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set the alarm for 3:00AM (5 hours sleep) but I was way too tired for a WBTB or to even to do any induction this morning. So all I did was go pee and then straight to bed and repeated a mantra. "I will remember my dreams and know that I am dreaming." I probably got only 3 or 4 repeats before passing out.

#211 - 4:08AM - DILD

I have a false awakening in a recliner and look around. I see that I am in the first house I bought with my ex but there is only one DC in the room. My brother is taking apart a old bookcase or entertainment center with a hammer. The piece of furniture looks like is it made of old and weathered 1x4. I am confused that my brother came to visit me. I have no memory of is planned visit from Texas and become even more confused whats going on. I stand up and speak to my brother, "Hey, Tim. What are you doing?"
He replies, "Nothing. It's just a dream."
At first I feel embarrassed and think that he is just making fun of me for my lucid dreaming. He called me a hippie once in waking life and I feel like he's just messing with me again. I say, "Oh funny. I mean why are you here?" If he answered I can't remember because I suddenly have to know what time it is. I look behind me and see a oven with a clock. The time is 23:01. We never use military time and I let out a confused, "Whaaat?"
Tim looks at me, "I told you this was a dream." This is getting really silly so I do a nose plug but my breathing feels obstructed.

I look around and see that house looks different in a lot of ways. Tim is now doing something with a sheet of Sheetrock. As I stare blankly at him I realize the whole process is really distorted and odd. I decide I better make a more through RC and really try to blow through the nose plug this time. The RC proves I am dreaming but I do one more nose plug to be sure. I realize that my sinus feel slightly clogged and figure that's why I didn't quite pass the RC the first time. I say to my brother, "Oh wow this is a dream! I'm such a dipstick."
"Suck shit, dick-shit-dipstick." was his only reply. From some reason I find this to be completely hilarious and laugh my ass off at him for a moment. After I collect myself, I repeat the phrase back to him to be sure I can remember it when I wake up. While I do so I look over at a woman who is staring at me. I think it must be my wife but I ignore her and turn back to my brother but he has now vanished. I look throughout the house, "Dude where'd you go?" I call his name several times but quickly decide to let it go. "By the way, I totally believed you the first time." (lie) "Thanks though. Thanks Tim." I feel grateful to him for getting me lucid. But wait, that probably wasn't Tim. That was actually a part of me. I call out one more time, "Thanks subC!"

I see the front door and decide its adventure time. I try to think of a goal I had but I draw a blank. I become afraid that I am waking up and try to maintain. I calm myself and reach for the doorknob wondering what will be out there waiting for me. Suddenly, I hear my son crying out and feel the bed move as my wife gets up.

3rd person. Two sisters were raised by their grandmother, and the grandmother favored the younger one over the older one, to a ridiculous degree. The older sister confronts her grandmother on this, which she's done a thousand times before, but this time the grandmother tells her a story about her past. One day the grandmother's wayward daughter, who'd disappeared months before, just turned up on her doorstep with a girl who looked about 4 years old, a creature created by magic. She didn't explain where she'd been or what she'd been doing all this time, she just left the creature and disappeared again. Now the grandmother feels she's done her duty by the little monster just by taking her in and raising her at all, so now that the truth is out, she expects the older sister to understand the favoritism and quit complaining.

I am riding in the front of a minivan with two other DCs. I do not know where we are going. A lady cuts off the driver of the minivan, and the driver flips her off.

Later, we arrive at a park. There is a wooden-roofed walkway where some people are having a potluck party. People are setting food on the tables. The other end of the park is just a green feild.

I want to get out and eat the food (apparently this was our destination) but the driver is engaged in a "fight" with the driver of a larger red pickup truck. They fight by inching closer to the curb, probably trying to see who's vehicle can get the closest without actually touching the curb.

This morning, after coming back from a concert, I had a quite curious non-lucid dream.

Thing is, I went to bed at 4.30 am, more or less. I fell asleep and awoke at about 8 am, recalling very little of a dream I'd just had. I thought it was way too early and I still had time to have more dreams and pay attention to remember them. Then, I fell asleep again.

I "woke" a while afterwards. I was on my bed wearing my pyjamas (the same I was actually wearing). I had a look at my watch, it was 10.30 am. "Fair enough", I thought, "but I can still try to sleep more" (Side note: I always have trouble sleeping when I go to bed so late, I keep waking up many times). I looked around me and saw a couple of the friends who I had spent the night with, standing by my bed. One of them had a device which, he told me, was used to monitor the dreams to be able to retain more detail. I only needed to put two suction pads on my chest and just sleep. I thought it was a bit strange, but I followed his instructions.

