptical of whether or not I wanted to go, but I decided that I would just because I had missed this persons company. What really upset me was that in my dream, he still wanted to have sex with me and I was stupid enough to let it happen. Not even an hour later he was saying he didn't feel good and I offered to walk down to the gas station that was near us and get him a ginger ale or something. And he told me that he would rather go home. I told him okay and that it was fine, I understood even though it really made me sad. We still stopped at a gas station and he asked if I would go in and get him a drink and I told him of course I would. I wasn't even gone for two minutes and he had fucking left. Disappeared. Ignoring any texts or calls I sent his way. I was crushed. I felt fucking stupid for falling into a trap for a third time. I felt used and unwanted.

And I hate to say that I haven't seen this person in a year, but I really hate saying that I have a reason to even have this dream.

I wish I wasn't so stupid. I wish I didn't have a reason to have a dream like this. But like I said, I haven't seen this person in a year, other than the times I had seen him at the grocery store on my lunch breaks for work but I would try and quickly walk by hoping that I wasn't seen, so why would I have even had this dream? Why is he in it and not someone else? I've been used and lied to by other people before and after him. So why would I have a dream about this one person? And I know I still care about this person. I am too kind hearted not to. I don't care how long it's been since we've talked, if you need help I'll alway be around. But I hate having reasons to have dreams like this. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't around anymore. The only things that are keeping me grounded are my loving family, friends, and the hope that no matter how many times I have to be hurt, that I will find that once person who won't care about anything else but me. Someone who won't just stop talking to me and find someone that is better, like I've had happen a thousand times before, because I'm going to be the one that is better for them.

I really wish I wouldn't have had this dream to make me miss the company of this person. I wish I wouldn't have had this dream to think about all the good memories I remember about them. I wish that I wouldn't have had this dream to be reminded that I can't seem to be good enough for some people. I wish I wouldn't have had this dream to be reminded that I'm just a toy--you can be their favorite for a while, but soon enough they will get bored with it and throw it away for a new one.
I just want to be wanted and appreciated. I'm someone that will need some time to open up and show you how I feel. It may take a long time, but I need someone who is going to be patient and push through it because they know how hard it is opening up to someone after telling the person before that you're not used to showing affection because every time you do they get hurt. How you're scared to kiss the person that you care about because you don't want to get too attached to that person because deep down you're not sure if they're different or not.

And I'm not trying to say all this to be negative about the person in this dream. I still think really high of them and I hope that they finally found what they wanted. And if they took the time to read this, I want you to know that I don't care that you have found a girlfriend. I'm really happy for you, but I'll still be here if you ever need anything no matter how big, small, or stupid.

I love you, friend.
Have a nice night

January 17, 2016

I don't remember how my dream began..

We were in the woods; my whole family.It was my mom, my aunt, my grandma, my uncle, my eight year old brother, and some other 'family' that I didn't recognize.

I asked what we were doing out here and my aunt said, "We do this once a year."

And I was confused. Im almost 20 and have never done this in my life. So I asked he, "We do what?"

She only replied with "You'll see."

There was railroad tracks just ahead and there were various buildings and trees everywhere around us.

I noticed everyone else picking up sticks and I turned to my aunt and said, "so were just picking up sticks?"

She told me yes and after she said that I seen this big black link of what looks like mining carts passing by on the tracks. There wasn't really an engine attached anywhere on the link of carts so I'm not sure how it got there, but the twenty or so carts just stopped. I noticed something in one of the far right carts. It was something big and black. I could see it slightly moving like it was asleep. And then I realized what it was. A fucking bear.

I had noticed when everyone was picking up the sticks that they were being really hesitant and very careful with them. I turned to my aunt and asked, "Once of us is going to pick something up or step on something to wake that bear up, aren't we?"

She just looked at me and nodded her head. I wanted to run. To get out of there.



All of the sticks had been picked up around where they were supposed to be picked up and everyone began questioning where the trigger was this year. We started looking around, going into the buildings around us, watching our steps. We had split into groups and I had followed my aunt and my mom. We had went into one of the smaller buildings while everyone else was splitting up into the bigger farm style building, and then it happened.

