My sleeping is really bad lately and sleep is needed to dream of course lol.
[I can't remember that much about it. ] I'm in front of a mirror, which seems to be in an hotel. I'm trying to shve with an electric razor, but it isn't working at all. The next I remember is that I'm standing in a railway station. I want to go home. It seems like I'm back from a business trip or whatever. I want to take the plane (yes the plain, not the train). The cashier says to me: - We are really sorry but your flight is fully booked. Also your ticket has to get used in the next hour or it will be not usable anymore. - But I want to go home! A friend awaits me back in Brussels. - I'll see what I can make .... I have a seat in the train from here to there. - What? I don't understand what he wants. - It's easy we are here in Manchester. You'll take the train to Paris. And then you'll take the plane to Brussels. I don't remember what I said next. He tears my ticket apart. - Now your ticket is valid you can go and take a seat! He throws them at the floor. I pick them up. .... I'm sitting in a full train. I don't know, when I should go out. I ask the cashier. He tells me that I have to wait 6 hours. .... I'm swimming in a river. I see the Eiffel tower and assume that I'm swimming in the Seine. But the river is twice as large and looks more like the Rhine or a very stretched out lake Constanz. I swim back to a house because I don't want to get sick of the filthy water. (that's all)
Note: Doing two entries today because I missed yesterdays (but luckily still wrote it in my normal journal) I was my uncle's house, using some type of outdoor shower. I was walking back to the house in a towel when I saw this gorgeous pool that had a brand new wooden roof over it. It looked incredible and I really wanted to swim in it, but I knew I needed to get inside for some reason. I couldn't find any clothes and just assumed they were inside but passing by a window I saw the rest of my extended family (including my cousins) dressed in their sunday best like they were about to go to a wedding or something. Suddenly I was extremely embarrassed because I had this feeling like I was supposed to already be inside and dressed and I damn sure shouldn't be outside wearing nothing but a towel.
note: forgot to put this one in yesterday so i'll be making two entries today Actually one of the better vacation dreams i've had in a while. i was somewhere with rocky and tomorrow we wre gonig to go to london. we met up with mom and nana and thomas at this little restaurant and thomas was bieng fusy acting lik had forgotten where i came from just because i was enjoying myself. i could see ufc fighgts happening on the tv. i remember i had some type fo delivious fish dish and rocky had one too . he dropped a piece and some old clearning lady picked it up and ate it. 2nd dream: i was a new producer for a television network and to test me, I was being given my first big assignment: Choose from a list of shows which one to make and cancel one in order to have room for it. My two top contenders were a show about Deadpool (the comic book character) and a family sitcom that my brother was a cast member for (even though he's not an actor in real life) Even though it would be a dream come true to do a comic book character, I really wanted to help my brother get a break and I figured comedy was more up my alley so I chose the comedy for it to make it to air, I had to cancel something though and I decided to cancel a show about a baseball player (though it was sort of implied that I was deciding that the network would simply not show baseball games anymore--i'm not sure) either way I had to tell this guy in a baseball outfit myself and he didn't take it very well.
Some kind of academic tribunal is standing judgment over me. All of us are dressed in incredibly ornate finery. I came to them with a request which had originally been refused, even though I'd been sleeping with the woman who leads the tribunal. But I found a hooded figure to act as my sponsor, and this time around, our request is granted.
I have been having these very painful sleep paralysis moments before I wake or before drifting off to sleep that feel like seizures. Right before I feel like my head is going to explode or my heart is going to stop I hear voices... Sometimes I even hear the voices during the paralysis and I know them... Sometimes just ringing or buzzing and even loud horrifying shouting like its literally feet away from me... I've also had this happen to me and thought I was going to die multiple times and in one instance even felt and saw a beam of light coming down onto me.... It felt good and painful all together. I'm not sure what these mean but I'm worried and intrigued. I'm worried mostly because of the pain...