It was then when I finally woke up. The first image my eyes caught was almost the same as the one I had when the dream started, apart from the fact that my friends weren't there. Again, I looked at my watch and was startled to realise it was 10.29 am. I did a RC to make sure it wasn't another false awakening, but this time I really was awake.

[HR][/HR]
[B][U]Sunday, 24. April 2011: "04:70"[/U][/B]

In this dream it is nighttime, and I am looking at the alarm clock in the living room. It reads "04:70". My cousin is there. I laugh about it, and so does he. At first I think I might be dreaming, but then I decide that the alarm clock is malfunctioning, and I leave it at that. Later I remember telling someone that the alarm clock is malfunctioning.

[B][U]Wednesday, 27. April 2011: "Movie script"[/U][/B]

I am in a darker room, kind of like a cinema, but it looks like I am attending a seminar. People are going to hold some speeches or something. I remember the whole situation revolving around a movie script for a horror movie. There is a man who talks a little about the script, but I don't remember the content. I remember two guys, middle-aged, chasing each other in a playful way through the room. A few moments later they become serious again. The atmosphere is tense, but not scary.

[B][U]Wednesday, 27. April 2011: "Teleporter cannon"[/U][/B]

It is daytime, but the weather is not sunny. I am standing outside in some field, with some sort of teleporter machine in front of me. There is a numerical keypad, and several LCD displays, along with other buttons. Someone is with me, but I don't remember who. I am pressing some buttons on the machine, and programming it so it is ready to teleport me to some destination. After I'm done "programming" it, I realize that this is actually some sort of big cannon for humans, and that I have to get inside so it fires me out of it. As scary as it sounds, I don't get very scared. I feel uncomfotable, but nonetheless decide to try it out, only a "small" test, not a big distance. So I get inside, and it fires me out, I don't go very much in the air. I notice that I have a parachute on me, so I pull on it, and it opens up. Now I slowly fall toward the ground.

lucid
*I became lucid while standing on a random balcony. I had no agenda just stood there enjoying real everything was. I thought this is absolutely no different then waking life. I observed the rain, the clouds, the detail was amazing. Everything was so still and peaceful.

non lucid
*My step brother Darius gave me a update of his life.
*In my ex step mother's room thinking about how she is doing.
*In the middle of storm taking shelter after playing a game in some random field.
*Subway employee making my sandwich completely wrong, starting to piss me off.

Date: 11 Aug

Pre bed: 100mg B6

Total sleep time: 6 1/2 hrs?

Natural wakes: many, got up on 5 to pee, drink water, take notes. Also lots of micro-awakenings where it took me some time to fall asleep. Noises from neighbors and early morning arrangements of others woke me up too.

Dream quality and recall: Very vivid dreams, some stability issues. Recall was challenging, forgot two lds, but then I recalled them, pffuuu. One suspicious also.

Early dream (+2 hrs after bed): I had the impression there might have been something lucid here, but sleep was so deep, I have no idea, it was quite vivid though.

Dream: some kind of tower, bf, something forbidden? (why didn't I write a whole sentence?)

Dream: this was a crazy dream, not very pleasant but interesting. The part I remember involved me getting to a window, where some kind of deadly poisonous gas is working. I am unprepared (compared to others) to deal with this gas and do some maneuvers to avoid it, while it's coming straight at me. I think I am trying to open the window as well. I notice that small wounds begin to appear on my hands from the gas. For once, they almost look ok, not too bad, but I am naturally worried about them. At the same time, I am fascinated that I feel no pain despite my exposure to the gas. (That was pretty close!)

DILD1: I go out in some kind of yard and want to sit on the stone wall. There are two teenagers there that plan to make out, so I move not to interrupt them and go sit on another fence. Soon they go back to the entrance and I hear an electricity shock. I think that a bad guy has done something to them and is now coming in the yard, so I look for a place to hide. I evaluate a few hideouts but decide I will be discovered so better leave now. The main idea is to get as far away as possible, while still able to observe the guy.

As I make my way through yard after yard, I get this familiar feeling. I have been running like this in a lot of my dreams. Semi-lucid, I continue on my way, climbing fences, going far enough. Then I finally reach a block, which I start to climb as if it is a tree. No matter where I step or reach there is always something to hold on to, like a balcony, the window etc. I finally reach the top of the building, which is like 5-6 floors and sit there to contemplate. It is not very easy to keep balance as I am holding on to some unstable part of the building. At this point, I also reach a much better clarity of mind. I look around and see all kinds of junk around me. I either become worried about stability and the dream becomes unstable or the other way around. I wait and things improve somewhat and I get the weird idea that I will turn this building top into the top of Angel Falls then jump, but I feel the need to have something stable below me to start with. It's a bit like I am sitting on a wobbly chair on top of pile of crap right now.