There was a loud scream. Did we hit the trigger in the small building? Or did someone find it over in the bigger building? Regardless. I was in a panic. And then there was loud banging on our door. There was a small hole in the door that I could look through to see who it was. I was hesitant fearing that It was the bear approaching, but it wasn't. It was my eight year old brother. I quickly opened the door and let him in, then locked it straight behind him. When I let him in, I could see the bear Trying to decide where he wanted to go. We all kept very quiet hoping that he wouldn't come our way. But it didnt matter. A few minutes later it was tearing at our door trying to get in. My aunt opened up this secret door way that was in the floor and told me and my brother to go. We went down in and hid and there was tunnels everywhere.

"BANG!" There was a loud gun shot. the scratching stopped and my mom and aunt came down.

"Quickly," she said, "follow me."

And we follwed her into a room. I was assuming this one was in the other, larger building because there was another doorway.

"What was that?" I asked. She said my grandpa had shot the bear to give us some time.

Other came down into the room, and i noticed something. There was another door above and below us. And something else. Another bear.

The others came down quickly, including the cub. They managed to get the cub into the next room below us. And the cub had screamed. Then the mother screamed. We were in trouble now. She was coming for us. In this room with no escape.

My grandpa told everyone to get ready, and for me and my eight year old brother to get back. So we did, and he let the bear in.

She fell down searching for her cub. Standing up on her back feat and screaming.

And they attacked. Shot after Shot, trying to kill the bear. And it was done. They had killed the bear. and they went down and killed the smaller bear.

Was it over?

Out of no where, my uncle asked my grandpa a question. (I cant remember what the question was). But after my grandpa had picked something my uncle told him something ( I cant remember what they had said--My uncle had gotten rid of something of my grandpas?)

But then he lost it. I heard shot followed by shot. And then it was pointed at me. Everything went black.



I could see again. We were at a restaurant. Me, my mom, and my grandpa.

He opened the door, "Ladies first." And we went in.

What the hell just happened?

First were fighting a bear, then I get shot, and now were at a restaurant? Was I dreaming in my dream?

Just normal dream today.
I was traveling in time, I used my "psychic" powers to "submerge" into timestream...
I made first stop in past about 1000 years ago. There was my former incarnation. I was something like shaman. And healer. I lived in wicker shack. My shack was hidden on the verge of forest. I had dried herbs and berries of many colors hanging inside. I saw myself stopping bunch of wandering people and providing them with help. Pay-free.
Then I was about 800 years in past... I was priest there. I saw my former incarnation visit some ill old woman. I emerged from time stream next to priest. That woman thought, that my present incarnation is warlock and she feared me. My past incarnation on the other side wasn't so fearful.
I don't remember about what I spoke with my former self, but I remember they were distrustful... My present self knew to much, and it was too fantastic for them.

17/1/2016 (sat)

It's a long post... recall overload even before I get to the 3 lucids...

Before 6am
Fragment
-Crazy guy who had tried to shave off his beard... and missed the bit on the end. It was growing out sideways from the side of his mouth. He was very angry and shouting at everyone else.

ND "Spider Nest"
I 'woke up' and found my head had been covered in thick white spiders webs, while asleep. Sitting up I start pulling all the webbing off my face and off my hair. It is sticking to my fingers, so I wipe it on the carpet next to the bed. The web is covered in tiny white spiders, a whole nest of them scurrying around on the floor. Grabbing a heavy book from the night stand I drop it onto the nest, squishing them all.

From here, kneeling on the floor, I spot something else weird: Under the bed are a whole collection of cameras. They don't seem to be switched on though. The bedside light isn't working. In the gloom though it's clear there is someone else in the bed. A woman.

On the pillow is another tall light with a lampshade made from a fabric veil. I try to remove the veil and switch the light on, but it doesn't seem to work either.

ND "Size Nines"
With BB and two other guys. A police officer tries to arrest us but he is acting very un-cop like. He threatens us. I glance at BB and his face betrays nothing, but I can tell, just a twinkle in his eyes maybe, that he has a plan. BB acts calm and goes along with the arrest, so I fall in line too.

The officer doesn't have enough handcuffs for all of us so we walk behind him. We head down a corridor in some kind of leisure centre or pool. The officer stops and measures the other unknown guy's feet, asking which of us has size nines. I stay quiet. The officer doesn't measure my feet and we head off again down the corridor.

As we walk past a set of double doors, the third guy ducks inside them. I momentarily consider following him, but decide to remain with BB instead.

Ahead in the corridor are a group of people trying to move a large metal box. The officer stops to help them, so we join in as well.