I...don't feel like proofreading this. My house is more like a dorm than a duplex, the hall is wider and has more doors, but all the colors are the same. I wander into our room and think it still feels more like his than ours. I can hear my boyfriend talking from the kitchen, he is telling someone that he is going out to pick up food for a party. In our room there is a stranger in the bed with a blonde woman. They aren't really wearing anything. He has coerced her into playing a sex game. I find myself sitting on the bed, strangely intent on their actions. "What is the point of this game again?" The woman asks. "Jesus! The point is to see how long I can kiss you without vomiting. You're disgusting. When was the last time you showered?" He's being a huge jackass but she doesn't leave. He coerces me into 'playing', and eventually I say that I'll only have sex with him if he calls my boyfriend in to help. Some more strangers come into the room, the same ilk as the man in the bed. At least they're wearing clothes. They decide that since I'm not playing his game, I can play theirs. It's called 'See how long you can stay conscious while we beat you'. What, doesn't that sound like fun to you? I struggle as they pull my legs out straight and begin to strike me. I'm surprised by how much it hurts. The stranger decides he's going to have sex with me whether I want it or not, says that's what I get for being a tease. Thankfully I fall unconscious. I 'wake' with the sensation of arms wrapping around me. It is so realistic that I cry out and try to struggle away. "Hey, are you alright? It's just me." It is just my boyfriend. I relax and lay next to him for a while. Eventually we get out of bed. I want to tell him what I've done before the stranger does it. What will I say? I was curious and it turned out badly? For a minute I thought I wanted to sleep with someone else? Before I can figure it out, he leaves. Something else happens. I can't remember, but I'm coming back into the dorm/duplex and I am suddenly lucid. As always, I'm amazed by the clarity, how real it feels. I round a corner and find myself in the hall outside our room. Ours is the only one standing open, I go inside but my boyfriend isn't there. At first I intend to find him, but when I get back into the hallway I start to mentally call for Liam. At the end of the hall is a wide wooden gate that is about my height and 10' wide. I immediately notice that there isn't a handle but I'm curious. The force of my curiosity creates a gap between the corner of the door and the wall. I hook my fingers into it and pull until it creaks open. On the other side is a collapsed tunnel. I hear a distant rumbling and dirt showers down from above. Of course, I think cynically, the one way I want to go is blocked off. It doesn't occur to me that I can clear the way. Instead I close the door and as I'm turning away notice a faded white dumpster filled with sapphire blue dirt. I'm having trouble with my eyes. The right one keeps dragging and skipping images. I think that maybe if I keep it closed I won't wake up, so I gently close my right eye with my finger and cover it with my hand. It seems to work. "What are you doing, silly? You aren't using your eyes." And once I realize that, I have no further trouble seeing. There's a breezeway and another sharp corner where there's a bathroom. I hear one of the managers from work talking about me, saying that I was such a whore for sleeping with a stranger, in my boyfriend's bed, while my boyfriend was in the other room. It makes me ridiculously angry, I see them leave out the side door and take the front door which leads out onto a bright pink pathway made of metal grates, that runs parallel to the path below. I suddenly have a bat in my hand. I run, savoring the feeling of the wind on my face and how the metal vibrates under my feet with each running step I take. I run lightly, easily, cutting off the three people below and jumping down in their way. I land on one person, smack the second with the bat, and when the manager has the audacity to be amused, I throw the bat at his face. There. Problem solved. Then I realize the person I landed on is my friend Laura and I have hurt her. Still, she is glad to see me. I pick her up to carry her home, but her body is stretchy like...rubber or taffy. Or maybe a length of fabric. And for some reason there's a cat sitting on her chest. I struggle to pry it off of her and then cast it away so I can lift her more easily. Um, something about a funeral? I was being disrespectful by riding a bicycle around while a man tried to talk to everyone who had gathered to honor the dead. When he mentions that food will be brought out, and that the caterers are fantastic, two people come outside with the food...carrying a vat of pork in a container shaped like a pig, that's suspended between two poles and is dripping grease everywhere. It smells delicious.
Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid --7-31-2013-- Darkness light on the stage: I can't type much for this dream. The main reason being that the plot of the dream jumped all over the place, you could say it was super random. But i will list the bits i remember. I'm fairly certain that i had no clothes on and a bunch of girls walked into the room i was in. Then there were some bits of me practicing with my percussion section in an auditorium. Then the last bit was me in the auditorium, no lights were on, it was dark, i had a small light, i was looking for at least some one from my section but i could find none. Help- regression, obsession , I can't keep away from her touch Leave no doubt, to find out , It's calling me back to my home: I was lost. I was in asia, somewhere rural. There were forests, rivers, and small towns scattered all about. I always had the feelings about where i needed to go, and i followed those feelings, only to find myself lost again. I arrived to a dusty old town. I looked around. I felt to go to a church like place. Once there, i decided to leave. I found a car as i moved through the town. The car wasn't operational. That night, i crept into a house located on the edge of a cliff. The house had a hostile and noble feel to it. As i crept into the back part of the house, The room suddenly flipped upside down and i saw a man with a sword. I was certain he was going to attack me. I have a rifle, i'm walking along a road. It's still night. I'm trying to get somewhere, however, i'm being chased. Maybe i'm being chased by some law enforcement, why would they chase me? I think i hear shots up ahead, or maybe it was pure impulse. I run into the woods on my left. I see dead bodies of innocent people everywhere. I run. I'm about to get out on the other side of the woods when an armed police man appears, he moves his rifle into position to shoot. I get my rifle but the clip is out. I reload. I wake up. As i look back at this dream, i realize i'm where i need to be. Home is still home, at least for now, but now is fine enough. --8-1-2013-- The Will, Desire, Curiosity , Idea, or even Chance to walk and break structured load: I'm in a car accident. Something of the sort. I find myself after with two seemingly broken legs and a broken wrist. I walk into a store with crutches and a cast on my right hand. I see people i know, it's sort of embarrassing i think, so i decide to walk without the crutches. After making that decision. I drop the crutches and free my right arm. Sure, it's a little weak, but i was walking fine and i could move my right wrist. Hehe, incredible. That's all i feel like logging on here right now. I'll likely post some more tomorrow.
Thursday 8/1/13 Bed last night around midnight - 8:30 am. Nap 3pm - 4pm DR - last minutes of the nap I'm fooling around with a classmate from elementary school. I tell him to stop, because I think he has a girlfrend. Then I ask him if he has one and tell him that if he doesn't, we can continue. I'm in a small, rectangular room, that's adjacent to my room. That room has shelves with trays full of different kinds of bread. Long bagettes, loafs... I walk throught the room and I have a feeling, it doesn't belong to me, but they trust me to be there. I break of a tiny piece of bread and eat it. I'm disappointed in myself, since I have never done that before. I wonder if there are cameras. I'm disturbed with what i have done and go back to my room to get some money. I see price labels next to each bread tray, so I'm gonna pay for the whole loaf. I remembered later, there were some delicious looking bread sticks standing in a cup. Sprinkled with some spices and cheese, from pizza dough. I felt relieved, that now I don't have to make them myself.
Updated 08-02-2013 at 08:15 PM by 50242
Date: 1 Aug Total sleep time: 7 1/2 hrs Natural wake: 2x, impression of vivid dreams with fleeting memory after both wakes Dream quality: very vivid, realistic and generally stable, lasted a while Recall: I had to rush out of bed as was late, spent a few mins motionless after wake but the dream memory began erasing, reviewed dream during shower and wrote down 4 hrs later Tech: snooze by-product. After the normal alarm I pressed the snooze button which was set for 15 more mins. DILD+: The beginning of this dream is almost impossible to recall as were my very first actions while lucid. I think it was one of those from scratch dilds, where I suddenly appear in a scene. The location is a non-existent room with an open view to the street of our first home. I look around and say something to the DCs in this strange room. There are a number of them, at least two are classmates. I have no idea what I said there, or what else I noticed in the first part of the ld. Then I think that I'd better start doing some tasks as I worry that I will either lose lucidity or destabilize the dream by not engaging thoroughly. Haven't thought about tasks for a while, but look at my hand where I have mentally recorded my tasks irl. I recall 4-5 