I look to my left and see that a beautiful river is flowing through the nearby part of neighborhood. There is also a small waterfall in the middle of it, too small, but inspiring enough. I want to go down there, I have no idea how and where I but get and reach to this branch and once again use the tree branch swinging method of moving. I swing forward and land exactly where I wanted to - down where the river is. I start thinking about turning this into Angel Falls. The river starts to change and at some point I find myself right in the middle of it, observing how the now dark water flows down a slope. There are dark rocks as well, and the current is way too fast, so I feel kind of uncomfortable being in the water. Somehow though I am dry and not moving with the current? This is not quite like what it is supposed to be and I concentrate on the landscape to cut off the water and make it flow into an abyss just ahead of me. Despite my efforts the river changes just a bit. I get it, it is just not working right now and I also become tired so give up. The thought quickly flashes that I might try to turn the end of the river flow into a beach, but now lack the mood for that. I begin reviewing other tasks I have memorized but the the dream ends just as I go through them.

I am now in my bed and a bit pissed off that the dream didn't just continue into another scene, and I have so much awareness of my body. I nevertheless remain still, nervously waiting until something like a proper DEILD happens.

DILD2: The beginning of this is very vague. I think I just appeared somewhere and held on to this DC for stabilization. The next thing I know, the dream is much more stable and I am walking down the street with the male DC to my left, holding his hand in a friendly way (I think this is the stabilization residual). I am quite happy and for some reason conclude this is Xanous. I can't remember much of this part of the dream, just that we walk down the street of a European looking town, talking about something. OB is also involved either in my thoughts or mentioned in the conversation.

We are facing a closed metal gate plus fence and the male DC turns to the left to go the part where there is no fence at all. I then tell him, why don't we just phase through the fence, this is a dream after all. So, we go back and walk straight through the fence. I easily pass as if there is nothing there at all, but the DC has a bit of difficulty going through, he emerges but it looks like it has caused him some discomfort. I feel guilty for making him do this and begin apologizing. He doesn't look much like Xanous at this point - brown hair and wider face, but it's him in my mind. He seems quite independent for a DC, but that may be just me. We then continue our walk through the city.

At some point, I feel the dream is beginning to destabilize, but I don't want to share it with Xanous as not to mess his stability or something like that. I just walk further forward, rubbing my hands and hop walking for a while. The dream stabilizes and I am really happy about it. He is to my left again, this time with copper hair and tall. I start talking and notice how clear my voice sounds. But even as I talk, I almost immediately forget everything I say. The only thing I remember is "do you think this will work out" and point at me and him? Then I feel embarrassed this might be understood the wrong way and add "I mean this shared dreaming thing". I finally remember that I was supposed to do a gesture and share the passcode but before I could do anything the dream ends.

Micro-ld: I am back in a town of my past, in the place I used to live. Bf is also there. The thought that I am not supposed to be there anymore crosses my mind, but I come up with the explanation that I am now just visiting the town? I look around in the room and conclude that everything looks like it is real life and not like in dreams where there are all kinds of objects that don't really belong to this room, even though it really doesn't. I see that the windows are very dirty and this makes me think that the neighbors have been throwing drinks from McDonalds at the windows. Soon I see the neighbors throwing drinks. I want to threaten them with the police, but fear revenge, so decide just to call the cops to get them. I also complain to bf about it.

It looks like we are leaving the place next day (Sunday) and I need to take some stuff. I can't remember much detail here, but I look around the place, and there are neatly arranged flowers in the yards nearby, which look similar to dreams about the place I had and not real life.

Then I am in the city center, maybe doing last min shopping, I have no idea. On one of the familiar streets, I look inside a strangely shaped car and see a guy with semi-finished and a purple? demonic face. He gives me an evil look and I become lucid and begin to sway the car back and forth, my intention is to lift it and move it, which I do. I make it turn over and leave it like that for a moment, thinking about some more mischief. In the meantime it changes color and shape. I have the strong desire to try to lift the car as high as possible and then send it flying in the air like a balloon. I concentrate on it and lift it quite high but there is some resistance, I send thoughts that all of the people on the street are also doing this task which makes it easier. I am holding the car in the air for quite a while, until it becomes harder, but I still keep my gaze on it. It has become a round large piece of smashed black metal that is dissolving /dematerializing in the air. Witnessing the dissolution of the object is very interesting, it happens gradually and the object loses its physical properties, becoming more of an energy and I also see aura-like glow around the edges - green and red. The dream ends.