ND "Imperial Guard Fight for Jesus!"
My Dad has written a quote on the back of a book. It was something about the truth... it sounded good, but I can't remember it. Probably didn't make real sense anyway.

So apparently Dad is now really into Warhammer 40K and has started Space Marines... because of Egyptology? He has started making a model board that looks like an abandoned warehouse with Egyptian hieroglyphs on it. Behind me he shows off his newest piece of work: A model pen filled with tiny dinosaurs. The models are moving and roaring, it is incredible.

Dad then starts telling me that he chose Space Marines because they fight against Jesus. Er, what?
"Not like those Imperials! They fight for Jesus!"
I can't help but laugh because it sounds crazy.
"No," Dad continues "I chose Space Marines because then you get a beast army too." He indicates the dinosaurs.
"Er, don't you mean Tau..." I reply, remembering that in Dawn of War the Tau got Kroot units which look a bit like dinosaurs.
Dad is insistent about the Space Marines. He shows me a screen with small animated pictures on.

The dream changes and I'm driving a car. Some idiot in a minivan tries to overtake in the outside lane while we are queueing for a set of lights. I see a gap and move into it, which pisses the minivan driver off even more.

Leaving the vehicle I walk inside a pub. A group of people are playing cards. One of them is JA from work. Also, they are pretending to be part of the Sons of Anarchy: Most of them are wearing leather cuts. They start to sort out drinks for everyone.

One guy who I don't recognise comes over and we hug as brothers. He warns me that he is getting his friend out of this life. He glances over to another table where a 20ish year old guy is sitting looking nervous. "We're getting out. He's mine."
"Yeah, fine, whatever. Do what you like."
He seems surprised by my response. I don't care and head outside. There are tables filled with patrons and the road still busy next to it. I have a false memory of leaving my dog out here and whistle.
"Juicy! Juicy!" ...apparently the dog is called Juice, after the SOA character.
A small wiry terrier runs over and I squat down to scratch the dog behind the ears and greet him. Juice then starts to follow me as we start to walk back to the car.

6.30-7.10am
Long LD 339 "Phoenix"
I am driving like a total maniac. It's all right, because this is a dream, so no one will get hurt. I nearly hit the kerb, then take a junction without stopping. The road layout is weird, or I'm going the wrong way down a slip road... and almost end up driving into a tree lined verge. Well this is silly... why am I just driving stupid? I should really just become lucid and do something productive with this dream.

So I acknowledge the fact this is a dream and attempt to stop the car. It has other ideas. The car fishtails across the road and collides with a tree, despite me fighting the controls. Oh well. Another dream car wrecked. I climb out and look around. The road is in the middle of a forest. Perfect for the fairy TOTY... but the scene fades.

Hoping it is just a scene change I hold on, assuming this is not a real awakening. After staring at blackness for a while I attempt to conjure a dream scene. Instead, the bedroom forms. AB is not here though. Getting up and looking around the room at several ugly pieces of furniture, I decide to use them to complete a different TOTY, phoenix.

Looking down at my right hand I flick it open and summon a ball of fire. It half works - there is heat coming off it but it is invisible, just a flickering haze of heat and warmth in my palm. I try the other hand and the same thing happens. Oh well. I throw the fire at the nearest cabinet and it starts to melt. The flames spread to nearby bits of furniture too.

I concentrate on the fire in my hand to turn it red, although it looks like real flame rather than just red magical energy. Happy with my fire-producing abilities I start chucking fireballs around the room. Soon the entire room is burning.

The original cupboard has melted to the floor in a dark mound of ash, still flaming around the edges. Willing a phoenix to rise from the ashes I concentrate and start seeing the shape of a bird start to form. It's wings seem to be formed of the same invisible fire in my hands, but much hotter. The phoenix is shrieking and twisting now, rising into the air.

The room feels very hot now. Uncomfortably so. I decide it's time to make an exit and phase through the window into the darkness beyond but end up in the darkness of the void, wondering what to do next.

Two of my goals require a DC, so I started thinking about forming a pub or bar where there would be plenty of people to try out some magic on. Instead a tablet forms and I start reading the dreams written on the screen, before realising the scene has formed around me already. It's another empty bedroom.

I phase through the window again. Beyond turns out to be a regular looking street, so I levitate down to the ground. It is night time. Everyone must be asleep in bed. Well, time to wake them up. I start to climb up the wall like Spiderman, to the upper floors, and peer in a window. The room inside has a wine rack thing, but is deserted.