tasks. Any that involve leaving the room are out of the question, as I have the certainty that this lead to me losing control over the situation in this particular dream. So I decide to stay in the room and see what I can do here. My personal "ask a DC" task comes to mind and I go over to the DC girl that looks like my classmate and ask her how to ld more often. She says a few words that don't make any sense. I repeat the last word she said, asking for a confirmation. While she is in front of me, she continues talking, but now I hear her voice coming from somewhere to my right. I find this kind of strange. Also, the DC of my dad, who only looks like him but has an aggressive nasty feel to him, is there. He behaves daringly, coming closer to me and then grabs me. For a moment I feel helpless as this DC is very strong. I struggle for a while, then recall a similar situation where I escaped a DC by thinking that he can't hold me because I have no hands/body. This works again so he lets go and I back away. Hearing the girl's voice coming from a different location helps me remember I also wanted to do alternative voice experiments. I say a sentence, but I only hear my own voice. I gather more power and shout out. This time my voice sounds different and there is a pleasant resonance, a bit like echo, but not exactly. I move on to the next task "transformation" and get ready do it, although I feel that my dream control powers in this dream are very weak. I notice that I am wearing my winter coat plus a hood and feel very warm. I just want to take those winter clothes off before I proceed with the transformation. I start unbuttoning the coat but then remember that none of my naked TOTM attempts were successful. I feel this will take too much time to execute and might destabilize the dream as well. I think about ripping my winter coat, but I just can't find the courage to do it. I go over to another classmate (male) and delegate the task to him. My classmate does a very good job undressing me, the layers of top clothes just disappear in front of my eyes. Then I get carried away, sit on top of him and start kissing him, forgetting about anything else. A few moments later, I notice that I am sitting in the darkness, I guess kissing with my eyes closed?, but I still feel his body and the room. I begin wondering what exactly am I kissing, are these his lips or his tongue. Very confusing. I can see now, weirdly, his ears catch my attention and I zoom into some strange things there. I tell him that he will need to clean his ears later on. I have no more sexy interest and think about the dream and that it was pretty stable and long. I am running out of tasks, and regret that I have no idea what this month's TOTM is. I decide that I will try to reach out for this information and my tablet magically appears in front of me. The browser as well as the virtual keyboard open and I want to type dreamviews.com. The initial letters are fine, but towards the end, the keyboard letters are on the wrong places and reverse. I try to ignore the problem, tapping on where I know the letters should be. I type something close to dreamviews.cm and the page starts loading but the address changes to something like google, and the page that loads is google as well. Just instead of the google logo, it's something with less letters and reverse again. Disappointed I leave the tablet aside and look around. I think at this point the dream ends, but instead of me going through the void, the dream skips forward to the next scene. This leaves me a bit confused, as I expect to have a non-ld FA or wake up, so I passively start thinking about this. I remain disoriented in the room as the surroundings change and then gain back my clarity to realize that the dream continued in this strange manner. I am now in a very large furniture store, where me and my bf are the only "clients". It's a very calm atmosphere, crystal clear and extremely realistic. I wonder what to do in this room and see an empty champagne glass that I take with the intention of breaking. I am somewhat reluctant to do it, as it feels bad to be vandalizing this nice quiet real-life like shop. I playfully throw it high in the air, but instread of falling on the floor and breaking, it lands comfortably in my hand. I find this very cool and I do it again... At this point the snooze alarm wakes me up!
Updated 08-01-2013 at 11:48 PM by 61764
Dream 1(fragment): I had to travel between various villages and cities in search for something, i was really quick. Dream 2(fragments): I was in some video game and i traveled to the past version of some village, there were metallic houses and some engineer that was making some weird cube item, i had to help him. Also there was some annoying system of points. Dream 3(fragments): I was in some video game where i had to go through some complex with group of people and avoid various traps. There was one tricky trap that had timing problems. Dream 4(fragment): I was at home, looking outside, weather was changing rapidly.