I wake up, think briefly about the ld and then fall asleep which makes me forget it. Noises, distractions and final sleep attempts.

Micro-ld: I can't remember the beginning of the dream/let. There is a very interesting sun clock in the sand of some sort of a pot in the park. I am playing with the sand, thinking about lucidity and stabilization? Then I continue walking down the lane when a DC guy looks me with some sort of irritation and I become lucid. I realize that I am finally in the dream as if just entered a dreamlet and feel very floating/unstable. For some reason, I keep repeating my DSs as a mantra and also grab the guy's T-shirt and move along with him, but he wants to move on his own so he is staring at me annoyed. I let him go and see my mom ahead of me, carrying flashlight which is on and the light looks more like the ray of sun shining on all the dust in the park. Very cool effect. The dream falls apart and I wake up.

Comments: I am happy on this occasion there wasn't too much B6 related agression with the exception of a few bad looks from DCs which helped me achieve lucidity.

3. [non-lucid]
I am trying to figure out what floor the car park is on so I go find the lift and press the call button then get in the lift and press the level 2 button.
The doors open at level 2 so I reverse out of the lift, the lift doors close, I then realize that I got out at the wrong side and now stuck...so I press the call button and wait for the lift to come back, the lift doors open so I drive through the lift and out the other side.
OK I'm on level 2 properly this time, I think I am in a cafeteria or something, It's the wrong floor so I turn around and to my surprise there is like 4 other guys in wheelchairs waiting for the fucking lift (the lift is only big enough for 1 wheelchair) so of course I waited for I don't know how long, the lift finally arrives and I enter it.

August 12, 2013

Notes: 30 day lucid challenge - set intention for the night - dream goal is to apply the lessons of my dream dragon. Actually, I asked my dream dragon to help me realize that I am dreaming. Usually when I ask this I dream of one of two things - work or a nasty toilet.

Its Not Time for Work!
Dragon's Lessons Applied
I get to work, unlock the door and my boss was already waiting inside. We haven't even turned on the lights yet when a herd of customers barge in. That's when I realize the timing is all wrong - its like 6am! I'm not supposed to be at work and were not even supposed to be open.

I start to explain to the customers that 'were not open' and 'please come back when we are' as nicely as possible. But then, boss is like 'well I guess we can make an exception!'

Oh hell no! Its hours before I have to go to work, I'm not gonna be here all day..! I run out before my boss orders me around.

Its still very dark outside. As I walk back to my car I notice a group of guys behind me. Some of them were the customers who were just in our store. But I noticed they had a weird device in their hands and they were looking at the parked cars suspiciously.

'No, not that one' one of them says

Just as I pull out the keys to my car and beep the alarm - the boys had surrounded my car. Oh no. They are car thieves. But worse yet, I'm catching them in the act. The bigger guy looks at me, as Im holding my keys, like I'm fresh meat for him to pound.

One of the guys leaps out in front of me protectively as if to say 'dont bother her!'

The big guy gripes back "Why are you protecting her? Get the job done!"

I didn't know what to do. There's five of them and one of me. Or worse, what are they going to do to me? I started to think that maybe it was better if I just offered them sex if they promised to leave my car alone so I can at least provide an income. But they were probably going to gang rape me anyways and not care to keep any promise. It was too much for me to handle so I just closed my eyes....and wished this scene away.

I wake up back on my bed, and look at the time, its time to get ready for work. I'm walking to work (lol what car?) when I notice walking besides me - was a herd of teachers.

Each teacher had a shopping cart filled with random supplies. I first I don't mind them, until we all stop at the same place - my work. Damn, they're customers!

I look at the time again, wait a minute its not time for work! I explain to the ladies 'we wont be open for another hour or so'. They ask me if they can at least leave their shopping carts inside, 'you see' they explain 'these are the school kits and we need to go over some items with your boss'

'Alright' I was just about to unlock the door and let their shopping carts in, when I can hear my boss' loud voice all the way from the back of the store. And I could already hear it in the back of my mind 'Ring them up!'

Forget that! I ditch the teachers and their shopping carts and just run in the opposite direction! Some where along the way I passed by my sister, who is also a teacher.