The next window is much more promising. Inside, lying on the bed, in her undies, is a blonde woman. Well, hello! I tap on the glass to see if she's okay with me climbing in through the window at this time of night. She looks slightly confused, but smiles. I take that as an invitation and phase into the room.

The blonde woman stands up on the bed and starts moving to a second bed up in an alcove on the wall. As I start to move over, completely distracted from my goals and just thinking about having sex with her, the dream fades into a real awakening.

7.20 - 8.40am
Medium LD 340 "Turn You to Stone"
In a car again. This time with my Mum, Dad and sister. Dad is driving. We head into a small English village, heading down a hill with a pretty view of the town. However the road is blocked. I climb out of the car and become lucid straight away.

Still acting on the sexual urges stirred up from the previous dream's ending, I climb the nearest wall and find a door up on the second floor. Opening it reveals a bedroom. Sure enough there is a hot girl sitting on the bed, again in just her underwear. Unfortunately there is a guy sitting across the room.

"Excuse me. I really want to have sex with her, so you should leave." Brutal honesty. Sometimes my SC respects that, and it seems like one of those times. The guy gets up and exits the room. The woman just looks at me, almost blankly, uninterested. Bit of a turn off. I decide to persevere and see what happens.

Thankfully, once I sit down on the bed she decides that she is interested. To my delight she wants to try a couple of other things first before getting on with it.

When we are in the middle of having sex though, another woman enters the room. She's older, fully dressed, and, well, I'm enjoying myself just fine as things are. The other woman tries to stop us, grabbing my arm and trying to pull me off the bed. Remembering one of my personal goals, I turn to her and say "You're going to sleep now", in my finest Kilgrave impression. She curls up on the floor and starts snoring.

The woman that I was having sex with decides to go help the woman and try to wake her up. Fantastic. Irritated, I touch the girl's shoulder and will her to turn to stone. The skin on her shoulder takes on the appearance of stone, and the effect grows, covering her entire body. So now there is a statue of a naked woman trying to wake the sleeping woman.

Well, enough of this. I go searching for my motorbike. The bedroom door leads out into a car park. There are rows and rows of cars but no bikes, so I start turning around and looking for one. A couple of motorbikes appear, but they are weird looking. I specifically want to ride my own bike tonight.

I start to call out my motorbike's name and searching through the car park for her. (Yes, my motorbike has a name. I don't care if you think it's weird.) The car park leads to a street. There is a bus stop with several people waiting. A group of guys are hanging around. The bus stop leads into a tunnel, and at this point I acknowledge that my attempts to summon my bike aren't working. A new approach is needed. Before thinking of anything, the dream ends.

Short LD 341 "Pipe Cleaner"
I am desperate to urinate but unable to find a toilet. There is a large sink/bowl thing on the floor, so I pee into that. It is out in the open, in the middle of some kind of hospital. It seems to take forever, with there being an unending amount of urine. Some people walk past while I'm standing there, peeing into the bowl. They give me weird looks, but, well, I don't think I can stop the flow.

A nurse shows up. She starts saying I should get a check up, and that there is clearly something wrong with me. She holds up a 'medical' pipe cleaner - the single bit of wire with white bristles surrounding it. Eeeep, no, you are not going to do what I think you're planning on doing with that!

I turn around and am confronted by a second nurse. This one is holding what can only be described as a solid, clear plastic condom type thing with sharp looking bristles on the inside. There are rows of the same contraption in packets on the shelf behind her. Yikes.
"Stay the hell away from me!"
I zip my trousers up and make a hasty exit.

The hospital turns into a pub. I walk past the bar, which contains a few DCs sitting drinking. At the door, still thinking about the nurses, I decide to do a reality check. Yep. This is a dream. I almost leave the pub before recalling the TOTM and head back to the bar.

The barman gives me a surprised look when I ask for a beer. That's a normal request to make of a barman, isn't it?
"You want a beer?" He says, slowly, as if this is a very stupid thing to ask for.
"Yeah. A beer."
He raises an eyebrow, but walks away.
"What are you drinking?" I ask the guy sitting nearby at the bar, holding some kind of elaborate cocktail. "What's wrong with the beer?"
"The beer tastes like piss." He tells me. "This is orange juice."
Looking around, all the other patrons seems to be drinking fruit juice too. Great. I manage to find a bar where no one is drunk. I start to walk out of the pub and wake up.