Fragment 1: I was walking down the street a block away from my grandmothers house.. a neighbor comes out and is walking with me. She has shoulder length blonde hair.. wearing a white tee shirt and faded jeans. She was deaf but could speak.. we carried on a conversation.. not sure what about though . I spot a flyer on the street..white paper.. bold black lettering.. looked like it was outlining information for a summer camp.. or some sport sign up flyer like my son would get sent home from school.. I glanced over it quick then crumpled it up in my hand. I walked up the front porch steps to my moms old house, (which is right next to where my grandmother still lives so there's no jump here) ..waved goodbye to the neighbor lady I was talking with. Stopped in the hallway to remove my shoes.. I watched my feet kick them next to a dark brown wicker hamper. Turned and went thru a doorway to a small family room. Walls were either a light green or blue. There was my son attempting to vacuum the large dark area rug ..behind him on the couch my brothers sat sharing a Nintendo ds game. Aiden (my son) got tangled in the hose of the two piece vacuum & my brothers (both similar in age to my son) got up from the couch to help me untangle it. They bickered about how to untangle it and as I walked away I saw Aiden let go of the vacuum and it began flailing around like a powerful hose would. As the boys screamed and scrambled to catch the vacuum, I headed back out to the hallway and towards the stairs to go up to my room .. I think there was more here but I can't recall at this time. Fragment 2: I woke up in a large bed.. all clean white sheets rustled about from the nights sleep. The room was bright from the one large window with sheer white curtains. Natural sunlight filling the room white & pure.. small room.. nothing in it or on the walls.. just the big bed which took up most of the room. I was happy. Very pleasant mood as I stretched and got up to find where my boyfriend had gone. I headed out into a dark narrow hallway (this is a place I've never been).. spotted a dim yellow light spilling out into the hall from a door left ajar to the left at the end of the hall. Pushed the door open into what was a small bathroom. Sink and mirror to the right. Shower to the left with a black shower curtain. Black curtains on the one window. Dark green walls. There was my boyfriend sitting on the toilet to the right facing the shower. Holding a baby looking exhausted. Baby was only in a diaper.. had blonde curly hair and lots of freckles on his cheeks. (I am medium skinned, dark hair, dark eyes but whenever I have a baby in my dreams it has blonde curly hair and fair skin and light eyes..my boyfriend is fair skinned blue eyes red hair freckles) As he handed the baby up to me..he was a good size probably about 6 months old. I said to the baby "is daddy pooping!?" In my baby talk and he started laughing. While I was holding him I said to brandon (my boyfriend) "ew look at his face he looks so evil when he laughs at you like that" but we laughed and B responded "well what do you expect, he is our child" then I woke up. *my boyfriend and I recently separated to take some time apart .. we never had or don't currently have a child together.. im curious of opinions on what this kind of dream would mean..
I was at school playground driving motorbike, it had sticker on it; R-SX was written on it. I was revving it up and the engine was screaming. Suddenly I find myself at some amfitheater listening to some presentation. Everybody was sitting in their chairs except me - I was on the motorbike. Someone tried to take pictures of some girl sitting near me when she started to scream and ran away. Now I am at some open space, and I can see a football terrain in the distance. It was snowing and the terrain was covered with snow. I am with my friend, and there is that R-SX bike there too. I said to my friend: look there, I'll show up soon. I was looking at a terrain and saw myself driving some white jeep on the terrain. Suddenly my other friend appeared in place of one that was there before. He was holding my bag, and for some reason I reached for it and got my shower gel out of it. My friend started laughing and when I opened bottle of shower gel there was nothing but dirt in there. I don't remember what happened after, but that was one really strange dream.
I'm in some disheveled small one room apartment, the walls look like they're made of news paper. There's a mattress with soppy clothes on it, and soppy clothes piled up just as high on the floor all around, my sister and elissa are sitting on the bed, I get up on it and sit with them. They find their old work uniform from months ago we just abandoned, I thought elissa's was mine, but elissa find a plastic bag with my stuff in it and there is my uniform, we decide to put it on and go back to work if we'd be aloud even. When we get to the work I don't even know what this work is but the town is rundown and newspapery and this work place is just as bad as that apartment that I assume was our. He doesn't even care so we go back to work. I go into this room, and my damn half sister and her dork boyfriend are trying to convince me that any pills you take won't affect the baby. I tell them that I am positive that certain drugs taken will surely affect the baby of a pregnant lady, and they just laugh at me like I'm crazy and don't know what I'm talking about, (which the dork does to me in real life, fucking pretentious penis head). I tell them I will find it in my text books and that this is fact, then they proceed to try and distract me from this.
My mom tells me she want's to take me my sister and grandma somewhere. So we say okay, and suddenly we're in the area outside the adventuredome, she's sitting on a bench and she seems like she wants to get me and my sister off her hands so she can talk about something with my grandma so she says she'll buy us wrist bands for the adventuredome, first we were shocked because she's cheap, but then we think about lazer tag and roller coaster and shit, so we tell her hell yeah, and she goes into her purse and pulls out five dollars, and we tell her that's not nearly enough, last time it was twenty seven dollars per person, and fifteen dollars for one of us if we have that coupon we had last time, so she fake laughs and pulls out a ten, and we tell her it's not enough, so finally she gives us enough money, and we make our way to a ticket stand.
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