I hid inside a private office building thats only open to us employees. Its still so early so theres no one here, but thank God customers don't bother us in this building. I walk around the office building for a while, wondering what's behind every door, privy only to managers and ceo's. I climb the staircase and look down.

I get this funny dreamy feeling. I jump and start to float! I am dreaming! And then I slowly rationalized "well...if im dreaming..then...I dont have to go back to work!" Freedom! I dump my purse, I take off my jacket and kick off my shoes and fly out the building.

I proceed with my dream goal, following the lessons of my dream dragon. I start with the objects closest to me. Bricks, rocks, flowers, a rose bud. At first it was hard to see because I have glasses on. When I tried to take them off it made my vision even worse. But then I rationalized "I dont even own a pair of glasses so why do I need them in the dream?". I take off the glasses again and now I can see clearly.

I was bored with my dream goal so I start to fly around instead. The place was beautiful, it looks like the riverwalk without all the annoying tourism. I fly into a diner but then my dream becomes unstable and I wake up.

Monday 8/12/13

Last night bed around 1am - 8:30am

DR 1 - I'm flying ovet the ocean. Some voice is saying that the birds I'm seeing live on the rock pile I have just flew over. I stop in mid-air and look behind me. Really, there is a rock pile, maybe 30 feet in diameter, sticking out of the ocean.

I look around, trying to figure out which way to go. I have a feeling it's that way, but there are only clouds there. I look in front of me and in the distance, very tall cliffs rise up from the water. I realize that's Boston where I'm suppose to go.

I start flying that way. Ocean has all different colors. Darker blues, and light ones. I'm looking around and I like the colors very much. Waves are not tall, but choppy.

As I come closer to the clifs, I start flying straight up to go over them. I can do that with ease and I'm a bit surprised. Clouds seem like after the storm, broken up, and late afternoon sun is shining through them at low angle.

An airplane flys just little bit higher than I'm. Now I'm over the ground. Looks like country side. There is a huge contraption ahead of me. Basic shape is that of a teleskope. But it's made of orange steel bars. As I'm watching, it shoots out 2-3 salvos of some kind of a yellow beem. At first I think it's to communicate with aliens. Since I have already turned to the right, I look back at it and trying to see what will happen, because I Iave a feeling something will happen. Like maybe it was doing something to the clouds or the atmosphere.

DR 2 - I'm in a building with a large automatic garage door. (Breaking bad last night)

DR 3 - Somebody has a snake. It's very long and skinny, whip type.

DR 4 - I'm in my home town, on the corner with large intersection, at night.

These dreams vere all very detailed, with lots of colors.

I almost had something there, but then I lost it. I think it was something about a cabin.

Nothing here, move along now.

Nothing really.

[HR][/HR]
This was a short non-lucid but powerful and funny dream. I'm sitting outside with some friends, and it's a nice sunny day. I find some kind of remote control on the table, and my friend tells me that this is a "wind controller". It has a dial where you can adjust wind strength. Now being someone who loves wind, I turn the dial way up. It doesn't seem to work... but about 5 seconds later an ENORMOUS gust of wind comes along, I mean like tornado-type strength, it moves everyone as well as the tables and chairs. I feel the wind on my face, creating this AMAZING feeling, and I actually have to gasp for air because of the wind. However it's extremely strong so I turn the dial back, and the wind stops. Sadly, the dream ends here, and I didn't have time to experiment more. The wind felt really incredible, as it always does in my dreams.

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was at home and was talking to someone and he was saying something about that i should not think about something to have more chances for it to show up.

Dream 2(fragment):

Was some discussion in dragon forum chat.

Dream 3(fragment):

I am in my room i realize that i am dreaming but then i wake up, twice.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was searching some anime on some site and came across some warhammer 40k themed anime and then there was some other anime which for some reason was using very retro 3D graphics.

Dream 5(fragments):

I was at home and there was some talk about rain and that i apparently can predict future or something like that, then a red dragon appeared and started flying in the direction of my house, then some dude appeared and knocked him out somewhere out of view range, i got worried and shouted at that dude angrily and was about to go out and check, but then i noticed small cyan dragon in the distance, it was flying to here as well and then stopped at certain distance. Suddenly some anime characters appeared and there was discussion about something, then i noticed that that small dragon was already here, but strangely now his head was somewhat cat-like and he had fur.
Then some cutscene started showing completely different place, some dark forest and background voice explaining that many creatures that people think don't exists actually do exists, then cutscene zoomed in to some kind of base where a few huge and strong grey skinned humanoid creatures were walking around.