+ (f) I'm studying/doing work, (on couch in CH LR), when my mom calls.

+ (f) I'm on the phone with my dad, and I'm saying that I can bring the keys by because I'm still in town

+ My dad is away and has rented his home out to chicken farmers. Chickens all over the place, chicken poop, when they're gone won't the smell remain? I guess they cover the place in plastic.

Walking past a house I think I catch a glimpse of a mouse. I go back to check and another house is renting out to rat farmers. There are rats all over the place. How do they gather the rats up when it's time to go? They place firecrackers up the butts of the rats and if they do not come when called the firecrackers are set off.

+ (f) returning from a trip, I'm trying to decide whether to take the high/long or the low/short (route) home.

Technically it's not the first one but others were just too short or limited to count them (and I don't even wrote down every). So I think that this is the first one which is worth anything. Also I need numbers so here we go:

Non-lucid parts
Lucid parts

#1 LD
I was on the meadow close to my house. There were some animals: bisons (?) and black fox. As usually in my dreams I didn't have my camera so I went back for it to my house. I was there very quickly, like with teleport. Then I started to realise that something's odd. I was on the ground floor and again - teleport to my room (maybe with a very little lucidity). I was still going through the dream way. I get my camera. Again - feeling that this can be a dream. So I did RCs. My camera was working fine (vivid, display was on, I took a photo of the church with flash - it was night outside, I checked it on gallery). I switched on and off the light - it worked. I went to the kitchen where my mom was watching TV. I looked on my hands. I had brown gloves and my two fingers was close to each other but it wasn't that odd for me then. I asked my mom if this is a dream and she told me that I'm talking rubbish and I should eat a cucumber. Well, that's my mom. Nothing odd. I was looking so badly for the sign because I wanted to jump through the window and if it wouldn't be a dream - well, not so good RC then. So finally I tried to levitate and it worked! I was flapping my hands for it. It was hard to control the flight. I flight/went to my room, jump through the window and crashed. Fortunately that didn't wake me up, also I didn't feel any discomfort. I flied a little to a different part of the yard. It was day, grass was green, there were many flowers (i.a. red poppies). Everything was beautiful. If I was focusing on some detail then it was more sharp and vivid but also a little 'shaking'. I didn't have many ideas what to do because of excitement. I tried to summon my boyfriend then. I imagined that he comes from behind the tree. It was easy. But he did strange faces, didn't talk anything. Anyway I started to lose control, emotions and stuff. I hugged him. I saw in my mind (still in dream) his dog. Then I woke up. It was maybe 5 minutes between alarms on the morning.

So it was short and I didn't do anything special but I liked it. Also I think it was a sign to start putting more interest in dreams, maybe to help myself with some things. I wasn't thinking then about LD or anything, I didn't even wrote down my dreams (last ones are from October).

Non-lucid dream fragment 0.5 points:

Driving down a street near home with family, talking about how we bought the car

DILD (10 points):

Walking through some long building, walk into a room with a big double bed and DCs, scenery changes to my parent's bedroom and DCs disappear, I notice I'm dreaming, RC (1 point, probably by nose-pinch and trying to remember what I'd been doing) because I can't believe I did it after a bad week with little recall.

I try to compose myself and go through the list of things I was going to do for the competition. The dream is not especially stable at first. I jump/glide/leap from the front of the bed to the side and back for some reason, as there is some suitcase preventing me from walking this route (This jump would have been impossible and painful IRL, so Change Gravity - 5 points), then remember what I was going to do and pull out my phone from somewhere vaguely near my pocket (Basic Summoning - 5 points, First three-step task - 5 points) I think I was wearing my pyjamas which don't have pockets and in any case I don't carry my phone on me at home, so the phone shouldn't have been there. Dream stability peaks around this moment.

As per the plan I'd made earlier for chaining tasks, I try to use the phone to summon a DC. The dream begins to fade. I press something on the screen, which is nearly black (Use an Electronic Device - 5 points), and turn around clockwise, but think halfway through the turn that it didn't work and only see a white wall closer than usual when the turn completes. I turn about 45 more degrees in the same direction, see that the door is ajar but the hinge is on the other side from real life. The dream starts fading and I say "normalize" or something, but by then my vision is completely black. Gravity switches from "down" to "behind" and I wake up IRL with my eyes shut, lying on my back. I try to WBTB (2 points), look at my watch, realize it's only 06:30 AM, eventually go to sleep.

Non-Lucid Dream (1 point)

Approaching, on foot through water, an island created by a nuclear explosion, only accessible at low tide in the morning. Some tall, male DC and my brother is with me. We find a torn bag of rubbish, then approach the island. I start worrying about radiation. Eventually we start returning the way we came and debate on what to do with the bag - leave it there or dispose of it safely?

2 fragments of one dream (1 point)

This was a very long dream but I only remember fragments. Standing on a cliff on one side of a frozen river, looking out over some large tall structure in the river. Some villain DC is with me.

Later near that building, on the ice.

Fragment (0.5 points)

Looking at some book or film about 2018. In my mind it is still 2015. It is snowing. The world's climate seems to have collapsed. I ask how this is possible but a DC reminds me of the 'China floods' a few years ago in this timeline, and that I'm not old enough to remember.


EDIT: One more fragment (0.5 points): Chatting on DreamViews IRC!

TOTAL: 36.5 POINTS WOOP WOOP WOOP

KOTOR2 = Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic II: Sith Lords

Dream - KOTOR2
The start is a bit fuzzy, kind of resembles the forest world from Star Wars 7. I recall running onto a large ship as a battle was taking place. Later on I'm on Peragus II mining facility from the Star Wars game KOTOR2 (google it) and I've just beaten the bad guy leader. There was some dream-forged history about how this bad guy had been beaten before and had been rescued (like Palpatine rescue Anakin style or something) and he'd come back to get revenge. We're in the mining tunnels which are really hot and I've just cleaved him in two (possibly with a lightsaber?). I look at his body and see the modifications made to his brain, there's mechanical implants used to enhance his memory capability (some similarity to the protocol assassin droid in KOTOR2) and another implant which can control him. From this I gather that there has to be someone who was control the Sith but I don't know who.

I probably shouldn't have stayed up so late playing KOTOR2

[Notes]:
- Still further into WBTB + request method, and this is getting better and better.
- Most control I've had in a lucid yet.
- REALLY gotta fix the gyroscope turning problem.

Lucid Non-Lucid Non-Dream

[Enter dream]
I’m in an accurate version of the weight room. I’m sitting on these bleachers by the windows. Suddenly, while Ms. N is talking, H comes over and plops herself right next to me. I ask her, “So who are you dating?” In reality, she seems kinda interested in me but has a BF. She tells me that that’s the issue and that things are kinda rough between her and J, so she was wondering if I “wanted to have sex?” And I’m like, “Whoa, whoa, what do you mean by that? Do you mean like ‘doing it’, like, sexual intercourse?” And she says “Not quite, I mean...” But then I leave and move over to one of the lockers. I open it up and find a bunch of magazines inside. Then I realize, “Wait, I just talked to her. That would only happen in a dream!” The lucidity sets in. I start saying “I’m dreaming, I’m dreaming, I’m dreaming!” I turn around, look around, and then look at my hands to stabilize. I remember that I wanted clarity and say it. Things get a little clearer, but still not nearly as clear as I want. I turn around (which sends my POV kinda lopsided… definitely gotta fix that problem.) I’m laughing to myself and see PG looking at me with disgust. I look at her and say ”Shut the ___ up!” And I side kick her whole box apparatus into her and knock her over, knowing she’s a DC. Man, I’m a dream jerk. I run off and find some more boxes. I just start throwing them around the gym, and I drop kick one. No one notices. Then I just ran a lap around the gym. This is easily the longest and most controlled lucid I’ve ever had.

[The dream fragments...]

[Notes]:
- This took place later into the week of WBTB + nightly personal requests.
- Woke up with great euphoria

Lucid Non-Lucid Non-Dream

[Enter dream]:
I’m in my yard, in the spring, coming up from the creek with Dad. There’s this massive vertiberd that comes frling over us. Dad notices that it uses the wrong turn signal when it turns, and I confirmed. Then, the pilot must have noticed me, so he started doing flips and stuff, and kinda glitching out really. He eventually comes down and lands in the driveway. I think to myself: “Wow, this is sick. Imagine if I was lucid! What would I be doing?” The pilot gets out (Brotherhood of Steel?), introduces himself and tells us we’re gonna have some fun. We do, and a lot of people are at the house... someone was wrangling with our antenna.

I’m in Diamond City/ish. There are a couple of super mutants hiding around with a couple of feral mongrels. I get detected and run away, just to get found again. I’m hiding out in an alley…. chillin? there was something about having this special porridge.

I had to make S and A food. I made A some Asian noodles with tossed veggies and a thick soy sauce and it was actually pretty nice. I made S some strange dog food + corn mixture… it’s what she wanted! Mr. S appreciated the “tossed vegetables” in A's dish.

I was driving to school from over T Hill. I turn onto the road and end up sliding a bit… everyone does. It’s real snowy and nasty out. I eventually get to school and walk into the gym 31 minutes late (it was 8:31 on my phone). There’s these weight cages and crap. I walk around the place (it was huge). Inside of the weight cages were these these lifts. You could get lifted super high up into the air real fast with a push of a lever. We lifted and dropped them a few times. W messed with it for a bit. I hopped on, and flew up a bit. ART DEPARTMENT? Hangin with Ms. C in the studio art class.

I left the gym, and I was in space. I was flying in an X-Wing to the scene of a current battle. This was in the first trilogy. I fly out of another ship and make my way over. Some flagship spews out a massive line of fire, like a square, apparently so the attack on the planet could be made immediately. I flew in and…. yeah.

I was in this room with a doctor-ish person (kinda run down place), and this is in the same vein as the vertibird. Then, someone knocks on the door. I heard their monotone voice, and immediately was suspicious it was a synth. They come in, and it’s this ex-senior Asian guy. I grab a broken crutch and get ready to fight. He tries to say he’s not a synth, and tells me to prove it, and I cut his belly. There’s no blood. Then he starts to brag about how powerful he is and everything I straight-up knock his head off by stabbing him in the neck.

[Wake]

[Notes]:
- This took place after I requested to myself to have a dream with intense feelings... and it seemed to work!
- This is result of my new nightly WBTB practice.
- There was a moment of slight lucidity in here.

Lucid Non-Lucid Non-Dream

[Enter dream (post-WBTB?)]:
There’s a paper that I forgot to read and respond to, and almost everyone in class forgot to do it as well. They would be trying to get it in late with no penalty (Freya, Reyna, etc.) I talked w/ my teacher in a small side-street with one-seater Fallout cars and she said “Maybe.” This may have taken place in the week before spring break?

Warframe. Sophia is a “supporter.” She has these gummies... We decide that we’re gonna go to the citadel of the (Brotherhood of Steel?). We start talking about it when I’m about halfway through the stairway. Then she starts getting a little flirty. We stand by the door, deciding, and she kinda turns into Emma Watson and tries to kiss me from over the shoulder. I kinda slough her off and ask why she'd try to do that so early. Then she says that it was for "trying to get a leg up on her in the stairway." We go to the citadel and as we enter the main building, she kinda sneaks on me and grabs my hand. It was intense, and I've had this moment in many dreams before. I say, “I’m sorry. I know it’s been a long time coming.” She says, “I know.” Then, as we start to go down the steps, I realize that it’s only ever been in my dreams that I’ve held her hand, and I say “Oh, wait. This is a dream.” I continue to walk with her to our new place. On the way, I grab a random thing and read it, saying “Gotta maintain my lucidity!” We’re in the back of the building (very rocky), and I find my desk, and she finds hers. We put down our stuff, and move up to check out. She puts down her gummies on the checkout, and I put a card-thing in to sign up. There was apparently a discount for supporter as opposed to warrior… loophole could let me get stuff for less. Boosters in a hexagon map thing...

SJ was building a bunker/shelter out of some metal that started with “s.” I couldn’t pronounce it in the dream either.

French guy named Jean meets this girl and asks if she wants to Skype with him (in a suggestive manner).

[Wake]

I was in my hometown. I was going to ride a plane. I was packing my things and thought I was late. I hurried out to the airport, which turned out to be right beside our home, where the municipal building was supposed to be. The plane is no longer there. I was told that it's near the market area, and it turned the roads to a runway. I walked to the market. There's a fair. It was a sunny day. When I reached where I thought the plane was supposed to be, it was dark, night, and flooding. I think it was raining. I was on top of some sort post. I looked down at some of the debris being swept away by the flood. I didn't feel fear. A bit of fascination.

I was walking along the road with mom and sis in a subdivision. Sis mentioned about renting a place. The one she's currently in is horrible. The space is small, the light is dim yellow, security is awful. It also looks cheaply made. I led them down the road. There's a bit of flood on the road. It was raining. There were cars passing by. I was impressed by one car that looks expensive but was able to go through the flood without sputtering. We reached the place, a house I was renting (all on my own or sharing?). I pointed out how the setting is perfect. Sunlight does not go inside too often, only on the east where it rises, and on the west, there's a building that will block it. The house looks decent. Mom wanted to hurry back home. I thought sis was supposed to back home with mom but apparently she's staying. She was in the living room working on her laptop.

I was in my hometown. I was going to ride a plane.

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Notes:

- I woke up pre-dawn and wrote keywords for the first paragraph. I slept and woke up around 10am and wrote keywords for the second paragraph.
- Had a hard time sleeping. I went to bed around 2am.
- I tried going to gamma through alpha but I keep getting distracted.
- I will have to go back to basic meditation.

#4
This is Squall Leonhart

I honestly, wasn't really feeling like posting this journal entry but I decided to post the notes I had in my physical journal anyways before it got too late in the night.

• Scenario #1 [Woke Up @ 1:08AM]: I was underwater, drowning, while looking at the pretty scenery and colorful coral. The gagging effect was very vivid and felt real and has brought me back into a fully conscious state.

• Scenario #2 [Woke Up @ 1:13AM]: I was looking for Shadow the Hedgehog in this large campus sized area of a college at night. I headed over to the men's dorm area where I somehow got stuck in-between this small star case up at the entrance door. Squall Leonhart from Final Fantasy 8 came out side in a very happily, almost flamboyant personality. I called out to him to help me up. With a flick back getting his brown hair out from his face, he smiled as he reached his arm out to me. Grabbing it I lifted myself up. Then I awoke...

• Other Small Scenarios #3: [Woke Up @ 3:46AM]: While laying in bed in the middle of WILDing, I have encountered random scenes playing through my head, one of such involved Sonic the Hedgehog and Silver the Hedgehog sitting together on a red couch as Silver grabbed Sonic's leg and held him up in the air. This was more of a dreamlet (hypnagogia).

• Scenario #4 [Woke Up @ 1:26PM]: This is fragmented a bit since I can't really remember most of what was going on clearly. I was at another college-like campus and there were tons of people all around. I was with some emo-looking guy I had a crush on and who supposedly knows me. We got separated in the school's enormously large library and I was trying to find him. While exiting past the metal detector and proceeding to head back in. The lady at the desk stated that I couldn't come back unless I payed the fee. We argued about it as I stated, "Why do I have to pay money to go into the library!" I then woke up.

• Notes: I cannot think of much to say for that night. I been awake and back to sleep many times throughout the night and all through the morning. I have been trying to keep Shadow the Hedgehog as my focus for a while (I'm trying to achieve the first goal in my workbook). Imagining him and I walking up stairs for instance. I will say that eventually my busy mind settled to only the thought of the creature as his face would constantly show up in dreamlets (hypnagogia) but have never gotten farther then that sadly.

I may try WILDing again tonight.

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• Date — 1/16/2016

• Went to bed — 11:50PM

• Woke up — Fully awoken at 1:26PM

*Time logged — 1:26PM (in physical dj)

• Total sleep — You do the math...

• Stress level throughout the day — Moderate

• Techniques/Practices —

*Daytime — Reality Checks, daydreamed (of Shadow The Hedgehog)

*Recall — Mantras (Stated to myself that I would see Shadow the Hedgehog in my dream and that I would remember it)

*Inducing Method — Looked at pictures of Shadow the Hedgehog on Tumblr

• Dream Signs — N/A

• Perceived Length — N/A

• Emotions — N/A

• Awareness — N/A

So I had several dreams last night, all non lucid I only remember the first one though because it was my first nightmare in a long time. I kept waking up during the night so I rolled over (I sleep without a shirt on) and hugged a pillow and fell back asleep, well my room got very cold and it started to tickle/hurt my back and I dreamed that there was this half tree bark/half porcupine monster (tree bark on front the porcupine side on back and I tried running away but when I turned my back he grabbed onto me and started merging with my body and it started to really hurt and in the middle of it I looked into a mirror and seen myself shirtless and bark started to cover my skin and I could see the super jumbo sized sharp needles the porcupines have sticking out the back.